#71 Esther Perel: Cultivating Desire

Relationship expert Esther Perel reveals her favorite strategies for “fighting” fair, rewriting stories that damage relationships, and breathing new life into our romantic partnerships. Go Premium: Members get early access, ad-free episodes, hand-edited transcripts, searchable transcripts, member-only episodes, and more. Sign up at: https://fs.blog/membership/ Every Sunday our newsletter shares timeless insights and ideas that you can use at work and home. Add it to your inbox: https://fs.blog/newsletter/ Follow Shane on Twitter at: https://twitter.com/ShaneAParrish Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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• 0:00Speaker 00

  If you trade passion for stability, you basically trade one fiction for another. Both are products of our imagination.

• 0:19Shane Parrish?

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• 1:02Shane Parrish?

  I get asked a lot to do episodes on relationships. People want to know how we form them, how we break them, and how we make them stronger. Today, I'm speaking with Esther Perel. I've waited a long time for this conversation. Esther is a psychotherapist based in New York, author, TED speaker, and host of Where We Should Begin podcast. Today, we're going to talk about her childhood and growing up with two parents who survived the Holocaust, the difference between living and surviving, and of course, relationships and the ways we communicate with our partners. We discuss honesty, common argument patterns, conscious uncoupling, desire, sex, and our podcast. It's time to listen and learn.

• 1:56Shane Parrish?

  It's great to meet you. I'm so happy to have you available for this conversation. I've been looking forward to this for weeks. Your parents were in concentration camps, I think, from your mom from 18 to 22, and your father was 25 to 31. Because the war started very early for them. What did your parents credit their survival to?

• 2:23Speaker 00

  Wow, we're going right to the heart of the matter. I think my parents always said luck came first, just sheer luck, that they were not rounded up on a certain morning when they would take 1,000 people and move them from the labor camp to the extermination camp. But secondly, I think they had sheer determination that they were going to be there to, first of all, to be witnesses, to still be there. They imagined that they would have members of their family, actually, that they would hopefully see again.

• 3:07Speaker 00

  And they were extraordinarily determined to stay alive and active about it. I think they had a very clear sense of where they came from, who they were, and why they needed to survive. And the rest is the stories that they told about the multiple things they had to do in order to stay alive.

• 3:33Shane Parrish?

  What are some of those stories?

• 3:38Speaker 00

  My mother spent a year hiding in the woods when she was 18 and became petrified by the barking dogs and the sense that every morning she would wake up in a different place and not know what the day was going to be. And she basically surrendered by herself to a male labor camp, figuring that maybe they would need somebody in the laundry or in the kitchen, and that at least she would know every morning where she wakes up. I didn't know many people who went by themselves to the camp. And when the camp was a better option than the hiding in the woods. And stealing eggs from farms and potatoes from fields and stuff like that to just, you know,

• 4:18Speaker 00

  stay alive. My dad, the last year and a half in one of the camps, he was in fourteen of them, basically organized some kind of a black market with the kitchen around, you know, food and potatoes, or potato peels more correctly, and managed to actually feed the Germans as well. So, DSS basically liked him in the kitchen. It was better for him. He ate better, as he said, when my dad was there than when my dad would go to the factory. If you went to the factory, you basically lived another week and there was that. Because you had to walk an hour and a half in frozen weather to get there. So, it's just stories of how they beat the system, basically, and stories of how they

• 5:03Speaker 00

  made connections with other people, how they created deep friendships, how he had a man, another man who became his kind of lifelong brother, with whom he fought together. I think that it was very clear that neither of them ever attributed to their survival to themselves alone. They had strength. My dad always talked about how they came from tiny villages in Poland where it's frozen weather in the winter and they were more robust, they were more resistant. You know, he carried bags of cement on his back and therefore he knew how to work hard in the camps. He didn't come from Paris or Kurfur, you know, Mediterranean weathers. So, they had this whole way of describing what made

• 5:48Speaker 00

  them strong, basically.

• 5:52Shane Parrish?

  Did your parents meet in a concentration camp?

• 5:55Speaker 00

  Interestingly, my parents met the day of liberation

• 6:01Speaker 00

  on the road as they came out of the camps. They were in neighboring camps and people just basically wandered the roads and, you know, as my mother would say, with cotton balls in your head, and looked for whoever they knew or whoever knew something about the towns they came from or about their families or their whereabouts. And people basically would say, "Oh, there is such and such I just saw from that village", you know, and go find them. So they met each other like that. And they knew of each other because my father traded with my mother's family when they were still in Poland. They probably would never have met or married for sure

• 6:45Speaker 00

  because my mother was orthodox aristocracy, educated aristocracy, and my dad was rather illiterate and uneducated and a grand man, but not necessarily an educated reader. So they were completely of different classes. And he always thought that he had

• 7:11Speaker 00

  found a beautiful princess that he had like, comment, le gros lot, that he had the Lotto, that he had won the Lotto with my mother. And it came like that. Basically, people gathered on the roads and began to travel and wonder where they should go. I mean, they were not going to go back to Poland. It's refugee stories of today, it's the same stories. And my dad had helped somebody from Belgium in the camps, and that man gave him a name and a false address and just basically said, "Come to Belgium". So they arrived like that to Belgium, where they had a permit to stay for three months. And then they were supposed to be dispatched in a number of other countries, which, who at the time were willing to take the Jewish refugees.

• 7:56Speaker 00

  And they decided to stay. So they stayed another five years as illegal refugees in Belgium. I mean, it's quite remarkable how what I grew up with, the stories, my first passport, which was a stateless passport, I mean, that all of that is so, so current. I think that the relevance of the story is not so much about what happened then, but about the fact that so much of us thought this will never happen again, this cannot happen again, and it is happening again, all over the place.

• 8:28Shane Parrish?

  I want to explore that just a little bit before we, we sort of dive into relationships, because what does it mean to come back to life after surviving the Holocaust in a community? I mean, what's the difference between living and sort of surviving?

• 8:45Speaker 00

  I mean, it's a distinction that I began to think about. I didn't grow up with that distinction, though there were loads of stories about that, about people who were depressed, about people who were bitter, about people who, you know, "You're married because I have nothing, you have nothing, I'm alone, you're alone, let's get married." But often, these people had no reason to be together except rebuilding. And so they had a lot of energy in the initial phases. And they had children right away as a way to prove their humanity. And, but after that, sometimes they would look at each other and these people had nothing in common. And my parents had friends like that, who were, you know, couples that didn't really have much

• 9:30Speaker 00

  to do together, except surviving, but not living. But when I wrote "Mating in Captivity," is really when I began to think about it, because mating is about how do you maintain a sense of aliveness? It is about erotic intelligence. And in so doing, I began to look at my community and notice that, in fact, I could make a separation. It's a metaphor more than an accurate description, you know? I don't know that the people I would describe this way would necessarily agree with it. But I remember thinking, in my community, I often noticed that there were two groups of people. And... The people who survived, the people who did not die,

• 10:14Speaker 00

  often were quite afraid, reticent, continuously aware of danger, untrusting. Nobody literally could enter in there. And there was a certain kind of morbidity in the homes. There was often survivor guilt. There was often a sense that, you know, life had broken them. And then on the other side, I saw people who were going to take life, you know, by the horns with a vengeance. It's like, I didn't survive for nothing, and I'm going to make the best of it. And I'm going to live grand for all those who didn't make it. And for me, the way I described it is that they understood the erotic as an antidote to death, basically.

• 10:58Speaker 00

  It's what does it take to maintain hope, to maintain a sense of meaning, to have imagination? Because if you have hope, you need to be able to project yourself, you know, whether you're in a camp or whether you're in a relationship. You have to be able to imagine yourself, to have a sense of anticipation, to project a better situation than the one you're in, or something to look forward to. And that whole way of cultivating the imagination is something that I then began to really talk to my parents about and understood that. In fact, you don't have to be in a concentration camp for that.

• 11:36Speaker 00

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• 12:27Shane Parrish?

  I was thinking, as you were saying that, we often take tomorrow for granted, but I imagine that that's almost impossible for you, growing up with your parents in that situation and in a community like that.

• 12:42Speaker 00

  I would say that it's the opposite for me. I think I live with tremendous energy and I do a lot and I live quite full. But underneath, there is a kind of chronic sense of dread that everything can stop any moment. I have no sense that tomorrow is taken for granted for me. I think that I'm gonna get a big surprise and it won't be a small boo-boo.

• 13:16Speaker 00

  But I try not to think about it the whole time. But it is continuously there. And I think, on the one hand, you could experience it as something that is terrifying, that deflates you, that constricts and contracts you. Or you can experience it as, because anything can stop any moment, I'm gonna give it its fullest right now. So in a way, it really naturally creates a stance in life in which the present has to be savored or fully experienced or dealt with. It's not always a positive thing. But basically, it's not an effort to be in the present in that sense.

• 13:56Shane Parrish?

  If things are sort of impermanent, I guess, in a way, where you're constantly questioning tomorrow and what could be there and what might be there. And how does that affect our relationship as individuals with trust and vulnerability?

• 14:13Speaker 00

  I mean, you know, the question of permanence and impermanence is the question that also points to the distinction between east and west. We believe that there is such a thing as permanence and we believe that there is such a thing as stability and predictability. There are entire philosophies who look at the world and at life as being in permanent flux. That's the state of impermanence, that things are continuously changing and morphing. And therefore, you know, to imagine that you can create stability is basically a fiction.

• 14:50Speaker 00

  And I think there's something very powerful about that. That means that you actually... I don't think it necessarily doesn't permit you to trust, or it doesn't allow you to feel vulnerable. It just is a different awareness about the world. It's a different philosophical stance. Look, for example, in mating in captivity, I wrote, I remember a moment when I read that sentence and it made a lot of sense for me, right? The idea that you should trade passion for security, for example. From the eastern perspective, or from the perspective of impermanence, if you trade passion for stability, you basically trade one fiction for another. Both are products of our imagination. And once I began to think like that,

• 15:35Speaker 00

  it offered for me something way more flexible in what people can do in their relationships to maintain a sense of vitality or a sense of aliveness. And it really comes down to the imagination. I mean, it is with our mind that we create stories and those stories basically shape our experience. And if you live with the story of things never change, you live in one reality. And if you live with a narrative that says things always change, they continuously change, then you live with a very different set of beliefs about how you love, how you work, how you live.

• 16:17Shane Parrish?

  Can you talk to me a little bit more about the stories that sort of shape how we see the world? And your experience with them, a lot in terms of your psychotherapy is that, are you replacing narratives with people? Are you sort of trying to get them to open up and expand their view in a relationship therapy? Or how does that work?

• 16:37Speaker 00

  It's a great question. So, look, I am a therapist that integrates a lot of different modalities and different approaches. But the narrative approach is very dear to me. And because I do see relationships as stories. So, yes, when people come in and they come in with one version or one way to tell the story of their relationship or the story of themselves in their relationship. My first thought is, what else is there? What other story is here that has not yet been told? But is this really the story? Is this the only way to look at this story? That is very much how I think. Because I do believe that language shapes our experience.

• 17:22Speaker 00

  If I say it certain ways, I will feel certain things and have certain thoughts that accompany those exact words. And so I have in my mind that when you come into a first session, I just said it yesterday, you come in with a particular story. By the time you leave that first session, my goal is that you will leave with a different story. And if you leave with a different story, you deal with a different experience of yourself in your relationship, which opens up possibilities for new insights, for changes, for new degrees of responsibility, and for freeing your perception of your partner as stuck in the story that you have put them in as well. So the change, the story is to create movement,

• 18:06Speaker 00

  is to create possibility for change. And that is basically why people do come to therapy.

• 18:14Shane Parrish?

  I think narratives affect more than our relationships, right? They affect how we live, they affect how we see the world, they affect how we see others. And part of understanding and connecting with other people is not necessarily agreeing with their narrative, but seeing their narrative.

• 18:26Speaker 00

  So let me give you an example, right? Because I literally had this experience a few days ago, a couple of days ago. So a couple comes in. And the original presentation is that they have big fights, nasty fights, she becomes very mean, she gets abusive, she curses. You know, she grew up in a very abusive household herself. And it is about, you know, the story is really presented like, you know, he's fine, basically. There's not, he's fine, nothing is said really about him. And it's, and she's the problem. That's a classic presentation. One person's the problem. And, and then it turns out that he's not just okay, he's actually a saint. He's the little prince. That's how he ends up calling himself. He's the little prince who actually can do no wrong.

• 19:11Speaker 00

  And therefore, anytime she asks for something, if she says, "I wish you'd bring me flowers," or something like that, it instantly becomes a slight to him, an indignation, because he's so good, how could he do anything that is missing or shortcoming? And gradually, the session evolved into taking her out of the role of being the identified patient and looking at how they actually were in a dynamic together in which they factor, there was nothing she could ever ask or say, because he appeared like he was so put together and strong, but in fact, he was very, very fragile and always at risk of feeling fractured

• 19:54Speaker 00

  in his, you know, in his attempts at creating a strong identity, but it wasn't nearly as strong. And gradually, it became clear that maybe she wasn't just the fragile one, but he was as well, and that there was a whole story behind, you know, how he lived with this idea that he is so good all the time and he's been so good to his very sad mother her whole life, and therefore, any comment is unfair to him. And it totally changed the dance. It totally changed the dance, because it looked like she had been this unreasonable, hysterical woman who would come up with these big requests. No, it wasn't. It wasn't at all.

• 20:39Speaker 00

  And we laughed, and we rewrote the story, and we changed the whole equilibrium between the two of them in terms of who does what and who's responsible for what and who triggers who, how, and when. And movement got, you know, air came into the room, if you want, and air is what, you know, air creates expansion. So you breathe differently, you sit differently, you listen differently, you move differently, and the story begins to evolve. And from that place, we began to, you know, chisel away at some of the stuckness of the relationship. It's that what I mean with the story. It's not just you sit, you know, and talk, it's that the story... That is linked to emotions and emotions are embodied experiences.

• 21:23Speaker 00

  So when people tell you a story a certain way, they also sit in a certain way that that leads to telling that kind of story. If you change the story, the body will move differently as well. It's a it's a it's a very holistic kind of thing. But it was so clear in this instance, because it was a while ago that I had had one of those where you read the intake and you think, wow, you know, there is, there is, you know, a healthy one and a not. And whenever I get one of those stories and the not is willing to agree that they are the not, when they're not, they're not. Everybody has their adaptive child inside of them with which they try to survive in the world. But underneath is the the other one, the one that was that dealt with the vulnerabilities, if you want,

• 22:08Speaker 00

  and then came up with all these coping styles, you know. So that's that was a way of changing the story. The guy came in with a rather inflated lofty sense of himself and left with a more realistic way of thinking about himself and a very different way of thinking about his wife.

• 22:25Shane Parrish?

  What happens after that?

• 22:29Speaker 00

  What happens after that?

• 22:34Speaker 00

  Basically, I gave them an exercise, which I suggest that they do a few minutes every day, by which she makes statements to him or requests or just says certain things. And he gets to

• 22:49Speaker 00

  answer to what she actually says to him. I said, you know, I would like you to, just very simple, right? She would say, you know, I I would love you to bring me oranges tonight. And instead of doing his typical, when when is the last time you brought me the strawberries that I like? That's kind of his modus operandi. It's always, you know, you want something from me, what about you? You know, he could simply say to her, I know you would like me to bring you an orange. Very basic reflective listening. But that reflective listening for him starts.

• 23:25Speaker 00

  A process by which he's able to hear, he's able to just stay with her, not make everything about him. Because every time he makes it about him, it makes her think that indeed there is no room for her unless she screams. So she goes back to her childhood, where you needed to scream in order to be heard. But it's not just because that's how she is. It's because there's a dance between them. Because literally, there is no way for her to say something about her that he doesn't make about him, and in a defensive way. So we began to chisel away at the defensiveness. And we did it with humor and with all kinds of crazy statements. Because if you bring in some of the absurd, you can highlight that it's in the form and not in the specific content that this matters.

• 24:10Speaker 00

  And it was really for him to actually understand that when you just repeat something and acknowledge something, that you don't have to be responsible for it. You didn't do anything wrong. It's like, all he heard all the time at any request is that he had done anything wrong, which wasn't what she was saying. So you can... What you have in a couple is people hear the inaudible. You know, they hear what they heard in their childhood, but it's not really what is being said to them in the present moment. And you need to bring reality in so that they can become the adults that they both need to be. And I do it with enactments. I made them say, you know, "You go home and do this for a bit, and write to me. Write to me every night, just a check, you know, just to say, 'Did it?'"

• 24:54Speaker 00

  You know, because if you practice this and you do it with a good dose of humor, gradually, you get the point, you know. The point is much more serious and deep than the little exercise. But basically, it changed the entire perspective. So from there, you begin... You know, therapy is like sculpting. At first, you carve away gross shapes. You make big motions, big interventions, so that you get the basic. And then you start to chisel, you know, and it's the middle phase of therapy, where you literally create the lasting shape of how this relationship could really enter into a new dance with each other. And the dance will be that... You know, the goal is that she won't lose it,

• 25:37Speaker 00

  that she won't end up cursing him where he indeed feels like he did everything wrong, that they don't get to that place and that they certainly don't get there in ten seconds from zero to a hundred. And that he doesn't spend his time constantly proving that he's the little prince and that he can therefore hear her without constantly, you know, just measuring his image in his mirror. It's that fundamental change that needs to take place. They're less, they're a young couple in terms of how long they are together. And so it's actually really not too encrusted yet. And they will have a different relationship, you know, they will, if they stick to it. Because they want it and because I think they have what it takes.

• 26:21Shane Parrish?

  You mentioned that they were a young couple and that sort of call, I have a question about, what are the important conversations to have with your partner early in a relationship? And how do those differ from the important conversations to have later in a relationship?

• 26:37Speaker 00

  You know, there is a theory that says that basically whatever you discuss, the difficult conversations, if you want, that you discuss twenty years later, they were all there in the first two dates. People actually know their things, they know their key conversations from the first, from the first moment. It's not that you have different conversations. The conversations evolve because you have different life stages, you have different stressors, you have different seasons and phases in a relationship. There are new members sometimes that join, children. There are people who leave, death and loss. And all of those shift the system. A couple is a relational system.

• 27:22Speaker 00

  And that system is continuously morphing and adapting itself to external things, work, money, where they live, moving, et cetera, health and internal things. And the conversations that you have are about that, you know. But there are a few basic ones you want to have in the beginning. This couple, you know, they have twenty years apart. They're young as a couple. They're not necessarily both young in age. She has more experience than him, even though she's 20 years younger in terms of relationships. He's actually quite new at this, at the more committed long-term relationship. Where do they want to live? They're both foreigners.

• 28:06Speaker 00

  Do they want to have a family together? How will they arrange their professional lives together? You know, in this instance, he comes from a rather traditional family where she's used to come home and there's food on the table. Well, is that the woman you picked? You know? Is that been discussed between the two of you? Or is that an assumption? And if it's an assumption, you only make a statement when the food is not on the table? And she says, why don't you cook on occasion? You know? So it's about people's values. It's about people's expectations. It's about people's vision for life. What do they look for in life? And is there a compatibility about that? You know, I think one of the big conversations

• 28:50Speaker 00

  that accompanies every relationship is about closeness and separateness. What is together? And what is individualistic? Or what individual? You know? How much money do you get to spend alone? And how much money, you know, is involved that you start to have a conversation with the other? Do you travel alone or only together? Do you go to bed together every night? Or can you go to sleep when you're actually tired without having to become a unison? You know? Do you, you know? How do you want to parent? How do you envision family life? How do you see your relationship to the extended family? What are the boundaries with the grandparents or with your in-laws? What do you do with your exes or with your deep friendships with other people? Do you continue them? Do you maintain them?

• 29:35Speaker 00

  Can you maintain them alone? Or do they become couple friends? The issue of boundaries, of what is ours and what is mine? What do I get to still decide alone? What is my zone of freedom? And what is our zone of commitment and togetherness? I think this is probably one of the very important conversations. People don't discuss it with those terms, but de facto, that is what they are talking about.

• 30:01Shane Parrish?

  I love the idea of sort of couples discussing values. And I don't, are those values permanent? Do values change over the course of a relationship? Do what you expect out of a relationship? Does that change?

• 30:14Shane Parrish?

  Because often, often people say they grow apart. Is that true? Like, how does that happen?

• 30:19Speaker 00

  Yeah, but that's a, I'll answer that in a sec. It's a different, for example, I saw a couple this week, and they're having infertility issues, you know? And one of them wants to really get in there and use all the means possible that science and medicine can provide. And the other person, basically, is a more religious person and says, you know, if it's meant to be, those are not things we decide. And this is a real philosophical value question. What is the right of an individual to tamper with fate, if you want, you know? Or to tamper with what life puts in front of you? Do you go at it? And, and, and try in every way you can because your agency is what's at the center? Or is what's at the center

• 31:04Speaker 00

  an acceptance of what life puts in front of you? Or, if you want, what God puts in front of you? This is a, but they're not discussing it like that. They're talking about should they go for infertility treatment? And when is the next IVF cycle?

• 31:17Shane Parrish?

  Right.

• 31:17Speaker 00

  But what they really are talking about is that. And once you actually put it in terms of values, it becomes much less a debate between them about who is passive and who is active, you know? Who gets things done and who is lazy? And it, and it becomes a kind of a, you know, you bad, rather than you different. That's why values become really important in these conversations. You know, I, we discuss feelings. We discuss values. We discuss beliefs. We discuss political assumptions. We discuss our view to the universe, you know? And how we see our place on this planet. But we don't discuss it as if we're in a philosophy course. We talk about it in terms of how we relate to food

• 32:01Speaker 00

  and to excess or to abundance, how we are either looking at what's missing or at what's there. It, it takes place in small, micro moments. But in fact, the conversations are about big ideas. So when you ask, do people grow apart? Look. When people grow apart, it's not because they have a difference of opinion necessarily. Because some couples have major differences in opinion, but they continue to remain deeply connected, curious about each other, respectful of who they are. And they're not threatened by the difference of the other, basically. Other couples, the slightest difference is World War III. You know, so it's not in the difference itself. It's in the way that people experience the difference. If you're secure,

• 32:46Speaker 00

  you can be next to somebody who doesn't eat meat and you don't need them to be like you in order to validate yourself. So when people grow apart, what's happening is both, there are two kinds of growing apart. There's either bickering, chronic conflict or high conflict, or there is disengagement and indifference and separateness. You can either have too much or too little of the thing that actually makes people grow apart. You know, that's really the choreography of growing apart. It's constant fighting or it's so far apart that you don't even notice if the other one is there or not there. That's the apart. In the instance of high conflict,

• 33:31Speaker 00

  what you get is people who are in very critical relationships. Everything is negative. There is a blame and defense dance. You do, I defend, I counter-attack. You defend, you blame me. And we just go at this all the time and we react to everything the other person is doing. For everything you do, I have something to say. You know, and people basically feel diminished and they feel like they don't recognize themselves. And, you know, they constantly blame the other for their misery. That's the other thing, is they really hold the other person responsible for how unhappy they are. On the other side, what you have is people who no longer share much of anything. And they live entire separate lives. And there's very little that brings them together.

• 34:15Speaker 00

  And there is a sense of isolation, of sometimes of loneliness, of indifference, of neglect, of lack of contact, of lack of what we call bids for connection. You know, ways in which it's clear that you're part of my life, you're part of the fabric of my everyday. It's like they're just so far apart. And both of these are descriptions of couples that grow apart.

• 34:43Shane Parrish?

  You mentioned something in there that I just want to explore a little bit. I'm curious about, which is secure. What does it mean to be secure in a relationship?

• 34:55Speaker 00

  I'm going to give it to you as an image of a little child. You know, do you have kids?

• 35:01Shane Parrish?

  I do, yeah.

• 35:02Speaker 00

  All right, so how old, if I may ask? Just so I can...

• 35:05Shane Parrish?

  Oh, ten and nine.

• 35:06Speaker 00

  Ten and nine. But you, so at ten and nine, you still have it very much. And you've had it from the beginning. They sit on your lap. Or they hold you, or they rest on your shoulder or on your chest. They are nested. They need nothing at that moment. They're just kind of completely at ease. Or they're trying to console themselves. But they are drawing from you their sense of comfort and consolation. And at some point, they're done. It's all fine. And they get up, and they begin by crawling, or they go, they run. They basically leave you to go and be into their own world. To go to play, to go to do their thing.

• 35:51Speaker 00

  They are now experiencing freedom. They've just experienced safety and security and attachment and nesting. And now they're moving into the world, and they're going to do hide and seek. They're playing, they're in their own imaginary realm. And in order to play, they have to be free and unselfconscious and free of worry. Otherwise, you can't play. To be secure in a relationship is to have both of those things. Is to be able to come back to the harbor, to anchor yourself, to feel rooted, and then to get up, to leave, and to go and play without having to worry. Now, what is it that you don't have to worry about? You don't have to worry about the fact that when you go, you're leaving somebody there who is suddenly bewildered and anxious

• 36:35Speaker 00

  and depressed and angry, but actually somebody who is totally at ease letting you go. Or that you worry that when you come back, they won't be there. And that hide and seek, that's why that game is so important, is to know that even when I'm gone, I live inside of you. Even when I'm gone, when I come back, you'll be there. Even when I'm gone, I take you with me. And so I experience freedom and connection at the same time. That is security in a relationship, for adults and for children.

• 37:07Shane Parrish?

  I like that a lot. And one of the other things I wanted to follow up on was sort of, it sounded like we were almost getting into common argument patterns within couples. What are the most common argument patterns that you see? And how do we learn to have better conversations with our partner?

• 37:25Speaker 00

  There are three primary choreographies of arguments. It's fight, fight, fight, flee, flee, flee. So either we go at each other and both of us go at each other. And we are, we enter into the more conflict, high, you know, bickering, chronic picking. The other version is one person attacks, but the other person flees or stone walls or withdraws and you get pursuer, distancer. One pursues the whole time and the other one is distancing. And the third one is you got both people basically closing the door, going into their room and not talking to each other for the next two days.

• 38:09Speaker 00

  That's three main choreographies of arguments. And what's really important in terms of couples and relationships in general, I will say, is that it's, it's probably one of the golden rules is to understand that the choreography, the form is way more important than the content. If you have people who are going at each other, they go at each other about everything. It's not the specific topics that make them go at each other. Their style is we attack and every subject will be spoken like that. If they are into, we close the door, it's not the particular issue that makes them close the door. They close the door and every issue they will discuss, they'll address it with the same dance.

• 38:52Speaker 00

  And what you're challenging in a couple is the dance, is the rigidity of the way that they go at it, you know? One person instantly raises their voice, the other person basically shuts down, raises, rolls their eyes, says, here you go again, waits, you know, all of these motions. That's, that's what happens in, in a couple, in a couple that struggles with this stuff, right? You're asking me about arguments. So those are the three choreographies of arguments.

• 39:20Shane Parrish?

  When I was doing research for this, one of the things that struck me as incredibly insightful and I wish I had known a long time ago was you said, "Behind every criticism..."

• 39:28Speaker 00

  There's a wish.

• 39:29Shane Parrish?

  ...there's a wish. Can you expand on that and explore that with us for a little?

• 39:32Speaker 00

  Yeah, why don't you ask me a question about my new podcast, for example, right? That would be, "I actually would like you to talk with me about my new podcast," but I won't say that, right? Why don't you bring me flowers? Why didn't you say good morning? Why didn't you thank me when I did? Why, you know, what is actually, what am I saying? I'm saying, "I wished you had thanked me. I wished you had noticed that I bought you this new suit. I wished you had, you know, shown me your appreciation for..." I wished. But if I say, "I wished," I have to put myself out there. It means I want something and I can be refused. I can be rejected. I can be not heard.

• 40:12Speaker 00

  And that, in a relationship that is not secure, I will defend against that. I don't want to show you that side of me. So instead of saying what I want, I'll say what you didn't do. That's the criticism. What you didn't do and what's wrong with you is safer, in some bizarre way, than to tell you what is special about me and what I would have wanted.

• 40:35Speaker 03

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• 41:34Shane Parrish?

  Is that selfish?

• 41:35Speaker 00

  No, I don't think it's selfish per se. I think it's very...

• 41:39Shane Parrish?

  Because you're valuing yourself over the relationship by doing that, aren't you? By putting it out there, you're saying, in a way, and maybe I get this wrong, so correct me, in a way, by putting it out there and being vulnerable, you're saying us is more valuable than, you know, what I'm feeling and my vulnerability. And when you hold it in and you're unwilling to be vulnerable and you're just criticizing, isn't that saying that right now, at this particular moment, I'm valuing myself more than I'm valuing this relationship?

• 42:06Speaker 00

  No, I would put it to you differently. I'm saying that you didn't do something because I actually really, it's very interesting. I'm gonna try to explain this to you. It's not about being selfish. It's actually about feeling noteworthy enough.

• 42:26Speaker 00

  I actually believe on some level that maybe you really don't care about me.

• 42:32Speaker 00

  Or that I'm not loved, or more, that I'm not lovable. And because of that fundamental lack of sense of self-worth, I say, "You didn't do this," rather than say, "I'm not sure I deserve to get this. I'm not sure you love me enough to wanna do this for me. I'm not sure that I'm good enough a person to even deserve to have this." And that's why I put it on you.

• 42:59Shane Parrish?

  That makes sense.

• 42:59Speaker 00

  It's a, do you get it? It's a, you know, if I say, you know, "You never ask me how I'm doing." You know, "You come home and you just start talking about your day, and then when you're done, you basically go to your phone and you do your..." You know, "When's the last time you asked me about me?"

• 43:17Speaker 00

  What am I actually saying? I'm saying I feel neglected. I'm saying I feel ignored. I'm saying I wonder if you're still curious about me. I'm saying maybe you're more interested in many other people when you don't really believe that I have anything important to say. Or maybe I'm saying you're selfish and you only think about you, which just goes on with, you know, "I'm not important enough for you to think about me."

• 43:45Speaker 00

  That's all, some of the things that go underneath. Or I'm saying, "I've already told you five times that I would like some occasion that we also talk about my day, and you really are not interested. You're not listening." And I don't want to say it one more time and again feel hurt that it's not coming because you are so selfish to think about you the whole time. And I, so it's basically, it's actually a protective device, interestingly. To criticize the other person is a protection against being hurt.

• 44:18Shane Parrish?

  I think that makes a lot of sense.

• 44:19Speaker 00

  As wonky as it sounds.

• 44:22Shane Parrish?

  No, I, yeah, I mean, you said it and I'm like, oh, I was totally wrong. Is there such a thing as too much honesty in a relationship? And is, is sort of the opposite of transparency and honesty a secret? Or how do you, how do we think about these, these dynamics of honesty and transparency and secrecy and caring for our partner?

• 44:47Speaker 00

  Look, I will say to you like this. I tend to not think in categoricals. I think that all of those behaviors, values, interactions, honesty, transparency, confession, they are all contextual. They are all contextual. Relationships take place in a context.

• 45:10Speaker 00

  And once you agree with that premise, then you ask, what does honesty mean in this relationship at this moment? Is it caring or is it cruel?

• 45:25Speaker 00

  There's consequences to honesty. What will it be like for the other person to live with what I just said? I actually really think I should never have married you. You're dumb. You haven't said an interesting thought in God knows how long. I actually still really think about the person that I was living with before, but they died. And, you know, I remarried you because I had four kids, but what I was, what was I gonna do?

• 45:49Shane Parrish?

  What if it's hurtful but causing you problems? Like, I'm no longer in love with you.

• 45:54Speaker 00

  Well, deal with it.

• 45:56Shane Parrish?

  That's hurtful for your partner, though. Is that something?

• 45:59Speaker 00

  If you don't, if you have doubts, deal with it. There's no need to, what can the other person do with those doubts?

• 46:06Speaker 00

  I mean, it's like, you know, what am I gonna say? I'm not attracted to you anymore?

• 46:12Speaker 00

  What can the other one do about that? Assuming that they still try very hard to look good and all of that, and they haven't gained seventy-five pounds, and even then, they don't... It's like, you know, if you have doubts, at best, you figure it out alone, and then on the things that the other person can't do anything about, and then you basically say, "You're a fantastic person, but I don't wanna live with us anymore." And I know this is gonna hurt you terribly, but you don't put the other person in a bind about something they can't change.

• 46:46Speaker 00

  You know, some honesty is cruel.

• 46:50Speaker 00

  And, you know, "I wish I could leave you, but I don't because I like our lifestyle." Excuse me. You know, that's your problem. That's not the other person's problem. I think we should really not confuse sometimes what are things that we need to take responsibility for. What, I'm gonna be angry with you because I feel trapped? You're not... They're not trapping you. You wanna go, you go. But I don't wanna go, but I'm angry at you for the fact that I can't go.

• 47:21Speaker 00

  These are all the dances and the games that people play with each other in the name of honesty. Of course, I think a lot of things need to be shared and discussed because we live in a time where we really value that kind of intimacy as true telling, and intimacy as a discursive experience, right? Intimacy is what I share with you about my inner life. That's a very, very recent Western new definition of the word intimacy. Inti-mi-se. I'm part of that culture too. But I also am aware that people say things, "Well, you told me I should tell you how I feel." Well, I think you're a freaking slob. Is that useful? Do you get something from that? No.

• 48:04Speaker 00

  It's not... It may be true, but it's not useful. So I find myself saying so often to people, "You may be right, but you are alone." And it's not difficult to be right and alone. That's... Is your goal to get your partner to change and to do more of what you want? And this is really not helpful.

• 48:23Speaker 00

  Oh, but it's authentic. Okay.

• 48:27Speaker 00

  It's authentically useless.

• 48:29Shane Parrish?

  I do this with my kids sometimes where I'm like, you're right, but you're not going to get the outcome that you want.

• 48:35Speaker 00

  That's right. That's right. So what is it you want? You want me to tell you how you think? I got it. You want us to agree on something differently? You gotta go at this not like that. Because every time you tell me you're right, you're implying I'm wrong. And if you're implying I'm wrong, I'm less likely to cooperate with you. It's like, don't lose the compass. What is it you're actually trying to achieve? You know, you this, this, this. I mean, people, you know, say lots of stuff to each other in my office, you know, and I'm like thinking, you probably are right. I mean, in myself, I'm thinking, I could see that. I can totally see how after all these years, this is how you see your partner. But seriously, you want to be close, right?

• 49:19Speaker 00

  That's supposedly what you said you want. And you know what? After the dump you just made, I'm not sure you're gonna get close. So tell me, what is it you want? You want to shrink your partner and shrivel them up and make them feel terrible about themselves? Or you actually want something from them? And if you want something from them, you're gonna have to do this very differently. So sorry.

• 49:41Shane Parrish?

  How often are those conversations high stakes? Because we've waited so long to have them versus we should have had them months or years or perhaps decades earlier? And now, they're so hard and we have so much... We have an internal conversation with ourself that just comes out almost like a fire hose.

• 50:00Speaker 00

  Yep.

• 50:01Shane Parrish?

  At this point, whereas had we had it earlier, it would have been a trickle. How do we learn to bring those things up when the stakes are low?

• 50:12Speaker 00

  So I will first challenge you that the stakes are not necessarily low because you're in the beginning.

• 50:19Speaker 00

  There are lots of people who come with heavy suitcases.

• 50:24Speaker 00

  And it doesn't take long, you know, few months, a year, for the suitcases to open. And everybody brings their history with them. And the way that they learned to interact with people, particularly their loved ones, and what they learned at home. So it's not necessarily that people are always just so nice in the beginning and they accumulate over time. You accumulate because of the resonance of the stuff that is happening with your partner. If the stuff that happens with your partner is so instantly similar to what you experienced at home, it doesn't take long. It's not the time, it's the actual echo chamber of what you have in your relationship

• 51:08Speaker 00

  and how it mirrors what you had in your family of origin. That's what creates the intensity. That said, what does happen over time is that the patterns, the back and forth, the conversation. I had a couple this week, it's really interesting, lesbian couple, wonderful couple, but they are four years together.

• 51:35Speaker 00

  And basically, I kind of could see in the conversation within five minutes that what they were saying to each other, this was probably number 197 times the same conversation. Like, this is it, this is the one. It's so patterned, predictable, rigid, narrow, and boring. And they're trapped, they know they're trapped, that's why they're there, because they're stuck, because it's a same old, same old. So at one point, I basically switched seats and I made them reverse roles. And each one, for the next 15 minutes, basically spoke as if she was the other. It was phenomenal. It's like, if you're worried that they don't hear each other and that's why they need

• 52:19Speaker 00

  to repeat the same thing again, no worries. They know each other's words by heart. They could play the other person to the teeth.

• 52:29Speaker 00

  So then, once we established that, I said, okay, now we can maybe start to have a different conversation here. I mean, this is like, you know, one says one thing, the other one snaps right in there, like a banana peel. You slip on it and up you go, you know? And I say this and she says that, and it's this ping pong. But once they did the role play, they actually began slowly to get into the experience of the other, because you really do enact what the other one is really trying to tell you. And then you ask them, and how does it feel when you're saying this yet again? You know? And it's that thing that you try to break, is the rigidity and the immediacy,

• 53:12Speaker 00

  where you want to create space for something new to be able to come in, so that change can occur. Otherwise, people do sometimes come dead upon arrival, because what you're looking for is their motivation on the part of each person to want to do something different. You know, most of the time, people don't come to couples therapy or relationship therapy, it's the same with families, when I see families, to say what they want to do different. They come with a long list of expectations of what they want their partner to do different. You know, it's like a drop-off center. I came to bring you my partner, you fix it. And you're trying to say, therapy becomes helpful in relationships

• 53:56Speaker 00

  when each person is willing to do something new, regardless, non-contingent, on what the other person is doing. You become committed, you're not going to do the usual. If the usual is you close your door and you don't say another word, or if the usual is you just up the volume, or if the usual is you go on the vicious attack, or if the usual is that you just kind of talk about the weather when the other person is talking about their dying mother, you're going to make an effort to change what you do. Because if you consistently start to do something different, at some point, the other person has to adapt, because it's ping pong. If the ball goes to a different corner,

• 54:40Speaker 00

  you can't stay standing on the other side. At some point, you will move.

• 54:45Shane Parrish?

  Why does good sex so often fade in relationships, even for couples who continue to love each other?

• 54:54Speaker 00

  There are loads of reasons, I think, that sex fades.

• 55:00Speaker 00

  And when I say that sex fades, I think that it's important to distinguish. I'm not talking about the act of sex itself. People can have some type of regular sexual activity, performative, comfortable, you know, or less comfortable. But I'm not interested in the performance of sex. That is not really what, that is not really what the people come to me for. I would say it like that. Some people come because they've become really sexless relationships. Sometimes they are deep affectionate couples that are de-eroticized, that are de-sexualized.

• 55:43Speaker 00

  But sometimes what they want is to reconnect with a degree of intensity, of aliveness, of erotic charge. And that's very different than just the act of doing sex. So, that said, there's a long list of things that make people disconnect from their erotic self, basically. And some of them are not of their choice. They're stressors of life. They have to do with health. They have to do with economic difficulties. They have to do with employment struggles, et cetera, et cetera. And children and family life and all of that. But sometimes, it's also, I think, and that's where it became the exploration that I got interested in,

• 56:28Speaker 00

  is really a kind of a breakdown of the imagination. It's a willingness to go for...

• 56:38Speaker 00

  For the least, basically. It's the same difference as, you know, cooking a beautiful meal for which you thought about. You bought the special ingredients, you took the time to prepare it, you set a nice table, you looked forward to sitting down, to enjoying it, to having good conversation, maybe good wine that accompanies it, et cetera, versus cutting a tomato, which is perfectly fine, but it doesn't have the same poetry attached to it. And that's what happens to people's sexualities, is it becomes the kind of basic last thing on the list that you should do at the end of a long day, as if it's one more chore

• 57:22Speaker 00

  in a messy room that is rather uninspiring, without much playfulness, without much imagination, without much creativity. You can do it, but doing it is not the same as the quality of the experience that comes with it. And that's why it fades. It fades because people don't necessarily invest in it and value it as something, you know, in the beginning, it seems to come on its own supposedly, so you don't have to do anything. And people have this idea that it should be spontaneous, and it should, you should just be in the mood, and it should just come. And all these shoulds, whatever is going to just come in a long-term relationship already has.

• 58:04Speaker 00

  So it demands predetermination, it demands really creativity, it demands intentionality and premeditation, which is very tricky to premeditate sex, because it supposedly goes against this romantic, you know, I just was swept and it came all over me. Part of why we lose it is because we are filled with mistaken ideas about what actually it takes to create pleasure, desire, and excitement.

• 58:31Shane Parrish?

  Talk to, that's a good segue into love and desire. What's the relationship between pleasure, desire, love? Is love about closeness and desires, sort of like finding new experiences or adventures? And how does that fit in?

• 58:48Speaker 00

  I mean, I, at one point, played with the idea that love is about having and desire is about wanting. And therefore, it's two different verbs that often pull us in different directions. Love thrives on closeness. It thrives on deep knowledge with each other. It thrives on minimizing the tensions, on narrowing the gaps, and on a sense of predictability. You do want to know that you're going to have the same person the next morning, who will still love you and that you will still love. And desire is a lot more fickle. Desire is to own the wanting. And that wanting, how you connect to that sense of sovereignty and agency and freedom,

• 59:32Speaker 00

  that is the opposite of "you won't make me",

• 59:38Speaker 00

  it thrives much more on mystery, on curiosity, on the unknown, on discovery, on exploration. And the challenge of modern relationship is that we want love and desire in the same place. It's never happened before. That's the interesting thing. And it doesn't get solved with Victoria's Secret just so easily.

• 59:57Shane Parrish?

  What do you mean it's never happened before?

• 59:59Speaker 00

  We've never looked for... The word "passionate marriage" is a contradiction in terms. We've never looked for passion in the same place where we looked for security and anchoring and somebody with whom to pay the checks and fix the house. These two things were separate for all of history. Love stories took place somewhere and marriage took place somewhere else. Marriage wasn't necessarily about love in the first place. It was an economic enterprise primarily. But the place where you want to experience full surrender and the intensity of the unknown, how do you bring that in the same place where you want to know that what you have today is what you're going to have tomorrow? It's a grand experiment of modern love is that we are trying to experience

• 1:00:44Speaker 00

  security and adventure in the same place. Now, it's not impossible, but it is a grand challenge. How do I pretend with the person with whom I've been living for 30 years that there's still so much to discover? How do I remain curious about somebody who, at the same time, I desperately want to feel familiar with? How do I bring surprise in the place where I want to experience continuity? How do I bring out parts of myself that I've never revealed to someone who pretends to know me so well?

• 1:01:18Speaker 00

  How do I take risks, sexual and emotional risks, in a place where I usually don't want too much of a big production? And this is why it is very challenging to not just have sex in long-term relationships. People can have sex, but have sex that is for pleasure and connection, sex that we look forward to, that is anticipatory, that reveals us to ourselves, that's a kind of an erotic intimacy, right? Where we discover things about us that are still new. What are new conversations people can have about that? What does it mean to take risks in the same place where you also want predictability? What does it mean to allow yourself degrees of surrender with someone that you need to

• 1:02:03Speaker 00

  rely on, who's gonna wake up tomorrow morning to get the kids to school? Now it becomes really a fascinating exploration. We all grapple with this thing, you know? And it demands real active creativity. That's why I like the food metaphor, because everybody understands the difference between putting some food on the table and eating for sustenance, and having a lavish or having a beautiful, thoughtful, creative meal that is about pleasure, not just about sustenance. And the erotic is cultivating pleasure for its own sake. It's not about achieving an orgasm. It's not about the performance of sex. We did it. We both came.

• 1:02:48Speaker 00

  No. It's really about the quality of the experience and of the pleasure that you experienced, and where it took you, and where you went with your partner. That, over time, is a real piece of art.

• 1:03:03Shane Parrish?

  As you were saying that, I was thinking, are there tips and tricks that people could use at home that wanna bring up a conversation about sex with their partner? But more importantly, I think it's, how do we go about discussing something that's difficult or hard with our partner? Is there a prompt or a way to start that is gonna be more predisposed to better outcomes?

• 1:03:27Speaker 00

  I mean, interestingly, I didn't anticipate it at first, but I do now know that it is one of the most powerful aspects of the podcast, is that people would hear other people have conversations that they want to have. And the deeper they would listen to these other people, and the more they would see themselves in their own mirror, and the more they would acquire some of that vocabulary to then go to their partner and say, you know, I was, or they listen with the partner to the podcast, and they say, how do you feel about this? Have you ever thought about that? Is that something you would be interested in? Do you have those fantasies? Is that what you feel with me at times? Have you ever experienced that kind of a block? It's like, like going to a movie, right?

• 1:04:11Speaker 00

  Like, when you have a third entity, it allows you to speak to your partner by virtue of the thing that you have just watched, or shared, or listened to in the case of a podcast. And then you can ask the same question, you know? Do you feel that kind of pressure? You know, have you ever faked with me? You know, because this woman is talking about that, you know, or this man is talking about that, you know? Have you ever felt that kind of, you know, have you ever wanted to try that for us? You know, it's, it's easier than to suddenly sit in the car and say, oh, you know what? I was thinking, maybe one day we should do this. Where are you coming from? You know, where's that coming? But if you listen to something together, it, it gives it a permission.

• 1:04:54Speaker 00

  It places it in the permitted conversations that we can have as a couple. So now you would say, but what are the questions that I ask, you know, in the sessions to those couples? I like writing, for example. So I, I, I often think, you know, with some couples, I've found it very useful to create a separate email address. And that separate email address is one in which you're not talking about Management Inc. It's not about the kids, the money, the family, the to-do list. It's really the lover's nest. It's when you and I think about each other as partners, as lovers. And in that place, we write to each other in a very different language.

• 1:05:38Speaker 00

  I'm not talking to the mother of my kids or to the father of her. I'm talking to my partner. And I send songs, I send jokes, I send pictures, I send just sweet thoughts, you know? And that creates a kind of a lubrication, that I still hold you as my lover, not just as my life partner. And it creates that erotic space in which we see each other with different eyes. And that in itself is often very sensual and creates a permission in which people then start to say different things that they haven't felt they can say. You know, the grand paradox is that the idea is

• 1:06:22Speaker 00

  greater intimacy would normally free us to greater sexual freedom and sexual openness. But in fact, that is not necessarily the case. The more we start to feel intimate with each other and we become close and we worry about each other and we are afraid of each other's judgment, and the more sometimes we actually become less open. Many of us were more open in the beginning than afterwards, which is a paradox. And so then the question becomes, how do we reopen? How do we start to talk again about things which over time we stop talking about supposedly because you should know and it's assumed? And we become uncomfortable about it.

• 1:07:06Speaker 00

  And I think that what my sessions are about and what I think I do actually in the podcast as well is show how you make two people who think they know a lot suddenly listen to each other again and realize that the one that is next to you is actually forever somewhat mysterious and elusive if you just want to remain curious.

• 1:07:27Shane Parrish?

  Does part of that come back to the narratives? It's almost as if at the beginning, our narratives are wide open and we see you as everything, including all of your likes and desires. And then, as we spend more time with you, I'm thinking, possibly, we start to identify, oh, you're a mother, you're a wife, you're in these roles, and we see less of this big, broad person. And that shapes what we see and how we interact.

• 1:07:52Speaker 00

  I completely agree. I completely, I mean, you know, you see people sitting with friends. Sometimes I go for lunch, and I sit in a restaurant, and, you know, or I go to a simple spot like that, and I just see people looking at each other, talking to each other, well dressed, animated, engaged, attentive. And then I'm thinking, who is here with their partner? Probably very few, right? And I'm thinking, what they're gonna do is they're gonna be so engaged throughout the day, and then they're gonna go home, and basically, they're gonna bring the leftovers home. And at home, they're gonna talk very little, actually. Or they're gonna check in on the day and on the logistics and all of that.

• 1:08:35Speaker 00

  I'll give you an example, it was really interesting, I had it myself recently. I'm sitting with friends and with my husband, and we were talking about playing as children. And one of the people said, you know, I actually, I don't remember playing as children like that, I didn't have characters, we had come out of a movie, I didn't have characters, and I was more kind of a sport, and I was very, very competitive. And my husband, so he says, oh, me as a child, I was a different person every day. And then proceeded to talk about the kind of games that they played in the woods, behind the house, as children, and how they were in fantasy play and all of that.

• 1:09:14Speaker 00

  And I listened attentively like that, just like a story that he may have told me or not, you know, and we talked about basically the power of imagination, and to enter other roles, and how much we do this as children, and how, you know, actually, sexuality is one of the places where people have it as adults, you know, in their, in their homes. And I just thought to myself, would we have had this conversation alone, where I would say, what was, what did you do when you played as a kid?

• 1:09:48Speaker 00

  Yet people raise children together, but they don't ask that question necessarily. And it's such a revealing question, what, how you played as a child. What kind of, what, did you allow yourself to play? Did you have the permission to play? Was it safe enough to play? And what kind of play did you engage yourself in? Boy, does that tell you an amazing story about a person. It's a great dinner conversation. Highly recommend.

• 1:10:12Shane Parrish?

  I was thinking, I wonder how our relationships would change if we started giving our partners the best hour of our day and waking up an hour earlier and spending it with them instead of the sort of like 10 to 11 p.m. leftovers, as you called it. I wonder if we went to bed an hour earlier and woke up an hour earlier and spent that time with our partners, how that would change our relationships when we would have, we'd be the most alert and the most attentive and probably the most curious.

• 1:10:38Speaker 00

  Massive. I mean, that's been studied. And we know, we know that couples that have rituals. Every Wednesday at 5 o'clock, we meet in a bar and have a drink. Every Tuesday, we have lunch. Every month, we leave a night away. Depends on what they can afford, what they can do. But those who have that ritual in place, which really states, no matter what else goes on in our life, we have a dedicated time that is ours where we check in with each other, whatever we do. You know, we go row boating, whatever, whatever. But it's very clear that those who've done that for like decades on end. Now, you know, you could say it's because they did it that they are stronger or it's because they're stronger that they do it.

• 1:11:22Speaker 00

  I think those things interact with each other. But it's, I don't know if I would do it morning and night. It depends on what other people are living in the homes. But I know that if people have a regularly dedicated time that says, we matter. And it's not, everything else comes first and we come last, which is what is often the case for many couples, that that makes a huge difference. And why does it matter? Because this is the first time in the history of human relationships that the quality of the relationship in the couple is what will determine if the family will survive.

• 1:12:01Shane Parrish?

  Oh, that's interesting.

• 1:12:02Speaker 00

  For most of history, family life existed regardless of if the couple likes, gets along, or doesn't. At this point, your family will exist if the couple is relatively content.

• 1:12:15Speaker 00

  Depending on that. So if you invest in the couple, you actually preserve the family. And what people do is they put all the energy in the family when there is family, or in the work, or in everything else. And the couple is often left gasping on the vine. And then we need to talk about conscious uncoupling. But it's neglect. It's the other way around. It's really, if you look at most people, the couple often will come last.

• 1:12:43Shane Parrish?

  I hate to end with conscious uncoupling, but I do want to get to it because we had a lot of questions from readers and listeners about conscious uncoupling. So what is conscious uncoupling? What does it mean? How does it work? And why is it proven effective?

• 1:12:57Speaker 00

  In season three, I have a whole episode that is called "The Happy Divorce." And it's actually a couple that is getting along better now that they are no longer married than they were when they were married. And they actually remain very involved as a couple. Partly because now that they're not married, they can finally free themselves of all the restrictions and assumptions that they had about what is expected from them in marriage. It's like they liberated themselves from the constraint of the definition called marriage. And so now they can finally have the relationship they want.

• 1:13:38Speaker 00

  So I highly recommend it. It really will explain that. But for me, the conscious uncoupling is the idea that there needs to be a way for people to, at some point, choose to separate without us still thinking that longevity is the main marker for success, that if you meet at a funeral home at the end of life, then it means you had a good relationship, and that every breakup, or separation, or divorce is a failure.

• 1:14:10Speaker 00

  I think it's that that needs to be challenged. We live way too long. We live twice as long as a hundred years ago. And not all of us will necessarily only have one relationship, an adult relationship. You know, we will have two or three, many of us, and some of us will do it with the same person. But others will sometimes change. And if you can leave, and to the best of your ability, wish good to the other person. Wish them well and wish you well. Then you actually are more prepared for the next relationship. The more you remain tied in your bitterness, you know, the more you bring that with you. The way people leave the previous relationships, the quality of the breakups

• 1:14:54Speaker 00

  is really at the heart of how people start the next relationships. How much they will trust, how they trust, how they collaborate, how they protect themselves, how they anticipate, you know, what had happened, how much they bring these invisible others, exes with them, be they ex-partners, husbands, wives, or boyfriends, or founders. You know, it's really very interesting to see the parallel of those things.

• 1:15:22Shane Parrish?

  How should you leave a relationship? Like, what are the variables that you should be considering when you're doing that?

• 1:15:28Speaker 00

  We want different things in life. I still love you. I still care about you. I still respect you. I have, I still have strong feelings for you, whatever the feelings are. You know, I may not love you anymore to want to live with you, or I may still love you but not want to live with you. Love life and life is not the same. So you, basically, it depends if you have a family. Then you know that a divorce is a reorganization of the family. It's the end of the marital unit, but not the end of the family. It's a reorganization of the family. If you don't have a family and it's two people, then it's about, we've come to a place

• 1:16:13Speaker 00

  where one of us or both of us have chosen no longer to be together. And the best thing you can do is not one Destroy the other person as a way to kind of separate and justify it by vilifying them, demonizing them, etc. Basically, I do this for me, I don't do this for us, that's a given. Or I do this, whatever the reasons, and I wish you well. And here are the things that I take with me of what we have lived together. And here are the things that I hope you take with you of what we share together. And here is what I wish for you, and here is where I think that I could have done better. If you leave and you seriously only think that it's all about the other person, you

• 1:16:58Speaker 00

  may be missing something. It's very good to know that you too could have done things differently. And that is honesty, by the way. You asked me before about honesty. Honesty is not only what you have to say about the other person. Honesty is also your own reckoning and your own accountability with where you've shown up and where you went absent and missing in action. Those things go into the final conversations. When I do conscious uncoupling in my office, which is basically people who are willing to be deliberate and intentional about how they part. That's the idea. The same way that people do it when they come together. How people start and how people end are amazingly important psychological bookmarks of their relational life.

• 1:17:43Shane Parrish?

  I think that's a great place to end this conversation. This was fascinating. Where can people find out more about you online?

• 1:17:52Speaker 00

  So first is estherporel.com, and there you can also subscribe to the newsletter and the blog, or the training program sessions, or the workshop for couples, which is called Rekindling Desire, and then on all the social channels, at EstherPorelOfficial, and on Facebook and Twitter.

• 1:18:12Shane Parrish?

  Thank you so much, Esther. This was a real pleasure and a treat, and I had a great time with our conversation.

• 1:18:18Speaker 00

  Wonderful.

• 1:18:20Shane Parrish?

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