TBT: Amie Balesky

Throwback Thursday Bunnie welcomes psychic medium and social media star Amie Balesky to the show for a mind-blowing conversation on spirits, the afterlife, and connecting with the outer realm. Amie shares how she realized her gifts, and how she overcame several illnesses and hardships that made her a more empathetic and compassionate spirit worker. Amie connects with clients all over the world for readings. She shares her tips for realizing your own psychic gifts, provides more insight into the Aaron Carter session, and discusses how she lured in her husband through street tacos and champagne. Watch Full Episodes & More: www.dumbblondeunrated.com

Speaker names marked ? are inferred from speaking time and the show’s known hosts — they are not voice-verified.

• 0:00Bunnie XO?

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• 0:27Speaker 01

  Bonnie, who used to be a former sex worker, now hosts the podcast Dumb Blonde.

• 0:32Bunnie XO?

  Most little girls grow up wanting to be doctors and lawyers and shit. And I was like, I want to be super hot, make a lot of fucking money and be a rock star's wife. That was my goal as a child. And here we are.

• 0:42Bunnie XO?

  What's up, you sexy motherfuckers? Welcome to another episode of Dumb Blonde. Today, I have TikTok's spiritual advisor, Amy Balesky. How are you doing, baby? Did I pronounce it right?

• 0:54Speaker 02

  Yeah, you did. You did absolutely.

• 0:55Bunnie XO?

  How are you doing, baby?

• 0:56Speaker 02

  I am wonderful. How are you?

• 0:57Bunnie XO?

  I'm good. I'm so happy to have you here.

• 1:00Speaker 02

  Thank you. It's been a year.

• 1:01Bunnie XO?

  Dude, it's been a long time in the making.

• 1:03Speaker 02

  I know. It has since last October.

• 1:05Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, our schedules have been just fucking insane.

• 1:07Speaker 02

  Everybody's.

• 1:08Bunnie XO?

  You are busy.

• 1:09Speaker 02

  All the time.

• 1:09Bunnie XO?

  Literally.

• 1:10Speaker 02

  All the time.

• 1:11Bunnie XO?

  Talking to dead people every day.

• 1:12Speaker 02

  Teaching classes, teaching people how to talk to dead people as well.

• 1:15Bunnie XO?

  What is a class of teaching people how to talk? Can, can anybody talk to dead people?

• 1:21Speaker 02

  Anybody can.

• 1:21Bunnie XO?

  Really? You don't have to be born with a gift?

• 1:23Speaker 02

  Well, no, because you are spirit inside of a meat sack.

• 1:26Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:26Speaker 02

  So it's just getting back to what you are. And you have to figure it out because in our normal daily life, nobody teaches you how to do it. And then after that, what do they do? They teach you it's scary or they teach you it's bad.

• 1:36Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:37Speaker 02

  You know? And so it's about teaching you how to like ground yourself and feel the environment and the earth and spirit and everything around you.

• 1:43Bunnie XO?

  That's insane, because I always thought that you had to have the gift or a gift.

• 1:47Speaker 02

  I mean, it, it, it's, there are things that can like, supercharge it, right? There are things like if you have a near death experience, right? Or certain signs, like Scorpio, a lot of cancer, a lot of Pisces and stuff like that. Or if you've had a lot of like, trauma or tragedy or anything like that, it can kind of like kickstart that. Why? Because you're, you are more sensitive, right? You're more into your feelings. You're more into feeling your environment. That's essentially what it is.

• 2:11Bunnie XO?

  That's crazy. My, so growing up, I found out, because I've always had a thing like a sixth sense, always seen spirits and always like had that.

• 2:19Speaker 02

  You can feel it in people.

• 2:20Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, no, always. And I found out before my mom passed away that I have a, I come from a long line of White trash witches from Kentucky.

• 2:30Speaker 02

  There you go.

• 2:32Bunnie XO?

  I was like, she's like, we all had gifts. I'm like, no wonder you guys are all drug addicts.

• 2:35Speaker 02

  Yeah, yes.

• 2:36Bunnie XO?

  Literally.

• 2:36Speaker 02

  Did you know most mediums and people that do this, what do you see? They smoke cigarettes because they calm their anxiety, or they drink a lot of alcohol, or they do drugs because it almost every, you can feel everything. Like even the lights that you have on here right now are very jarring personally. I mean, I know nobody really likes them, right? But like, it's like an unteethed degree at the same thing. And so when you're walking around, you're feeling everybody's feelings and emotions in the room are like all, everything's vibration. You just kind of have to like, try to mute that. That's why I'm sober.

• 3:06Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, well, so I, that makes a lot of sense because I'll walk into grocery stores and I can't handle the lighting. I just told her before, when you were in the bathroom, I was like, these lights are just killing me. Like I can't see. Like it's really brutal.

• 3:17Speaker 02

  But there's some people like him that it don't bother.

• 3:19Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, no, it's crazy. When I was a drug addict, my drug of choice was Xanax because

• 3:24Speaker 02

  Downer?

• 3:24Bunnie XO?

  Yes, because I have, I'm just riddled with anxiety. So I was always like seeing shit and ever since I was a kid.

• 3:31Speaker 02

  Uh, did you know your anxiety also means that you are more tapped into spirit, right? And you're probably feeling around and also because you're dealing in music and um, I mean, even think about the music that, that your husband, that Jelly does, right? It's a lot of very high emotion, right? And so that in itself is a vibration and you know, all the friends that were around him, all the things that he did. There's all these certain vibrations that come with it that essentially you feel and it can make you feel uncomfortable.

• 3:58Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 3:58Speaker 02

  And you don't even realize it.

• 4:00Bunnie XO?

  Yeah. Well, I realize it now and we'll get, we'll get into that, but I want to find out, let's bring it all the way back to your childhood.

• 4:06Speaker 02

  Okay.

• 4:06Bunnie XO?

  So where'd you grow up?

• 4:07Speaker 02

  Uh, Houston, Texas.

• 4:08Bunnie XO?

  Oh, you're from Houston too?

• 4:09Speaker 02

  Yeah, I know.

• 4:11Bunnie XO?

  That's amazing. I think you did tell me that before.

• 4:13Speaker 02

  What area, what area in Houston?

• 4:14Bunnie XO?

  Uh, around Buffalo Speedway.

• 4:15Speaker 02

  Oh, you're over there. Okay. Yeah. I'm down in uh, like

• 4:19Bunnie XO?

  The rich people park.

• 4:20Speaker 02

  Baybrook. Yeah. No, no, no, yeah. Down Baybrook NASA area.

• 4:23Bunnie XO?

  The rich people, you didn't even have to say it.

• 4:25Speaker 02

  But I was, I was thug nasty though. I grew up, I went to school in Pasadena, Dina.

• 4:30Bunnie XO?

  Oh shit.

• 4:30Speaker 02

  Yes, because that's only where they had orchestra. And so I was an orchestra nerd. And so I grew up in like, by the bay, but then I was on transfer to that school. So that's how I learned Spanish.

• 4:40Bunnie XO?

  I love that. That's amazing. As a child, did you always have this gift of knowing and like?

• 4:48Speaker 02

  There's a couple weird stories ago that first off, um, you know, when you're a kid, you naturally have this gift, right? That's why you see, you know, people that aren't really there. You're like, oh my God, I saw my grandfather. Well, you do anyways, but I had cancer when I was five. I lost my right kidney, part of my intestines and part of my liver from it. And that was my first near death experience. Um, and then after that I started seeing and experiencing spirit. And I can remember this was like one of the earliest vivid moments is I remember being in the grocery store, Randalls. I'm sure you remember the name Randalls. Okay. And I was in there with my sister and my mom and I was sitting on the bottom of the cart. Um, you know, as a kid, like huddled down and my sister's on top. And I remember we were stopping and my mom was looking at like noodles or something.

• 5:29Speaker 02

  And on the other side was the coffee aisle and I was looking at a woman and I remember looking at her and I could hear her thoughts. And I was like, she's gonna get that one. And she grabbed it, like she put the one back and I looked up and I remember, I think I was about six. And I remember asking my sister, my mom, can, is this, can you do that? And they were like, no, what do you mean? And I was like, oh, this is odd, you know? And then it just kind of like continuously progressed from there.

• 5:51Bunnie XO?

  So your gift was being able to read people's thoughts? You didn't see spirits or did you see spirits?

• 5:55Speaker 02

  Oh, see spirits at the same time. Yeah. So, but remember it's, it's about an intention. You're feeling an intention. You're feeling a thought, a feeling, an emotion. Now, whether I read her thought, I don't believe it was her thought. What it is, is that we all have spirits around us, right? And you always have your higher self. I mean, and even something that you want, that you love, right? That attention, that is, you know, you're going after it. So you can feel that vibration of what they're going to pick, essentially.

• 6:19Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 6:19Speaker 02

  Um, and so whenever you're reading for somebody, you're not reading their thoughts, you're reading their higher vibration or their, their higher self.

• 6:27Bunnie XO?

  Going through cancer at such a young age, you talk about it so casually.

• 6:30Speaker 02

  Yeah. Well, I mean, cause, I mean, what else are you gonna do? You know, what else are you gonna do?

• 6:34Bunnie XO?

  You bad bitch.

• 6:35Speaker 02

  Yeah, exactly. Yeah, I'm a bad bitch. Exactly. No, I mean, I had, I-

• 6:38Bunnie XO?

  She's like, we don't show emotions over here.

• 6:40Speaker 02

  Exact- we do, we do, but I cried enough and, and, and I'm not back there.

• 6:44Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 6:44Speaker 02

  I'm not back in that time. And if I hadn't had that shit happen to me, I wouldn't be here where I am now.

• 6:49Bunnie XO?

  That's, that's profound. We need to clip that because that's actually really, a lot of people need to hear that. I'm not back there.

• 6:54Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 6:55Bunnie XO?

  Cause there's so many people who deal with trauma and all they keep doing is repeating it on a loop.

• 6:59Speaker 02

  And it's a cycle. Now, this is the whole thing. My favorite phrase is, you know, uh, you need to live in the present moment. You need to live in now. Why? If you have a lot of anxiety, it's because you're living in, uh, the future. If you have a lot of depression, it's because you're living in the past. Well, I'm sorry, honey. Life doesn't happen back then or, or in the future. It's right now.

• 7:16Bunnie XO?

  Yes, and that has been my biggest lesson this year, actually, because I, I realized that too. And I've never been a depressed human. I only dealt with a depression after I had, I had a miscarriage in twenty twenty.

• 7:26Speaker 02

  I'm sorry about that.

• 7:27Bunnie XO?

  It's okay.

• 7:27Speaker 02

  I get that.

• 7:28Bunnie XO?

  And, um, but I've always had anxiety and I was always like, I've got to stop future tripping. And it's helped me tremendously because to try to be in the present moment because I'm like, I don't want to worry about what's gonna happen fucking ten minutes from now. Like, I just want to enjoy who I'm with, what I'm doing. You know, so now my anxiety only flares up like if I get like super stressed out, like the shit with my dad.

• 7:48Speaker 02

  Yeah, oh, I know, and that's, that's natural. Do you want to know how to be in the present moment?

• 7:52Bunnie XO?

  I would love to.

• 7:53Speaker 02

  You ready? Okay, do it. Okay, so focus just right now. Focus on what the mic looks like.

• 7:59Speaker 02

  I'm just kidding. There you go. Grab it and lick it. No, no, just focus on what the, the mic look like, looks like. And then take a deep breath in. Breathe out. Just focus on that. Not on anything else that's going around you. Boom, you're in the present moment.

• 8:14Bunnie XO?

  It's grounding.

• 8:15Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 8:15Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, that's what I did last night. I was having a panic attack on the way to the hospital and I leaned forward into the vents. And I was just like, what can I look at? So I had my water, my trusty fucking water bottle. You guys need to sponsor me, Mount, Mountain Valley Spring Water.

• 8:27Speaker 02

  They do, they're everywhere.

• 8:28Bunnie XO?

  Literally.

• 8:28Speaker 02

  Boom.

• 8:29Bunnie XO?

  They're litter, they're littered everywhere in our fucking bus. Um, and I just focused on my bottle and I just did my, my breathing and stuff like that.

• 8:36Speaker 02

  Good job.

• 8:37Bunnie XO?

  Thank you so much. So let's rewind it back to your childhood. Okay, so you went through the cancer thing. You were, you started realizing that you had, you know, this gift at a young age. Your mom and your sister weren't tapped into theirs.

• 8:47Speaker 02

  No.

• 8:47Bunnie XO?

  At all.

• 8:47Speaker 02

  No.

• 8:48Bunnie XO?

  They were just hanging out in their meat suits.

• 8:49Speaker 02

  Yeah, everybody goes, oh my God, did you have people that were, um, You know, mediums in your line. So, so everybody said, no, no, no, no, no. Right? And that was another thing. And we didn't realize until I was probably about seventeen when we got this fun little diary from my dad's grandmother over in Russia. Anyways, we're Russian Jews. So, um, they, my aunt, uh, I guess you'd say decoded essentially, or like changed it into English, right? And we found out that she was called a white witch.

• 9:15Bunnie XO?

  Wow.

• 9:16Speaker 02

  Yes, but this was back in eighteen eighty-eight.

• 9:18Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 9:18Speaker 02

  So it, that is the only sign that we have from that.

• 9:21Bunnie XO?

  Wow.

• 9:22Speaker 02

  That's it.

• 9:22Bunnie XO?

  I feel like it was so prominent back in the day. I feel like everybody, now it's starting to be like a cool thing to be a witch nowadays, but for a while there, it was very hush, hush. And a lot of witches, like Stevie Nicks, she's been a witch for a long fucking time, but couldn't talk about it. Still doesn't talk about it. She's an OG, but it's like, I feel like it was so hush, hush back then. And that's when it was like prominent, you know?

• 9:42Speaker 02

  Do you know why though? Because we didn't have as much stuff to do. So we had that time to focus and calm down and breathe and feel and realize you're connected to everything.

• 9:51Bunnie XO?

  So take me, keep taking me on this journey of your childhood.

• 9:53Speaker 02

  Oh, journey on journey. Okay. So five years old, had cancer, had fun. Um, had, I mean, that was it, right? Had fun. You can only deal with it with sarcasm. So, um, had chemotherapy for two years. Uh, yeah, lost the whole hair thing. I mean, the whole nine yards.

• 10:07Bunnie XO?

  At such a young age, that's a lot of trauma.

• 10:10Speaker 02

  Yeah, it was. It was. But, um, I, I made it, I made it through and, and it was good. Um, then my best friend ended up getting it. That at the same time, we're actually in the hospital at the same time.

• 10:20Bunnie XO?

  Oh, my God. That's crazy.

• 10:21Speaker 02

  Oh, I know. He ended up dying from it.

• 10:23Bunnie XO?

  Oh, my gosh.

• 10:23Speaker 02

  And so he has kind of like been around me for forever. It's weird. You just kind of like see things, experience things.

• 10:29Bunnie XO?

  He was one of your spirit guides that just came to visit.

• 10:31Speaker 02

  That, that was probably one of the things. And, um, you know, I guess until about ten, it's all just kind of normal after that. I don't, I mean, there was, I don't really recall a whole lot. And it wasn't until I was around eleven when I started having those things where, um, you know, you talk about it and then it happens, right? Or you have these things where you think about a person and they show up.

• 10:53Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, that happens to me all the time now. Ask Mimi. It's crazy. I predict so much shit that goes down.

• 10:58Speaker 02

  Because we're all in line with it.

• 10:59Bunnie XO?

  Or I literally will say, I want this and it happens.

• 11:02Speaker 02

  Yeah. Do you, do you know what that is?

• 11:03Bunnie XO?

  Manifestation.

• 11:04Speaker 02

  Absolutely. So do you know how it works?

• 11:06Bunnie XO?

  Well, I mean, I just say I want shit and it fucking happens, but I believe it.

• 11:09Speaker 02

  Yes.

• 11:09Bunnie XO?

  And that's what I tell everybody. I'm like, eh, before I even had a hit podcast, when Mimi and I first started, I was like, I'm going to have my own radio show. I'm gonna be the female Howard Stern. I'm gonna, you know, which with that trajectory is kind of curved a little bit because of the whole Me Too movement.

• 11:22Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 11:22Bunnie XO?

  You know, stuff like that.

• 11:23Speaker 02

  Absolutely.

• 11:24Bunnie XO?

  So the Howard Stern isn't who I aspire to be, but it's like, I'm gonna have my own radio show. I'm gonna get millions of downloads. I'm gonna chart, da, da, da, da. It all happens. And I really believed it.

• 11:32Speaker 02

  Do you, no, it's belief and it's because your heart aligned with it, your soul aligned with it, and then the universe reflected it back to you.

• 11:39Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, no, it's amazing.

• 11:40Speaker 02

  Yeah, I like it. Yeah, that's how it works. That's how this works. That's how you works. That's how he works.

• 11:44Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 11:45Speaker 02

  You know, all of it. We're all here because of that. So back to childhood then, I didn't really have, as I can recall, not a lot of crazy things happening. And I mean, in the midst of all of this, you know, cancer, blah, blah, blah. We didn't know I had this, but I used to walk around and my kneecaps would dislocate and my hips would dislocate and

• 12:06Bunnie XO?

  I just got goosebumps.

• 12:07Speaker 02

  I was weird and I was never able to be in sports or anything like that. And getting to be about sixteen, I had my second year death experiences. And then I started really chailing for like people at my school, people in my high school, teachers and stuff like that.

• 12:23Bunnie XO?

  What was your second year death experience?

• 12:24Speaker 02

  I had bacterial meningitis and it went up and you know, it causes swelling in the brain, right? And so anyways, I went into the hospital, coded, you know, stayed there for four or five days. Came out and I just began chailing for people and I grew up in Pasadena. So what was there? A lot of there was a lot of shootings, right? There's a lot of people dying in car wrecks, you know, all these crazy things. Yep, gangs. And so.

• 12:47Bunnie XO?

  Where my sister lives.

• 12:48Speaker 02

  Yeah, I see. Yeah, you get it. And so I would go around and I would read for the families or I would read for the teachers who lost their family. Yeah, like sixteen, seventeen, eighteen.

• 12:57Bunnie XO?

  Were you charging people or you just?

• 12:59Speaker 02

  I was just doing it. I was just doing it for free because I didn't understand it. And so gradually people started coming to me like, hey, Amy.

• 13:06Bunnie XO?

  Do you think whenever you coded?

• 13:08Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 13:08Bunnie XO?

  That, did you, can you remember anything from that?

• 13:10Speaker 02

  I can't remember from that one. No, I just remember getting out of it and having the. Profound feeling of like oneness. That was it. It was just almost like I.

• 13:21Bunnie XO?

  Was it peaceful?

• 13:22Speaker 02

  Yeah, it's very peaceful. Oh, I'll get to one about dying, like and how it felt, like the whole nine yards. That's number four, though.

• 13:30Speaker 02

  Yeah, I am a cat. Yes. Yeah, yeah, exactly. No, it's it's it's weird. And so that that was one of the things. And then we move forward. I get married. Um, I have my child. Twenty. I get married.

• 13:43Bunnie XO?

  So sixteen, you're doing readings for everybody. Everything's okay. You beat the meningitis.

• 13:49Speaker 02

  I beat the meningitis.

• 13:50Bunnie XO?

  School. Did you stay in school?

• 13:51Speaker 02

  Yep, graduated from high school, went to college, finished my associates, met a guy, my first husband. Um, got married to him, told him what I did. He told me it was evil.

• 14:03Bunnie XO?

  I was gonna say, how is it dating people, being a spiritual advisor, psychic medium?

• 14:08Speaker 02

  Well, we happen to have somebody right over here that can tell you all about it.

• 14:11Bunnie XO?

  We'll get to him soon. But like, does it freak dudes out? Are they like, no bitch, I do not want to deal with them?

• 14:16Speaker 02

  Okay, so then I I was back then, um, you know, I didn't fully know it. I was doing it, but they didn't really get it either, right? And when I would do it, I want to do it with them in the room because it's it's kind of. You know, you do it with your client, right? That sounds weird when I say that, but anyways, you know what I'm saying?

• 14:32Bunnie XO?

  I've done it with clients.

• 14:34Speaker 02

  No, right, me? I know, I know. So I would tell them and they'd be like, oh, okay, cool. You know, you're like a seventeen year old boy, whatever. Um, but my ex husband, he grew up, he was half African American and half Thai. And so they grew up in a very southern Baptist Louisiana family. And so they would tell me I was gonna go to to hell for it. And I'm like, how can you do this and go to hell if it's the next thing to God? Like, it just never made sense to me. If it's all about love. And that's what it is. Why are we putting the fear into it? Yeah, exactly. And it's it's helping people and it's it's helping me too at the same time.

• 15:06Bunnie XO?

  I feel like Jesus kind of was like that in a way.

• 15:08Speaker 02

  Jesus was that. Jesus, Jesus was a higher, uh, uh, came into a body, he was God, came into a body. Everybody's God that's in a body. Okay, even you, that's why we create anyways. So he came into a body, he started aligning himself with light. And realizing what it was, realizing what all this stuff was. And then Pontius Pilate was like, hey. I want you to be a part of like this Roman thing and I want you to love Zeus. And he was like, no, I'm not. And then the Jews were like, hey, I need you to do it this way. You're making us run out of money, right? Because everybody starts moving on with the whole Jesus thing. And they said, we just gotta nix him. And that's what they, you know, that's what they did.

• 15:41Bunnie XO?

  It's kinda like what the government does to people now.

• 15:43Speaker 02

  Absolutely. Oh, yeah. Oh, that's a whole, yeah.

• 15:46Bunnie XO?

  That's a whole nother podcast.

• 15:47Speaker 02

  That's a whole, oh, I can, we can talk about that. That's a whole nother area. But, um, you know, I met him and, and he really didn't care for it, but at that time he ended up going to the Air Force. And, um, I, yeah, and I moved with him and, um, I became kinda like the resident Air Force medium. So I would go and I would read for everybody. And anyways, in the meantime, I ended up having my kid. And, um, and then I ended up starting to have, uh, a lot of issues.

• 16:19Bunnie XO?

  It's okay.

• 16:21Speaker 02

  Hmm. It's okay. A lot of issues. And I didn't know why.

• 16:27Bunnie XO?

  What kind of issues?

• 16:28Speaker 02

  Oh, bad ones, like my vagina falling out of my body.

• 16:31Bunnie XO?

  Oh.

• 16:32Speaker 02

  Like bad, like bad.

• 16:33Bunnie XO?

  And this is after you gave birth?

• 16:35Speaker 02

  Oh, after I had a kid. Like, have you ever sneezed and your asshole falls out? Like, that's a whole nother thing. Okay?

• 16:41Bunnie XO?

  I can't wait for those times in life.

• 16:43Speaker 02

  Oh, just wait. Oh.

• 16:45Bunnie XO?

  Are there any diaper, I had to make you laugh. Are there any fucking diaper sponsors? Cause we can, I'm just gonna, I'm gonna manifest a diaper sponsorship.

• 16:52Speaker 02

  I know, please, yes, no, you put on a glove and you shove it back in. Anyways, like these crazy things. And so I started going to doctors and they were like, oh, you're too young for all this. You're like 23. So I started doing all this research and I was like, I started thinking, I was like, why is it that my kneecaps pop out? Why is it that I have this crazy stretchy skin? Why is it that all of my joints bend backwards, right? This doesn't make any sense. Why is it that all this stuff is happening to me? And I ended up being my own advocate.

• 17:19Bunnie XO?

  You have to be.

• 17:20Speaker 02

  Uh huh. I ended up being my own advocate and I wrote everything down and I went to my primary care manager after like three years and I said, look bitch, this is, this is what's going on.

• 17:29Bunnie XO?

  Pay attention, lady.

• 17:30Speaker 02

  That's exactly, that was it. And I said, we need to get me to a geneticist. And so, um, a year later after that, they diagnosed me with a thing called Ehlers-Danlos syndrome. It's a connective tissue disorder. And so.

• 17:39Bunnie XO?

  Say it slower one more time.

• 17:40Speaker 02

  Ehlers-Danlos syndrome. It's a connective tissue disorder. So you lack the gene that creates mitochondria. So you have a mitochondria defect. So. All of your genes that create collagen don't work. So you're born with collagen, but it can never reconstitute itself effectively. And so that means that all of your connective tissue, including your organs, your veins, your bones, everything is essentially like rubber and it falls apart, like very easily. And it's super, super tender. And so anyways, when I found that out, I had 26 surgeries to save my life. Oh, my goodness. In like the next five years. What kind of surgeries do they do for that? Got everything. So this segues in.

• 18:23Speaker 02

  So I had, I ended up not being able to breathe very well. Um, like a thing with like autonomic nervous system where I just couldn't catch my breath. I started getting really dizzy. I was having these insane headaches my entire life. I couldn't figure out why my eyes would bulge out of my head. It was terrible. And I was like, oh, it's just headaches. Well, I ended up finding out because of Alzheimia syndrome, I have a thing called Chiari malformation. So it's where your head squeezes your brain and your brain essentially gets poop down into your neck. And so it, it kills your brain stem essentially. And so you lose the ability to walk, you lose the ability to breathe. And if they don't do surgery, then you essentially die. Like that's it.

• 19:05Speaker 02

  And so I got to a point where I couldn't walk anymore and I was in a wheelchair. So I was in a wheelchair for about two and a half years because, um, and you have the cath. I got out of the speeding ticket that way. Oh. It was very, I'll talk about that. Shove a tube up my pussy hole. That's exactly what it was. I was like, I gotta pee. They're like, ma'am, you're going fast. I'm like, I know. And I showed him my calf. I was like, I can't go anywhere. And it was this whole thing. But, um, but yeah, I ended up going in and I, it was my birthday gift to myself was brain surgery to have that fixed when I was 26. And so I went in two days after my birthday, hashtag Scorpios. And yeah, two days after my birthday, I had the surgery and it went well.

• 19:46Speaker 02

  They essentially take like a, um, a golf ball size of your skull away and they put a patch there and they lift everything up and they take out your first and second vertebrae. So if you notice that I'm like turning, that's why, cause it's hard for me to turn my neck. So do you have like a soft spot back there? Oh, yeah. Yeah. I'll show you the whole thing. Yeah. It's all, it's all open back here. I broke my C1 vertebrae. That's crazy that they just take those out. Yeah. Uh huh. The first one. Yeah. And they like, they, they fuse it. That's a dangerous surgery. Yeah.

• 20:11Bunnie XO?

  That's like not one for the faint of heart. You could have never walked again.

• 20:14Speaker 02

  Yeah, absolutely. Yeah. Or, or like been alive because of all the pressure. And so everything goes great. And because of my illness, what I have, my tissues don't heal properly. So they take like two or three times longer. So I told my neurosurgeon, I said, I mean, anytime you go in for a surgery, you have to say, look, guys, I have this. We gotta take special precaution. And they go, okay, cool. Right? Um, this guy didn't. So a week later, he took out my stitches. And I went, I drove, this happened in Alabama, and my parents took me back to Houston so I could heal because it's gonna be like a eight week healing thing. And so I'm laying in bed and I'm just getting sicker and sicker. Like I can't see. And I've never had brains hurt here before. You don't know. You're like, okay, you're in pain. Maybe you have nausea, whatever. You don't know.

• 20:57Bunnie XO?

  Like your brain's adjusting.

• 20:58Speaker 02

  Yeah, your brains. And that's, we called them. They're like, oh, you're gonna be okay. It's fine, blah, blah, blah. Anyways, so three weeks later. My mom, it was during the holidays and it was their first day back. My mom's a teacher, hashtag teachers. Uh, my mom went back to school and I'm laying in our guest bedroom and I'm asleep and I wake up. And I remember like being very dazed. It almost felt like this, like, like you can't really see anything, you know? And I was like, oh, and I was like, wow, why am I wet? This doesn't make any sense. And so I get up and I look and all of my pillow and all of my back and all of my shirt is wet. And my brain incision had opened up and with every heartbeat, I had CSF fluid gushing out of my head.

• 21:42Speaker 02

  Oh, my God. It was so terrifying. The first thing I did was call an ambulance and they were like, we won't be able to get you to the hospital quick enough. Like there was gonna be forty five minutes. That's, that's what they said, we'll be there in forty five minutes. You have to go down, like they were, I called my doctor. They wanted me to go downtown Houston. We lived, like I said, in the east side of town. They said it was gonna take too long. I called my mom. She rushed home. They wrapped me up in a robe. They throw me in the car, my poor eighty year old father. And like, we're driving down there and I just remember looking out the window, like with my face, like, okay, this is great. And like, everything's kind of like shutting down and we get in there and they roll me in and I remember just sitting. There and I'm freezing. Why? Because I have this crazy infection and I told the doctors, I was like, please don't send me home.

• 22:26Speaker 02

  And they bring me to the back and everybody rushes in and they couldn't give me any medicine because my blood pressure and everything was so low. And they go, okay, we're gonna have to turn you to the side and put this tube in your spine to get out this infection. You can't have any lidocaine or anything. And as they do that, the stress, I'm laying on my side. Here's the like heartbeat monitor over here, right? I'm laying on my side. They do that. I can feel the pain and everything shocks. And it starts going down and it starts going down and it starts going down. And I'm watching my heartbeat and my pulse go down from like a hundred and twenty down to forty. Down to thirty. This is the weird thing. While I'm laying there watching this, I hear everybody screaming coding, coding, coding.

• 23:11Speaker 02

  And then all of a sudden, my vision goes like this. It's not looking at that. It's looking down. Above. I've heard that about from so many people. And I didn't hear anything. It was quiet. Was it peaceful? Oh, my God. This is so weird. I might cry for this one. It was so weird. You're looking down. You're seeing all this. You, you look at your body and the only thing I could think of was, I hope my mom knows that I love her.

• 23:41Speaker 02

  And I remember going out and seeing what book she was reading. It was a Nicholas Sparks book because they're not gonna go out there and tell her, right? That her daughter's dying, right? And so I remember seeing the, the little um, swing set on the front of it. And I remember feeling just, just fucking bliss. It was so great. And then I wake up. And I'd been in a coma for two weeks. Wow. And I woke up and I have all this crap all over me and they were like, oh, my God, are you okay? And I'm just opening my eyes, you know, like completely plastered. And it was just, it was insane. And then after that, I was in there for another two months.

• 24:19Speaker 02

  Um, and after that, I remember getting out of that hospital. It was very interesting because my room that I was in for two months, there was a window, but there was a window that faced the brick wall. So you're in this room for two months. It's very interesting. Yeah, very triggering. And um, I remember getting in the car and going on the way home and I was sitting. In the car and I remember having so much compassion for everything. I was like, oh my God, Mr. Hobo, you are one like the grass was like hyper green. The sky was high. Everything was just so intense and beautiful. And at that point, like just shit started getting really weird after that. Like, I mean, all the other ones were just like nothing compared

• 25:02Speaker 02

  to this thing. And I, I mean, I read fucking everybody. I read everybody and it just kept going and it still hasn't stopped. So that was

• 25:11Bunnie XO?

  Do you think that he keeps saving you for a reason?

• 25:13Speaker 02

  Uh, I mean, I'm here with you right now, right? Yeah, yeah, exactly. Yeah. I, I think that there

• 25:19Bunnie XO?

  Like this is your journey. This is your mission.

• 25:21Speaker 02

  Oh, yeah. This is my journey. This is my mission. So you asked me, you're like, oh, you went through cancer, you know, and you just kind of glaze over that. Well, because it's been much more crazy after that, right? Like this was the, the big thing. And, and after that I showed appreciation. I showed love. I mean, I, I see how everything comes in alignment. Um, I see how anything that you want, including that thing sitting over there came into my alignment. I mean, you, everything, I mean, you can have anything you want.

• 25:46Bunnie XO?

  Absolutely.

• 25:47Speaker 02

  If you just put your mind to it, you know?

• 25:49Bunnie XO?

  That's so heavy. I can't believe you've been through all that and you're still just so upbeat and positive. A lot of people would let that.

• 25:54Speaker 02

  I know. Life's too short to be shitty.

• 25:56Bunnie XO?

  Derail them. Yeah, absolutely. For sure.

• 25:59Speaker 02

  It is.

• 25:59Bunnie XO?

  So you wake up out of this thing. You start reading for everybody. Do you stay in the marriage? Were you?

• 26:04Speaker 02

  Was, um, he was hanging out with the babysitter while I was having brain surgery. Let's just say that. I ended up finding that out. Um, got home like six months later and I looked at him. I was like, this isn't for us. Like, nothing aligned. And so I left him with my son and a bag of clothes. I left our house or three car, I mean, our two cars, everything. And I moved back to Houston and, um, I was still in a wheelchair, by the way, when I came back. Okay. Cause I still had multiple surgeries to, to finish up with like my abs dripping. I mean, you name it. There's just a ton of stuff. But, um, I left and I remember getting back home to Houston and I said, I don't know how I'm gonna do it, but. I'm gonna be something and that was what six years ago.

• 26:44Bunnie XO?

  And you were ready. You were just like, this is it. I'm gonna change the trajectory of my life and just use it for good higher purpose.

• 26:51Speaker 02

  Absolutely. And now we're here.

• 26:53Bunnie XO?

  I know. I love that. So you get back, you're single.

• 26:56Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 26:57Bunnie XO?

  On Tinder?

• 26:58Speaker 02

  Uh, I wasn't, I wasn't on Tinder. I was at a really nice steakhouse bars. Let's just say that.

• 27:04Bunnie XO?

  What were you doing at the really nice, you were staking out the?

• 27:07Speaker 02

  I was staking it out.

• 27:08Bunnie XO?

  Selection of meat.

• 27:08Speaker 02

  Yes, exactly.

• 27:10Bunnie XO?

  You were looking for that prime grade A cut, right?

• 27:13Speaker 02

  Absolutely. All the Sergio's, all of them. Yeah, no, I, I got back, um, and I decided I got a job as, I was doing my mediumship, but I got a job as the, uh, God, we, general manager for a really, really big day spa. And I met a lot of really cool women there that kind of like were having their own business and we kind of all got together and just had a really good time.

• 27:36Bunnie XO?

  I love that. People underestimate having, um, a, a big camaraderie of women.

• 27:40Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 27:41Bunnie XO?

  When you have women that you guys can support each other, it's such a good feeling.

• 27:44Speaker 02

  Well, yeah, well.

• 27:45Bunnie XO?

  You guys can talk shit together. You guys can build together. Like, it's just like a family.

• 27:48Speaker 02

  Well, it is. Well, and, and it's when you've, I guess you say it's hard for like people like you and me, right? Because you tend to be, I don't want to say this in a bad way, but you tend to be the alpha, right? Kind of in a way. And so it's hard to find women that are also in that.

• 28:03Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, I'm surrounded by all the women.

• 28:05Speaker 02

  I know. And so when you find them, you just click and you stay together. And, um, and yeah, so I, I got back. I was doing my mediumship.

• 28:13Speaker 02

  I was working there. It was wonderful. And then I started dating and I did like 26 people in six months. And, um, it was great.

• 28:19Bunnie XO?

  Speed dating?

• 28:20Speaker 02

  Yeah, very, well, I speed date. I mean, they didn't have to know about each other, right? It was the whole thing. Yes, it was all the same thing.

• 28:26Bunnie XO?

  Like looking for love in all the wrong places? Or you were just like, you know what, dude? I just almost died. I just got out of a marriage. I am ready to just fucking let this new stitched up vagina fucking get to work.

• 28:35Speaker 02

  That, that. Nobody knew I had a baby. Nobody knew and also all.

• 28:40Bunnie XO?

  Can we, do they just stitch it all up?

• 28:42Speaker 02

  Yeah, they do. Yeah. So what they do, it's called a, I believe it's called a coeliacoleplexy. And so what they do is I had.

• 28:48Bunnie XO?

  She says these words so smart and like, just like it's nothing.

• 28:51Speaker 02

  I have to be very educated on these things, right? Otherwise I die. But I had, I had a hysterectomy, a full hysterectomy. And then that happened, that actually had happened about two or three times. And then all of my abs, because my connective tissue disorder, they ripped open. And so they had to do all mesh. Anyways, the whole thing. So I was looking good. I essentially had a tummy tuck, right? Myself with everything else. And I was going out and I was trying to find somebody that like I loved. And I was like, and I actually didn't, I knew what love was for a parent child. I knew what love was for my kid. I knew what love was for a friend. But I didn't think that love for another human being, like a romantic relationship.

• 29:31Bunnie XO?

  Healthy.

• 29:31Speaker 02

  Yeah, healthy was really truly out there. And so I guess I was on a quest to find that.

• 29:35Bunnie XO?

  Which is crazy because your parents are still together, right?

• 29:37Speaker 02

  Oh, yeah. Yeah. Well, they were. He's dead now. But, but yeah, they were. They were together for 40 years.

• 29:41Bunnie XO?

  Wow.

• 29:41Speaker 02

  For a very, very long time, which is really cool. But I mean, at the same time, they were also an old school relationship. You know, if he, they were 20 years apart. And if he said Kathy jump, she would say yes.

• 29:50Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 29:50Speaker 02

  Right? It wasn't always reciprocated. It was that old 1935 like type of thing. So.

• 29:54Bunnie XO?

  Understood.

• 29:56Speaker 02

  But I wanted something like more. I wanted like a teammate. And so I started dating all these people. And I mean, everything from doctors, geneticists, to lawyers, to, you know, the person that was the bar person. Right? Like all of these. And one day I just got tired of it. And I sat down.

• 30:13Bunnie XO?

  Lawyers are not easy to date. I've had them as clients and they're the lawyers are the worst clients to ever have.

• 30:18Speaker 02

  Yes, they are. Yeah, they are. They think way too much. And they don't know.

• 30:21Bunnie XO?

  They want to argue about everything. Everything's a rebuttal.

• 30:23Speaker 02

  Everything, all the time. I know. I'm right there with you. And I remember sitting back in my apartment and I was like, why am I doing this? I go, I need to sit here and just figure out. You know, what am I doing? And so I decided that I would just be me and my cat alone.

• 30:38Bunnie XO?

  Crazy cat lady.

• 30:39Speaker 02

  Yeah, and just me and him for the rest of my life. Yep, exactly. Well, I mean, dogs are too much work, especially when you're working all the time, you know?

• 30:45Bunnie XO?

  I love Mitcha.

• 30:45Speaker 02

  Oh, I know. Everybody loves him. And so I go through and I start writing down the names of each one of these people. And I started thinking, like, what did I like in them that I was trying to find within myself? And so I wrote down everything that I liked about each one that I couldn't find in myself.

• 31:02Bunnie XO?

  Your self-reflection is amazing.

• 31:05Speaker 02

  Yeah, it was hard. It was hardcore. And so I thought, you know, the lawyer, what did I like? Well, I liked that he was smart, that he wrote books. I liked that he was fun. I liked that he didn't have to worry about money. I like that he was confident, but yet he couldn't have a conversation, right? And he was kind of boring and he was a little childish. Why did I like the bar guy? Well, I mean, he was great. He was fun. We would dance country music in the living room at three o'clock in the morning. So that was great. But he was also a chronic alcoholic and he had gotten like 70 WIs and he was going to jail all the time. Like, that's not, yeah, stupid. So there's all these different things. So I said, you know what? I'm just gonna do this for myself and, uh, and we'll see. So I decided to be a celibate lesbian with my cat for like the next nine months, essentially. Yeah, so I, I, I did that.

• 31:48Bunnie XO?

  You have a very extreme personality. It's like one or the other.

• 31:51Speaker 02

  It is. It's one or the other. Well, it's

• 31:52Bunnie XO?

  Very Scorpio of you.

• 31:53Speaker 02

  Absolutely. Yeah, absolutely. And so I decided to be a celibate lesbian and that's when that thing showed up.

• 31:59Bunnie XO?

  Well, hold on, let's not brush over the lesbian part.

• 32:01Speaker 02

  Oh, no, no, I was, I never, I've never done that. I had a lot of friends that were lesbians, but I've never been a lesbian, ever, ever, ever.

• 32:07Bunnie XO?

  Oh, what did you say? You decided to be a celibate what?

• 32:09Speaker 02

  A celibate lesbian. That just means that I, I'm not gonna date any men at all.

• 32:12Bunnie XO?

  Oh, okay. I was like, we're not brushing over the lesbian part.

• 32:14Speaker 02

  No, no, no, I never, I never have. No, but I did tell him. I said, if it happens and him and I don't work out, I will be that, just going to go over the two.

• 32:21Bunnie XO?

  I say that to every, well, no, I don't. I could never be a lesbian. I love penetration too much. But I do say if Jay and I don't work out, I'm gonna have like 26-year-old cabana boys.

• 32:28Speaker 02

  Yes, that's it. There's gonna run around.

• 32:30Bunnie XO?

  Emotional attachment. Don't care. Just come and bang me and leave.

• 32:33Speaker 02

  That and leave. Exactly. No, it's just gonna be me and my dog.

• 32:36Bunnie XO?

  So you decided to be a crazy cat lady lesbian?

• 32:39Speaker 02

  Uh huh.

• 32:40Bunnie XO?

  And what happened?

• 32:41Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 32:43Bunnie XO?

  That worked out.

• 32:43Speaker 02

  Uh, it worked out great. I didn't have any worries. I, I didn't have, you know, any problems, any issues, but it was boring.

• 32:50Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 32:50Speaker 02

  And, you know, I was reading and I love that. And I had all these friends and I had all these clients and it was great, but it was, it was boring. And I said, you know what? I really want a partner. And so it just happened to be that my best friend at the time, um, her name is Julia. She wanted to start dating again. And she says, Amy, you're really good with words. And I go, yeah. She goes, I need you to make a Tinder profile for, for me. And I go, okay. She goes, but the thing is, you have to make one for you too. And I go, honey, I go, I don't need to make a Tinder profile. I can just go down the street. Like, I mean, go to, and pick up somebody, right? It doesn't matter. And she said, no, Amy, do it. And so I made one for her, wrote out this big thing, all these pictures. And then on mine, I put one picture and I said, I like street tacos and champagne.

• 33:29Speaker 02

  That was it. And, um, anyways, I ended up getting sick again, like a month later. I never looked at it. I didn't want to have any. I got sick again. Um, and I,

• 33:37Bunnie XO?

  Got sick again with?

• 33:39Speaker 02

  So, um, because of like the cooter falling out and the booty falling out and stuff like that, um, it left me with some things that like you get bladder infections very easily. And then because I only have one kidney and all that was falling out, you can't feel it. And so it leads to kidney infections.

• 33:56Bunnie XO?

  Oh no.

• 33:57Speaker 02

  Um, and so I didn't realize I'd had a kidney infection for about a month. And, uh, I went septic and I, they found me in the elevator at work and they took me to the hospital and I stayed there for a few weeks. And, uh, I had come out of that. And, um, it was two days later. I picked up my phone. I'm laying in bed and there's all these messages in Tinder. And all of them.

• 34:20Bunnie XO?

  It's like, well, I lived again. Let's get on Tinder.

• 34:23Speaker 02

  Absolutely. Yes. Yeah. No, well, no, it's like, look, cause I was just curious. Cause I told Julia that I just wanted to delete it. Like I was, I'm not going to do it. It's just going to be it. And there was one guy with one picture. And he said, hey, and he said, do I like street tacos and long walks on the beach? And that was it. And so I messaged him and, And that's my husband.

• 34:42Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 34:43Speaker 02

  Yeah, and that's my husband.

• 34:44Bunnie XO?

  What's Havi's name?

• 34:45Speaker 02

  Yeah, oh, his name's Chris.

• 34:47Bunnie XO?

  Hi, Chris.

• 34:47Speaker 02

  Say hey. Yeah, and then I-

• 34:49Bunnie XO?

  And they're so cute. Let me tell you guys, whenever I came in, he's like reminding her to do things. Like, you guys are like, you're yin and yang for each other.

• 34:56Speaker 02

  He's my little Taurus Aries.

• 34:57Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 34:58Speaker 02

  Yeah, and I'm his little Scorpio Libra. And, and the other thing is that I would not have sex with him on the first date. Because I was, I have a lot of Aries in me, and so I like to go in and like dominate and say ha ha and then like walk away. Right, essentially, like, ah, I did that. And I told him, I go, he comes up and he kissed me on my forehead. And he was like, do you want to come inside? I'm like, no, no, I can't. He goes, why not? I said, because if I have sex with you, I'll never talk to you again. And, and so we did it, we didn't do it, but for three dates. We went on three dates, and then finally I banged him.

• 35:29Bunnie XO?

  You put in the work.

• 35:30Speaker 02

  Uh huh.

• 35:30Bunnie XO?

  You had long game.

• 35:31Speaker 02

  He did. I did have long game.

• 35:35Speaker 02

  So, he did.

• 35:36Bunnie XO?

  He said, I came with condoms in my pocket.

• 35:38Speaker 02

  But I wanted to see if he would hang out with me and do all my, my weird little things. And so I, we went out to dinner. And then I took him bowling, at like, I wanted to see if he'd go bowling with me. And then I took him downtown Houston, we had cheesecake at two o'clock in the morning. And then I took him home.

• 35:51Bunnie XO?

  You were looking for the romance.

• 35:52Speaker 02

  Yeah, I was in for the romance.

• 35:54Bunnie XO?

  And he deserved that.

• 35:55Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 35:55Bunnie XO?

  You know, because you had already gone through your hoe phase and stuff.

• 35:57Speaker 02

  Oh, my god.

• 35:57Bunnie XO?

  Even though he showed up with condoms.

• 35:59Speaker 02

  Absolutely.

• 35:59Bunnie XO?

  He's still wine, was romancing. I was on Tinder for a different reason.

• 36:03Speaker 02

  Bunny, Bunny, can I-

• 36:04Bunnie XO?

  I mean, usually men are on Tinder.

• 36:07Bunnie XO?

  We know why men are on Tinder. It's not because you guys are looking for love.

• 36:10Speaker 02

  I know, no. Can I tell you one of my most terrible things?

• 36:13Bunnie XO?

  Yes, please.

• 36:14Speaker 02

  So, it was, and I don't care. I like, I like, I like to be very raw. I tell everybody this, I'll lie anyways, it doesn't matter. So, um, there was this one time when, when was it? Oh, yeah, I was going in and I was having this major surgery to, um, put back my stomach together, right? And they were, essentially what they were going to do is they said that they would have to take out my abs. And because of all the stuff, they'd have to take out my intestines. Like, they talked about how they would do it, right? The whole thing, and I'm sitting there like- Right.

• 36:43Bunnie XO?

  Reranging your body.

• 36:44Speaker 02

  Oh, the whole thing. And so I lived before every surgery, I essentially went YOLO. Okay, you only live once because you didn't know if it was gonna come back, like bad shit would happen. And so there's this one time before, when I think it was one of my last surgeries, that all of my old high school friends, we all went up, met up, we all went to a country bar and I did cocaine and rode a bull.

• 37:04Bunnie XO?

  Nice.

• 37:05Speaker 02

  It was just, I would, sorry. And it was just like, I'm going out with a bang. Yeah, that was it. That, that was it. And I was like, oh, my God, what are you doing?

• 37:13Bunnie XO?

  I've snorted eight balls to the face many a times.

• 37:16Speaker 02

  See, yes, yes. And so they were like, hate me. I'm like, oh, my God, we gotta do it. Like, you're only gonna live once. And then that was it.

• 37:23Bunnie XO?

  I can't, as somebody who hasn't had brain surgery, like here, here's a line. I could never do that to you.

• 37:27Speaker 02

  No, I know. I know. I know. But that was a choice. That was a choice. It wasn't a whole line. It was just, it was a little bit like in the bathroom on a credit card.

• 37:36Bunnie XO?

  I love it.

• 37:37Speaker 02

  I know.

• 37:37Bunnie XO?

  At least you didn't do the pinky nail. I used to just always do the pinky nail.

• 37:40Speaker 02

  Oh, see, because, yeah, I know. I get it. I get it. But yeah, we're, and then that's how I started talking to dead people.

• 37:46Bunnie XO?

  So you're married now?

• 37:48Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 37:48Bunnie XO?

  And.

• 37:49Speaker 02

  Three years.

• 37:50Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, let's talk about when you first got on TikTok, because as TikTok kind of changed the,

• 37:55Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 37:55Bunnie XO?

  the whole, your whole, like, situation, right?

• 37:58Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 37:58Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, I didn't want to say life, because I mean, you've lived a full fucking life.

• 38:01Speaker 02

  Yeah, yeah, there's a lot of stuff in there.

• 38:02Bunnie XO?

  You've been through a lot of shit. Um, when you first got on TikTok, you were doing cooking videos.

• 38:08Speaker 02

  Yeah, so.

• 38:09Bunnie XO?

  Because I've, I've been, I've known of you for a while.

• 38:11Speaker 02

  Yeah, so I, I first, um, I love to cook. I'm a musician. I love playing. I love creating, anything creative, right? Because it's all from the soul, right? And, um, so I was on there and I didn't see anybody doing cooking videos at that point. So I said, you know what? I'm gonna cook my interesting recipes that I do because technically I'm like half Mexican, right? Because I grew up in Pasadena. All of my boys' friends were from Mexico and I only ate Mexican food, like, or, and I sang and played in a praise and worship team that would only spoke Spanish.

• 38:37Bunnie XO?

  All my nieces and nephews are Mexican because my sister lives in Pasadena.

• 38:40Speaker 02

  Yes, yeah, that's exactly. So Tango La Camisa Negra was like my, you know, main theme song, but, um, but I didn't see anybody making it. And so I started making food and I started getting a following while I'm still doing my mediumship. And, um, it was probably like a year into it. And I had this essentially like a knowing and it said, you need to go and talk to people about this. And I was like.

• 39:06Bunnie XO?

  Right now?

• 39:06Speaker 02

  Yeah, I mean, that's essentially what it was. I was like, I was like, why? You know, there's this thing of like, you need to go talk to people. I was like, no, because what do I do? You come out, you say, hey, I'm gonna talk, I talk to dead people. How do you think people react? They either call you stupid, they tell you you're idiotic, they tell you it's wrong, they tell you they're gonna go to hell. Yes, or they want something from you. Yeah, one or the other. And so it was more like, you know, signing something away, saying, okay, accept all these, right? And so I made a video in October of two thousand nineteen and I said, hey, I also do this. And I will share with you everything that I've learned and boom. And then from that point, I was just cooking medium, cooking medium, cooking medium. And then two years ago,

• 39:47Speaker 02

  it got to a point where I was doing brand deals. I was doing all of my sessions. I was doing all my meditations. I mean, you name it, I was cooking, I was winning cooking competitions. And with my chronic illness, I was dying, like dying. Because I'm working seven days a week, you know, twenty hour days, getting four hours of sleep. And I looked at my husband and I thought, I'm just gonna say prayed, prayed long and hard. And I said, what should I do? Should I stay with this or should I do with this? And everything just said, go with the mediumship. Just drop, not drop cooking. And I did. And I read the spirit of Aaron Carter in January. I mean, and I'm hanging out with NSYNC now. I, I, I.

• 40:27Bunnie XO?

  So crazy.

• 40:28Speaker 02

  Yeah, yeah. So apparently I made the right choice.

• 40:31Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, absolutely. Now you're like always booked out, like people, you, I've watched you explode, you know, over the past like year and a half.

• 40:40Speaker 02

  It's gotten crazy. And I think it's because it's raw, right?

• 40:44Bunnie XO?

  And it's real. And you're honest with people.

• 40:46Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 40:46Bunnie XO?

  You know, and I think you're, I think teaching them too is another way of them like, because a lot of people don't want to give away their secrets.

• 40:52Speaker 02

  No.

• 40:53Bunnie XO?

  So for you to like, want to teach people too, I think that intrigues people because everybody wants to.

• 40:57Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 40:58Bunnie XO?

  You know, know how to see spirits.

• 40:59Speaker 02

  I know.

• 41:00Bunnie XO?

  Well, I don't because I see him all the time. So I don't want to, I don't even want to deal with it. I'm like one of those people who pushes it away.

• 41:05Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 41:06Bunnie XO?

  Like, I don't want to deal with it.

• 41:07Speaker 02

  Well, I mean, but this is the whole thing too. If you're pushing it away, it's gonna try to hit you harder.

• 41:11Bunnie XO?

  So when I went through a really tough time, probably I'd say like last year, maybe a year before that, I was seeing like, I've always seen. Ghosts and shit since I was little.

• 41:21Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 41:21Bunnie XO?

  Spirits, black energy, a lot of black energy is always around me for some reason. And um, finally, last year, I just got to the point where I was so tired of just being scared of it. But I was like, come on, like, I don't care. I was just like, just, you're welcome here anytime, just leave me alone. And I don't see him anymore. Ever since I just gave into that and was just like, I don't care anymore. I don't care that you're fucking floating over here. I don't care that you're over here.

• 41:45Speaker 02

  Do you know why? Cause you don't have fear.

• 41:47Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 41:47Speaker 02

  Fear is the lowest vibration. They do. The lower vibration feeds off of fear. Why do you think? Um, people keep pushing fear in the media, fear in everything, because if they keep you low. You know, you never truly know what you are, right? You're never really living the life.

• 42:04Bunnie XO?

  So if somebody were to do a class with you, like, what is like essentially an overview of a session with you to learn how to start reading?

• 42:13Speaker 02

  Okay, so I do my classes, right? So I have my thing right now. It's called Introduction to Chainlink Course. And then I have my advanced course. You have to take the introduction one. And essentially, I have these people that are coming in and, you know, they have been experiencing things. They're seeing the synchronicities. They, they are. Um, understanding that there's more to this, right? They see how it all kind of like goes together collectively. And so you're coming in and you're trying to teach them um, how to open up their senses because. Um, that's number one, what you have to do. So like, one of the things that I would do first off, as I don't have my syllabus in front of me right now. Is I would say, okay, I want you to go and, you know, sit in your bedroom, sit in your bedroom quietly. And just feel what it feels like. What do I mean by feel? Like, if we sit here quietly, this room has a certain feel about it.

• 42:58Speaker 02

  Okay, and I want you to compare it to, how does the room at your house feel? Like, you can put your mind there. How does it feel? Well, this room feels different than that room, right? Well, what is that? That's this, that's spirit. That's, that's you feeling the energy around it, okay? So you do that, then I want you to go to a busy grocery store. What does that feel like? I want you to go to cemetery. What does that feel like? I want you to feel the differences, okay? I want you to go back to your bedroom. I want you to start thinking of your dead grandmother. I want you to call her in, and then I want you to feel your room. Right? Well, you will feel that it's different, okay, because she's there. It'll almost be like there's not an emptiness anymore.

• 43:35Bunnie XO?

  Do spirits always come if you call them?

• 43:37Speaker 02

  Yes, absolutely. Yes.

• 43:39Bunnie XO?

  And it's always them, or is it, could it be another person?

• 43:41Speaker 02

  I mean, I mean, there's spirits around you all the time, but remember your thoughts, your feelings, your emotions. Even your words are all energy and we're connected. See, the words that I'm using right now, it's the, it's the best way I can describe something that's non-physical. So please just, just go with it. So we're all connected um by what I can understand so far is like a web. Okay, when you get in a connection with somebody, like when I get in a connection with him or with you, whatever it may be, um their thoughts, their feelings, their emotions, or their um wants, you can kind of like feel them, right? So maybe he's um in another room and he has this big want of like wanting a Dr. Pepper. And then all of a sudden I think, oh my God, I should go get Dr. Pepper's for us, right?

• 44:25Speaker 02

  So I bring it back and he goes, oh, I had no idea. Yeah, I was just thinking about that. That's the web because you're connected, just like the other day, right? I sent you that, you know, I, you and I had that phone conversation. Then all of a sudden I get in my car, I'm going to the mall and there's a car in front of me with a license plate bunny.

• 44:42Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 44:43Speaker 02

  How weird, right? That's not weird. That's because it was brought into that. So anyways, so spirits use that line to connect because whether you have a physical body or not, that is still there. That connection is love. And so when you think about them, that essentially like tings that vibration, like hitting a guitar string and they show up. Right? And remember, I want you to think about how the spirit world is. So it's you here, okay? The spirit world is all around. Okay, so then they can just interject, interject, interject, interject. Um, and so that's how they work. Yeah, that's how they work.

• 45:18Bunnie XO?

  When you read Aaron Carter, for those of you guys who don't follow Amy on TikTok, which you should.

• 45:25Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 45:25Bunnie XO?

  When you connected with him, can we talk about that?

• 45:27Speaker 02

  Yeah, yeah, of course.

• 45:28Bunnie XO?

  How did that go?

• 45:32Speaker 02

  So of course I don't like to know anything about anybody.

• 45:34Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 45:35Speaker 02

  Right? Like, and the whole thing is when you go into a session.

• 45:42Speaker 02

  Obviously, I knew who I was gonna channel. Right. Right, and so I When his family authorized it, right? Oh, yeah, well, I was reading his sister. Yeah. His sister and Nick, and so, um, or sister at first. And so I go in there and I start calling him forward. What do I do? I just sit there quietly. I get in the moment. And I start saying, Erin, Erin, Erin, Erin, Erin, come here, come here, come here. And you can feel that there's a difference in the room. Now, on that feeling, how they feel, that depends on where, where they're at in the spirit world. Okay, and what do I mean by that? The spirit world is, from the best way I can explain a non-physical place to a physical reality, is it's almost like a really tall apartment building. Okay, everybody's in the apartment building, but not everybody's on the same floor. Okay, but everybody knows that everybody lives in this apartment building,

• 46:26Speaker 02

  but not everybody's talking to everybody. It's like that One American Horror Story hotel. Yes, yes, yes, over there in LA, absolutely. And so when you call in, you know, each floor feels different. There's high vibration, let's talk about Jesus, God, Mary, all that stuff. And then there's very, very low, which is essentially like where Hitler would go, something like that. What people consider hell. Yes, hell, exactly, so I think Is there a purgatory? Yes, absolutely. So, I go through and I feel him. And the first thing that I feel is somebody, I get visions in my head, and it's like somebody walking around, smoking a cigarette, um, anxiety. Where would they be? Lower. Yeah, yeah, why, why? So for me, I have found a pattern that when spirits are in the middle vibration,

• 47:08Speaker 02

  it's because they've either, um, either they're waiting because they got murdered, like something happened and they're trying to like help the family, because the middle vibration is where we're at too. We are in the middle vibration, okay? Why is that? Well, because we have the choice to do good, or we have the choice to do bad. Okay, so we're here in the middle. Um, and so that's also why most of these, we're gonna go back to Erin too, but that's why most of these things, when you talk about ghosts, or I felt really sad, or I think my boyfriend that unalived himself is around me, it's because, yes, he is, because he's in this vibration with you. Um, the, that purgatory area, that middle vibration, from when I get visions of it, it's like here, but everything's gray. Like, there's no color. That's the best way I can describe it. And there's anxiety, a lot of people are smoking, uh, they walk around with bottles of booze, it's a whole thing, it's a very middle thing.

• 47:52Speaker 02

  And so he shows up, and he's there. And I look at Angel and I was like, I said, I think he's in the middle vibration. She goes, well, we don't really know how he died yet, you know, obviously they knew the bathtub, right? But, um, I keep going and I keep channeling them and he talks about drowning. He talks about drowning and he keeps saying it's it's my fault. It's my fault. And he shows me drugs and I said, do we know if he passed of, you know, this or this? She goes, well, we're not sure yet. Right. Cause the whole autopsy hadn't come out yet. And so I go, it's weird. I said, I think there's something involved with drowning. It's almost like he takes something. He has like the seizure or something. And then he drowns and she goes, oh, okay. And he's talking to her. He's trying to connect with her. She's in a state of grief because it's only one month after her poor brother died.

• 48:38Speaker 02

  He's trying to come through and help because that's what they do in order to move up to a higher vibration. They help you. They become your guide. That's what they do. Okay. Anyways, we'll get into that in a second. And so flash forward, it was an amazing session. We had a lot of closure. We had a lot of clarity. And flash month, three, three months later, she sends me the autopsy report. He drowned and it was from huffing this and taking too much Xanax. And he essentially had this seizure.

• 49:06Bunnie XO?

  Wow.

• 49:06Speaker 02

  And

• 49:07Bunnie XO?

  I didn't know that was his cause of death. I did know he drowned, but I didn't know that it was that he had a seizure.

• 49:12Speaker 02

  Well, it goes into because of how, when you do this, it, when you huff the stuff, it causes that reaction in your brain. Right?

• 49:20Bunnie XO?

  It was Xanax.

• 49:21Speaker 02

  Yeah. So it adds that. And so poor bunny and he, he felt so bad. He felt so bad for what he did, but he was in a good space. He was okay.

• 49:29Bunnie XO?

  He was a very tormented soul.

• 49:31Speaker 02

  He was. He was a very tormented soul, but he was so sweet and he shows up in my life a lot. And I'll, I'll show you that actually while we're here. So just so you can see. So there are times where Aaron Carter will show up with me in my bathroom. Um, and I will, this is a real thing.

• 49:48Bunnie XO?

  You would stay away from bathtub.

• 49:50Speaker 02

  Yeah. And that may be a reason why he does, but no, he shows up with me in my bathroom. And when I message his sister, she is actively doing something for him. When that happens, every single time he shows up, he plays the, I want candy song in my head. And I text her, I'll like get out of the shower and I'll text her, I'll say, um, you know, what is up with this? So here I have all these different things. Hang on, let me show you.

• 50:13Bunnie XO?

  Does this ever trip you out when shit like this happens? Or are you used to it now? Yeah, yeah, he's like, we're used to it now.

• 50:19Speaker 02

  So this was back on July 17th. Um, I sent her, uh, I was learning about AIDS and the AIDS epidemic. And turns out I ended up channeling two people that day with AIDS. Anyways, very interesting. Everything happens for a reason. I said, I'm learning about the new things, um, with Ehlers-Danlos syndrome and AIDS. Um, I said, I look, I said, looked up what popped up on YouTube. It was a video of Erin Carter. And I said, um, watch what they say about Leslie, her sister. And they were talking about that. I said, that means something is going on today with you. And she says, Amy, I'm digging up old photos of my family. They specifically requested some of Leslie for an interview that I'm doing. She's sitting at the table.

• 50:56Bunnie XO?

  Wow. Yeah. That's crazy. That's part of that web that you're talking about.

• 51:01Speaker 02

  That's the web. That's the web. And I said, I, I was like, oh my God, oh my God. She goes, I'm doing a big interview for People Magazine. Okay. And then we talk about nervousness of it. Then, right after that, I get on my Discord. I have a, I have a, a big family of Discord people that follow me on there. We have almost 2,000 people on there. And the first thing I open it up and the first thing that says is, Amy Balesky, has Erin reached out to you recently?

• 51:23Bunnie XO?

  No. Yeah.

• 51:24Speaker 02

  It was at that exact same time.

• 51:26Bunnie XO?

  He's talking to you.

• 51:26Speaker 02

  Yeah, it happens at least once a month and I have it all documented. It's all documented.

• 51:32Bunnie XO?

  He just feels safe with you, probably.

• 51:33Speaker 02

  He does. Well, and it's interesting. So their birthday is December 7th. My ex-husband is December 7th. Like, we'll show this like December 7th vibe, like comes into play somehow too. Mine's November 7th. But that's the web I'm talking about. Okay. And that's how spirits come through.

• 51:46Bunnie XO?

  So, real quick question, when people pass and they are, because let's go into that a little bit. When people pass and they're in the lower vibration, they can work their way up?

• 51:55Speaker 02

  Yeah, yeah, you're not, so, so many people go, oh my God, are they stuck? Are they stuck? No.

• 52:00Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 52:00Speaker 02

  Nobody's stuck. Nobody's ever stuck. And there's a lot of times when I see people that are in this middle vibration, whether they, can we say suicide? Or we're gonna do unalive?

• 52:07Bunnie XO?

  No, you can.

• 52:07Speaker 02

  I can't, okay. Whether they passed up suicide, um, or a drug overdose, or got murdered. Um, and we can talk about all the different types and then how they feel because there's probably gonna be a lot of people that are watching this. That, I mean, especially with the fentanyl stuff going around right now.

• 52:20Bunnie XO?

  Crazy.

• 52:21Speaker 02

  Oh, it's insane. That's a whole nother thing. But um, when, when they cross over, um, they can move up. And a lot of times, if it's like the drug overdose, like fentanyl, and it was the first time they weren't a drug addict or anything like that, they just go up to the light. Like that's it. They go up to a higher vibration. But if they had been doing it and like they took away from their family or themselves, they weren't being the light. They weren't being in the best version of themselves and they kept doing it and then they passed away, right? They let themselves become that lower emotional state, then that's where they go, right? And so when they get over there, what they have to do is they have to help the people that they hurt the most. So they help their kid, they help their mom.

• 53:01Bunnie XO?

  So karma, it's like weeping karma?

• 53:02Speaker 02

  It is karma and they hang around with, with people and they'll, they'll show them all the signs. I mean, everything, anything that you want, all you have to do is ask them for help. That's all you have to do. You have to allow them into your space and you have to ask them.

• 53:16Bunnie XO?

  Wow.

• 53:16Speaker 02

  For it.

• 53:17Bunnie XO?

  That's crazy, but I think that's comforting for some people to know that as well.

• 53:20Speaker 02

  Absolutely. Yeah. Yeah, absolutely. And then with, with people that, um, do you want to get creepy?

• 53:26Bunnie XO?

  Yes.

• 53:27Speaker 02

  Can I, can I tell you a couple creepy stories? And I'll talk, people really like me when I talk about hell too, for some reason, like that's, and I don't know why.

• 53:33Bunnie XO?

  I think it's because everybody's fucking scared of it.

• 53:35Speaker 02

  Yeah, it will. It's scary.

• 53:36Bunnie XO?

  It's like a morbid curiosity.

• 53:37Speaker 02

  It is scary. I don't know. Today I was getting ready and I was like, oh, I should talk to the story or tell Bunny about the story. So let me tell you about one of them. So, um, this is about the middle vibration. So there was this one time that I was reading this girl, uh, this woman and she was sitting down. Remember all of my things are online. So all of my sessions are online. And so, um, she's sitting down, she has her phone right here and all I can see is that she has tile behind her. That's it. And she's wanting to channel this woman named Jenna. And I begin bringing her forward, I'm channeling Jenna and it's weird because I begin to feel the coldness of the tile on my back. And I was like, odd. I said, I think she's in this room with you. And she goes, hm, like laughs about it a second. And so I keep calling her. I was like, Jenna, what's up? What's up? What's up?

• 54:21Speaker 02

  And then she shows me this flash of essentially, um,

• 54:28Speaker 02

  Uh, but blood everywhere, uh, coming from uh, certain locations like wrists and stuff like that. And then she shows me the same color tile where she's at. And I go, did she pass in this bathroom? And she was like, yeah, I said, did she, you know, commit suicide? And she goes, yeah, she did. She goes, I'm sitting in the spot where I found her.

• 54:47Bunnie XO?

  Wow.

• 54:48Speaker 02

  And I go, oh, okay. And so her spirit is still in that area. And so she's trying to like, come up to her wife and tell her how much she loves her and tell her how much she misses her. And she's trying to have this connection. And she's going through and she's talking about their Basset Hound dog, like she's in that house with them. And I tell her all these things. And she's like, I see her all the time in here. I see her all the time. I'm like, because they're, they're there, they're helping you until they move up. Um, and so, yeah, that was very, very interesting.

• 55:17Bunnie XO?

  How long does it take for somebody to be able to move up?

• 55:19Speaker 02

  Okay. So time doesn't exist in the afterlife?

• 55:22Bunnie XO?

  Mm hmm.

• 55:24Bunnie XO?

  So it's just whenever?

• 55:25Speaker 02

  Yeah. So

• 55:25Bunnie XO?

  Who decides that they can move up?

• 55:27Speaker 02

  Yourself.

• 55:28Bunnie XO?

  Wow.

• 55:29Speaker 02

  Yourself.

• 55:29Bunnie XO?

  So it's like she has to let go.

• 55:31Speaker 02

  She has to let go.

• 55:32Bunnie XO?

  She's done.

• 55:32Speaker 02

  Yeah, you have to find your light. You have to.

• 55:34Bunnie XO?

  God, we gotta work through trauma in this life and in the next life.

• 55:37Speaker 02

  Well, yeah, I mean, but if you, if you

• 55:38Bunnie XO?

  What kind of shit is that?

• 55:39Speaker 02

  Yeah, I know. I know. But it's like, if you, if you don't, and that's, that's the whole thing. We're here, we're learning, we're understanding, you know, what is love? You know, and all that stuff. And so if you kind of like, flake out on it, you know, you're still gonna have to go learn.

• 55:52Bunnie XO?

  Got a second chance. Yeah. So start doing the, the fucking work now. Shadow work now, bitches.

• 55:56Speaker 02

  Yes, yes, absolutely. Absolutely. All the shadow work. Now, the whole thing, now this is gonna get a little creepy. Okay. So I'm sorry. And for people that have had this happen to them, I have been, um, a person that has, has been sexually assaulted. So I understand this. And so this is all about sexual assault. So trigger warning. Okay. So I had, I will forever remember this. It was November 7th. It was my birthday two years ago. Me and my husband traveled over to Natchez, Mississippi, and I had to have sessions that day. Okay. And so I'm in this old, I love old creepy homes. And so I go and I, I rented an old creepy home. And I'm in there and I'm having sessions and I'm having sessions with this one woman and she wanted to channel two people. And I think the gentleman's name was like Geraldo or something like that.

• 56:40Speaker 02

  Um, just it was a G name. I can't remember. It was, it was something Italian. And so I go through and I begin channeling him. And whenever I start channeling, I always feel around in the area that we're at right now. And then I go up. I couldn't feel anything. I didn't feel him and I was like weird. And then all of a sudden I smelled booze and I was like, okay, that's a little bit lower. And then I start hearing,

• 57:06Speaker 02

  like that's what it sounds like in my head. And I'm like, there's a guy here. He's kind of like laughing. I said, he may be an alcoholic. She goes, he was. And then all I hear is heavy, like if somebody has black dress shoes on with really heavy heels, men dress shoes, like walking on a wood floor, click, click, click. And then I get a vision of this guy and he has this black slicked back hair and he has this white, um, button up T-shirt, not button up shirt that he has like undone. You can see the sweat on him and he has this, these black long trousers, but he makes my vision go to like his crotch area.

• 57:46Speaker 02

  And so he's walking around, I mean, so get this, but everything is like black around him. So it's like if there'd be a spotlight on him. And then he shows me this image of him really quickly putting his hand like over a girl, a little girl with her about right here. And he was like, and the bitch liked it. And she still does.

• 58:07Bunnie XO?

  Oh my god.

• 58:08Speaker 02

  And I look and you could feel that this little girl was my client.

• 58:13Bunnie XO?

  Oh my god.

• 58:14Speaker 02

  How do you say that? So I looked at her. I go, I think your dad is in, I said, this is your dad, right? She goes, yeah. I said, I think your dad is in a really bad spot. She goes, he should be. I said, I have a question for her. I said, did he like sexually assault you? She goes, yeah, until I was 18.

• 58:34Bunnie XO?

  Oh my god.

• 58:35Speaker 02

  Every day, me and my sister until I was 18. And I said, and he smoked cigarettes. She goes, yeah, he smoked and drank all the time. And he goes, yeah. And I never got caught for it. And he starts laughing like ha, ha, ha, right? And so I asked her, I said, why does he keep laughing about not getting caught for it? She goes, me and my sister about 10 years ago. We got together, we got enough proof. We were, I think they were like twenty-two or twenty-three, and we got him in jail. And she goes, the day before he was sentenced, he hung himself.

• 59:07Bunnie XO?

  Oh, my gosh.

• 59:08Speaker 02

  He never got caught.

• 59:10Bunnie XO?

  Oh, and he's just still choosing to be a douchebag.

• 59:13Speaker 02

  So he's this narcissistic, um, asshat that he didn't want anything to do with me at all, but he's in that lower state.

• 59:23Bunnie XO?

  And so, so spirits can choose to just be.

• 59:26Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 59:27Bunnie XO?

  In hell if they want to be.

• 59:27Speaker 02

  Absolutely. Yeah. Well, because he likes that. He likes the drinking. He likes the smoking. He likes the dominance. He likes that, you know, sexual.

• 59:35Bunnie XO?

  But you would think that he would pay for that in afterlife.

• 59:37Speaker 02

  Well, he is paying for it when he's gonna pay for it for forever there.

• 59:41Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 59:41Speaker 02

  Right? And then at some point, he will choose to move up.

• 59:45Bunnie XO?

  I feel like people like that shouldn't get a chance to choose to move up.

• 59:48Speaker 02

  I agree with you on that, but that's also where we, where we have to forgive, right? At the same time, I know, I know, that's where we have to forgive, but it's, it's a, it's an interesting journey and heaven is very light. We know about that with Nan.

• 1:00:01Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:00:01Speaker 02

  Heaven is very light.

• 1:00:02Bunnie XO?

  Oh, Nan. Yeah. She loves Jay.

• 1:00:04Speaker 02

  Yes, light and airy and fun. And, and so many people go, oh, my loved one is in heaven, or they, you know, they passed up cancer, or they had a really good life and they died. Why can't I feel them? Well, because we're here in this middle area and we're not usually making our way up to here to heaven, right? That's why we only get little glimpses of them every so often. Or like something nice, like a butterfly, or like a really good song, because that's heavenly.

• 1:00:25Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:00:26Speaker 02

  Right? Because we're down here doing our work right now.

• 1:00:28Bunnie XO?

  So, before we go, I wanted to ask you if, you know, I'm going through this situation with my dad.

• 1:00:34Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 1:00:35Bunnie XO?

  Is there any way we can tap into that and kind of just read his energy right now or anything like that?

• 1:00:40Speaker 02

  I've done that a couple of times.

• 1:00:41Bunnie XO?

  Can you do that with the living too?

• 1:00:43Speaker 02

  Yeah, you can, yeah, you can feel what you want to know.

• 1:00:47Bunnie XO?

  I just want to know, like, what, what do we think is, you know, I don't want to say end result, but, you know, he seems to think he can fight this and I'm just, I've already, I, when I first saw him, I gave him a couple of weeks.

• 1:01:00Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 1:01:01Bunnie XO?

  But since my dad has seen me.

• 1:01:03Speaker 02

  When is he going on dialysis?

• 1:01:05Bunnie XO?

  Uh, he, well, he has cancer.

• 1:01:07Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 1:01:07Bunnie XO?

  So they, he's refusing to do chemo. So he wants to do all natural. So he wants to do like immunotherapy and stuff like that, which I'm flying him to Nashville to start doing all of those.

• 1:01:20Bunnie XO?

  He just went into the hospital last night with a blood clot and pneumonia. So we're hoping that works out, but you know, I, I touched my dad last night and I told them this earlier that I felt his skin and like, have you ever felt? A dead person's skin?

• 1:01:33Speaker 02

  I felt my dad's.

• 1:01:34Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, and that's exactly how it feels. And I just, I touched his legs and he's so tiny and.

• 1:01:39Speaker 02

  I know.

• 1:01:40Bunnie XO?

  Like he used to be just this big.

• 1:01:42Speaker 02

  I know.

• 1:01:43Bunnie XO?

  Strong man.

• 1:01:46Speaker 02

  I know.

• 1:01:46Bunnie XO?

  I just kinda wanna tap into it and just see if like, I don't know what I'm looking for, maybe.

• 1:01:51Speaker 02

  Let, let me tell you, I have um, sat around actually last night and this morning and I've thought and I felt. And um, all they showed me for a little bit was weird. It was like, rea- but see, I don't. He's not retaining fluid in his legs though, right now, right?

• 1:02:10Bunnie XO?

  That's amazing that you said that. He was ha- his ankles were so swollen. I actually have a picture of his ankles in my phone. They were so swollen and they took him off this medicine and the swelling's going down.

• 1:02:24Speaker 02

  Good, good. Yeah, they were showing like this morning and last night I was sitting there. It was like if you had like a, almost like a club foot type of thing.

• 1:02:32Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, that's exactly what it was.

• 1:02:33Speaker 02

  Yeah, with that. And that's why I was like, when is he going on dialysis? Because I know that goes along with kidneys and stuff like that. Um, it. It doesn't feel like a positive thing.

• 1:02:44Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:02:46Speaker 02

  Let's just say that. And you know, because you're connected to your dad, but I also, there's sometimes when spirits. They don't wanna say three weeks.

• 1:02:54Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:02:54Speaker 02

  Right? They don't wanna say four weeks because that means we'll lose hope and we'll start living in the negative. Um. But for me, as I'm going into this.

• 1:03:06Speaker 02

  I mean, there's an ending coming up pretty quick. And when I mean quick, I mean, it's like, I would even say nine months, but we'll see. You know, we'll see, or it's going to be just this really big battle because it feels like this. It feels like this lull.

• 1:03:25Speaker 02

  Right? Like that.

• 1:03:26Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, he's like decided that he wants to fight now. I'm like, you could have told me this a year ago.

• 1:03:31Speaker 02

  I know, and I want him to fight. And when he does now, remember too, everything, everything can be um, different. It can change. It depends on what path we want, right? And then we can kind of like bring stuff into alignment.

• 1:03:42Bunnie XO?

  That's kind of where I'm at. I'm like, you know, I'm I I'll be sad about it whenever it happens. But right now, even if it's to the point of delusion, I'm just gonna let him do whatever he needs to do and what I can do to just try to make him better.

• 1:03:54Speaker 02

  Well, and that's and that's what you do. And there there also needs to be a point where you need to really think about like the comfort of also end of life care, right? Like getting into that. Um, because I also find so many people, including my dad, that even when, like, there was not a chance in hell, right? He still wanted to fight. And yes, that's good. That's good. That's good. But there was no comfort in it. There was no, it was always still. No, it was always still in this fear base, you know, if I want to live, I want to live, I want to live. And so essentially ended up going out with that and that I want to live. And I don't know, the more I I see it and I look at and I experience it with spirits in my own family. I don't know, there's at some point where I would just say, you know, I just want to lay down and watch TV

• 1:04:39Speaker 02

  for, you know, like two weeks and not really give a shit at the same time. Um, but it just doesn't.

• 1:04:51Speaker 02

  Hold on, I'm feeling.

• 1:04:57Speaker 02

  Go spend Christmas with him.

• 1:04:59Bunnie XO?

  He's gonna, he's gonna be with me in Nashville.

• 1:05:02Speaker 02

  Good.

• 1:05:03Bunnie XO?

  So, yeah.

• 1:05:03Speaker 02

  Yeah, spend Christmas with him.

• 1:05:05Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:05:06Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 1:05:06Bunnie XO?

  Well, at least we'll make it to Christmas.

• 1:05:08Speaker 02

  Yeah. It doesn't, they just showed me, um, a stocking. So that's why I'm thinking Christmas will be.

• 1:05:15Bunnie XO?

  I literally lost my mom last year and so I'm like, can we just get past my mom's death date?

• 1:05:20Speaker 02

  I know.

• 1:05:21Bunnie XO?

  So when you say in Christmas, I'm like, okay, cool. I can do that.

• 1:05:24Speaker 02

  I know.

• 1:05:24Bunnie XO?

  I keep having this fear that he's gonna die in November too, and I'm gonna lose both my parents in fucking November.

• 1:05:29Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 1:05:29Bunnie XO?

  For some reason. And it's so crazy because I told my husband all year, last year and today, or this year, I was like, I'm gonna lose my dad.

• 1:05:38Speaker 02

  Cause you knew.

• 1:05:39Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, I was like, something's gonna happen to my dad. Like, I feel like this is, he's gonna die next year and then this year. I mean, I have text messages where I'm like, I'm worried because I just feel like my dad's gonna die.

• 1:05:49Speaker 02

  Do you know why you're doing that? Because you're mourning that person who you will become when you lose your father. You, we, all of these things, everything is happening now. We're just pulling that frame into focus. And so you know that that frame is going to happen and you're feeling it because you're more sensitive to it. And so you're mourning getting to that frame.

• 1:06:13Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:06:14Speaker 02

  That's it.

• 1:06:14Bunnie XO?

  And we had a rocky relationship, but he's still my pops, you know?

• 1:06:17Speaker 02

  But who cares? Let it go.

• 1:06:18Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, I have.

• 1:06:19Speaker 02

  I have.

• 1:06:20Bunnie XO?

  Soon as I found out he was sick, I flew right to him.

• 1:06:22Speaker 02

  Yeah, and that's what you need to do. And so many people don't get that chance. So many people don't do it, or they go, oh my God, I'm just so pissed at him. I hope he comes back and tells me sorry before he's dead. Shut up.

• 1:06:31Bunnie XO?

  About that, yeah.

• 1:06:32Speaker 02

  Stop it.

• 1:06:33Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, go and see your parents, dude. Especially if it's that end of life.

• 1:06:36Speaker 02

  Yes, exactly.

• 1:06:37Bunnie XO?

  Amy, I'm so happy you came.

• 1:06:38Speaker 02

  I love you. I'm happy. Me too. Thank you for having me.

• 1:06:41Bunnie XO?

  Dude, I want you to come back more and more.

• 1:06:44Speaker 02

  I know, I'll come back with you.

• 1:06:45Bunnie XO?

  Come back.

• 1:06:45Speaker 02

  We can channel.

• 1:06:46Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, we'll channel, we'll do reading, stuff like that. I really just wanted people to get to know your story.

• 1:06:50Speaker 02

  Yeah, well, thank you. Yeah, it's, it's crazy. There's so much more. Like, there's so, that's why I'm writing a book.

• 1:06:55Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:06:56Speaker 02

  Hi, yeah, it's a whole thing. And like, talk about spirits, talk about spookies, talk about, I mean, dog spirits. I mean, you name it, channel, feel.

• 1:07:03Bunnie XO?

  I love it.

• 1:07:03Speaker 02

  And then we could even, I could teach you how to meditate and zone out. How, do you wanna feel your aura?

• 1:07:08Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, I would love to.

• 1:07:09Speaker 02

  Okay, real quick. Okay, you ready?

• 1:07:10Bunnie XO?

  Okay.

• 1:07:10Speaker 02

  Okay, everybody can probably do this if you want to.

• 1:07:11Bunnie XO?

  All right, let's all do it. Everybody do it. Amy, you're doing it too.

• 1:07:14Speaker 02

  All right, here we go. Come on. All right, so this is what I want you to do. So I want you to get your hands. And I want you to guy, kind of just like put them in front of you, alright, and I want you to put them about a half an inch apart. I'm not good with inches unless it's a penis in front of me.

• 1:07:30Speaker 02

  That's about six and a half, you know, so no, so put them about a, about a half an inch apart from one another. Okay, and then what I want y'all to do is I want you to focus, and what do I mean, put your attention and focus it in between those fingers. Okay, so focus your attention in between your hands and your fingers. And then move your eyes from the fingertips down to the base of your palm, slowly. And focus it all there.

• 1:07:58Speaker 02

  Just keep doing it back and forth.

• 1:08:01Speaker 02

  Bring all of your attention there. This is where being in the present, right in that moment is key. Alright, now what I want you to do is after we're doing that, there's a lot of stuff going on in the background, but what I want you to do- Three six mafia right now. Yeah, this is it, right? Yeah, it's usually better, I'm used to working in silence, but what I want you to do is I want you to take your hands and I want you to slowly push them forward, like in on one another without touching them. Get as close as you can and then pull it back. Oh, you can kind of see colors. Yeah, you can kind of see colors, you can see that also. I want you to kind of bring it in and out, almost like bounce it a little bit. And you can feel- The warmth. The warmth and almost something like a magnet, like the you know, like when you're putting two magnets that don't like each other? Yep.

• 1:08:47Speaker 02

  So, and you can make that, if you focus on it, it almost feels like a moist sponge, ew, I hate that word. We love moist. Right, moist. And so that is your energetic field. I love it, it's pretty strong. Yeah, that's your aura, and you can get it to about two and a half, three inches. You know, it's not that big, but, but that is all around you, so when you go up and you give somebody a hug and you say, "Oh my god, I can feel your energy," you can- So I hate hugging people. Yeah, absolutely, yes, oh, and then the-

• 1:09:19Speaker 02

  I know, and truly the last- I mean, people I, like, you know, people I don't know. Just everybody. Right, like, I love to hug people I am expecting. I know, are you being Howie Mandel?

• 1:09:27Bunnie XO?

  Literally.

• 1:09:28Speaker 02

  Okay, it's okay.

• 1:09:28Bunnie XO?

  I'm on my way.

• 1:09:29Speaker 02

  I mean, I love Howie Mandel.

• 1:09:29Bunnie XO?

  I'm on my way.

• 1:09:30Speaker 02

  Okay, it's okay.

• 1:09:30Bunnie XO?

  I would glove the fuck up all the time if I could. Literally. I talk about my OCD online all the time.

• 1:09:35Speaker 02

  I know, I know, I know. We, I've, I've heard it before. I like it. Now, now, this is the other thing. I want you to think of this real quick. Okay? So remember, everything is energy.

• 1:09:42Bunnie XO?

  Hmm.

• 1:09:42Speaker 02

  Right? Everything is frequency. I want you to think about everything in this space, including your body.

• 1:09:47Bunnie XO?

  Hmm.

• 1:09:47Speaker 02

  Right? So what is your body? It is, um, you take it down to a cellular level and all it is, is protons, neutrons, electrons, and quibs. Right? Which is light, which is energy, which is bouncing around. And then when you get into this space, you have all these other radio waves.

• 1:10:03Bunnie XO?

  Hmm.

• 1:10:03Speaker 02

  Right? You are a wave. Everything.

• 1:10:06Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:10:06Speaker 02

  Is energy.

• 1:10:06Bunnie XO?

  No, that's why I, I always go to my bus because this is so much energy all the time. So I always have to go there and kind of like decompress and shake it off a little bit.

• 1:10:15Speaker 02

  That's exactly what it is.

• 1:10:16Bunnie XO?

  So there you go.

• 1:10:17Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 1:10:18Bunnie XO?

  Well, Amy, tell everybody where they can find you.

• 1:10:19Speaker 02

  You can find me.

• 1:10:20Bunnie XO?

  Shout out all your socia's, your.

• 1:10:21Speaker 02

  Oh, my gosh.

• 1:10:21Bunnie XO?

  OnlyFans if you got one.

• 1:10:23Speaker 02

  Oh, I, well, I wanted to, you know, they tried to get me on OnlyFans a lot and my husband would not let me be on OnlyFans.

• 1:10:28Bunnie XO?

  Listen, you guys needed to get on there and slap some scans.

• 1:10:31Speaker 02

  Spirit, exactly. Spirits and sexies. Um, but no, no OnlyFans yet, but no, it is, um, it's TikTok, uh, and it's TheBalesky, uh, T H E B A L E S K Y.

• 1:10:40Bunnie XO?

  It's not Bailey Sky.

• 1:10:41Speaker 02

  No, Bailey Sky.

• 1:10:42Bunnie XO?

  For the longest time, I thought it was Bailey Sky.

• 1:10:43Speaker 02

  Oh, you're okay. No, nobody thinks it's a Russian Jew name. And so TheBalesky, oh, I'll tell you why it's that. And then, um, on everything else, it's TheBalesky. You can even Google me. I am the only Balesky in the United States.

• 1:10:53Bunnie XO?

  B A L E.

• 1:10:54Speaker 02

  E S K Y.

• 1:10:55Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:10:56Speaker 02

  And then my website is TheBaleskyExperience and you can watch a lot of my sessions. Um, I am now the most reviewed and highest rated medium in the United States.

• 1:11:04Bunnie XO?

  Let's go, baby.

• 1:11:05Speaker 02

  Which is kind of cool.

• 1:11:06Bunnie XO?

  I'm so proud of you.

• 1:11:07Speaker 02

  Thank you, thank you, thank you.

• 1:11:08Bunnie XO?

  You really fucking just took fucking your life and just.

• 1:11:11Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 1:11:11Bunnie XO?

  Did the damn thing.

• 1:11:12Speaker 02

  Absolutely. Oh, and the last thing, so why is my name TheBalesky? So my dad had seven daughters. I was the youngest one and he never had a boy. And so TheBalesky name died whenever, obviously, he died, right? And they came over from Russia. They were slaughtered during World War II because they were Jewish, you know, and stuff like that. And they fought and they, um, built up their life here. They became fur traders. They became very, you know, very wealthy after doing that. And then dad was in the air force. And so whenever, um, he passed away, I said, you know what? I want to make the live, name live on. And so I trademarked it even in the United States.

• 1:11:48Bunnie XO?

  I love that. So it does live on.

• 1:11:50Speaker 02

  It does live on.

• 1:11:51Bunnie XO?

  He's proud of you.

• 1:11:52Speaker 02

  He is.

• 1:11:52Bunnie XO?

  Does your dad visit you?

• 1:11:53Speaker 02

  Oh, yeah. Oh, my God. More than often. He visits him.

• 1:11:56Bunnie XO?

  Really?

• 1:11:56Speaker 02

  Yeah, it's a whole thing.

• 1:11:57Bunnie XO?

  Are you in tune?

• 1:11:58Speaker 02

  So, tell him, tell her, are you in tune?

• 1:12:01Speaker 03

  Oh, come on.

• 1:12:03Speaker 02

  Oh, come on, come on.

• 1:12:04Bunnie XO?

  He's like, this is your thing, honey.

• 1:12:06Speaker 03

  Yeah, I don't, I don't go and fling it out there. I'm just present in my own immediate bubble. There's enough, there's enough going on in our house with just her.

• 1:12:15Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, I could imagine.

• 1:12:16Speaker 03

  You don't all need to be reaching out.

• 1:12:19Speaker 02

  Yeah, no, we, he feels.

• 1:12:20Bunnie XO?

  He's like, give me a fucking break.

• 1:12:22Speaker 03

  I feel whoever is present in my life and who's in the room with her and the stories that she brings into it.

• 1:12:27Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 1:12:28Speaker 03

  But, other than that, I don't reach out looking for any extra because I got enough going on.

• 1:12:32Speaker 02

  Yeah, he, he essentially is my person, I know, thank you, he's, he's essentially the person that makes me not feel crazy. Because I'll go up to him and I'll, I'll get these things and I go, babe, watch what happens. This just happened today, watch, I'm gonna have this later on, right? And he goes, okay, and then it does, and so I can go back and even go, oh my god, you did say that, right? Like, he's, he's that person for me.

• 1:12:52Bunnie XO?

  I love that, you guys are cute, too.

• 1:12:54Speaker 02

  Thank you, I like him.

• 1:12:55Bunnie XO?

  We need more content with him in it, too.

• 1:12:56Speaker 02

  I know, I know, I want to, he won't come in.

• 1:12:58Bunnie XO?

  Do it, you're fucking hilarious.

• 1:13:00Speaker 02

  He is. I know, I know, they, he, he shows up every so often.

• 1:13:05Bunnie XO?

  He shows up when it counts.

• 1:13:06Speaker 02

  Uh huh, exactly.

• 1:13:07Bunnie XO?

  I love it, yay, that's what we're talking about.

• 1:13:10Speaker 02

  I love you.

• 1:13:10Bunnie XO?

  Thank you so much, I love you. And you gotta promise me to come back next year.

• 1:13:13Speaker 02

  I will.

• 1:13:14Bunnie XO?

  We'll, we'll just make you our resident.

• 1:13:15Speaker 02

  Yeah, we'll do it. We'll do, we'll feel around, we'll do it for everybody. Do you have anybody like that lost? Okay, only reason I'm saying this, like Greg.

• 1:13:24Bunnie XO?

  Greg, uh, like around me?

• 1:13:26Speaker 02

  Greg, no, just somebody, I don't know, it was weird.

• 1:13:29Bunnie XO?

  Is there a Greg in the room? No.

• 1:13:31Speaker 02

  Okay, their only reason I said that is because there was a name of Greg that popped up on my spirit box, and then over here I drove by a building that said Greg on it, and then I saw a street that said Greg, and there's another thing, so there's something to do with Greg.

• 1:13:43Bunnie XO?

  Greg?

• 1:13:47Bunnie XO?

  I got fucking goosebumps.

• 1:13:52Speaker 02

  Greg, hello Greg.

• 1:13:54Bunnie XO?

  Shut up, shut up, shut up!

• 1:13:57Speaker 02

  Hello Greg.

• 1:14:01Speaker 02

  Dude, I got goosebumps.

• 1:14:04Bunnie XO?

  Oh.

• 1:14:05Speaker 02

  Oh, that's why I was feeling that for you.

• 1:14:08Bunnie XO?

  The brother. Oh, my god.

• 1:14:11Speaker 02

  That's what I was feeling. Oh, I love it. Oh, I was gonna tell you a man was around here earlier and I was like, she's gonna think I'm weird. I don't know if she knows what I do yet.

• 1:14:20Bunnie XO?

  That's so amazing. Does he wanna talk to her?

• 1:14:22Speaker 02

  Yeah, he just showed up to say hi. Oh, my god. Oh, there's so much stuff going on in the background. Hang on, give me a second. So, yeah, I saw that name over and over and over again, came in on my spirit box. And then I just saw it three times on the way here and I was like, there's a fucking Greg with me. Like, who is this?

• 1:14:37Bunnie XO?

  That's amazing. At least it was my mom. My mom fucking wanted me to fucking take her on tour with us.

• 1:14:41Speaker 02

  Yes.

• 1:14:42Bunnie XO?

  Last time she fucking came through.

• 1:14:43Speaker 02

  Yes, but do you see, see, I just showed you how it works, the connections, and it's logical. It's fucking logical.

• 1:14:51Bunnie XO?

  Literally, we were just talking about that on the bus.

• 1:14:53Speaker 02

  And you were talking about it. I'm coming to see you. You're connected to me. I'm the, the point of least resistance, cuz I do this and he's coming over to say hi to you. And who knows that you were gonna be my person here, right? And hold on. Fucking Greg. Um, okay, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait. I don't have my notepad on me. Uh, that's kinda like my...

• 1:15:13Bunnie XO?

  Your, how you draw on your channel.

• 1:15:15Speaker 02

  Yeah, yeah, hold on. Seeing that being loud, normally I have my noise cancelling headphones in. Hey.

• 1:15:21Bunnie XO?

  No, you're good. It's 36 Mafia too, so it's like a séance right now.

• 1:15:25Speaker 02

  Well, I mean, it's the perfect place for us to be then.

• 1:15:27Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, literally.

• 1:15:29Speaker 02

  Hold on, yeah, what? Oh, there we go.

• 1:15:37Speaker 02

  Essentially, it's just like how, um, how proud, proud he is to like be your uncle, proud he is to, to do that, like proud of what you're doing. I think he's gonna accompany you on like your trips and stuff that are like coming up too, so that's okay. Um, what?

• 1:15:52Speaker 02

  I don't think he's as big of a cat person as your dad, though, right? Yeah, uh-huh, yeah, uh-huh. He goes like this. He said, so what? He said, she told me a story about, um, the dad and like the cats said, do you have that soft heart too? He's like, mm-mm, no, not nearly as much. I was like, oh, okay, cool. Um, see, all that happens in like a half of a second. And what? Hold on, hold on. Why am I closing my ears? Cuz I'm trying to think. Wait, hold on.

• 1:16:22Speaker 02

  Interesting. Why is Christmas coming up so much? Odd. I guess cuz it's coming up. I need you to go back and like be with him. Like, are you gonna, can you do that? Yeah, what's up with that?

• 1:16:32Bunnie XO?

  My dad?

• 1:16:33Speaker 02

  Yeah, for like Christmas this year. I know it's hard or something, but like it needs to happen.

• 1:16:36Bunnie XO?

  My kidney transplant was.

• 1:16:38Speaker 02

  Shit. You're the freaking kidney one. That's you. Ding dong.

• 1:16:42Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, the dialysis that you picked up on.

• 1:16:45Speaker 02

  That's you. Oh.

• 1:16:48Bunnie XO?

  That's crazy.

• 1:16:49Speaker 02

  Okay, I need you to go and be with him and he's talking about being there because he wants to be by his side and make sure that he's okay. I don't, I mean.

• 1:16:59Speaker 02

  What?

• 1:17:00Bunnie XO?

  Sweet Greg.

• 1:17:01Speaker 02

  I know. When, I mean.

• 1:17:07Speaker 02

  But they don't have like a person for the thing yet. Like they haven't heard any word for the list of the kidney thing yet. Okay, sometimes they go, oh my God, we haven't. It's gonna be six months though, or like, you know, that they're talking about.

• 1:17:19Speaker 02

  It's weird. It may come into play, but like the risk of infection is like that supersedes like everything. Um. He's gonna be there for him. I, I asked him, I said, is he gonna cross over? It's like something like that. And he essentially told me like, shut the fuck up. So, oh, obviously we don't wanna go. I mean, I don't. We don't wanna go there yet, but um, yeah, just tell your dad he's around him. Got it? It's a big thing. Yeah. Okay. There you go. Yep. Many reading randomly. Yay.

• 1:17:46Bunnie XO?

  Greg, we love Greg.

• 1:17:48Speaker 02

  Greg, isn't that random? That's wild, y'all.

• 1:17:51Bunnie XO?

  I love that. We love that.

• 1:17:52Speaker 02

  I love spirits. They're so fun. And it's like today.

• 1:17:58Bunnie XO?

  No, you're fine. Listen, my dad, my dad's got fucking two feet. I don't even know how he's still here. Two feet in the grave. I don't know how he's still here.

• 1:18:04Speaker 02

  Exactly. Mine's already dead. They're just gonna party together and when we all hang out, they're gonna be having a party.

• 1:18:09Bunnie XO?

  Literally. Cheers to all our dads.

• 1:18:11Speaker 02

  Yep, cheers to dads. Wait, can I tell you one more thing?

• 1:18:14Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:18:14Speaker 02

  So whenever you go and you cross over, like, I'm not saying it's happening. I can't say it's happening, but what ends up happening is remember that when you're born. You come into this body and you have all these family coming around you to like help you as a baby come in like remember you're this large shoul and this tiny little you know nugget of meat right so you're not actually a baby or this expansive universal thing but anyways whenever you go and you cross over you have these spirits waiting for you to love you and take you home as well so you're never alone on either side

• 1:18:47Bunnie XO?

  That's very heartwarming.

• 1:18:49Speaker 02

  Yeah, you labor in and you labor out and each side is met with love.

• 1:18:53Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:18:54Speaker 02

  There you go.

• 1:18:54Bunnie XO?

  We love that. On that note.

• 1:18:55Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 1:18:56Bunnie XO?

  Before she starts reading any more shit.

• 1:18:57Speaker 02

  I know, I know, no more Greg's.

• 1:18:59Bunnie XO?

  We are out of here. Love you guys. Love you Amy. Thank you so much.

• 1:19:03Speaker 02

  I love you too.

• 1:19:04Bunnie XO?

  Thank you guys for tuning into another episode of Don Blonde. We will see you guys next week.

• 1:19:08Speaker 02

  Bye.