Reggie Yates Reveals The Secret To Staying Driven & Reaching Your Potential

Reggie is someone that’s been on our screens for the best part of three decades. Making his first tv appearance on Desmond’s at the age of just eight years old. This would kick start a career in acting, tv presenting, radio DJ, singing and documentary film making. In the last decade, Reggie has become synonymous with critically acclaimed documentaries. His films include the BBC3 Extreme series including Reggie Yates: Extreme Russia, Extreme South Africa and Extreme UK which are all available to a worldwide audience on Netflix. In 2016, Reggie was awarded Best Presenter for the critically acclaimed Extreme Russia at the Royal Television Society Awards, Best Factual Programme at the Edinburgh TV Festival, and Best Multi-channel Programme at the Broadcast Awards. Reggie is a unique person, the journey he’s been on is one to be admired. I’m sure in this conversation today you’ll begin to understand what got him to where he is today, the factors that made him so driven and adaptable. Thank you Reggie, thank you for your honesty. Follow Reggie: Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/regyates Twitter - https://twitter.com/regyates Follow me: https://beacons.ai/diaryofaceo Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Speaker names marked ? are inferred from speaking time and the show’s known hosts — they are not voice-verified.

• 0:00Steven Bartlett?

  Reggie Yates, he's a critically acclaimed filmmaker, a writer, a director and an entrepreneur.

• 0:05Speaker 01

  First time I saw a machine gun was in my estate at like nine years old when the police were raiding a flat on my floor because there was all kinds of craziness there. I mean, you're just playing on the balcony. As a teenager presenting kids TV with Air Force Ones and a Mecha Tractor, it says something. I'm on the BBC and I'm dressed like the boys that you crossed the street from. Subsequently, you know, I've had kids come up to me, "Bro, I loved watching you because we dressed the same, we talked the same and you were doing that." And when people say things like that to strangers, it's so powerful. For me, empowering others is a huge part of my drive right now. Working with young, talented people and I love that I have that relationship with people because I never had it growing up. There was always a distance between

• 0:46Speaker 01

  me and the person that was helping guide me. Shortening that distance for me in the lives of others is what success feels like.

• 1:03Steven Bartlett?

  Reggie Yates, he's a critically acclaimed filmmaker, a writer, a director and an entrepreneur. And over the last three decades, he's been on our screens. And through that time, the world has changed, the platforms have changed and he has certainly changed. He's been involved in scandals, wild success and unfortunate failure. Reggie's work as a filmmaker is extraordinarily diverse and he's travelled across the world, meeting those that have oppressed and those that have been oppressed. And this conversation is the same, incredibly diverse. We'll touch on everything from love, relationships, struggles, family, mental health, ambition, cancel culture

• 1:43Steven Bartlett?

  and everything in between. Thank you, Reggie. Thank you for your honesty because I know that the people that are about to listen to this podcast are going to take a tremendous amount of important value from it. So without further ado, I'm Steven Bartlett and this is the Diary of a CEO. I hope nobody's listening, but if you are, then please keep this to yourself.

• 2:11Steven Bartlett?

  Reggie, um, location, environment, family, where do you come from?

• 2:19Speaker 01

  I am the child of African immigrants. Both my parents were born in Ghana and came to London as children. I was born on Tottenham Court Road, so I'm London, London, London. And I was raised in Holloway. I moved to South East London when I was 14 and at 18 I moved out. And I've been a Londoner ever since. And I say that because I've lived all over, you know, London's quite a tribal city. Between football and the club you support and the area that you're from and your connection to it, I've lived all over. And I call South London home now, even though I didn't start there and I didn't school there really.

• 2:53Speaker 01

  But I love it there and it's nice to return to the place that I spent a chunk of my teens.

• 2:57Steven Bartlett?

  So two parents from an African, from Ghana.

• 3:00Speaker 01

  Correct.

• 3:01Steven Bartlett?

  Ghana, they came here when they were?

• 3:03Speaker 01

  My mother 11, I think my dad was maybe 15 or 16.

• 3:06Steven Bartlett?

  So tell me all about that and that experience, because I know that in terms of like education and perspective on the world and all those things. From my own mom's experience, she couldn't read or write.

• 3:14Speaker 01

  Right.

• 3:15Steven Bartlett?

  So we had a ton of wars growing up because I dropped out of university after one lecture, so we didn't speak for three years. I know that African parents have a certain perspective and I know, especially from reading about how you've handled things like fame, press, drugs, alcohol and the avoidance of all of those things. I know, I feel like much of that must have come from those kind of values.

• 3:37Speaker 01

  Yeah, I'd say it's a combination of things. It's a combination of the mentors that I chose, the environment that I was in at home. And that massively comes down to culture, you know. And that's why I was really interested in your connection to Nigeria, because culturally for me, where my parents are from has informed massively in a lot of ways my outlook. And culturally, obviously, you know, when you've got West African parents who were born there, you're raised in an environment where education is everything, because as far as they're aware, that is the only way to unlock another life for yourself. My grandparents came to this country in search of a better life for not just themselves,

• 4:20Speaker 01

  but their children and ultimately us, their grandchildren. And it worked. You know, my mom got an education. I got an education to a point and weirdly, my social education and my extracurricular activities have given me a career. So more than anything, I think it's the values of an African house that have given me what I believe to be a healthy life. And I mean that in every sense of the word. People talk to me a lot about being grounded and understanding what being humble is. And I think when you've come from nothing, but at the same time, you enjoy everything. It changes your perspective on what success looks like. And that was the house that I was raised in. We celebrated every day because

• 5:05Speaker 01

  we essentially were striving to be happy. And happiness didn't come from material goods. It came from success and achievement on a level that made everybody in the house proud as opposed to what was going on outside the family home, because culture was everything.

• 5:21Steven Bartlett?

  And do you feel that, do you still feel that? And did you ever fully believe that happiness would come from success and achievement? Do you still deeply believe that?

• 5:31Speaker 01

  For me, happiness comes from being fulfilled. I think in my, at my most happiest and at my most calm, I feel like I'm able to love and I feel loved. I feel as though I am professionally and personally fulfilled. I feel as though I'm creatively fulfilled. They're the moments when I feel my most happy and they're the things that I'm chasing, if ever I was chasing anything.

• 5:55Steven Bartlett?

  And what was the, what was the kind of difference in between your mom and your dad? My mom was Nigerian.

• 5:59Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 6:00Steven Bartlett?

  I don't, I don't really have to say which, my mom was Nigerian.

• 6:02Speaker 01

  Right.

• 6:02Steven Bartlett?

  My dad was the antithesis of that. My dad was a, well, is a older white male, very passive, very, very calm, usually doesn't speak.

• 6:12Speaker 01

  Wow.

• 6:12Steven Bartlett?

  And my mom was, she can shout for seven hours at a tone you've never heard in your life without like taking a breath.

• 6:20Speaker 01

  Amazing.

• 6:21Steven Bartlett?

  So was there a huge difference between the, the sort of values or the approach of your mom and your dad that had a sort of a significant?

• 6:29Speaker 01

  Well, my dad's a musician, was, is and continues to be, but he wasn't in my life. My parents divorced when I was quite young and then my mother remarried another Ghanaian man who was also from a similar background. And in terms of who they are slash were as people, it was very different. I think I get a lot of what makes me me from my mum. My mum was incredibly social. She loved music. I've spoken about this before. She used to always cook with this Sony ghetto blaster above the cooker. And, you know, it's West African cuisine, so you're using a lot of palm oil. So there was like, the ghetto blast is so like clear in my mind, it's just covered with red oil. And like, there was, there was no cover on the tape. So you used to have to push a tape in and there was like marks on it as to where her favourite radio stations were.

• 7:14Speaker 01

  So I was raised on a diet of pirate radio and pop. And that was my mum. She's a vivacious, big, social animal. Like, I remember her 30th birthday because, you know, she had us quite young and her just went with a fag out the window, like having a little dance wherever and like turning up her favourite records. And my stepfather is not that, you know, he's not particularly social and he's, he's quite different. And his dad was in the military, so he was, I imagine, not that dissimilar to your mother, it sounds like. So there were two very different types of parenting in my house. And as I say, my biological dad wasn't present and ironically, we're probably really similar, given our, you know, our expression through creativity.

• 7:54Steven Bartlett?

  Have you, have you ever reconnected with him?

• 7:56Speaker 01

  Yeah. So I did Who Do You Think You Are? The BBC One show. Yeah. And it's, it's really interesting because they, they've started carving up episodes of the show and putting them on YouTube. And they chunked my episode into four parts. And on my father's side of the family, my biological father, they've been mixing for generations, you know, like three of my grandmothers are Mariah Carey black, you know, like they're super, super fair because there's been generations of people that are of mixed origin. And with Ghana previously being part of the British Empire and being part of the Commonwealth and Ghana finding independence in 1957, there was a huge English contingent, particularly

• 8:38Speaker 01

  in and around places like Cape Coast, when it came to trading, when it came to gold, et cetera.

• 8:44Speaker 01

  And that's part of my family legacy massively. So, you know, my mum was. bitterly disappointed after they did the research and realised that her family background, which was just one village versus my dad's side, which was lots of different people from different places in Europe, coming to Africa, remixing, so on and so forth. So when we made that show, I realised that they wanted to start the show with a conversation between he and I, talking about the family. And I hadn't seen him or spoken to him in over a decade. So we met up just before we recorded and it was, it was weird because I hadn't seen him in so long. And then when we did record, it's interesting, like the film starts with the sequence with he and I sort of chatting and he's playing thumb piano. But the last

• 9:26Speaker 01

  time we saw each other, each other was the day before. But prior to that, I was a lot younger. So yeah, I was a teenager the last time I'd seen him. So it's, I don't know, I don't really have any bitterness towards the man because I understand him a lot better now as I've grown. And as your friends become fathers, you sort of start to identify just how many people are actually naturally equipped with fatherhood. And not everyone is. And unfortunately, my father just didn't seem to be one of those guys.

• 9:56Steven Bartlett?

  One of the things I, I've got to be honest, I worry about with my own experience with my parents is that there are slightly toxic traits that they have. And I think this is the case with all humans, but you know, my, my parents are humans too.

• 10:09Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 10:09Steven Bartlett?

  Um, that I'm, I'm concerned I will pass on, like with through generational cycles. And I think the less aware I am of those things, the more they stand a chance of like showing up at some point and running the show when it matters the most.

• 10:25Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 10:25Steven Bartlett?

  Do you have those fears? Have you ever had that?

• 10:27Speaker 01

  I had those fears. I don't have them anymore.

• 10:29Steven Bartlett?

  Okay.

• 10:29Speaker 01

  Uh, and the reason I don't have them anymore is because I, I recognise that, you know, I, I define my, my present and my future, my past, I have no control over.

• 10:37Steven Bartlett?

  Hmm.

• 10:38Speaker 01

  But um, who I am today and who I will become is down to me. And that also is massively dependent on my understanding of my childhood trauma, of the things that if unchecked could define me. So I've always been desperate to define myself, even when I didn't realise that I was doing it. So, you know, growing up in a council estate up the road from here in Holloway, and having friends who have exactly the same setup at home, you know, before my mother met my stepfather, we were a single parent household on benefits. My mum doing whatever she could to, you know, feed the family and move us forward. And that was the same for all the other boys on the estate.

• 11:21Speaker 01

  So if I was hanging out with Corey or Tyrone or whoever, their house felt like mine. And I was determined to not be defined by the things that we were being taught to normalise, you know? And as a result, I just have decided that that's not the life that I'm gonna have and my children won't. God willing, I have.

• 11:43Steven Bartlett?

  You are, when you look at your career, you are a tremendous outlier in terms of the journey you've, you've, you've taken and what you're doing now.

• 11:51Speaker 01

  That's very kind, thank you.

• 11:52Steven Bartlett?

  And then you trace it back and go, you've came from a council estate not too far from here. For you to have gone on that journey and achieved the things you have. I always, I always think there must have been certain factors in those early years that made you take a different course to those friends that might still be on the estate now.

• 12:11Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 12:11Steven Bartlett?

  It might have been, you know, we talked a little bit about values there. It might have been, you know, I don't know, something someone said to you, an experience you had, or just the conditioning, whatever it is. But my question is, do you, do you know what the, those factors were that made you an outlier?

• 12:25Speaker 01

  I mean, you sound as though you've done a lot of work on yourself and in the little bit that I know about you.

• 12:31Steven Bartlett?

  Well, this is it. I get to meet people and ask, so I learn so much from these kinds of answers.

• 12:35Speaker 01

  Right. And I've made documentaries for over 10 years. So it's the same thing, you know? You learn so much from your environment if you're willing to drink in the information.

• 12:42Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 12:42Speaker 01

  And I just. In thinking about between therapy and also being um present in moments like this, you know, yes, there are cameras, but I'm having a conversation with you and I'm learning from you. And that certainly was the case in ten years of making films, you know, for the BBC. So when it sort of comes to me looking at how I've become the person I am and how my journey has played out the way that it has done, it's an amalgamation of different moments and instances. But fundamentally, it comes down to a desire, even as a kid, to understand and be aware. And it's progressed into this idea of being present and understanding the moment that you're in

• 13:25Speaker 01

  and why you're there and and taking as much from the moment as possible. So as a child, I would always ask questions and I was far too aware of my environment for my own good. So for instance, I'll I'll I'll never sort of forget going to my friend Kieran's. Oh, no. Yeah, it was Kieran Buckley's house. I went to Kieran Buckley's house in Barnsbury. And um uh my mum was very protective, so she wouldn't let me play at friends' homes. I know you know how that goes. And I went to Kieran's and I was in the garden and he had this massive, massive, beautiful Islington garden with several trees in it. And I asked him, how come you've got a park at the back of your house? Um, and his mother sort of overheard and laughed a bit and it stayed with me.

• 14:10Speaker 01

  And he's like, that's not part of my garden. What are you talking about? Come on, free it in. You're in goal, mate. And then you play this game, you don't think about it. And then I remember going back to my council estate and looking at the the one tree that me and Corey used to climb and think, I don't have what he has. Why is that? And then you start to think about these things and then start to understand class and where you are. And even so far as the area, you know, I I started to really recognise the power of my walk to school, even as a kid. Before I got to secondary school, I was like, this is really weird. Like, I live in a borough, Islington in North London, that has everything from council estates with immigrants and white working class, right the way through to multimillion pound houses.

• 14:51Speaker 01

  And I lived on a road called Liverpool Road, which is such a, it's such an important road that I haven't only, I've only become aware of how important that road is to my journey in recent years. So I lived at the Holloway End of Liverpool Road. Liverpool Road is a long road that runs through Islington. And at the other end is Angel. An angel gentrified years before Holloway did. Holloway's a very different place now. And they had a Waitrose, they had a Sainsbury's and you had these gorgeous massive townhouses. And, you know, if you deviated off Liverpool Road, you'd be in Barnsbury and there were these beautiful little villagie roads. And Holloway was where the people that I grew up around lived and you had these estates, you had

• 15:32Speaker 01

  every kind of madness you can imagine happening on my estate. Like, I remember my first, the first time I saw a machine gun was in my estate at like nine years old, when the police were raiding a flat on my floor because there was all kinds of craziness there. I mean, you're just playing on the balcony on your estate, on, on, in the floor that you live on. And you got armed police there, you know, let alone the other times that you see other weapons or you see other things happen. Um, and those walks that I would go on where I would be like, wow, the bit that I live in versus the bit that I'm walking through versus the bit that I'm going to, to go to school. I know what bit I wanna live on, so I better start thinking about how I'm gonna get to that bit of the road.

• 16:11Steven Bartlett?

  It's so fascinating you'd say that. And it took me in my head back to, back to my own experiences being a kid and I, this really vivid memory I have one day of looking up at the sky and seeing a plane and then looking down at my street and thinking, I wonder if all of these families, this is what they wanted from their life. And then the plane for me was the juxtaposition between a family going on holiday. I'd never been on, like, other than coming from Africa, we'd never been on holiday.

• 16:32Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 16:33Steven Bartlett?

  So I was thinking, oh my God, people are going on holiday. And then I look down at my street and I look up again and I see this plane. And a lot of people will have that, but it takes a different mind to then think, I want to be on the plane. I want to be at the other end of Liverpool Street. Um, but then also I have some idea about how to get there. Or maybe you didn't have some, an idea about how to get there, but maybe just the, I mean, I don't know if you believe in like manifestation, just that I want to be there. So I'm gonna make decisions over the next 10 years in that direction.

• 17:01Speaker 01

  Right. Well, my journey's super weird, right? Because from the age of eight, I was a working hector. So I was constantly reminded about my difference just by being present and by being aware even as a child. So it didn't take much for me to realise. You're not like your friends, Reg, because you're currently working while they're at school and you've been allowed time off school to work. So straight away, you're like, okay, I'm a bit different. And this is a bit of a weird situation to be in. And then you look around and there's a hundred people on set and you're the only black person, both in front of or behind the camera. And you go, okay, wow, I'm not like any of these people here. And the conversations that you hear about what people did on the weekend, or where they're going there, even, or even conversations about wine, like little things that people

• 17:45Speaker 01

  take for granted culturally. Nobody drinking wine in my house. You know what I mean? Like, shloer was a big deal, you know? Going to Sainsbury's was a big deal. Like, we used to walk to Dulston with backpacks to go and buy meat and tinned tomatoes and carry them back because we never had a car.

• 18:01Steven Bartlett?

  What does that do to you, though? When you're on set, everyone else is a different skin colour. And they're talking about things that you're not familiar with in terms of, like, let's be honest, like, class, right?

• 18:10Speaker 01

  Yeah, absolutely.

• 18:10Steven Bartlett?

  What does that do to you? And does it put a chip on your shoulder? Does it make you more ambitious? Does it make you think, fuck, I'm out of place, I'm an impostor?

• 18:18Speaker 01

  Yeah. Well, it could have put a chip on my shoulder and I'm incredibly thankful that it didn't. What it did do was make me so hungry to create an environment where I could feel comfortable. And what that progressed into was understanding that it's going to take me a while to get to the point that I'd like to be at. Therefore, it would be and become my responsibility to create that for someone else, to create that for another eight-year-old me or fifteen-year-old me. And I feel incredibly proud that I'm able to do that now because I recognise the power of it. And regardless of those moments of feeling out of place, or being sort of, feeling as though, you know, your class is being, is being waved in your face. Like, I told this story the other day to a friend

• 19:01Speaker 01

  of mine, who's a godfather to his child, it's one of my good, good, good friends, Sam Wilkinson, he's a director who I made a lot of my documentaries with. And he's got my gorgeous little godson in his hands, little Teddy, and we're chatting away. And I was telling him a story about being at this primary school in Islington, where you've got kids from estates and kids from quite, you know, affluent homes, all in the same school. And at lunchtime, you had these kids with Thundercats lunchboxes and these incredible sandwiches and Kit Kat minis, all the things that I never had in my house, you know? You're sort of looking at tinfoil that hasn't been used 50 times. And you're like, oh, my God, they're throwing the tinfoil in the bin. What the hell? What the hell is going on? They've not been made to fold and put it back because you could use it for dinner tomorrow. Anyway, so you're like, taking all of that in.

• 19:43Speaker 01

  And every lunchtime, I'll never forget, um, Pat, God bless her, uh, the head dinner lady, uh, this big lady, big lady, um, would walk out and she'd go, free school dinners. And all the kids that were on free school dinners used to have to stand up and go and get your food. And it sort of broke you a little bit as a kid because your mates were just a bit like, oh my God, can you imagine? And I told this story to Sam and he started crying and Sam started crying, I think, not because, well, I think he felt a little sad for little mini me, but he also, as a father, imagined his son in that position. And I'm sure we'll get on to family and fatherhood and stuff, but I, you know, I realized how much

• 20:24Speaker 01

  fatherhood has softened a lot of my friends and also has made me very sort of cognizant of my journey and also just how important my childhood was in shaping who I've become.

• 20:35Steven Bartlett?

  And when you were there, when you were in school, when you were eight years old and working in acting, what were your dreams for the future and how big were they? Could, could you, what was that internal monologue saying that the end of Reggie's story would look like?

• 20:49Speaker 01

  I don't know what it looks like now.

• 20:51Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 20:51Speaker 01

  And then I never had any sort of desire to create it or paint it. I just knew that it was fun and I enjoyed it and I didn't quite understand why I was getting paid to do it.

• 21:02Steven Bartlett?

  Really?

• 21:03Speaker 01

  I just didn't get it because it was like, you mean, I get off school and I get to play make believe with people that I've seen on telly and you're going to pay me for that? Right. I remember my mom opening a bank account for me because I did a job and this money started coming in and, you know, suddenly you've got tens of thousands of pounds in your account and you're not even in secondary school yet. And it's like, well, hang on, this is, this is crazy because mum's desperately trying to save to put this on the table or to make that happen. And I'm getting to do something that's fun. And it's paying me really well and I get to do it with Stephen Fry and Hugh Laurie. I what?

• 21:40Steven Bartlett?

  That there, though, for me, speaks to a really critically important part of like success, which is at a very, very young age, you got to see behind a curtain. And the curtain was, in my view, just from hearing what you said, I can do something that I actually like.

• 21:55Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 21:55Steven Bartlett?

  And people will pay me for it. And imagine, most kids from that estate, all they'll ever get to see is you work in the factory or whatever. You have to hate your work and you get paid fuck all for it.

• 22:05Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 22:05Steven Bartlett?

  That's what, did they, you know?

• 22:06Speaker 01

  Well, it's interesting you say that because you've actually weirdly picked up on a really interesting point because something happened on set in a moment of realisation, even as a child, that only came back into my head, popped back into my head a few years ago, and I recognised how important it was and actually put it in my book. And that was, work to me, based on my grandparents and my mother, was something that you hated.

• 22:35Speaker 01

  My grandmother worked the buses, she was a cleaner, she did all sorts of stuff. She was a cook for London Underground at one point, or was it London Bus, one of the two. My grandfather had two jobs. At night, he was a security guard at some random factory in King's Cross. And during the day, he was a mathematics professor at a university. You know, this is incredibly educated man, but because he wanted to build a home in Ghana and he wanted to look after everyone, he literally worked all the hours that God would send. So whenever anyone spoke about work, they hated it. And then the first job that I ever got as an actor when I was eight years old was Desmond's, which for anyone that has seen it will know, like retrospectively, how important that show was.

• 23:19Speaker 01

  For those that don't know what it is, Desmond's, I believe is Channel Four's longest running sitcom. And it's not on TV anymore and it hasn't been on for years. But Desmond's was about a black family in Peckham who owned a barber shop. And it was a comedy about black life and just about life. And because it was so human, even though it was massively flavoured by this Caribbean family, people loved it and it was massive and it ran for, I think, seven seasons, right? So the first audition I go for is Desmond's. And I remember going to Humphrey Bartlett, I think it was the name of the production company in Kentish Town. And we went up to their production office and. My mum was excited, you know, she was prepping me one of her little cards like to get my lines down and everything and I got the job.

• 24:05Speaker 01

  And then I had this random moment that when I think back, it's crazy for me as a kid to have made this realisation, I had this realisation. And that was, I was, um, I was on set surrounded by people that looked like me and my family, you know. You had Shirley, who was the matriarch of the family, who actually looked like my gran. You had Norman, who played Desmond, who was like the super funny old guy. And my grandad was this funny old guy that used to make inappropriate jokes all the time. And all the makeup artists were black and they would give me little boiled sweets. And everybody was just so fun to be around and I was just surrounded by this blackness, but in a professional setting. And everyone was at work and they were having a great time. And something went off in my head and I was like, wait, hang on a second.

• 24:48Speaker 01

  Maybe what I've seen in my family and their relationship with work doesn't apply to everyone. Because these people look like my family and they're having a great time. So what would it be like if I did that for me?

• 25:01Steven Bartlett?

  And that's exactly it. And I, a lot of people don't realise that. And that's why I referred to it as you got to look behind the curtain.

• 25:09Speaker 01

  Right.

• 25:09Steven Bartlett?

  And once you see it, you can't unsee it. Once you make that connection that you can love your work and it can be in line with your passions. I mean, right now, the stuff you're doing in your career is, seems to be perfectly in line with your interests, you know. And I've, I heard about, you know, at one point you were doing work in music and you're interviewing pop stars and you're asking them questions you didn't want to ask them. And you've, it feels like you've really got closer and closer and closer and closer to doing work that's intrinsically fulfilling. Um, as the years have gone on, a lot of people don't realise that, Reggie, and they don't ever get to see behind that curtain.

• 25:40Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 25:41Steven Bartlett?

  So what would you say to those people who, um, have the, have the dreams, but they've always believed that work is a nine to five thing. It's a chore, it's something you do to fund your passion.

• 25:51Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 25:51Steven Bartlett?

  Or your free time.

• 25:52Speaker 01

  Well, it's, it's really difficult in this era because there are so many experts, uh, on social media or on YouTube and who, who were releasing books or whatever. You know, there's a ton of people who haven't had any life experience, which is why people like you, I think are so important. And I'm not blowing smoke here, you know, you're having incredibly important conversations off the back of living a life and doing something. And you're still so young, you have earned the right to say, this is what I think and feel, and I'm willing to share it. And you continue to learn on camera. Making documentaries is a huge part of me learning on camera and learning with my audience. And I'm sure that you can attest to this. There's something incredibly powerful about saying, I don't know, but I wanna learn. And when you do that and it's documented and

• 26:34Speaker 01

  recorded, people come along with you, you know. And in this moment, there are so many people that just see the end result, that wanna be Gary Vee, or, you know, wanna shout advice and be, be the tough love guy. And there is merit in that. And I think that, you know, for a lot of young men particularly, you can look at someone, I'll use Gary Vee as an example. I think he's fantastic in some of the things that, that he does and the way in which he delivers a message, because some people need to hear it. Similarly, on the other side, a book like The Secret, for instance, you know, if you don't have people constantly reminding you of things like some of the messages that are in The Secret, you might need to turn to a book that has them all in one place, you know. And I think it's incredibly

• 27:17Speaker 01

  difficult for people to, to be honest with themselves about what they're capable of without willing to do the work. Yeah. And so many people want the end result, but don't respect or understand the value in the journey. And we live in a microwave era where everything happens overnight and people come up and come down from social media stars to reality TV stars or whatever. And it just, it, it breaks my heart that nobody's willing to just look back a little bit and see that everything that they're doing has happened before, and it all ends in one way. And without sort of rattling on about it or anything, I had a conversation recently where I realized how fortunate I've been to have been around for so long, because

• 28:01Speaker 01

  I've had a career for over thirty years now, and I've seen the cycle play out over and over and over again. So like, being twelve years old and interviewing the Spice Girls and thinking, oh, my God, this is the most amazing, exciting thing ever. And then seeing their peak, because, you know, I interviewed them for wannabe, then you see their peak, and then you see the movie, and you see them on packets of Walker's crisps, and then you see the fallout, and then you get to where you are today, and you see how that has played out. But that's sort of like a, a bigger arc, but you could go even smaller, you know, in the boy band era. You name them, I interviewed them, from the Backstreet Boys to Five Over Here to whoever. I met them when they were new and excited, then I met them when they were arrogant and horrible, and then you meet them when everything isn't happening anymore,

• 28:43Speaker 01

  and they've got that album that no one wants to buy. You see the cycle happen over and over again. Today it's reality TV stars.

• 28:50Steven Bartlett?

  Hmm.

• 28:50Speaker 01

  Only the cycle isn't three albums. If you're lucky, it's three years. If you're lucky, it's three years.

• 28:56Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah, yeah, yeah.

• 28:57Speaker 01

  Sometimes it's three months. They do Love Island twice a year now.

• 29:00Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 29:00Speaker 01

  You don't get to a million followers before there's a new sexier you on the show, you know?

• 29:04Steven Bartlett?

  And what does that take to, to, I guess, to, in some degrees, to reinvent yourself through, as the world changes, as platforms change, to stay relevant, to, you know, what does that take?

• 29:16Speaker 01

  I have no desire to remain relevant. I don't care. I will just continue to follow my passions. And I, I recognized the power of platform when I was eighteen, when some random kid's mum stopped me on the street and said, you're a role model for my son, and I hated her for it. And then I realized I have no choice in the matter. And the minute I realized that regardless of how I feel, people are gonna look at me because I have a platform, I understood the power of that platform. And that started a thinking process that made me desperate to get out of entertainment and get into documentary because I felt as though with that amount of eyeballs, I should have something to say.

• 29:59Speaker 01

  And that's why I think documentaries have naturally led on to me becoming a writer, director and filmmaker, and using art to actually say something. And everything that I do now speaks to my purpose.

• 30:12Steven Bartlett?

  That journey you've described over, you know, thirty odd years and the, the cycles and the staying, you know,

• 30:20Steven Bartlett?

  being at a point now where you can still do what you want on a big platform, there must have been a ton of failure through that journey. And people don't talk about that because that doesn't make for good Instagram posts typically, you know, like the, the day you get rejected from the audition or whatever.

• 30:32Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 30:32Steven Bartlett?

  What are the, the, some of the critical moments in your journey where you encountered failure or rejection? And you had that sort of mental conversation with yourself to figure out what the hell this means?

• 30:42Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 30:42Steven Bartlett?

  And what we do next?

• 30:45Speaker 01

  I have done a lot of therapy and I'm really thankful for it. I started in my twenties and now in my, my late thirties.

• 30:54Speaker 01

  I understand the importance of getting to know your shadow. And my current therapist who I've been with for a while now is an incredible human being who has given me new tools for the tool belt. I'm using the language now.

• 31:07Steven Bartlett?

  I love this.

• 31:07Speaker 01

  Using the language. And just some of the things that he's given me have really helped me to understand me at my worst. And one of the big triggers for me is when my character is questioned. And I've always struggled with the idea of people getting me wrong or thinking that my intentions aren't pure. And I had a situation a few years ago now where I said something publicly that offended a lot of people. And my argument was, no, no, but I didn't mean that. I didn't mean that. And what I came to realise was your intentions mean nothing if you hurt people. And in sitting with the community that I offended deeply, which breaks my heart because

• 31:49Speaker 01

  my first ever mentor, Anna Shear, who gave me my career in television, is from that same community as well. And I learnt and have learnt so much about that community and that faith. And I felt as though I let so many people down. And in having those conversations and understanding that, bro, it's not actually about you. It's about knowing the power of your platform, understanding that you have a responsibility when you open your mouth because you've worked so long that people listen to you now, bro. And respecting the fact that regardless of what your intention is, if you hurt people, you have to behave accordingly. And that was a huge moment of failure for me that I have learnt so much from and that

• 32:32Speaker 01

  I am, I'm proud of the lessons that came from it. And those lessons, I think, have set me up in such a way that I'm excited about my future because regardless of everything that I've done, I feel as though I'm only really getting started now. And everything that has happened feels like practice in a way.

• 32:52Steven Bartlett?

  So.

• 32:54Steven Bartlett?

  I'm gonna ask these questions because I'm scared that at some point I'm on Dragon's Den now. I have a podcast where I speak my mind and I'm gonna say some shit at some point. I've said to my team before, I'm like, I know at some point I'm gonna say some shit that is gonna get me in trouble. Something that I didn't mean or something off the cuff or whatever. And when I say didn't mean again, to your point, it doesn't necessarily matter. But if I meant it or not, what my intentions were. But can you talk to me? And we're kind of talking about like cancel culture here. We're talking about, you know, someone that has a platform that's speaking their mind, that is using words in various ways.

• 33:28Steven Bartlett?

  So you're referencing there, there were some comments made, there was an uproar within the Jewish community. What was your mental journey from the second you said those comments to where you are now? Can you give me like a little bit of the journey of like, you see the uproar? Is the initial feeling of like, you don't get me, that's not what I meant?

• 33:50Speaker 01

  Absolutely.

• 33:51Steven Bartlett?

  And then is there anger there? Is there this? And then you

• 33:53Speaker 01

  No, there's no anger, it's just disappointment because you know better. It feels as though it's the biggest thing that's happening anywhere in the world to anyone. And it really isn't. But the bottom line is that you have caused offence to people that you care about. You have working relationships with people and so on and so forth. And there's a lot of vanity that kicks in, hence me saying what I said about, you know, you feeling that it's the biggest thing. Because suddenly your entire world is made up of people who are either disappointed or let down or angry with you. And rightly so. And you just have to sit in it. You just have to sit in it and make those difficult phone calls and also be willing to learn and understand that you were wrong.

• 34:38Speaker 01

  And I think when you are at your core, a good person, which I believe I am, when someone tells you you're not, oh. It's really difficult to get your head around. But leaning into that, and like I said, getting to know your shadow, understanding why that's such a trigger. Understanding what that is setting off for you in terms of things that may have happened in the past, et cetera.

• 35:02Speaker 01

  It's a, it's a process that you kind of have to go through that gets really, really dark and difficult. And then you come out the other side saying, okay, I'm, I'm proud of that dent. Like, I'll never forget it, actually. And this isn't, this is a horrible clang name drop, but Daniel Kaluah said to me that, actually, off the bat, like, he and I had a conversation about this whole situation. And he said, bro, there's a reason that golf balls have dents in them. I was like, what do you mean? He said, well, you know, golf balls with dents go further. And I was like, I would steal that. And Kaluah was so right, you know. I learnt so much in that situation that it weirdly strengthened my relationships with a lot of people from that community. And also, my knowledge is

• 35:42Speaker 01

  better and my knowledge of self is better in terms of how I manage myself in complicated moments.

• 35:49Steven Bartlett?

  This idea of the shadow, getting to know your shadow, I find that so fascinating.

• 35:53Speaker 01

  It's good stuff, isn't it?

• 35:54Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 35:54Speaker 01

  It's really good.

• 35:55Steven Bartlett?

  I've never heard that expression before.

• 35:56Speaker 01

  Yeah, well, I wish I came up with it, but I'm gonna pretend I did. But it's just knowing, it's knowing what your triggers are, knowing yourself at your worst and being comfortable with it, you know. I, I can proudly say that I can't, there's very little that could happen to me now that I don't have something in place to help me navigate it, you know?

• 36:20Steven Bartlett?

  I, so I've been having this conversation with one of my best friends, and he's, I'm gonna take the context, because I think, because you've had, you've been through the therapy, maybe you can offer some advice.

• 36:29Speaker 01

  Sure.

• 36:29Steven Bartlett?

  He was saying to me the other day that he is so easily triggered in the moment by certain things. He thinks it's because he used to get bullied when he was younger on the playground.

• 36:37Speaker 01

  Right.

• 36:37Steven Bartlett?

  But for example, if someone was to say that he was wrong, or present evidence which proved he was wrong, or his romantic partner, who he's currently with, were to get in a little bit of a tiff with him, it's kind of like this red mist, and he can't control it. And then 10 minutes later, he'll go, I don't know why, I don't know why I do that.

• 36:53Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 36:54Steven Bartlett?

  How, how did, how did you find out what those triggers were? And you said you've got something in place to deal with it. What is, what is that? Because, because he was like, in the moment, when I'm sat with my girlfriend at dinner.

• 37:05Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 37:05Steven Bartlett?

  And the trigger goes, if I walk off, that's storming off. If I go silent, that's sulking. So what the fuck am I supposed to do?

• 37:14Speaker 01

  Yeah. Well, it's, it's gonna sound ridiculous, but.

• 37:19Speaker 01

  Listening is really difficult when you feel as though you're being challenged. And nine times out of 10, any conflict that I've ever had hasn't actually been about me. So to have the resolve to shut the fuck up and listen sometimes allows you to get through the things that are triggering or annoying or make you angry or frustrating and get to the heart of what's actually being said and why. And then when you get to that, it just becomes so much easier because most of the time it's not actually about you, you know. Maybe something you've said or done is triggering to the person that you really care about, who's sat across the table from you. And if you're willing to get beyond the fact that they're saying something that in the moment makes you angry,

• 38:03Speaker 01

  you can actually move forward together in a way that just didn't exist before.

• 38:07Steven Bartlett?

  The thing that's jumping in and that's it's commanding your brain to try and win or to go for victory or self-defense though.

• 38:15Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 38:15Steven Bartlett?

  That, you know, that can come from the playground. That can come from a comment your dad made to you when you were four or whatever. So.

• 38:21Speaker 01

  Especially if you're someone who has come from nothing and has succeeded.

• 38:24Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 38:24Speaker 01

  You know, it's you against the world for a huge chunk of that, you know, earlier stage. It's very easy to need to win everything in life, especially arguments. But most of the time, winning an argument actually ends up putting you backwards.

• 38:37Steven Bartlett?

  Because what you described there is, from what I understood, is ego.

• 38:41Speaker 01

  Yes.

• 38:41Steven Bartlett?

  You have to build, and I genuinely believe this too, especially because I was a very young entrepreneur in rooms with, you know, people that were not the same skin color as me and three times my age when I was first pitching my, my ideas. And at some point you have to develop a sense of like huge confidence and self-belief.

• 38:59Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 39:00Steven Bartlett?

  Which has to kind of flirt with having a big ego because I promise you, like, as you'll probably know, I don't want to speak for you, so I'm saying probably there, people will try and fuck with you. Especially if you're, I mean, of course, because everyone's trying to win in their own little personal war.

• 39:15Speaker 01

  Especially if you're an outlier.

• 39:16Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 39:17Speaker 01

  If you are the T1000.

• 39:18Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 39:19Speaker 01

  People really want to figure out how they can break you.

• 39:22Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 39:22Speaker 01

  And some people get off on that.

• 39:24Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 39:25Speaker 01

  And I'm sure you've experienced it. I certainly have, but I don't know. In my experience, a lot of the time when I find those, that, that, that conflict where I find people trying to push buttons.

• 39:35Steven Bartlett?

  Hmm.

• 39:36Speaker 01

  It doesn't take much thought to recognise where it's coming from.

• 39:39Steven Bartlett?

  Right.

• 39:40Speaker 01

  And most of the time, it's not about you. I mean, books like Ego is the Enemy or, you know, Start with Why, like, they're really, or Leaders Eat Last.

• 39:49Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 39:49Speaker 01

  The Simon Sinek book. That's a great one for ego. I sort of learnt a lot from that about how to lead and also what true leadership can do. And that sort of unnatural thing of not being submissive, but allowing someone to find their answers with your guidance as opposed to you telling them is so powerful because it just makes the bond so much stronger.

• 40:16Steven Bartlett?

  You said, I read that you wrote that you had, part of your therapy sessions was to really understand your issue with father figures and the sort of tricky relationship you'd had with father figures.

• 40:27Speaker 01

  Yeah, yeah. There was a disappointment that I felt even as a young age in that I didn't have the perfect dad at home, or at least a dad that I felt that I deserved as a kid. Because I was a good kid, I was, I was working, I was doing well at school, I was kind to my sisters, like, I, I, I thought I was a good kid. And I felt that I deserved a different kind of dad at home, especially someone, as someone who was so obsessed with TV, you know, I'm looking at Uncle Phil going, why can't I have what Will and Carlton have, you know, I want an Uncle Phil. And in going to some of the houses of kids that I was going to school with and seeing how their dads fathered them, it made me disappointed that I didn't have that at home. But I've spoken about this before,

• 41:12Speaker 01

  and this is a book that I've been working on called Bits of Dad. And I was incredibly fortunate to have bits of dad because of what my mother invested in me. So my mother taught me from quite a young age to recognise what a good man looked like, which helped me pick the right friends and ultimately pick the right mentors and people to follow. So I say Bits of Dad because I would look up to and ask questions of Mark, who worked at the play centre at the after school club at my school. And he would help me with sort of dealing with some of the dynamics in my friendships at school. And then I had Billy McQueen, who I call my TV dad, a producer who I met when I was 12 years old at Disney,

• 41:55Speaker 01

  who would answer any professional question that I needed help or guidance with. And then there were all these other men. Who helped me with self-discipline or money or even football or even, you know, conversations about women and relationships and amalgamated, they made the perfect father. But I had the bits and the bits were enough for me.

• 42:16Steven Bartlett?

  So when you're going to therapy, was it a question you're posing to your therapist about how you get a better relationship with father figures or was it a, was it about authority? Was it about?

• 42:26Speaker 01

  Bro, we've had so many conversations about that. I couldn't tell you what it was specifically. But I think just knowing that being a good man is such an important thing for me in my future and knowing that I didn't have quote unquote, good men at home, uh, has always been something that I've revisited and tried to unpack and understand. And, um, it's something that's in the front of my mind in a lot of ways. As I said, you know, that so many of my friends are now becoming fathers, seeing how they parent and also seeing the decisions that they make and now becoming a godfather for the first time. You know, I'm not dad, I'm dad adjacent.

• 42:59Steven Bartlett?

  You're saying.

• 43:00Speaker 01

  So I could, yeah, you know, you, you go around, you pick up, you change nappy sometimes. I haven't changed Teddy's nappy just yet because he does massive doo doo. Um, but, um, knowing that when that kid gets a little bit bigger, I can help Sam, this guy who's a mate of mine who I love dearly, in maybe the bits that he can't do or the bits that he doesn't want to do. And I offer a different perspective as well.

• 43:23Steven Bartlett?

  I, I, one of the really sort of fascinating point, I've just become a godfather again.

• 43:26Speaker 01

  Congratulations.

• 43:27Steven Bartlett?

  Second time last week. Um, so that's, and I'm particularly close to the dad. One of my best friends worked for me for seven odd years. So I feel, and it's also the child is, um, so my friend is, the dad is, is, is black and the, the mum is white. So the, the kid is probably going to look a little bit, a little bit like me. So I feel a greater sense of responsibility. It feels like my first, my first real kid. Um, there was something you said, a quote where you, you talked about really understanding how precious your time was. And the, the actual quote is, no one like me has had this opportunity. So I'd be a fool not to make the most of it. I really want to understand that like driving force within, within you, that's, that's, um, still driving you today. And

• 44:08Steven Bartlett?

  I, I've sat here with so many, um, successful people, so many successful, uh, black men. I've analyzed myself and. It tends to be a bit of a cocktail sometimes. Your story from the council estate sheds some light on that.

• 44:21Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 44:21Steven Bartlett?

  And, you know, Liverpool Road, that really sheds some light on it as well. And the bit we talked about, that you're being underestimated and, you know, feeling sometimes like the outlier in certain rooms.

• 44:31Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 44:33Steven Bartlett?

  But that thing about time and that sense of responsibility you speak to, because you saw that word in your writing, that was almost your feeling of responsibility.

• 44:41Speaker 01

  Yeah. It's really complicated. And I think the idea of responsibility comes from understanding that I was one of the first people to be given a platform either on primetime or in children's TV and so on and so forth. And because I've always been myself, regardless of who I was at that time, and, you know, having been on TV for so many years, that version of me has continued to progress. You know, as a teenager, presenting kids TV with Kane Row and, you know, Air Force Ones and the Mecca Tracks or academic sweatsuit, knowing that I'm not just wearing this to my dressing room, I'm wearing this on camera, says something.

• 45:25Speaker 01

  It says something. I'm on the BBC and I'm dressed like the boys that you crossed the street from. That was like, I understood even at 18 that that was a thing, that meant something. And subsequently, you know, I've had kids come up to me over the years saying, I grew up with you on TV and, bro, I loved watching you because we dressed the same, we talked the same, and you were doing that. And it just made me feel like I existed. And when people say things like that to strangers, it's so powerful. And I assumed that that might be the case, even as a teenager. And I'm so glad that I was right, because that desire to be me, whatever room I'm in, has served me well. And that's gone from presenting

• 46:09Speaker 01

  kids TV right the way through to writing and directing now. Like, I've just completed my first feature film, Pirates, which will be out this year. And I'm a producer, I'm a writer, and I'm a director on this movie about three men of colour, men, 18 year olds, right? And I employed the crew.

• 46:29Speaker 01

  I am sat there in interview rooms interviewing heads of department deciding who is gonna ultimately set the mood for this thing that really matters to me because as a writer director, it starts with the script. But as a director, you're on set and you've got a hundred and fifty, two hundred people working for you. And if you don't lead in the right way, they'll decide what this environment is gonna be. And the big concern for me was I'm looking at three versions of me. I got on a Moroccan kid, a Ghanaian kid and a West Indian kid who were eighteen, who were leading their first movie. I remember being eighteen, desperately trying to get auditions for movies and not getting them because it was a very different landscape then. So I understand the responsibility that I have today

• 47:13Speaker 01

  to put on for those guys, for Reda, for Elliot, for Jordan. It's my responsibility to put on for them and create an environment for them in a way that just wouldn't exist if the man at the top of the tree didn't intrinsically understand them.

• 47:26Steven Bartlett?

  Hmm.

• 47:27Speaker 01

  Because nobody understood me coming up. That's where the responsibility comes, you know?

• 47:32Steven Bartlett?

  So this is a tough question to answer because I would find it tough to answer. But I'm gonna, I'll answer it as well if you want me to. But what, what, what, what is the best and in your own self-assessment? What is the best and worst part of your leadership style?

• 47:47Speaker 01

  I think the, it's easy to say the best, isn't it?

• 47:52Speaker 01

  A bit, I'm great.

• 47:55Speaker 01

  Okay, let's start with worst. I think the worst part of my leadership style is that I want everybody to have a good time all the time.

• 48:02Steven Bartlett?

  Oh, okay. Interesting.

• 48:04Speaker 01

  I do.

• 48:04Steven Bartlett?

  Please explain.

• 48:04Speaker 01

  Desperately. Well,

• 48:07Speaker 01

  when you're responsible for the environment, when you pick the people, if it goes left, or if you pick the wrong person, it's on you and it's your fault. And that feels shit. When you get it wrong and it affects people that you care about, that feels terrible. So I desperately want everything to work out in an environment where I'm responsible, you know? So I think that that's probably one of the biggest failures that I hopefully we better at in the next project, you know? To be really transparent, sometimes you have to replace people midway through a shoot and it's knowing when is the right time and also having the balls to say you don't quite get what we're trying to do. So thank you for what you've done, but your, your services are no longer required, you know? That's difficult.

• 48:49Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 48:49Speaker 01

  Especially if you empowered them to begin with.

• 48:51Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 48:52Speaker 01

  And to take it away is tough. I think the thing that I'm good at. Is people management. Okay. I'm good with people. I'm good on a one to one basis as well as with the group. Mm hmm. Um, and I think the thing that I'm best at is understanding my actors because I once was one. And knowing that, you know, they just want to do a good job. And our individuals, some might require talking to before a take, some might require being left alone. Some might require some coaching or some confidence boosting. Some might require being told to rein it in, you know. I, with Pirates, I decided that I wanted to make sure that my three central guys were a little family before we even got on set.

• 49:34Speaker 01

  So I contacted one of my mentors, Richard Curtis, writer director, who wrote Notting Hill, Love Actually, Four Weddings and a Funeral. He and his wife, Emma Freud, who are an amazing, amazing couple. I met through Comic Relief, which is also something that they do. I mean, they're kind of amazing. When I was eighteen, I met them through Comic Relief and they've been in my life ever since. And when I started writing off the back of spending New Year's at one of his places, I said, look, would it be possible to take one of your homes by the sea so I can go and write there? And they're like, absolutely. And they've given me, they've opened their doors to me for me to go and write at their, one of their, their homes. And the desk that I, I wrote a few drafts of Pirates is the desk that Richard wrote Notting Hill on.

• 50:19Speaker 01

  So I'm rubbing my desk, going, come on, give me some of this good stuff, come on.

• 50:25Speaker 01

  And prior to shooting, I, the guys allowed me to, I asked them and they were absolutely fine with the fact they actively encouraged me to bring the boys to the house for the weekend. And we spent the weekend by the sea, cooking together, watching coming of age movies, talking about the movies, very much about friendship and coming of age, but it's also set in nineteen ninety nine with a whole UK garage backdrop. So the entire music in the movie is UKG. And the boys are desperately trying to drive from North London to South London in a Peugeot two oh five to get into Twice as Nice on New Year's Eve nineteen ninety nine. That's the movie. It takes place over one day, right? So, you know, we got like Spoonie on the phone or we got like the Heartless crew on the phone. And the boys were just sort of learning about garage and they were also forming these relationships and.

• 51:11Speaker 01

  When we got on set, everyone was like, oh, so you guys have been friends for years, right? And I'm like, no, we just, you know, just hung out. And now we're at the point where we started doing screenings, people have watched it and they're like, the chemistry between the boys is unreal. And I say all of this to say that the thing I'm most proud of is that I recognize what is necessary to get the best out of my actors. And as a result, I'm incredibly proud of what they've done. And I'm just really excited for them because I know that they're about to have very exciting careers. And one of my actors, Reda, is a Moroccan kid. And he's amazing. He turned 21 while we were shooting, or during our break. We got broken up for COVID. We got stopped mid shoot.

• 51:49Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 51:50Speaker 01

  And we went back, thankfully, and finished the movie. But Reda's this young, incredible kid from Morocco, London, of Moroccan descent. And he said to me, like, in the audition, I was like, you're so naturally funny. Why haven't I seen you do more comedy? And he said, mate, I only ever get the child of terrorist, the young, about to be turned terrorist role. I only ever get those parts. He said, I've never read for comedy ever, because I'm always reading for the same thing, which is why when this came across my desk, I've done everything I can to be good at it, because I don't want to just play a terrorist. I'm more than that. And for him to be in this film and to be so funny, it's just the most amazing feeling ever, to give somebody that platform.

• 52:35Steven Bartlett?

  You've created so many critically acclaimed amazing documentaries, right? And they're so diverse in their subject matter.

• 52:41Speaker 01

  Thank you.

• 52:42Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah, no, just, I was going through years, I was like, fuck, you know, it's really just like, it's so diverse. But I wanted, I wanted to know, of all, and this might be like picking your favorite kid or something, but of all the documentaries and all the moments and those, those, those stories that you've told, is there something where you think, this is why I started?

• 53:00Speaker 01

  Man, that's so tough, because there's something in every film.

• 53:02Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 53:03Speaker 01

  Genuinely.

• 53:03Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 53:04Speaker 01

  It might even be the lesson that, you know, you made a crap, a crap documentary, and you knew it going in, but you did it anyway. There's been so many amazing lessons. So I think the thing that comes to mind most whenever I'm asked this question is the South African preacher. I made a documentary called The Millionaire Preacher. And there was this guy called Mboro, who is still active as a preacher. I mean, he recently, I think he got arrested for selling pictures to his followers that he took when he went up to heaven. Wow. So he recently, I think, has been arrested for that. I'm not entirely sure what's going on with him now. But anyway, at the time when we went to make the documentary with him, he had a congregation of about ten thousand people.

• 53:47Speaker 01

  And he was a multimillionaire, several Rolls Royces, you name the car, he had it, mansions, the lot. And his entire congregation was made of poor black people. And he fell out with me because he didn't think I respected him enough. Because I came to the film as somebody who isn't particularly religious, but has a religious background. I grew up in a Pentecostal Christian church. My stepfather was Muslim. I converted to Islam when I was a kid. And in my teens, I decided that faith really wasn't for me in that context. So I'm looking at this man thinking, you are literally exchanging people's faith for their pay packet. And I was disgusted by him and by everything that he represented before I'd even spoken to him.

• 54:30Speaker 01

  Before I'd even begun to unearth who he was and what got him to that place. And it was an incredible learning experience when he decided that he didn't want to film with me anymore. And, you know, his armed guards were sort of like, you know, had their fingers on the trigger as I was trying to force the point that he should keep talking to me and he was just not interested. I, I came to realise that it's not about me. The reason I was there was not to have a personal experience. The reason I was there was to make a film that could potentially shed light on an issue or teach something to people across the UK that I would never meet. And ultimately, the world as the film went on Netflix. And I had a similar situation when I made a film about being young, black and gay.

• 55:15Speaker 01

  I have a, a family member who I'm incredibly close to, who is a gay man. And his coming out was this incredible moment for me in terms of realising how difficult his life had been up until that point because of what he worried about, because of what he thought might happen.

• 55:35Speaker 01

  And I wanted to make a film about that. And cut a long story short, ultimately, the film for me didn't feel as though it nailed it. And I was really, really disappointed. And the production company that I worked with at the time would always do screenings of the film as they, the films as they went out. So we went to the exec's house and we're in his house. And we're in the kitchen watching it and the credits roll and as the credits are rolling, everyone's sort of high fiving each other going, ah, we killed it. We're trending on Twitter. This is brilliant. Everybody loves the film. And I'm just like, that isn't the film that I had in my head. That doesn't speak to the specificity of the experience and the way that I wanted it to. Anyway, point being, I went into my DM on all the

• 56:17Speaker 01

  social platforms that I was on at the time, and every single mailbox was filled with messages from young men and women saying, we saw that you were making this film, so we purposely watched it with our parents, and I've just come out to my mum because of the film you made. I was able to have a conversation with my dad because of some of the things that were happening on screen. Thank you for giving us that opportunity. Thank you for opening the door. And I felt like an absolute idiot in that moment, because I was so busy worrying about being Mr. Program Maker and making this film that was perfect in my mind's eye. Whereas in reality, the conversation that was being had had never

• 56:59Speaker 01

  been had before, let alone on the BBC. And as a result, it actively changed lives of people watching it. It literally changed the lives of people that messaged me. Wasn't about me. And I felt really embarrassed with myself.

• 57:14Steven Bartlett?

  It's really interesting, that balance of it being not about you, but it comes.

• 57:20Speaker 01

  Ultimately being.

• 57:21Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah, do you know what I mean?

• 57:22Speaker 01

  About your experience.

• 57:22Steven Bartlett?

  It's that, it's that, it was, it came, it was birthed out of your own personal experience and your desire to tell a very important story, which had clearly moved you emotionally enough to commit your life, a portion of your life, to telling that story. So, but also, I completely understand what you're saying, which is like, the outcome is not about you, I guess.

• 57:39Speaker 01

  Yeah. The experience is yours.

• 57:41Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 57:42Speaker 01

  But the experience that people take from the content, you will never own.

• 57:45Steven Bartlett?

  Hmm.

• 57:46Speaker 01

  I will never know how much what I do affects people or doesn't. There's someone out there right now who's seen everything I've never done and I'll never meet them. Similarly, there's someone who I'll bump into tomorrow who's just seen one film and will have a really important conversation with me, you know, on a lot of levels for both of us potentially. I'm not responsible for what happens with what is created once it's out in the world. And being comfortable with that is quite difficult, but also quite freeing in a lot of ways.

• 58:14Steven Bartlett?

  And let's talk about money then. So you mentioned money there. What role does, does money play in all of this stuff in success in your view in, in life?

• 58:21Speaker 01

  Well, I've never chased it, which is probably why my account hates my guts. You know, I, I walked away from primetime TV that, you know, is a very rare air in, in terms of the amount of people that get to host those shows that get millions and millions of viewers and also the payment that comes with it, you know? I didn't enjoy hosting those shows. I didn't enjoy being in that space. I didn't enjoy being told what to do and say. I essentially was being asked to not be me and that didn't work for me. And in walking away from that and focusing on documentaries, I walked away from a lot of money. And knowing that I was going to take a hit financially, ultimately being able to get to the place that I am now as a filmmaker.

• 59:05Speaker 01

  Was something I was very aware of. So money has never been a driver for me. But it's been something that I've been conscious on because you've got to live, right? And also I look after a lot of people and I help a lot of people and I support people. So I've always wanted to do that. So money has always been important in that sense, but it's never been important because I'm going to show you.

• 59:25Steven Bartlett?

  That, that jump you described there where you swing from being like a TV host to saying, you know, I want to make my own documentaries feels like a risk.

• 59:32Speaker 01

  It is massively.

• 59:34Steven Bartlett?

  Talk to me about that, the feeling you had when you thought, you know what, I want to go and pursue myself now.

• 59:39Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 59:39Steven Bartlett?

  And my sort of intrinsic, I always get roasted for using the word intrinsic and extrinsic on this basically. Intrinsic fulfilling passion.

• 59:46Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 59:46Steven Bartlett?

  Despite that, I'm going to have to take a financial cut potentially.

• 59:49Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 59:49Steven Bartlett?

  I might not, you know, and the risk, there's no guarantee here, right? This might not work out, might not get commissioned.

• 59:54Speaker 01

  Well, it's the same thing with radio, you know, I hosted radio for 10 years. I was at Radio One for a decade and I walked away. I left hosting the chart show, not because I was fired, but because I decided it wasn't right for me anymore because I stopped learning. And for me, it's always been about what are you learning? How much are you enjoying this? And does this align with where you are as a human being? Does this align with your passions? Does this align with what you care about? And, you know, you, you, you touched on it yourself earlier in the conversation. When I recognized that I didn't want to talk to Harry Styles for 30 seconds about the new video. I wanted to ask, how the hell are you managing all of this? You're nine years old. Like, mate, how are you managing this? There are grown women that are hunting you down.

• 1:00:38Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 1:00:38Speaker 01

  Sexually.

• 1:00:39Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 1:00:40Speaker 01

  And you're figuring out who the hell you are as a person. How are you managing, bro? I wasn't allowed to have that conversation on Radio One. But I was in my documentaries, you know? And, you know, every form has its limitations, which is why documentaries have grown into filmmaking. Because now I can actively write the conversation as opposed to sitting down with someone, hoping that they're gonna give me the soundbite that makes that, you know, makes that exciting for the audience. Now I can write it. And through some of my experiences in factual and life, I'm able to create people and create characters that are flawed and interesting enough that trigger conversations in the way that I would hope to do in the approach to making a documentary.

• 1:01:25Speaker 01

  Whereas with a film, drama specifically, I'm able to literally lay it out and create it on my own terms.

• 1:01:32Steven Bartlett?

  And in terms of, yeah, and so in terms of like fulfillment, happiness, mental wellbeing.

• 1:01:36Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 1:01:37Steven Bartlett?

  How important is it to be your true self? You know, and you know, again, we talked about the LGBTQ community and how the struggles they face and the suicide rates are higher because they they are forced in many instances to live a life that isn't true to who they actually are. From your own experience, I mean, from mine, I know that, I mean, when you're, I mean, you're doing it now, you're making extraordinary work because it's connected to who Reggie is.

• 1:02:01Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 1:02:02Steven Bartlett?

  You, I'm guessing you're you're more hap- you're happy, right? You're fulfilled and and it's all seems to be a really positively reinforcing cycle when you get closer to that.

• 1:02:11Speaker 01

  Yes.

• 1:02:12Steven Bartlett?

  Sense of who you are.

• 1:02:13Speaker 01

  It's, you know, it's, it's looking at your diary, and I'm sure you have a similar thing. You know, you look at your calendar for the day and you go, what am I actually doing today? And we've all had those days where you see something in the calendar that you don't want to do. Seldom do I have those days now. It's very rare that I have something that I don't want to do.

• 1:02:30Speaker 01

  But professionally particularly. And I'm really excited by that and I'm proud of that, you know? Everything that I I I'm invested in professionally. Comes from a place of passion. So for instance, I made, you know, talking about social media and all the rest of it, I made a drama for the BBC called Make Me Famous, which was a standalone one hour drama about the relationship between fame, social media and suicide. And, you know, I created a character who was a reality TV star who, after being on a hit show, suddenly his star begins to fade. And there is a newer, younger, sexier version of him who's getting all the accolades and love. And suddenly his rates going through

• 1:03:12Speaker 01

  the floor and what that does to him on a, on a mental health level. And the conversations and research that I was like embedded within, in the build up to writing the screenplay, were incredibly eye opening for me because I was talking to stars from reality TV, past and present, and hearing the difference between people who've been on reality TV 15 years ago and today was heartbreaking, you know, and seeing the way that these kids understand fame and, and what they're searching for, you know, and also recognizing that I'm someone who's hosted reality TV, you know, and I have a really strange and unique relationship with it. So my point is regardless of what it is I'm doing, I care about it. I care

• 1:03:55Speaker 01

  about it. And that's anything from content to product. I have a dairy free ice cream, you know, I have it. It sounds ridiculous, but I have a dairy free ice cream. I'm a creative director and business partner on Blue Skies. But this is a dairy free ice cream that is made in Ghana. It employs 3,000 plus people. The people that work there all look like me and my family. And they are being given an opportunity to not only have a career, but be paid properly. And it's on Amazon Fresh and it's in wait chosen. People here are enjoying it in the summer, not thinking about it. But what it's actually doing is incredible. It's changed the community. And this is something that I'm connected to. So whatever it is I do now, if it doesn't align with my purpose, I don't want to be involved.

• 1:04:39Steven Bartlett?

  Isn't it such a massive, I reflect on this a lot, and especially when I'm speaking to someone that has immigrant parents, that our parents' central concern was survival.

• 1:04:49Speaker 01

  Yes.

• 1:04:49Steven Bartlett?

  And what a privilege it is that people like me and you can sit here and talk about meaning and fulfillment and pursuing a dairy-free ice cream from Guy. It seems like, I think, immigrant children will hopefully understand the weight of that responsibility. When so close in your family tree, there was people literally fighting for survival.

• 1:05:11Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 1:05:12Steven Bartlett?

  I just think that's it.

• 1:05:13Speaker 01

  But the difficult thing about that is, and this is a conversation I'm having a lot, you know, we talk about people becoming fathers. A lot of my friends are from a similar background, you know, black, white, indifferent, whatever, children of immigrants or white working class. Now that they have worked hard and found a level of success and are now becoming the parents, the lives that their children have will be worlds apart from the struggle that they experienced. How do you navigate that relationship with your kid who, for all intents and purposes, is...

• 1:05:47Steven Bartlett?

  Silver spoon.

• 1:05:48Speaker 01

  Is silver spoon. Because you've worked so hard, you've now made it easier for your child. And are you going to be mad at that kid because things are easier? How do you raise that child with the same values, you know?

• 1:05:59Steven Bartlett?

  I hope that's a rhetorical question.

• 1:06:00Speaker 01

  Well, I definitely don't have the answer because I'm single. I'm not even a dad. So I don't have to have that conversation just yet.

• 1:06:06Steven Bartlett?

  Nice segue.

• 1:06:07Speaker 01

  Attending to me.

• 1:06:08Steven Bartlett?

  Okay, so you're single. Talk to me about that. How are you...

• 1:06:14Speaker 01

  Is this me waving a flag? Find a partner? Is that what this is?

• 1:06:17Steven Bartlett?

  Well, yeah, this is like Tinder cast.

• 1:06:18Speaker 01

  Amazing.

• 1:06:19Steven Bartlett?

  So tell me, is Reggie Yates hard to date?

• 1:06:22Speaker 01

  Absolutely.

• 1:06:24Steven Bartlett?

  Why?

• 1:06:24Speaker 01

  For the same reason that you are.

• 1:06:26Steven Bartlett?

  None of your business.

• 1:06:27Speaker 01

  It's the truth. It's the truth. And I have a feeling everything I'm about to say you will identify with. And that is the, disclaimer, everything I'm about to say will probably make me sound like a massive prat, so please don't judge.

• 1:06:46Speaker 01

  You're not like a lot of people, uh, you're not like most of your friends because of the life that you've chosen for yourself and more importantly, the person that you've had to be to become the person that you are, which as a result means that your dating pool is small because if we're talking about someone beyond uh being attractive and needing to have the value system or the outlook or and this is the really difficult thing, the understanding that you require, it suddenly becomes incredibly hard. And uh, one of the stumbling blocks I've found is hoping that someone will become the person that I really feel that I need in terms of their understanding of me, um, or expecting them to.

• 1:07:30Steven Bartlett?

  Hmm.

• 1:07:30Speaker 01

  And in doing the work and realising the role that I play in that, I've been at different times, very responsible in that, that those moments of conflict, shall we say.

• 1:07:42Steven Bartlett?

  Hmm.

• 1:07:42Speaker 01

  Whereas today, I'm just very clear about uh who I am and also what I need. And I think if you're very open and honest about that in the beginning, it makes it easier, but it doesn't make it easy. And the pool continues to shrink the more my world changes because uh, a guy that was like a mentor for me always described me as a moving target. It's like, Reg, we're moving targets, bro. Like, it's never gonna be easy because you continue to learn, you continue to work on yourself and you continue to have that hunger to be better for yourself and for others. And it's incredibly difficult to find someone that is either on

• 1:08:23Speaker 01

  the same path or has the empathy and understanding for you and the path that you're on and the knock on effects that that will have romantically.

• 1:08:31Steven Bartlett?

  So you said two things there that I really wanted to jump back to.

• 1:08:34Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 1:08:34Steven Bartlett?

  Before we proceed um with this topic, you said you've come to learn who you are and what you need.

• 1:08:40Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 1:08:40Steven Bartlett?

  Who are you and what do you need?

• 1:08:42Speaker 01

  Um, I'm a fiercely creative person with a very young spirit who needs friendship and understanding and empathy.

• 1:08:56Speaker 01

  Um. As a writer, you know, when you're building characters, uh, one of my favorite things to do for my characters is is write down what is the lie your character believes? And I think for the longest time, I believed that I would find a female me and I couldn't imagine anything worse today.

• 1:09:11Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 1:09:12Speaker 01

  Um. And also, you know, you have to understand the difference between your character's wants and needs, which is why I find writing so cathartic because I'm essentially doing therapy on me as I'm creating different versions of me at different points in my life. And it's never going to be easy to be in a relationship with someone like myself or imagine you because we are moving targets.

• 1:09:34Steven Bartlett?

  I'm a hawk in the park. Um.

• 1:09:38Steven Bartlett?

  Going back, so what is it?

• 1:09:38Speaker 01

  Are you single?

• 1:09:39Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 1:09:41Speaker 01

  How's that walk going for you? It's good?

• 1:09:44Steven Bartlett?

  Okay, so going back to what I need, what does, what does, and I find this so fascinating because you've described it there, like, I've been on this journey over the last 10 years where what I thought I needed, if you'd asked me 10 years ago, I would have gone, this hair color, these eyes, this waist size, this fashion sense. And as I've got older and older, it's just come down to these like fundamental, I guess, principles or values.

• 1:10:03Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 1:10:04Steven Bartlett?

  And now there's basically only three of them, but I wanna, I really wanna know where you are with what you think you need now.

• 1:10:10Speaker 01

  I think it's very simple. Uh, it's to be with someone that I can love unconditionally and that will love me back unconditionally. That's the simplest version of it. And that is flaws and all. And I think it's also the desire to be understood and also the ability to understand.

• 1:10:31Steven Bartlett?

  Cause I feel like, Reg, I feel like there's a lot of women out there that would love you unconditionally. And I still feel like that might not be enough.

• 1:10:38Speaker 01

  Um, that's an interesting point. I don't know. I think.

• 1:10:42Steven Bartlett?

  Cause I've had exes that loved me, I genuinely know, I'm thinking of one in particular, loved me unconditionally.

• 1:10:47Speaker 01

  Mm hmm.

• 1:10:48Steven Bartlett?

  But it wasn't enough.

• 1:10:49Speaker 01

  Okay, so the, the point I was about to make, and I think that this is something that might, I don't know, I'm interested to see if this, this speaks to you, is the understanding part of it, right? I say understanding and it feels like quite a blanket term. But what I mean by that is.

• 1:11:05Speaker 01

  Culture is such a huge thing for me, you know, like I'm walking around at the moment with this tiny little chain on, but the pendants on it are Junyame, which is a Ghanaian symbol, uh, which means trust in God. I've got a little Africa symbol and I've also got my family crest, right? I don't even think about these things anymore, but when I think about what I have on me, literally.

• 1:11:30Speaker 01

  My family is incredibly important to me, my relationship with my spirit is incredibly important to me and where I'm from are incredibly important to me. And there is a huge difference between empathy and understanding and being in a relationship with someone that doesn't understand those three pendants.

• 1:11:47Speaker 01

  And doesn't, well, if they don't understand those three pendants, they won't understand me. So when I say understanding, I speak to that. And it's very easy to say that you can love someone unconditionally. But when you're someone like you or I, who meets a thousand people a week, some on the street, some in situations like this, some through crew that you will never meet again. You long to come home, look at your partner and not need to say anything and for them to understand you. And that's why understanding is such a huge part of it.

• 1:12:20Steven Bartlett?

  Professionally as well, right? Because you, because you, I mean, your work's going to take you all over the world and, you know, an insecure partner might think, oh, they might be trying to compete with your work. They might be jealous of your work, they might, well, does that mean he doesn't love me? He's spending X amount of time away in a jail cell, like what about me?

• 1:12:39Speaker 01

  It's part of it.

• 1:12:39Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 1:12:40Speaker 01

  Because work is and isn't work. Um, it's a part of who I am, you know, I go to the cinema twice a week. I've just put a, a movie theater in my home and God forbid anybody tell me that I shouldn't be in there as much as I intend to be. Movies have got me where I am and have helped. I, I learnt to shave watching Danny Glover teach his son how to shave a lethal weapon. Films are a huge part of my life and you've got to understand that, you know, uh, you have to understand me professionally just as much as you do emotionally, spiritually and culturally.

• 1:13:16Steven Bartlett?

  Do you think in relationships you're selfish?

• 1:13:18Speaker 01

  I definitely was, not so much now. And I learned the hard way. I've been in failed relationships and I've also, even in my most recent relationship, my desire to understand only went so far. And I've, you know, done some more work on myself and ultimately it didn't work out. But I think I understand why and I definitely understand the role that I played in that.

• 1:13:40Steven Bartlett?

  Last question on this particular, but you can just throw it back at me if you want to, because I've just been like refusing to give my perspective here. Because I really, I really gained a lot from this kind of conversation.

• 1:13:48Speaker 01

  Yeah, sure.

• 1:13:49Steven Bartlett?

  If you spoke to your former partners, what would be the one common theme as to why they think the relationship didn't work?

• 1:13:59Speaker 01

  I think my, my previous partners will say that I always operated with the best intentions, but didn't listen enough. And listening is so important. Oh my God, especially if you've got a lot to say. And especially if you, you've done work and you know stuff, you think you know stuff. You can, and I certainly did in my twenties, fall into this belief that I knew enough. And I didn't need to listen to you because you don't know as much as me. I mean, it's incredibly unhealthy and potentially quite toxic. So yeah, I think my biggest failure romantically has been to not listen.

• 1:14:37Steven Bartlett?

  Interesting.

• 1:14:38Speaker 01

  Well.

• 1:14:39Steven Bartlett?

  I think, I think I've been very uncompromising and I'd say selfish. I think I'm definitely probably in relationships, other than my ex, who I've, who's taught me a ton of really important lessons about myself and about patience and about just really realizing that because I used to, once upon a time when I was younger, I used to think it was all about findings. I've said this in the last podcast, but finding someone that was perfect. So again, I was, I was in search of like the female equivalent of me that was like super career orientated, had the same beliefs as me, saw the world would give me, but it was such a contradiction because I wanted them at my beck and call, but then also wanted them to be busy. And when you analyze what I was looking for, of course it didn't exist. So the question in my mind moved from being, are they perfect? Are they worth it? And

• 1:15:24Steven Bartlett?

  when it becomes, are they worth it? It's an immediate appreciation for their and your lack of imperfection. And also that there's going to be some really tough, difficult times where it doesn't make sense to you. They're worrying about something irrational. They're upset about something that would never have upset you. But you have to, as you said earlier, you have to listen. And you don't have to agree. And in fact, you don't have to tell them that you disagree.

• 1:15:50Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 1:15:51Steven Bartlett?

  You just have to listen and hear them out. And that's a skill that I've honed more recently in my, my last slash current relationship where even if I don't agree on everything, I listen and I will hear them out. And yeah, I'm learning the lesson.

• 1:16:07Speaker 01

  How much do you take who you are professionally into your romantic relationships?

• 1:16:11Steven Bartlett?

  It's a perfect question to follow up with. Um, no, no surprise that you do what you do because that's literally what I, what I've, what I always ask people, which is in work context, I've been taught or in order to succeed, I've had to be someone, a set of values, a way of speaking, a, a lack of compromise, a clarity of vision.

• 1:16:31Speaker 01

  And it's worked out.

• 1:16:31Steven Bartlett?

  And it works out. So I'll come home at night and I'm like, same clarity of vision, same like, no motherf-

• 1:16:39Speaker 01

  There were emotions and somebody else's feelings involved.

• 1:16:42Steven Bartlett?

  I want, if she wants to go to the park and do a walk, I'm trying to, from my business perspective, trying to understand what the ROI on that is.

• 1:16:50Speaker 01

  But that's not my step.

• 1:16:51Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah. Like what the hell are we doing having a picnic? Like I've got money, you know, so I've got money to make or something, but I've, I've had to realize that I have to be two Steves to succeed or different Steves to be succeed in different parts of my life in certain contexts. In a boardroom, if I'm doing a deal with a, one of the CEOs of the biggest brands in the world, who is smashing his pen on the desk, telling me I'm an idiot and I'm at war with him. We're friends, but this is how these, some of these people do business. I have to be a certain person, right? The person I have to be when my partner tells me something like, you know, about their personal spiritual beliefs that I might not understand in the full context is completely different. It's not about being right or winning in that context. It's about listening, trying, seeking to understand.

• 1:17:35Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 1:17:36Steven Bartlett?

  And trying, if I can, to try and find the, the sort of mutual bridge in which we, we both share values, even if the words we're using are different.

• 1:17:44Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 1:17:45Steven Bartlett?

  And I've been on that journey for the last, I'd say two years because of this person I met who.

• 1:17:51Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah, who taught me those lessons.

• 1:17:52Speaker 01

  It's empathy and understanding, isn't it? Ultimately, that's what it comes down to.

• 1:17:55Steven Bartlett?

  What about you on that on that question you asked me there about the person you are in work?

• 1:17:59Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 1:17:59Steven Bartlett?

  And then the person you aren't.

• 1:18:00Speaker 01

  Well, work has to be quite black and white in a lot of ways, doesn't it? You have to be very clear and clinical about what needs to get done to achieve the thing. And that's just not the case when you're dealing with a human being. If the thing is having a nice dinner and having a conversation where everybody feels heard, you can't be black and white about that. There is a grey area that relationships, romantic, platonic, professional, whatever, that they they can operate in that require wriggle room. And I think that at my worst, I've not allowed for wriggle room when it comes to somebody's outlook or perspective.

• 1:18:43Speaker 01

  Ultimately, I am very happy that I am where I am. And I think I've ultimately made the right decisions in terms of my relationship choices. And whoever I end up with hopefully will be the best version of themselves. And I will be the best version of myself and will figure it out. But what seems to keep coming up for me is what the foundations of any healthy relationship actually are. And the foundation for me that I'm in search of is friendship. I think if I want to not only spend time with you in the way that I would a friend, but also I'm kind to you in the way that I am to my friends in terms of allowances and allowing for being wrong and also figuring it out.

• 1:19:26Speaker 01

  And also having a healthy conversation about something when you're on different sides of the argument. Bringing that into my romantic relationships has already started conversations in a way that feel healthier than anything I've ever experienced before.

• 1:19:40Steven Bartlett?

  How how did your parents? How do you think your parents' relationship has impacted your ability to form relationships?

• 1:19:47Speaker 01

  Massively.

• 1:19:48Steven Bartlett?

  Yes.

• 1:19:48Speaker 01

  Massively.

• 1:19:50Speaker 01

  Again, you know, we're talking about the journey of others. So I'll try and be as respectful as I can, but.

• 1:19:58Speaker 01

  As an adult who is now a lot older than my parents were when they had me,

• 1:20:04Speaker 01

  I'm able to have a little clarity on their decision making and understanding that their age probably played a big part in some of the decisions that they made. I'm sure it's the same for you, you know, you look at friends who get married in their early twenties or essentially find their life partner before they've had a life. And you can have an opinion on it, but you're not necessarily gonna be right because there's no way of knowing. You can have an assumption as to where it's gonna go and how it's gonna play out because let's face it, who you are at twenty one is infinitely different to who you are at twenty nine, let alone thirty plus.

• 1:20:43Speaker 01

  I just try my hardest to be as kind as I can to the decisions that my parents made

• 1:20:49Speaker 01

  and how that in turn affected me. Because I think culturally now we live in an era where we think more about our

• 1:20:57Speaker 01

  how our behavior affects others than ever before. And you know, the way in which my stepfather spoke to me at one point or the way in which they interacted in front of us as kids. Shouting. Whatever it was, you know, I don't think it ever occurred to them the effect that that might have. Yeah. That's not because they're bad people, that's because culturally that wasn't even in the conversation at that time. So I hold no judgment towards parents from that generation. I've got no excuse though, because you know, when I'm a parent, I know better, I've had ten years plus of therapy and also I exist in the self-help generation where we've read every book and we have conversations like this and I have conversations like this with my friends and I know for a fact that my dad and my stepfather

• 1:21:43Speaker 01

  wouldn't sit around with their group of predominantly black friends and have conversations about, you know, healthy relationships and mental health, et cetera. So this is the last time I'll mention them because I feel like I've said so much about them. But again, Richard and Emma, when I went to their house for the first time in Notting Hill and I walked in and saw this sign on the wall, it broke my heart and excited me in a way that I've never been excited before. And those two conflicting emotions, such a visceral moment that I had that no one in the room was aware of. They've got a bunch of kids. Uh, they have this lovely house where all their kids at the time lived at home. And there was this neon sign on the wall that said, everything is going to be okay.

• 1:22:25Speaker 01

  With literally in lights on the wall in their house where their children were growing up.

• 1:22:31Speaker 01

  And it grounded me to the spot when I saw it, because I thought.

• 1:22:35Speaker 01

  Subconsciously, what is that doing to these children? That they are safe as a message in lights is something that they walk past every day.

• 1:22:47Speaker 01

  To me, that's what love looks like. It's.

• 1:22:52Speaker 01

  Being able to tell someone you love them without having to say anything. Based on the environment you've created, based on who you are for them and them feeling safe. That to me was in one moment, a real.

• 1:23:10Speaker 01

  A real sort of opener in terms of what I would be searching for and should be searching for. That feeling of safety from someone that doesn't need to be said.

• 1:23:20Steven Bartlett?

  Is that, is that in part because you didn't feel like you fully had that when you were growing up?

• 1:23:23Speaker 01

  Definitely. I think it's partially because of what I grew up in. And partially because of the relationships that experience up until that point, you know?

• 1:23:32Steven Bartlett?

  It's funny, because you, you know.

• 1:23:36Steven Bartlett?

  A lot of things can, we can sometimes play, play defense, play defense, but it turns out, well, we, we think we're playing defense, but it turns out to be self harm. So we reject the chance of safety. Because we're not comfortable with it. It's kind of like what I was describing when I was 14 and Jasmine told me she loved me. I was playing self-defense, but it was in fact self-harm.

• 1:24:00Speaker 01

  You're trying to protect yourself in doing what feels right in the moment, but ultimately. You're killing something that could have been incredible. I think we've all been there and I certainly have, definitely. I'm just really thankful that I don't do it anymore. I remember sort of rejecting this idea of.

• 1:24:18Speaker 01

  Of who my family was and how much of an impact that had on me. And then when I embraced it and I embraced the good and the bad, I was able to see so much of the good. You know, my father, who I don't have a relationship with, is an incredible musician. He's still part of a band to this day. And, you know, I put on his album and I cry. Cause it's like this man brings so much beauty and joy to strangers. He wasn't able to give it to me, but I'm objectively able to find that beauty in the art that he creates today.

• 1:24:46Steven Bartlett?

  You cry when you listen to your biological fathers?

• 1:24:48Speaker 01

  Particularly one song, Jesus Christ.

• 1:24:49Steven Bartlett?

  Which song?

• 1:24:51Speaker 01

  Uh, it's called Jojo's Song. So we have the same name. Um, um, he's called Reginald Yates, I'm Reginald Yates. And um, he's, well, obviously our name's called your, uh, based on the day that he's born, I'm Qabna, I'm Tuesday. And so everyone calls him Jojo, right? So it's Jojo's Song. And it's a song where he's singing and playing the thumb piano and it's just, oh my God. It's beautiful. And to know that this man who for chunks of my teens, I really resented because I felt that he wasn't there for me. Has this beauty in him, moves me to tears whenever I listen to him sing.

• 1:25:22Steven Bartlett?

  And have you forgiven him?

• 1:25:24Speaker 01

  I forgave him a long time ago because

• 1:25:28Speaker 01

  I think it was, like I said, the point when some of my friends started to become fathers. You realize that not everybody is gonna get it right and not everybody's cut out for it. And I was just unfortunate to not have one of those world's greatest dad guys. I ended up getting a dad that just really wasn't ready to, to do it or grow up.

• 1:25:46Speaker 01

  And I can't be mad at him for his journey that brought him to being the man that he was when he became a father.

• 1:25:52Steven Bartlett?

  And on that point, and just to conclude that point of the relationships love point, do you think you're ready to be in that relationship that you said you, you think you need?

• 1:26:01Speaker 01

  Yeah, I think so. Uh, I think because I'm on my journey professionally and the worry of not getting there, which could affect you romantically, doesn't exist anymore for me. Uh, that's a huge thing that is taken out of the equation of who I am romantically. I think because of the age that I am and the experiences that I've had. I'm very close to being who I will be for the foreseeable. Yes, I am a moving target, but the target's moving a lot slower now, you know. The things that are changing in me aren't as big as they were in my teens into my twenties. So, meeting someone today and being with them in five years, I don't envisage us being totally different people.

• 1:26:37Steven Bartlett?

  It's so interesting.

• 1:26:38Speaker 01

  Which makes things easier, no?

• 1:26:39Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah, sure. They just, I love that point and you talk about the moving target. The way that I've come to learn to, to, to sort of mentally understand it in my mind is like, you imagine two lines and then from this point onwards, the lines start moving. And if they are one percent, if say the Reggie Yates line is just one percent to the right, you and the other line will move apart over time. And I think, I love what you said there about like, I think I'll be a similar person in five years' time, which means that like the degree of separation won't be.

• 1:27:12Speaker 01

  It's less, yeah.

• 1:27:13Steven Bartlett?

  So I think, yeah, that's a.

• 1:27:15Speaker 01

  Well, the greater journey has been made up until this point, and I mean that personally, in terms of my development in knowing who I am, the level of self-confidence I have and also what I'm fighting for, has suddenly been crystallized because as someone who has the ability to do lots of different things, I was running around trying to figure out who I was supposed to be and at the same time worrying about what I was leaving behind for so many years. Whereas now, I've tried loads of different things, I've had lots of different kinds of relationships, I've travelled, I've done all these different things that I know what I want for me. And I also, I feel fairly confident, I wouldn't say I know, but I feel fairly confident about what love looks like for me, what success looks like for me and what fulfillment feels like for me,

• 1:28:00Speaker 01

  which instantly makes picking a partner or being chosen a lot easier.

• 1:28:05Steven Bartlett?

  In that stage where you're running around trying to figure out who, who you are.

• 1:28:09Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 1:28:10Steven Bartlett?

  For me, that was a very insecure stage in my life. I talked to you, I said Lamb, I thought I wanted Lamborghinis, right? But that's what, and it's funny because in that stage when you're, you're most insecure and you're most searching for answers, what I tend to see, especially on Instagram these days, is that is the stage where people arrive at the conclusion that they need a romantic partner to complete them, right?

• 1:28:29Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 1:28:29Steven Bartlett?

  And it's in fact, what you've described is no motherfucker, like that's the stage where you need to do the self-work.

• 1:28:34Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 1:28:35Steven Bartlett?

  And then people form these like, oh, well, I had a huge gap, so I filled it with a romantic solution.

• 1:28:40Speaker 01

  Yeah. And you complete me is one of the most dangerous statements ever, right? Because you don't.

• 1:28:48Speaker 01

  And eventually, we're both gonna realise that I don't complete you and you don't complete me. You've got to be complete to meet someone who's complete, to begin something new together. And it's that, um, the idea of, you know, your life, their life and the shared life, right? And being willing to recognise that they have to have a life separate from yours. And as you do, for you to build something together that's separate and different. And I'm excited about that because I feel as though my universe looks the way that I've always wanted it to. I love the friends that I have, you know, they're like family to me. Uh, I love the home that I have. I love the relationships that I have with my, my mother's like my mate now. It's really lovely. And all of that has been work that

• 1:29:31Speaker 01

  I've had to do on my own. So now I can come to the table as a healthy grown up and make healthy conversation and have, have healthy decision making, you know?

• 1:29:40Steven Bartlett?

  Damn, society wants you to rush it though, doesn't it?

• 1:29:43Speaker 01

  It really does. It really does. But I mean, our, our parents' generation all got married a lot younger than we did. And look at the divorce rates.

• 1:29:50Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 1:29:51Speaker 01

  I think being happy with who you are first is imperative to being able to recognise someone who is happy within themselves.

• 1:29:59Steven Bartlett?

  Your work, you're doing so much at the moment. This is kind of where I wanted to, to end this is you're doing so much across, you know, your books, you know, your podcasts. I think you've taken a little bit of a break on at the moment.

• 1:30:10Speaker 01

  Yeah, yeah, I'm gonna get back to that, but that's another conversation.

• 1:30:13Steven Bartlett?

  Your documentaries, your business. What are you most excited about? And what does the future look like? What is the big professional? I mean, if there is one, what's the big professional? I don't, I don't mean milestones. I mean, the big professional feeling. You know what I mean?

• 1:30:29Speaker 01

  The big professional feeling is being creatively fulfilled in broad terms. In more specific terms, it's my business. Um, we haven't, uh, actively launched yet, but we are working and operating and that is five seven. So I have a company called five seven, uh, which is a people, product and content business, which has a cause arm. We have past the mind, which is a platform that we created for young creatives, which is growing and doing really beautiful things in terms of empowering diverse voices, right the way through to content. We make everything from feature films like pirates or, you know, make me famous. Um, uh, right the way through to, uh, product like blue skies. So everything that we do at five seven.

• 1:31:12Speaker 01

  Has the fingerprints of my outlook on the world. And this idea of understanding the power of platform, like there are so many people that get to a point of notoriety and start selling slim tea. And there is no judgment on anybody that does that, but I.

• 1:31:32Steven Bartlett?

  I judge you. Reggie doesn't, but I do.

• 1:31:35Speaker 01

  I judge you a little. I always go back to that mum in the street who stopped me and said, you're a role model for my kid. And me hating it and then finally coming around to realising I have no choice in the matter. If you have an opportunity to make movies, to sell products, to make TV shows, to create a cause-led initiative.

• 1:31:56Speaker 01

  Why not make it good? Why not make it speak to what you care about? Why not make it something that can actively inspire other people to be better than you are and do more than you've ever done? So for me, empowering others is a huge part of my drive right now. And working with young, talented people inspires me to be better. And as a result, I feel incredibly fulfilled, you know, I don't see myself as a mentor, but I've technically mentored three or four people. And they're like my little brothers and sisters now, that's how I see them. They're my friends who come around for dinner, football or whatever. And, you know, guys and girls will call me and ask for advice on their relationship or on a decision that they have to make professionally. And I love that I have that relationship with people because I never had it growing up.

• 1:32:39Speaker 01

  I had these bits of dad, but I never had the big brother, you know? There was always a distance between me and the person that was helping guide me. Shortening that distance for me in the lives of others is what success feels like. So the big thing is being creatively fulfilled, financially free. And ultimately, understanding what it feels to love and be loved, really.

• 1:33:08Steven Bartlett?

  And that's a journey.

• 1:33:09Speaker 01

  That's what we hope for.

• 1:33:11Steven Bartlett?

  In your own view, what is, what is your potential?

• 1:33:14Speaker 01

  Unlimited. And I don't say that because I think I'm LeBron James, because I definitely can't dunk like LeBron. But I do think that, well, I don't think, I know, anything that I've wanted to do, like really wanted to do. And I've really worked for, I've achieved.

• 1:33:34Speaker 01

  And because that has happened, it can happen in any way, shape or form.

• 1:33:40Speaker 01

  My mother believes that she's quite a spiritual woman, as most West African women are. I'm sure, I'm sure you've got your stories, but she believes that everybody's born with a gift, right? My mother believed that my gift is to see and to communicate. And she always said that to me since I was a kid, you know, you can see and you can communicate. And the communication thing has sort of panned out. You know, essentially how I pay my bills, sharing ideas. And the the see part of it is quite ambiguous in a lot of ways because what I've come to understand that to mean is that, you know, as a kid, I used to dream quite vivid things and they would all come to pass. To, you know, learning about self and doing some reading, going to some seminars, watching some stuff.

• 1:34:22Speaker 01

  You understand things about manifestation, all the rest of it, and that dream thing has sort of changed into manifestation in a lot of ways. And when things start to happen that you had in your head, it teaches you that you can do anything. And that's how I feel right now. I feel like I can do anything. I had an idea at a funeral of all places. Two years later, it's a movie that is coming out in cinemas. And I genuinely think that anything that I put my heart to and my mind to, I can I can make happen, I can make real.

• 1:34:52Steven Bartlett?

  If that's your worldview and you you believe that and you've seen it and you've got evidence for it in your life, that when you think about something, when you see it, you can then create it. Is it frustrating when you speak to friends, close friends, other people who express their dreams to you? That they don't have that too?

• 1:35:11Speaker 01

  No, it's not frustrating.

• 1:35:13Steven Bartlett?

  It winds me right up.

• 1:35:13Speaker 01

  No, but you can't, you can't be like that. And I'm I'm very, I'm very specific about words sometimes. I try to be anyway. I hate saying the word can't, but I feel really strongly about this. You can't allow yourself to think that way because who they are is based on their journey. And they may beat that and get beyond that, but you can't be mad at someone for where they are on their own trajectory. Yeah, it's so it's like when I because I have the same worldview where I've built those case person case studies in my life that I could go from being in Moss Side stealing Chicago town pizzas to believe to believing and chasing that dream failing along the way messing up failing whatever but being able to create the the life that I that I was

• 1:35:54Speaker 01

  aiming for and so when I see friends who express their dreams to me and I deeply believe that whatever like we're not talking about going to Mars right we're talking about I wanna be a whatever or I wanna try I know they can do it every part of me knows it's possible because I've seen behind the curtain and and they have what it takes and to be fair when I started I had like my maths is shit my English is shit my parents weren't speaking to me we don't come from a family that had any money so I I know that the belief the self belief alone the foundation of being born in such a privileged country is is more than they need to go after that and I just have this fucking thing in me where I'm like

• 1:36:32Speaker 01

  you know I'm like you can and it and it you know I I definitely I I get you and I hear you because I've definitely felt that before especially when it comes to young people that want you to help them or that want you to mentor them and you take a chance on someone and you give them all the information you give them the blueprint you give them all the tools and they still don't listen or they agree and they do the total opposite mate it's like practice for parenting isn't it people that you love or invested in aren't necessarily always gonna do what you think they should do and you can't be mad at them for it because it's their journey and that is something that I'm incredibly thankful

• 1:37:17Speaker 01

  for that the people that I've had around me have allowed me to not listen and make mistakes or go in another direction like I had a huge huge desire to be a musician for a long time and I was making music and I was offered a publishing deal and I was collaborating with everyone from I mean I won't even say the names but you know I made an album and I had a deal on the table. And I I was adamant that this was what I was gonna do. I was gonna be the first person that could host Top of the Pops and perform on it. Like, that was that was my thing, right? And when my, God rest his soul, music lawyer at the time, Richard Antri, sat me down and said, okay, you see that Top of the Pops that you're hosting? You see that Radio One show that you got? You're gonna have to leave all of that, bro, to do this, because you're gonna tour, you're gonna be

• 1:38:00Speaker 01

  in studio, we're gonna send you here, there, and there. The label will want you to record and blah, blah. And I was like, I don't wanna give all that up. And it was like, all right, so are we gonna sign this thing or not? And I walked away from what would have been another career,

• 1:38:15Speaker 01

  because ultimately, it wasn't what I was supposed to do. And I wasn't willing to give up the thing that I love, but I needed to spend three or four years of wasting the time of people that were producers and and and singer songwriters who'd come and collaborate with me. And people gave studios were giving me free time, record labels were offering me contracts, and they were rewriting them. All of this investment into me, for me to say, now, I'm just gonna go back and do what I was doing before I met all of you lot. Sorry, you know? I've done it. I can't be mad at someone else who's doing a similar thing, because there is that point in your life where you have to figure out through mistakes or through trial and error, what you're ultimately supposed to do.

• 1:38:59Steven Bartlett?

  Amen.

• 1:39:00Speaker 01

  I'm glad you agree.

• 1:39:01Steven Bartlett?

  No, I do.

• 1:39:02Speaker 01

  Because I would love you to challenge.

• 1:39:03Steven Bartlett?

  No, I love, but I, that's why I do it, because I know, listen, I know that I'm like, so so many of my approaches and so many areas of my life are so imperfect, but I love getting the perspective from someone else, because everything you've said, I completely agree with. And of course, you're, of course, you're right. But I still contend with that feeling, because there's this, there's this like bias in me that I've had, it's weakened over time, but really wants people to

• 1:39:29Steven Bartlett?

  feel what I feel in my life. And and that is an awful bias, because it's. Projecting my own values and worldview and what I think happiness for everyone looks like onto them. So I, yeah.

• 1:39:44Speaker 01

  You're not the only one.

• 1:39:45Steven Bartlett?

  You know.

• 1:39:45Speaker 01

  I a million percent have done that myself.

• 1:39:47Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 1:39:48Speaker 01

  And.

• 1:39:48Steven Bartlett?

  Even in relationships, right?

• 1:39:49Speaker 01

  Absolutely. Absolutely. If you do this, you're gonna be like this, which means you're gonna be just like me and you're gonna be great.

• 1:39:55Steven Bartlett?

  The most frustrating one is when you say to someone, you say, what do you want? And they go, this. And you go, okay, here's how you get it. And they go, oh, fuck, you know? And you're like, well, you said you wanted that. This isn't, that isn't even my worldview. You said you wanna be a Costa Rican belly dancer. Here is the course. And they're like, no.

• 1:40:10Speaker 01

  Well, the truth is uncomfortable, right?

• 1:40:12Steven Bartlett?

  Yeah.

• 1:40:12Speaker 01

  And it's usually, it's usually harder than people want it to be. And that unfortunately, in this conversation, is both the case for someone like yourself, who sat on one side of the table saying, this is what you need to do. And on the other side of the table, the person saying, well, I don't wanna do all of that. And what you both leave with is truth. And that is that you can't control someone else. And that is that you've really got to do the things that you aren't willing to do to get where you want, you know?

• 1:40:38Steven Bartlett?

  Amen. Listen, Reggie, you know, the work you've done with your documentaries, I just think is tremendous. And I think, I remember once upon a time, listening to, I think it was Neil deGrasse Tyson, say that the most important work we can do, or the most important people in our society aren't the people we elect into power, it's the electorate that elect them. And so therefore, the most important, powerful work one can do is educating the electorate. And what that really means for me is like, the way that people think about whether it's sexuality, or regimes in other countries, or whatever it might be, is the way they think dictates who they then elect into power, which then impacts our laws in the society we live in.

• 1:41:15Steven Bartlett?

  And that's the work you're doing. And I find that to be the most admirable, important work of it all. So thank you for doing that work. Thank you for being a role model. I mean, I've watched you as a young kid, growing up in Plymouth, you know, for, for many a decade. And I, you know, you've been one of the faces that I, even I could relate to on TV because you look like me. And so I wanna thank you for that as well. But also thank you for your time today, because I think the conversation we've had has been very honest, diverse. You've, you know, you've shared things that you didn't have to share. And I know that comes from a very selfless desire to impart value on people that might need it in various areas of their life. So thank you.

• 1:41:48Speaker 01

  That's incredibly kind. Thank you for having me. It's a real pleasure. Thank you.