How Natascha Kampusch Survived Eight Years In Captivity

On March 2, 1998, 10-year-old Austrian girl Natascha Kampusch disappeared on her way to school. What followed was 3,096 days in captivity, hidden inside a soundproof cellar, cut off from the outside world and shaped by fear, control, and a deeply complex psychological dynamic with her captor. Journalist Rahni Sadler spent a lot of time getting to know Natascha, interviewing her in 2011 and again in 2016, and even visiting the house where she was held. In this episode, she offers insight into Natascha’s story - revealing the quiet strength, nuance, and resilience behind one of the most confronting cases in modern history..... LINKS Find more of Rahni's work here https://www.linkedin.com/in/rahnisadler/?originalSubdomain=au. If any of the contents in this episode have caused distress, know that there is help available via Lifeline on 13 11 14 or Beyond Blue on 1300 22 4636. GET IN TOUCH Follow us on Instagram and TikTok @truecrimeconversations https://www.instagram.com/truecrimeconversations/?hl=en Want us to cover a case on the podcast? Email us at [email protected] mailto:[email protected] or send us a voice note. https://help.mamamia.com.au/en-US/send-a-podcast-voice-note-467960 Make sure to leave us a rating and review on Apple & Spotify to let us know how you're liking the episodes. CREDITS Guest: Rahni Sadler https://www.imdb.com/name/nm0533976/Host: Gemma Bath https://www.linkedin.com/in/gemmabath/?originalSubdomain=au Senior Producer: Tahli Blackman https://www.linkedin.com/in/tahli-blackman-205a891b7/?originalSubdomain=au Group Executive Producer: Ilaria Brophy Video Editor: Julian Rosario Audio Engineer: Jacob Round Mamamia acknowledges the traditional owners of the land on which we have recorded this podcast. Become a Mamamia subscriber: https://www.mamamia.com.au/subscribe https://www.mamamia.com.au/subscribe See omnystudio.com/listener https://omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

• 0:01Speaker 00

  It's March 2nd, 1998, in Vienna, Austria. And 10-year-old Natasha Kampusch is walking to school. Usually, her mum drives her, but they had a fight, so she's decided to make her own way. Suddenly, a white van pulls up next to her, and a man gets out and grabs her, throwing her inside before slamming the door. He drives her to a house outside the city and locks her inside a secret, soundproof dungeon, custom-made for this very moment. The room is dark. There's no windows. It's tiny, only a few square metres with a heavy steel door and a few basic bits of furniture: a narrow bed, a small sink, a table.

• 0:46Speaker 00

  This is to become Natasha's prison, her home for the next 3,096 days.

• 0:59Speaker 00

  I'm Gemma Bath, and you're listening to True Crime Conversations, a podcast exploring the world's most notorious crimes by speaking to the people who know the most about them. Just a heads up, this episode mentions physical and sexual abuse as well as suicide. Two years after her escape, after nearly a decade in captivity, Natasha bought the house that she was imprisoned in. Many found the move unsettling, strange. Some found it symbolic. Why on earth would she want to own the place that caused her so much harm? But Natasha was never the perfect victim, not in the media and public's eyes, anyway. She was criticised for the way she held herself

• 1:44Speaker 00

  in the wake of her escape: too composed, not emotional enough, all ugly expectations from armchair experts who could never in their wildest dreams imagine her experience. Natasha's story is remarkable. She survived the unsurvivable. And our guest today had the privilege of interviewing her and visiting the property she was kept at. Watching Natasha's Sunday night interview with Channel 7 journalist Rani Sadler is fascinating because as they approached the front door, the then 28-year-old turns to Rani and asks, "Are you feeling okay coming in here?" The care, the concern, just a small insight into

• 2:24Speaker 00

  the bravery of this woman, more worried about her guest than herself while revisiting her trauma. Rani joins us now to share more about her interactions with Natasha. Rani, thanks for joining us on True Crime Conversations. Tell me about meeting Natasha. You've met her and interviewed her twice. Was she what you were expecting?

• 2:46Speaker 01

  Hmm, that is a really interesting question. I would say no. I had seen her interviewed, the very famous interview of her when she was first released that she didn't want to do. She was a very young, slim girl. Of course, she was emaciated because he starved her. And as a result of him starving her, she herself speaks about her love of food. And so she was a much bigger person, which I didn't find confronting. She just looked very different to how I imagined she was going to. But it wasn't the way she looked that surprised me so much. It was her manner. And it's really difficult to explain who

• 3:28Speaker 01

  she is, but we'll get into that further. It's just who she is, the command she has of herself, the incredibly independent, confident woman that she is, but one of the most complex characters I have ever met.

• 3:41Speaker 00

  She has mostly stopped giving interviews now, recently really. Do you know why? Is it just because she's done so many?

• 3:48Speaker 01

  I can completely understand her not wanting to do interviews anymore. She didn't want to do them from the very start, from the first time she was released. She was advised to by the police, and that turned out really badly, her very first interview. They thought she was too confident, she was too composed, so she must have been in on the whole thing. She found that very hard. That was probably pre-Twitter days, but there was still such a public backlash. She went on to do media later on. On for her book and for her other book. And she did, she had her own show. She was just trying to find her own way. But she was never comfortable in front of the camera. And the first interview I did with her, she was extremely uncomfortable.

• 4:31Speaker 01

  The second interview, we spent a lot more time together. We spent a couple of days together and I really got to know her a lot better. And I realised that she just does not like the public spotlight. Because she feels that no matter what she says and no matter how hard she tries to clarify it. People still willfully misinterpret what she says. And she, she, I think she kept doing interviews to try to clarify all these things that had been misinterpreted. And things would just get worse and worse and worse. So I can completely understand her going to ground.

• 5:05Speaker 00

  So how, did you get such an in-depth interview with her and a visit to the house?

• 5:11Speaker 01

  Um, the first time, um, we, it came about because we were doing a story about Madeleine McCann. And we had travelled to Portugal with Madeleine McCann's parents. And back then, it was only about, I think, four years since Madeleine McCann had been kidnapped. And so there was still some hope that she might be alive. Um, and of course, it's nearly 20 years now. So I don't think anyone really thinks she's alive and out there. Who knows? Maybe she is. But that was one of the reasons that we wanted to interview Natasha. Because she was one of these cases where she was kidnapped when she was 10 years old. Everyone assumed that she was dead. Everyone thought she was dead. No one ever thought that this woman was going to emerge running out into the street at 18 years old. That's right. And so that's how the interview came about.

• 5:56Speaker 01

  And we approached her, uh, that was our approach to her, that we wanted to show that there can be hope. That really appealed to her because she's somebody who believes in hope. I mean, she, she is still alive because she held on to her hope.

• 6:11Speaker 00

  Well, she is a, what I got from. Consuming a lot of her interviews is, she is a very positive, confident person.

• 6:19Speaker 01

  It's so hard to describe the person that she, she really is. She is just, she's incredibly intelligent, unbelievably intelligent. And I think that's, that's possibly made things even more difficult for her.

• 6:35Speaker 01

  Keeping in mind that from the age of 10 to the age of 18, she was kept in this basement and her only company was her captor. And occasionally a friend came over, although she didn't really interact with him. So in those formative years, she didn't learn about how to form relationships with people. She didn't learn about all those incredibly important things that we learn about between the age of 10 and 18.

• 6:58Speaker 00

  Well, she didn't go to school.

• 6:59Speaker 01

  She didn't go to school.

• 7:00Speaker 00

  No education really.

• 7:01Speaker 01

  She had a TV which gave her education and that's how she learnt to speak English. And even though she refused to speak English in our first interview, by the end she agreed to speak some English. And she had quite good English, but she's a perfectionist. So she didn't want to speak English because she's such a perfectionist. But she's just such a complex character and such an interesting person.

• 7:22Speaker 00

  Well, let's rewind and tell her story a bit. Who was Natasha prior to the kidnapping? What do we know about her family life and who she was as a 10 year old kid?

• 7:32Speaker 01

  So she lived with both her mum and her dad, they were separated. Her home life wasn't great. She had older siblings and she had, I think there were cousins involved. I know her home life wasn't great. I remember from reading her book, she didn't like talking about it too much. She didn't want to dwell on that. She had issues with her mum before the kidnapping and has had issues with her mum after the kidnapping. So she doesn't like to go into too much of what happened, but we know that it wasn't a happy upbringing. And she has actually commented that she was considering suicide on the day that she was kidnapped.

• 8:05Speaker 00

  Which is crazy, she was 10.

• 8:07Speaker 01

  Yeah, she was 10 years old, but remember, hyper intelligent, hyper aware. So even at 10, she would have been hyper intelligent, hyper aware. Like she thinks about everything to the nth degree. But she had a fight with her mum that day. So she was living in a relatively stable, yet unhappy household. She had a fight with her mum on the way to school, so she walked by herself. And then it's, you know, it's everyone's nightmare for their kid.

• 8:34Speaker 00

  Yeah. What do we know about? What exactly happened? She was walking along the footpath. Was Wolfgang on that street? How did he kind of take her without anyone seeing?

• 8:45Speaker 01

  Well, somebody did see. A kid saw her. So she was walking down the street and he had his white van there. And he just bundled her into this van. He had this big white Mercedes van. And a kid saw what the kid described as two men putting a girl in a van. And so that's how he got her and then slammed the door, um, just drove to his house, but bundled her up in a blanket and then carried her into the cellar that we now know about. But then as a result of this kid seeing this, they pulled over, I think about 800 white vans, including his.

• 9:20Speaker 00

  Oh.

• 9:20Speaker 01

  And they actually visited, police visited his house because he had a van matching the exact description. She was downstairs at the time and he managed to convince them that he was at home, you know, just doing his stuff.

• 9:34Speaker 00

  Stop.

• 9:34Speaker 01

  Truly, she was this close to being found in the weeks after she was kidnapped.

• 9:40Speaker 00

  It could have been such a different story.

• 9:41Speaker 01

  Such a different story for her.

• 9:43Speaker 00

  The house that he took her, what was that area like? That neighbourhood? Was it a kind of kids' families? Was it that kind of vibe? She was just literally in plain sight?

• 9:53Speaker 01

  In plain sight. It was a totally normal neighbourhood. It was a middle-class neighbourhood, lovely houses everywhere, you know, people doing their gardens. Um, it was just the most normal neighbourhood. She was, yeah, hidden in plain sight the entire time. And he even took her out of the house. But the neighbourhood was just like any normal neighbourhood. And people had looked far and wide and they thought she'd been trafficked across the border. And there she was the whole time in the middle of Vienna.

• 10:22Speaker 00

  Like, how far from her home?

• 10:25Speaker 01

  She was as close as 25 kilometres to her own home. So the whole time they're searching far and wide, they're searching other countries. They thought she'd been trafficked across to another, another country.

• 10:36Speaker 00

  There she is.

• 10:37Speaker 01

  And she was just 25 kilometres away from her home all that time.

• 10:41Speaker 00

  So let's talk about Wolfgang for a minute then. Wolfgang Pricklappil. He was a 36-year-old technician. What else do we know about this guy?

• 10:50Speaker 01

  So what we know, or what I know, is what she told me.

• 10:54Speaker 00

  Yeah.

• 10:54Speaker 01

  So it's really interesting that she has compassion for him and that's part of who she is. Even though she didn't go to school and she says she got her education from books and television. She's an incredibly insightful person. We can get into this more, but of course there was some element. She hates the term Stockholm syndrome and says it simplifies things too much. That's, that's very much her personality to argue against being put in a box. And so I don't want to say therefore she had Stockholm syndrome, but it is very much what we think of as Stockholm syndrome. So she told me that he could be very nice to her. That his mother used to come like every couple of weeks and she would have to go downstairs when his mother was there.

• 11:38Speaker 01

  And he was very nice to his mother and he was very nice to his friends. When his friend came over, he was always very lovely. He seemed like a kind man. He seemed handsome. He was well spoken. But at the same time, she said there were two sides to him. So we know that he beat her often. He beat her weekly. He starved her. He starved her so that she couldn't get away. When she was kidnapped, I think she was 45 kilos. And when they bound her eight years later, she was 48 kilos. So we also know that he sexually assaulted her. We know that she was forced to sleep in his bed. She doesn't like to talk about that, understandably.

• 12:16Speaker 00

  Yeah.

• 12:16Speaker 01

  But yes, there was definitely a really horrible side to him.

• 12:21Speaker 00

  I know that you, you mentioned a friend and a mum, but it doesn't sound like he had, you know, a girlfriend or relationships. So like he, he seemed to live quite a lonely life.

• 12:31Speaker 01

  Yeah, he seemed like a loner. He was always described as a loner and it sounds like he was a loner. Cause she was often upstairs at his house and had to go downstairs when people came, except for this one friend.

• 12:42Speaker 01

  And yeah, I think he was definitely a loner and I would suggest that one of the reasons he took her was for company.

• 12:49Speaker 00

  Right. I was gonna say, I think that's one of the things I'm struggling to understand in this case. Why? Why did he take her? Because you mentioned sexual assault, but that doesn't seem to be the main motive.

• 13:00Speaker 01

  No, and that didn't happen for many years. Um, and she even speculates, she, she wonders whether he was waiting until she got to a, a more appropriate age, um, for anything like that to happen, because nothing like that happened for the first three or four years. I think she was about 14 when she first slept in his bed. Again, not an appropriate age by any means. That doesn't seem to be the primary motive. He doesn't seem to have been a pedophile because nothing like that happened at an early age. I think he wanted company and maybe, maybe it was a power thing. Maybe he had no power in his life and so he wanted to have power over somebody. Um, who knows? I, I really don't know, but I kind of feel like because

• 13:44Speaker 01

  of the way she describes him and because she, she was so sad when he died and because they did form a relationship, partly because she pretended that she was his friend, um, to stay alive. But I think a friendship and ultimately formed from that. Yeah, he's just such a complex character and I don't know, we'll never know, we'll never know. I think she's tried to explain it as best she can, but it still doesn't make sense.

• 14:10Speaker 00

  To be clear, he, he hadn't planned to kidnap Natasha. It was just a random girl.

• 14:16Speaker 01

  It was just a random girl. From everything we understand, it was just a random girl. She just happened to be walking down the street that day. Again, it is, it's such an overused statement. Um, every parent's worst nightmare, but that's got to be right up there, that your kid's walking down the street and, you know, is bundled into a van and disappears.

• 14:33Speaker 00

  That is the ultimate stranger danger warning.

• 14:35Speaker 01

  It is the ultimate stranger danger warning. It doesn't happen that often. It really doesn't. But when it does happen, it freaks the hell out of you and it makes everybody not want to let their kid walk down the street. And that's why I guess so few of us let our kids go out and play in the street, you know, as often as they should.

• 14:51Speaker 00

  But he had gone as far as. Pre-plan and create this kind of bunker for many, many months prior. So it was very like premeditated.

• 15:03Speaker 01

  Absolutely premeditated, yeah, because even though it wasn't Natasha he was after, he was certainly after somebody. So there was this wall bunker that had been built under the house. His grandfather built the house, I think, his grandfather or great grandfather. But it was definitely built by his family and there was a bunker down below. And then he had carved it out further. And it was like a five square feet room. And he had even furnished it with stuff for somebody, you know, who would be in there. There was, there was very little when she first went in, but more stuff got in there. But the way he had it shut, like this huge concrete slab went over it and shut.

• 15:47Speaker 01

  And it was absolutely impossible to get out. And her greatest fear the entire time she was there was that something would happen to him. And no one would know she was there and she would just die slowly in that bunker.

• 16:00Speaker 00

  Is it just one of the terrifying things that one woman had to live with?

• 16:05Speaker 01

  Yeah, one, I mean, just imagine that she was, she was so scared because she could hear the car leave. And she was so scared every time he left that, you know, another car would hit him or something would happen to him and.

• 16:18Speaker 00

  Well, you can understand why she would form some kind of relationship because that was her lifeline to the outside world.

• 16:24Speaker 01

  That's right. And she was so smart. She was so smart. And she knew that was the only way she was going to survive. So she was, I think at the very beginning, as a 10 year old kid, she was banging on the wall. She was trying to make noise. She was doing what she could. But she worked out pretty quickly that that just was futile. Nobody could hear her.

• 16:44Speaker 00

  I want to talk a little bit more about what Wolfgang did to her during those years. I've heard her describe that he liked to call her a concentration camp victim. Or like he would treat her like that, like he shaved her head.

• 16:58Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 16:59Speaker 00

  There was a lot of just humiliation amongst the cruelty.

• 17:02Speaker 01

  Yeah. And again, I think that comes from. And this is pop psychology, what do I know, but a lonely man who had no power in his life. He was a communication technician. He just went to his job and came home. He had nothing else going on in his life. Maybe he'd been fantasizing about this for a long time, but he did use her as his little doll. He did shave her head. He did humiliate her. He enjoyed humiliating her. She said he got pleasure from that. If she did the slightest thing wrong, he beat her. As you know, he starved her. All of these things were part of the power, I think, for him. It was all part of a power game. But at the same time, he could sometimes be kind to her and they would have conversations and they ate breakfast

• 17:45Speaker 01

  together every morning. It's just so complicated and weird and all forms part of this whole, you know, it's just so wacky. You just can't even believe it.

• 17:55Speaker 00

  Well, is it true that he planned to make her his wife at one stage?

• 18:00Speaker 01

  Yeah, there are, there are suggestions that he was trying to get passports for both of them so that they could leave the country and then they could marry. And I think she thought that was her future and, and that was just what was going to happen because again, I think she was very torn about the whole situation.

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• 18:53Speaker 00

  Over time, he did start to grant her more privileges. So she did spend the first few years kind of confined downstairs in the bunker. And then over time, he kind of let her come upstairs a bit more.

• 19:05Speaker 00

  You've said like that might have looked like breakfast. What else did that look like? Was she allowed to go out of the house? Was she allowed to go on trips with him?

• 19:13Speaker 01

  So initially it was just coming upstairs to have breakfast. Then he had her coming upstairs to clean and that was her main job upstairs. He would bring her upstairs to clean. Sometimes he would tie her to him, which is kind of weird. He said, you know, so she couldn't escape. But again, I feel like that was to keep him company in a way. Then she was allowed to go out of the house with him. They went to restaurants, they went to shopping centres. She said she tried to get people's attention, but she was terrified in doing that because he had said, if you do anything, I will kill you. And she truly believed that. So when they were at shops or out at restaurants or anything like that, she was trying to make eye contact with people.

• 19:56Speaker 01

  She described to me the eye contact she was trying to make with people, but nobody responded. Nobody understood why this young girl with this man was kind of making weird eyes at them.

• 20:04Speaker 00

  Yeah.

• 20:05Speaker 01

  She even went on a skiing trip with him, which is, again, it's just, it's just all so wacky and forms part of your understanding as to why she's had a really difficult time reintegrating into society. Because her world was just so wacky. Here she is on a skiing trip with her captor, with this guy who has kidnapped her. And you think, well, couldn't she have skied away? I assume he had her at a very close distance.

• 20:34Speaker 00

  Yeah, well, eight years of power and control from when you're a young child. But it sounds like she always wanted to escape. She never kind of gave up on that hope.

• 20:45Speaker 01

  She always hoped that she would have a life outside that bunker.

• 20:49Speaker 00

  Yeah.

• 20:50Speaker 01

  And that's what kept her going. She always believed that that would be possible and that could be possible. And she was thinking of different ways of escape. But at the same time, she was terrified that he would kill her if she attempted to escape. And she failed and he caught her. And I think there was some kind of bond with him as well that kept her there. But by the time she was 18 and she saw her moment, she was ready, he was ready to get out of there.

• 21:19Speaker 00

  Well, that was 2006 when she escaped and it was. Just like a chance moment, really. He left a gate unlocked.

• 21:27Speaker 01

  He did. So she was washing the car. That was part of her duties. She was just cleaning, cleaning, cleaning.

• 21:32Speaker 00

  Always cleaning.

• 21:33Speaker 01

  Always cleaning. And she was helping him wash the car. And he had the vacuum cleaner on to vacuum inside the car. And the phone rang. So he went to take a phone call and he walked away. And the gate was open and he never left the gate open. But I guess he'd kind of been lulled into a false sense of security as well. He felt that she was never going to run away. She saw the gate. She saw him. She described the moment vividly. Just looking at the gate, looking at him, judging the distance. How long would it take her to run? And then she just thought, I'm going for it. She bolted out the gate. She ran down the street. She didn't even know where she was. She'd never even seen the house from the outside properly. You know, she'd always been driven in and out of this driveway.

• 22:14Speaker 01

  So she ran out and she ran down the street. And the incredible thing is the first door she knocked on, that people just told her to go away. So she was knocking on doors, saying, I'm Natasha Kampusch. I'm Natasha Kampusch. And people just said, go away. She eventually got an older lady, an old lady who took her in and called the police. And thank God, she was found.

• 22:37Speaker 00

  She was found, but we never heard from Wolfgang because.

• 22:41Speaker 01

  Because he took his own life. And she said that he always said he would never get caught. He would never allow himself to get caught. And so he threw himself on the train tracks and was run over by a train.

• 22:52Speaker 00

  Was that pretty soon after she was free?

• 22:55Speaker 01

  Yeah, it was almost immediately afterwards. Yeah.

• 22:58Speaker 00

  So it was obviously a plan. He.

• 23:01Speaker 01

  Yes.

• 23:01Speaker 00

  If this happens, I do this.

• 23:03Speaker 01

  Absolutely. Yep. Engaged emergency plan. He did it straight away. So yeah, he was not going to jail. Which is, you know, he could jail her. He was not going to allow the same thing to happen to him.

• 23:14Speaker 00

  How did the outside world, I want to get to how they covered her reappearance because. There's a lot to talk about there, but before she was found, what did the media coverage look like? Because it was eight years really of, I'm assuming like every year it rolls around, they cover the anniversary, but was her family big in talking to the media?

• 23:34Speaker 01

  Um, so initially there was all the media you would expect.

• 23:38Speaker 00

  Yeah.

• 23:38Speaker 01

  Ten year old girl missing, it was huge. Everybody was, you know, there was a lot of coverage, um, very early on. There were anniversaries, but as time went on, it faded away. Um, the case of Madeleine McCann is so unusual in that it does get brought up year after year, partially because the parents are just so active in pushing for that. In her case, I think the story had really waned by the time she appeared. It was still around, there were anniversaries, but I think people had well and truly given her up for dead. I don't think anyone in a million years thought they were going to see her again.

• 24:15Speaker 00

  So that would have been insane coverage when she came out?

• 24:18Speaker 01

  Absolutely insane. Everybody wanted a piece of her. This famous vision of her being, her coming out with a blanket over her head from the police station. Everybody wanted to interview her. She desperately did not want to be interviewed because she wasn't ready to speak. She wasn't sure what she wanted to say. Um, she did speak, everything was misinterpreted. She was then demonized. People said the most horrible things about her. Um, and if you meet her, she is just such a composed person and she was so composed. And because she was so composed and was able to analyse, she was able to already analyse

• 24:58Speaker 01

  and speak about and interpret her experience just, you know, a matter of days and weeks after she had been released. And so people thought, okay, you must have been in on this.

• 25:11Speaker 00

  She wasn't the perfect victim for armchair experts.

• 25:15Speaker 01

  Well, yeah, exactly. She wasn't the perfect victim. She wasn't crying and she wasn't broken and she wasn't, I think they thought she was somebody who probably had spent eight years being beaten up, which is, which is true, but that wasn't constant and sexually abused and, and thought she should come out looking more like a victim and behaving more like a victim and crying and being a broken person. But she had held herself together for those eight, eight years and more power to her.

• 25:41Speaker 00

  It's really ugly, I think, looking back at a lot of that commentary. It was even coming from politicians.

• 25:46Speaker 01

  Oh, yeah.

• 25:47Speaker 00

  Who were criticizing her and judging her story. And this was a 10 year old girl who spent eight years in captivity.

• 25:54Speaker 01

  Mm hmm.

• 25:55Speaker 00

  And has been miraculously found alive. It, it actually blows my mind that society and the media treated her like that.

• 26:02Speaker 01

  Mm hmm.

• 26:03Speaker 00

  It wasn't that long ago.

• 26:04Speaker 01

  No, it wasn't that long ago at all. It wasn't at all. It's just appalling. She was a young woman. She did not deserve that. Hopefully we would not do that to someone today, but then there are the, you know, internet trolls. So, you know, they'll do it to anybody. But it, it was horrendous what happened to her. I think, I think it was so hard for her because again, she is so smart. She's so incredibly intelligent. She held herself together. Good on her for holding herself together. She was the person she was because she always wanted to be that person. She wanted to be strong and she was strong. And so she was criticized for that.

• 26:43Speaker 00

  Did she tell you how all of that coverage made her feel?

• 26:45Speaker 01

  Horrible. She said it was horrible. She said the entire experience was so horrible. She, she didn't, didn't want to do it, did do it, and then just copped everything that she could ever have feared and way, way worse.

• 27:01Speaker 00

  Tell me about the decision to buy the house. So the house she was kept in, two years after she kind of came back into society, she decided to buy the house. Why?

• 27:13Speaker 01

  The house was very important. It was very important to her that the house would be controlled by her. There are many reasons. The reason that she gave to us was that she didn't want it turned into a theme park. And by that, she meant she didn't want people coming through. She felt somebody would buy it and people would honestly pay to go through and have a look at the place that she was held hostage. And where the worst things you can imagine happened to her. She said later that it was such a part of her formative years that she also wanted to keep it for that reason. And when we saw her, she was still going back there every week and cleaning the house from top to bottom.

• 27:58Speaker 01

  I mean, maybe that was somehow therapeutic for her because she'd done it for so many years.

• 28:02Speaker 00

  Well, I found it fascinating watching your interview with her and she turns around and asks if you're okay.

• 28:08Speaker 01

  That was one of the weirdest moments. That was one of the weirdest moments and I have recounted that so many times.

• 28:14Speaker 00

  And she's so calm in that moment. And she's concerned for you.

• 28:18Speaker 02

  Are you feeling okay coming in here?

• 28:21Speaker 01

  I'm fine. How are you?

• 28:24Speaker 02

  I'm awesome. Me too.

• 28:27Speaker 01

  So calm.

• 28:28Speaker 00

  You weren't locked in a basement for eight years.

• 28:30Speaker 01

  I was not locked in a basement. No, no, she was, she's, I should also say, she's a really lovely, genuinely lovely, compassionate person. Um, and really kind. Um, we, we bonded in the time, um, before we got to the house. It was, it was quite a long drive from where we, where we were staying and it turned out that she loves ABBA. And, um, I had recently interviewed the members of ABBA and she was fascinated by that. And it was so cute because she became like a teenage girl and she was asking all these questions and, and then we started singing ABBA songs on the way to the house where she had been held hostage all these years.

• 29:14Speaker 01

  The house where I had done a piece to camera just a few years before. And it's just, it was just so bizarre. And then we get to the house and she turns to me and says, are you okay? I said, yes. Are you okay? And she's like, yes, like, of course I am. And yeah, she had no issues walking inside. But I guess that was the place that she lived. There were very bad memories there. There were probably some good memories and there was a lot of familiarity. And that was the place that she had lived longest in her life.

• 29:50Speaker 00

  How did you find being in that house? Was it weird at all?

• 29:52Speaker 01

  It was so weird.

• 29:54Speaker 00

  Was it?

• 29:55Speaker 01

  It was so weird.

• 29:56Speaker 00

  To describe for listeners, when you look at the house, it's actually quite a nice, like it's a very old fashioned in terms of its decor, but it's very big. It's got like airy rooms. The lounge room looks quite nice.

• 30:09Speaker 01

  Yeah.

• 30:10Speaker 00

  It's not, it's not a dilapidated.

• 30:12Speaker 01

  No, it was a little bit more dilapidated than it looked in our story. I would say the first thing about it was it was cold. It was really cold. And the coldness struck me, not just because it was, I mean, it was a cold day, but it wasn't that cold. But there was just this eeriness about it. You walk in the door and I think the coldness was both the coldness in the air and just this freaky feeling of walking into this house. And the minute you walk in the house, the second you walk in the house, you just think, oh my God, what went on here?

• 30:45Speaker 00

  Really?

• 30:45Speaker 01

  And yes, you walk in the corridor. I walked past the bathroom and I just looked at the bathroom and I was like, that's the bathroom he used all the time. And then that was one of the first things we passed. And then we were in the living room and she very casually described all her experiences in the living room and cleaning the living room and how she would be in this living room. And it would be, she would be having an enjoyable time, but then she would know his mother was coming over. So she'd be bundled downstairs and back up again. But it was so creepy. And then when she took us to what has now been filled in, the stairs that went down to the cellar. That was just bizarre, but she's so matter of fact about it.

• 31:28Speaker 01

  She just stands there and says, yes, this is it. This is, yep, it was filled in. I didn't want it filled in, but the council said it had to be filled in. And, and I was saying, what, how does it feel? And she's like, yep, fine. You know, why do you keep asking me how I feel?

• 31:44Speaker 00

  Mentally strong. That girl is very mentally strong.

• 31:47Speaker 01

  Very, very, very mentally strong.

• 31:49Speaker 00

  She obviously managed to find joy in those eight years. How, how did she stay so mentally strong?

• 31:57Speaker 01

  She used her imagination a lot. She has a very vivid imagination. She thought about the outside a lot. She thought about her life on the outside and what life could be like outside. She watched a lot of television. She learned English from watching television. She watched a lot of TV shows and, and at first she had a radio only. And then she got a TV, but she was only allowed to watch and listen to recorded things because he didn't want to know, her to know the full extent of the search for her.

• 32:26Speaker 00

  Right.

• 32:27Speaker 01

  But later on, she was allowed to watch all sorts of American shows. And it's pretty funny when she lists off the American shows that she was watching because this is her view of the world and this is how she became a woman, went from becoming a child to a woman through watching American TV shows.

• 32:38Speaker 00

  Like what? Do you remember?

• 32:39Speaker 01

  I can't remember, but they were really like All in the Family. I don't know, really odd, old shows.

• 32:47Speaker 00

  Like sitcoms.

• 32:48Speaker 01

  Old sitcoms, really weird old sitcoms and, and, you know, dramas and stuff. And it just seemed so weird imagining this kid, that was her whole life, was watching these TV shows. But I think she got through it because she is so strong within herself. She is such a strong person. I think it would have broken 99.9% of people being locked in this cellar.

• 33:10Speaker 00

  I don't think I would have survived that.

• 33:12Speaker 01

  I don't think I would have survived that. And fearing that he's not going to come back because he's going to get hit by a car, but also fearing he's going to come down and he's going to do things to you. And you've got so much going on, yet she's still thinking positive. And again, when you meet her and you spend time with her, you totally get that.

• 33:29Speaker 00

  Yeah.

• 33:29Speaker 01

  You totally get that. That is her through and through. She is one strong woman.

• 33:33Speaker 00

  I do want to back up a bit because listeners might've been like, what do you mean she had to fill in the basement? Like, why is it the council's? Business.

• 33:43Speaker 01

  I can't remember exactly, but from what I remember, it was just a building thing, a structural thing, like that shouldn't have been there. The basement and all of that was, was not structurally sound. And initial reports said that it was because they didn't want the scene of a crime to be available. But from what she explained to me, I think it was just, it just wasn't like, you know, it wasn't up to code.

• 34:11Speaker 01

  It wasn't appropriate because she didn't want to fill it in because she said she wasn't ready to fill it in. So just as she needed to go upstairs and, and just as she needed to be in that house and revisit it, I think she probably wasn't ready to say goodbye to that place that was truly her home, her sanctuary for those eight years.

• 34:30Speaker 00

  Which is, it should have been her right to decide when.

• 34:34Speaker 01

  I guess it should have. I guess it should have, but councils and building codes, apparently the same the world over.

• 34:40Speaker 00

  That decision as well, added to this controversy around Natasha, didn't it? The, the fact that she bought this house, she'd visit this house. And it's like people that don't understand Natasha like you do, or have watched the documentaries on her and understand who she is. They just didn't get it.

• 34:55Speaker 01

  They didn't get it at all. They thought it just added to the whole notion that she was a freak, that she was a liar, that, you know, she was messed up in the head. Like, what kind of person does that? That was the place where she was victimized and how could she do it? But yeah, she was demonized for it. But I can completely understand because she guards her privacy so much. She just did not want people walking through there, as we did. And seeing horrors with permission, with her, obviously. Yeah.

• 35:31Speaker 00

  It's, I think it's just such an interesting way to look at society though, because it's like, what right do people have to judge? An experience that you could never understand.

• 35:42Speaker 01

  Well, we're a very judgmental society. We are a very judgmental society. It's happened from, you know, Lindy Chamberlain, well, long before that.

• 35:49Speaker 00

  She kept coming up in my head. Every time I heard about that, Lindy would pop into my head. Once again, she wasn't the perfect victim. She didn't act like we wanted her to.

• 35:57Speaker 01

  And just like Peter Falconio's disappearance, Joanne Lee's, his girlfriend, she was the same. She didn't act like the perfect victim. And so people judged her. We love these kind of situations. People love to judge people. And when there are big stories like this, this gives them a big, nice chance to get in there and be very, very judgmental.

• 36:17Speaker 00

  Apart from all of the noise, how did she go reintegrating not only back into life, but back into a family that had kind of moved on without her?

• 36:30Speaker 01

  Reintegration for her has been and continues to be very, very difficult. Her family life, as we discussed, her family life wasn't great before she went into this place. She had made comment that at times being in the basement and living there had been better than where she'd come from. She later retracted that, and I think that's all to do with the very complex relationship she has with her mum.

• 36:56Speaker 00

  Yep.

• 36:58Speaker 01

  When she got out, her mum, the relationship with her mum remained very difficult. And I think that's the difference, that's one of the differences between her and Elizabeth Smart. I'm sure we all remember the case of Elizabeth Smart, who disappeared for years and then people never thought they'd see her again. She's the American girl and she escaped, but she came back to a very strong religious family that took her into their arms and guided her and protected her. Natasha didn't have the same relationship with her family. And also she had grown into a very different person. I think Elizabeth Smart had a very different relationship with her parents.

• 37:39Speaker 01

  Before she went, she was kidnapped and I think Natasha turned into her own person. She had no choice but to become her own person. And that person wasn't willing to accept what her family was offering. And she would suggest that her family was not offering what she needed in any way, shape or form. And that turned her into.

• 38:02Speaker 01

  Well, that's probably a wrong turn of phrase. That meant that life for her was very, very difficult in the years that followed. When we first met her, she told me that she didn't have any friends, that it was really hard to make friends. She didn't know how to make friends. Like, we all learn how to make friends. We go to school, we do.

• 38:20Speaker 00

  We're socialised.

• 38:21Speaker 01

  We're socialised, even people who are home schooled. Like, you know, people are socialised and we learn, this is how you form a relationship. Don't come on too strong, don't come on too weak, you know. She just had no idea and she's still with social skills. And she, she discussed the first time and more so the second time when we spent more time with her, that she really studied people and how they behaved and how they responded to other people. Because she was still trying to learn how to respond to people, how to interact with people, how to form basic relationships with people on a day to day basis. Her best friend probably was this man who was her manager, who wasn't a manager at all. I think he had been, I can't remember what his position was exactly.

• 39:03Speaker 01

  Like, he had edited one of her books or he'd been involved in marketing one of her books or something and just realised how vulnerable she was and had kind of adopted her into his family and became this kind of manager of sorts, just to try to help her navigate her way through the world.

• 39:20Speaker 00

  Wow.

• 39:21Speaker 01

  But again, she was just friendless and she was having so much fun with us because she is suspicious of everybody. She thinks everybody wants something from her.

• 39:33Speaker 00

  Understandably.

• 39:34Speaker 01

  And, yeah, and she thinks everyone wants to judge her or is trying to take her money or whatever. She, she doesn't know how to judge people because again, she was locked up for so many years. So she doesn't have many people she can interact with. In our relationship.

• 39:54Speaker 01

  She could understand that we were doing a story on her. It was for the purposes, I believe, for the second time, it was the purpose of publishing her book and promoting her book. And so she understood the terms of the relationship. And for her, that's really important to understand exactly what is going on at all times. And so because she understood the terms of our relationship, we were a camera crew there to interview her. She was going to be interviewed by us. It was all on the table, so it was really easy. So she let her guard down and she relaxed and we had fun and we laughed and we went out and ate and had fun. And yeah, we had, we had quite a nice time and formed a nice friendship.

• 40:39Speaker 01

  And so I'm really saddened

• 40:41Speaker 00

  Yeah.

• 40:43Speaker 01

  to hear that things have not improved for her.

• 40:45Speaker 00

  Is she working at all or?

• 40:48Speaker 01

  She tried to work. She had her own, oddly, she had her own talk show. She was the host of a talk show.

• 40:56Speaker 00

  Wow, okay.

• 40:57Speaker 01

  Yeah, that didn't work out amazingly well. And then she had all sorts of grand plans. She wanted to, she had thought about becoming a doctor at one point. There were, there were multiple careers that she had contemplated. And when we saw her, she was talking about she was going to go to university. She was going to study something. She wanted to do something. I don't think that ever happened. I think she had tried to do some study in the past, but found it really difficult. The discipline of the study was quite difficult, which is odd with her behaviour because she, she seems to be quite disciplined. But again, when you've been kidnapped for eight years, I guess everything is a little bit difficult. And so she was pretty much doing nothing, but she was, she was making money out of media interviews as well.

• 41:40Speaker 01

  So I think that was one of the reasons that she had done stuff like that. But no, very little work, very little to keep it going, very little to do during the day. And this, this wonderful man who had taken her in, who was effectively her manager, said that that was one of the things that he found most difficult was that she just had nothing to do all day. She had nothing to occupy her time.

• 42:02Speaker 00

  It's really sad to hear that because with a story like this, you kind of want to have it tied up in a neat little bow that she survives and she goes on to live her life. And in this instance. Natasha has really struggled to do that.

• 42:14Speaker 01

  Yeah, and it's, I guess it's the converse of what people thought when she came out. She's too composed, she's too okay, she's too fine. Well, you know, look at her nearly 20 years later. She's not fine at all, she's not fine at all. Her family says that she's gone into her own little world, which is something that she did when we were there. You could see her going into her own world. She'd kind of go into this playful mode, she'd become childlike. And then sometimes she would just stare off into the distance. She'd just stare for ages at nothing and you could see her going into her own head. Yeah, it was, it was really, really sad. And so her family says that's pretty much where she is now, inside her own head.

• 42:57Speaker 01

  And I'm not surprised because that's probably her only happy place. That's where she spent eight years of her life, inside her own head. And so it's her happy place, it's the place where she feels comfortable. It's the place where she feels she can have a solid relationship with herself in her head. It's the only relationship she understands. It's, it's so devastatingly sad. I think even when we met her the first time, she was nearly uncomfortable and she was cagey and she was stubborn and all of those things. But she was very young and she was hopeful of being able to go on to live what we call a normal life. I mean, what's a normal life?

• 43:37Speaker 01

  But she was hopeful of going on to form friendships, I guess, and maybe a romantic relationship and, and having a job and, and the things that people do in normal life. And that really hasn't happened and I don't think it will happen for her because of all these issues with her personality and with her struggle to understand society and with her hyper intelligent brain working a thousand times an hour to, you know, study how you're responding to the person next to you so she can work out how to do that next time. Well, she's obviously not succeeded and just retreated into her own brain.

• 44:19Speaker 01

  If her family's stories are true, because she hates being spoken about as though she is understood when she has not spoken the words herself.

• 44:30Speaker 00

  Right. Lastly, I know that you have had such a big career, you've interviewed so many survivors and victims.

• 44:39Speaker 00

  And your interactions with Natasha were quite a long time ago now. How do you think about those interactions in relation to all of the stories that you've done and all the cases you've covered? Does it stick with you?

• 44:51Speaker 01

  She's one of the stories that has remained with me the most.

• 44:55Speaker 00

  Right.

• 44:55Speaker 01

  That has really remained with me and I have thought about her so many times. The very first time I met her, she, I was so struck by her and her case. And I often wondered about her and I was so happy that we got to go back and interview her again. Um, and yes, of all the people I've interviewed, she's definitely right up there as one of the most intriguing and one of the ones that really sits in my heart because she's such a lovely person. She's such a kind and compassionate person, as I mentioned. She's so, she's so nice. Like she's so funny. She's so sweet. Again, she can also become quite brittle at times if you rub her up the wrong way, but such a

• 45:37Speaker 01

  fantastic person with so much potential. And her life was ruined by this man and it's not gonna, I, I don't think that it's possible to recover from that. I don't think anyone could. But, but I would say Natasha has certainly done her absolute best. She has done more than anyone on the planet, I think, to try and recover her life. And I just only wish the best for her.

• 46:04Speaker 00

  Thank you to Rani for helping us to tell Natasha's story. You can find more links to Rani's work in our show notes. True Crime Conversations is hosted by me, Gemma Bath. Our senior producer is Tali Blackman. The group executive producer is Alaria Brophy. There's been audio design by Jacob Brown and video editing by Julian Rosario. Thanks so much for listening. I'll be back next week with another True Crime Conversation.