Pod Insights Talk Easy with Sam Fragoso Judd Apatow’s Guide to Failure and Success (Fail Better with David Duchovny) About this episode Today, we’re sharing an episode from Fail Better with David Duchovny https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/fail-better-with-david-duchovny/id1742253720, featuring filmmaker and writer Judd Apatow. Together, they trace the arc of Judd’s career, from Anchorman and Bridesmaids to Superbad and The 40-Year-Old Virgin, before diving into his new visual memoir, Comedy Nerd: A Lifelong Obsession in Stories and Pictures https://www.penguinrandomhouse.com/books/720819/comedy-nerd-by-judd-apatow/.
Throughout their conversation, Judd reflects on what’s driven him all these years—not the need to prove he’s funny, but the desire to understand if he has anything to say in the first place. It’s something David relates to as a writer, and it runs through the pages of Judd’s new book: a collection of everything he’s made and gathered while trying to make sense of this life he’s made.
They also talk about the sting of bad reviews, why they’ve both stopped Googling themselves, and how Judd’s documentary on Garry Shandling became a final act of friendship and legacy.
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0:13 Sam Fragoso? Hey, everyone. Today, I want to share an episode of the podcast Fail Better with David Duchovny. It's an excellent series from our partners at Lemonada that charts how some of today's most creative and influential people think about failure, persistence, and what it takes to keep going. This talk features the legendary writer-director Judd Apatow. As some of you may recall, Apatow appeared on Talk Easy back in 2022. We talked then about how he found his footing in comedy, the mentorship he received from the late Gary Shandling, the legacy of freaks and geeks, and, well, just about everything else. But this fall, Judd came out with a brand-new book. It's a visual memoir called Comedy Nerd: A Lifelong Obsession in Stories and Pictures.
0:58 Sam Fragoso? It's the springboard for this recent conversation he had with David. Throughout their conversation, Judd reflects on what's driven him all these years. Not the need to prove that he's funny, but the desire to understand if he has anything to say in the first place. A talk that winds his way through his own experiences with failure, hoarding memorabilia, and how he keeps on creating at a breakneck speed. And so, if you liked today's feed drop with David and Judd Apatow, you can find the show Fail Better wherever you are listening to this right now. You can also watch select episodes available on YouTube. So with that, we'll be back here on Sunday with a brand-new episode of Talk Easy.
1:39 Sam Fragoso? Until then, here is Judd Apatow talking to David Duchovny on his show Fail Better.
1:52 Speaker 01 I'm David Duchovny, and this is Fail Better, a show where failure, not success, shapes who we are. Judd Apatow is a director, writer, and producer whose style and humor came to shape an entire generation of comedy films and TV. Judd's new book, Comedy Nerd, releases October 28. We chat about humor, honesty, and, of course, a whole lot of failure. Here's our conversation.
2:21 Speaker 01 Judd, thanks for talking to me.
2:23 Speaker 02 Happy to.
2:24 Speaker 01 Although, you once told me, you're gonna regret this. You once said, "I say yes to every podcast."
2:34 Speaker 02 Even that rule, I had to, uh, I had to change because I didn't realize how many would come at you. And you don't even have to be a good guest. Everyone just needs guests desperately.
2:44 Speaker 01 It is a bit of a game. I wanted to read something from the new book.
2:47 Speaker 02 Okay.
2:48 Speaker 01 Yeah.
2:48 Speaker 02 Great.
2:49 Speaker 01 What's it called?
2:50 Speaker 02 It's called Comedy Nerd, which is, it's a scrapbook autobiography. So it's photos and memorabilia with little essays and it's, uh...
2:58 Speaker 01 Well, one of the things I found interesting, I didn't know about you, was you claimed to be a hoarder. You know, that you...
3:04 Speaker 02 I do have some hoarding tendencies.
3:06 Speaker 01 Yeah, and that this, this book, because of all these pictures that you're using in the book, is kind of a... You're exfoliating, in a way. You're trying to exfoliate your soul here.
3:17 Speaker 02 Well, I had about half a million photos.
3:19 Speaker 01 Half a million photos that you had taken?
3:22 Speaker 02 Or that was just inputted at some point. And so, and I have just saved everything since I was a kid. I have a photo in the book of my closet when I was a kid where I have all my little autographs and memorabilia and tons of pictures of the Who on the wall. And then, you know, I always say it's not hoarding if your shit's awesome. It's just having awesome shit.
3:44 Speaker 01 Well, where does that, where do you think it comes from?
3:46 Speaker 02 I don't know, because it started really young of like treasuring things.
3:51 Speaker 01 So it's not just like a baseball card collection and...
3:54 Speaker 02 Well, the beginning it was like, oh, I got the autographed Mets ball. I had like a Dave Kingman signed bat. And then I got some autographs. You know, I used to, I used to write every celebrity in the world to just see who would send me something.
4:07 Speaker 01 You did.
4:08 Speaker 02 And I would just spend hours alone in my room in like 4th, 5th grade, just writing Merv Griffin and Mike Douglas letters. And I remember I got Paul Lynn's autograph. And then I just, just thought, I'm gonna send him another letter, see if he does it again. And then suddenly I had like five Paul Lynn autographs. And people, you know, they'd auto pen you or every once in a while you'd get a real one. Like I had like a really good Andy Kaufman autograph photo. And on the back, he wrote a letter. Which was so weird because he signed the front and the back, he wrote, Dear John, thank you so much for writing this. You know, here's an autographed photo for you. Like, it was completely unnecessary.
4:42 Speaker 01 It must have been early, early in his career.
4:44 Speaker 02 Yeah, taxi days.
4:45 Speaker 01 Yeah, because I remember at the beginning of the X-Files, they used to send me fan letters and I would sit on the weekends and I would answer because there weren't, there weren't that many.
4:53 Speaker 02 Yeah.
4:54 Speaker 01 You know, there were 25 or 100.
4:55 Speaker 02 Yeah.
4:56 Speaker 01 And I'd sit there and I'd actually write them back. But I, what I think of when somebody is, is, is not hoarding, but like keeping those kinds of things. There's a, there's a great bit in a, in a, in a, in a book, I think a James Joyce book where he talks about, he says, Steven Dennis, such and such street, such and such city, the earth, the universe. It feels like you're trying to place yourself.
5:23 Speaker 02 Yeah.
5:24 Speaker 01 It feels like you're trying to weigh yourself down with some kind of ballast, you know, is what I think. And as a kid, it's very moving to think of you that way.
5:30 Speaker 02 But you can't, you can't die if you still have magazines to read.
5:33 Speaker 01 Is that right?
5:34 Speaker 02 So, I still have a 1992 Bono interview in Rolling Stone.
5:38 Speaker 01 Gotta get to it.
5:39 Speaker 02 So I don't think God will take me before then.
5:41 Speaker 01 I'm sorry I'm keeping you from that. But yeah, it's, it's moving to me and I, and I, and, and, and that's why I found the book to be emotional in some, in some way.
5:53 Speaker 02 Yeah.
5:54 Speaker 01 And I wanted to read this bit.
5:56 Speaker 02 Okay.
5:58 Speaker 01 It's probably the very, it's farewell. I've worked on this book for a few years. It's emotional getting to the end of this process. I've always been a hoarder. That's where I got it from. And I have hoped that completing this project will allow me to finally throw out 100 boxes of stuff that I always thought essential in case I might do something like this one day. What do I think when I look through the book? First, I think, man, that is a lot of stuff. What the hell is wrong with you? How insecure and needy and broken are you that the only way to deal with, with it is, was to create this mountain of work? So it's work in a way, too. So you knew at some point you were going to have to get through it.
6:33 Speaker 02 Yeah.
6:34 Speaker 01 Was it a healthy expression of your creativity or, as Gary used to say, shandling, the essence of your soul? So, so, so is it evidence of a pathology? Or is it evidence of a creativity? I think is what you're asking.
6:48 Speaker 02 Yeah, and I'm also talking about even just the projects, not just the book project, but all the projects. Is it just an expression of, you know, the deep hole you're trying to fill? Like, like, how much work do you have to do to feel better about yourself? And how much of it is pure expression and creativity and light? And how much of it is like from like a trauma response of some sort?
7:12 Speaker 01 Well, I mean, walking through the office, it's my first time here. I was struck by the amount of work that you've done, you know? And I wonder if you're, if you ever just take stock of it that way.
7:23 Speaker 02 Yeah.
7:24 Speaker 01 You've done a lot of shit, a lot. Not a lot of shit.
7:28 Speaker 02 Yeah.
7:28 Speaker 01 You know what I'm saying?
7:29 Speaker 02 Some shit.
7:29 Speaker 01 You've done a lot of shit, Judd. But I'm struck by the, the energy that it takes to have done that. And the wide ranging kind of interest from documentary to mentoring other people to do their work producing and also your own work. So you question it as either coming from a pathology or an insecurity or as coming from some kind of light creativity. And I wonder if you can ever really make that distinction? And can you make that distinction between work? So you go like later, you go, oh, fuck, that was the wrong place that that came from.
8:01 Speaker 02 I, I mean, I feel good about the fact that I always do things that I, that I assume will come out well or have the potential to. Like, I don't really do anything like to sell out for a job or for money. And I'm not even sure why, but that's just always been my way. That if I'm not really passionate about it, I won't do it. But, but it is, it is a lot of stuff. And it's almost comically too much stuff. It's comically too much stuff.
8:25 Speaker 01 That you've done.
8:25 Speaker 02 Yeah. And there is no way to know about the motivations because I do think it is, it's always both. There's always a, a pure motivation and there's always a weird insecure motivation, you know, to just keep working. And, you know, you have moments where you feel good about what you do and confident. But for the most part, the reason that you work hard is you have just enough doubt to make you continue to work really hard.
8:49 Speaker 01 And but isn't it also that you don't really know what that thing is that you're trying to make until you make it?
8:55 Speaker 02 Yeah, it's so weird.
8:57 Speaker 01 Yeah, you just have this itch like, ah, I'm gonna do that thing. I'm not exactly sure why. Maybe it's funny. Maybe I like that guy.
9:03 Speaker 02 Yeah.
9:04 Speaker 01 But then you find out it's a different, a different cause, a different reason.
9:07 Speaker 02 I mean, I remember Jim Carrey used to talk about that he felt like these projects would come into his life because he was needing to think about this thing. And someone else, you know, said, you know, you write the movie to figure out why you're writing the movie.
9:20 Speaker 01 Yeah.
9:20 Speaker 02 And there've been movies that I've made where like years after they're done, it occurs to me why I wanted to do it.
9:27 Speaker 01 Right.
9:28 Speaker 02 And, and a lot of them are like, almost like letters to myself or letters to other people trying to explain something or work through something. And so at some point, I realized, oh, that must, that must be what's happening. And Gary, you know, Shelly was the first person that talked about any of this.
9:45 Speaker 01 To you?
9:45 Speaker 02 Yeah. Yeah, because when I started, I was just writing jokes. I didn't really think anything about story. But Gary talked about like mining his own neuroses and his own issues for stories and I just never heard it. I mean, I knew that, I guess, on another level, like I'd watched Diner and I knew it was personal and things were, Fras Times at Ridgemont High was based on Cameron Crowe going to high school and writing a book about it. But watching Gary do it and go, oh, Gary's conflicted about being famous and he has this TV show about this person who really wants to be a, a big star and the most successful host. And this conflict of is this healthy or not healthy consumes Gary enough to make six years of a TV show about it.
10:30 Speaker 01 And five years talking about it afterwards.
10:33 Speaker 02 Exactly, yeah. And making DVDs and, and just going deeper.
10:37 Speaker 01 And disappearing into that world, yeah.
10:38 Speaker 02 Yeah. So for me, I, it took me a while to try to figure out like, well, how would I do that? You know, in, in my work, you know, to, that it would become more personal. Because in the beginning, I just wrote for other people and I would try to think like Gary or try to like think like Roseanne. And it took a long time for me to go, okay, but what would I talk about?
10:55 Speaker 01 What was that, what was that first step? What was that?
10:58 Speaker 02 Um, probably. I mean, and weird rate happens in steps like heavyweights was like a silly summer camp for overweight, you know, boys movie, but it was the beginning of talking about like feeling like a weird kid.
11:12 Speaker 01 Right.
11:12 Speaker 02 And wanting respect in some way. And then when I worked with Paul Feig on Freaks and Geeks, we all kind of mined all of our childhood traumas.
11:21 Speaker 01 Right.
11:21 Speaker 02 And would just put them into different episodes. Like watching Paul do it, because Paul was amazing, because he remembered every detail of childhood, every terrible thing that ever happened to him. He had total recall.
11:32 Speaker 01 Really?
11:33 Speaker 02 Of it. And he would tell some story and it would be so humiliating. And it was always the same afterwards. We would say, and how old were you when that happened? Like 13? And he would always go, 18. He was always much older than we thought in the story. And so like his courage to write about it, to see that up close, this is right after Larry Sanders, was also a big inspiration because he really opened up. And then the staff started opening up about all their problems in high school.
12:03 Speaker 01 And the kids too, the actors in it.
12:05 Speaker 02 Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.
12:06 Speaker 01 I got such a great feeling about that set. It seems like it was a great set to be on.
12:11 Speaker 02 It was. It definitely was. I mean, because Paul was an actor. And so a lot of it was about treating everyone the way people, the way Paul wished people treated him.
12:21 Speaker 01 Right.
12:22 Speaker 02 So he was, you know, a journeyman, supporting actor, who had a lot of experiences that were fun and not fun. And so I think like, we made a point of like treating everyone great.
12:33 Speaker 01 Had you ever been interested in acting?
12:35 Speaker 02 I, you know, I never really pursued it. I, I joined like the school play. And then my grandfather died in the middle and I had to go to California to like deal with it. So then I didn't do that.
12:49 Speaker 01 You died in the middle of the actual play?
12:51 Speaker 02 No, in California, he died while, you know, we were like rehearsing this play. And then I, I was going to join the Groundlings.
12:59 Speaker 01 You were.
13:00 Speaker 02 But I was doing stand up and they said, well, you have to be here, you know, for three months or four months to take the class. And I hadn't been offered to go on the road at all the improvs around the country. And I thought, well, I've been working for years to get the improv to let me do this. And so I didn't do that. And then at one point, I had a commercial agent.
13:20 Speaker 01 You did?
13:21 Speaker 02 And so I went out for commercials. And I was such a bad actor that once I was going out for a Jack in the Box commercial and I'm supposed to do this monologue about this cheeseburger and I just kept pointing. I'm just I kept like pointing the whole time and the guy's like, okay, do it again. Don't point. And then I halfway through I just I couldn't help but point. And then he took out a big thing, a duct tape, and he taped my hand to my leg so that I wouldn't point. And then I never went out on an audition ever again. Like, I laughed at the time, but I think I was like, fully just humiliated, like, oh, you're the worst actor in the world.
14:00 Speaker 01 It's a horrible experience.
14:03 Speaker 01 Have you ever duct taped an actor's hand?
14:05 Speaker 02 I have, like, you know, it works for me.
14:07 Speaker 01 I'm happy that you never duct taped me. You know, looking around at all your posters, I was like, fuck, you know, we just didn't, we didn't do enough. No, honestly, I always, I had always wanted to. And then when we, we did the bubble, because I did TV set where I portrayed you. I don't think people know.
14:23 Speaker 02 Yeah, that you portrayed a version of me.
14:25 Speaker 01 It's really a biopic.
14:27 Speaker 02 It might be like a little Mike White, a little Jake in there, but there was definitely a lot of Judd in there.
14:31 Speaker 01 Mostly Judd, but the weird thing was, is that we did, I, you may not remember this, but we did the table read for the TV set. And that night was the premiere of The Forty Year Old Virgin.
14:43 Speaker 02 Oh, wow.
14:44 Speaker 01 So you actually, that was a pivotal day in your life. So I went from basically playing Judd that nobody knows.
14:52 Speaker 02 Yeah.
14:53 Speaker 01 To you becoming agitival, appetovian, you know, like, almost overnight.
14:58 Speaker 02 Yeah.
14:59 Speaker 01 And I would, I would have played it differently. If I'd known you were gonna get so.
15:03 Speaker 02 Well, you had the bad back.
15:04 Speaker 01 I had the bad back.
15:05 Speaker 02 You had Justin Bateman as a wife.
15:07 Speaker 01 I had a beard, I had a bad thing.
15:08 Speaker 02 That movie was really good. We should hunt that down at TV set.
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18:28 Speaker 01 You know, you mentioned Gary and he's a big influence in both of our lives, obviously. And there's something about the man that, that is sustaining even to this day, you know? And he was a Buddhist, I guess you'd call him. And I wonder how you both square. You know, I don't associate Buddhism with hilarity, you know? And I wonder if there was ever a fear for you as I'm going down this road with Gary, you know, into Buddhism. And I don't know what your, the extent of your involvement with Buddhism is, or meditation, or anything like that. But I wonder if there was that sense of, oh, if I get, if I get clear on this, if I start feeling good, am I gonna be funny anymore?
19:13 Speaker 02 Yeah.
19:13 Speaker 01 Am I gonna, am I gonna be able to do my shit?
19:15 Speaker 02 I never really thought about that because I always feel so far away from that level of calm.
19:19 Speaker 01 Yeah.
19:20 Speaker 02 And it's just so far away that even if I can get like a moment of calm, it's a big deal.
19:26 Speaker 01 Yeah.
19:26 Speaker 02 But the, the baseline.
19:28 Speaker 01 Buddhism doesn't work.
19:29 Speaker 02 It doesn't, not the way I'm, not the way I'm running it. Like I went on my, I have like an app, I've, literally, I'll get every single app for meditation.
19:38 Speaker 01 Right.
19:38 Speaker 02 I'll have the calm app and the 10% happier app and the wake it up app. I mean, I have so many of them. And I went on one of the apps and it like, you could hit a button, it'll tell you like all the times you've used it.
19:47 Speaker 01 Yeah.
19:48 Speaker 02 To meditate. And it was literally like three times in the last six years.
19:51 Speaker 01 Right.
19:52 Speaker 02 On this one app, I'm like, yeah, I'm really not walking the, walking the walk.
19:56 Speaker 01 I've kind of, I've kind of been delinquent recently because I'll, I'll save my meditation for when I'm lying down to go to sleep.
20:03 Speaker 02 Yeah.
20:04 Speaker 01 It's actually my sleep app.
20:06 Speaker 02 You're supposed to be straight up and focused.
20:08 Speaker 01 No.
20:08 Speaker 02 But, um, yeah, I don't, I do have that fear of not being funny because I think the thing about not being funny is when you become unfunny, you don't know it.
20:17 Speaker 01 Really?
20:17 Speaker 02 And that to me, like when you think of like the scariest thoughts you can have, that's like a really scary thought.
20:23 Speaker 01 What would, what would cause you to be unfunny? Would culture changed or something like that? Do you, do you see yourself as, do you see funny as being tied to any kind of decade or culture, cultural moment?
20:33 Speaker 02 Well, you could look at it as like a youthful thing or like the perspective of like, what's it like to be 20 right now versus 57? And maybe you're just not picking up on some sort of sea change of culture.
20:45 Speaker 01 Well, sure, but do you want to write what's funny for 20 year olds? Or do you want to write what's funny for 57 year olds at this point in their life?
20:52 Speaker 02 I, yeah, I guess I try not to think about it too much because I still want to work with, you know, people who are much younger than me.
20:59 Speaker 01 Sorry for the question.
21:00 Speaker 02 You know, in stand up, I've been doing this joke where I say, you know, this is a worse age to be a comedian because you can only talk about DK. So all your jokes are like, you know, you know, don't you hate it when your girlfriends from high school start dying of natural causes? You know, like, it's like the most unfun age to, to write about. So you want to still. Have younger people to collaborate with.
21:22 Speaker 01 Yeah, yeah, but but in terms of like your soul questions, the the kind of impulses that you mentioned drive you to certain things. I would think that that changes. I mean, I understand wanting an audience, but I also think like your concerns change and your your your self conception changes and what your what your soul needs and the work changes. So there's got to be some kind of a give and take.
21:46 Speaker 02 Well, no matter what happens, you slowly start writing like old Bob Dylan. You know, like, like you don't want to, but before you know it, all your everything you're thinking about is like, I'm walking through streets that are dead.
21:59 Speaker 02 You just start, you know, you're headed into like your your old guy writing, you have to kind of like push against it, you know. I always love about Louden Wainwright, who, you know, he was undeclared and he scored Knocked Up and genius folk singer, but he's been writing songs about dying since he was like forty five years old.
22:14 Speaker 01 Yeah.
22:15 Speaker 02 You know, it's like, it's been so long he's been in that period of obsessing on mortality. So you do want to not just feel like, OK, I wrote about high school, I wrote about college, I wrote about young marriage, I wrote about longer marriage, but that you can go back and visit different periods.
22:33 Speaker 01 Well, I mean, you you can see it in like musicians when they when they kind of mature their their work, like.
22:40 Speaker 02 Yeah.
22:41 Speaker 01 The Stones are never, they're always going to write about making out in a car.
22:45 Speaker 02 Yeah.
22:45 Speaker 01 You know, and they're eighty five.
22:46 Speaker 02 Yeah.
22:47 Speaker 01 But somebody like Springsteen, and I think the people that you gravitate towards musically, which is a big part of your life, I think you do, you don't ask them to stay in the same spot.
22:57 Speaker 02 Yeah, like that.
22:58 Speaker 01 You like when they're changing.
22:59 Speaker 02 I love that Springsteen wrote about, you know, his first band and that everyone in his first band had died. He realized he was the last man standing and he wrote an album about that.
23:10 Speaker 01 So that was his joke. Doesn't it suck when your bandmates start dying of natural causes?
23:14 Speaker 02 Exactly. See, we're all, we can't help but do it. Like, although I remember Norman Lear used to always say to me, I feel like I'm the age of the person I'm with. And I always thought that that was a great way to to look at it.
23:27 Speaker 01 Yeah. Delusional, but great.
23:29 Speaker 02 Exactly, yeah. It kept his spirit hot.
23:32 Speaker 01 Yeah. I want to finish this quote, though.
23:34 Speaker 02 OK.
23:34 Speaker 01 Where is it?
23:37 Speaker 01 Where was I?
23:38 Speaker 02 You were.
23:39 Speaker 01 Or was it a desperate cry for help from a person that never feels whole, whose pain and trauma never eases, and who needs to numb himself with busyness and accomplishment? Well, I think we covered that.
23:49 Speaker 02 Yeah.
23:51 Speaker 01 I think it is all of that. And does the answer to that question really matter? I never felt like I had another choice. I still don't. Because underneath all the healthy and unhealthy reasons for working and expressing myself is a love for comedy and the people who make it. I feel blessed that I got to create and have fun with so many amazing people, and I hope that continues going forward, at least in a slightly less neurotic way. What would that mean, a slightly less neurotic way?
24:17 Speaker 02 Well, I'm always interested, you know, can I access my creativity without all the stages of, oh, here we go, we gotta, we gotta write now, right? So like, it might take me a while to like, sit down to write, because there's that part of your brain that's like, what if it's not there today? What if it never comes back? Like, to have less of that kind of anxiety and neuroses around it, where you could just kind of plug in and just kind of get there and not really think about the stakes. Because the stakes are all in your head and it's all kind of probably just some misfiring.
24:51 Speaker 01 What are the stakes?
24:53 Speaker 02 I mean, the stakes are...
24:54 Speaker 01 Big ones gonna laugh?
24:55 Speaker 02 Yeah, I mean, the stakes are whatever. It doesn't work, people don't like it, public humiliation, you cost someone a lot of money that invested in you. Maybe they won't let you make the next one at some point. But I always had that theory that you need three really bad bombs in a row to be kicked out of the business. You know, you need, you need the first bomb, then they give you another one. And then if that bombs, they might give you another one with a lower budget.
25:14 Speaker 01 Three in a row?
25:15 Speaker 02 Yeah.
25:15 Speaker 01 Three in a row?
25:16 Speaker 02 I think you need three big ones in a row, and then you're probably, you're probably done. Although every once in a while, someone has a movie that's bad in such a weird way that people lose complete faith in that person and they sometimes don't work.
25:29 Speaker 01 Just one, they just got one.
25:30 Speaker 02 Just one, but it's, it's so weird that they don't believe you'll ever get back on the track.
25:35 Speaker 01 Right.
25:35 Speaker 02 You know, so I don't have an example of a person that had that, but I have seen that.
25:40 Speaker 01 Because they've been forgotten.
25:41 Speaker 02 Yeah, they have their...
25:42 Speaker 01 They're gone.
25:42 Speaker 02 They're G E L E, or whatever it is. That people go like, how did he ever even think that could work? You know, but you have to do things that are risky, or you're, you know, you're doing the same thing every time. So that's a weird thing with old comedy is, nothing about it, nothing about working has a better chance of succeeding because the last one succeeded. Each one is such, each one, each thing you do is such an experiment that the last one working has absolutely nothing to do in helping you make this one work.
26:12 Speaker 01 So success is some kind of an illusion. I mean, I get back to like what we talk about on this podcast all the time. It's like, success is the worst thing that can happen to you in many ways.
26:20 Speaker 02 Yeah. Yeah. In terms of just being
26:23 Speaker 01 Creativity.
26:23 Speaker 02 Loose, you have to make a real conscious choice to be like Neil Young and go, I don't give a shit. I'm gonna go, I'm doing electronic right now, or I'm not gonna let you define me. I'm gonna keep going where my imagination takes me.
26:36 Speaker 01 Have you ever felt yourself at that point? Have you ever done something in that vein?
26:40 Speaker 02 Uh, no, I don't think so. I mean, I think I'm really careful about, all right, do you really want to think about this for two, three years? Cause every time you do it, it's a multi-year commitment. So, uh, I'm, I usually, you know, if anything, I'm not doing things because I'm afraid it's going to be like something that I've done before or too easy. Not easy, easy and just like a premise I think might work. You know, I, it has to be like something deeper wants to be talked about. Even the bubble, which is like silly, but during COVID, me and my friend Brent Foster, we would take walks in Malibu and we were like, let's just outline movies just for the hell of it because we're bored.
27:21 Speaker 01 Really?
27:21 Speaker 02 And it kept, they kept coming up this like, the nervous breakdown everyone was gonna have from COVID about their success and their egos and what do you do and like all the things that make you feel like you have value are just gone and no one cares at all about them. So even that, which is like a, like a silly movie meant to be watched like when you're just high or something, that was like the thing below it. Like, oh, everyone's ego is being messed with because they're just like stuck in this building.
27:50 Speaker 01 Yeah. Do you, do you have a, a, a kind of personal criteria about success and failure? Is it just your gut? You, oh, I'm, I'm watching this movie and I'm laughing at it, this movie that I made?
28:01 Speaker 02 Well, I remember a long time ago, I read an interview with Alec Baldwin and he, he was saying, you know, you have to have your own personal compass on whether or not a project was successful. And that was the first time I ever really heard someone explain it in that way. And once I remember Warren Beatty was with Chandler and he said to me, you really don't know if what you've done is good for about 10 years after, where you see if it survived in the culture and did anyone care about it and just how was it holding up? And that's really revealed itself to be true, where there were things in the moment. Where we would take a beating, like the Cable Guy or something. And then suddenly it would be, you know, thirty years later, like people are still talking about it. And you realize like people really like it.
28:43 Speaker 02 But those few reviewers or the box office that devastated you, where you really took a year to recover from it, was just wrong, that, that, oh, we did pull that off. At least, you know, for a certain amount of people who appreciated it. And that's happened a bunch of times where, you know, something like the movie Walk Hard or like Parody of Ray and Walk the Line, where, I mean, it made like two point nine million opening weekend. And so it was like, you didn't even know that was possible.
29:11 Speaker 01 Right.
29:12 Speaker 02 And then.
29:12 Speaker 01 Oh, I know.
29:15 Speaker 02 And then suddenly it's like ten, fifteen years later and like, oh, people watch that all the time. People are always walking up to me. They still write articles about it. And so now, as a result of that, I don't get as affected when things come out because I understand they have a weird life where they kind of bop around the world and.
29:36 Speaker 01 Right.
29:36 Speaker 02 And they develop some kind of reputation or not.
29:38 Speaker 01 Well, it happened with Zoolander for sure.
29:40 Speaker 02 Yeah.
29:40 Speaker 01 Yeah, I mean, it just didn't do well when it came out now.
29:44 Speaker 02 It was a few weeks after nine eleven.
29:46 Speaker 01 Yeah.
29:47 Speaker 02 It was not.
29:47 Speaker 01 Tough spot.
29:48 Speaker 02 It was, uh, it was like weird for a comedy to come out.
29:51 Speaker 01 Yeah.
29:51 Speaker 02 Even that there was a comedy and it was like, can you like?
29:54 Speaker 01 Yeah.
29:54 Speaker 02 Are we ready to like laugh at all at anything?
29:58 Speaker 01 Apparently not.
29:58 Speaker 02 Well, your scenes held up. You had the hand, the whole thing.
30:03 Speaker 01 The serious scenes.
30:04 Speaker 02 Yeah, but like people talk about Zoolander now as part of the canon of great things and.
30:09 Speaker 01 The canon of great things. I like that.
30:11 Speaker 02 Yeah.
30:11 Speaker 01 I like, that should be your next book.
30:12 Speaker 02 Yeah.
30:12 Speaker 01 The Canon of Great Things.
30:13 Speaker 02 And you see that now, like you'd look at whatever the last, you know, whatever thirty, forty years where we've been doing things like, oh, here are the ones that people care about.
30:21 Speaker 01 Right.
30:21 Speaker 02 And it didn't even matter if Zoolander opened. It's like people watch it now like it was made this week and love it and it holds up. And I always say like they become like the Wizard of Oz.
30:31 Speaker 01 Right.
30:31 Speaker 02 They're just these things that like, oh, those are the survivors.
30:34 Speaker 01 Has, uh, has any criticism ever cut you in a way that was longstanding to you? Or did you ever learn anything from a perceived failure or a perceived criticism?
30:45 Speaker 02 I was so mad at Siskel and Ebert for not liking heavyweights.
30:49 Speaker 01 You were?
30:49 Speaker 02 My first like bad reviews where you're like, oh, God. And then the Cable Guy reviews, I really thought they would be raves because I thought, oh, they're gonna be so psyched. Jim's doing something different, taking a risk and then. As I was like getting in the car to go to the premiere, someone handed me two faxes.
31:05 Speaker 01 Yeah, thank you. Who's that person?
31:07 Speaker 02 With the time in Newsweek reviews and they were both brutal. I'm like,
31:12 Speaker 02 wha- what? Like, I thought it was gonna be like amazing.
31:15 Speaker 01 Where were you going?
31:16 Speaker 02 To the premiere. And then I was just like in a fog, the whole premiere, like,
31:20 Speaker 01 Right.
31:20 Speaker 02 Oh, no, this is all gonna go really badly.
31:23 Speaker 01 Totally bifurcated.
31:25 Speaker 02 And every time, every once in a while, someone writes something in a review that just like, they just find the thing that hurts you the most. When we did This Is Forty, I remember there was a review in like one of the trades and they were just mad that they lived in a nice house. You know, and I was like, oh, we'll do like a Nancy Meyers house. People love when people have like, kind of like a pretty house. And it's like, uh, the problems of a couple in a family. And they were just so offended. It was the beginning of like white people problems. Of like entitlements, like we don't like, like, like they're not allowed to have problems.
31:57 Speaker 01 You were in the Vanguard.
31:58 Speaker 02 I was, I was like, I was the first person.
31:59 Speaker 01 Yeah.
32:00 Speaker 02 To deal with.
32:00 Speaker 01 You were exposing it.
32:02 Speaker 02 And I was like shocked by it because I never really even considered it like,
32:05 Speaker 01 Yeah.
32:06 Speaker 02 Oh, if you live in that house.
32:07 Speaker 01 Because you have white people problems.
32:09 Speaker 02 You, you shouldn't care about the people in that house.
32:11 Speaker 01 Yeah.
32:12 Speaker 02 And I was just really thrown by it like, well, what do I do? Because I kind of live in a house like that. So can I not write about like what happens to me?
32:19 Speaker 01 Yeah. I, I remember I got this, this review for Playing God, which was one of the first movies I did after The X-Files where it said that I was like the tofu of actors and that.
32:32 Speaker 02 What's that mean?
32:33 Speaker 01 I was, I could fill up space.
32:36 Speaker 02 But tofu is really good for you. See, that's all interpretation. That's what you put in so you don't have the meats.
32:42 Speaker 01 Was like, I could fill up space, but I, I, I needed like the flavorings of other, of other vegetables and spices.
32:50 Speaker 02 Can't have it alone.
32:50 Speaker 01 I was just bland all on my own. And, and obviously that, that stays with me in some weird way. And I'm.
32:56 Speaker 02 Oh, yeah. They all do.
32:58 Speaker 01 They do. And you, I don't know if you remember any of the good ones. I mean, I don't. I don't believe them anyway.
33:05 Speaker 02 Every time there's been like a good thing, like I remember there was like an article in like Time Magazine. It was like the best, it was like, I wrote it about myself. And I remember afterwards, it was really long. It was like six pages in Time Magazine.
33:17 Speaker 01 Was it on you or was it on a movie?
33:19 Speaker 02 It was just about me.
33:20 Speaker 01 Yeah.
33:20 Speaker 02 And I-
33:21 Speaker 01 You weren't involved in the making of the article?
33:23 Speaker 02 No, I did an interview for it and I think I was supposed to be on the cover. And at the last second, they switched it to Obamacare.
33:32 Speaker 02 And so, there's a picture of Obama like dressed as a doctor.
33:35 Speaker 01 White people problems.
33:37 Speaker 02 And so, so and then the article came out and I was like, oh, this is great. I have never met one person who's ever read that article.
33:44 Speaker 01 Right.
33:44 Speaker 02 And then I realized like, oh, no one reads almost any of this. Or, you know, all the things that like, you're so bothered by.
33:50 Speaker 01 Right.
33:51 Speaker 02 Except like back in the day, if you got just filleted by the New York Times, people were like, hey, sorry, man. That was like, really, really rough when they would go hard at you.
34:03 Speaker 01 Oh, I remember the newspaper hitting the, the door. Cause often I'd be like somewhere else in a hotel. And okay, there's the, there's the Times. Just hit the door till I get out of bed.
34:14 Speaker 02 Oh, going down to the newsstand to see what it was. Now, no one cares about any of it. No one, it's not the same.
34:21 Speaker 01 Not only that, but you can go online and really get filleted in ways that are, are pretty interesting and, and powerful.
34:27 Speaker 02 You could have a 14 year old destroy you on Letterboxd. You could never recover the rest of your life. And, you know, we talked about this, like, I talk about it with my kids. Like, how do you do your creative work?
34:37 Speaker 01 Right.
34:37 Speaker 02 Be bold and take chances.
34:40 Speaker 01 Keep your own counsel.
34:42 Speaker 02 And even in the best of times, there's a 20, 30% that's gonna hate it, hate all of it.
34:46 Speaker 01 Right.
34:46 Speaker 02 Even if you completely nailed it, certain people just don't like it. Just like, you know, ever have like, something win the Oscar for Best Picture and you just go, I hate that movie. Right? So there's always people who hate everything.
34:57 Speaker 01 Right.
34:57 Speaker 02 And so you have to develop these, these weird blinders where you let in some stuff. You kind of want to learn some stuff, but if you, if you want to dip in and destroy yourself, it's there.
35:06 Speaker 01 Yeah.
35:07 Speaker 02 Like, it takes me five minutes to, to find something that'll keep me in bed for a month, if I would let it.
35:12 Speaker 01 What, what would you, what would you type in for like, the most pain? Apatow, suck?
35:17 Speaker 02 Apatow, Jewish schlub.
35:22 Speaker 01 That's not gonna go for the movies. That's not what you really care about.
35:26 Speaker 02 I mean, it could be, I mean, it could be anything. And you can, you sometimes you stumble into it like you're looking at something else.
35:31 Speaker 01 Oh shit.
35:32 Speaker 02 And like your name is brought, like, why are you talking about me?
35:34 Speaker 01 Yeah. Yeah. Why did Duchovny stop acting? What? What? It's like, it's like third on the list. It's like, how the fuck did that?
35:44 Speaker 02 I went on YouTube once and it was like, uh, like a video. It was like, why the Judd Apatow era ended. Someone made a documentary about it. I was too scared to click on it.
35:58 Speaker 01 They didn't ask you to be in the doc?
36:00 Speaker 02 Exactly. Where did it all go wrong? The movie with like an AI Judd face.
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37:51 Speaker 01 Since you're not on set acting, I'm wondering about the consciousness of the writer. Because it took me, and even sometimes still, that voice will get into my head when I'm on set.
38:03 Speaker 02 Yeah.
38:03 Speaker 01 Tofu, tofu, tofu.
38:06 Speaker 02 Yeah.
38:06 Speaker 01 Not really. I haven't thought of it till just this moment. So I don't think of it that often. But I wonder, and it's not, it's not a good thing. It's not like, it's not like, hey, Michael Jordan, I'm gonna take that fucking.
38:17 Speaker 02 I need the anger to play well.
38:18 Speaker 01 Yeah, no, I don't. I shrivel. So I wonder, like, as a writer, which obviously the moment is extended. You don't have to deliver, like, when they say action. But I wonder, do you ever get inhibited that way for any, any period of time by perceived negativity or remembered negativity or failures and things like that?
38:39 Speaker 02 I mean, you could just get a general, like, why do I think I know anything? Like, just, almost just like a.
38:45 Speaker 01 Still?
38:45 Speaker 02 A blanket over your whole thing of like, do I know what's good?
38:49 Speaker 01 So much of your life is acting like you know a lot.
38:52 Speaker 02 Yeah, you have to. And but you also know that you're just winging it.
38:55 Speaker 01 I'm just saying, your life.
38:56 Speaker 02 Yeah. You're pretending that you know what you're doing. Because you've had that in your career, right? Where you like, you've told a studio or someone like, this is gonna be big, and it's gonna work because of this. And then, like, you're in a preview, and everything you've said for the last two years has been proven wrong in 90 minutes. And then you just feel ridiculous. And, and the good executives go, yeah, because in movies, if somebody has one hit out of three, it's like a baseball player. Like, they're doing great. I mean, most people, like in Scorsese's movies, like, how many of them work? How many of them don't? Like, you can't succeed every time, but you have to believe in yourself every time to have any, any shot.
39:35 Speaker 01 It's hard work to make a bad movie. It's hard work. It's just as hard to make a bad one as a good one. But one thing about you that I respect is that, and I don't know this for a fact, but I think, I think I know this about you. Is that when you're at that point at that screening, when this sucks, you don't give up on it. You you'll go and reshoot and you'll go, you'll.
40:00 Speaker 02 I'll grind hard.
40:01 Speaker 01 Well, you'll you'll adjust.
40:03 Speaker 02 Yeah.
40:03 Speaker 01 And me, sometimes I think I'll just curl up and say, ah, fuck it. I hate all of you anyway. It's like, I'm I'm done. I I tried, whatever. But I that's commendable, I think, for you to be that kind of a person that would just go that keeps grinding at it.
40:20 Speaker 02 Yeah.
40:20 Speaker 01 And also is it it shows that you believed in that original vision or whatever, or you're smart enough to pivot. I don't know which it is.
40:27 Speaker 02 Well, it's just I'm just so terrified of at the end of it going, oh, that wasn't good. Like, I can't even tolerate it. So like, my worst fear is I'm just going down DirecTV scrolling like we did in the old days before streaming. And I'll just see one of my movies and be really ashamed that anyone's watching it. Like, that's the worst feeling in the world. Like, oh, no, is that that thing's still around? I never want that to to happen. I mean, when I shoot, you know, as you know, like, I shoot so much footage. And so I usually don't do reshoots because I've I've literally shot what I think the reshoot would be while I'm shooting the movie.
41:06 Speaker 01 I mean, it's not just it's I mean, I worked with Ivan Reitman and he shot, he's covered like a tent. That was his line. So but that's not you. You're not covering like a tent, but you you're shooting a lot of footage because that footage is often different.
41:20 Speaker 02 Yeah.
41:20 Speaker 01 Because you're you're you're auditioning lines, you're throwing shit out, you're improvising. So it's not it's not that you're shooting from all different sides.
41:28 Speaker 02 Yeah.
41:29 Speaker 01 And and because you don't know how you're going to cut it.
41:31 Speaker 02 Yeah.
41:31 Speaker 01 But you don't know what's going to be in it.
41:33 Speaker 02 Yeah.
41:33 Speaker 01 So I imagine when you have a screening that doesn't go well, you've got like five more jokes that you know that you had on that day that you're going to come back to.
41:42 Speaker 02 Yeah, that in editing, if one joke doesn't work, there is something to try. Because my fear is I'm going to find out my joke didn't work and then I and I'll go, is there another joke in the footage to try? And they'll go, no. And then you're just writing jokes in the back of people's heads.
41:56 Speaker 01 I don't think that's true, though. I don't think you've ever gotten to there, have you?
42:00 Speaker 02 Sometimes you get to the place where you have to do an ADR joke, like just audio on the back of someone's head.
42:04 Speaker 01 ADR jokes, I don't think.
42:05 Speaker 02 They do work. They do.
42:06 Speaker 01 Really?
42:07 Speaker 02 Yeah.
42:07 Speaker 01 Wow.
42:08 Speaker 02 They do. Watch Model Rocket. There's a lot of great ADR jokes that Wes Anderson and Owen wrote.
42:12 Speaker 01 Yeah.
42:13 Speaker 02 Then you'd notice it if you really watch it, like, oh, they really grinded some funny lines.
42:16 Speaker 01 If you know what ADR is, yeah.
42:17 Speaker 02 Yeah.
42:18 Speaker 01 But it's a, it's an interesting way that, that you work because obviously you, you work hard. You're seven months out. You just told me when we sat down, you're, you're punching up a script.
42:29 Speaker 02 Yeah.
42:30 Speaker 01 But when you get there, how many times are you gonna go through that script before you go to new lines?
42:36 Speaker 02 And I'll, yeah, and, and, but I'll rehearse it and.
42:39 Speaker 01 How many times do you think?
42:40 Speaker 02 I mean, just a gazillion. And, and a lot of times, like, on the day, the whole thing gets tossed.
42:45 Speaker 01 Right.
42:45 Speaker 02 You just think of something better on the day. So you're kind of preparing a script and you're trying to make it perfect.
42:50 Speaker 01 Yeah.
42:51 Speaker 02 But then on the day, you're, you're willing to, like, shoot it once or twice and go, all right. Now that we're here, it feels completely different than what was in my head. But I always feel like the actors are gonna do something that I would never think of, the way they speak, the way they, with the way they're reacting to each other. And that I learned from Gary, because I would watch the rehearsals. Gary would rehearse for three days, then shoot Larry Sanders Show in two days. And he kept.
43:14 Speaker 01 He rehearsed for three days?
43:15 Speaker 02 Yeah. And he would keep, well, he would do a table, yeah, sometimes a table read on Monday. And then he would let the rehearsals be loose. And that's where, if anyone wanted to change anything, they could experiment. And I just thought, yeah, that's where, like, he's letting some magic happen. And then he had to lock it back down. But I thought, oh, I could just shoot what's basically the rehearsals and see what people will do.
43:37 Speaker 01 Right. And that's, you found that out early? Or you just found, you found that out by watching Gary?
43:43 Speaker 02 I found that out, uh, I'm trying to think, the first time I saw someone do it was Stiller on The Ben Stiller Show, when we would do sketches. And I remember Ben was playing Tony Robbins. And he just talked like Tony Robbins for like 45 minutes. Like, we needed like a three-minute sketch, and he just was laughing. And we were throwing him lines, and he was just improvising. And he would do that in every situation.
44:05 Speaker 01 Right.
44:05 Speaker 02 He, he just knew, because he had edited some short films, and he had his MTV show before our show. And he just knew, oh, it's all for the editing room.
44:13 Speaker 01 Let's just talk about documentaries for a minute. I don't want to take up too much of your time.
44:17 Speaker 02 I've got nothing to do.
44:18 Speaker 01 Okay, so we'll keep going.
44:23 Speaker 01 We talked a little bit before, when, you know, you asked me how the podcast is going. And I said, well, I thought I was interested in people, but it turns out I'm not that interested in people. Because it's, and one of the things I've found is, like, I want to ask stupid questions because I'm tired of asking smart questions because smart questions have an answer implicit in them.
44:47 Speaker 02 Yeah, yeah, yeah. You want to shake it up to get to a new thing.
44:51 Speaker 01 And I'm wondering, because you've done documentaries and you've done podcasts, but mostly the documentaries, you have an idea of what your documentary is about, maybe, or you're making the documentary to find out what it's about. How do you go about figuring out the kind of questioner you want to be? Because you're on that side, the other guy's on camera, and you're directing him with your questions, but you also don't want to direct too hard because you want to get the truth.
45:20 Speaker 02 Well, it's, yeah, I mean, it's very instinctual. I just, I'm finishing up a documentary that I'm directing with Michael Bonfiglio, who did the George Carlin documentary with me. And so I had to do 10 hours with Mel Brooks. And so I thought, you know, I've seen a lot of documentaries with him, but the thing that I haven't seen too much is him talking about his emotional life. So I've seen like a lot of the funny stories and all that classic stuff, but how can I get him to just tell me how it felt? Like, what did it feel like to fight in World War II? How did it feel to be on your show of shows and be the young guy in that staff of all these geniuses? And so, you know, I had like an intention with him, like, how much can we see Mel Brooks'
46:05 Speaker 02 heart? And as a way of showing him be reflective.
46:11 Speaker 01 Did you tell him that?
46:13 Speaker 02 I don't think that I did that explicitly.
46:18 Speaker 01 Right.
46:18 Speaker 02 But I think I did tell him I wanted to tell his story and to have it be a more personal documentary. But I felt like, you know, he's 99 now. He has a lot of wisdom. I mean, he's lived through so many different eras. You know, he's had to deal with, you know, the loss of his wife and, you know, Anne Bancroft and Carl Reiner and that there's a lot to learn from his experience. And so I approached it like I'm basically a copycat of Mel Brooks. And so the documentary is me asking him things.
46:48 Speaker 01 You feel you're.
46:49 Speaker 02 That I wanted to.
46:49 Speaker 01 You feel like you're a copycat of Mel Brooks.
46:51 Speaker 02 Of course, because when I was a kid, it was just Mel Brooks and Woody Allen and Blake Edwards or like a few people that made comedies. And, you know, you would see Mel Brooks and it's just like, kind of like this odd little genius who is crazy confident.
47:04 Speaker 01 Yeah, he was.
47:05 Speaker 02 And I think, you know, I have that Stiller and Sandler in the movie. Like, we all looked at him like, oh, could you do that? Is that a job? Like, he seemed like the coolest, most amazing, hilarious guy in the world.
47:19 Speaker 01 Yeah.
47:19 Speaker 02 And so, but now as me being older and him being older, to go, oh, tell me about your ride. What was it like?
47:27 Speaker 01 Do you feel like that's, this is part of you coming out as well? Are you reaching for more? Not that your movies aren't emotional, but are you, are you finding yourself responding to that more as you get older?
47:40 Speaker 02 I think so. That's why I like documentaries, because I, I like that there's just a lot there with any, any human experience, if you go deep with anybody. It's so rich and emotional and it's, it's like, it's almost too powerful to talk about, you know, like, what was this life that this person had? Like, how do you sum up Gary Shandling's life? Like, his joys, his creativity, his struggles, his pain? And to try to figure out, you know, can you get it across that it's, that it's in the universe of accurate to something and to like, to feel him? Like, I like the Gary Shandling documentary, Zen Diaries of Gary Shandling on HBO Max,
48:25 Speaker 02 because I think at the end, you did get to know Gary and you do get to feel Gary.
48:30 Speaker 01 I agree.
48:31 Speaker 02 And so that part is, you know, it's moving. And I like the idea of Gary being known. You know, I hate the idea that Gary's gone and is he just gonna be forgotten? And he was so special and so fascinating. And so now there's like a way for people to access it in some way.
48:50 Speaker 01 Were you surprised by anything in the making of that documentary about Gary?
48:54 Speaker 02 I mean,
48:56 Speaker 02 I was very surprised that Gary had no photographs in his house that were personal. He didn't have pictures of his family, of his brother, of his childhood, of his career. He just kind of had nothing out. He had a lot of Buddhist statues and things like that. And then, you know, I opened up a closet and like, he had saved everything. And how interesting that is.
49:24 Speaker 01 Closet again, for you.
49:25 Speaker 02 Yeah, that he's in the closet and he has everything in there. And, uh, and that he was sentimental in some way because he kept it all. And there was a real story in those photos. They were videos from his childhood and that there was this really sad story about like a kid whose brother was very sick with cystic fibrosis. And he died and then no one would talk about him. And Gary was not able to process that loss. And that it just seemed to affect his relationships throughout his life. And then at the very end of the doc, I found this letter he had written to his brother near the end of Gary's life. I don't know if a therapist told him to do it, to process it, but,
50:10 Speaker 02 and it really was everything that I thought it was. You know, so like my guess of what had affected him so much, Gary had fully written out.
50:19 Speaker 01 Yeah.
50:19 Speaker 02 You know?
50:19 Speaker 01 Yeah.
50:20 Speaker 02 That the loss was so profound for him and that this was like his best friend in the world. And that he never like fully recovered from it.
50:29 Speaker 01 Yes, I remember. I remember that in the doc. Yeah. Where he was, he didn't go to the funeral, right? He wasn't allowed to go.
50:36 Speaker 02 Yeah.
50:37 Speaker 01 They didn't acknowledge it.
50:38 Speaker 02 Yeah.
50:38 Speaker 01 They didn't acknowledge the loss.
50:41 Speaker 02 Yeah, they didn't bring him to the funeral because his mom didn't want Gary to see her cry. And then they just didn't talk about him.
50:50 Speaker 02 And it's funny because Gary never talked about it. I mean, maybe like once in all the time I, I knew him.
50:55 Speaker 01 Yeah.
50:58 Speaker 01 I'm gonna finish up by reading the end of this letter.
51:00 Speaker 02 Okay. They better close strong, if you want to close her.
51:05 Speaker 01 You feel blessed. Life is so wonderful, but also so mysterious, dark and strange. We all need a language to try to understand and get through it. This is mine. This being filmmaking or comedy?
51:19 Speaker 02 Comedy, I think.
51:20 Speaker 01 Yeah, okay. Last year I took ayahuasca.
51:26 Speaker 02 We all have at this point.
51:27 Speaker 01 And at the end of a long trip, I saw an image of Jesus on the cross, which was strange since I am Jewish. Instantly, I understood what it meant. We're all supposed to be there for each other. Love, brotherhood, sacrifice. It's as simple as that. I'm not converting, but I did feel the need to buy the New Testament. Did you?
51:44 Speaker 02 Well, I got it on Audible. Johnny Cash.
51:47 Speaker 01 I bought it on Audible. Johnny Cash reads it. I haven't listened yet. No, you haven't listened yet. I've got to finish this book first.
51:52 Speaker 02 It's so boring. I mean, it's just so boring, but I'm gonna try. But man is the Old Testament boring.
51:58 Speaker 01 Well, the Old Testament's pretty violent. The New Testament's a little boring.
52:01 Speaker 02 I know.
52:01 Speaker 01 It's the same story four times.
52:03 Speaker 02 See, I still don't even know the difference between the two. But I will, I will get to it. I'm gonna get to it. At least I'll have ChatGPT explain it to me.
52:13 Speaker 01 But I think it's admirable, your sincerity there, even though you're joking at the end, you know. But I feel you reaching for a sincerity, and I feel you reaching for it, you know, more and more. And I look forward to seeing more of how you stitch that together with being so fucking funny as well. All right, man. Thank you so much.
52:38 Speaker 02 All right. Thank you. That was fun.
52:41 Speaker 01 That's all I got?
52:42 Speaker 02 Yeah. That's all you needed to give.
52:43 Speaker 01 That's a kneel in thing. That's all I got. That's all I got.
52:46 Speaker 02 You gave all you had.
52:47 Speaker 01 Thanks, guys.
53:03 Speaker 01 Just a memo about sitting down with Judd Apatow. I didn't bring up what I'd wanted to bring up is, he told me that, or no, he didn't tell me, but in his book, he had written early on, I think in his early twenties, he wrote a script for The Symptons, The Simpsons, The Simpsons, The Simpsons. And they repurposed it, or they rewrote it recently, or within the last five or 10 years. And Judd speaks about it as it's like a dream come true, you know, his childhood dream, or early career dream of writing a Simpsons episode comes true 30 years later. That is quite amazing.
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