Jen Hatmaker Pt 2: How to Live Free, Recognize Your Power & Feel Fully Alive, Awake & In Love with Your Life, finally!

Get ready to ignite your own knowing and journey to freedom, faith, self-love and ultimate liberation with our incredible guest and friend Jen Hatmaker! Coming up in this incredible Part 2 episode, it’s truly your permission slip to embrace your own truth, love who you are, realize the power is inside of you, and set yourself free, finally! With our incredible guest and friend Jen Hatmaker! Jen is an author, podcaster, speaker, advocate, educator, mother, and an amazing friend..to millions. From the power of her written word across 14 books, including four New York Times bestsellers, to speaking on stages, leading her own courses and book club communities, and interviewing countless visionaries on her award-winning For The Love podcast, Jen has an undeniable gift for reaching the hearts and minds of her community. She’s also a mom to five amazing kids! Her brand new book AWAKE: A Memoir, is absolutely incredible, And I don’t say that lightly, I couldn’t put it down. a brutally honest, funny, and revealing memoir about the traumatic end of her twenty-six-year-long marriage, and the end of life as she knew it. In the months that followed, she went from being a shiny, funny, popular leader, to a divorced wreck on antidepressants and anti-anxiety meds parenting five kids alone with no clue about her own bank accounts. Having led millions of women for over a decade—urging them to embrace authenticity, find radical agency, and create healthy relationships—this seemed to Jen like nothing less than total failure. You begin the book rooting for Jen, and by the end you find yourself rooting for yourself! Jen speaks to your soul through her own story that somehow feels exactly like your own. AWAKE truly is a permission slip to embrace your own truth, love who you are, Ignite your own knowing and journey to freedom, faith, self-love and ultimate liberation. Jen Hatmaker…welcome to the JKL Show!!!! You can buy Jen's new book, AWAKE: A Memoir here: https://jenhatmaker.com/awake/ ____ Are You Ready to believe in YOU?🙌⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠jamiekernlima.com ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠👈 Sign up for my FREE Inspirational Newsletter and get ready for your self-worth to soar!🩷 Chapters: 0:00 Welcome To The Jamie Kern Lima Show 7:30 The #1 Key to Parenting 10:15 You Can Take Your Power Back 14:50 You Can Create Your Future + Rebuild from Rubble! 21:40 How to Move Through Hard Things 29:20 Your Body Is Wise & Knows 36:10 When Your Religion & 1 Thing You Believe Don’t Match 53:35 Jesus, Religion & Judgement 1:07:05 The Secret to Great Sex And whether you're joining me today for yourself or because someone that you love shared this episode with you, I want to welcome you to the Jamie Kern Lima Show podcast family. And remember this episode is not just for you and me. Please share it with every single person that you know because it can change their life too. It’s such an honor to share this podcast together with you. And please note: I am not a licensed therapist, and this podcast is NOT intended as a substitute for the advice of a physician, professional coach, psychotherapist, or other qualified professional. Click ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to Subscribe to the YouTube Channel Follow me here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Facebook⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Website⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ — Sign up for my inspirational newsletter for YOU at:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ jamiekernlima.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ — Looking for my books on Amazon? Here they are! ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠WORTHY⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Believe IT⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠

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• 0:00Speaker 00

  I did not know how much money I made. I did not know what our bank accounts were. I did not know how to file taxes. I knew nothing. I had outsourced so much of my own real life to somebody else, which was disastrous. I think that is one of my proudest parts of this story. And what I want women to know, nothing is beyond our capacity. I'm never going to be afraid again because I can trust myself. I'm never handing that much power to somebody else and hope they do not run me into a wall.

• 0:37Jamie Kern Lima?

  Coming up in this incredible part two episode with our incredible guest and friend, Jen Hatmaker.

• 0:44Speaker 00

  It doesn't matter how horrible it gets. We still get to write the rest of the story. It's not dependent on someone else. There is something so profound about just going, I am in charge of me. Then everybody else around you is off the hook for being responsible to create your perfect life. Thank God for this terrible story. I got shaken wide awake. And so now I have this incredible opportunity to live the second half of my life with my eyes wide open and just so grateful for everything I've learned.

• 1:26Jamie Kern Lima?

  How can someone listening who's been betrayed love again?

• 1:31Speaker 00

  Mmm, gosh. My body had signaled so many things to me. Jen, something is wrong. And I was like, nope, you don't get a say here because I like the story of my marriage and I like the story of my life. So I'm not interested in your messages because they're messing that up. So bypassing my overactive thinking and getting into my knowing what my body is saying to me. Has been such a joyride.

• 2:01Jamie Kern Lima?

  You came out and shared that you believe LGBTQ plus relationships are holy. And the backlash.

• 2:10Speaker 00

  Oh, for sure. What I finally came to was this. That's the end of my belonging in this space. That is the end of my career as I know it. But knowing that I was duplicitous, I couldn't do it another day. I could not look myself in the mirror. I could not do it. I was either going to keep my career or I was going to keep my integrity. But I could not have both and I had to have my integrity. What would Jesus make of this mess?

• 2:37Speaker 00

  I think about that a lot, how misaligned he would be with a great deal of the people who report to follow him. The real version of him will change your life.

• 2:50Jamie Kern Lima?

  And you know, because you know.

• 2:51Speaker 00

  I know, because I know. We are just worthy to God, just as we are.

• 2:58Jamie Kern Lima?

  Jen is an author, podcaster, speaker, advocate, educator, mother, and amazing friend to millions. From the power of her written word across 14 books, including four New York Times bestsellers, to speaking on stages, leading her own courses and book club communities and interviewing countless visionaries on her award-winning For the Love podcast. Jen has an undeniable gift for reaching the hearts and minds of her community. She's also a mom to five amazing kids. And her brand new book, Awake, A Memoir, is absolutely incredible. And I do not say that lightly. Awake is truly a permission slip to embrace your own truth, love who you are, ignite your

• 3:41Jamie Kern Lima?

  own knowing, and journey to freedom, faith, self-love, and ultimate liberation. And whether today you're listening for yourself or because someone that you love shared this episode with you, I want to welcome you to the Jamie Kern Lima Show Podcast Family. Thank you so much for being here. And can you take two seconds and please hit the subscribe or follow button on the app that you're listening or watching on? Thank you so much. It truly means the world to me. And you can get inspiration right into your inbox from me for free. Just join my newsletter community at jamiekernlima.com.

• 4:16Jamie Kern Lima?

  Also, this incredible podcast episode today, it's not just for you and me. Please share this with every single person that you know who might need some inspiration today, or perhaps a boost in their self-belief, because what you're about to hear can truly impact mine, yours, and their lives too.

• 4:34Speaker 02

  Welcome to the Jamie Kern Lima Show.

• 4:38Jamie Kern Lima?

  Oprah, how have you defied the odds?

• 4:41Speaker 03

  Her show is unlike any I've ever done. A revelation. When you listen, it feels like a hug, but your brain and your spirit and your heart is like, wow.

• 4:52Jamie Kern Lima?

  Melinda French Gates.

• 4:54Speaker 04

  When I look into Jamie's eyes, I feel like I am on some other cosmic level with her.

• 5:01Jamie Kern Lima?

  I could see the light around her. She's infused with light. Imagine overcoming self-doubt, learning to believe in yourself and trust yourself and know you are enough. Welcome to the Jamie Kern Lima Show.

• 5:16Speaker 03

  Jamie Kern Lima is her name. Everybody needs Jamie Kern Lima in their life.

• 5:20Jamie Kern Lima?

  Jamie Kern Lima.

• 5:25Speaker 04

  Jamie, you're so inspiring.

• 5:26Jamie Kern Lima?

  Jamie Kern Lima.

• 5:31Jamie Kern Lima?

  If your kids could only, if your kids could only remember one thing about the way that you love them through this, what would you hope that it is?

• 5:45Speaker 00

  We've had this gift of time now that we can look back with clarity and see some of that. And so some of it, they have said to me. And so I've got, I have that gift in my pocket of what they have, how they perceived.

• 6:08Speaker 00

  The breaking of our family and then us cobbling together what we had left.

• 6:16Speaker 00

  And what they have told me primarily, which I think is my greatest joy, is that

• 6:26Speaker 00

  I was a hundred percent, absolutely with them.

• 6:35Speaker 00

  With them. And that mattered because

• 6:40Speaker 00

  both of their parents weren't. And so we never left each other's side. We were, we were in lockstep, me and those kids. I mean, it was,

• 6:54Speaker 00

  it was a beautiful part of the story, which is a weird thing to say now when I look back on it. And I just think of how many zillions of hours I sat with those kids on the porch. And sometimes we were working through our actual stories. Sometimes it was that direct and, you know, right at it. And we were talking about our real feelings. And sometimes we were just being dumb and absurd and silly and laughing and determined to still have joy in our lives. And those memories are so precious to me. And so I think we really overcomplicate parenting a lot. Like, I, I know I've been handed a billion stories about what does it mean to be a good parent?

• 7:37Speaker 00

  We had all these rules that we were supposed to follow, like do this, this and this, and not that, that and that. And oh God, parenting seemed like such a gauntlet when I was younger and everybody was telling me how to do it right. But now that I've, I'm on the other side of all those building years and I mostly have adults. I'm pretty convinced just the being there part. I'm here. I'll always be here. I'll never not be here. You can always count on me. You can count on me. I'll, I'll screw up along the way, of course, but you can count on me. I will be rock solid for you. Nothing will ever remove me from your life. I think that's pretty much it. Like, we can make a lot of mistakes in there. We can wobble a lot as parents and we do. Um, and that is the lead story that pulls through.

• 8:24Speaker 00

  Our commitment.

• 8:27Jamie Kern Lima?

  When your kids watch you building. Your self-worth and rebuilding your self-worth. What do you hope they learn for themselves?

• 8:37Speaker 00

  Hmm, yeah. Boy, they watched me do that. Listen, Jamie, I, when I first, when all this first happened, it's so embarrassing to say, I did not know how much money I made. Like, I did not know what our bank accounts were. I did not know how to file taxes. I, I did not know what our 401K looked like. I knew nothing. I had outsourced so much of my own real life to somebody else, which was disastrous. They, my kids literally had to watch me, um, learn how to bank,

• 9:22Speaker 00

  learn how to invest, um, write a will, figure out health insurance, um, sort out all the mechanics of an independent life. They watched me do it.

• 9:40Speaker 00

  Messy, messy, messy. It's easy to say in hindsight now, now that I have it sort of all in check. At the time, what a sloppy mess. Uh, and they watched me do it. We learned how to handle money together at the same time. It was like we were all students, me and the kids, um, learning how to manage our money, um, learning what that looked like, um, learning what it meant to handle boring stuff, like broken cars and the yard and the grill. And when the disposal breaks, like,

• 10:16Speaker 00

  they just watched it. And so I think that is one of my proudest parts of this story. And what I want women to know, nothing is beyond our capacity, nothing. It doesn't matter. I was almost 50. We can learn it. We can figure it out. We can do it. We are trustworthy.

• 10:40Speaker 00

  Women are so trustworthy. We're, we're good at all this. Like, I'm never gonna be afraid again, cuz I can trust myself. I'm never handing that much power to somebody else and hope they do not run me into a wall. Never. I'll never do it again. So I'm safe. I'm safe with me. And so having them watch that process and evolution was a joy. And watching them assimilate those lessons at 22, at 24, at 26, instead of like me,

• 11:21Speaker 00

  at 46, at 48, at 50, thrills me. I'm like, look at these kids go. They've got it in hand. They're not gonna have to have a life collapse and rebuild it halfway through. They're gonna have a sturdier foundation. And I'm, I'm so happy about it that I could just skip. Like, as I watch them engage their young adult li- life, I'm like, I feel good about all of you. I feel good about where you're at. I feel good about what you care about. I feel good about what you know. I feel good about what you have already said. I'm, I won't allow that. I'm like, thank God. Thank God. So that's been a fun story to actually live together.

• 12:01Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah. When you imagine many, many, many decades from now, when you and I are both gone.

• 12:09Speaker 00

  Yeah, yeah.

• 12:10Jamie Kern Lima?

  And someone were to ask your kids who their mom is. How do you imagine they'll describe you?

• 12:20Speaker 00

  Oh, boy, I'd love to hear what they have to say about this. What I hope that they'll say, what I hope that they would say, cuz a lot of people think they know me. Cuz of whatever. Cuz of the work that I do. And the public arena I've opted into.

• 12:45Speaker 00

  What I hope that they would say is that my mom is the same person behind the curtain as in front of it. Like, that goofiness, that like genuine joy in other human beings, that care for the world. Like, I hope that they would say, that's who she is. Like, that wasn't a put on. That wasn't like, that wasn't fancy public Jen, and then we had this different mom in the house. We had this completely different personality raising us. I, I hope that they would point to integrity and say,

• 13:30Speaker 00

  we believed, we got to believe who she was, because she was always the same. She was the same, and she was consistent. And our mom, at this age, is still our mom today. And I, I hope that they will say that, and I hope that they just know there, there's no bigger fan on earth of my kids than I am. Just, it couldn't be. It just couldn't ha- it doesn't exist. And I got that from my dad. My dad's like that. My dad was like that with all four of us. And so I come by it honestly. But I just am like, you kids, she's so awesome. She's so smart. They're like, Mom, jeez. I'm like, you're, you've got this. She's so funny.

• 14:13Speaker 00

  If they don't like you, that's their problem. I mean, I am, I am in their corner. And so, I think that's a good legacy to have. I think any kid who at the end of their, their story gets to go, "God, my mom was so in my corner," it's not bad.

• 14:33Jamie Kern Lima?

  In Awake, which is out now, everyone needs to grab their copy, incredible. In Awake, you say, "Chase wonder."

• 14:41Speaker 00

  Yeah.

• 14:42Jamie Kern Lima?

  And you will catch it by the tail, no matter how much you have suffered. The magic has not run out.

• 14:49Speaker 00

  God.

• 14:50Jamie Kern Lima?

  What do you say to the person listening who says, "Jen, I haven't felt magic in a long time. Maybe I just don't have it."

• 14:58Speaker 00

  Oh, my God. First of all, I understand that feeling.

• 15:04Speaker 00

  Did I ever think the magic had run out for a minute? I did. And I thought I, I, I, I used it up too soon. I used it up in the first half of my life. And I'll just limp along in the second half, I guess. So I understand that feeling. I understand the way that loss and betrayal or change or limitations can knock the wind out of us.

• 15:32Speaker 00

  That's real, and I don't mean to diminish any of it.

• 15:36Speaker 00

  I am here to tell you

• 15:40Speaker 00

  that is not a life sentence. It does not have to be. It can be. It can be. I, I know people who choose that as a life sentence.

• 15:49Jamie Kern Lima?

  Hmm, yeah.

• 15:50Speaker 00

  They just choose to stay there. And but you don't have to. It doesn't matter how bad it is. It doesn't matter how horrible it gets.

• 16:07Speaker 00

  We still get to write the rest of the story. It's not dependent on someone else. It isn't. It's not dependent on someone saying they're sorry. It's not dependent on someone, um, coming back. It isn't dependent on a job um, or some level of success, some bar. You, you cannot hand me a bar I have not set for myself. And then I get there and go, oh, my God, it didn't work. I'm still just here I am and I, now the bar is higher. It, it's not a thing. It's not a, it is an inside job and every single person has the capacity to get there. And so I'm, I'm so energized by that. I'm so thrilled by it.

• 16:50Speaker 00

  And now, of course, I get to watch women all the time go, look what I've done. I've rebuilt. Out of like, complete rubble, I decided to build with whole new bricks. And I have created something sturdy and safe and lasting and protective. And I now know that is, that is the birthright of every single person. And so, what I hope is that a lot of the young listeners, or readers, or viewers, or whatever, can sort that out earlier and stop handing all their power to everybody else in their life, expecting everyone else to deliver to them the story they want.

• 17:35Speaker 00

  That's dangerous. That is so dangerous. Not just because those people will let you down, which they will, in big or small ways, but because you are absolutely forfeiting the joy of your own story. There is something so profound about just going,

• 17:56Speaker 00

  "I am in charge of me. I'm in charge of my relationships. I'm in charge of my responses. I'm in charge of my boundaries. I'm in charge of my future. I'm in charge of my joy." And, because that is how life works. That is it. That's the honest truth. It's not because I am making that up, it's because that's how it goes. And so, getting to that point is so exciting. Because not only do you get to step into this space that is just so vibrant, but then everybody else around you is off the hook for, for being responsible to create your perfect life

• 18:39Speaker 00

  and love you just right and get it all so correct that you won't falter. Then they're just free to be normal, wobbly people, to love you to the best of their ability. And you're not putting all that pressure on everyone and everything to deliver for you. You're free. You're free. And everything rises with that. Everything. Your relationships get better. Your work gets more interesting and creative. Your personal life is, it flourishes because you are in charge of you. So, anyway, it was worth every disastrous moment that got me here. It's-

• 19:23Speaker 00

  You could not have told 2020 me that I would be grateful for any of this. You couldn't have. That would have seemed so mean to me. But here I sit five years later, and I am telling you, thank God for this terrible story. Thank God that my life got just, I got literally shaken awake. I did. I don't, I didn't want to at the time. I was mad about it. I got shaken wide awake. And so now I have this incredible opportunity to live the second half of my life with my eyes wide open,

• 20:05Speaker 00

  steer in my own car, and just so grateful for everything I've learned. And that's not because I'm special. I'm normal. And so that is just what is possible for every single person. It's thrilling.

• 20:22Jamie Kern Lima?

  I know you said in some ways, this is every person's story, and that's what makes it so powerful.

• 20:27Speaker 00

  That's right. It's not special. I've said that. When I was trying to get this book, we were pitching the book to publishers, and I, I said something to them where my agent was like, I said, look, my story is not special. And that's what makes it important. And she's like, it's special. I'm like, it's not special. It's not special. It's common. And the bricks that built that wobbly house are common. They're common bricks, and a lot of us use them in the construction of our lives. And so, not special at all. And I think that is what's going to make it useful. And I hope that it is. Again, I did not prescribe anything. I told nobody what to do, what to think, how to feel. This is not a how to.

• 21:11Speaker 00

  It's not a how to rebuild your life after loss. At all.

• 21:15Jamie Kern Lima?

  Which I think is so beautiful and powerful, because what I noticed reading it is that it just clears the space for you to ask your own knowing how to.

• 21:24Speaker 00

  That's it.

• 21:24Jamie Kern Lima?

  How to. How to for me.

• 21:26Speaker 00

  That's it.

• 21:27Jamie Kern Lima?

  And there's the space where you just start going there. And you say in Awake, women are the eighth wonders of the world. May we love this little life with exposed beating hearts tender regardless despite it all. How can someone listening who has, who's been betrayed, love again?

• 21:47Speaker 00

  Hmm. Gosh.

• 21:50Jamie Kern Lima?

  We need to pause for a super brief break and while we do, take a moment to share this episode with every single person that you know who this could inspire because this conversation can truly be the words and inspiration they need to hear today to keep going, to remember that they matter and to feel less alone, more enough, more connected, and more worthy. In life, you don't soar to the level of your hopes and dreams, you stay stuck at the level of your self-worth. When you build your self-worth, you change your entire life. And that's exactly why I wrote my new book, Worthy: How to Believe You Are Enough and Transform Your Life for You.

• 22:32Jamie Kern Lima?

  If you have some self-doubt to destroy and a destiny to fulfill, Worthy is for you. In Worthy, you'll learn proven tools and simple steps that bring life-changing results, like how to get unstuck from the things holding you back, build unshakable self-love, unlearn the lies that lead to self-doubt, and embrace the truths that wake up worthiness, overcome limiting beliefs and imposter syndrome, achieve your hopes and dreams by believing you are worthy of them, and so much more. Are you ready to unleash your greatness and step into the person you were born to be?

• 23:17Jamie Kern Lima?

  Imagine a life with zero self-doubt and unshakable self-worth. Get your copy of Worthy, plus some amazing thank you bonus gifts for you at worthybook.com or the link in the show notes below. Imagine what you'd do if you fully believed in you. It's time to find out with Worthy. Who you spend time around is so important as energy is contagious and so is self-belief.

• 23:51Jamie Kern Lima?

  And I'd love to hang out with you even more, especially if you could use an extra dose of inspiration, which is exactly why I've created my free weekly newsletter that's also a love letter to you, delivered straight to your inbox each and every Tuesday morning from me. If you haven't signed up to make sure that you get it each week, just go to jamiekernlima.com to make sure you're on the list and you'll get your one-on-one with Jamie weekly newsletter and get ready to believe in you. If you're tired of hearing the bad news every single day and need some inspiration, some tips, tools, joy, and love

• 24:32Jamie Kern Lima?

  hitting your inbox, I'm your girl. Subscribe at jamiekernlima.com or in the link in the show notes. Do you struggle with negative self-talk? Living with a constant mental narrative that you're not good enough is exhausting. I know because I spent most of my life in that habit. The words you say to yourself about yourself are so powerful. And when you learn to take control over your self-talk, it's life-changing. And I wanted to give you a free resource that I created for you if this is something that could benefit your life. It's called

• 25:12Jamie Kern Lima?

  Five Ways to Overcome Negative Self-Talk and Build Self-Love. And it's a free how-to guide to overcome that negative self-talk to build confidence and develop unshakable self-love so that you can dream big and keep going in the pursuit of your goals. Don't let self-sabotaging thoughts hinder your progress any longer. It's time to rewrite the script of your life, one filled with self-love, resilience, and unwavering belief. If you're ready to take charge of your narrative, build unwavering confidence, and empower yourself to persevere on the path to your dreams, you can grab your free guide to Stop Overthinking

• 25:55Jamie Kern Lima?

  and Learn to Trust Yourself at jamiekernlima.com/resources or click the link in the show notes below. And now, more of this incredible conversation together. How can someone listening who has, who's been betrayed, love again?

• 26:15Speaker 00

  Mmm, gosh.

• 26:18Speaker 00

  I would love to be able to fast forward that person to better days. I would love that. I would love to be able to pick them up out of their sorrow and suffering, and move them down the road and drop them into a life that they cannot even envision right now. But the only way to get there is to go through it. It's to go through all of it. And I am so sorry for that being the worst advice anybody never wanted to hear. But if, if someone is listening and they are in it, they're, I, I, I structured a wake, and it doesn't have chapters as mentioned, but I structured it in three parts. Part one is called the end.

• 27:02Speaker 00

  Part two is called the middle. Part three is called the beginning. And that's how it goes. And so, keep going. The thing about getting to the beginning is it is a series of really small, seemingly insignificant choices. And you string a thousand of them together and you've moved down the road. And so, do the next right thing. Take care of your heart. Take care of your soul. Do the hard work of self-honesty. You can't get there without it. Some people deserve quite a bit of blame in our stories, and that's fair. But if, if that's all we are willing to ever pick up,

• 27:47Speaker 00

  if we're never willing to pick up the mantle of ownership, of self-assessment, we'll, we'll truncate the, the experience. And so, do the boring, hard, excruciating work of recovery, of examination, of truth-telling.

• 28:12Speaker 00

  Of vulnerability, I am telling you, it's, you'll get there. You will. I, it's magic. It's slow, excruciating, boring magic. But it will get you there.

• 28:26Jamie Kern Lima?

  Well, you share in a wake about finding love and I'm going to ask you a little about that in a minute. Everything from dating apps to how do we like all the things, how do we know when we're ready? But I want to just read something. When I say this book, every word, you'll be hanging on every word in this book and you write, you say, I will never again outsource my life. When my body tells me what is true, I will believe her the first time. When she tells me what to do, I'll listen. When she tells me something is wrong, I'll trust her. When she says, this isn't good enough for you, I'll stop clinging to it.

• 29:07Jamie Kern Lima?

  When she says, full steam ahead, I'll move forward in joy. How do we learn to hear ourselves and trust ourselves?

• 29:20Speaker 00

  You're probably like me in that

• 29:25Speaker 00

  I was raised

• 29:28Speaker 00

  not only to not trust my body, but to disbelieve my body. That my body was not trustworthy, that it, it could not be an agent of discernment. That something was faulty about it and I needed to outsource all wisdom to somebody else and what they told me to do, think, feel or believe. So, well, I grew up in, in hierarchical authority structures. That worked for me. I'm like, okay, great. Somebody else is in charge of me. It was the work of adulthood to go, my body is my the singular source of the highest wisdom I can access.

• 30:06Speaker 00

  Our, all of our bodies are. Our bodies have one goal and that is to protect us and keep us safe and help us flourish. That's it. That it has no agenda. It, it's not interested in the narratives that we've bought into. It, it has no capacity for an agenda.

• 30:23Speaker 00

  Its agenda is our well-being. And so, my body had signaled so many things to me. Jen, something is wrong. Jen, things are so going sideways. Jen, this is not normal. Jen, this is not healthy. And I was like, nope, you don't get a say here because I like the story of my marriage and I like the story of my life. So I'm not interested in your messages because they're messing that up. So getting back in touch with my body, getting inside my bones, and I am cerebral. I prefer to think my way to everything. I'll think my way through life.

• 31:01Speaker 00

  So bypassing my overactive thinking and getting into my knowing what my body is saying to me has been such a joyride. And I've been, I talk a lot about that in a way because that is not my, it's not my way. It's not how I was raised and it's not even my impulse. I need help. People have to help me get in my body. I need guided meditations. I need body healers. I, I have to have helpers go, what is your body saying? You're like, oh, yeah, yeah, that's right. That's right. She has something important to say. I should listen. And so, that is thrilling when we can figure out

• 31:46Speaker 00

  how to end the war with our own bodies and rather treat her. Dr. Hillary McBride taught me to call our bodies her and she. Treat her with the greatest respect that we would give anybody on this earth. That's our best friend. This is our best friend. This, these bodies are our best friends. Our greatest partners, our fiercest protectors, our truest knowers. They know. Our bodies know. Ask anybody. You know what's right. You know what's true. You know what's wrong. We, our bodies know. Now, we can wage war and say, well, I don't want to believe you because your truth is inconvenient.

• 32:30Speaker 00

  Your, your truth is threatening my story that I like. Your truth would require truth telling on my part that I am not ready for. So that's why we disconnect there. But, boy, what a safety to finally end the war and go, I believe you. Lead me and I will follow.

• 32:52Jamie Kern Lima?

  Life changing.

• 32:53Speaker 00

  Life changing for me.

• 32:55Jamie Kern Lima?

  How do you protect your peace when the internet has an opinion on every move?

• 33:03Speaker 00

  The internet is so unhinged sometimes.

• 33:08Speaker 00

  I've been at this awhile. So I have learned. I have learned

• 33:15Speaker 00

  how to create a bit of an emotional barrier between myself and the messages of the internet, even the good ones. The good ones can also derail you. If you start just believe. One time I was at an event where I was speaking. And it was a rare occasion, but I had my brother with me. He's the youngest, he's 10 years younger than me. And he had come with and and and women are effusive and hyperbolic. And so they're they're they're coming up to us and my brother's right there by me. And you know, we just love you so much. It's we never really met in person. It's a bit of a parasocial relationship and love you so much. You are so amazing. You're our favorite person, Turner, my brother.

• 34:00Speaker 00

  Your sister is like our favorite human. And he was like, she's all right.

• 34:08Speaker 00

  We can't believe it all. We're okay, you know? We're not as good as the internet sometimes suggests, and we are certainly not as bad as they suggest. And so I think right sizing, that source of input is important. Sometimes there is a response that comes in a

• 34:31Speaker 00

  good faith way that has instructed me to do better. So it's not as if we never listen to feedback. We never listen. I have, I have gotten trustworthy, generous feedback from the internet sometimes that go, oh, everybody.

• 34:48Speaker 00

  I got this wrong. Let me make it right. So it's not that we never listen, but again, it goes back to that work thing. Either, either I hand that to everybody else to decide, or it's an inside job. The end, like the end. And so that is a real source of strength that we can figure out how to tap into it.

• 35:10Jamie Kern Lima?

  You know, there's, I feel like one of the biggest forms of cancel culture is the one no one talks about is us canceling ourselves before we even try. And I think a big reason for that is people are afraid of criticism, afraid of backlash, afraid of what if things

• 35:28Speaker 00

  Sure.

• 35:29Jamie Kern Lima?

  aren't received this way, or what if I fall flat on my face?

• 35:31Speaker 00

  Yeah.

• 35:32Jamie Kern Lima?

  What if I'm embarrassed, starting small and it doesn't work, or any of those things? And there's going to be potentially people listening or watching that maybe are learning about your magic and your work and your story. For the first time. So I want to ask you this because in 2016, you, you know, are such a leader in so many spaces and big time in the faith space. You're in ministry and a whole thing happened where you came out. And I just want to tap into the strength of you for a minute and how can other people sort of summon that strength and courage in their own life?

• 36:17Jamie Kern Lima?

  In 2016, you came out and shared that you believe LGBTQ plus relationships are holy. And the backlash that happened, including even fallouts from business partnerships.

• 36:35Speaker 00

  Oh, for sure.

• 36:36Jamie Kern Lima?

  Can you share a little bit about that? How you made that decision? How you had the courage? Because this is something that's impacted everything in your livelihood, in all of it. Your social circles, your everything that, yeah.

• 36:53Speaker 00

  Yeah.

• 36:57Speaker 00

  That was a reckoning and

• 37:02Speaker 00

  something I knew was coming. I had, going back to our earlier conversation about, you know, we were handed a lot of stories as kids. And then we've become adults and go, what of this? Do I still believe and what don't I still believe?

• 37:20Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah.

• 37:20Speaker 00

  Where, where am I out of alignment now? What needs a deeper examination? What needs an adult? Brain to process this in a new way? Independent of the spiritual authorities who just told me what to think. Um, so obviously

• 37:39Speaker 00

  in evangelical and some faith circles. You know, the LGBTQ IA plus community is to this day disparaged, um, excluded.

• 37:56Speaker 00

  If they want to protect their belonging in the community, their option is celibacy.

• 38:02Speaker 00

  Um, or getting turned straight, which is of course ridiculous. So

• 38:09Speaker 00

  that the cognitive dissonance that I had been

• 38:16Speaker 00

  processing through that narrative had it was untenable anymore because I had changed my mind. I had, I examined it with an adult thought and discernment and maturity and went, I don't believe that. I don't think that's true at all. I, not just because of what I think, but what I see. Like my lived experience tells me that is not true. Not only is it not true, it's so damaging. It's so disruptive. It is so painful. And it's having catastrophic, catastrophic outcomes. So I don't believe that anymore. But I also knew the community and I knew I'd seen it happen. I'm, I'm not new here.

• 38:59Speaker 00

  I knew, boy, that, talk about cancel culture. That's it. It's the end of the road. There is no road after that. And I knew it. And at the time I was still a darling in evangelical subcultures in 2016.

• 39:13Speaker 00

  So.

• 39:16Speaker 00

  What I finally came to was this, because it was really scary. I knew I was going to lose everything.

• 39:23Jamie Kern Lima?

  Well, and to put it in perspective for anyone listening new, you're on every stage and every church speaking, tons of books published, so many people. When you say the word darling, that's an understatement how beloved you were in many, many, many circles and also in the evangelical or faith-based circles.

• 39:45Speaker 00

  That's right. It was a lot to lose and I knew I was going to lose it. So it wasn't an if. I knew that it was a win. And, and I was scared. I was selfish. There were just all, I was just, there was all this fear that kept me.

• 40:02Jamie Kern Lima?

  We need to pause for a super brief break. And while we do, take a moment to share this episode with every single person that you know who this could inspire. Because this conversation can truly be the words and inspiration they need to hear today to keep going, to remember that they matter and to feel less alone, more enough, more connected and more worthy. Who you spend time around is so important as energy is contagious and so is self-belief. And I'd love to hang out with you even more, especially if you could use an extra dose of inspiration, which is exactly why I've created my free weekly newsletter that's also a love letter to you,

• 40:44Jamie Kern Lima?

  delivered straight to your inbox each and every Tuesday morning from me. If you haven't signed up to make sure that you get it each week, just go to jamiekernlima.com to make sure you're on the list and you'll get your one-on-one with Jamie weekly newsletter and get ready to believe in you. If you're tired of hearing the bad news every single day and need some inspiration, some tips, tools, joy and love hitting your inbox, I'm your girl. Subscribe at jamiekernlima.com or in the link in the show notes.

• 41:21Speaker 02

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• 42:36Jamie Kern Lima?

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• 43:54Jamie Kern Lima?

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• 44:01Speaker 00

  And now, more of this incredible conversation together. But I'll tell you, like, because you were asking, like, what about, how do people manage this? For me, it became worse to be out of alignment. That was worse. It was worse that I knew, I don't believe this anymore. Not only do I not believe it, I am watching it actively harm this community every day. And I'm a part of the harming agent, and I'm too afraid. I'm too afraid to go against the grain because I knew what I would immediately sacrifice is my own belonging. I knew it. That's the end. That's the end of my belonging in this space.

• 44:45Speaker 00

  That is the end of my career as I know it. I knew it, I knew it, I knew it, and I was scared. But the walking around, knowing that I was duplicitous, that I believed one thing, and I was letting the community suffer at the hands of the subculture I was in and succeeding in, I couldn't do it another day. I could not look myself in the mirror. I could not do it. And so, I knew that I was either gonna keep my career or I was gonna keep my integrity, but I could not have both. I could not have both, and I had to have my integrity. You can sacrifice it for a while.

• 45:26Speaker 00

  And I ran a middle lane gauntlet, which is absurd. There's no such thing as a middle lane on people's dignity. But I invented it and tried to walk it. And at some point, it was just untenable. So, so that was it. That was the end of that. That was the end of my career in that space overnight. And my books, you know, were all pulled off shelves and put out of print and released from every speaking event.

• 45:55Speaker 00

  My social media falling just split in half overnight. It was a lot of loss and it was really scary and it had a lot of attention on it. And it wasn't quiet. It was loud and splashy. I mean, it was in the Atlantic. Like it is, it's everywhere. It's in the Washington Post, like it had made, it was quite the circuit. And I lost a lot over it. I lost a lot of friends, lost a lot of partners, lost a lot of, well, everything, I guess. Um, but what I want to say, that sounds like a sad story and it was not. Cause

• 46:35Speaker 00

  there is, you cannot put a price on living in your own integrity. It's, it's priceless. It's like I took a deep breath of fresh air for the first time in a decade.

• 46:48Jamie Kern Lima?

  Wow.

• 46:49Speaker 00

  I was like, we'll let the chips fall where they fall. We'll see what's left. I, I don't know. I didn't know enough at the time to know, like, will anybody else have me? I have no idea. Like, is the world big enough for me somewhere else? It is.

• 47:04Jamie Kern Lima?

  Did you know other ministers and, and, and people in those circles that also believed what you believe? That LGBTQIA plus, you know, relationships, uh, marriages,

• 47:17Speaker 00

  Yeah.

• 47:18Jamie Kern Lima?

  you know, are holy.

• 47:19Speaker 00

  Yeah.

• 47:19Jamie Kern Lima?

  Do you know other ministers and the people that agree with you, but to this day won't ever share that publicly?

• 47:26Speaker 00

  More than I could even count.

• 47:27Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah.

• 47:28Speaker 00

  I still get messages from them still. I mean, it's been a decade since that whole breach. And, you know, I'm no longer a part of that community and I've built over here in the wilderness. But to this day, I will have pastors.

• 47:44Speaker 00

  Preachers, big like para-ministry leaders, big conference, give me their little quiet, private DMs and going, "I am a hundred percent in alignment with you on this theologically. I'm, I will lose everything if I say it." And I'm like, "You will."

• 48:02Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah.

• 48:03Speaker 00

  You will. So when you're ready to pay that price, come back to me. Like, the price is so cheap compared to what you get. And compared to what we owe the community. We owe them that. We owe them our support. We owe them our truth. We owe them our allyship. We owe them our platforms. We owe them our influence. So it's a, it's a, it's a easy price to pay on the other side of it.

• 48:35Jamie Kern Lima?

  If Jesus were on earth, right in front of us, right now.

• 48:42Speaker 00

  Yeah.

• 48:43Jamie Kern Lima?

  What do you think, how do you think Jesus would feel?

• 48:47Speaker 00

  Ah, I think about this all the time.

• 48:48Jamie Kern Lima?

  About someone who identifies that way or is LGBTQ plus?

• 48:54Speaker 00

  I think about this all the time. I think all the time, like, "What would Jesus make of this mess?

• 49:00Speaker 00

  What would he do right now? Because, you know, everybody uses his name for a lot of bullshit."

• 49:05Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah.

• 49:05Speaker 00

  Um, so he has been attached to a bunch of junk that he was like, "Excuse me. No, I never said that." Um, and so I think about that a lot, how misaligned he would be with a great deal of the people who report to follow him. They'd hate him. They would hate him. Such a rebel, like, Jesus is super woke. He was like the original, like, woke. Um, he would not be welcomed into...

• 49:42Speaker 00

  This Western American evangelicalism.

• 49:47Speaker 00

  He's so disruptive, God. He will mess up your whole life. Like, don't fall for him. I'm telling you right now, he will take you down unpopular paths. And he told us, "Count the cost. Don't, don't come unless you're willing to count the cost." He is right. So, he is not interested in anybody's power, or their position, or he's not interested in any of it. Anyhow.

• 50:17Speaker 00

  I always think so fondly about how anybody that is marginalized, whether it's in the LGBTQIA community, whether it is communities of color, whether it is immigrants, whether it is the unhoused folks, whoever, whoever is women.

• 50:43Speaker 00

  I, I think about how delighted they'd be to meet Jesus. That's, that's his people. That's his deal. That's his demo. That's where he thrives. And he's told us that only a billion times. It's not a mystery. The, in that way, the Bible is not opaque. This is not confusing. It's not, we didn't, we're not just having a difference of like interpretation. Like, this is real clear what our deal is down here. And it is love, and it is margins, and it is

• 51:19Speaker 00

  mercy, and it is being a good neighbor. That's it. Like, so, I love thinking about having the most broken-hearted, disenfranchised, abused, forgotten, forsaken person in his arms. I love that thought.

• 51:42Speaker 00

  That is, that is what love is. That is what they would experience. That is what they would feel. That is who he is. So, I'm sorry his followers have gotten this so effed up.

• 51:54Speaker 00

  But that is, that's not true. That version of him is not true. Um, the real version of him will change your life.

• 52:03Jamie Kern Lima?

  And you know, because you know, because it's happened to you.

• 52:05Speaker 00

  I know, because I know.

• 52:06Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah.

• 52:07Speaker 00

  I know, because I know.

• 52:08Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah.

• 52:09Speaker 00

  I know, because I know. I'm not fancy for him anymore. You know, I'm not a fancy Bible teacher. I'm not a famous speaker in that way. I don't, I'm not a pastor's wife. I'm not a wife.

• 52:25Speaker 00

  I, I don't have any of those credentials

• 52:30Speaker 00

  at all that used to make up my resume, my God resume. They're all gone. And I am just as equally cherished as I've ever been. I have forfeited none of it. None of that like relationship, none of that tenderness, none of the affection, none of that like spiritual proximity that I have known my whole life. I guess it wasn't about all my gold stars after all. I guess that's just what we get because we're born. And because we are just worthy to God, just as we are. Not for what we do for Him, you know?

• 53:12Speaker 00

  Um, and so that's really good news. It's really hard to get that message through all the fog of the way that His name is used and abused, but it is the truth.

• 53:25Jamie Kern Lima?

  And I think there's so many varying circles, right? And varying types of, um, religious practice or beliefs. And I, uh, you know, I have, um, I was adopted and I have five different families. I know you know this and, uh, and you know, when I look at my families, they, they vote very differently. They're very, they're all over the place. There's different faiths, there's different beliefs. And I think that

• 53:54Jamie Kern Lima?

  what keeps people away from faith so often right now is that they just can't get over that they feel so judged and so excluded. And what I've never understood is how when even people have really, really great intentions and they really hope to bring people into faith.

• 54:18Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yet they are so judgmental and make people feel excluded. And it's sort of like so counterintuitive to me and the way I've always found peace in is making decisions for myself. Exactly what you said, meaning, okay, maybe I was raised in this particular church to believe this particular thing. Or maybe I read the interpretation of scripture in this particular way. And what I do in in those situations for me that works, just in case this works for somebody listening right now too, is I will pray. I will get still. I will literally ask, okay, Jesus, if you were right here,

• 54:58Jamie Kern Lima?

  how would you be? And when I think about things that I was taught or or read or family members, even in past generations that may have had ideas or beliefs about what's okay and what's not okay. And who's okay and who's not okay. It's like, I just believe in every ounce of my being. We talk about trusting our bodies. Like, I believe in every ounce of my being that if someone was right here, no matter how they identify, like, Jesus would love them, just love them, just love them. So for me, you know, I'm I have really strong faith. I believe in God. I pray every day.

• 55:38Jamie Kern Lima?

  And I also trust that knowing that comes to me over any particular friend I might have that has very different interpretations of things. And I have the whole gamut. And I love them too. And I love them too. But I think, I think anytime you do have systems, it scares them when someone actually turns their power over to God and says, tell me what's true.

• 56:09Speaker 00

  No doubt about it. I mean, The, the power structure, it's so tricky, right? Organizing God. Why would any of us try to do it? Yeah. Or being his lawyer. I don't want to be his lawyer. I don't want to be his ambassador, his rep, like, it's so tricky to do that. And it's always been done by humans. So there's just, there's error and agenda and context baked into the sauce. Yeah. And so to me, it isn't a function of like spiritual doubt to move away from some of those certainties that we grew up in.

• 56:48Speaker 00

  To me, that is a sign of great faith, that we go, wait, I believe in God enough. I believe that he is true enough, that I'm not willing to accept this anemic version of him that hurts people or leaves them out, or, or uses shame and fear as their primary tools. Otherwise, if we didn't care about him, we would just be like, oh, I'll just walk away from all of it. I'll just leave the whole sinking ship behind. But to me, it's a sign of great faith to go, no, no, I don't think you just get to rewrite the whole story of God. Yeah. You know? We'll ask him.

• 57:29Speaker 00

  And when in doubt, my like North Star is, what would, what would love have to say about this? Yes. What would love have to say about this person? What would love have to say about this moment? What would love have to say about this doctrine? What would it have to say about this conversation? What a great, that almost never leads me wrong. Yeah. That is a good leader. And that's God's deal, or at least that's what he said it is. That's his deal, full stop. The love is the thing, love is the point, and love is the way. So I don't feel like I need to make it any more complicated than that. Yeah.

• 58:06Jamie Kern Lima?

  I feel God's presence so strong um right now in this conversation and that for me is what I trust. Like that is what I trust and I just, I don't know who needs to hear this today who maybe has been burned by, you know, a past experience or thought maybe it's not for them or they've made too many past mistakes or they're somehow disqualified from being like worthy of of even saying, God, are you real? And can can we have a relationship like there's so many people like that and I hope this conversation um maybe in a way makes them realize that there's a whole lot of ways including trusting themselves in this versus, you know, potentially a past experience or

• 58:49Jamie Kern Lima?

  or a a a manmade version. Speaking of men, speaking of men.

• 58:55Speaker 00

  On that note, from God to a dude.

• 58:58Jamie Kern Lima?

  Cause I already know what's gonna happen. We're gonna get flooded with questions about, wait, wait, did Jen go on dating apps? And I'm gonna say, gotta read awake, you gotta read all the details about your girlfriends rallying around you about just all the things. Um and and and everyone needs to get the book just to, I couldn't, I said this before, I couldn't put it down. Like I could not, I couldn't put it down. And I'm not like a huge reader. I love books, but I'm not like a huge reader.

• 59:30Speaker 00

  Sure.

• 59:30Jamie Kern Lima?

  Um, there's a lot of things I love to do and books. I'm not just, but I couldn't put it down. And so I'm excited for everyone to read the juicy details.

• 59:40Speaker 00

  Yeah, yeah.

• 59:40Jamie Kern Lima?

  Because I also love living vicariously through, I'm imagining like the group of friends that was around you freaking out when you find, like just all of it. But there's gonna be so many women and maybe they're our age, maybe they're 10 years younger, maybe they're 10 years older and they're like, okay. How do I even get on a dating app? We had Whitney Wolfe-Hard from Bumble on here.

• 1:00:00Speaker 00

  Oh, my gosh, yes.

• 1:00:02Jamie Kern Lima?

  And it's so fun now that, you know, that every age, every situation can hop on a dating app. And I know, just to ask you for you, you know, and you're gonna, I'm not gonna give away anything because there's so much in this book.

• 1:00:17Speaker 00

  Yeah.

• 1:00:19Jamie Kern Lima?

  But when this sort of happened for the first time, post 26 year marriage.

• 1:00:26Speaker 00

  Yeah.

• 1:00:28Jamie Kern Lima?

  Can you sure just, just give us a hint about anyone in that situation who's like, you know, have I gone through too many hard times to find love again? Am I too young or too old to find love again? Am I, do I have too, too many issues? Do I? I mean, all the things I hear, right? That, that we all say to ourselves. Okay, how did you get to that point?

• 1:00:49Speaker 00

  LOL.

• 1:00:50Jamie Kern Lima?

  And give us like a little juicy insider info on what anyone who is in that spot of going, you know what, I'm gonna open my heart again. Maybe after hearing Jamie and Jen today, I'm getting on the dating app. Maybe I'm, you know, gonna, gonna go out of the house and go to the grocery store instead of ordering groceries in. Maybe I'm gonna do the thing. Tell us a little hint about what's going on right now and what everyone has to potentially look forward to.

• 1:01:18Speaker 00

  Girl.

• 1:01:20Speaker 00

  Took me a while to get there, which I, I mean, I only have my own story, so I don't really know if this is prescriptive, but I do recommend for those of us starting over, if that's your category, if you're like me, like, oh, God, I'm an old girl. What am I supposed to date? Like, if that's you, if you've gone through like a divorce or loss, there is a value in giving yourself enough time to, to do your own healing work. I, I'm glad I did not steer into those waters too soon.

• 1:01:50Speaker 00

  But having like done all that emotional work for kind of a long time, I noticed all of a sudden, I was like, wait a minute.

• 1:02:03Speaker 00

  I think I'm listening to my body, of course, for the first time in my whole life. And my body's like, hey, knock, knock. Let's get near a man. And I'm like, oh, my God. What? How? Um, and I mean, shit, I started dating Brandon when I was 18. So like, it had been a minute.

• 1:02:23Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah.

• 1:02:23Speaker 00

  Since I have thought about an additional man. And so

• 1:02:30Speaker 00

  readers should know there's a lot of this funny stuff in a week. So it's not all just a sad story.

• 1:02:34Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah. Oh, no, this book is funny.

• 1:02:36Speaker 00

  Yeah.

• 1:02:37Jamie Kern Lima?

  Oh, this book is funny. And there are so many things we can all relate to.

• 1:02:41Speaker 00

  Well, here's the thing. It turns out that like, love, like romantic love, intimate love. It's not located. It's not just for the young. We're still just who we are. Like, we still have our little beating hearts in our bodies and we're older, but that's still real. So anyway, going back to your other guest, I spent, and I will not, I won't tell the story. You'll just have to read it. But I did spend 12 hours on Bumble. 12 hours is how long I lasted.

• 1:03:16Speaker 00

  And till I, um, at the end of this 12 hours, which I explained, I pull my sweatshirt over my face, uh, burst out crying and delete the app. So that went really well. Um, but I'm like, okay, there's got to be another way. And so I, but I just had this posture like toward the world. Like, I don't know, like world. The good news is I am still tender enough to want love. You know, you can get so calloused, so harmed, so hurt, so broken, that you just go, never again. I won't put myself in that tender space again. I won't be vulnerable. I don't want it.

• 1:04:01Speaker 00

  I'll be my own girlfriend. Um, but it is kind of exciting to discover, hey, you can recover in such a way that your little tender heart wants to love again, and mine did. So there's one story in here that is very funny about uh, my first date. That was accidental. I met, I, I, I guess I was going to be an accidental dater since I was such a Bumble failure. Um, and that was like, ah.

• 1:04:33Speaker 00

  I can do this.

• 1:04:34Jamie Kern Lima?

  Hmm.

• 1:04:35Speaker 00

  I can do this again. And then I very accidentally, and this is not a big part of the story. I only, it's just, it's a very end as just kind of a little closing addendum. I accidentally met my boyfriend. And we are, we're, we're on our fourth year together, which is insane.

• 1:04:57Jamie Kern Lima?

  Tyler.

• 1:04:58Speaker 00

  Tyler. And I love him and he loves me and it's shocking and stunning and I have no, I cannot even make sense of it. And also it's weird to say boyfriend, I'm 50. Um, but that's what he is, I guess. And so it is so

• 1:05:16Speaker 00

  fantastic to fall in love as a grown adult.

• 1:05:21Jamie Kern Lima?

  Hmm.

• 1:05:22Speaker 00

  I cannot tell you, I'm better. I'm, I thank God, I am a better partner to Tyler than I was a wife. I'm older, I'm wiser, I've learned so much. I've gone through heartbreak. And then faced that like daunting road of self-awareness. Um, and, and so I'm a better person in a relationship now, but adult love is really fun.

• 1:05:54Jamie Kern Lima?

  Really fun.

• 1:05:55Speaker 00

  It's really fun. And then I was like, oh my God, I gotta figure out sex again. Like this is the whole thing. Like who will help me? Anyway, it's been hilarious because all my friends are married. They're married for a zillion years.

• 1:06:06Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah.

• 1:06:06Speaker 00

  They're no help. Like they don't, what do you, what do you guys know? You guys don't know anything. You've been having sex with the same guy.

• 1:06:11Jamie Kern Lima?

  Watch Netflix.

• 1:06:12Speaker 00

  Yeah. I'm like, I need to go outside of you. You guys are not my think tank. Um, and so just all of that.

• 1:06:20Jamie Kern Lima?

  How did you get like the latest on sex again?

• 1:06:22Speaker 00

  Oh my gosh. First of all, I was like, internet, can you help me?

• 1:06:26Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah.

• 1:06:26Speaker 00

  Can you help me think about sex in a way? You know, I only came up with that like shameful purity culture. I have no precedence here to think about this in any healthy way. Um, to even evaluate my own sexuality in a healthy way, but I'm beyond that. I, I think I, I said something in a way like I, I am no longer trying to please my like sex averse God. Which is how he was handed to me back then.

• 1:06:52Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah.

• 1:06:52Speaker 00

  Um, that's not my deal anymore. So I don't, I'm not hung up the way that I was hung up when I was young and impressionable. Right. And had not even yet formed my own worldview. So first of all, I got to leave that behind. I highly recommend it. I highly recommend moving into a new sexual space as a grown up without shame.

• 1:07:11Jamie Kern Lima?

  Hmm.

• 1:07:11Speaker 00

  Let's start there. And so then I just started finding like great teachers. Listen, the internet's dumb sometimes, but also sometimes it can be pretty great. And so I started like following people who were like, we are, let us help you like in your like sexual relationships and in your body and in your own feelings and in your own desires and all of it. And I'm like, follow, follow. It follows fast as I could. Um, and so that has been like such a fun, vibrant, exciting part of being in a new relationship at this age.

• 1:07:52Jamie Kern Lima?

  Hmm.

• 1:07:53Speaker 00

  Where there's no like shame to be had.

• 1:07:55Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah.

• 1:07:56Speaker 00

  We're done with that.

• 1:07:57Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah.

• 1:07:58Speaker 00

  So instead it's just like exciting and connected and healthy and fun and

• 1:08:09Speaker 00

  five out of five stars.

• 1:08:12Jamie Kern Lima?

  And when you lose all the shame and you do all the work and you do all the healing and you do all the self-worth building. Is sex and intimacy way better now than it's ever been?

• 1:08:21Speaker 00

  I just, it's almost like it can't even be compared.

• 1:08:24Jamie Kern Lima?

  Wow.

• 1:08:24Speaker 00

  I, I don't even know that I could put it on the same playing field, like.

• 1:08:29Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah.

• 1:08:29Speaker 00

  It's just so different because I am so different inside of it.

• 1:08:33Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah.

• 1:08:33Speaker 00

  Also have a different.

• 1:08:34Jamie Kern Lima?

  Awake now.

• 1:08:35Speaker 00

  I am.

• 1:08:36Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah.

• 1:08:36Speaker 00

  And so that means that when you decide I am no longer operating from this shame story, then other things get to go. Like you're also no longer operating with all these inhibitions.

• 1:08:48Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yes.

• 1:08:49Speaker 00

  And with all these um hangups, even with all this like body shame. You know, I body shame was a big part of that culture too. We needed our bodies to look a certain way. And if we weren't desirable, be careful because they'll your person will cheat on you. And go find somebody younger and better. I you know, I had that narrative.

• 1:09:07Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah.

• 1:09:08Speaker 00

  So I'm like, well, this is what I got. I'm grown. I am not 24. I do not have the body that I walked into adulthood with, but this is the one that I have. Turns out it's plenty. It's enough. And that's a bad story that we've just been telling ourselves. All not even true.

• 1:09:28Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah.

• 1:09:28Speaker 00

  It's not even true.

• 1:09:29Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah.

• 1:09:30Speaker 00

  So that can go to.

• 1:09:31Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah. And every single person listening right now, their body is plenty.

• 1:09:35Speaker 00

  It's plenty.

• 1:09:36Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yeah. Hallelujah that.

• 1:09:38Speaker 00

  Your dude is gonna be super into it. Exactly how it is. And all the weird little thoughts that we're having. How am I bending? How does it look? What is it from? What is from this thing? Net zero men are thinking that. No man is thinking that thought. No man.

• 1:09:53Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yes.

• 1:09:53Speaker 00

  That's some dumb narrative that we are on a loop here.

• 1:09:56Jamie Kern Lima?

  Yes.

• 1:09:57Speaker 00

  Bury it. Your body is just great. Like, take it right into the bedroom. It's gonna do the trick.

• 1:10:06Jamie Kern Lima?

  In Awake.

• 1:10:07Speaker 00

  Yeah.

• 1:10:08Jamie Kern Lima?

  You say, I will never quit me again, which means other people will be free just to love me.

• 1:10:15Speaker 00

  Yeah.

• 1:10:15Jamie Kern Lima?

  Not heal, complete, validate me. That's too much pressure and not their job. That is being led around blindfolded, hoping no one runs me into a wall again. My eyes are open. I can see for myself. I'm awake, wide awake, eyes bright and alive and scanning the horizon with great hope for the second half of my life. Awake at last.

• 1:10:40Speaker 00

  Yep.

• 1:10:41Jamie Kern Lima?

  For every person listening and watching right now, who's about to go run and grab their copy of Awake or get it in the audiobook. What final words do you want to share with them about the book? About what they're going to get out of it, about who it's for, about what your hope is for them as they dive into it?

• 1:11:02Speaker 00

  So hopeful for the readers. I feel like I have this special insider knowledge, having gone through the worst, having had my entire life leveled down to the ground in every way that I knew it.

• 1:11:21Speaker 00

  And learned what we are capable of, how we are capable of healing and of resurrecting a life that we are worthy of. I now know that that is possible for every single person. And so I feel like I have this secret. And that I am now watching women who are drowning and they are hurting. And they are, they're in the ER, like where I was on page one, where I started, I started in the ER. That's where they're at right now. And I want to grab them by the hands and be like, keep going. Your story is about to turn beautiful. I mean it. I, and again, it's not because I'm special.

• 1:12:07Speaker 00

  It's because I'm ordinary and I know what is possible. And so I feel

• 1:12:14Speaker 00

  like a friend and a big sister who's maybe a mile down the road of where a lot of my readers will find this story, where now will intersect their lives. And I am like, holding up a lantern and I'm like, come on, keep going. One step at a time, get on down here. You're going to get here. You will get here. One hard step at a time, but string enough of them together, you're going to get here. And so I feel proud of women in advance for what they're going to do, for what they're going to learn, for what they realize they are capable of. And that all along.

• 1:12:57Speaker 00

  They're in charge of their own story and they can rewrite it. I don't care how old, I don't care if you're 89. I don't care what's happened, even if you're at fault. Even if you have made choices that broke your life in a way that is devastating, even then, we're worthy because we are. And so I'm excited, I'm excited for people to go, I'm gonna get there. I'm gonna, I want to be awake in my own life. I'm like, let's go.

• 1:13:27Jamie Kern Lima?

  Thank you.

• 1:13:28Speaker 00

  Thank you for having me.

• 1:13:29Jamie Kern Lima?

  Thank you for being here. Remember this episode's not just for you and me. Please share it with every single person that you know, because it can impact and change their life too. And if you loved today's episode, please click on the follow or subscribe button for the show on the app that you're listening to it on or watching it on. And if it added value to your life, if you could please give it a rating or five star review, I'd be so grateful. And again, please share it with everyone that you believe in. Share it with another person in your life who could benefit from it. You know, maybe someone you know is having a big change in their life or waking up to something new in their career or marriage or health. Please post this episode and share it with others online in your community

• 1:14:11Jamie Kern Lima?

  who just might need the words and tools and lessons in this episode today. You never know whose life you're meant to change today by sharing this episode. And thank you so much for joining me. Before you go, I want to share some words with you that couldn't be more true. You, right now, exactly as you are, are enough and fully worthy. You're worthy of your greatest hopes, your wildest dreams, and all the unconditional love in the world. And it is an honor to welcome you to each and every episode of the Jamie Kern Lima Show. Here, I hope you'll come as you are, heal where you need, blossom what you choose, journey toward your calling, and stay as long as you'd like, because you belong here.

• 1:14:55Jamie Kern Lima?

  You are worthy, you are loved, you are love. I love you. And I cannot wait to join you on the next episode of the Jamie Kern Lima Show. In life, you don't soar to the level of your hopes and dreams. You stay stuck at the level of your self-worth. When you build your self-worth, you change your entire life. And that's exactly why I wrote my new book, Worthy, How to Believe You Are Enough and Transform Your Life for You. If you have some self-doubt to destroy and a destiny to fulfill, Worthy is for you. In Worthy, you'll learn proven tools and simple steps

• 1:15:37Jamie Kern Lima?

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• 1:16:22Jamie Kern Lima?

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• 1:17:04Jamie Kern Lima?

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• 1:17:32Jamie Kern Lima?

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