TBT: Kristi Howard

Throwback Thursday The beautiful Kristi Howard joins Bunnie this week to talk about manifesting a career as a social media star, even when no one was watching. She opens up about her sister's tragic death and how it impacts her every day, what it's like to have millions of people watching your every move, why she loves sharing stories both in front of and behind the camera, and more about the new love in her life. Kristi talks about moving to Nashville, the Jenna Marbles comparisons and what's next for her in 2023. Kristi: TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@queenofgettingbanned?lang=en | IG https://www.instagram.com/KristiHoward/ Watch Full Episodes & More: www.dumbblondeunrated.com http://www.dumbblondeunrated.com/

Speaker names marked ? are inferred from speaking time and the show’s known hosts — they are not voice-verified.

• 0:00Bunnie XO?

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• 0:30Speaker 01

  Alright gentlemen, coming to main stage next, this is Bunny. Get up there, she's got a tornado of titties coming your way. Get those dollar bills ready. She's got an ass that shakes like Michael J. Fox. So get up there and throw, throw, throw them dollars.

• 0:43Bunnie XO?

  Dude, that is fucking iconic. What's up you sexy motherfuckers? Welcome to another episode of Dumb Blonde. Today, I have the ultimate TikTok sensation, Kristy Howard in the house. What's up baby? How are you? Hi. I love that. I had to get that out of the way. It is so iconic. I love that because I do that too. We were doing that last year with the Why Is It Spicy? Like, we were so fucking, that was like our jam. Uh, so when I heard, when I stumbled upon one of your TikToks and I heard you do it, I was like, this is my fucking people right here.

• 1:13Speaker 02

  I really feel like I don't do it that much in person. I think I just like did it one time, like in a video and people were like, do that again. And so then I would do it again. And now it's like if I post a vlog or something and I don't do it, people are like, it just doesn't do as good. And they're like, I don't like it. And I'm like, oh, okay, fine.

• 1:29Bunnie XO?

  That is so, that is so funny. You know who you remind me a lot of? Um, I don't know if anybody's ever told you this, but you remind me a lot of a younger Jenna Marbles.

• 1:38Speaker 02

  Ever, I get that all the time. I've got that even before social media. Like, I, when I was like 14, no matter what hair color, no matter what, I've always got that. And then I personally don't really see it. I mean, I'm flattered. Like, I love that because I watched her. But I never like watched her in like, where it was where I would like, want to like, get her mannerisms and like that, like that. You know, I don't see it.

• 1:57Bunnie XO?

  I think it's more your vibe. I think it's more your vibe where you're just like funny. You'll talk about whatever, fucking tampons, fucking yeast infections, whatever.

• 2:06Speaker 02

  My yeasties?

• 2:06Bunnie XO?

  Yeah. So like, I think it's just your openness and your vibe. Five that people are, you know, comparing that to, but it's definitely, she's a fucking icon.

• 2:14Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 2:14Bunnie XO?

  We wish, I wish Jenna would come out of fucking hiding, man.

• 2:17Speaker 02

  I know. I feel like she will eventually.

• 2:19Bunnie XO?

  I hope so. She's gonna fucking pop up on these hoes. Well, let's, I want to get to know you because, you know, we get to see the person um on the camera. That's on TikTok all the time. And, you know, I know as well as you know, that there's always a person behind that, you know? And I want to get to know that person. So where did you grow up at?

• 2:37Speaker 02

  Uh, I'm right from right outside of Atlanta.

• 2:40Bunnie XO?

  Okay, a Georgia, you're a Georgia peach.

• 2:42Speaker 02

  I am. Yes. My parents are very southern.

• 2:47Speaker 02

  I don't know. Like even, I went to college in Arizona and everybody met my parents and they're like, why don't you sound like them? And I was like, my theory is truly because I feel like we were growing up with social media. So like I've, I talk the way of the people I watch and the people I, you know, I don't know. My mom, like my OIs, I say like old vinegar, like toilet.

• 3:05Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 3:06Speaker 02

  Like certain stuff like that. I don't know. I have words, but I don't really have the like twang that they do.

• 3:11Bunnie XO?

  I love it. I'm from Houston. I don't have an accent because I grew up in Vegas. So if I do have an accent, it's a valley girl accent.

• 3:17Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 3:17Bunnie XO?

  I always tell everybody I'm a valley girl because Vegas is in a valley. Um, so you grew up in, outside of Atlanta. What brought you to Nashville?

• 3:26Speaker 02

  Um, literally nothing.

• 3:27Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 3:28Speaker 02

  I didn't know a single person here and I didn't know anything about it. I'd never been and I just wanted to move. Because I was living the same life every day and.

• 3:38Bunnie XO?

  How old were you when you moved?

• 3:40Speaker 02

  This was two years ago.

• 3:41Bunnie XO?

  Oh, okay. So recently you didn't move with your parents here.

• 3:43Speaker 02

  Twenty twenty, uh-uh.

• 3:44Bunnie XO?

  Okay, gotcha.

• 3:45Speaker 02

  And I wanted somewhere that was like driving distance because I am very close to my family.

• 3:49Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 3:49Speaker 02

  So I was like Charleston or Nashville. I don't know. And so I just like got a really shitty hotel and I drove and I toured two apartments. And I brought my mom back with me and I like convinced them and I told them, you know, they said, we'll support you as long as you have a job. Like you know what you're gonna do. And I bartended before COVID. So my idea was, oh, Nashville, like I'll bartend there when things open back up. And that's so touristy. Like I'll make so much money. But then social media started taking off for me. So I never, obviously never ended up bartending and I just started doing that.

• 4:18Bunnie XO?

  Well, let's rewind because we'll get into the social media thing. So growing up, how was your relationship with your parents?

• 4:24Speaker 02

  Um, really good. I feel like I've taken it for granted until recently.

• 4:27Bunnie XO?

  Oh.

• 4:28Speaker 02

  Um. Like I, I realize now I'm saying that how like a lot of my friends and stuff don't have, like my parents are still together. And they're both the best parents ever. They've given me such a great life. And I feel like I was never grateful for it until recently. And like now I can really appreciate it and see it and see, I just consider myself very lucky and I just, I don't know. I love my parents. They're great.

• 4:51Bunnie XO?

  I love that. So there's no trauma.

• 4:53Speaker 02

  No, not, yeah, no, not with my parents.

• 4:55Bunnie XO?

  Gotcha. How long have they been together?

• 4:58Speaker 02

  Um, should I know that? Like, I don't know.

• 5:02Bunnie XO?

  She's like, bitch, I don't know. Just as fucking as long as I've been alive.

• 5:05Speaker 02

  Yeah. My mom always says, cause my dad is like literally a sweetheart. Like I love my dad so much. And my mom always says, well, he was a player before, like, they dated for nine years before they got married. And she's like, I, it took him a while to finally settle down with me, but now he loves me.

• 5:19Bunnie XO?

  He must be a Sagittarius. Is he a Sagittarius?

• 5:21Speaker 02

  He's a Taurus.

• 5:22Bunnie XO?

  Oh, okay. That's my whole team over here.

• 5:23Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 5:24Bunnie XO?

  That all the Tauruses are hooting and hollering over here.

• 5:26Speaker 02

  And then my mom's a Libra, so she's like a peacemaker, I guess.

• 5:28Bunnie XO?

  Wow, balance.

• 5:30Speaker 02

  Me pretending I like know about it. I know like one thing about each sign.

• 5:33Bunnie XO?

  I love that. Um, so what about siblings?

• 5:36Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 5:36Bunnie XO?

  Are you the only child or is there other, was there other siblings?

• 5:40Speaker 02

  No, I have, um, a brother and, well, I had a sister. So my brother and I are 14 years apart. My sister and I were 14 months apart. So that's like a huge age gap, but my mom had my brother when she was 18 and he never knew his dad. So my dad basically like raised him. Um, I don't know when my parents exactly met, but, um, for the most part, my dad is his dad.

• 6:01Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 6:02Speaker 02

  I don't think he calls him dad, but like he is. And, um, yeah. And then my sister Kat, we're 14 months apart. So she was always like the one grade older than me, you know? Um, and she passed away two years ago. She actually passed away five days after I moved here to Nashville. So.

• 6:16Bunnie XO?

  Um, so growing up, were you pretty close with yours, with Kat? Because you guys were like.

• 6:21Speaker 02

  We were literally like, like Kendall and Kylie. Like we have the same age difference as them. That's what I always, and we're the same age as them. So I always would say like, oh my God, we're like the Kendall and Kylie of the South. Like, um, and we just, I don't know. We were, you know, always really close, especially when we were younger, you know, like I wore pink, she wore blue, but we were in the matching outfits. We weren't twins, but we always, you know, we're on every sports team together, did everything, like went into. You know, hung out with all the same friends, stuff like that.

• 6:48Bunnie XO?

  Growing up, did you ever get into like substance abuse or drinking or like what were your high school years? Were you like, were you like the cheerleader or like describe to me what Christie was like in high school?

• 7:00Speaker 02

  So I like my sister was like my role model, like what she did, I would do, but she would also never make me do something really fucked up.

• 7:08Bunnie XO?

  So she was fourteen months older or younger?

• 7:10Speaker 02

  Older.

• 7:11Bunnie XO?

  Okay.

• 7:11Speaker 02

  And you know, she told me to do something, I'm like, okay, sure. Like she does it, it's fine. And so she kind of like got me into stuff, but never anything bad. Like she never wanted me to do anything past like she, you know, she wanted me to smoke weed with her when I was really little and like she didn't even drink. I don't know, but she never would want me to go past that or anything. It was always very motherly and protective over me. But um, I never realized how I guess like wild my life was growing up until now. I talk about it to my friends and they're like, that's fucking crazy. Like I smoked weed with her when I was like eleven and twelve, like

• 7:43Bunnie XO?

  Holy shit.

• 7:44Speaker 02

  Literally twelve years old and I was probably like oregano, but you know, I didn't know, but I, we would just get like high and be like weird little twelve year olds and smoke out of the Sprite can and stuff like that.

• 7:53Bunnie XO?

  How would you guys know to even smoke weed that young? I was still fucking making my Barbie dolls hump.

• 7:57Speaker 02

  So, no. Okay, we did that too. We really did do that.

• 8:01Bunnie XO?

  Playing house and with the neighbors, with the neighborhood boys in the forts. Like that's what I was doing.

• 8:06Speaker 02

  Well, um, she always looked like thirty when she was, you know, like fourteen, fifteen.

• 8:12Bunnie XO?

  Wow.

• 8:13Speaker 02

  She always looked so grown.

• 8:15Bunnie XO?

  Just an old soul.

• 8:16Speaker 02

  She got double D's when she was in fourth grade.

• 8:17Bunnie XO?

  Holy shit balls.

• 8:18Speaker 02

  And so I, like whenever I was like in fourth grade, I hadn't had my period yet. And so I was like, where, where are mine? When are they coming? You know, they're gonna be, one day I'm gonna have big boobs. They never came in, so. Never got boobs, but it's okay.

• 8:29Bunnie XO?

  You're still hot.

• 8:29Speaker 02

  But she always had like, you know, perfect teeth and huge boobs and like long hair and it was just like, I don't know. So she always hung out with like older people and stuff like that, I guess. I don't know. She was just so cool. I was always Kat Howard's little sister. Like no one knew my name. Like I was her little sister. She like ran shit and she was like known. Everyone knew her. She was like very popular around Gwinnett County, I guess.

• 8:50Bunnie XO?

  Oh, I love that though.

• 8:51Speaker 02

  And I just tagged along.

• 8:53Bunnie XO?

  Seems like you idolized her a lot. So did you? So smoking weed, did that turn into anything else? Or was it just always partying?

• 8:59Speaker 02

  Um.

• 9:00Bunnie XO?

  Like, you know.

• 9:00Speaker 02

  I never, even to this day, I still try and get myself into it and I, I can't. And I like, people always suggest it for me with my anxiety and stuff. I'm like, y'all don't understand, like, it makes it worse. And I'll try like gummies, I'll try everything. It doesn't mean I don't do it. I still do, but like,

• 9:13Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 9:14Speaker 02

  I can't get into it. But um, I became more of, I'm like the drinker and she's never, she never really liked drinking. Like she just,

• 9:20Bunnie XO?

  Gotcha.

• 9:21Speaker 02

  Did other things, but I only would drink. But even when I think back about all the parties that like I'd be a freshman at, and there'd be all seniors, like, I don't even think that, like, what was I doing? Like, was I even drinking or was I just weird and talkative? Like, I was so outgoing when I was around her and growing up. And now it's like such the opposite. It's weird.

• 9:38Bunnie XO?

  She was your safe space.

• 9:39Speaker 02

  Yeah, I feel like I have to have a drink in my hand to like be in public or be anywhere.

• 9:43Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, I understand that.

• 9:44Speaker 02

  Might be a problem, but like, I just don't go anywhere, you know?

• 9:48Bunnie XO?

  Yeah. So do you struggle with anxiety or, or let's, we'll reel it back, but you said that, um, so Kat was fourteen months older than you. So you guys both graduated, or she graduated, then you graduated and then, you moved here or what, what happens after?

• 10:04Speaker 02

  She actually didn't do high school the way I did. So this was like when we were young and when she was a freshman in high school. No, I was a freshman and she was a sophomore. She, I think got kicked out. I don't know. She got kicked out of a lot of places we went. I was always moving schools, but lived in the same house because I would just follow wherever she went. My mom would pick me up and say, we're going to somewhere else. So the next day I'd be the new girl.

• 10:28Bunnie XO?

  Was she just like fighting or?

• 10:30Speaker 02

  It was like, it started as in like her having a pink strip in her hair. And then it started as in her calling a teacher a bitch. Like, it wasn't ever anything that was like,

• 10:37Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, that warranted the punishment.

• 10:39Speaker 02

  We first started at a private school. So like the things we were doing were insane. Like, people, I don't know. And it wasn't even bad. And I just get picked up from carpool and be like, okay, where are we going? Time to meet new friends here and here. And like, you know, she'd walk in somewhere and make friends by the end of the day where I was quiet and was like, I don't know. But she would just introduce me to people and stuff like that.

• 10:57Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 10:58Speaker 02

  But um, yeah, so anyways, high school, we were in a new high school and she didn't last very long. I don't remember exactly why this time, but she always went to like alternative schools at that point. Um, she would be like in and out of rehabs and behavioral places. And since she was under eighteen, she would like have to stay in them.

• 11:17Bunnie XO?

  Rehab's just for her behavior or for substances?

• 11:20Speaker 02

  So that's probably when like all the substance started.

• 11:23Bunnie XO?

  Gotcha.

• 11:24Speaker 02

  So how I said she was really pretty and like looked, you know, whatever. So when she was fourteen, she dated an eighteen year old. And his dad was like a doctor, but his dad was like really like a sketchy doctor, like was prescribing people things they shouldn't.

• 11:39Bunnie XO?

  Like he had like one of those doctors at the pill.

• 11:41Speaker 02

  In his house. It was something really weird. Like I know his license is taken away now.

• 11:44Bunnie XO?

  Oh, my gosh.

• 11:46Speaker 02

  So he, the son.

• 11:47Bunnie XO?

  Those are the most dangerous doctors.

• 11:48Speaker 02

  It's literally blows my mind to this day.

• 11:49Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, no, it's crazy.

• 11:51Speaker 02

  And so the son would like get stuff like I literally am gonna sound stupid, but like triple Cs, like cough syrup.

• 11:57Bunnie XO?

  Okay, yeah, yeah, yeah.

• 11:58Speaker 02

  Skittles or I don't know. Yeah. So I remember that's what he would take and he'd give them to her. And he would just, you know, she was just fourteen. Like I can't even remember my brain when I was fourteen. Like I was weird. I was a different person. And she said, yes, one time. And then like, you know, it led to other things. And then eventually, you know, her body would start hurting and she'd move on to more hardcore stuff.

• 12:21Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 12:22Speaker 02

  And it was always.

• 12:23Bunnie XO?

  Develop a habit.

• 12:24Speaker 02

  Yeah. And it was weird because I personally never knew anyone that did any of that stuff or I just, I just didn't understand it. So to me, I, I, I just didn't get why, like, what are you doing? Like you have everything handed. You're beautiful. You have everything handed to you.

• 12:41Bunnie XO?

  You're watching your idol.

• 12:42Speaker 02

  Parents. We had a great upbringing. What, like, why are you doing this gross stuff? Like that's my head, what I was thinking.

• 12:49Bunnie XO?

  Well, it's gotta be hard as a child too, to, to watch your idol.

• 12:52Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 12:52Bunnie XO?

  Go through that, you know?

• 12:53Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 12:54Bunnie XO?

  You really cherished your sister. So to see that and not be able to help her probably was, took a pretty big toll on you.

• 13:03Speaker 02

  Yeah, for sure. And she'd just be like embarrassed. She'd be like, you think I wanna do this? My, like, I'm in pain. She would wake up with like nightmares and I'd be, you know, like fifteen and I'd be, hear her screaming and getting sick, like dope sick. And I'd just go wake her up. I'd be like, what are you doing? And she'd be like, I'm hurting, Chrissy. I'm hurting. I'm hurting, but I don't wanna use like sweats. And I did not know what was going on because I wasn't educated about this at all. And I don't think my parents really understood what was happening either. Just so it just developed into this huge thing that no one could ever, you know?

• 13:35Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 13:36Speaker 02

  And that was when she was like fourteen and you know, she battled that never went away for, I mean, it's the rest of your life, you know, when you're an addict. You're always gonna fight that even when you're clean, you're always every day. Like it's just from then on, it just kind of went not downhill. She always was the same bright, full person, but it went from me live, like looking up to this person I idolized. Watching her be so confident and cool and like so popular to being the person. I've never met anyone but her who's hated themselves so much. She's just like was so insecure and just like. It just wasn't herself. It was so weird.

• 14:11Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 14:12Speaker 02

  And I felt like she just started then envying me and being jealous of me because I was going to proms and I was doing foot, going to football games and having friend groups. And she was, we were the same age and she was just having to fight every day and just get sick. And it was like, it flipped and it was probably like, you know, really hard for her and sad.

• 14:28Bunnie XO?

  Did they ever find out like if maybe she was battling like bipolar disorder or?

• 14:33Speaker 02

  Well, our whole family has like mental illness. Like we're all like, all of us.

• 14:36Bunnie XO?

  Same sister.

• 14:37Speaker 02

  All of us, every single, my mom, my brother.

• 14:40Bunnie XO?

  I'm a huge advocate for speaking about mental health because I have battled suicidal depression and anxiety to the point where I couldn't even, what's up? No, he's snoring, he's sleeping.

• 14:53Speaker 02

  His name's Trash? What is it?

• 14:58Speaker 02

  That is so funny. Trash.

• 15:02Bunnie XO?

  Is it really loud? Baby, you gotta wake up. Sorry, he's asleep in my lap.

• 15:07Speaker 02

  Trash, me as a dog.

• 15:10Bunnie XO?

  That is funny. I think we need to name our next animal Trash. That would be awesome.

• 15:15Speaker 02

  I like that.

• 15:15Bunnie XO?

  I actually don't mind it. It doesn't bother me at all. Um, no, we're huge advocates about mental health on this podcast because you know, I have battled it. For a long fucking time. My mom was fucking diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic. So I get it. You know, mental health is. A topic that really needs to be talked about way more than it is, you know, so do you battle with anxiety and stuff like that?

• 15:39Speaker 02

  Yeah, I have terrible anxiety.

• 15:41Bunnie XO?

  Was this before or after your sister's death, which we'll get to that?

• 15:45Speaker 02

  A lot of people ask me that, but it was before. Um, I think a lot of people think that it didn't start till after.

• 15:50Bunnie XO?

  No, I would think that it would start before when you saw her start crumbling and felt helpless.

• 15:54Speaker 02

  Yeah, and it made me, I feel like I always had her with me going places. She wasn't ever present anymore. She was always off places. So it made me just like go from kind of being enabled by her, literally like she was like a mom to me.

• 16:08Bunnie XO?

  To you being her caretaker.

• 16:11Speaker 02

  Yeah, and then I just like didn't know how to speak to people and didn't know how to like, ah, like, I don't know, I just started getting nervous about going places without having someone next to me when I was, grew up only having someone next to me. I didn't know anything else. So it just made me like a really like, socially awkward person and very like just anxious about everything I do. Um, and I used to not be like that at all, so.

• 16:33Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, it's trauma. It's just, you know, what you went through is trauma.

• 16:36Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 16:37Bunnie XO?

  Um, so, do you think that you moving to Nashville was you kind of trying to get away and separate yourself from your sister?

• 16:44Speaker 02

  Yes. Which makes me feel like shit. Because the last year of her life was out of every single year ever, um, was the least close we've ever been. And I hate that because even when we like had each other blocked, were in fights, didn't speak for weeks, whatever. I still, you know, we'd still come back or whatever. And it was like the longest period of time we'd gone not being okay.

• 17:11Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 17:11Speaker 02

  And I really hated that. And we resolved things before she passed, which thank God, but she was begging me to come visit her and I kept saying, I don't have time because she was in a rehab in South Florida. And I was like, I don't have time to visit you. Like, I'm trying to move. I I just like don't have time for all that when you're clean like we can talk. I was just like annoyed and I was

• 17:29Bunnie XO?

  I get it.

• 17:30Speaker 02

  And so you know, I carry that guilt with me, but at the same time, like I, I don't know. She always like had this thought that she thought that I hated her all the time. Even I go through all her journals and obviously I went through like her texts and stuff. I deleted all her nudes before my parents got her phone.

• 17:44Bunnie XO?

  Oh, that's a good sister though.

• 17:46Speaker 02

  Yeah, my mom was like, can you get in? My mom like doesn't know how to work a phone and like any technology. And she's like, can you find her passcode? Passcode's my name. First thing I guessed. And then I was like, I went straight to the camera roll and I deleted all her videos, all her pictures. Cause I hope someone would do that for me.

• 17:59Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, absolutely.

• 18:00Speaker 02

  You don't think about, but like, yeah, cause my mom's like trying to snoop through stuff. I'm like, uh-uh, you don't, she doesn't need to see that.

• 18:05Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, yeah. You saved your mom a lot of extra heartache.

• 18:08Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 18:09Bunnie XO?

  So you moved here for two days and then what, or five days? You had been in Nashville for five days and then what happens? Walk me through that.

• 18:17Speaker 02

  So I was here for five days and I agreed that my parents agreed that agreed that I could, they'd help me out moving here if I was in school. So I was still doing online college, trying for like the hundredth time. And then I got a nanny job and it was my first day ever on the job. And I finished by eleven thirty AM. Like I started like six AM to eleven. It was just like a trial thing. And my, right when I finished, my dad, that's when my dad called me and gave me the phone call that she passed away. And it was literally so, five days. I hadn't even been there a full week. The first day of my job in this place and my dad's like, you need to get on a plane and come home. And I'm like, how am I supposed to get there by myself? I, how do I, what, what do I pack? What do I do?

• 19:01Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 19:01Speaker 02

  I like, I just, it was traumatizing and I sat for like 12 hours straight in my room in Nashville. And finally.

• 19:10Bunnie XO?

  Fire, you froze.

• 19:12Speaker 02

  Yeah. And I had no one come, you know, I didn't want them to come to me, but it's like, if she were alive, she'd be the one that'd come to me and help me get my stuff together to go. So it was just so weird.

• 19:23Bunnie XO?

  What did she pass away from? Was it an overdose?

• 19:26Speaker 02

  She overdosed, um, fentanyl. But like, that bitch was strong. Like she literally like could take a lot and I just, you know, she did heroin. So when someone does heroin, you know, and they're active, you know, there's a chance.

• 19:42Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 19:43Speaker 02

  And all the time, but in my head, my sister, Cat Howard, was never gonna die. Like I knew, I wasn't stupid. I knew that that's what happened. But you just really don't actually think it's gonna happen to like you and your family. So I was just convinced like dude, stop because she'd be like, I'm so and so days clean. And you just believe that and then it's just never, it really never ends, but then.

• 20:03Bunnie XO?

  Did she pass away in the rehab facility or would the day already release?

• 20:06Speaker 02

  Oh, it was a whole thing. She was in a detox center.

• 20:10Bunnie XO?

  Wow.

• 20:10Speaker 02

  And I had girls reach out to me and tell me the full story after she passed because we only knew really nothing. Nobody was helping us at all. And my mom was like batshit crazy, like getting a detective, like we need to get to the bottom of this. Why did the deaths in South Florida, they just kind of walk over them like they're nothing.

• 20:25Bunnie XO?

  Right. Especially like having to do with drugs. I hate that because I feel like people who are addicts don't deserve justice.

• 20:31Speaker 02

  We're like, well, what, where was she? What was the, did anybody do, save her? What? Nobody was telling us anything. It was so weird. And so what happens was the detox center kicked her out, but didn't like tell my parents, which I guess when she's twenty four, they don't, or yeah, twenty four, I guess you don't have to notify the parents, but my parents were the ones like paying for her to be there. So it's like,

• 20:51Bunnie XO?

  Wow.

• 20:52Speaker 02

  You know, whatever. So they apparently this, this place she got caught using. Um, I think she like went out and like to buy Halloween decorations and got some stuff. And she got caught and um, one of the girls in there who called me after she died and explained, I'd never met this girl before. She told me like, Christie, I knew something wasn't right. Like her lips were purple and they sent her out of there. They bought her a lift and they sent her to from a rehab to a detox center. And they bought it for her and put her in that car with her lips blue and everything. She died in the car on the way to a new place.

• 21:24Bunnie XO?

  Oh, my gosh.

• 21:25Speaker 02

  In a lift. And the lift driver, I even tried to like get in contact with my mom couldn't find this person on Facebook. She couldn't find him. Like just to ask what happened. I found the lift driver on TikTok and he doesn't speak English, but he followed me back and messaged me and it just, I mean, there wasn't much he could tell me clearly, but.

• 21:42Bunnie XO?

  Oh, yeah. Cause he didn't speak English.

• 21:43Speaker 02

  Yeah, but still, just like I went on detective shit. Like I was able to find out so much stuff and like get into all her iClouds and literally I like detective this shit because nobody helped us, literally no one.

• 21:55Bunnie XO?

  That's a good sister though.

• 21:56Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 21:57Bunnie XO?

  I'm sorry that happened to you. Like, I'm sorry that happened to your family. That's just all around hurtful and I'm just glad that now you're using your platform for awareness. Let's start talking about that. So what happens after her death and you coming back to Nashville? How's Christie feeling?

• 22:19Speaker 02

  I'm okay. I don't know. I guess I just try and be normal. Um, I really didn't like I was doing social media before she passed away.

• 22:27Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 22:28Speaker 02

  So it's not like I was trying to like use that to build.

• 22:30Bunnie XO?

  No, not at all.

• 22:31Speaker 02

  I'm just saying like that's not why whatever like so people I was vlogging that day because I do daily vlogs.

• 22:37Bunnie XO?

  On like YouTube or were you still doing TikTok?

• 22:40Speaker 02

  But this was I just set my camera up the day of my first day my nanny job and I do my daily vlog. So I vlogged me that morning waking up. And I wasn't expecting that to happen. So people were like, you know, whenever I first posted a video of the day, whatever, people were like, who like records themselves doing this? And I was like, I didn't know I was gonna get that phone call. I recorded myself because I do every day.

• 22:59Bunnie XO?

  That's your real life.

• 23:01Speaker 02

  Yeah. And you see how I'm literally happy. Like I moved into a new city. It's my first Friday night. It was the first weekend I ever had. I was like, am I gonna go out with new friends? Like, what am I gonna do? And then literally my whole entire world flipped over just like that.

• 23:12Bunnie XO?

  And it's and it's honestly, people don't realize it's fucking therapeutic. When I was going through this journey with my mom, I vlogged pretty much all of it, you know, that I could put on TikTok. And people would be like, why are you vlogging your mom in this vulnerable state? First of all, my mom loved it and wanted to be on it. And secondly, it was me trying to not only help people, but to help myself in processing all of the fucking emotions that I was going through.

• 23:35Speaker 02

  I don't even care if no one watches it or listens.

• 23:37Bunnie XO?

  Like it's I want it for my timestamp, my fucking collection of memories, you know?

• 23:43Speaker 02

  And my sister hated being on camera, like didn't ever let me, because I always was vlogging on YouTube and stuff, didn't barely ever let me put her in anything just because she was so self-conscious about the way she looked and stuff like that. And she just hated social media. We were total opposites in that aspect. And there's some vlogs and some clips and little things I have of her. And I'm just so thankful that I was annoying and it would cause fights of me pulling the camera out and her be like, put that down or I'm gonna leave. Like I swear to God, if you're recording right now.

• 24:10Bunnie XO?

  To hear her voice.

• 24:10Speaker 02

  Yeah. And I'm so glad I have all those clips and that I was annoying because now that's all I have left. And like, so that's why I literally record everything at all times of what I'm doing. And even people that have like shit on what I've done or what I do in the past, they're all like, that's really cool that you made that video. Like I recorded my whole senior year of high school and carried my camera around to parties and stuff. And at the end of the year.

• 24:30Bunnie XO?

  Awesome.

• 24:31Speaker 02

  Yeah, I always was like the girl with the camera.

• 24:32Bunnie XO?

  Were you doing this for, you weren't doing it for TikTok? It was for YouTube?

• 24:35Speaker 02

  No, TikTok wasn't out then. I was just always doing, so like I did vines, I did social media. I don't ever remember not like recording myself in my life. Like even when I had just like. Like on MySpace, like that's how far like

• 24:50Speaker 02

  Do you remember Xanga?

• 24:51Bunnie XO?

  I was never on it. I always did like, I see I well, it's I'm like always late to the fucking party. Ask her. It took me forever to get on TikTok, but once I figured that motherfucker out, here I am. You know, like, that's how I am with social media. Like, I love it, but it's like, I I'm, I think it's the Aquarius in me. I just don't ever ju- jump on every trend. I wait to see like what it's gonna do. And then if I can monetize off of it, I will.

• 25:14Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 25:14Bunnie XO?

  So that's I never got into the Zynga or whatever. Yeah, was it Zynga?

• 25:19Speaker 02

  Xanga, I don't know. I was like way too young to be on it though.

• 25:21Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 25:22Speaker 02

  I I just, I shouldn't have been.

• 25:24Bunnie XO?

  I love that though, that you've always had that vlogger mentality though.

• 25:28Speaker 02

  Always. I was just determined.

• 25:29Bunnie XO?

  Was your break on um, on YouTube or did you, your following blow up whenever you got on TikTok?

• 25:35Speaker 02

  It was TikTok, but on YouTube.

• 25:37Bunnie XO?

  TikTok's life's changing.

• 25:39Speaker 02

  It is.

• 25:39Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 25:39Speaker 02

  But on YouTube, I was like posting for years and it wasn't growing. I grew a lot on Vine, but then Vine died, so. Thanks, there goes that. But I never.

• 25:50Bunnie XO?

  It's crazy because Vine like blew the fuck up.

• 25:52Speaker 02

  I loved Vine.

• 25:53Bunnie XO?

  And was insane. And then as fast as it came, it was gone.

• 25:56Speaker 02

  Yeah. And I still don't really know why it was gone.

• 25:58Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, me either. I thought it was so weird because I was on Vine too, but I never, I I got on Vine very late and then fucking as soon as I got on there, it fucking went to shit. So I was like, God, all right, well.

• 26:07Speaker 02

  You scared it away?

• 26:08Bunnie XO?

  Back to Facebook, you know, or fucking whatever I was doing. Um, so, you know, you're you came back here, you are moving on and picking up the pieces of your life. And TikTok starts blowing up. What is, what, paint that picture for me of when TikTok starts blowing up for you?

• 26:26Speaker 02

  Um, well, it actually blew up kind of before I moved to Nashville.

• 26:29Bunnie XO?

  Okay, cool.

• 26:30Speaker 02

  So I'd say like in 2019 and.

• 26:33Bunnie XO?

  God, you were on it. You were like one of the first people on it.

• 26:35Speaker 02

  Early, like when there was, I was like the oldest person on it. Like, it was only little kids and it was when it was just dancing and I used to be a dancer. So that's all, I was just a dancing page. I just danced and I think that's so funny to think about now, but I loved that. And then.

• 26:50Bunnie XO?

  That's why I wouldn't get on TikTok.

• 26:51Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 26:52Bunnie XO?

  I was like, motherfucker, I'm 40 years old.

• 26:53Speaker 02

  And now people still think it's like that. And I'm like, no, no, no, now it's not.

• 26:56Bunnie XO?

  Oh, it's completely different.

• 26:57Speaker 02

  Yeah, but I loved, I was like dancing app. Oh, my God, I'm on it. So I was doing that and then I got banned. And this was, you know, before when I was complaining about getting banned on TikTok, you know, my friends are like, why do you even have that app? That's literally a little kid app. And this was like even before COVID. And then COVID happened and everybody got the app. And then I, you know, but I was still the only person from like my town or whatever that had TikTok. So people like knew I had like grown a following on the second account. And then as soon as, you know, COVID, everybody started getting it.

• 27:27Speaker 02

  My second account got banned and I was just so annoyed because now everyone has it and now like.

• 27:33Speaker 02

  Yeah. And so that's why I was like.

• 27:35Bunnie XO?

  I got banned a few times too.

• 27:36Speaker 02

  It's so dumb. And I was like, I'm just gonna give up on this and I wasn't gonna make another one, but it's like what I like to do. So I made a third account and I just made my username. Queen of getting banned. And I think that's so dumb. I didn't put any thought into it. And then of course that account blew up and now it's like I'm stuck with that username. Like if I change it, I just, I mean, you're able to change it, but I feel like it's just like who I am now.

• 27:54Bunnie XO?

  Once you start branding yourself, you have to keep that.

• 27:57Speaker 02

  And I made it as a joke. So that's why I just, I just don't have this connection to it.

• 28:00Bunnie XO?

  I see a lot of other people who have kind of bit off the name too. You started a trend with that. And it actually got my attention too. Whenever I first stumbled upon you, I was like, Queen of getting banned. Like, why is she getting banned? You know? So I like went on your page and stuff and I was like, oh, she's cute.

• 28:13Speaker 02

  I haven't been banned in like a while. So people are like, what like raunchy shit do you do? And I'm like, it's not bad. I just used to dance and get banned.

• 28:20Bunnie XO?

  I literally do, do nothing. I breathe and exist on that app and I thought I could get banned. I've been banned.

• 28:26Speaker 02

  I have account warnings on both.

• 28:27Bunnie XO?

  Oh, me too. My main account, I think we're at what? 2.7 now? I've been banned three times.

• 28:32Speaker 02

  Like completely taken away?

• 28:33Bunnie XO?

  On that same account, yes. I haven't gotten banned on my backup account yet and we just hit a million over there, but yeah.

• 28:40Speaker 02

  Yeah, I have a backup or spam account too.

• 28:42Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, you just put whatever on there.

• 28:44Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 28:45Bunnie XO?

  Better views than my fucking main account.

• 28:47Speaker 02

  People like I put hours into my vlogs and stuff and then my backup one is just me like literally talking on the toilet. So stupid and people are like, we like this better. Why?

• 28:57Bunnie XO?

  No, it's crazy. The same fucking shit happens to me. So what has TikTok done for your life? Like as far as changing it? You don't have to obviously be a bartender.

• 29:06Speaker 02

  No, and I'm glad because now I'm so like, I just can't even imagine doing that. Um, because it's a lot of socializing, literally like my job when I was bartending was to like, talk to people.

• 29:18Bunnie XO?

  I don't even know how I did that for that long.

• 29:20Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 29:20Bunnie XO?

  I don't, I hate talking to people besides having like one-on-one conversations like this. Being in a fucking bar now, like I'm sober. Are you sober or do you drink or?

• 29:28Speaker 02

  I drink.

• 29:28Bunnie XO?

  Yeah. What are you drinking right now?

• 29:30Speaker 02

  This is like an Alani seltzer. They sent it to me.

• 29:33Bunnie XO?

  No, I love it.

• 29:34Speaker 02

  I don't drink like alone. I only drink when I go out and I only go out with my boyfriend. I don't like ever go out other than that, but.

• 29:40Bunnie XO?

  Ah, are you in love?

• 29:42Speaker 02

  Yes, I am.

• 29:42Bunnie XO?

  I think I saw a video that popped up on my FYP and you said that you guys are um, in a long distance relationship?

• 29:49Speaker 02

  Yeah, so Walt's been my best friend since high.

• 29:52Bunnie XO?

  Walt? I love Walt. That is awesome. You look like you would be with a Walt.

• 29:58Bunnie XO?

  No, it just fits the aesthetic, I think.

• 30:00Speaker 02

  I always roast him for his name.

• 30:03Bunnie XO?

  I love it.

• 30:03Speaker 02

  But he's like literally this, like, he's like happy to be alive. Like, he's like happy. I don't know. He has like no like mental illness and like no.

• 30:12Bunnie XO?

  Who are those people?

• 30:13Speaker 02

  Doesn't have like family drama, like family trauma or like fucked up pa- like nothing.

• 30:17Bunnie XO?

  I don't know.

• 30:18Speaker 02

  And I know that like everyone says everyone has secrets, but he literally is clean, has nothing. And it's so weird to me. And we're like polar opposites, but it works. We were best friends since we were like in middle school when I was new um, to my high school. Or, well, I moved to middle school and um, we were just friends. I dated someone else for seven years and he was still my best friend. And then after my sister passed away, we started dating because I was dating someone else and just the way he was there at my house. Just as my friend more than like my actual boyfriend was, I just started looking at him in a different light. And like, I've always loved him, but like I, I just, I don't know. I fell in love with him and I. I don't know if it was like my sister bringing us together or what, but we, yeah, I don't know. We were friends first, but. Now we're dating.

• 31:00Bunnie XO?

  I love that. So where does Walt live?

• 31:02Speaker 02

  He lives, our parents' houses are like five minutes away.

• 31:04Bunnie XO?

  Okay, gotcha. So he's from Georgia also.

• 31:06Speaker 02

  Yeah, but he just interviewed last week for jobs here in Nashville. So excited.

• 31:10Bunnie XO?

  Are you guys ready to take that next step and like live together?

• 31:13Speaker 02

  Yeah, I've always said like, I want babies. I want to get married and like stuff like that.

• 31:17Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 31:18Speaker 02

  But now that I like hear it, I'm like, ew, no way. No.

• 31:23Bunnie XO?

  You're like, no, let's wait.

• 31:24Speaker 02

  Give me ten more years, please.

• 31:25Bunnie XO?

  I love that. But you never know. When you guys move in, you might get the bug, the baby bug.

• 31:29Speaker 02

  Yeah, no, I just have, I just got a pet cat and I can't.

• 31:32Bunnie XO?

  Soy sauce, right?

• 31:33Speaker 02

  Yes. I can't. One of my followers named her.

• 31:35Bunnie XO?

  I love the name. I think that's awesome. I did see you hanging out with our, uh, dear sweet friend Dimp's. How was that?

• 31:41Speaker 02

  Yes.

• 31:41Bunnie XO?

  Isn't she fucking hilarious?

• 31:43Speaker 02

  She's insane. I mean, but like in a good way. She's the same as she is online.

• 31:48Bunnie XO?

  Oh, no, definitely. She is just a little drop of golden sun. I love it.

• 31:52Speaker 02

  And she has this whole community that just like hates her. And I had no.

• 31:56Bunnie XO?

  Do you have one of those?

• 31:57Speaker 02

  No, I didn't even know. But I just learned in like this year, a few months ago, and people were so upset at me for hanging out with her, which I think is like.

• 32:06Bunnie XO?

  Oh, I'm at, they were talking about trying to cancel me for having her on the podcast. And I was just like.

• 32:10Speaker 02

  And I, I just still can't figure out why. I hung out with her and she's just a normal person.

• 32:14Bunnie XO?

  These people are sick. And it's like I tell everybody, I won't even say the website's name on my podcast.

• 32:19Speaker 02

  Oh, sorry.

• 32:20Bunnie XO?

  Ever get, no, we'll, we'll bleep it. Cause I don't ever give them any clout. It's literally a place of people who don't belong anywhere. So they fucking have, they just seethe and swim in toxicity and they literally just have found their beehive of just toxic bullshit of just tearing people down. And it's just disgusting. It's literally just, I don't even go on that website.

• 32:42Speaker 02

  I can't.

• 32:43Bunnie XO?

  And it's crazy because none of that hate reaches me unless I go and I look for it. That's how not powerful that site is. It's literally a bunch of people that are just bound to that one place because nobody wants to deal with their fucking bullshit. You know, but it's like, they're pretty scary. You know, like a lot of them have really came after a lot of creators and it's just sad.

• 33:04Speaker 02

  Like, why is it so personal to them?

• 33:06Bunnie XO?

  I don't know. And I don't know how it's legal.

• 33:08Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 33:08Bunnie XO?

  I don't know how it's legal or how that site is even available to be up. I think it's gonna take them really hurting somebody before they'll even look at that website to get it taken down.

• 33:18Speaker 02

  Yeah, cuz it's

• 33:19Bunnie XO?

  Unfortunately.

• 33:19Speaker 02

  I I haven't even had that bad stuff that I saw about me. But one little thing like drove me into cuz you know TikTok kinda like doesn't, people can be mean, but it kind of limits out

• 33:29Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 33:30Speaker 02

  things that people say.

• 33:30Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 33:31Speaker 02

  So I don't really get that much hate and hate that I do.

• 33:33Bunnie XO?

  Oh, no, I live in my nice little pink bubble. I don't

• 33:36Speaker 02

  I laugh with it. I'm like, like, people, please roast me because I can tell that it's like a good, like, you know, yeah, you're right, whatever. It's nothing like actually deep. And on that thing, like, I only saw it cuz people were emailing me, my business email, like,

• 33:47Bunnie XO?

  Oh, no, they sent it to me too.

• 33:49Speaker 02

  And they're like, hey, like, I love you, and I just want you to know that people are saying this and like, sent me the link and I was like, what? And then it's like they know everything, everything and or think they do about like my family and stuff and

• 33:59Bunnie XO?

  That's the scary thing. That's the scary thing is that these people can say whatever they want and it's solid. And if you try to defend yourself against them, then you're the bad person. You're the bully. Like, you're supposed to let these people just punk you. Like, I don't care. The way I have, every time I do a podcast drop or I announce who's coming, I do it just to stir it up. Because literally, their hate gets me so many views and downloads that it's like, I just use it to monetize off of. I'm like, keep talking about me, baby.

• 34:26Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 34:26Bunnie XO?

  You know, like, I don't care what you say about me. The more shit you talk about me, the more it's gonna make people curious. So bring it on. I luckily don't have a page yet. I do not want a page. So if any of you fucking shitbags are listening, I don't want one, okay?

• 34:39Speaker 02

  I don't want one either, please. I'm literally gonna cry.

• 34:41Bunnie XO?

  But I mean, if you guys do make one, just know I'm still gonna make money off of it.

• 34:45Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 34:45Bunnie XO?

  Even more money than I already have.

• 34:47Speaker 02

  Get my name out there.

• 34:48Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, exactly. So what can we expect from you for the next year? Like, going into this brand new year, you know, twenty twenty-three? What do you have any goals that you wanna reach? Anything exciting?

• 35:00Speaker 02

  Um, I don't know.

• 35:02Bunnie XO?

  She's like, bitch, I'm taking it day by day. Leave me alone.

• 35:04Speaker 02

  Yeah, I don't know. I just, this is all so cool to me. It's what I've always wanted to do.

• 35:07Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 35:08Speaker 02

  And like even when it was like weird that I made YouTube videos and like no one did, like I never stopped. It just became the thing where like I was the girl that carried the camera. I never, that was just my thing. That was like my comfort thing. I loved editing videos and then I started doing weddings and then I started doing, you know, sports videos and I never.

• 35:23Bunnie XO?

  Do you think maybe because you were so socially awkward that having that camera in between you and other people?

• 35:29Speaker 02

  I love telling stories through my camera. I never spoke about my sister's addiction or her story ever when she was alive, but when I was in like, eighth grade was the first time I did my project on her and it was when she was in a rehab and I made like a whole video and I did a voiceover to it. It was in eighth grade and my language arts project and I shared her story and I wrote like a letter to her, like a letter to my sister. And it was like that and I presented it to the class and then I would just, you know, start doing like visual stuff and I, I just loved that and I loved, e- even for like birthdays, just making montages and I cinematic, I would, you know, take out a loan to get a camera and I would just, I just love, telling stories through video and I love video creation and stuff.

• 36:09Bunnie XO?

  Well, you're amazing at it.

• 36:10Speaker 02

  And then, well, thank you. But then I would do weddings and stuff and I realized like this is, I want to be in the camera.

• 36:16Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 36:16Speaker 02

  I like.

• 36:17Bunnie XO?

  You're like, I'm a star bitch, okay?

• 36:18Speaker 02

  I love being in the camera, but I love editing and stuff like that too. But that's why I was like, I'm just going to keep doing YouTube and try this. And that's why when TikTok went off, it was like the best thing that could ever happen to me because I got to do a little bit of both. Like I could edit and make, you know, cinematic shit, but I could also just talk and be myself because I, you know, I am a personnel or whatever.

• 36:37Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 36:38Speaker 02

  But also I, I like to do the other cool like vlogs and stuff like that.

• 36:42Bunnie XO?

  Yeah. No, I love it. I love your content. It's always fucking entertaining.

• 36:46Speaker 02

  Thanks.

• 36:46Bunnie XO?

  So I think, I think you definitely are on to something and you've found your niche and you have your hardcore, you know, cult fan base. I think all of us TikTokers have like a cult fan base that loves just us and like.

• 36:57Speaker 02

  It's still shocking to me. It's so cute.

• 36:59Bunnie XO?

  Isn't it amazing?

• 37:00Speaker 02

  They will literally go to war for me.

• 37:01Bunnie XO?

  So much love.

• 37:02Speaker 02

  I don't have to do anything, but if I get one hate comment, I would just pin it and I don't say anything and they're.

• 37:06Bunnie XO?

  Why did they take the pin away?

• 37:08Speaker 02

  They, I, I don't know. I thought that was just my.

• 37:09Bunnie XO?

  No, they did it to me too, because I used to do the pen of shame too.

• 37:13Speaker 02

  Yeah, and I just let everyone else like eat them.

• 37:15Bunnie XO?

  But that's, that's why now I just respond to hate, like with like positive messages and then I just let everybody else fucking handle the person. Because it's like, the, the love outweighs the hate, no matter what. You know, like it's always, there's always gonna be more people who love you than don't. And the people who don't like you always end up probably fucking loving you and they're your number one fans because they watch everything you fucking do.

• 37:35Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 37:36Bunnie XO?

  So it's like, either way, it's like, motherfucker, you love me, you just wanna hug, come here. You know, like hug a hater, like our T-shirt that we had. Um, so Walt's moving in, you're just gonna kick it next year, you don't have any plans, you're just like, fuck it, I'm just gonna fucking keep riding this wave.

• 37:51Speaker 02

  I just wanna keep, I, I guess, growing. Like, I just never, even when I didn't have views and stuff and never, you know, really grew a platform. Before I was doing this full-time, I never stopped doing it.

• 38:01Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 38:02Speaker 02

  Like, when people ask me for advice and stuff, I'm like, I just, in my head, even though I wasn't seeing any growth and I was just doing YouTube or whatever, and even when Vine went away, I never stopped doing it, even if I was posting Facebook videos or whatever and no one was watching and people talked, I never stopped because in my head, I wasn't going to let myself, this was the only career path I wanted to do.

• 38:19Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 38:19Speaker 02

  And even though no one around me, I didn't know anyone personally who had like, was an influencer or did any of that, I wasn't going to do anything else. I was so determined, even if I was bartending and vlogging, vlogging myself bartending. I wasn't gonna stop, like, I was only gonna do that. And so I'm still, yes, I'm finally like, doing it full-time, but I don't think I'm ever gonna stop wanting to grow. Like, I'm very hungry at wanting to do more and build, just be bigger and bigger and whatever that is, but.

• 38:45Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, as far as your brand goes, the sky's the limit. You can do whatever you want, you know?

• 38:48Speaker 02

  Yeah, unless I get banned again, but I always come back.

• 38:51Bunnie XO?

  It doesn't matter, you'll come back, baby.

• 38:52Speaker 02

  I know, they always find me.

• 38:53Bunnie XO?

  Don't speak it into the earth, you just return to sender, you're not gonna get banned again. Um, well, I'm so happy that you came on the podcast and I can't wait to have you back. Why don't you tell people where they can find you? Name out all your socia's.

• 39:04Speaker 02

  Okay, you can find me.

• 39:05Bunnie XO?

  What about OnlyFans? You got an OnlyFans?

• 39:06Speaker 02

  No, I don't.

• 39:07Bunnie XO?

  Damn it, I was hoping to see that hootenanny.

• 39:10Speaker 02

  Stop my T D, my cookie?

• 39:12Bunnie XO?

  Yes, yes, for sure.

• 39:14Speaker 02

  I've never been on OnlyFans.

• 39:15Bunnie XO?

  Really?

• 39:16Speaker 02

  Yes.

• 39:16Bunnie XO?

  Oh, well, I have for years.

• 39:18Speaker 02

  Am I missing out a lot?

• 39:20Bunnie XO?

  I mean, we'll talk about it whenever.

• 39:22Speaker 02

  My dad is just so like sweet and I just don't want somebody like going up to, okay, no, I didn't mean like that. I don't want somebody going up to him at work and being like, I saw your daughter on blah, blah, blah.

• 39:31Bunnie XO?

  Oh, God, yeah. I mean, don't do it if, if you have a great, I see, I don't have a good family. So I've got, I'm doing fatherless activities because I have a terrible fucking family. So if you have a good family and you have.

• 39:43Speaker 02

  I didn't mean it like that. Now I feel like shit.

• 39:45Bunnie XO?

  No, no, no, listen. No, I'm always calling myself out.

• 39:48Speaker 02

  I just picture my dad, my sweet, like curiosity, like scrolling and being like, oh my.

• 39:53Bunnie XO?

  No, but it's definitely a bag you could get, mama, for sure.

• 39:56Speaker 02

  I know.

• 39:57Bunnie XO?

  Cause I'm sure people would definitely wanna see you.

• 40:00Speaker 02

  Stop tipping me.

• 40:01Bunnie XO?

  I know, I know.

• 40:01Speaker 02

  Spicy Christie, spicy little.

• 40:03Bunnie XO?

  I'm the devil on your shoulder right now. Um, why don't you go ahead and shout out your social so people can find you?

• 40:07Speaker 02

  Okay, my TikTok is, do I look into the camera or am I looking at you?

• 40:10Bunnie XO?

  You're looking everywhere.

• 40:12Speaker 02

  Okay.

• 40:12Bunnie XO?

  We never know where anything is. Oh, wait, your camera's right there.

• 40:15Speaker 02

  Yeah, right here. My TikTok is Quina Getting Banned. And then my Instagram is Christie Howard and my YouTube is Christie Howard. And then I have Spicy Christie. I also have merch I just dropped. My social security number is.

• 40:28Bunnie XO?

  We need to know what your blood type is, all that jazz.

• 40:30Speaker 02

  I don't know it, but I wanna know it.

• 40:32Bunnie XO?

  Well, thank you for coming on. I really appreciate you being here.

• 40:34Speaker 02

  Thanks for having me.

• 40:35Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, can't wait to have you back. And thank you guys for tuning into another episode of Dumb Blonde. I will see you guys next week. Bye.

• 40:46Bunnie XO?

  I love that. I feel like, see, that was painless, right?

• 40:52Speaker 02

  I, no, no.

• 40:53Bunnie XO?

  We lost it. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

• 40:55Speaker 02

  Stop, I feel bad.

• 40:56Bunnie XO?

  I didn't mean like that. No. I think that was the best response ever.