Pod Insights Dumb Blonde Ask, Tell, Confess: Did I Really Make $100,000 In One Night? About this episode On this episode of Ask, Tell, Confess, the Coven opens up about the real-life struggles that shaped them—dyslexia, autism, and deep-rooted trauma. Meme gets honest about having to rewatch and reread things just to fully process information, while Bunnie shares how those challenges don’t define your future.
The conversation takes a wild turn as Bunnie answers questions inspired by her book—including the jaw-dropping amount she made in a single night ($100,000) and the complicated family dynamics she’s navigated along the way. From chaos to clarity, this episode dives into growth, resilience, and what it really takes to take control of your life.
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0:21 Speaker 00 I can't read.
0:23 Bunnie XO? He said I'm dyslexic. It looked right.
0:26 Speaker 00 It looks great to me. You know, I learned something the other day about dyslexia because I never understood why I can't remember like,
0:37 Speaker 00 like, I admire the fact that both you guys can quote movies and I can't quote movies. Like I.
0:44 Bunnie XO? Isn't that ADD, though?
0:46 Speaker 00 No, so like it's a natural comprehension. It's just you comprehending something that you enjoyed. And I didn't know that in dyslexia, you can't actually fully comprehend things without watching it like multiple times. And I was never a kid to like, watch a movie four or five times. And they said that that was like, I never knew that. I just thought I was someone that just couldn't remember shit. And they said, no, that's actually like, you would have to comprehend that by watching it like, like how I, how I read things, you know, I'll have to read something like four or five times to fully understand it. And they said, it's the same thing with movies. I just thought dyslexia was reading only, and I didn't know it had to do with like music and everything like that.
1:27 Bunnie XO? Ah, but you listen, you love music, though, don't you?
1:30 Speaker 00 I love music, but I don't understand music.
1:32 Bunnie XO? Oh.
1:33 Speaker 00 Yeah. So like just the other day, you guys, this is gonna sound so stupid, but like, uh, I don't hear words in music. It's more of like, it's a collective thing. So I don't know what songs are about. I have to listen to it so many times to even be able to tell you what the song is about. I just learned the other day that, uh, Don't Rock the Jukebox was literally about, don't put rock and roll on the jukebox.
1:54 Bunnie XO? Yeah, I don't listen to songs for the lyrics, like how people are like, your lyrics changed my life. I, I will sing a full song and not.
2:03 Speaker 00 Couldn't even tell you what it's about.
2:04 Bunnie XO? Yeah. So my weird thing about music is I will love the shit out of a song and like the lyrics and the melody and all that stuff. I'm a lyric person, but I won't know who the singer is. Like I couldn't tell you who the lead singer of Breaking Benjamin is. You know, like.
2:21 Speaker 02 Can't know what they look like.
2:23 Bunnie XO? Exactly. You know, like I just never know.
2:26 Speaker 00 I always thought that was really cool because like you will listen to a new song and you're like, oh, that lyric. And I'm like, I didn't even hear that lyric. I don't even know what you're talking about, but you, you listen to words so well. Your comprehension of words is wild to me.
2:37 Bunnie XO? It's my autism. Are we ever going to get an autism person on here?
2:41 Speaker 00 Yeah, there's a guy that wants to come on now that we're back like unsettled here. Our schedule tied aligned in the beginning of the year, but he's like a local that like really loves your podcast too.
2:50 Bunnie XO? Love that. Hello, friends. We have been recording this entire time. Welcome back to another episode, Jason Leave It All In of Ask, Tell, Confess.
3:07 Speaker 00 Short and sweet.
3:07 Bunnie XO? Staccato.
3:09 Speaker 00 A what?
3:09 Bunnie XO? Staccato.
3:10 Speaker 00 I thought that was a wine.
3:12 Bunnie XO? Staccato. I thought staccato meant like it's stacked.
3:14 Speaker 00 Short.
3:15 Bunnie XO? Oh.
3:15 Speaker 00 Just a good short note.
3:17 Bunnie XO? I like that. I was in band. Is it Allegro that I'm thinking of that makes it like?
3:23 Speaker 00 Is it a sleep medicine?
3:24 Speaker 02 I don't know that one. I just remember staccato.
3:27 Bunnie XO? I like it. So yeah, Mimi was just giving us a lesson on dyslexia that you guys heard about.
3:33 Speaker 00 It's crazy. I had no idea. I didn't know how many things it like. I, I to this day, I didn't even know I had dyslexia for the longest time because I assumed the way that they described dyslexia was that you actually saw jumbled up letters.
3:47 Bunnie XO? Or backwards, like that every time I think about like dyslexia, I think about people who read backwards.
3:52 Speaker 00 Yeah, that's a myth. They're like, yeah, maybe like five percent actually.
3:56 Bunnie XO? Wow.
3:56 Speaker 00 Yeah, that's like, that's such.
3:57 Bunnie XO? So you see the word, you just in your head, say it wrong?
4:01 Speaker 00 So it's the comprehension. Yeah. So it's like.
4:04 Bunnie XO? Retaining of information.
4:06 Speaker 00 It's the retention of like what you're trying to consume, but even then, yeah, there are many words like.
4:12 Bunnie XO? It's frustrating.
4:13 Speaker 00 Oh, it's so fucking frustrating.
4:14 Bunnie XO? Isn't that like a, wouldn't that be, wouldn't just then people don't come for me. This is a genuine question. Wouldn't that dyslexia be a form of dementia? Because you're not being able to retain information in your brain?
4:28 Speaker 00 No, so I can retain, but I retain it differently.
4:31 Bunnie XO? Okay.
4:32 Speaker 00 So I can retain it really well in other ways and not like it's how you retain it. So like me, if someone physically is showing me how to do it, I'm going to retain it so well. Versus like how I retain like a paragraph. Or like, and I learned songs like or movies and stuff like that is like, I don't retain the movie. The same way you would like you or you would like you would watch that movie and you would enjoy it. And like you would remember a line from the movie. I remember a form of it, but I don't remember it. Like you would, cause like, I don't know if you've ever noticed, if I say a movie quote wrong, she under her breath. Will like say it correctly.
5:15 Bunnie XO? I like has her autism.
5:17 Speaker 02 Yeah, because like it has to be the same pitch and the same like.
5:21 Speaker 00 Yeah.
5:22 Speaker 02 I remember everything like I've been quoting movies since I was little, me and my brother do that. I got that from my dad, like I will quote it, but it has to be the exact same tone, pitch. Like breaths in between, like, I don't know.
5:36 Bunnie XO? Yeah.
5:37 Speaker 02 Bother me.
5:37 Bunnie XO? No, I get it.
5:38 Speaker 02 Correct you if you do it wrong.
5:39 Bunnie XO? I'm like that when I read the Bible. I have the hardest time retaining information when it comes to the Bible or if I'm in school. Put me in a fucking classroom environment, I won't learn anything.
5:51 Speaker 00 Yeah.
5:51 Bunnie XO? If I don't enjoy it, I do not soak it up, like I can't soak it up. So I wonder if that's a form of.
5:57 Speaker 02 Have you seen the interpretations of the Bible? Like you can get like a, like they have one that's in like girl code and stuff.
6:04 Speaker 00 Oh, that's so funny.
6:06 Speaker 02 Gen Z Bible.
6:06 Speaker 00 I would do great with that.
6:08 Speaker 02 I would get it more.
6:09 Speaker 00 shorthand.
6:09 Speaker 02 Anytime I listen to like my pastor preaching the Bible, I'm lost. I don't know what, I don't know what you're saying.
6:16 Bunnie XO? Yeah, the King James Version, I'm, I'm trying to figure it out. Although I do love a good Psalm. I'm still in the beginning chapters. I haven't graduated into the depths of Psalm, cause I can't get through it. Psalms, but I literally, anytime I try to like, listen to the Bible, it's like spiritual warfare in my head. I just cannot.
6:37 Bunnie XO? Retain it.
6:38 Speaker 00 Yeah.
6:38 Bunnie XO? But I can listen to Joyce Myers or like our girl Pastor Kim preach all day long and retain it. Listen to one of her sermons this morning when I was doing my faster cardio, you know, so.
6:49 Speaker 00 Yeah, it's how you retain.
6:50 Bunnie XO? Yeah.
6:51 Speaker 00 That's cool. Yeah, I feel like it just takes what works best for you.
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8:21 Bunnie XO? Well, guys, we are back in action and there was a post that I had put on Facebook a couple of weeks ago where you guys had like a bunch of questions about the book. So we're going to spend the remainder of this Ask, Tell, Confess answering all of your questions for the book. And then are we going to drop the pod with Bill? I need to edit it a little bit more. I was so nervous interviewing my dad and this is back in the day when I was not as great at interviewing as I am now. And I really, I watched that podcast and I just cringed because I'm like, God, I blew an opportunity of a lifetime interviewing my own father. And I just.
8:59 Speaker 00 Well, didn't you say also like you, you didn't want to like? Like rustle any feathers too?
9:05 Bunnie XO? Yeah, because we fight all the time. So it's like if I rustle any feathers and I wouldn't hear from my dad for a year. You know, so it's like I had to really walk on eggshells in that podcast, but we're gonna release it, right? We should release it sometime this week after this Astal Confess.
9:19 Speaker 00 That would be great.
9:20 Bunnie XO? Yeah. Um, so do you guys wanna look at, look at, look at the post and we'll start asking some questions? Alright, cool. I do know that there, there was um, a post that had happened that somebody had posted about um, how much money I made a night. Um, and there was a lot of people who were like, I don't believe that she got paid a hundred thousand dollars. Somebody said, um, you know, she openly admits that she was an addict and um, why would anybody pay that amount of money for an addict? And I was like-
9:56 Speaker 00 What a strange thing to say.
9:58 Bunnie XO? I was like, first of all, if you're in that industry and you're a millionaire, times whatever, most of those men are addicts themselves.
10:08 Speaker 00 Mm-hmm.
10:08 Bunnie XO? You don't realize how many men that are CEOs are addicts. And I need to clarify to you guys, I didn't make that every fucking night.
10:18 Speaker 00 Right. You were asked the question, what was the most amount that you had made in one night? And that's what you answered.
10:25 Bunnie XO? Exactly.
10:25 Speaker 02 Not every night.
10:26 Bunnie XO? Exactly. And I actually kind of like held back because technically, if you think about it, if I had a sugar daddy that gave me three hundred thousand dollars in a span of like a year, and I only spent the night at his house one time, that is me making three hundred grand in one night, technically. I mean, there's just so many technicalities, but like, the, the people who are like, oh, her story is fabricated, or she's embellished her story. I literally have witnesses for every part of my life-
10:59 Speaker 00 Mm-hmm.
11:00 Bunnie XO? That are very vocal online, one being an ex-husband who knows everything about me, who has literally corroborated all of my stories because he saw how much money I fucking made.
11:11 Speaker 00 Yeah.
11:11 Bunnie XO? He's, he was running scams on sugar daddies with me. Um, you know, I, I wish I could make, if I was gonna make up stuff about my life, it would have been way fucking cooler. Cause I don't think my story is that cool, you know? And I, and I'm not saying-
11:27 Speaker 00 I know.
11:27 Bunnie XO? But I'm not saying that because I want people to be like, yes, your story's so cool, like- I genuinely feel like, one, there are people who have been through way worse trauma than I ever have, you know, and I also feel like there are people who have been through way worse life experiences than I have. I just simply told my story the only way I know how, and I've been telling these same exact stories for years. If you listen to the podcast, nothing has ever changed.
11:55 Speaker 02 Yeah.
11:56 Bunnie XO? It's always been the same. So I don't know what to tell you.
12:00 Speaker 02 It's just new people.
12:01 Speaker 00 Yeah, it is. Yeah.
12:03 Speaker 02 Not knowing that you've already said this five plus years ago.
12:06 Bunnie XO? Literally, like I have always said the same shit. I think I did a podcast that was my fifth episode um, called I Was A High Price Call Girl, and I literally tell some of these.
12:18 Speaker 00 That's how I found out that you were a call girl.
12:22 Bunnie XO? What? What?
12:24 Speaker 00 I'd been doing your hair. I didn't know what you did.
12:28 Speaker 02 I honestly, I don't think I knew what you did either when I first did your makeup.
12:34 Speaker 02 I don't know when I found out. I never.
12:36 Speaker 00 You had two phones.
12:38 Speaker 02 I got two phones under the plug, under the hose.
12:43 Speaker 00 You would sit in my chair and you just had two phones. I just assumed you had two phones. No, I think it was I deadass, I almost a hundred percent found out when you dropped that podcast. And I think I was talking to like Fifi and she was like, did you watch the new podcast? And I was like, no. And she was like, oh, she talks about being a call girl. And I was like, she's a what?
13:02 Bunnie XO? Fuck.
13:02 Speaker 02 That's funny.
13:04 Speaker 00 That was when I found out. It was like a year after I had met you.
13:07 Bunnie XO? That is so funny. Well, I mean, you know, it's not something you go around. I, unless somebody says, what do you do for a living? I never would tell anybody.
13:15 Speaker 02 I think I just thought you were a model. Oh, on Instagram.
13:18 Speaker 00 Yeah, no, same.
13:19 Speaker 02 Because that was my first seeing of you was on that red car, on the red Mustang. It was my first time seeing you and I was like, I want to do her makeup. She's hot.
13:29 Speaker 00 Wait.
13:30 Speaker 02 Oh, with. Yes. Yeah, I saw it on his Instagram story. So just imagine if I wouldn't have watched his story that day, though.
13:37 Bunnie XO? That's crazy. I know. It's just crazy. It's all serendipitous, but that's fucking hilarious.
13:42 Speaker 00 Yeah.
13:42 Bunnie XO? I never know. We, we didn't talk about that. That's so crazy.
13:45 Speaker 00 There were like, we just. We just became friends and it was like you would come sit in my chair every few weeks. And then I literally thought you were just a model.
13:56 Bunnie XO? That's hilarious.
13:57 Speaker 00 Yeah.
13:58 Bunnie XO? That is so fucking funny. Well, yeah, I know I didn't go around announcing it, but if somebody asked me what I did for a living, I was always very honest with them. Like if anybody was like, what do you do for a living? I'd be like, well,
14:09 Bunnie XO? I, uh, yeah. Your dad.
14:18 Bunnie XO? I did your dad for a living. No, I didn't say that. But you know, I was just very honest about it. Like, hey, I have sugar daddies and I'm a webcam girl. Or, you know, like I do a lot of online stuff because I did. That's how I booked my clients was online. So I just always kept it honest.
14:32 Speaker 00 That's crazy. You know, thinking back now, it makes sense. It makes sense. Yeah. All right.
14:42 Bunnie XO? Yeah, same. Our first photo shoot should have clicked for.
14:45 Speaker 00 Yeah.
14:45 Bunnie XO? I meant fucking, I'm naked and lingerie.
14:48 Speaker 00 But I just thought you did sexy pictures.
14:51 Speaker 02 Porn stars makeup. So like that, it wasn't anything like out of the ordinary for me. I've done everyone, everyone's makeup. So it didn't like rock me.
15:01 Bunnie XO? Yeah.
15:01 Speaker 02 You know, I just like, didn't know that's what you did.
15:04 Bunnie XO? Yeah. Well, and here we are.
15:06 Speaker 02 Here we are.
15:07 Bunnie XO? Look at, look at where the hoot got us.
15:09 Speaker 02 Yeah.
15:10 Bunnie XO? Not, not really. Our hard work got us here, but definitely sex, sex work got my online following and then built the beginning of the podcast. And then.
15:21 Speaker 00 Yeah, I remember the turning point and you said, I'm going to stop posting my ass as much.
15:26 Bunnie XO? And I did.
15:27 Speaker 00 All right. And you did. You really like, it was quick.
15:30 Bunnie XO? Yeah. You know, that's another thing. Somebody said, um, I don't believe that she just woke up one day and stopped taking Xanax. I don't believe that she was really addicted. My personality is if I don't want to do something anymore, I will literally flip a switch like that. And it is done.
15:48 Speaker 00 And it's with anything.
15:50 Bunnie XO? It's with anything.
15:50 Speaker 00 If you're done, you're done.
15:51 Bunnie XO? That's a perfect example of whenever I was like, you know what? I'm going to stop taking sexy photo shoots and I'm just going to change my content up. I literally, you can see it. If you go all the way back in my Instagram shit, you can see literally where it's like naked pictures, naked pictures, naked pictures.
16:07 Speaker 02 Clothes.
16:07 Bunnie XO? Content. And it just changes.
16:09 Speaker 00 It was so wild.
16:10 Bunnie XO? Literally a testament to who I am as a person. With everything that I do and I did quit Xanax cold turkey. Do I recommend it? Absolutely not. Was it the worst fucking thing I ever had to go through? Absolute no, I've actually gone through a lot of stuff. Was it very hard to go through? Absolutely. I would literally used to live in hospital rooms. The only way that I got through that the Xanax withdrawal was um with children's Benadryl. Do not listen to me. Do not take doctor advice from me. I'm just telling you exactly what I had to do to get through it. Um, stopping Xanax can make you have seizures.
16:51 Bunnie XO? It can do a ton of stuff to you. I am thankful and lucky that I was not one of those people that that happened to. Um, but yeah, I literally looked at my husband. We were on the Yellow Wolf Trial, Trial by Fire tour. And I looked at my husband, I said, I don't want this stuff in my bloodstream anymore. And he was like, buddy, you're not going to be able to not take Xanax. Cause he saw what a bundle of nerves I was. And I was like, okay, watch me. Like anytime my husband says I can't do something.
17:15 Speaker 00 Oh.
17:18 Bunnie XO? It is my favorite thing to do. Like I love to give him, just make him eat his words. And I don't know why, because we don't have that type of relationship. But it's like, it's almost like, oh, you don't believe in me? Okay, cool. I got this.
17:30 Speaker 00 Yeah. Cause he said the same thing about podcasting. He's like, we'll see how long you stick to it. And you said.
17:34 Bunnie XO? Yeah. I was like, bet. I got you. Yeah. Cause he was just like, you're not going to stick with podcasting. And I was just like, um, we'll see. Here we are.
17:43 Speaker 00 Look at me now.
17:44 Bunnie XO? Look at me now, buddy. Now you're telling me, do you want me to retire? I'm like, just because you want to retire, doesn't mean I want to fucking retire.
17:51 Speaker 00 He said, all right, that's enough.
17:52 Bunnie XO? All right. Who wants to ask the first question?
17:54 Speaker 00 Um, I want to ask the first question because this got asked multiple times. They want to know if you, um, and I know that this is kind of like a weird way to question it, but. Did you cut anything out of the book that you didn't want in there? Because I know once it got sent to the editing side of things, that's where that changed.
18:13 Bunnie XO? Yeah. No, I don't think I cut anything out of the book. I put so much into the book that I could have probably had an, I could probably write another book about like situations in my life. So, no, I didn't cut anything, but the editors did. The editors cut so much. Like there's, I have to ask you, I text you, I'm like, hey, did this make the book? Because I can't even remember.
18:33 Speaker 00 Yeah, you read so many versions of it that you almost forget what, or you, and like things that you've lived through and that sort of thing that I even sometimes have to be like, wait, let me go search the final copy. Cause like even in my phone, I have like seven copies of the book. And then you have to go to the final and be like, did that even make it? That, you know, you just did that the other day. You're like, did that part make it into the book? And I'm like, no, it actually didn't.
18:55 Bunnie XO? Yeah, yeah. So, no, I didn't cut anything, but you know, the editors did. And listen, they did a great fucking job because people are still buying the book. So.
19:05 Speaker 00 A hundred percent.
19:05 Bunnie XO? Yeah, Carrie's fucking amazing.
19:07 Speaker 00 We find out tomorrow.
19:08 Bunnie XO? We're still number one, five weeks on New York Best Time Seller List. And then we find out tomorrow if we made it to the sixth. Who's got a question? Go ahead, Haley.
19:17 Speaker 00 I got one.
19:18 Bunnie XO? Okay.
19:18 Speaker 02 Um, has anyone from your past reached out to you and apologized? When's the last time you spoke to baby sis?
19:28 Bunnie XO? That's crazy. She's actually been texting me this week and I won't reply to her. I just have no, I really meant it when I said, everything that's in that book, I'm leaving behind. And I did, like, I don't want to revisit it. I don't want to talk about it. Once we're done, once it's done, you know, doing its thing. I just don't want to associate with any of the, any negativity from that book. Now, people from my past, yeah, Mateo has reached out to me. He said he read it. He loved it. He's always been so fucking supportive. I love that dude. Polly is fucking one of my biggest fans. I love him to death. Polly wants to come on the podcast so bad, guys.
20:11 Speaker 00 It was great.
20:12 Bunnie XO? He wants to come on the podcast so bad. So if you guys want Polly on the podcast, so you can actually hear real stories of, you know, shit that we used to do together, let me know. We might consider it.
20:24 Bunnie XO? Has anyone apologized?
20:25 Bunnie XO? Has anyone apologized? No. I mean, why would they? They would have to admit wrongdoing. And they would have to feel guilt if they ever did. And I didn't write the book for people to have to reach out to me and apologize. I'm fine with not getting the apology that I deserved because I've literally done everything I've wanted to do in life. And if it wasn't for the hurt and the pain that I went through, I wouldn't have forged through everything that I did. So I'm thankful for all the lessons that were sent to me and I don't need the apologies. I've been needing new glasses forever and it's just one of those things I keep putting off. So I finally went on Zenni to pick out a new pair. I'm going with these black rectangle glasses that are really similar to the ones I already
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23:14 Bunnie XO? Okay.
23:16 Speaker 05 So you wrote the book for you. What's the, like, who's this book for? People always ask you, like, why'd you write the book? Yada, yada, yada. But like, if you were to paint the picture of the avatar for this person to read, like, who's this book for?
23:32 Bunnie XO? This book is for anybody who's ever had trauma inflicted on them that they didn't ask for. And I know a lot of people get stuck in victim mentality. And it's very easy to do. I've caught myself doing it a few times. And instead of, I've said it before, we're not responsible for the trauma that's inflicted on us, but we are responsible with how we deal with it. And I truly hope that this book can show people, like, it doesn't matter how many people told you that you're never going to amount to anything. It doesn't matter if your parents didn't love you properly. It doesn't matter if, you know, you got beat up by a boyfriend, which, you know, nobody should ever have to go through domestic violence.
24:15 Bunnie XO? But it doesn't mean that you have to still be that person that was in any of those situations. You can change so many versions of yourself throughout life. Look at Madonna. She's literally reinvented herself and she's fucking like 70 now, right? Yeah. With a face, how many fucking facelifts has Madonna had? I need to know. Because fuck, like, I would love to sit down with Madonna. Jay Shetty just did, and I was, that was the first podcast that I was just so jealous of. I was like, damn, I wanted that one. But yeah, you can change. All the versions of yourself to become who you want to be. And it doesn't matter if you want to change yourself every fucking year to evolve and to grow and to be the human that you want to be.
24:56 Bunnie XO? That's who this book is for, is for the people who need that extra push and that extra reassurance of knowing that they're going to be okay. And that shit happens, life happens, but that doesn't mean that you have to let it, you know, make you a sour person.
25:15 Bunnie XO? I like that.
25:16 Bunnie XO? Yeah. You got any more memes?
25:18 Speaker 02 Oh, yeah.
25:19 Bunnie XO? Oh, go ahead. Let's see, I'll read some too.
25:24 Bunnie XO? Somebody said, you don't need a facelift. Well, too late.
25:27 Speaker 02 That was the first comment I saw.
25:29 Speaker 00 So was any of it too painful to go through? And what about it was like the most traumatic you feel like reliving in this book? Because I know that there were times that you would write and then just kind of have to put your phone down.
25:42 Bunnie XO? Yeah.
25:44 Bunnie XO? I don't know if it was like traumatic, but it was just like, I'm so over everything that I've been through and I don't want to keep, I don't want to live there, you know? And it's like, writing the book was very cathartic, but there was times where I was just like, golly, like, you know, I think the hardest chapter for me to write was my dad's. That was like my hardest chapter because I'm still not over Bill's death.
26:12 Speaker 00 It was almost like a force processing that you weren't ready for.
26:16 Bunnie XO? Oh, I was robbed, you know? I was robbed of my dad's last moments and I just feel like the people who were around him, the minute he died, didn't deserve to be there. I feel like my dad left this earth probably more scared than he's ever been and nobody was there to comfort him. And I think, you know, just.
26:41 Bunnie XO? That chapter was really hard to write, but everything else, it was more of like exhausted from telling the story because I've been telling these stories for ever. And I think it was more of just like, ready to just get it over with. You know, and when you're writing chapters of a book, you get so consumed in it. And you're just, and I was writing this on my notes pad too. So trying to write and do voice text on my notes pad was like, it just got exhausting. And there was times that I just needed a break because I don't like tapping into anything emotional. I'm very, I'm a very cold individual. I'm, I'm very cold when it comes to past trauma. I guess you could say, I'm very warm and loving to the people in my life.
27:24 Speaker 00 I'm such a loving person.
27:25 Bunnie XO? Homie.
27:26 Speaker 00 Yeah. Okay, my guy.
27:28 Bunnie XO? I'm very warm and loving to the people in my life, but when it comes to like my old past life, I'm just very cold about it and just like matter of fact, like this is what happened. You know, and so, um, yeah, there was the chapter of my dad, but everything else, I just wanted to get it out.
27:44 Speaker 00 I do feel like with writing this also, and this is unlike other books, because when you're writing autobiography, it's, uh, it has to be very technical because you knew that this book was going to be under a microscope. People are gonna want to find flaws in it. They're gonna want to find discrepancies in it. And like you, I appreciate how particular you were with your wording even. It was like, I can't say it that way because people could assume it meant this and that's not what I meant. And so you would go in and you would rewrite these things so that it came across exactly how you meant it to be.
28:16 Bunnie XO? Yes, and I do want to, there is one discrepancy in the book that didn't get changed that I had asked to get changed was when I, the first version got written, I was talking about Whataburger in Texas. And Julia, my ghostwriter is from New York, so they have White Castle. And for some reason she thought I said White Castle when I was talking about something. And they kept White Castle in the book. And I'm like, no, like change that. I asked like three times for it to be changed and that, that just, yeah, that just slipped. But other than that, um, everything else was fucking perfect.
28:50 Speaker 00 That's crazy.
28:51 Bunnie XO? Yeah. Somebody wrote in and they said, would you ever want to have a relationship with your sisters? And the answer is no. I don't. I have tried numerous times. If you guys have not listened to the podcast where we talk about Large Marge, that's my oldest sister, who literally is on TikTok right now, which she's not talking shit, thank God. Well, she was talking shit under my, one of my ex-husband's posts and I caught that and that was, I cut her off after I paid $10,000 for her to have fucking emergency surgery, bought her every fucking thing for her brand new apartment because I was so happy she got her own apartment, paid her rent multiple times. Um, she went and talked shit about me again, under one of my ex's,
29:32 Bunnie XO? it was like my birthday and she's like, oh, I forgot on purpose. And I was just like, bitch, I, you know, like, what the fuck?
29:40 Speaker 00 Yeah, I was like, come on.
29:42 Bunnie XO? Come on. Like, what more can I do for you? Do I, do you want my fucking, you want to cut my skin off and wear it? You know, like, but on her, her TikTok bio right now, it says, here, I'll read it to you, verbatim, what it says, actually. So I'm not misquoted.
29:57 Speaker 00 Oh, God, I haven't seen this.
29:59 Bunnie XO? You haven't seen it? Oh, yes, I'm Marge. This is in her po, her TikTok bio. Yes, I'm Marge from Bunny XO's podcast, The Villain in Her Story, The Big Bad Christina, her very much estranged and titled big sister who is toxic.
30:19 Speaker 00 Okay, all right.
30:20 Bunnie XO? Yeah. So that's absolutely not. I do not want a relationship with her. I have tried for 30 something years to just have that girl. I've only met this woman twice in my life and have done so much for her. And I don't, when I say that I've done stuff for people, it's not to throw around the monetary face value of it. It's to say like, what more can I fucking do for you to make you happy and to make you love me properly, you know? So, um, and as far as my little sister, no, I don't want a relationship with her. I love her. She, if anybody, no human in the world can make me laugh the way that she laughs. She's so fucking funny, man, but she is just.
31:04 Bunnie XO? It's, um, I gotta choose my words wisely here. She is just, um,
31:11 Bunnie XO? I just feel like our soul contracts were, are fulfilled. And I feel like I came here to be her big sister. And she came here to be my little sister and we both taught each other lessons that family isn't always blood. I, I'm not a victim with my sister, with my little sister at all. I don't want to seem like that. Um, but she just, it's, she's not easy to get along with. She's very all over the place and I just, I don't have time for that inconsistency in my life.
31:43 Speaker 00 Doesn't serve a purpose.
31:44 Bunnie XO? No, I just don't have time for it, dude. I'm fucking old as shit. Last thing I want to do is fucking walk on eggshells around people I don't have to. Like, no, thank you.
31:54 Speaker 00 Yeah, I love, I've always respected your boundaries. When you're like, you know what? This doesn't serve me. I don't need it.
31:59 Bunnie XO? Yeah. And it takes a lot.
32:01 Speaker 00 Yeah.
32:01 Bunnie XO? I give thirty years for my older sister, thirty fucking years. I gave her so many fucking chances. And it's like, once I'm finally reached that point with people, that's it. So my little sister has texted me like three times and I just will not reply to her. She's like, I love you. Please don't block me. And I'm just like, you're not blocked, but I have nothing to say to you. We have nothing to talk about. Anybody else got any more questions?
32:27 Speaker 00 I have one.
32:27 Bunnie XO? Okay, go ahead.
32:28 Speaker 00 Okay, someone said, how did you get over surviving the trauma to living in the present without the triggers? That's a great question.
32:37 Bunnie XO? It's a really good question. I don't think I'm wired like a normal human being.
32:42 Speaker 00 No.
32:42 Bunnie XO? I don't, I don't look back and be like, oh my God, I, you know, I don't know. I just, when I'm going through trauma, I just know I have to get through it. And that's, I literally only just forge ahead. That's all I know how to do is to just keep going and never stop and try to feel or try to, you know, what I did in 2022, when I did all that therapy, um, that's when I had to stop and feel everything. And that's why I haven't done therapy since because it was a year of having to cry, having to feel things, having to just hurt. And I just don't see the purpose. I don't see the purpose in feeling sorry for myself. I can't change it.
33:22 Speaker 00 Yeah.
33:22 Bunnie XO? So what, but what can I do? I, I can't control the past, but I can. Control my future and I can uh control the outcome of how my life is and that's really all I focus on.
33:35 Speaker 00 That's incredible.
33:37 Speaker 02 It's kind of like, I feel like your past profession has kind of like helped you with that too, cuz like you don't give the men feelings and you're just through it. So I feel like that, I don't know if it helped.
33:50 Speaker 00 It was good practice.
33:51 Bunnie XO? Yeah, I think that came from having to not have emotions with my parents, though. I was always able to have separate church from state when it came. And I also think it's probably, you know, like, when you are traumatized and anybody, we've all been through trauma in this fucking room, you know, how do you respond to trauma?
34:12 Speaker 00 Hmm, it's a great question. I'm not actually sure.
34:16 Bunnie XO? How do you respond?
34:16 Speaker 02 I'm like you. I, I won't talk about it. I like, I don't like to relive it. I don't like, I cut it off. I think that's a tourist thing too.
34:25 Speaker 00 I kinda act like it doesn't exist.
34:26 Speaker 02 I cut things off and I don't.
34:27 Bunnie XO? Which is not healthy. We're not saying that this is healthy, guys.
34:30 Speaker 02 My whole family's like that, though. We won't, we don't talk about things.
34:34 Speaker 00 Yeah, it's very like.
34:36 Speaker 02 Even like when we had two deaths last year, like, we still like, we won't talk about it the next time we're all together. Like, my family's constant like laughter because that makes you forget about traumas. And I think that's why I'm very like the comedic relief is because I don't have to feel trauma or anything sad.
34:57 Bunnie XO? Yeah, I was always my dad's comedic relief, too. I was always like trying to make him smile.
35:02 Speaker 00 I can even see that in your, in like the relationship later on in life, you still, when he wasn't feeling good, you'd crack jokes and like you were, you were laughing before he was. Like, it was just like you were constantly trying to make him feel good.
35:14 Bunnie XO? Yeah, I just wanted to make him forget where he was. And I think that's how you are too. Jaime, how do you deal with trauma?
35:19 Speaker 05 Uh, not in a healthy way.
35:21 Bunnie XO? You're a cancer. You're a cancer though, so you feel all the emotions.
35:25 Speaker 05 I feel it. I feel everything and keep it all inside until it all blows up one day.
35:29 Bunnie XO? You're a serial killer type.
35:31 Speaker 00 Yeah.
35:32 Bunnie XO? He's like, one of these days I'm gonna hook Brooke up on some fucking steaks and.
35:38 Speaker 05 She's in the basement.
35:41 Bunnie XO? Right now, as we speak.
35:42 Speaker 05 Yeah, I gotta check on her. But yeah, not in a very, I also sweat a lot in my, when I'm going through something I noticed. Like I'll sweat and then I'll like, I'm also weirdly calm in very chaotic situations.
35:54 Bunnie XO? That's trauma. That's trauma response.
35:56 Speaker 05 Like, car accidents or like anything major happening, like I'm surprisingly not freaking out.
36:01 Bunnie XO? Yeah.
36:02 Speaker 05 Every car accident I've ever been in, I've always been super calm, can have a clear conversation. My voice doesn't break up. I'm clear. I'm almost like clearer than I am now when I'm in trauma response. It's weird.
36:12 Speaker 00 Yeah, no, same. I feel like big traumas, I'm more calm than small things. Like, I feel like I'm more expressive in a small situation and like an inconvenience than I am in something major.
36:24 Bunnie XO? Yeah.
36:25 Speaker 00 Like a major situation, I'm like, nope, this is how we're gonna fix it. And I'm like, super calm. It's weird.
36:31 Speaker 02 I freak out of everything.
36:33 Bunnie XO? Yeah. Yeah. Haley's burning the house down. She don't care.
36:40 Bunnie XO? Would love to hear about how Mindy and Andy are groveling since you've blown up and that you got to actually have closure with both of these bitches. Andy died. If you read the book, you would know that Andy died from a fentanyl overdose. She actually died when we were on tour. Um, and then Mindy, I haven't spoken to. So Mindy has way too much pride to ever reach out, which that could be why baby sis is reaching out. You never know. Never know. But I, I'd like to just not. Like, we don't need to rehash anything. Like, why now? Now you wanna come out of the woodwork?
37:14 Speaker 00 Yeah, now that the book's out.
37:15 Bunnie XO? Yeah, like, I'm good. I don't think there's anything we really have left to talk about. Even though Jay cheated, did you recognize that it was more about his self sabotage than it was you?
37:28 Bunnie XO? Um, it was, there's so many layers to that affair story. Yeah. I only got to tell my perspective, but you know, my husband has a crazy fucking story and I really hope one day he tells it because you guys would really know what we've been having to deal with behind the scenes all these years and like, people trying to extort us for money, uh, people trying to fucking kill him. Uh, there's just, there's a lot of crazy shit that has happened. And it's not my story to tell, but when he does write a book, I promise you guys, I'm going to make him tell the truth.
38:09 Bunnie XO? Like he has got to tell everybody and I don't know if he will, cause my husband's not wired that way, but I don't know. Now that he saw how good this book did, he might want to. They're all trying to jump on the bandwagon now. And they said, maybe we should write one. Yeah, I'm like, you know what, you little fuckers. That was funny. There's so many layers and yes, one of them was his self sabotage and also, dude, uh, it's like I say in the book, we didn't know how to have healthy relationships. We didn't know what a healthy love was. We still don't know what a healthy love was. We live our version of a healthy love, but I think everybody learns from their parents what love is. And then you have to figure it out along the way, what your version of love is. And that was just figuring out life and dude, second chances is great.
38:52 Bunnie XO? Third chances don't happen. I, although I've given my family so many fucking chances, but in love, I'm very strict when it comes to shit. Like you can hurt me one, hurt me once, shame on you. Hurt me twice, shame on me, you know? And it's like,
39:07 Bunnie XO? you, as a woman, you have to really know what you're willing to put up with and what your hard boundaries are. And every woman is different. Some people are like, I'm out the first fuck, if I think you're cheating on me and great for them. I wish I could be that strong, but I cannot.
39:24 Bunnie XO? And you know, so I just truly believe in second chances and my husband really stepped up to the plate and he's just an amazing human. I love him to death. He's just a little happy teddy bear. Oh, somebody said, when's the next whore Olympics? What a great question. I love that you've been around so long that you even know about the whore Olympics. I was actually just telling our girl, Sam, who's here sitting in, um, from Elite Customs. They're the ones who design all my cars. Um, We never.
39:55 Speaker 00 Unfortunately, that was a one time.
39:58 Bunnie XO? Didn't we do it twice?
39:59 Speaker 02 We tried to and then you had to go home for emergency and that's when we stayed in the haunted mansion.
40:05 Bunnie XO? Yep, yep, yep.
40:06 Speaker 00 We did, oh my god. We had it planned and everything. That's crazy.
40:12 Bunnie XO? I think what people need to realize is, and literally we're just having this conversation, is when I started this podcast, it was all about sex workers and I, that's the lifestyle I was in and I wanted to let everybody know that just because you were in sex work, didn't mean that you didn't have a brain and that you weren't a businesswoman and also we were having fun with the podcast, you know? The whore Olympics was a wild fucking time and shout out to fucking Lydia, Carissa, all those girls who.
40:42 Speaker 00 What's the Daisy chick?
40:43 Bunnie XO? Daisy. She's hilarious. She still DMs me.
40:46 Speaker 00 Yes.
40:46 Bunnie XO? She's still DMs me.
40:47 Speaker 00 Prison?
40:48 Bunnie XO? No, she's back. She's out now.
40:49 Speaker 00 Oh, she's out?
40:49 Bunnie XO? Yeah, she's great.
40:50 Speaker 02 I loved her.
40:51 Bunnie XO? No, I love her. She was fucking amazing. Like I've met some of the coolest women who I still have relationships with. Um, but the podcast has grown and it's become something different and I mean, even how I used to interview, I've said crazy shit. I've done crazy shit, but I have always corrected my behavior and always tried to become a better person and a better person at my craft, um, when it comes to this podcast. So it's just, you guys have literally seen me go through seasons and that's, I think what life is all about is just being able to evolve.
41:25 Speaker 00 I think what's really cool about you is like you'll start out, you know, with like the sex work and stuff like that and then you'll reach the capacity of it. You're like, okay, I completed that check. What's next? Do you know? And it's not so much that like you're, uh, like giving up on that part of it. It was like, no, I, I did all the big porn stars. Like we did the whore Olympics. Like you literally like did it all and then was like, what's my next?
41:46 Bunnie XO? TikTokers. We went to TikTokers.
41:48 Speaker 00 And then you went into like the TikToks side of things.
41:51 Bunnie XO? On the podcast because they're nothing but drama. That fucking whole app is nothing but fucking drama. Uh, and then we moved on to just elevating guests and just keep getting higher and higher and higher. So it's like, you know, it's, I think the biggest thing when it comes to this podcast is we never beat a dead horse. We know when to get in and to get out. And we don't stay there. We don't stay long enough to overstay our welcome.
42:15 Speaker 00 Yeah.
42:16 Bunnie XO? And we're always constantly trying to figure out new things and different angles, which is what you have to do, so.
42:24 Bunnie XO? All right, guys. Well, that was a fun little chat. Love you guys and thank you guys so much for the question. There's so many more. So if you guys want us to keep answering questions, just let me know in the comments and I mean, we can make another episode of this, but we're moving on to Ask, Tell, Confess now from.
42:39 Speaker 00 Oh, wait. Are you gonna sign, are you gonna do any more pop-up signings for books after you literally wiped out Walmart in an hour? What the hell, bro?
42:51 Bunnie XO? I know, it was crazy. Um, I think so. Maybe we can run around. Should we go do something after this? I have a bunch of books. We can go somewhere. I don't care. Haley's over. She's ready to go home.
43:05 Bunnie XO? We can run somewhere.
43:06 Speaker 00 A pop-up bookstore? Like, what's the one? I don't know, honey.
43:10 Bunnie XO? I don't know of any like.
43:11 Speaker 00 I thought there was like a down home one here.
43:13 Bunnie XO? Bookstores.
43:14 Speaker 00 That, I'm like, well, we'll call.
43:16 Bunnie XO? We'll figure it out. Um, but if not Thursday, I'm gonna be in Murfreesboro. We can do something in Murfreesboro.
43:23 Speaker 00 Everyone was begging Murfreesboro.
43:25 Bunnie XO? Really?
43:26 Speaker 00 You're in Murfreesboro, okay.
43:28 Bunnie XO? I need to, can we do a face on Thursday, right before doctor, you guys all wanna go to Dr. Tarola's too?
43:33 Speaker 00 Let's do it.
43:34 Bunnie XO? Mo's getting a facelift.
43:35 Speaker 00 Yeah.
43:35 Bunnie XO? All right, well, I'll go to Dr. Tarola's and then we'll just make a day of it. Yeah, we'll go do it this weekend, so. We'll do it on Thursday.
43:42 Speaker 00 I wanted a consultation with him, so I feel like that's like meant to be. All get boob consultations?
43:46 Bunnie XO? I'm gonna go in there and just be like, hey, we're all here for consultations, including me. Fat transfer. He's gonna love it, though. Dr. Tarola loves us.
43:54 Speaker 00 Yeah, I love his facility.
43:55 Bunnie XO? All right, cool. Yeah, so Thursday, we'll go sign a bunch of books and we'll let you guys know where it is. I had an idea where I wanted to do like a scavenger hunt. I love that.
44:02 Speaker 00 Can we please do it in Murfreesboro?
44:04 Bunnie XO? I have like 10 books at home that I can sign that we can hide in different places.
44:08 Speaker 00 Let's do it. Let's do it with local businesses and we can support their businesses.
44:12 Bunnie XO? Yeah.
44:13 Speaker 00 And go drop off books at like, so the people that would never have thought to go to like a local coffee shop or something can go there and they can get a coffee. Yeah, I think that'd be like all local owned businesses.
44:22 Bunnie XO? Buy a coffee and ask and give them a code word. XO.
44:26 Speaker 00 Yeah.
44:26 Bunnie XO? Yeah. I love it. We'll figure it out. We'll figure something out, but Thursday, we will do it. So this will be out the next, the day after. Right?
44:35 Speaker 00 Yeah, so they gotta go find it.
44:38 Bunnie XO? Well, we're probably gonna announce it on social media.
44:40 Speaker 00 Yeah, it'll be on Instagram, Facebook, something like that.
44:42 Bunnie XO? Well, if they didn't see it. We'll figure it out. Well, hopefully by the time you guys hear this, there's still some books left. All right. Thank you guys for tuning in. See you later. Bye.
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