Christina P: Beyond Comedy

This week you will LAUGH, LEARN, and be incredibly INSPIRED. My guest had an insanely difficult childhood and still went on to have tremendous success in so many areas of life. How do you overcome pain? A difficult childhood or relationship? How do you navigate career and family? Etc etc This week I’m honored to share with you the truly incredible Christina Pazsitzky. At the end of the show I think you’ll feel like you went through one of the most enjoyable therapy sessions you could possibly ever imagine. I have followed her work for a couple of years now, and I think she is one of the MOST TALENTED ARTISTS in any field I’ve ever seen. She is married to stand-up comedian TOM SEGURA and has two boys, so you can guess how crazy that house is most times. Although you’ll crack up at what she’s got to say, much of Christina’s humor is rooted in some pretty HEAVY ISSUES. Much of the world’s great humor starts from places of pain, and as you’ll hear, Christina is no exception. Christina has taken those DARK, EDGY PLACES with no safe place that scared her as a child and turned them into EMOTIONAL INSIGHTS that can’t be faked. Try growing up with a mom who was borderline schizophrenic and a dad who’s been married five times! She was able to take those extremes and turn them into INCREDIBLY RELATABLE OBSERVATIONS. Pay particular attention to Christina’s KETAMINE TRIP after breaking her ankle in four places. It’s one of the most powerful stories I’ve ever heard, especially after tying it into the story she tells on her Mom Genes special. You’ll also hear Christina’s take on going to THERAPY for 12 years. Spoiler alert! In a completely sane answer, she’s a big fan of it. Expect to LAUGH. But also be prepared to DROP A TEAR or two…That’s the essence of comedy. And the essence of Christina P. Enjoy! Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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• 0:00Ed Mylett?

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• 1:06Speaker 01

  This is the Ed Mileage Show.

• 1:10Ed Mylett?

  All right, everybody, welcome back. Fired up. I reached out to this woman to be on my show after I experienced her work. And I haven't done that in probably two years. I was telling her, I said, I want you to come on my show. Then I found out she followed all of my friends and peers, except me, in the personal development, business, self-help space, whatever you want to call it. I think that this is one of the most talented artists in any craft on the planet today. And that's why I wanted her here. Stay here, I mean it. She has a special out on Netflix right now called Mom Jeans, which I've watched four times, including last night with my kids. And we were literally belly laughing, falling over. She has a hugely successful podcast with her husband, Tom Segura. Call Your Mom's House. She's got another podcast called Where My Moms At.

• 1:56Ed Mylett?

  And I cannot wait for this hour because I want to know you and I want you to help a bunch of people. So Christina P, welcome to the show.

• 2:01Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh, my gosh. Thank you so much for having me. And yeah, when I, when you reached out to me, I was like, who is this maniac? And then I took a dive and then I started listening to your podcast and I'm like, dude, I know why you reached out because it's game recognize game, homie.

• 2:15Ed Mylett?

  That's right. That's right.

• 2:16Christina Pazsitzky?

  You and I are on the same frequency, I feel.

• 2:19Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, I think so too. We both were raised a little different, you know, and.

• 2:24Christina Pazsitzky?

  Different.

• 2:25Ed Mylett?

  Well, yours comes out and being so funny. I just, you guys, if you haven't seen Mom Jeans, you guys, it's, it's, uh, make me emotional even talking. I don't. It's so good because it's, it's art. Like you, you will laugh really, really, really, really hard. And then you're going to really think about your life though, too. And, uh, it's a beautiful hour.

• 2:46Christina Pazsitzky?

  Ah, well, thank you. I'm glad that you, um, are gonna make me cry. Damn it. Why do you cry?

• 2:51Ed Mylett?

  Do it. I do it to everybody.

• 2:52Christina Pazsitzky?

  These feelings. I know you and your feelings. You're so connected.

• 2:55Ed Mylett?

  Well, I think by the end we'll be really connected.

• 2:57Christina Pazsitzky?

  How did, I mean, you're connected to yourself. How did you do that?

• 3:00Ed Mylett?

  Thank you. Um, work, you know, I think maybe when you're raised where you're disconnected from who's raising you.

• 3:07Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 3:08Ed Mylett?

  You have no choice but to maybe find a way to connect somewhere. And that's usually either with yourself or with God or something like that. And so I think you become really like self-aware and self-reflective when you might not have a connection with one of your parents. Don't you think?

• 3:20Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh, a hundred percent. I mean, I spent my childhood hiding from my parents. I was an only child. And so it was, you know, in my room with the record player or watching these sitcoms, watching television and studying how supposedly normal people behaved.

• 3:34Ed Mylett?

  Me too.

• 3:34Christina Pazsitzky?

  Right? And you're like, oh, is that, is that how families act? Are they nice to each other? It's so weird.

• 3:39Ed Mylett?

  Did you think that growing up? Like, I wonder, like, I would look at other families and go, oh, like, they just sit there and talk with each other and no one's drunk. No one's yelling. Everyone's, is that, are they faking it?

• 3:50Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 3:50Ed Mylett?

  Did you think that?

• 3:51Christina Pazsitzky?

  I a hundred percent did. And the first time I visited my husband's family, my future in-laws, right? I remember them being like talking to each other and being like, how was your day? What'd you do today? Oh, did you do that thing that you said you were gonna do? And I was like, wait a minute, you guys? You ask each other?

• 4:07Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, me too.

• 4:08Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, or the sister was like, "Mom, can you bring me a bowl of cereal?" And I was like, "If I had even requested that?"

• 4:14Ed Mylett?

  Me too.

• 4:15Christina Pazsitzky?

  I'd be like, "Whoa, get your own cereal. What, you're crazy?" I'm cursed already on your show.

• 4:20Ed Mylett?

  No, it's okay. I remember the first time I went over a friend's house and they like sat at a dinner table and the mom brought like fruit over to the table. I was like, "Wow, this is a... You guys, we ate on the floor." Like it wasn't, and by the way, I have a great mom. I had a great dad too, once he got sober, but that took a while. So, I want you to describe your upbringing a little bit and I want to get to know you. And by the way, everyone, you're gonna really, I think, fall in love with her today. And also, there's gonna be a lot of insights on how you can change your own life. Everything we do here is like, change your own life. And I know, if you know Christina P. at all, like, she does really funny stuff most of the time and it's light, but there's a depth to you. See, I watch a lot of comedy. And I love comedy, because it's the best public speakers in the world. And that's one of the things I do, is I study you guys and how you do it. But there's depth to you that I've not seen in anybody else.

• 5:05Christina Pazsitzky?

  Ooh.

• 5:05Ed Mylett?

  In anyone else. And I think that's because of your upbringing. So, you have two parents. The good parent, who you speak highly of, is... This is the good one, by the way. And so, as I understand it, you're the good one, your dad has been married five times? Is that right? Is it five?

• 5:21Christina Pazsitzky?

  Well, you know, there's a little factual fudging here and there, but yeah, a few times.

• 5:27Ed Mylett?

  Is he really married to someone that much younger than him? Is that actually a true story, or he dates someone younger than him?

• 5:32Christina Pazsitzky?

  Younger, yeah. And I fudge a little.

• 5:34Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, everybody does in that space.

• 5:35Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, it's for comedic purposes, but the gist of it is yes.

• 5:39Ed Mylett?

  Your dad was a player?

• 5:40Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh, I mean, well, yeah, I'll give you the stats. So, parents are Hungarian immigrants. They escaped from communism in 1969. They get married at 19 and 20. And leave their country at that young age. Can you even imagine being like, "I'm up, I'm out, let's escape." Escape communism, bro. They go to Canada. Uh, they have me in Canada and then we moved to the US in 1980. By then their marriage has just dissolved because my mother is mentally ill. She's a borderline, but back then, nobody called it anything. We didn't know it and she later became schizophrenic. And my father is an alcoholic, obviously to deal with his, you know, they had horrendous upbringings. It's not their fault, right?

• 6:25Christina Pazsitzky?

  Uh, they divorce and then it's me alone ping ponged between my mentally ill mother or my alcoholic, sex addict father.

• 6:34Ed Mylett?

  Wow.

• 6:35Christina Pazsitzky?

  Right, but you know, but you know it because did your parents stay together?

• 6:39Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 6:39Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh, I'm not sure what's worse.

• 6:41Ed Mylett?

  Well, mine was redemptive because my mom was well adjusted. My mom was there and was solid. The reason I probably connected with you is I picture your dad, maybe not all that much unlike my dad. And then I'm thinking though, if I didn't have my mom and then you having a probably even more disconnected mother.

• 7:00Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 7:00Ed Mylett?

  And I'm, I literally, I'll be honest with you. I'm watching your show. I want to make sure I do a great interview with you today because I actually feel like this can care for you from watching you, which is a comedy special. I've never laughed harder either, but when you were speaking and doing your show, I was picturing you as a little girl. I was actually picturing it with your mom and how like scary that might've been sometimes seeing her not be functional and normal and losing her temper and stuff like that. What, can you tell us a little bit what it was actually like? Now that you're offstage, what's the real?

• 7:33Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, it's, uh, God, like I'm still in therapy, you know? Just to, just to let people know, like I've been in therapy for 12 years. And then I feel like just now I'm getting into the actual trauma work where you feel the feelings of terror that you had as a child. And I had terror and fear because there was no, there's no safe place when you're like that, right? So my mother would become, I remember one time. She made these lunches for me that I didn't like. It was like Hungarian lunch, you know, like, like salami with butter. And I take it to school and I'm like, I don't want to eat this.

• 8:16Christina Pazsitzky?

  You know, everyone's making fun of me because I'm a foreigner. So I hide the sandwiches in the bottom of my book bag because I don't, I can't throw them out because I feel too guilty about throwing them out, I'll get in trouble. And I can't tell her that I don't like the sandwiches. Can't tell her because she'll get mad. So I hide a bunch, eventually I have a stockpile of like 14 or 15, it's kind of my hands are sweating, you're telling a story. And I hid them in my closet. Well, eventually the stench of 14 or 15 salami and butter sandwiches caught up. And she found them and it was a rage. And it was like, you know, everything, my anger, and then, and then she kicks me out. And that's the beginning of like kicking me out to go live with my father. And my dad's house wasn't a lot better.

• 8:59Christina Pazsitzky?

  So that, you know, because of alcohol and girls and party and all that jazz. So it's basically like, I'm betrayed everywhere I go. I look and I don't have a safe place. And it's, it's scary and terrifying.

• 9:17Ed Mylett?

  What's your day to day like then? Are you always scared, always, were you not a confident kid? The reason I ask people, you know why I'm asking you this? People, millions of people listening to this will be like, okay, there's a piece of me in her.

• 9:29Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 9:29Ed Mylett?

  I really believe this in life. Like if you really want to impress everybody, just show them how perfect you are. If you want to connect with people and help them, show them your imperfections.

• 9:36Christina Pazsitzky?

  For sure.

• 9:37Ed Mylett?

  And you and I both do a really good job of that. And so you're this little girl and I just picture you bouncing from these two dysfunctional people.

• 9:44Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 9:45Ed Mylett?

  And with no other even siblings to grab on to and say, okay, they love me, they'll protect me. Nothing.

• 9:49Christina Pazsitzky?

  No, but you know who I did have along the way were sensible adults, teachers that I liked and that I could speak to. I had American, I say American because like, you know, I'm an alien in a sense, you know this too, as a child, and I'm an alcoholic, you're an alien because you're different and you know it and you can't tell people at school like what's going on at home because you know that that's a secret you must keep. So I would go to my friend's house, I lived at my friend's house. By the time I was 12, I was out. Like, you know what I'm saying? Like, by the time I'm 12, I have this epiphany that I'm alone. Truly alone and an existential, like I was a latchkey kid, so I was physically alone, but that I was an adult. I was gone.

• 10:30Christina Pazsitzky?

  So I would, I would try to stay at my friends' houses and get the but. Uh, but how did I, I'll tell you what I did know at that age is that my suffering. You know, when you're like, you know, you're suffering, but you don't really know as a kid, you don't know.

• 10:44Ed Mylett?

  It's all you know.

• 10:46Christina Pazsitzky?

  But I knew that there was something inside of me. That was resilient. There is some magic that, do you know what I'm saying? Like I would watch Pippi Longstocking.

• 10:55Ed Mylett?

  Me too.

• 10:56Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 10:56Ed Mylett?

  So did I.

• 10:57Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah. And it was like, because of those characters, because of the mythologies and the con, like whatever it is I was glomming on to stories. I would like pretend to be that person, like my life isn't this, I'm Pippi Long. Isn't this fun that I actually turned it into like, I'm living with my single dad and he makes me eat on paper plates, but I can cut my spaghetti with scissors because I'm Pippi Longstocking. Like I turned it into a fun thing.

• 11:22Ed Mylett?

  Yep. Yep.

• 11:23Christina Pazsitzky?

  You too?

• 11:24Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, I think that, look, stuff's oversaid in personal development. Everything's happening for me, not to me. I don't know if I was the first person to say that or the third. I'd like to think I was the first. But sometimes that stuff's easy to say and, and hard to apply. But I do think like, I, I became really resilient because of it. I became, I really, you know, like in the business world, I've made a lot of money. One of the ways I've made a lot of money is like two things, both of them because my dad was a drinker. One, I have learned to be really read people well and be present with them. The reason was I had to figure out when my dad was coming through that front door, which one was I getting? Was I getting the sober one who was going to be okay, we're going to have dinner and play basketball? Or was it the drunk one? And you know, maybe my mom and sister should go upstairs.

• 12:06Ed Mylett?

  So I would read this man and that I didn't know. Napoleon Hill says in Think and Grow Rich.

• 12:12Christina Pazsitzky?

  Love that book.

• 12:13Ed Mylett?

  Me too. It's the second best book ever written on personal development, other than The Power of One More, which is sitting next to you.

• 12:17Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 12:18Ed Mylett?

  And, but in that book, he says, on the other side of temporary pain, you meet your other self. And I met this version of me that wouldn't have existed where I'm really good at reading people and being present with them. And then the other thing I'm decent to do and is communicating. So are you. And because I had to learn. How to talk to my dad when he was in those states so that I could change him just a little bit, or even move certain ways I would move. Little did I know that those two things were forming this version of me that I would use someday to help millions of people. And I watch you, and I watch your ability to have like insights into human beings' behaviors, and how they move and operate, how they think, and then your ability to communicate.

• 13:04Ed Mylett?

  And I think some of that's got to be part of the blessing of going through what you went through.

• 13:09Christina Pazsitzky?

  Suffering. Suffering makes you funny, makes you clever, makes you resourceful. You know, everybody I know, and like you, um, most of the guys I know that are hugely successful didn't graduate from Harvard.

• 13:24Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, right, me too.

• 13:25Christina Pazsitzky?

  Were crappy at school and had horrible upbringings.

• 13:29Ed Mylett?

  Isn't that interesting?

• 13:29Christina Pazsitzky?

  It's the secret sauce, isn't it?

• 13:30Ed Mylett?

  It is.

• 13:31Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 13:31Ed Mylett?

  It is.

• 13:32Christina Pazsitzky?

  But I think for me, my father loved comedy and good humor. So I was watching Richard Pryor when I was little, and Eddie Murphy, and Saturday Night Live, and Cheech and Chong, and this was my education. And then the truly tasteless joke books, I would memorize those, because those would be in the bathroom. And I would tell those jokes to my father or to my schoolmates at school. I would go to school in like third grade, and I would repeat these jokes that are, you know, by today's standards, completely verboten, right? Like blonde jokes and Jewish jokes, da-da-da-da-da. I didn't even know what they were, but I knew that people laughed.

• 14:07Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 14:07Christina Pazsitzky?

  And that's how I could get out of stuff. And I also, I became entertaining to my dad so that I wasn't a burden.

• 14:14Ed Mylett?

  Interesting.

• 14:18Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 14:18Ed Mylett?

  You, you, um, see, if you, right now in the middle of this, like, took a minute and went over to YouTube and watched Christina, you'd see this like, I mean, I'm just, I'm not saying it's a compliment, you'd just see this very powerful, very together, very, to walk out on a stage, any stage, and to own it like you do, there's a command, there's, there's something. So, I don't know if you've done a lot of interviews like this, I don't think you have.

• 14:40Christina Pazsitzky?

  No, we don't talk, comedians are generally like, let's talk about our farts.

• 14:43Ed Mylett?

  Right, but comedians are also usually pretty dark people in real life, right? Would you agree with that? I think that's one thing most people wouldn't know. My friends that are super funny or that do it for a living. There's a, I guess I'd call it a darkness or a pain or something they're moving away from most of the time in their life. Is that true?

• 15:00Christina Pazsitzky?

  Well, here's the deal. The funnier you are, the more you've embraced the darkness, in my opinion. It's the funny, the funniest ones are the ones who get, who know it's there and don't push it away. That's why personally, my taste in comedy has always been Bill Hicks or Carlin or these guys. I love Greg Giraldo, he passed away from drugs, but these guys that could really harness the darkness and go there. I don't give a [BLEEP] about cookie. What's the difference between cookies and cookie? I don't care.

• 15:29Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 15:30Christina Pazsitzky?

  Shut up. Tell me the real, you know?

• 15:33Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 15:33Christina Pazsitzky?

  So, yes, but here's where I would argue is that most people are dark. There's, everyone has the shadow self and comedians aren't always afraid of going there. But your accountant, your lawyer, your dentist, guess what? They're dark too, probably.

• 15:48Ed Mylett?

  Probably true, yeah.

• 15:49Christina Pazsitzky?

  But, but you haven't looked. You don't, you don't want to peek.

• 15:53Ed Mylett?

  If I'd have met you at like 12,

• 15:58Ed Mylett?

  who would I, who would I be meeting?

• 16:00Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh my god.

• 16:01Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 16:02Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah. Okay, you do you though. You do you too, okay?

• 16:06Ed Mylett?

  Okay, okay.

• 16:07Christina Pazsitzky?

  Okay, so 12, I started smoking cigarettes already.

• 16:11Ed Mylett?

  Okay.

• 16:11Christina Pazsitzky?

  Started wearing all black.

• 16:13Ed Mylett?

  You did.

• 16:14Christina Pazsitzky?

  I was already, um, school was kinda not interesting. I wanna hang out, smoke cigarettes, listen to punk rock. I started, I wanna go to nightclubs. By 13, 14, I'm in goth nightclubs and like doing, yeah. Just kinda angry and confused.

• 16:32Ed Mylett?

  Go back a minute, I'll tell you me.

• 16:34Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 16:35Ed Mylett?

  Is it really true that you were in bars with your dad when you were a little girl? That's actually true. That's a true part of your act.

• 16:39Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, that part's true. A hundred percent.

• 16:40Ed Mylett?

  Your father would take you out to a bar at six, seven, eight years old and you would be dancing to White Lines in a bar. Is there some truth to that?

• 16:47Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, it's all true. So that part's true. And that's why, so I actually paid out of my own money to license that Frankie Goes to Hollywood song.

• 16:53Ed Mylett?

  I wondered at the end. I, it's so, I'm so screwed up because I know about all these things. I'm like, damn, she must have paid for that to be at the end because that ain't free. I thought about that last night.

• 17:01Christina Pazsitzky?

  I paid so much money. Because Netflix paid for my crazy outfit, which was unfortunate. And they paid for this New York City. It was like huge, huge budget. And then I was like, and I want Frankie Goes to Hollywood.

• 17:11Ed Mylett?

  Because it's the perfect ending.

• 17:13Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 17:13Ed Mylett?

  You guys gotta go see this. But so that, I want to say that.

• 17:16Christina Pazsitzky?

  So I go to, so, so my dad, my dad goes to party and, and you know, back in the old country, you don't, there's no babysitters. So his dad would take him to the bar. I imagine is what hap, that's, that is what happened. And so I grew up in bars and nightclubs very early. So at third grade, I've, I've actually really fun memories as a kid, going to these bars and dancing and dancing to the eighties music, which is the best, dude. Like I really lucked out in that regard. And I was, I have a vivid memory of dancing with sailors. And there's literally sailors, they're at Fleet Week or whatever, and I'm this little girl. And that song, "Moni Moni" comes on. And do you know what the hidden chorus is? "Hey, mother effer, get, get effed." And they, and here I am.

• 17:57Ed Mylett?

  Everyone yells it.

• 17:58Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah. And then I was like, what? Oh, and then I'm chanting it like, but it was fun for me and, and.

• 18:03Ed Mylett?

  You thought White Lines was a coloring book?

• 18:05Christina Pazsitzky?

  I did. I had no idea what, that it was about cocaine. I was so little. And, but then I, then I'd go to school the next day and I knew to keep it a secret.

• 18:12Ed Mylett?

  You knew. So there's something you knew. I want, um, this sounds really corny, but I'm listening to the part of your act. And I like, want to hug this little girl. I also just picture you at your age and me at that age and what I was doing.

• 18:24Christina Pazsitzky?

  What are you into at 12?

• 18:25Ed Mylett?

  Well, at 12, I went the other way. Well, first, if you met me at 12, yeah. If you met me at 12, you would meet a really shy kid. Really shy, really introverted, no confidence whatsoever of any type. But I was good at baseball. And so I kind of went the other way. I was more like straight laced, never got in trouble. Was afraid to become what I was seeing in my house.

• 18:48Christina Pazsitzky?

  Uh huh.

• 18:48Ed Mylett?

  I was afraid. My dad was still drinking when I was 12. So I kind of became more like an athlete type, I guess. But I wasn't like one of those athletes where like I was a cocky athlete. It was just the only thing I was any good at. It was the only thing, like it was the one place I went where I was like, oh, I don't completely totally suck here. And no one was bullying me there. Right? My, you know, I would worry. There was worries, like I would worry on game days if my dad was going to show up to a game. And if he did, was he drunk? If he was at the game, was he going to say or do anything? Sometimes I feel bad because I'm describing these times and I know my mom listens to my show and she's like, was it really that bad? And I'm like.

• 19:27Ed Mylett?

  I don't know, maybe it is worse when I describe it now, because it's all I knew, right? Like, it's all I knew. And my dad did end up getting sober, and so there's like, the reason I'm in this, like, you can change yourself space is I watched my old man do it, right? So, I'm like, I watched my hero do it. But probably if you met me then, I don't even know that I'd be that much different than I am now. I think when people meet me now, they're like, I kind of expected, you know, I don't know, you'd have more, uh, I don't know, like, that front that people have that are successful or whatever. I still am like, hey, man, I'm working on myself, and there's certain environments I'm comfortable in.

• 19:58Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 19:58Ed Mylett?

  You put me in front of fifteen thousand people on a stage, I'm completely at home and I own it. You put me in a cocktail party with like, six or eight people, and someone's right here, and I'm like, yeah, I gotta, you gotta make the, go to the restaurant. Like, I'm constantly trying to avoid, you said that your Tom's a little that way.

• 20:13Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, my husband's an introvert like that, too. He's not the life of the party. I think I'm a lot more fun at a party than he is.

• 20:18Ed Mylett?

  You think that's from the bar experience? Seriously, like, you're used to being social?

• 20:21Christina Pazsitzky?

  I love party, uh, yeah. And, and it's also cultural, like, my, we're Hungarian, so like, on Sunday, we have a party, everybody comes over, you're telling dirty jokes, you're drinking, you're awful. You know, it's like this, this, I was never like, shy as a kid, because my mother pushed me into acting when I was four. So, I was like, yeah, I was auditioning and already kind of a show business, and then, I think around ten or eleven, I do like, a pilot, and then I'm like, I don't want to be an actor. This is for the birds, this is, I'm depressive, and that's actually what I was gonna share with you. So, by the time I'm fourteen, upside down, this is when I get super depressed, because now, you know, when you're messed in childhood, guess what? It comes back in adolescence.

• 21:02Christina Pazsitzky?

  And now, the drama, I really, so I'm fourteen years old, I'm goth, I'm cutting, right? I'm cutting up my arms just to feel some release, because I'm so depressed, and I'm sitting in the room, in my room, just to try to hide from my parents and the reality, and I, you know, you're confused, you think you're being dramatic, like, is this really true? Is my family this wonky, or like, I don't know, am I, am I, I must be messed up, because... You know, like, I'm the one that's flawed. So you, by the time I'm 14, I'm convinced it's me and not them. And I'm suicidal. And life is, like, I have straight D's.

• 21:41Christina Pazsitzky?

  I remember, like, I just decided to stop going to school. I just decided I was in, I was in ninth grade and I was like, I'm not going anymore. And then I just stopped going. I was like, no, thank you. And I stopped going. And then I, and then I was, I had straight D's, I remember, and I did, I eventually went back. And I was failing out of school. And then one day, I just went nuts in, in this, in the bathroom stall, cutting. And I was just like, whoa. And I just cut, I just went crazy. And this friend of mine, this girl I had been friends with, and, but we had a following up, whatever, like, she found me, she took me to the office at school. Oh, my god. Yeah, so dramatic. And then my mom came to get me. And she saw my arms, and then she started to hit me. I remember, she beat me. And I was like,

• 22:28Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, and I was like, just put me in a mental hospital. Like, I begged them. I'm like, put me away. I, I think something's wrong with me. Put me away. And my mother had worked for a psychiatrist, and I think she's just worried about putting me in a mental hospital or whatever, like, that it would stigmatize me or mess me up worse. So she kept, she was like, no. I didn't see a therapist yet. She's like, but do you want to go to Catholic school? And I was like, yeah. I mean, she showed me this brochure to this old girl's Catholic school. And I was like, I, yeah, okay. So I went to the nuns. And I loved it. I f***ing, I loved it, man. I had a mohawk at the time, like, an orange mohawk. And I remember the, the, this nice head nun, the principal goes,

• 23:13Christina Pazsitzky?

  "Listen, sweetie, you shouldn't come, sweetie." She goes, "It doesn't have to be the color God gave you. It just has to be a God-given color." I know, so I dyed it brown, and I hid my mohawk, and I grew it out. And I could put my bookbag down, and nobody would steal it. And by the time I had graduated, I was like, a leader of this retreat, and I had, I just flourished because of the, the boundaries and the...

• 23:36Christina Pazsitzky?

  It was an all-girls school too, so there was like, oh, I don't have to be cute. I'm wearing a uniform. I can just be a little girl again. And I reverted and I was able to be safe. And that saved my life.

• 23:46Ed Mylett?

  Saved your life.

• 23:46Christina Pazsitzky?

  Catholic school saved my life, yeah.

• 23:48Ed Mylett?

  It's pretty amazing to see your face right now. You know, this is mainly audio. I wish everyone could see your face. It's interesting to see you talk about that time.

• 23:59Ed Mylett?

  Think about your mom there for a second.

• 24:02Ed Mylett?

  So she loved you. I mean, she was trying with the limited

• 24:05Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 24:06Ed Mylett?

  capacity she had to help her daughter there, right? I mean, did that ever dawn on you that, I mean, she did love you, right?

• 24:12Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yes, yes. No, obviously too, a lot of what I say for comedic, it's, it's no good if they're shades of gray.

• 24:18Ed Mylett?

  But I actually think you really feel it. Like, I, I, I actually think you really, let me tell you what I mean by that. I really do feel these things about my dad. I feel guilty about feeling them because I know that, that that's not, wasn't his intent. It was his.

• 24:30Christina Pazsitzky?

  You feel guilty about having negative feelings towards him?

• 24:32Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, I do because I love him so much. I know he loved me so much. I've got to the other side of it now where I can, and this is so good for everyone listening to this who goes through these things, but I, I don't, I, I think it's okay that I feel it. I feel sometimes weird that other people know I feel it because I don't want them to think that about my dad.

• 24:50Christina Pazsitzky?

  You don't want them to judge him or you?

• 24:52Ed Mylett?

  Both, both. I don't want to be judged for feeling that way. And also like, I do know that my dad hurt people, hurt people, right? So I know my dad was operating out of something that happened in his life, in his upbringing, and same with his dad and so on and so on. But I, I feel weird about the fact that there's this man I love so much, but that I, these things did happen. I do feel this way, you know, I have both feelings. I remember what it's like when I didn't feel good about him and I remember what it feels like when I do. And I, and in your case, your mom was trying, but so when you went there, when you, you Catholic school, does that when you start to change permanently or do you end up reverting back? Like,

• 25:29Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh, okay.

• 25:30Ed Mylett?

  When do you become you?

• 25:31Christina Pazsitzky?

  Right, right. So, so that's a good question. So, so also before, before I go there, I, I love what you say about having two simultaneous feelings. And I think that's what you learn in therapy, um, is that I can love and hate my mom at the same time. I can love and hate my dad at the same time. I can thank my mother for all the wonderful qualities she had. She was fashionable. She had flair. She had timing. She was funny. She was crazier than [BLEEP] too.

• 26:01Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 26:01Christina Pazsitzky?

  You know what I'm saying? Like, my dad too is just like funny, antisocial, brooding,

• 26:09Christina Pazsitzky?

  independent, resilient. Like, brilliant, nut.

• 26:14Ed Mylett?

  Does it ever dawn on you, and I'll let you keep going, that they end up raising? I mean, because you're really humble, but does it ever dawn on you that these two people raised a daughter who now, I mean, let's just be real, like you're one of the more, I mean, you're gonna roll your eyes when I say this, but you are one of the more influential people on the planet in terms of your show and your reach and your husband and you.

• 26:36Christina Pazsitzky?

  So funny. I don't even feel that way.

• 26:37Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, I know you don't.

• 26:38Christina Pazsitzky?

  But do you feel that way?

• 26:39Ed Mylett?

  No, not at all. But, but it's.

• 26:40Christina Pazsitzky?

  It's ridiculous.

• 26:41Ed Mylett?

  But you are. And so these two totally dysfunctional human beings. No, really, raised this single child together, right?

• 26:49Christina Pazsitzky?

  How?

• 26:49Ed Mylett?

  How, right? And then you end up, I mean, it's just, I'm picturing you cutting yourself.

• 26:54Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, it's terrible. These maniacs.

• 26:57Ed Mylett?

  And I was, by the way, I went through this stage where like I was so depressed. I don't know if I was, I just, I used to think, what the heck is life about? Why am I living this life? What is this? Is this worth it at all?

• 27:06Christina Pazsitzky?

  So that goes into that.

• 27:06Ed Mylett?

  Yeah. And I, did you have that too?

• 27:08Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, man. So the darkness. So, okay, so hold on. Back where you're just saying, how did they raise someone? I'll tell you why. Because it makes me sad. Because my parents are wildly awesome people who had a, a bad go of it, man. Could you imagine being born in communist Hungary?

• 27:24Ed Mylett?

  No.

• 27:25Christina Pazsitzky?

  It's after World War II. So the country's already been ravaged by the Germans, war, war, awful poverty. And now the Russians come and destroy your country. And it's a nightmare. They have nothing. So I always think of them as this pure potential that just got destroyed.

• 27:40Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 27:41Christina Pazsitzky?

  So I know that they, they've got the makings. Oh, but had they just had my life.

• 27:46Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 27:46Christina Pazsitzky?

  Damn it.

• 27:47Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 27:48Christina Pazsitzky?

  I lucked out.

• 27:48Ed Mylett?

  They had your life. So you lucked out being raised by the two of them compared to what they had?

• 27:53Christina Pazsitzky?

  A hundred percent. A hundred percent. And here's another lucky thing I had. Money.

• 28:00Christina Pazsitzky?

  Now, we weren't rich. I'm not saying I was rich.

• 28:01Ed Mylett?

  Get food every day. You have to worry about where meals were coming from.

• 28:04Christina Pazsitzky?

  No, not like that. We were like middle class. And I think back in the 90s, there was a middle class, right?

• 28:08Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 28:09Christina Pazsitzky?

  And I hate when people poo poo money. It makes me bonkers when they're like, you need money and everything. And it's not everything, but it's awesome.

• 28:15Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, and the lack of it is horrible.

• 28:17Christina Pazsitzky?

  And it sucks being broke.

• 28:18Ed Mylett?

  Right, the lack of it's horrible.

• 28:19Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, so it changes, so it gives you toys. So the fact that I was educated was a huge blessing. Now, I barely eked my way into college, right? Barely got in, man, but I did. And then once I was out of the house, I was getting straight A's. And I was like, oh, I'm not an idiot. It's just that I was in this place that I couldn't study because everybody was screaming and yelling and this is a bad environment. And that's when I found philosophy. So I started studying philosophy and that changed my life. And that's when I was like, oh, I have, I have a brain. I'm not just like a screw up who tried to kill herself in ninth grade. And I was always trying to outlive that stigma of being a loser. Because my parents were like, oh, you tried to kill yourself. You know, it was like, I disappointed everybody in my family. My grandmother wouldn't give me money that year for Christmas because

• 29:02Christina Pazsitzky?

  she thought I was going to spend it on drugs, which I wasn't even really on drugs. You know what I mean? So I was like this, this loser in my family. So I found philosophy and I was getting A's. And I was like, you know what? Screw you, man. I'm gonna be, I'm gonna, I'm gonna show you, right? I'm gonna show you I'm a winner. And then I got into Oxford for a year.

• 29:21Ed Mylett?

  What?

• 29:21Christina Pazsitzky?

  And I went to study philosophy at Oxford. Yeah, man.

• 29:23Ed Mylett?

  What?

• 29:24Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, as I'm telling you, so I went from like

• 29:26Ed Mylett?

  What?

• 29:26Christina Pazsitzky?

  Loserville to like, I don't know what I'm gonna be, but I'm gonna show you, mom and dad.

• 29:32Ed Mylett?

  Holy [bleep], wow.

• 29:33Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, so I studied philosophy at Oxford. I come back and I'm, and then I do that show Road Rules.

• 29:38Ed Mylett?

  I didn't know you did Road Rules.

• 29:39Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, a million years later. And then I was like, wouldn't it be great if I could make a living just being myself? Flash forward to podcasting. But anyway, I had this great boss after college. I had this degree in philosophy and I was such a useless degree. And he's like, he's like, you're the worst employee I've ever had. His name is Chris Abrago. Shout out to Chris Abrago.

• 29:56Ed Mylett?

  What's up, Chris?

• 29:57Christina Pazsitzky?

  Anna, you're the worst employee I've ever had, but you're funny. Go do the Groundlings. I was 23.

• 30:02Ed Mylett?

  Come on.

• 30:03Christina Pazsitzky?

  And then I went to the Groundlings and I was like, this is it. I found it. It's like when you find your thing you're good at.

• 30:08Ed Mylett?

  Yep.

• 30:09Christina Pazsitzky?

  You found sports.

• 30:10Ed Mylett?

  Yep.

• 30:11Christina Pazsitzky?

  And then I'm like, alright, hey man, maybe, you know, I'm an idiot, I'm a loser, whatever, but this is something I love. And once you get obsessed, you know how it is, like when you find your obsession, I don't care what it takes, bro, I'm gonna keep coming and do this.

• 30:25Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 30:25Christina Pazsitzky?

  Put me in a motel six.

• 30:27Ed Mylett?

  Yep.

• 30:27Christina Pazsitzky?

  Okay. Like, yeah, I'll do, you want me to go Afghanistan? Can I do 15 minutes of stage time in Afghanistan? Yeah, dude, I'll go.

• 30:34Ed Mylett?

  You did that?

• 30:35Christina Pazsitzky?

  Hell yeah, I did everything.

• 30:37Ed Mylett?

  You did.

• 30:37Christina Pazsitzky?

  Well, I'm sure you did everything by any means.

• 30:39Ed Mylett?

  But in your case, so you find it, by the way, it's one of the great blessings of life. I always feel for people that have not yet found it.

• 30:46Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 30:47Ed Mylett?

  Because it's, I feel like of all the things I got cheated out of in life, I did find some talents and skills when I was relatively young, outside of baseball too. That I was like, okay, I like business, I like speaking, this is stuff I'm pretty, really good at. I feel at home. It doesn't feel like work when I'm doing it.

• 31:01Christina Pazsitzky?

  That's the, boom. Doesn't feel like work when I, I always laugh when people call, you going to work tonight, stand up? I'm like, that's not, it's never work, baby. I've had day jobs. I had 22 of them before I became a stand-up comedian. They all sucked.

• 31:14Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 31:14Christina Pazsitzky?

  That's not a job. This ain't work, man.

• 31:16Ed Mylett?

  That's how I feel.

• 31:17Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 31:17Ed Mylett?

  When were you good at it?

• 31:19Christina Pazsitzky?

  Okay, so I think in order to know what you're, what you're good at, you have to have beginner's luck. I forget what book this is.

• 31:25Ed Mylett?

  Okay.

• 31:27Christina Pazsitzky?

  Is this the 10,000 Hours book? Is this blank? Not blank, outliers.

• 31:32Ed Mylett?

  Okay.

• 31:32Christina Pazsitzky?

  There has to be some level of beginner's luck. First time you do it, you have to be freakishly good as a beginner. And I think the first time I did it, I was like, oh, okay, that wasn't horrible. I didn't, I didn't completely eat it. And then I was just hooked. I was like, I'm gonna figure this out. I just looked at it as a logical problem. And like, I want to fight my demons. I'm not a loser. I'm gonna, I'm gonna show you, Mom and Dad. And then there's this point in the, in the career where you're like, guess what? I have everything and Mom and Dad still don't care.

• 32:02Ed Mylett?

  Right. Is that not true?

• 32:04Christina Pazsitzky?

  They still don't give a

• 32:06Ed Mylett?

  Me too. Me too. It wasn't that. My mom just like, I'm gonna tell you something funny. I'm 51. My mom just recently like, wow, like where the hell have you been? Where have you been, Mom? You been to all these houses and like,

• 32:20Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 32:20Ed Mylett?

  But it's like just lately, it's like, almost like when my dad died, my mom got permission to somewhat be impressed with something I was doing. And it wasn't like they, like in your case, maybe it was like, ah, you still suck. It wasn't that. They're just like, just, my parents are just very simple. It's just like, are you a good person or not? If you're a good person, great. Other than that, we don't really care what you do. My mom walked into my first really big house and she's like, oh my God, Eddie, what's the electric bill here? And I'm like, Mom, if you have to worry about that, this is not where I should be living. That's the least of my worries right now, right? But it's not, it wasn't a negative thing. It's just like, are you a good person? Are you being good to other people? Great. Other than that, I don't care about any of this external stuff. I think lately,

• 33:01Ed Mylett?

  my mom's like, oh, you're really helping some people. I went to the grocery store and they have your blah, blah, blah. Like, and that's when it's different. Like, that is the one thing probably with you too, like someone else knows you.

• 33:13Christina Pazsitzky?

  You're good.

• 33:13Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, exactly.

• 33:14Christina Pazsitzky?

  Guess what? You're pretty, you're pretty good.

• 33:16Ed Mylett?

  I've had three people tell me you're really good now. Do you have that same thing? Same for Mom. Where have you been? I love you, Mom, but my gosh, like it's been a while.

• 33:27Christina Pazsitzky?

  Kind of a big deal. I mean, why don't you think I'm a big deal?

• 33:30Ed Mylett?

  I just, I just think it's hilarious that, so they still weren't like, you were already doing great and they're still like,

• 33:36Christina Pazsitzky?

  I'll tell you a great, great story. So I finally, my, one of my first greatest, my big job in show business, I get a break. I become a writer on Chelsea lately.

• 33:44Ed Mylett?

  Really?

• 33:44Christina Pazsitzky?

  Wow. I think this is it, man. I'm making $1,500 a week. We're moving out of the ghetto. Tom and I were living in the Rampart Division, in a, in a one bedroom apartment in the, in the ghetto, homie. So when I got that first check, we, but we went to Trader Joe's and we got a bottle of, you know, whatever cheap ass champagne. I remember launching it off the, the patio and being like, we're out of here, man. Yo, we're going back to Silverlake. So. So I

• 34:09Ed Mylett?

  Down the street.

• 34:10Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, it is down the street. It's so glamorous compared to where we were. Yeah, so I tell my mom, I'm like, Mom, I'm a writer on Chelsea lately. She goes, well, you know what's interesting? Oprah is having a contest to see who can work for her. And maybe you'll find something better. I'm like, this, it doesn't get any better.

• 34:33Ed Mylett?

  That's so awesome.

• 34:34Christina Pazsitzky?

  Can't be happy for me.

• 34:35Ed Mylett?

  Never.

• 34:39Ed Mylett?

  Never.

• 34:39Christina Pazsitzky?

  No, but then you, but then it's a long, even when you get the validation of everybody and everyone loves you and thinks you're the best and you finally get it.

• 34:46Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 34:46Christina Pazsitzky?

  And then you go, oh, is that all there is? Cause wait a minute, I'm still, it's still me. I still wake up. Uh oh.

• 34:54Ed Mylett?

  It's funny, you're funny you say that. My dad did say to me, I'm loving that everybody gets to hear this, by the way. One thing, my dad was a wise dude. My daddy said to me, he goes, just remember this, man. Whenever you get to this level of success that you think you'll be happier when you get there or that house or like some whatever. Some people reading a book or whatever, your show or whatever it is. He goes, just remember you have to bring you with you when you get there. And I was like, that's really, cause my dad had worked on himself in his sobriety, right? He's like, you're gonna bring you when you get there. There's nothing more true in the world than that.

• 35:22Christina Pazsitzky?

  No.

• 35:22Ed Mylett?

  Still, I'm sure you still do this now to this day. It's like, it's still me when I'm there. It's still me in the car alone when I'm driving, no matter

• 35:28Christina Pazsitzky?

  Of course.

• 35:28Ed Mylett?

  what the car is or where I'm going. It's me and how I feel about me.

• 35:32Christina Pazsitzky?

  Of course.

• 35:32Ed Mylett?

  What I really believe about me.

• 35:34Christina Pazsitzky?

  But, but speaking to your audience, cause I know for anybody listening to this, I think the most powerful tool that changed everything for me was my mind. This is everything. And I know you know this.

• 35:46Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 35:46Christina Pazsitzky?

  Cause we've read the same books.

• 35:47Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 35:48Christina Pazsitzky?

  Phyllis Diller, I read in one of her autobiography, um, The Magic of Believing. The Magic of Believing, read that book. And I started to read that when I was like 28. And but before that, I had read existentialism in a philosophy class. And what is that about? Self-determinism. You can choose your life. This idea is radical, Sartre. Choose, choices. And I went, oh, you're right. Life can push me around, or I can move the ball. And that's, to me, this is the biggest lesson that I try to teach my boys. Hey, man, if you don't take charge of this whole thing, it's gonna take you away like a current.

• 36:25Ed Mylett?

  Man.

• 36:26Christina Pazsitzky?

  Right? And they don't teach you this in school, really.

• 36:29Ed Mylett?

  Yep.

• 36:30Christina Pazsitzky?

  And it makes me nutty, like, you can choose. Everything is a choice. Everything. And read, and read it. Read a book for, and it makes me sad, other than, of course, the power of Marah, hello. That people, that reading is like, guess what? Humans have existed for thousands of years, and we've had this luxury of writing it down. If you've got a question, it's in a book. Not Wikipedia, bro. Not this Google. The whole thing, homey, cover to cover. Focus, read, use your mind. This will save you.

• 36:59Ed Mylett?

  Why don't you write a book?

• 37:00Christina Pazsitzky?

  I know, I've been, I've been, um, you know why? It's a lot right now. I've got two kids I'm trying to raise, and my husband is-

• 37:07Ed Mylett?

  And podcasts and-

• 37:08Christina Pazsitzky?

  It's a lot right now. I'm gonna, I'm gonna like, I will.

• 37:10Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 37:11Christina Pazsitzky?

  I don't know about what. I don't know what.

• 37:12Ed Mylett?

  I hope it's this stuff.

• 37:13Christina Pazsitzky?

  You think so?

• 37:14Ed Mylett?

  I think this is, so here's what I think.

• 37:16Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 37:16Ed Mylett?

  I think that, like, you've been given all these amazing talents, and your talent has given you this platform where you are well-known now. And I just feel like you could write a book about how you're funny, or you could write a book about all that. But the truth of the matter is, is you're like, really, you're, the guy was on my show recently, said you're uniquely qualified to help the person that you used to be.

• 37:35Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh, man.

• 37:36Ed Mylett?

  And in your case, there's a version of you and me in about 99% of the people that are listening to this. Some version, maybe not to the extreme of having a, a parent who's schizophrenic, like you had, or a alcoholic like I had, but there's something where they just don't feel right about themselves, or they don't have direction, or they just, there's, does life have purpose? Like, what's gonna make me happy? Why aren't I happier? And I think that, like, that's why it's incumbent upon us to always grow, because then there's another person you can go help, the one that you were before you grew.

• 38:05Christina Pazsitzky?

  Mm-hmm.

• 38:06Ed Mylett?

  And so for me, that's why I keep working on me, is like, I wanna be able to help someone who- The one that was me when I was fifteen, the one that was me when I was eighteen, the one that was me when I was thirty, the one that was me when I was forty. I just had a guy in here that very, very successful young man at thirty-two. Well, I had that too. And I also know that doesn't fulfill you. And I know when I'm looking at him, I know what he's really wrestling with this. Is it worth it? Like, what will really make me happy? And so I want to grow through that. In your case, like, you've had such an amazing, I knew within about ten minutes of watching you that you've had a different life. I just knew because let me say something about you. People feel energy and like you can make me really, really laugh.

• 38:49Ed Mylett?

  But what you really do is you make people feel emotion and, and, and you're doing it today. There's a part at the end of her special, everybody, where she talks about this ketamine trip that she went on. And I want to go back and forth here, but it's one of the most, I don't know why I really.

• 39:09Ed Mylett?

  When I speak, sorry, I get emotional on this. When I speak, what I attempt to do when I'm speaking is to give people who I really am, but also not just one emotion. I want to give them the gift of the multiple emotions and also like the contradiction in them. So if, if at some point I can have them crying and really thinking about their life and then wanting to run through a wall and achieve, or in your case, laughter and all of them. I feel like I've done a service where I've moved that human. What is incredibly rare to do is to do both in like one moment, like in the same moment, somebody's feeling reflection and sadness or empathy and also laughter.

• 39:51Ed Mylett?

  And this bit you do about the ketamine trip, I've watched, we've talked about different, I mean, you have tons of friends in comedy and I have some. I've never seen that before. There's this, there's this moment in the end of your special where it's some of the most amazing art I've ever seen before. Because at the same time that people are moved.

• 40:15Ed Mylett?

  So emotionally by what you're talking about and watching you be emotional. The next second they're laughing and then they're back to this other moment. So just a little bit, give them the gift. I want them to see the special, but like now they have a pretty good sense of what you went through as a child. I mean, they have 1% of it. They have a pretty good sense. You've turned this around, which we'll talk about in a little bit too. And where your life is now and the lessons you've learned, but like, let's go there just for a second. So.

• 40:38Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh, that moment?

• 40:39Ed Mylett?

  Tell them what happens.

• 40:40Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh my God. So, yeah. So I fell down the stairs getting to my kid at two in the morning. I just come back off the road. I was so tired. I was like sleepwalking. My baby's crying and as a mom, you know, you're just like, I gotta get to my baby. Anyway, I fell down the stairs, broke my ankle in four places. And I had, I didn't even know it at the time. I thought I could just get up. So I called my husband. I was like, babe, get over here. Help me. And he's like, oh, you can't get up. You're broken, homie. So I get into the ambulance to put fentanyl, you know, all these drugs. They straighten me out, but before they straighten my leg out, they give me ketamine. I've never done, have you ever done it?

• 41:20Ed Mylett?

  I have. It's pretty amazing.

• 41:21Christina Pazsitzky?

  You've done the therapeutic kind?

• 41:23Ed Mylett?

  Yes.

• 41:24Christina Pazsitzky?

  I want to do that.

• 41:25Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 41:25Christina Pazsitzky?

  Cause what they did is they give you enough to dissociate you so that you don't remember it. And apparently it's a terrifying amount that they gave me. Cause that's what they're like, usually people are screaming when they give this to you. But Christina, you were sitting there smiling the whole time. So anyway, so they give me this ketamine and I have this wild trip, basically. And the crazy part is, is that happens in real life and I'm looking for an end to my special. And I was like, oh, that's the end of the special. That's the end of the special because it was my realization that everything that had happened to me. I don't buy this that it happens for a reason. I hate that. That's Pollyanna nonsense.

• 42:06Christina Pazsitzky?

  But I think if you attribute meaning to tragedy, attribute deliberately, then it's redemptive. And like also this whole ride of just be trying to be a kind of successful comedian. And then I have my children and then you're like, oh, it doesn't matter. Like I saw my kids' faces literally and. You know, you're making me cry. I'm just talking about it. You know, when you're like, oh, this is it. This is all that matters. Like, all this other stuff can go away tomorrow. And my kids don't care that I'm famous. They don't give a [BLEEP]. And like, they're the only things that really matter. My husband, you know, the unit.

• 42:49Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, now you're getting me crying, man.

• 42:54Christina Pazsitzky?

  But I, I often think back to that ketamine trip when I'm getting hung up on nonsense, like show business. And I'll be like, oh, but it doesn't matter. This is what I learned. Like, it matters. Don't get me wrong. I don't want to be broke tomorrow. I don't want it to all go away tomorrow, but I'm not going to stress out.

• 43:12Ed Mylett?

  Right, right.

• 43:13Christina Pazsitzky?

  Been there, dude.

• 43:14Ed Mylett?

  Me too.

• 43:15Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah. I'm not going to try to cling, like I did. Because didn't you find there was a time in your career where it's all you cared about?

• 43:23Ed Mylett?

  Yeah. It's a really difficult thing to teach because you should have goals and outcomes, and it's what's made us successful when we didn't have some. But at the same time, it's kind of letting go of an outcome and letting things come as they might that actually brings us the most joy, because the things that are the greatest blessings in life aren't things we have to force, through force, like our families. They're the things that, you know, that are the greatest blessings are our children and our families. And yet, you still want to be able to provide for them and do significant things. But I also think you said something, and I want you to stay on that story, is that it's not the events of our lives that define us, it's the meaning we attach to the event. And if you can attach the right meaning to something, or a meaning that serves you, or change the meaning,

• 44:07Ed Mylett?

  you can change how you feel about it, ultimately change how your life works. And it feels to me like, almost in that trip you were on, that the meanings shifted a little bit for you.

• 44:18Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, because I saw my parents, and I was like, I can see this person as a big, bad villain, and I'm the little girl, or, hey, what can I glean? What's the lesson here? Because I'm the mom now, and you see your broken parents as toddlers. I really see them as children now, who just didn't get enough love, who didn't get what I, well, what I didn't get too, but what I'm able to give my kids now. So there's just a lot of people, and everybody walking around. You know, I don't get mad at people nearly as much as I used to, because you're like, oh, you just didn't get love. Like, oh, you... Your mommy, your daddy.

• 44:54Ed Mylett?

  But you actually on that trip like thanked your mom and your dad.

• 44:57Christina Pazsitzky?

  I did.

• 44:57Ed Mylett?

  Tell them that a little bit.

• 44:58Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 44:59Ed Mylett?

  Even I want them to see it.

• 45:00Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, you have to see the bit for it to make total sense, but uh yeah, I end up thanking them and forgiving them in the trip. And you know, I think I think for some reason I'm thinking about my mom's fur coats because I she she hoarded like jewelry. And like fine items. I think she was convinced that World War III was coming soon and she had to I have to trade these things to get across the border. You're going to need, you know, the she she wouldn't put her money in one bank. It was in several like that kind of nutty stuff. But now that I'm wealthy and I I always was like rejecting wealth. I was always like, rich people are bad.

• 45:35Ed Mylett?

  Me too.

• 45:36Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 45:37Ed Mylett?

  That's why I was raised believing.

• 45:38Christina Pazsitzky?

  And it's nonsense because guess what? Poor people are bad too.

• 45:42Ed Mylett?

  It's the same deal.

• 45:43Christina Pazsitzky?

  And actually, rich people can do really good things to help a lot of other people and your wealth is a blessing on many, many people. So anyway, I the fur coat thing too. I was like, yeah, what's so bad about owning a fur coat? It doesn't make you a bad person.

• 45:57Ed Mylett?

  Right, right. It doesn't.

• 45:59Christina Pazsitzky?

  Unless it's the only thing you care about.

• 46:01Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, I'm watching you right now. I still think you're I still think you're working through.

• 46:06Christina Pazsitzky?

  What?

• 46:06Ed Mylett?

  Thinking about what all those events of your life meant, just as I'm watching you.

• 46:09Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh, yeah.

• 46:10Ed Mylett?

  I had a really huge blessing happen that I was with my dad when he died. I was in the room with him. And um it's weird that we're all this is going here today with you and me, but when I was with my dad in the room.

• 46:25Ed Mylett?

  I got to see I got my version of the ketamine trip to some extent because when I was with him, I was literally holding his hand just a little while before he passed away. But because he wasn't able to talk and he's just it was actually wonderful to this extent. I got to just look at him. Like you don't even with your parents, you have a dynamic. There's like this thing you do with people in your life. You do it with Tom. I do it with my wife. I we do with our kids. There's just like this pattern of how we kind of just interact with each other.

• 46:57Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 46:58Ed Mylett?

  I don't know if you've ever done this with your kids or with Tom. Might be different with Tom, but. You ever just watch your kids sleeping?

• 47:04Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh, my God, like every night.

• 47:05Ed Mylett?

  Right? It's different. You see them differently.

• 47:08Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 47:09Ed Mylett?

  And even your spouse, if you just see them sleeping, it's just different. They're not talking, they're not being them. They're just them.

• 47:15Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 47:16Ed Mylett?

  And my dad, I had these hours with him. It was just him. And I got to thinking about like, I got to think about him as a little boy. This is a man whose life is about to end, kind of like what you've done. And I'm, he's an old man now. And I remember him when he wasn't an old man. I remember him when he was, looked like my age, right? I remember when he was even younger than that and I could go back and think of him. I wonder, my dad at 10, my dad at five, my dad at two. And there's this love you can have even for someone who didn't treat you perfectly the whole time that you have this sympathy or this empathy for them. And I just think he's just, he's a man that had a life and he, and he did his best to live it his best way. And then I start thinking about myself, I will be him.

• 48:02Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 48:02Ed Mylett?

  What do I want when I'm him, when I'm there? Who do I want to have achieved? Who do I want to have helped? What do I want to have felt?

• 48:09Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 48:09Ed Mylett?

  What emotions do I want to have had? What memories do I want? We're off air, you're talking about taking your kids to, if you're, you know, you're blessed enough that you could take them somewhere on a vacation.

• 48:17Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 48:18Ed Mylett?

  Like, being in that moment with my dad gave me a different meaning to him. Gave my life a different meaning. And that's just a real powerful thing for everybody listening to this is like all the events, maybe you should evaluate what they all, the things that don't serve you, what do they mean? What did your divorce really mean? Right? What did this experience with, what having your children really mean? What did this person who hurt you, what did it really mean? If you can change the meaning.

• 48:42Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 48:43Ed Mylett?

  You can really ultimately change how you feel and then you'll take different actions in your life. And when my dad passed, I literally, you, you, you're doing this. I thought oddly, I'm going to honor my dad. I'm going to talk about him more. I'm going to talk about what I learned from him. I'll talk about how he hurt me. Put it in my book. It's in my book. All my speeches lately involve my dad. And in a very beautiful way, you honored your mom.

• 49:10Christina Pazsitzky?

  Mm hmm.

• 49:11Ed Mylett?

  In that special and your dad. You started out by telling the truth. Right? But you honored him. Did it ever dawn on you that you were doing that?

• 49:19Christina Pazsitzky?

  No.

• 49:20Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 49:20Christina Pazsitzky?

  It's unconscious.

• 49:21Ed Mylett?

  Hmm.

• 49:22Christina Pazsitzky?

  No.

• 49:24Christina Pazsitzky?

  No. I think, no.

• 49:25Ed Mylett?

  Right now, and he's stony on you.

• 49:27Christina Pazsitzky?

  No, because, because, yeah, I'm like, oh, yeah, I guess I. No, because like you, when you create something, it's all really unconscious. You just kind of throw stuff out and then you hope there's a through line and like, what's that gonna be? And. But really, what I really wanted to express as well is honoring, I think, now that you mention it. It's just that I'm not, I, I don't hate you, man. I ain't mad at you. Because the anger, we all go through it and like I. Also, one of my pet peeves about the self-help movement is like, just be happy, be happy. It's like, look for the joy. It's like, no, and, and no. Sometimes you, the suffering, and you did a great podcast about this recently, yeah. About the suffering that must come in order to have the joy.

• 50:07Ed Mylett?

  Yes.

• 50:07Christina Pazsitzky?

  The suffering. And I just didn't want to leave people thinking like, I'm this rageful adolescent. Because I'm really, I'm not mad at them anymore. Because once you become a parent and you're like, oh, okay, yeah, I got it.

• 50:20Ed Mylett?

  Me too. I'm mad at my dad sometimes.

• 50:22Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, sometimes, yeah.

• 50:23Ed Mylett?

  There's, I'll think of something, I'm like, I can't believe he did that to me. In some situation. But my overall view of him isn't that way. My overall meaning. Why do you think, by the way, I want to ask you some stuff.

• 50:32Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, go ahead.

• 50:35Ed Mylett?

  It seems to me that you have a great marriage. It's been a long one.

• 50:37Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 50:38Ed Mylett?

  Right? And I, I watch you talk about, I watch stuff close. I'm weird. But I watch you talk about Tom. And after all this time, um, like you really love him. Like, you really love him. And, um, I love the jokes you make about, you know, football and food and sex and all that. It's hilarious, right? But like, you really love him. And you seem to be like an unbelievably dedicated mother. So you come from a crappy marriage with your parents.

• 51:04Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 51:04Ed Mylett?

  You come from crappy parenting from your parents. Yet you've become the opposite of that.

• 51:09Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 51:10Ed Mylett?

  Did you like, does this, did you like, think, this is what I don't want to be?

• 51:14Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, and I also think it's not healthy, who I am actually. Because I think my shrink would be like, you're just doing the opposite of what they are. Like, I, I, I'm living in reaction to. So like, I'm, thankfully, I, I made wise choices and I've made good choices, but like. Maybe that, maybe this is overshooting. Am I too perfect? Am I trying to be too perfect? I don't know. But yeah, a part of that is going like, why get multiple divorces? Cause guess what? Most of the time, most of the time, both my parents ended up marrying some version of the first one.

• 51:50Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, that's the truth. Same person in a different body. So most people date and do in their life.

• 51:56Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah. So you guys didn't do any work in between these marriages? Cause nobody went to therapy. So like, why trade up? Why lose half your money? And then?

• 52:04Ed Mylett?

  Why, how long you been in therapy?

• 52:06Christina Pazsitzky?

  12 years.

• 52:07Ed Mylett?

  And has it, do you think it's really helped you? Cause I think a lot of people out there think, I'm not gonna talk to somebody, cause it's embarrassing. Or there's a stigma. Or what the heck is some other normal human being gonna help me out with my stuff with? But it's worked for you, right?

• 52:18Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, well, is it embarrassing? Yeah. Is there a stigma? Absolutely. Will people think you're nuts? Sure. Will your family think you're a complete idiot? And will people talk crap to you about it? Yeah. Who cares? They're not in my head. F them. And that's another thing you get in therapy is you go like, oh wait, why am I living? Cause another thing, well, my ketamine trip taught me is that this is it, bro. This is, this is it. And I'm 46, so I'm on the other end of the, of the hill now. So it's like, when, when are you gonna start living? When? When are you gonna, when are you gonna do it for you? And like, a therapist, a good therapist knows the map. Your friend doesn't know the map out of your own nonsense. They know the map. Let, let the, let the, the captain take you.

• 53:03Ed Mylett?

  I agree.

• 53:04Christina Pazsitzky?

  Right?

• 53:04Ed Mylett?

  Totally. I also think that's why I like listening to something like this. This is a form of therapy for people today. Like, you're helping, you know, I think you kinda know you are too. I'm watching you. Like, you're helping millions of people like work through some stuff. Like, it may not be the same situation, but it can apply.

• 53:23Ed Mylett?

  Thing I'm wondering too, like, so now you become, the other part of you is you become this like incredibly successful person and you're married to an incredibly successful person. It sounds like you guys are great parents. Is it, I've asked this a lot on my show because it answers very.

• 53:40Ed Mylett?

  Does it, is it worth it? Like, you're well known now, like you're well known, your show. There's a lot that comes with all that too, though, right? There's like a momentum you don't want to lose.

• 53:49Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 53:50Ed Mylett?

  Do you, do you, do you worry like this could go away?

• 53:52Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 53:53Ed Mylett?

  And you, you, what's it like to now be real too? What's it like to now be on the other side? All these years of cracking open champagne, I got 1,500 bucks a week from Chelsea Handler, right? All the years of, you're making nothing in stand up, nothing, right? And then you just, you know, you, this is life is happening and like, you're like, well, I'm 30 now and I'm 35 now and I'm blah, blah, blah. Like, I'm wondering, like, now that you're kind of on the other side of it, is it worth it? And do you worry about losing it?

• 54:22Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah. Is it worth it? Absolutely.

• 54:25Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 54:26Christina Pazsitzky?

  You know what? Don't, listen, it's, I heard Marion Williamson say this, being a winner is, that's a better problem to have than not being a winner. Do you know what I mean? Like, oh, I got, I gotta stay successful. Great. What a great problem to have.

• 54:45Ed Mylett?

  Right.

• 54:46Christina Pazsitzky?

  And like the, I remember when I wasn't successful and I didn't like that feeling way more.

• 54:51Ed Mylett?

  Me too.

• 54:51Christina Pazsitzky?

  So the, the thing of like, how can we keep this up? Like, it won't last forever. That's the nature of my business. That's okay. We're, we're making it rain now. We're putting it away now. I'm investing and, and when everyone's sick and tired of me, I'll go away and it'll be.

• 55:08Ed Mylett?

  That's true perspective.

• 55:09Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, like, okay. But I love it, man. Listen, I suffered for many years to get here. My, my rise was slow and steady. I did not have the overnight thing. So that was a blessing. I.

• 55:23Ed Mylett?

  Do you ever think about quitting?

• 55:24Christina Pazsitzky?

  Uh, yeah. Weekly. Well, you're a stand-up comedian. It's the hardest, it's the wor- it's like, literally, you're the, you're the best or the worst. You're the best or the worst. It's the push-pull, right? That's why I'm so sickly charged by it, because it's your, it's your alcoholic parent. It's your borderline mom. I love you, I hate you, I love you, I hate you. So I'm, I'm, I'm wired for this.

• 55:45Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 55:46Christina Pazsitzky?

  And then I'm like, I don't want to do it, forget it. I'm just gonna stay home forever. I'm gonna stay in Texas and just, you know, fish with my kids all. And then I get, and then I get an itchy bee hole, and then I gotta go tell jokes again.

• 55:57Ed Mylett?

  Speaking of itchy bee holes, just so we do a little bit of something in the special, just tell them what a Milwaukee Milkshake is. Tell them, tell them.

• 56:06Christina Pazsitzky?

  Okay, what's the bit? Now I gotta remember.

• 56:07Ed Mylett?

  Do you remember?

• 56:08Christina Pazsitzky?

  So.

• 56:08Ed Mylett?

  You're using the.

• 56:09Christina Pazsitzky?

  I'm sitting on the toilet.

• 56:11Ed Mylett?

  You're doing number two.

• 56:12Christina Pazsitzky?

  I'm making it, I'm dropping, okay, I'm taking it down. With my toddler sitting on my lap. Bonus points if you breastfeed at the same time. That's the, that's the Milwaukee Milkshake, yeah.

• 56:22Ed Mylett?

  You got a dog staring you in the eyes.

• 56:23Christina Pazsitzky?

  It's dog staring at me.

• 56:24Ed Mylett?

  Baby on your lap, you're breastfeeding.

• 56:26Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yep.

• 56:27Ed Mylett?

  And that's the bonus.

• 56:28Christina Pazsitzky?

  And that's how I take it down.

• 56:28Ed Mylett?

  Come on, that's legit right there.

• 56:30Christina Pazsitzky?

  That's the truth, right?

• 56:31Ed Mylett?

  It's the truth. And then the part, so let me tell you something. My wife doesn't get comedy.

• 56:36Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 56:36Ed Mylett?

  So we watch all these specials. I'm like, because I love it, and I take her to different clubs. And, I mean, she didn't even think, bless his heart, I took her to Norm MacDonald, and I'm crying laughing. And she's like, I just, I just don't get it. I'm like, what is wrong with you, right?

• 56:48Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 56:48Ed Mylett?

  But you, the deal where like, the, the bit you do on where like, okay, we don't, I just pull my sweatpants down now when we're having sex. I mean, she was legitimately falling off the couch crying laughing.

• 57:01Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh, good.

• 57:02Ed Mylett?

  And I'm like, I don't know what you're laughing at, because none of that.

• 57:04Christina Pazsitzky?

  You're like, it's.

• 57:05Ed Mylett?

  You don't relate to any of this, just so you know. But like, I just want, I'm not trying to sell everybody on seeing your stuff, but I just think it's like, I think it's just absolutely the best. I think you're my favorite.

• 57:16Christina Pazsitzky?

  Gosh.

• 57:16Ed Mylett?

  You really are my favorite.

• 57:17Christina Pazsitzky?

  I can't handle these compliments.

• 57:18Ed Mylett?

  I know, you don't handle them very well.

• 57:20Christina Pazsitzky?

  I don't. Well, you should, you should come and see me perform.

• 57:22Ed Mylett?

  I want to do that.

• 57:23Christina Pazsitzky?

  I'll give you guys some free tickets.

• 57:25Ed Mylett?

  Whoa, well, that'd be good, because I can't afford those things.

• 57:29Ed Mylett?

  I want to, I might, I got a couple more things I want to ask you about.

• 57:31Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, I'm just writing it down so I don't forget.

• 57:32Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, okay, yeah, please invite me. Um, I want to know a little bit about how you are now as like a mom.

• 57:39Christina Pazsitzky?

  Hmm.

• 57:40Ed Mylett?

  So, first off, are you done having kids, number one? And then, like, are you?

• 57:46Ed Mylett?

  Do you allow yourself to like enjoy it? Or are you always like, am I doing the right thing? Like, I gotta be honest with you. When I was raising my kids, I was constantly like, I didn't do that right. I didn't do that right. I screwed that up. I'm not, she's a really good mom. I'm like a half-assed dad. Like, I'm always like not even really good enough at it in my own mind now. Now mine are leaving me. But I'm curious as to what kind of a mom you are now.

• 58:07Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, so I over-correct a lot. We don't, I don't have what looks healthy at all.

• 58:14Ed Mylett?

  What do you mean?

• 58:15Christina Pazsitzky?

  Like, cuz I didn't, I grew up so severely weird in the sense like, okay, we're foreigners. We're Hungarians. And then I'm living alone with my borderline mom, or I'm living alone with my dad. And so like, I'm literally like, I don't, I remember watching movies with my husband and having to ask him, um, why did that person react that way in that movie? Like, what feeling is that?

• 58:39Ed Mylett?

  Really?

• 58:39Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah. And he's like, well, it's cuz she was mad. You didn't, and I was like, mm. Like, I didn't understand a lot of dynamics. So I've actually had to learn to identify right feelings and like, I sound like a sociopath, but I'm not. It's just that I have a hard time feeling feelings.

• 58:56Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, you have no reference point.

• 58:57Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah. So I ask my husband a lot, like, is this normal? Like, how did you guys do this growing up? So I check in with him a lot about the kids, like, like, right now, um, kids are cursing a lot. Uh, and I'm like, oh, I probably shouldn't let them say the F-word. That's not good. So I lied, I told my, my little one that the word dornet is the worst word in English. Like, I went, dornet, yeah. And I'm like, dornet. Anyway, I over-correct. I'm done having kids. I'm too old to have more and I'm too exhausted. But yeah, I worry that I'm doing it wrong every day. I don't know what, I know what I wanna teach them. I have thought about that. Like, what's the goal, dude? Is it to make you a good student?

• 59:43Christina Pazsitzky?

  Hell, no. We all know that. The most successful people, they're not straight A students. And especially in today's world with academia, like, it's a different environment.

• 59:54Ed Mylett?

  Yep.

• 59:55Christina Pazsitzky?

  So like,

• 59:55Ed Mylett?

  What do you want them to have?

• 59:56Christina Pazsitzky?

  Feel your feelings. Let's try that first and foremost. Resilience. You get up. I just started skate, my six-year-old skateboarding. Take him down to the skateboard park. Cuz he's, he's a wild man. And I'm like, let's put that into something, you know? Like, find what you're good at. Forget what you're not good at. I wish someone had told me earlier, my parents had the wherewithal to be like, "Hey, you're not good at that. Don't worry. You're not gonna be an opera singer. You're not gonna be a gymnast." F it. Why was I trying so hard to do stuff I couldn't do?

• 1:00:25Ed Mylett?

  Really good advice. I agree with you.

• 1:00:27Christina Pazsitzky?

  God!

• 1:00:27Ed Mylett?

  There's so much stuff I'm not good at. I wish they would've just checked the box for me early. I'd be like, "Hey, I'm not gonna work with my hands on cars. Like, I'm not mechanical at all." "And I can't do math and science and none of that stuff. So like, that's all off the box." "My scope is pretty limited. You might as well get pretty good at this stuff over here."

• 1:00:45Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, you get two or three things.

• 1:00:47Ed Mylett?

  Yep, I agree with you. I want my kids to be super confident, but have humility. For me, it's a little different. Some of their confidence comes through their faith to some extent. I want them to have, I want them to believe that. But the biggest thing is I also want them to be really good communicators.

• 1:01:00Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, that's important.

• 1:01:01Ed Mylett?

  I think it's hard to get through life if you can't communicate. I don't think it has to be spoken word. It could be written word. But to be able to express themselves. You said feel things. I agree with that, but then also be able to express it.

• 1:01:10Christina Pazsitzky?

  Thinking, too.

• 1:01:11Ed Mylett?

  Oh, yeah.

• 1:01:11Christina Pazsitzky?

  This, this needs to be...

• 1:01:13Ed Mylett?

  Independent thinking. I think that's the rarest thing on the planet right now, don't you, with all the programming?

• 1:01:17Christina Pazsitzky?

  Forget about it.

• 1:01:18Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 1:01:18Christina Pazsitzky?

  And the scariest part is that this younger generation, who is endorsing the policing of other people's thinking and speaking, talk about dangerous stuff.

• 1:01:29Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, wow.

• 1:01:30Christina Pazsitzky?

  They don't even know what they're blowing apart right now.

• 1:01:33Ed Mylett?

  Yep.

• 1:01:33Christina Pazsitzky?

  They're so indoctrinated. So, yeah, thinking.

• 1:01:36Ed Mylett?

  Your industry's the most under attack for that right now.

• 1:01:39Christina Pazsitzky?

  Phew!

• 1:01:39Ed Mylett?

  Right? It's like independent thought and expression.

• 1:01:42Christina Pazsitzky?

  Is it ever? But can I tell you, I think we're coming to the end of it. I sense that there's enough comedians pushing back.

• 1:01:48Ed Mylett?

  Mm-hmm.

• 1:01:49Christina Pazsitzky?

  And thank God for Netflix standing behind Dave Chappelle.

• 1:01:52Ed Mylett?

  Hmm.

• 1:01:54Christina Pazsitzky?

  Cause if Chappelle goes down...

• 1:01:56Ed Mylett?

  Really?

• 1:01:56Christina Pazsitzky?

  We all go down, I think, yeah.

• 1:01:58Ed Mylett?

  Really?

• 1:01:58Christina Pazsitzky?

  He's the head of the, head of the committee, man.

• 1:02:01Ed Mylett?

  There's a hierarchy? I didn't know that.

• 1:02:02Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh, Dave Chappelle's, yeah, well, well, yeah. There's a few big ones, but, right? You know, Joe Rogan, Dave Chappelle.

• 1:02:10Ed Mylett?

  Yeah. I certainly hear those names a lot lately. I heard Rogan's gonna start a podcast. That'd be awesome. I bet he'd be pretty good at it.

• 1:02:17Christina Pazsitzky?

  He should try that out.

• 1:02:18Ed Mylett?

  He should try that out.

• 1:02:18Christina Pazsitzky?

  He's a clever guy.

• 1:02:21Christina Pazsitzky?

  He adapts.

• 1:02:21Ed Mylett?

  What advice, let's go through a couple of things last. I'm enjoying today so much.

• 1:02:25Christina Pazsitzky?

  Me too. You don't have to.

• 1:02:28Ed Mylett?

  What advice would you give to somebody right now who's like, hey, I'm me and or my child are in a dark place? You know, I'm not happy with my own life, or I've got a child who's really struggling with just dark, unhappy, you know, why should I do anything type thoughts?

• 1:02:48Christina Pazsitzky?

  The teenager?

• 1:02:49Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, anybody, it could be a person listening to this too, just themselves, or 33 years old, they're a mom with two kids. And they're like, I'm not as happy as I thought I would be. And I'm just not feeling like I want to feel. That's a hard question, but I'm wondering what your answer would be.

• 1:03:03Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh my God.

• 1:03:04Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 1:03:05Christina Pazsitzky?

  Well, for the teenager. I mean, really at that age, all I wanted was for someone to put their arm around me and go, what is it? What is it?

• 1:03:18Ed Mylett?

  Me too.

• 1:03:18Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah. What's going on? Are you all right? Yeah, because I think that's, that's just what they want is to be heard and seen and. Right? Wouldn't you have loved it if some adult?

• 1:03:31Ed Mylett?

  Thought about that exact scenario, Christina, a lot. Wish someone would have just said, hey, are you okay? Everything all right? And it'll be okay.

• 1:03:39Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh, and high school doesn't last forever and you'll be 18, you'll get out of this house and you'll go on.

• 1:03:44Ed Mylett?

  Man, I do wish that.

• 1:03:45Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, or also what I really resented as a teenager, when I was like goth and weird is like, oh, you think you'll know everything? Oh, you think you're so smart? Like the anger? Projected at me instead of like, something's wrong. I think I sense something's wrong. Are you okay? Empathy, kindness, love.

• 1:04:05Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 1:04:06Christina Pazsitzky?

  Would have been a better received.

• 1:04:08Ed Mylett?

  Agreed. What about to the person, the grown up?

• 1:04:10Christina Pazsitzky?

  The older one?

• 1:04:11Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 1:04:13Christina Pazsitzky?

  Man, get your ass into therapy.

• 1:04:15Ed Mylett?

  Mm-hmm.

• 1:04:16Christina Pazsitzky?

  And especially now. I mean, I know you do ads. I don't know if Talkspace is one. I'm not gonna plug anybody, but it's so accessible.

• 1:04:25Ed Mylett?

  Mm-hmm.

• 1:04:25Christina Pazsitzky?

  And it's on such a scale.

• 1:04:27Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 1:04:27Christina Pazsitzky?

  It's not just for elite, you know, bougie people in Beverly Hills. It's for everybody.

• 1:04:33Ed Mylett?

  Yep.

• 1:04:33Christina Pazsitzky?

  You just have to talk. Don't hide. Don't isolate. That's what you want to do when you're depressed, is right? Isolate, eat your feelings, whatever your feelings.

• 1:04:41Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 1:04:42Christina Pazsitzky?

  But the dark, if it's really dark, man.

• 1:04:45Ed Mylett?

  Talk to someone, right?

• 1:04:46Christina Pazsitzky?

  Someone qualified.

• 1:04:46Ed Mylett?

  Even if you have a good friend, that you can say, can I just tell you what's going on? And oftentimes, for me, just talking out loud and hearing myself think out loud is almost as valuable as what any therapist would say back to me. Not as valuable. You should go see a therapist. But if you're not going to do that, just talking, even like this today.

• 1:05:05Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 1:05:06Ed Mylett?

  I kind of said some things today. I'm surprised they came out of me.

• 1:05:08Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, no, I didn't think we'd go this deep.

• 1:05:11Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, I didn't.

• 1:05:11Christina Pazsitzky?

  I didn't think we'd go this deep. I like it, though.

• 1:05:13Ed Mylett?

  Me too. And I'd like said some stuff, but I'm like, hey, I think I'm gonna think that through a little bit more after we're done today. A couple of things that I said.

• 1:05:19Christina Pazsitzky?

  Are you gonna edit it out?

• 1:05:20Ed Mylett?

  No.

• 1:05:21Christina Pazsitzky?

  Is it that or like?

• 1:05:21Ed Mylett?

  I'm not taking anything out of here.

• 1:05:22Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 1:05:23Ed Mylett?

  I feel like, I think it's super rare that two people who outwardly appear to be successful, whether we are or we aren't, right?

• 1:05:31Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 1:05:32Ed Mylett?

  Just like have an hour or two that go, man, I went through this. I went through that. This is how I did it. That's what I did. It's like a very rare thing. This, what we're doing right now, and I don't mean to be rude, you've got an unbelievable podcast, Joe does. I was kidding. It is unbelievably rare that two people that have outward success of some type go, hey, man, let's just keep it real for an hour. Right? Here's how screwed up I was. This is what I used to think. This is what I did. Because I, for me.

• 1:05:56Christina Pazsitzky?

  I know.

• 1:05:56Ed Mylett?

  Let me say something. You know what? My 14-year-old butt could have really used, or my 22-year-old butt, to listen to this today?

• 1:06:02Christina Pazsitzky?

  Seriously?

• 1:06:03Ed Mylett?

  If I were driving right now and I had a 14-year-old be like, just listen. It's gonna be, it turns out, everything's gonna be okay if you do some of this stuff. Like, had I had this right here today, what you and I are doing, I'd have went, wow, I'm not alone. I'm not totally crazy. Turns out, other people are hurting too. Other people don't come from perfect houses. Other people struggle with their thoughts. Other people have pain. And there's a couple of things they did to work through it. And guess what? Both of them. Have produced pretty cool marriages, pretty cool families, pretty cool influence in their life. So to me, that's incredibly valuable what you're doing here today. And I don't know, I've heard a lot of your stuff. I've never heard you talk about any of this stuff before.

• 1:06:40Christina Pazsitzky?

  Really?

• 1:06:41Ed Mylett?

  Something like this. So I've heard you joke about it.

• 1:06:43Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 1:06:43Ed Mylett?

  But I haven't heard you talk about it in depth like this before. So I'm like really, really grateful for it.

• 1:06:47Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, maybe I should start talking about it again. I did for a minute and then I got, um, I don't know, I got over it. I think I got like, you know, where you're just like, I don't know, I'm done talking for now.

• 1:06:57Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 1:06:57Christina Pazsitzky?

  Maybe I'll go back to it.

• 1:06:58Ed Mylett?

  Well, here's why most successful people, I talk about this in the book. Most successful people operate now currently out of their imagination and their vision, not their history and memory. And it's, and that's a formula for bliss. Like you're now, it is hard because like you are building a beautiful family that you have dreams for and visions for. And you have a career that you have a vision and a dream for. And so it isn't easy when you operate out of those creative places to go back and go, okay, here's what it was. It's painful. It's like, and to us it becomes routine. Yet my vision and your vision and your dream for your show or your career serves like three people today.

• 1:07:37Christina Pazsitzky?

  Right.

• 1:07:38Ed Mylett?

  Right? So in this sense.

• 1:07:40Christina Pazsitzky?

  Right.

• 1:07:40Ed Mylett?

  Having history and memory is what serves people in our own lives. And this is such a huge distinction. I don't spend almost any of my normal life, do you? Thinking about history memory. When I'm in therapy, I do, but my day to day is what's my vision for the show? What's my vision for my business? What's my vision for the book? What's my vision for my dreams, where I want to go, what we want to do with our kids and our family? That's where I spend my time. But in order to serve people, I work out of my history and memory from time to time. Does that make sense?

• 1:08:08Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 1:08:09Ed Mylett?

  Yeah. You, you and Tom aren't sitting around every single day talking about when you were nine years old. It comes up, but you spend probably most of your time, what are we doing with the kids? What do we have for the show? Where are we going to do this? Where are you touring? What's the new thing we're going to create?

• 1:08:21Christina Pazsitzky?

  Of course. It's so good.

• 1:08:23Ed Mylett?

  But that's a no course for me and you.

• 1:08:24Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 1:08:25Ed Mylett?

  But I think oftentimes when people get too much into self-help. They think this is where you live. And this isn't where I live every single day. Maybe this should be in the beginning of the show, frankly, because it's an important lesson, right? And that's probably why you're tired of talking about it, because you don't spend your time there.

• 1:08:41Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yes, because there's a time and a place.

• 1:08:43Ed Mylett?

  Right.

• 1:08:43Christina Pazsitzky?

  To regress and to feel and to get sad and to cry about your childhood. And then that's why therapy's only 50 minutes, not even a full hour. And your shrink is like, "All right, bitch, get back out in the world."

• 1:08:54Ed Mylett?

  Go do it.

• 1:08:55Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, stop crying and go get after it. Yes, and I agree. I think there's a time for feeling. And I think we're in a lovely era that celebrates feelings and introspection. However, let's get on with it now.

• 1:09:08Ed Mylett?

  Right, let's get on with living.

• 1:09:09Christina Pazsitzky?

  Let's get resilient again, too. Let's get a little kick in the pants. Come on, kiddos. Enough crying, right?

• 1:09:15Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 1:09:15Christina Pazsitzky?

  A little tough love is okay, too.

• 1:09:17Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, because the truth is, you got where you are because you've just worked your ass off at it.

• 1:09:22Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, dog. And like, you know what makes me crazy, too, is everybody's like,

• 1:09:28Christina Pazsitzky?

  "I'm being, you know, what's the word I'm looking for?

• 1:09:34Christina Pazsitzky?

  I can't remember the word. discriminated against." And everybody's so hateful now and this and that. And you're like, "Oh, no, society's great now." 20 years ago, when I started stand-up comedy, do you think anybody wanted to hear a girl tell jokes? Hell to the no. And do you know how many people told me I would never succeed? How many club owners told me I wouldn't succeed? There's an entire chain of clubs in Canada that wouldn't book me because the owner says, quote, "I don't book women." That's how crazy it was. Yeah, so it's like, I don't know. I also feel like anybody listening to this, like, you're capable of whatever the hell it is. If you're obsessed, go, dude, go.

• 1:10:19Christina Pazsitzky?

  Don't listen to everybody. You're not victimized. I don't believe in this victim [BLEEP].

• 1:10:24Ed Mylett?

  Well, you

• 1:10:24Christina Pazsitzky?

  Enough.

• 1:10:24Ed Mylett?

  Same thing you say that, cause like, um, I was, we're talking about my, not, no, it's fifty fifty. I was gonna say, all my favorite, most of my favorite comedians are women. Now, that's not true. It's about fifty fifty. But I do think about people like Whitney and Nikki Glaser and yourself and Margaret Cho.

• 1:10:41Christina Pazsitzky?

  I love those bros.

• 1:10:42Ed Mylett?

  And, um, what's the, what's the tiny, uh, little Asian lady who did the standup special Pregnant?

• 1:10:47Christina Pazsitzky?

  Ali Wong, only my BFF. I love her so much.

• 1:10:50Ed Mylett?

  I think she's unbelievably funny. She's amazing. Ali Wong is the bomb, right?

• 1:10:55Christina Pazsitzky?

  I know.

• 1:10:56Ed Mylett?

  Like, I just, I just, I think more and more, I was like, wow, like, maybe it's that I'm a little bit older too, but like, for me, having an appreciation for like the women's perspective and how funny it was and like the Milwaukee Milkshake and these other things that stand out, like, let's be honest, I watched a whole bunch of Netflix specials all the time, a different comedians I go, I've DM'd one person in my damn life and said, I want you on my show, which was you. How long, couple last things, how long did you go in comedy or entertainment in general? Before you had like a big financial breakthrough? I just want everybody to hear this because they're sitting there going, hey, I've been an entrepreneur for two years and nine months. And I am still not a millionaire.

• 1:11:35Christina Pazsitzky?

  I know.

• 1:11:36Ed Mylett?

  You know, don't you think like people's timeframe of like how long it's, how quickly it's supposed to happen, like, hey man, it's been, you know, it's only like thirty months. And I'm like, I thought by now we would be finished.

• 1:11:46Christina Pazsitzky?

  I know.

• 1:11:46Ed Mylett?

  How long were you doing from the?

• 1:11:48Christina Pazsitzky?

  It's a million, like, you know Gary Vaynerchuk, obviously.

• 1:11:51Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, I know Gary. I did a speaking engagement with him Saturday. Yeah, I know Gary.

• 1:11:54Christina Pazsitzky?

  Love Gary, cause he's got that Russian dad, you know, he's always like, you gotta take, you know, he's always talking, it takes time.

• 1:11:59Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 1:12:00Christina Pazsitzky?

  Okay, bro. It's a marathon. Yeah, it's a marathon. Anything worth doing.

• 1:12:05Ed Mylett?

  How long was your marathon?

• 1:12:05Christina Pazsitzky?

  Okay, I'll tell you. Okay, so, shoot, let's see, I start doing standup, I'm twenty six. I mean, literally probably the Chelsea lately era. My last day job was two thousand six.

• 1:12:18Ed Mylett?

  2006 was a day job.

• 1:12:19Christina Pazsitzky?

  Meaning I worked.

• 1:12:20Ed Mylett?

  You had to do something else in addition to comedy?

• 1:12:22Christina Pazsitzky?

  Literally, so I worked at.

• 1:12:23Ed Mylett?

  Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, really?

• 1:12:25Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, so I, I think so, hold on.

• 1:12:27Ed Mylett?

  Wow.

• 1:12:28Christina Pazsitzky?

  I'm not even, that's not even accurate. I bet 2010 is when I become a headliner, so 2010. But by 2000, no, I'm sorry, I'm wrong, 2009 or 10.

• 1:12:38Ed Mylett?

  That's a long time.

• 1:12:40Christina Pazsitzky?

  And I start in, oh, I start at 26, so how old am I? I don't know, I can't even, 20 years ago I start.

• 1:12:46Ed Mylett?

  That's insane.

• 1:12:47Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, long time to be broke, dude. Literally, I'd work a day job, like I'd work 10 hours, eight, whatever, 12 hour days, and then go to the clubs. And that's just to learn how to do stand up in LA. And then I want to become a feature act. So that, you take the leap of faith and you get a crummy job that lets you take off weekends when you can get the work and now you're featuring in Florida or wherever. So the last job I had, my day job, is like 2010, it's at the Girl Scouts of Greater Los Angeles.

• 1:13:13Ed Mylett?

  Oh my god.

• 1:13:14Christina Pazsitzky?

  I'm featuring from time to time, I'm on Chelsea Lately on the Roundtable, right? So I get a spot. I was so broke, I had to go to the store and like check out clothes is what I would say from like these nice, you know, like a hundred dollar shirt and I leave a tag on.

• 1:13:27Ed Mylett?

  Take the tag on.

• 1:13:27Christina Pazsitzky?

  I'd wear it, yeah, on Chelsea Lately, return it immediately because I couldn't afford it, and then go work at the Girl Scouts the next day.

• 1:13:34Ed Mylett?

  Oh my gosh.

• 1:13:34Christina Pazsitzky?

  So, yeah, so people would come in and be like, weren't you on Chelsea Lately last night? And I was like, and now I'm working at the Girl Scouts.

• 1:13:40Ed Mylett?

  That's freaking crazy to me. So you're on the E-Channel, on Chelsea's show.

• 1:13:45Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, as a Roundtable.

• 1:13:46Ed Mylett?

  With, with a shirt you're about to return the next day.

• 1:13:48Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 1:13:49Ed Mylett?

  And go back to work the next day.

• 1:13:50Christina Pazsitzky?

  The Girl Scouts.

• 1:13:51Ed Mylett?

  And like, so because you spent so long not financially successful, do you worry now it's going to end too soon?

• 1:13:59Christina Pazsitzky?

  No, because Tommy and I have been very responsible with what we've done with our cash and like it's, I, I believe we've invested it wisely, it's, it's, it's accounted for. We've always been. When we had $200, we were always responsible with $200.

• 1:14:14Ed Mylett?

  I love that.

• 1:14:15Christina Pazsitzky?

  So, yeah.

• 1:14:16Ed Mylett?

  I say in every marriage, there's savers and spenders, right?

• 1:14:19Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 1:14:19Ed Mylett?

  Your marriage is toast if you're both spenders. You might have a chance if one's a spender and one's a saver. But if you're both savers, you'll probably be ending up okay.

• 1:14:28Christina Pazsitzky?

  I hope so.

• 1:14:28Ed Mylett?

  No matter how much money, because same thing. Always like, I made 200 bucks, like 12 bucks went into a mutual fund or something at some point. Yeah, always did that.

• 1:14:35Christina Pazsitzky?

  Well, was that rich dad, poor dad, I'll never forget where he was like, always pay yourself first.

• 1:14:40Ed Mylett?

  Yep.

• 1:14:40Christina Pazsitzky?

  Always pay yourself first. And that's the first time I'd ever heard that.

• 1:14:44Ed Mylett?

  Yeah.

• 1:14:44Christina Pazsitzky?

  I was like, oh, snap. Yeah.

• 1:14:46Ed Mylett?

  It's really, really good stuff.

• 1:14:47Christina Pazsitzky?

  Put that into something, man.

• 1:14:48Ed Mylett?

  I, uh, I, um, I knew this would be really good today. But I didn't know that we were going to go this deep, nor did I know that you're going to be willing to, I don't know if you call it vulnerability or not, but like, like you just, I really believe that when people go see you, most of them probably already know you. But when they go see you and then they hear the actual story of your life and who you really are, I just think it's unbelievably inspiring. There are people that say inspiring things. Very rarely do you encounter someone who's like an actual inspiring being.

• 1:15:20Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh, my goodness.

• 1:15:21Ed Mylett?

  And when I met you, I, when I saw you, rather, I thought this is an inspiring being. I have this radar. It's hard for someone to inspire me anymore because I've been so saturated in this space, so to speak. I saw you, I went, that's different right there. That's different. She's special. And you confirmed it. Actually, you extended it to me today. I'm really grateful for you.

• 1:15:46Christina Pazsitzky?

  Thank you. I really appreciate you saying that. I really appreciate you seeing it, seeing me. Because I think you're right. I think it's like, it's game recognize game, homie.

• 1:15:57Ed Mylett?

  Thank you.

• 1:15:58Christina Pazsitzky?

  You know, if you've been through it and you've come out of it, you see one of your comrades. And same with you. When I started listening to your podcast, I was like, Oh, yeah, dude. He's been there and he's out of the darkness.

• 1:16:10Ed Mylett?

  I, um, want everyone to go follow you. By the way, her podcast is freaking hilarious.

• 1:16:15Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh, good.

• 1:16:15Ed Mylett?

  Both of them, but like the one I've listened to the most is Your Mom's House. Like, it's just... By the way, it's not quite as clean as it was here today, everybody. So just want you to all know, and neither is the special. Like, you just need to be prepared for some, uh, adult, sensitive topics.

• 1:16:30Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah.

• 1:16:30Ed Mylett?

  But like, where do you want them to find you? Anywhere, like?

• 1:16:33Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, I love Instagram. I'm at TheChristinaP on Instagram. And then go to YMHstudios.com for all our podcasts. So YMH Studios, we brought out to Austin. And, um, we have five different podcasts that we operate out of, uh, out of Austin. There's Two Bears, One Cave with Bert Kreischer and Tom Segura, my husband. Danny Brown just got his own show. I have Where My Mom's At. And there's like Tom Talks, Dr. Drew After Dark. And it's just a fun... It's a place where, um, we can say what we want, like, much like here, you know?

• 1:17:07Ed Mylett?

  And if you want to still experience an alcoholic at work, you get Bert Kreischer.

• 1:17:10Christina Pazsitzky?

  So... A shirtless one, too.

• 1:17:13Ed Mylett?

  Shirtless, hugely, um, bear-looking human that's hilarious as well. Like, their stuff is just the best of the best. I, uh, I'm really grateful you did this today.

• 1:17:24Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh, I'm so happy we did this.

• 1:17:25Ed Mylett?

  And you, uh, you helped lots and lots of people, including me. Want to have you back on when you have another special on. And I do want to come see you perform.

• 1:17:32Christina Pazsitzky?

  Yeah, please do.

• 1:17:32Ed Mylett?

  And you come see me speak, though.

• 1:17:34Christina Pazsitzky?

  Oh, I would love to.

• 1:17:35Ed Mylett?

  Yeah, I would love that. I wish you would do a little bit of that.

• 1:17:38Christina Pazsitzky?

  I know.

• 1:17:38Ed Mylett?

  I think, I think maybe, maybe we'll get something cranking on that.

• 1:17:42Christina Pazsitzky?

  Let's do it.

• 1:17:42Ed Mylett?

  Because you could reach so many people with your story. Anyway, go check out Mom Jeans, you guys. Just trust me. As long... Yeah, make sure that you're ready for some adult humor. Make sure maybe, I don't know, do you want a five-year-old watching that?

• 1:17:53Christina Pazsitzky?

  No, no children.

• 1:17:55Ed Mylett?

  No children.

• 1:17:55Christina Pazsitzky?

  Adults, adults only, please.

• 1:17:58Ed Mylett?

  Please, uh, share this, you guys, this episode today. I really feel like if you know anybody who's trying to move out of some form of pain in their life, that today's show is the show that they should be listening to and that you share with them. Because you're just not going to get two people talking about this stuff very openly, very often, to this extent. So, anyway, love all of you. Continue to max out your life. God bless you.