MARSOC & The Battle Of Fallujah | Unsubscribe Podcast 253

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• 0:01Speaker 00

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• 0:31The Fat Electrician?

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• 0:35Speaker 02

  Did you do war? No, I'm worse. You look like Netflix Jesus. Ah! The podcast is ruined. Mission accomplished.

• 0:43Speaker 03

  Say hi to Eli. He's racially ambiguous and random. His hair is fucking fabulous and donut. A dark oak disposition and there's a fat electrician. Welcome to unsubscribe.

• 1:03The Fat Electrician?

  You can try it. If you don't like it, I'll [BLEEP] finish it for you.

• 1:05Speaker 04

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• 1:16The Fat Electrician?

  You're... what were you gonna ask me about Bush Light?

• 1:19Speaker 05

  I was gonna ask you your opinion on a Bush Light apple. Or Bush apple, whatever it is.

• 1:24The Fat Electrician?

  It's like, okay as like a novelty thing if you wanna drink like one or two beers casually, but like, it's not something that if I was like, "I'm going drinking with the boys, get me an 18 rack of Bush apple." No. Absolutely not.

• 1:41Speaker 05

  Yeah, I feel like that's a, that's a safe answer. You might have just offended the entire Midwest if you said you didn't like it, period.

• 1:46The Fat Electrician?

  It's not that I don't like it, it's just like, it's not like you can drink fucking 20 Bush Lights and you're fine, like...

• 1:52Speaker 05

  As one does.

• 1:53The Fat Electrician?

  Yeah. It's fine. Dude, it's water. Calm down. Like, give me Bush Lights it takes to get hammered.

• 2:00Speaker 05

  No, but I know that you do.

• 2:03The Fat Electrician?

  I don't know that I do.

• 2:05Speaker 04

  Tonight, unsubscribe, we get Nick shit.

• 2:08The Fat Electrician?

  How many, okay, we brought the other two Iowa influencers, uh, junkyard digs and Pew view on, and we did more than a thirty rack in two hours.

• 2:18Speaker 05

  It was quite impressive.

• 2:18Speaker 04

  I know, it was.

• 2:19The Fat Electrician?

  The whole table was covered.

• 2:20Speaker 04

  A table's worth.

• 2:21The Fat Electrician?

  And I wasn't like, belligerently drunk.

• 2:23Speaker 05

  Before we get too far, I did Cody's job last time. You want to do it this time?

• 2:27Speaker 04

  No, this is anyone that sits in that seat.

• 2:29Speaker 06

  This is not my job. I'm not doing this fucking job.

• 2:31Speaker 04

  Shouldn't have sat in that seat.

• 2:31The Fat Electrician?

  You're a representative. You're running to be a representative. Represent Cody.

• 2:34Speaker 04

  Where's that, whatever?

• 2:36Speaker 05

  I resign already. I resign. Now, somebody takes Cody's job.

• 2:43The Fat Electrician?

  Hi, everyone. Welcome to the unsubscribe podcast. I'm joined here today by Eli Double Tap, Cody Alfred, myself, Donut Operator, and Brandon Berberba.

• 2:54Speaker 05

  Thank you. Thank you. I've been told when I do Cody's job, it's too nasally.

• 2:57The Fat Electrician?

  No, good.

• 2:58Speaker 05

  Hi, everyone.

• 2:59The Fat Electrician?

  I said your last name right, right?

• 3:01Speaker 06

  It's close. Alfred, yeah.

• 3:03The Fat Electrician?

  Oh, my bad. Damn it. I tried.

• 3:05Speaker 06

  You got my first one right.

• 3:07The Fat Electrician?

  Oh, that's good. I can spell that one.

• 3:09Speaker 04

  You can spell that one. Hell, yeah.

• 3:11The Fat Electrician?

  I'm fucking smart one in this group.

• 3:13Speaker 04

  Yeah.

• 3:16Speaker 04

  Dude, welcome, bro. We've, I mean, we've known each other for a few years now. I think everyone has met you or talked to you in some capacity for the last couple of years.

• 3:25Speaker 06

  Yeah, definitely recently. I think we just met at Range Day.

• 3:28Speaker 04

  We met on an escalator at Range Day.

• 3:29Speaker 06

  We did. And I didn't want to be that guy that like fanboys. I'm like, I've seen you on the internet.

• 3:34The Fat Electrician?

  Nice, nice to meet you. Me and you had the Spider-Man moment of like, hi, we're both busy. I gotta go. Yeah. We had, we had like the, I know who you are. We shook hands. I know it's like, that was it.

• 3:44Speaker 05

  I'm doing shit, but I'm familiar with your game.

• 3:46Speaker 06

  Yes. Your name's not familiar, but your fez is. Yeah. And we've been in contact online for a few years, actually.

• 3:53The Fat Electrician?

  Yeah.

• 3:54Speaker 06

  Yeah, man. And what's really rad is like, I always, I always like to tell the internet world, like, you know, seeing people's personas on the internet and then getting to like know behind the scenes. Like, that's one of the things I first asked is like, oh, hey, thanks you messaged me back in the day, or I shot you a message. I'm like, did I respond? Was I a dick? You know, like, those are like the first two things. So then I'll know what era of life I was in. And, um, you know, you've always responded back and always been.

• 4:15Speaker 06

  Super kind and you know this the community of veterans and influencers a weird name but the veterans with a voice right the veterans that choose to bring up and not bring down that it's it's it's not a lot it's not the uh the norm you know and so like I've always like appreciated that and it's it's it's nice to see because our own eats eats our own and there's so many young men and women that watch us and it's not that our generation that's gonna suffer it's these young kids that are looking up for role models in their life and you know they they see like you don't have to have stupid videos you can just have stupid conversations and you know like you can just be bros and reels and that's that's what the world's lacking authenticity so I appreciate like all the conversation we have had so the internet's watching like they are real people and I'm I'm super humbled to be here and I'm super great and what's even sicker is like the cross pollination of uh like like social media followers like oh when you get on unsubscribe I'm like dude I think I'm going on it like tomorrow like I think it's happening.

• 5:11Speaker 05

  This has been way too positive so far right out the gate say a slur.

• 5:14Speaker 06

  Yeah shit.

• 5:20Speaker 04

  He's like He's like whoa okay he's going hard.

• 5:25Speaker 04

  You gotta ramp up the engines you can't just cold start this shit it's.

• 5:31Speaker 04

  And we also talk lots of shit.

• 5:33Speaker 06

  I'm here for it I'm all about the shit talking.

• 5:36Speaker 04

  Dude you're uh so you're former Marines if you want to tell the audience a little bit about yourself that don't know cuz I mean we all know but you have a stellar career and you were in for for a little bit too.

• 5:49Speaker 06

  Yeah just over fifteen years yeah almost sixteen yeah so I joined the Marine Corps in two thousand and three uh selfishly I just want to be a scout sniper.

• 5:56Speaker 04

  How old are you?

• 5:57Speaker 06

  I'm forty.

• 5:58Speaker 04

  God I look like shit.

• 5:59Speaker 06

  Yeah dude.

• 6:00Speaker 05

  Dude you look great god damn.

• 6:04Speaker 06

  It's it's like I've worked really hard to live as stress free as possible right it's like it's like in the military right like.

• 6:11Speaker 04

  Bad job choice before.

• 6:12Speaker 06

  Yeah bad job choice before dude.

• 6:14Speaker 05

  I want to avoid stress Marine Corps.

• 6:16Speaker 06

  Yeah Marine Corps well I didn't know about stress I didn't know the word stress anxiety depression those words didn't exist in my childhood you know and I so I enlisted in oh three and um I was a scout sniper force reconnaissance Marine then Marine Special Operations Command started so I started that and uh a plink owner of that for the west coast. And then I, yeah, I retired in 2018. I came back from my last deployment. I was the SOTF North Special Operations Task Force Senior enlisted advisor. And so I came back from that deployment that I spent the whole time like watching like Kill TV, like the wall of TVs. And it was actually my greatest deployment because I got to do exactly what we all said when we were the lower echelon guys. Like, man, I wish people just like took care of us, looked out for us. And I got to be

• 7:01Speaker 06

  that guy and, you know, fight for dudes and it was great. And anytime I could yell at an officer and like not care, A, being a master sergeant, they can't do anything to me. B, I was 245 pounds of like pure just awesomeness, you know, sex appeal. They're not gonna do anything. And I'm Jewish. So it's like, they can't like hate on me, right? Because I'm just like, are you fucking anti semi, bro? Like, what the fuck's going on?

• 7:20Speaker 05

  You get to pull out that card. You're like, well, well.

• 7:24Speaker 06

  Yeah. So.

• 7:25Speaker 05

  You take off your small Mitch.

• 7:28Speaker 06

  You know, it's funny, I actually.

• 7:32Speaker 06

  I actually had a yarmulke. My first deployment was Flujia, Iraq. And so I'm 18 years old and I didn't, I didn't, I grew up Jewish, but once my grandmother passed away, we did like Christmas and like, I never did a bar mitzvah and all that stuff. And so like.

• 7:46Speaker 05

  So ethnically not like.

• 7:47Speaker 06

  Blood. Yeah. Judy, my blood is from that origin, right? And so on my first deployment, the chaplain comes over and he's like, I heard you're Jewish. And he brought me a Passover kit. I'm like, what's a Passover kit? But all I knew.

• 7:59Speaker 05

  I genuinely don't know what is a Passover kit.

• 8:00Speaker 06

  So it was like all like kosher meals. So it had like, had like juices and like, it had like a beef stew. I'm like eating like shitty MREs. I'm like, I get, you're telling me that's for me? And so I was sick of it. And inside this kit, it was like a little like gift box. Inside this kit was a white yarmulke. And so I'm like, oh, bro, the Iraqis are gonna love this. So I like put on this like.

• 8:22Speaker 05

  You just taught an entire generation of enlisted guys how to game the system, though.

• 8:27The Fat Electrician?

  Wait, you get better food? All the Iraqis are terrified. That's the JTAC for the space laser.

• 8:34Speaker 06

  And so I'm like wearing this Yom gun or a helmet. So like, it's like this beautiful white turns to like nasty brown and black. And I'm going on patrols and I come back and dude, my juice is gone. My bee stew is gone. I'm so pissed, bro. I got raided. Dude, Marines are locusts, right? Like if you have anything good that's different than what they have, it's gone. You know?

• 8:50Speaker 05

  Grab the juke it.

• 8:51Speaker 06

  Oh, yeah.

• 8:53Speaker 06

  Yeah. So, yeah, it's great. Yeah. So that was that. Yeah. But I was able, so my last deployment, I came back and I was having a bunch of like telltale signs of, uh, I was breezing over. My first deployment, I took a round to the helmet on my very first day in Fallujah. I got shot in the helmet.

• 9:09Speaker 05

  Jesus.

• 9:09Speaker 06

  In my very first gunfight before noon, uh,

• 9:12Speaker 05

  Not very good at it.

• 9:13Speaker 06

  March 26, 2004. Yeah. Took a round. Yeah. I'm like, oh, you suck. There was, there was no respawn. It was kind of weird, right?

• 9:19Speaker 05

  It's kind of like what Eli, what you always say is like, yeah, I got the bad at my job award.

• 9:23Speaker 04

  Yeah. Should have zig instead of zag.

• 9:26Speaker 06

  Yeah.

• 9:26Speaker 04

  The enemy marksmen's bad.

• 9:28Speaker 05

  Yeah, there you go.

• 9:28Speaker 06

  Yeah, from the get go, right? Like the day just halfway started and then it, you know, there's seven months of that, you know? So that was fun to be appointment on a sniper team. And the first thing that turns a corner is my head. So I'm like, always trying to like present my body to give them more something to shoot at because I'm like, I've already taken a round and at the time, we didn't really have like gear supplies. So like, I'm walking around with the same helmet with a hole in it for like a couple of weeks.

• 9:50Speaker 05

  No shit.

• 9:50Speaker 04

  That's the most marine thing I think I've ever heard. Did it ride the ridge around?

• 9:55Speaker 06

  It just.

• 9:55Speaker 04

  Or did it just stop?

• 9:56Speaker 06

  It just penetrated, uh, the top lip and then it just stops. It like it bowed in on the inside and yeah.

• 10:01Speaker 05

  Knocked your ass down though on the.

• 10:03Speaker 06

  Oh yeah. It was super crazy. And I'm kind of breezing over that too. But it's like, I had this crazy out of body experience. I remember. So we were inside the second floor, uh, building and my sniper team was ahead of the entire battalion. How a sniper team is supposed to be used, the eyes and ears of a battalion. And so on a sniper team back in the day, there's four guys. So we had my sniper, my team leader, my assistant team leader, both have a bolt gun, sniper rifle. Then the radio operator, myself being the point man, have a M16, right? The musket. And so.

• 10:30Speaker 04

  With iron sights at this.

• 10:31Speaker 06

  Uh, we had. We're the only guys that hit ACOGS and we actually filled at the ACOGS on that deployment. They started issuing out to the Marines. You know, this is like back in the day where we were the only ones that had radios and seven bravos. And then the grunts had like one pair of night vision for like 12 guys, one radio for. And it's a monocle. Oh, we. They got one eye with one eye. No, it was a two into one seven Bravo where like, is that a car, a building, a dead body? Or dust. Definitely rectangular. I'm not really sure what that is.

• 11:00Speaker 04

  It was all Marines were just doing a potato sack race. They're just sharing the monocle. Which is why a veteran with a sign had to raw dog the donkey story. Yeah. Pure moonlight. Dude, when we would get, when we got to Iraq, I remember going in Chalhaw finally and then talking and seeing Marines was like, why y'all got fucking M16A?

• 11:20Speaker 06

  Twos.

• 11:23Speaker 06

  With the triangular hand cards.

• 11:25Speaker 04

  Like, what do you mean? Like?

• 11:28Speaker 04

  Brave.

• 11:29Speaker 06

  Huh? Wow. Yeah. So we had.

• 11:31Speaker 04

  Brave like they had a choice. I know. We get paid the same. And then you look at Air Force, you're like, we get paid the same.

• 11:37Speaker 06

  Get paid the same, better shit. Yeah. We actually had A4s on my deployment. And then I remember seeing like my first M4 in like combat, like in the real world. I'm like, bro, can I, can I hold your gun? Like, that's how like, like googly eye I was. I'm like, I'm here walking with this like musket, right? When the man with the rifle goes down, the one with the ammo picks up the rifle, continues to fire like, and it was, it was just, it was fun, bro. You're 18 and you don't know anything. And then I found out really fast how quick life was. So I'm in this, this, this, I see this, this guy in the black man jam, I run across this, across this rooftop. And I just start shooting and so I'm dumping now, but now we're taking machine gun fire. So like my two snipers are like sprawled down on the ground because they can't really interact. They got a pistol and a bolt gun with five rounds, right? And um,

• 12:21Speaker 06

  I'm shooting, I run out of ammo, my radio operator's on the other side of the window. He pops out to shoot and I'm reloading. Soon as I reload, I pop out through the window and it's like, lights out and I, I, I, I still remember to this day that like, oxygen getting sucked out of my life, like, like all the air getting knocked out of me. And then if you guys ever played a video game where you got too close to a wall and like glitched and you saw like a top down view. So I had this like crazy out of body experience and this is 18 years old, bro. I don't know shit from.

• 12:50Speaker 00

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• 13:18Speaker 06

  And like, I feel like my whole life is flashing behind, like flashing by my eyes, but it's like all the things I was never gonna get to do. Like, not the things I did do, cuz I was 18, I didn't do anything in school, you know, I was just waiting to go to the military. So I, it was like all these things of like what I wasn't going to get to experience, like love, you know, sex, you know, steak again, like this shit that was in my future that wasn't even real yet. And I ended up getting, the typical story, you hear this like white light, dude, I get, literally get sucked back into my body, and I wake up in the prone position, convulsing, and my assistant team leader's on the prone, and he's kicking me, so my convulsing was actually him shaking my body vigorously, he's like, "Are you fucking dead? We just saved your blood, are you fucking dead?" I'm like, "What's happening?"

• 14:01Speaker 06

  I'm like crying and laughing at the same time, I don't know shit from, and they're like, "Get on the radio, call for backup." My body fell by our only radio, cuz it's by the window, and so, you know how like we talk on transmissions, like, "Hey, how's it going, break? So, I'm gonna go do this later, break." I'm like, "Warhammer, break, this is break, Grim Reaper, break." Like, every two words was a break, it was like the most fucked up comms, and needless to say, like, we got a hold of nobody, and so we're like, "We gotta get the fuck out of here," so we crawl out this room, get down to the bottom floor, set up comms again. I'm still appointment, so now I'm like in that rear security watching the breach point, the front of the store, and I see all these heads walk by this window, I'm like, "Oh my god, they're coming." You know, they're coming to like see their kill. And it's this unfinished building. You know how like unlike America, right?

• 14:46Speaker 06

  There's no like loans here. So when money stops there, they stop destruction, right? So they were in unfinished building and um, I see the shadow come walking by and I'm scared shitless. I'm in this little bathroom. My buddy's trying to set up the radio. My heart is pounding through my chest. I'm like dizzy. I'm crying still. I don't know anything. And I see this head. I just like muzzle thumped this motherfucker because I don't, I gotta like see what's going on. And muzzle thump one guy, this guy, he didn't have a gun. This is an older dude. And then one guy turns into like six guys just coming to our house. So like instead of them like letting them walk by, we're like grabbing them and bringing them in. So like my snipers have them all like gunpoint with their pistols and shit. They're like, we gotta get the fuck out of here. You know, I was like, it was like a scene from the office like.

• 15:28Speaker 05

  Like what the fuck do we do now?

• 15:30Speaker 06

  Yeah. What do we do now? And so then we're like, let's hotwire a car. So we go out there and we don't know what the fuck we're doing. So we break a window and apparently.

• 15:37Speaker 05

  Who grew up in the ghetto?

• 15:38Speaker 06

  Yeah. You can't just break a window and there's the keys don't aren't magically there. So we're like.

• 15:44Speaker 04

  We're gonna hotwire a car.

• 15:45Speaker 05

  Oh, yeah, that was.

• 15:46Speaker 04

  Who's done this?

• 15:46Speaker 06

  Yeah.

• 15:47Speaker 04

  We'll figure out.

• 15:50Speaker 04

  Thankfully, it's not stressful right now.

• 15:52Speaker 06

  Yeah.

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• 16:18Speaker 07

  I know I didn't know about starting an online store when I started my career online. Shopify just made it super, super easy for my dumb. Brenda, what happens if people haven't heard about my brand though?

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• 17:31Speaker 06

  And so then we ended up doing this, like, we ran down the road and we ended up linking up with the Umerine Grunt Platoon. And they're like, hey, where were you guys at? Like, we're in that fucking building. We're getting shot at over here. They're like, yeah, well, we were shooting at that building and that building. We're like, we were in that building. And so at the time, there was a lot of speculation that I got shot by 556. And so I don't really care what I got shot by because at the end of the day, my helmet saved my life. And if it was 556, what a blessing for a green tip to not go through my helmet. Green tip being armor piercing, obviously. And I'm just so grateful, but that was like the beginning of it and didn't even end there. So I linked up with the Grunt Platoon. They gave me, linked me up with the corpsman. I get a motion and a cigarette.

• 18:12Speaker 04

  Oh, jeez.

• 18:12Speaker 06

  And then my Delta Force is doing a cordon down the road. They're like, hey, they need sniper security support outside by these railroad tracks. I'm like, uh, so I'm on point, dragging my gun. And my assistant team leader comes up to me and he's like, this is when people were built different. He's like, pick up your fucking rifle. I'm like, oh, my God. So I'm like, okay, you know, I'm not a robot at this point, but like I need encouragement to like, kind of survive because I don't really know where I'm at. We get down to our sniper position and I just, I'm by the railroad tracks. It's like, you could pass out now. And so I just passed down these railroad tracks till like the op was over. I remember the, it was like the APCs or the striker vehicles. I remember the striker vehicles come up to the objective, CAG does her shit. And then it's like, I'm out.

• 18:55Speaker 06

  I get woken up and I ended up getting pulled out that night. My platoon commander. He's like, "Hey, I'm gonna send you back to the rear to get checked out." I'm like, "I'm not going anywhere. I'm staying here." And he's like, "Listen, we are only setting up mortars tonight. We're all pulling out tomorrow morning. You have my word, you're going back tonight." So I go back and sure everyone pulled out. So basically-

• 19:14Speaker 05

  As far as excuses go for leaving the op, getting shot in the head is pretty good, I would say.

• 19:19Speaker 06

  But you know, it was crazy. There was a lot of guys, there was a lot of Marines shot, like, there was, I forget his name, but like the two assholes, because he got on OF1, he got shot cheek to cheek. Oh, I, so on the Fallujah deployment, OF2, cheek to cheek. So he got like double tapped, both deployments, all through the ass. I don't know how that happened. And so there was a lot of guys just literally walking wounded, like dead guy, dead, dead service members, dead fighters, wounded fighters, wounded Marines. That was a very common thing in a very short 24 hour period. And so we ended up pulling out of Fallujah for a week. They come up with a game plan, then we go in. And that was when like really all the, just the horrible stories you kind of hear of like the brutalities of war, that's when really all kind of kicked off. But this deployment that I talked about, my last rotation in 2016,

• 20:04Speaker 06

  I saw a lot of telltale signs of like, just my TBI catching up. I was constantly tired, I was always taking these little Ranger naps and shit. And I was super, I was, I was stressed, eat Oreos. My wife would send me these like amazing care packages. And it was like, you know, those like seasonal Oreos, like whatever flavors? And like, she made these like mason jar cakes. So I like share with my homies and like, but then I'm like, "Wait, I can dip this in this frosting?" And that was like my stress, when I'm waiting for this nerd in Arizona to like turn a Predator 180 degrees to destroy a target. I'm like, "He's not turning it fast enough." You know, or like I'm yelling at a fucking lieutenant colonel who's too scared to wake up a major at the Siege of Sodaf or the Sigrid of, right? These higher echelons of strategic, you know, operations. Because the general's sleeping right now.

• 20:49Speaker 06

  I'm like, "Bitch, wake his ass up, bro." Like, "You're that much of a, like..." And I saw so much bureaucratic red tape, you know. It was super terrifying and you know, people say like, well, that's why I don't promote. Well, you don't promote because you're selfish, right? Like you don't promote because you like comfort. But then when someone gets in charge of you that you don't like, that's your own fucking fault. Right? And you know, I promoted very fast. I was actually, I picked up Master Sergeant in ten and a half years. So I promoted extremely fast in my community and taking over a company was a very big like, it was a big deal, you know, there's only 16 company, company operations chiefs in Marsoc at any given time. And once you do that position, like, once you take out four teams and country, I mean, you're kind of a made man unless you fuck up, you know?

• 21:32Speaker 06

  And I was managing every SEAL, every Green Beret, every Marine Raider, both in Iraq, uh, Jordan and Lebanon at the time. So it was a very big operation. Your god. Yeah. And like, you know, I, I looked a certain way. So I already had this like counter stigma against me, but that was my whole Marine Corps career. And so it was just like, it was great to be able to shine, but not to shine for Cody, but to shine for like my people because you know, I always looked up to the good leaders and the bad leaders in the military. I'm like, I'm never doing what that bitch did, you know? Dude, I'm taking what he did and I'm going to use that next time I have to give an ass chewing, right? Cause it was just like, it impacted me in a positive way. And military is already so toxic and everyone's already so serious. I'm like, why are we doing this, right? And when I saw how these officers that are in charge of lives were more concerned with

• 22:15Speaker 06

  their face value to their higher superior, it really like, um, it just disgusted me, bro. So like, I just completely came unhinged and I gave that deployment, everything I had. I came back and they're like, hey, I want you to be an op chief again. I'm like, fuck you, dude. Like, I'm done. And I didn't really know why I was done. My attitude was kind of going south and, uh, I thought I was a good Marine. Like I always took care of the guys and girls, but like I was, I was just kind of toasted from it all. I'm like this, I've never taken care of myself. I'm finally going to do it. So I ended up taking over a position at our schoolhouse, our Marine Raider Training Center. And I get, I get this orders to go to, it's called intrepid spirit. You guys probably heard of that. We call it the pseudo TBI clinic, but it's really all encompassing for everything and.

• 23:00Speaker 04

  Is it during, now can you have this while you're in service or this is once you're out?

• 23:04Speaker 06

  It's absolutely while you're in service. Yeah. So most guys and girls when they get out.

• 23:07Speaker 05

  It's also like, I think they do like even people that deal with like amputations and stuff like that, right?

• 23:12Speaker 06

  Absolutely. There's rehab. There's all sorts of different therapies and modalities there. And but generally what happens unfortunately is like guys and girls, when they're retiring, they'll go there for their, their two week mandatory thing, get all their stuff like, you know, identified in the medical record, then they retire. But when you do that, bro, as you guys know, like, once you're a civilian, no one gives a fuck about you. You know, so like, I always tell guys, like, you gotta, you gotta give a fuck about you while you're active duty because you have frontline privileges. You know, you get, no other time can you walk into a, to an aid station and be like, hey, I need to see the dentist and the fucking neurosurgeon, right? You can't do that as a civilian. You're, you're dealing with the bureaucracy of the that exists.

• 23:48Speaker 04

  And you're, the hard part is while you're in though, a lot of the time it was frowned upon to go to the aid station and that sucks. And you're like, that's awesome to hear. Your leadership is like, that's a fuck up right there. These guys are screwed once they get out without this being a track record.

• 24:02Speaker 05

  I mean, once you got, got shot, you didn't even get to go to the aid station, right?

• 24:05Speaker 04

  No, I went to the wrong one. So dude, it was mission two and then it was wrong aid station. We went back. We went to Charlie companies because we had just, we lost two guys that day. So Bravo company, we're all like scrambling.

• 24:18Speaker 06

  You went to, you went to an out of network provider.

• 24:23Speaker 04

  And I'm like, hey, I needed to see a medic or something. And they're like, oh, what the? Are you even with us? It's like, no, I'm with BCO. What the fuck are you doing? Well, I got shot. Oh my God, sit down. Uh, go here. And then they sent me to another aid station. That aid station wasn't even part of our brigade. So then they patch me up and then I'm on a mission the very next day. I was like, oh, cool. Here's what we're doing.

• 24:51Speaker 05

  It's only leaking a little.

• 24:54Speaker 04

  Just threw that bruise all the way around my leg. My buddy Kadoka, I've told the story where he got shot in the head on.

• 25:01Speaker 04

  Third mission or we're just pulling uh security and he just drops boom sits up he's like whoa what the fuck bullet rode the ridge of the helmet kicked out a okay

• 25:14Speaker 06

  insane

• 25:15Speaker 04

  yeah that's always like did it stop or did it actually ride the ridge around we seen it go through one goggle he had to wear them I think half through the deployment didn't get to trade those out but they did let him keep it when he got out

• 25:26Speaker 06

  that's that's yes it's so nuts it's I do this like go ahead

• 25:32Speaker 05

  yours had to be like a direct impact if it

• 25:34Speaker 06

  it was it was direct yeah there was a lot of cases on that deployment where it would ride the ridge it would go in and like kind of skirt the guts of the helmet and come out or the skirt the skeleton and come out the other side of the skin you know but not pierce the skull itself

• 25:46Speaker 04

  the army soldier had really good accuracy

• 25:48Speaker 06

  oh bro it was a marine so like that only headshots you know like only headshots

• 25:53Speaker 05

  well they did have ACOG

• 25:57Speaker 06

  I was saying this

• 25:58Speaker 05

  some ball knowledge there

• 25:59Speaker 06

  Marine Corps boot camp bro hundred uh 500 yards with iron sights bro you know like that's every marine no matter their job they can shoot 500 yards with iron sights I don't know they still do iron sights they could do optics now in boot camp potentially but I mean I'm a cook I can shoot you and kill you at 500 yards I'm a I'm a grunt I can shoot you and kill you at 500 yards with multiple shots like that's this most savage thing about the Marine Corps so like whoever that was good friendly or foe bro they were like I'm getting headshots today dude you know they're trying to level up and get that prestige on their on their their gun you know

• 26:31Speaker 04

  as a really white terrorist

• 26:33Speaker 05

  the gold tiger stripe camo and all that

• 26:35Speaker 06

  why is this guy's head right there what an idiot I'm like how am I supposed to see like I'm what am I supposed to do my job

• 26:42Speaker 05

  well a lot of people too they think like you know armor being rated to a certain you know oh it's this caliber it's supposed to you know it'll it'll stop the bullet you know blah blah blah they don't realize okay no it'll keep you alive

• 26:55Speaker 04

  But you're gonna get fucked up, like even body armor. I mean, let alone helmets. I mean, that's an entirely different ballpark because again, you're dealing with like TBIs and like that. It's crazy work.

• 27:04Speaker 06

  Yeah, it's crazy too. Cause like, so throughout my career, like I progressed from the infantry, which is the backbone of the Marine Corps, the fucking, the most savage people, force recon, Marsoc, and then like, as I progressed through these different jobs, everyone's like, helmets, ball caps, nothing. I'm like, what the is wrong with you guys, dude? They're like, and everyone's like, looking cool. I'm like, man, you guys look sick as shit, but you're an idiot. I'm always wearing my helmet, bro. Like I

• 27:27Speaker 04

  To be fair, once bitten, twice shy. You're gonna be the drippiest corpse.

• 27:31Speaker 06

  Dude, yeah. Yeah. I was, I was terrified to not wear my helmet. Like, if there was ever a lesson, I'm like, that's my wooby blanket, dude. It was like my security blanket. I needed that thing, you know, and, and then my armor got smaller and smaller. I'm like, oh, I don't need these extra large plates. I'm 255 pounds. I need to move faster. Give me these medium ones, you know, like it's just covering my kill box.

• 27:51Speaker 04

  The heart plate.

• 27:52Speaker 06

  Yeah.

• 27:53Speaker 04

  My muscles will stop the bullets.

• 27:55Speaker 06

  Dude, honestly, that was my mindset. I'm like, I'm gonna be the biggest, baddest motherf- Marsoc. And if, you know, if I would go to a door and I was to take shots, I want to be able to push through the threshold. So I don't fucking cause a, you know, a disaster in the doorway, you know? And that was my mindset. Not saying it was, you know, I never got to do that. Thank goodness, you know, but that was my mindset. I think there's a lot of mindset. We all have to have.

• 28:14Speaker 04

  Incredible mindset.

• 28:15Speaker 06

  You have to be the baddest motherf- in your world to do a job that there are only, there's only one thing that matters. Are you gonna do it? Or are you not gonna do it?

• 28:23Speaker 04

  Well, I mean, even doing Marsoc's a wild, because how many years did it take you to accomplish that and go through all the training and the school?

• 28:32Speaker 06

  So that started in, so Marsoc started in late 2006. If you're on, I think on the east coast and like 2007 on the west coast. And I actually just got, I got back from my second infantry deployment. We did Operation Still Curtain, which is a really big endeavor. And I'm like, dude, carrying all these like heavy ass shit. I want like light guns and packs and I'm gonna go try out for force. And so I tried out for force recon and I was actually coming back from airborne school and I got back and they're like, we're no longer force. We are now Marines Special Operations Battalion. I'm like, What does that mean? They're like, everyone stop growing, stop shaving your, your faces and stop getting haircuts and wear civilian clothes. I'm like, what the fuck? Are you serious? Where am I?

• 29:15Speaker 06

  And they're like, we're gonna give you guys cards. And if anyone has any issues, you tell them to call the number in the back. I'm like, bro, this is sick as dude, like I winning. That lasted like two days, right? A little bit longer than two days, but not definitely not a weekend. It went straight back to like Gestapo.

• 29:29Speaker 02

  Oh, they they let you taste it.

• 29:34Speaker 06

  You will eat the capoop, you know, and

• 29:37The Fat Electrician?

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• 30:14Speaker 06

  Yeah, they definitely pulled a like Houdini on us, you know, and

• 30:17Speaker 04

  I just thought government mindset is like, this is gonna be around for years to come. Three days later. Yeah, we need you to shave.

• 30:24The Fat Electrician?

  Like for the Marines having the like the I don't know, the general consensus that they're slow to change. I feel like they change shit like that all the time where they're like, well, now we're getting rid of tanks. Also, we're getting rid of the scout sniper program, but not really. It's gonna be named something else and kind of functional different, but they're still gonna have snipers, but kind of sort of not the same. And then like what you're saying, like

• 30:45Speaker 05

  Did they go back on the tanks thing?

• 30:47The Fat Electrician?

  I don't think so. It didn't. They got rid of their tanks.

• 30:50Speaker 05

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• 30:56The Fat Electrician?

  Yeah.

• 30:56Speaker 05

  And he was very butthurt as soon

• 30:58The Fat Electrician?

  Last I knew, yeah, the Marine Corps doesn't have tanks anymore.

• 31:00Speaker 06

  Sniper thing was so stupid. I actually was fortunate enough to speak at the last scout sniper graduation in the in East Coast. And it was like a really big honor, you know, and I heard rumors, I don't know if it's true or not, but I heard rumors that the the general was a like a lower ranking officer at the time when Marines when they remember when they pissed on the dead Taliban and stuff like that?

• 31:18Speaker 05

  Yeah.

• 31:19Speaker 06

  And so like he was like butthurt from that, you know, that disgracing this. I'm like, but then I'll go back to like the history of World War II and the Marine Raiders and the Marines out there like, no shaves. Well, Cody, because they didn't have water. Well, bitch, I was in Iraq with no water and you made us shave, you know?

• 31:34Speaker 05

  I don't know if you've seen Japan and the areas around it. It's surrounded by water.

• 31:38Speaker 06

  You know, like dudes wearing like ear necklaces. It's like, what do you expect? You're taking a bunch of like normal people and you're putting them in completely abnormal situations and you want me to play rules of engagement?

• 31:48Speaker 05

  I mean, look at the painted Japanese skulls, for example.

• 31:51Speaker 06

  Trophy skulls? Have you seen those?

• 31:53Speaker 05

  Oh, yeah.

• 31:54Speaker 06

  Like the the pictures that wives would take with the skulls that their husbands would send them of dudes they killed. Like they're like posing with it like back in the 1940s when it was like, it was a hassle to get a picture taken and they're like going to a photographer like posing like, look at the guy that tried to kill my husband and he killed him instead. Like, fucking crazy.

• 32:12Speaker 05

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• 33:58Speaker 06

  Yeah, dude, but then we live in this era where it's like, men, well done assaulting that machine bunker. Wait a second, are those white socks? Hey, you piece of shit. That's why you're dying out there. Literally verbatim, verbatim. You know why you guys are dying out there?

• 34:11Speaker 08

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• 34:12Speaker 06

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• 34:14Speaker 08

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• 34:15Speaker 06

  So the Marine Corps has this rank called First Sergeant, and First Sergeants in the Marine Corps are like officers in the military. It's 50/50. It's really hit or miss, right? Enlisted men can be molded and groomed. Officers are just groomed. That's really it. They're just groomed from the get-go, and that's okay, right? But First Sergeants, especially in the special operations community, they don't, they're not organic to that organization, so they come from the big Marine Corps. And how Marsoc is, Marsoc's one of the most amazing units the Marine Corps has to offer from our support enabler and obviously our team guy and girl staff. And they're just so capable. But the problem is, is we hamstring ourselves. And so they bring in these outside entities that are like, I'm gonna make a name for myself. Because everyone's trying to, everybody wants to be the general staff. Everybody wants

• 35:00Speaker 06

  to go to the next level where guys and girls in the job, they're really concerned with, yeah, they want to promote, they want to progress, but they're really cared about the mission and the men, right? Like what they're there for. And when you get these First Sergeants in there, I remember being in a firefight, and I was in Marsoc, I was being firefighted on my second Afghan deployment, and we're on this hilltop, and I was at this place called the Fod Robinson, and there was like the OK Corral. Everyone came out to Fod Rob to get their combat action ribbon, because we were always shooting. Like it was, it was always happening. And our command leadership came out there and they're like you boys in a gunfight and we just like obviously not talk on the radio like alright they're gonna they're just they're gonna come up here eventually but we don't have to like speed this process up. And so they end up coming up there and they're like, did you boys call this in as a tick? And we're like, fuck no, man. This is a little skirmish, bro. Tick being a troop in contact, you know, like.

• 35:45Speaker 06

  They would actually just trying to get their cab. Yep, dude. And so what happened was they're like, and this is verbatim, you guys called this in as a tick. Therefore, they would rate a combat action ribbon, right? Because it'd be an actual, you know. You told them no. Notified. I'm like, no, this is a skirmish, bro. And he's like, he was pissed. Then he looked down at my sleeve and saw my pocket sleeve. I had a radar patch. He literally tapped on it and flicked it. He's like, no unit patches. And then they left. They don't care about you. It's just a job for them, but this is a whole nother fucking world for us, you know, like.

• 36:20Speaker 06

  And that's the problem I see in like the warfighter community. It's like, why are we here? Why do you train me to say, die motherfucker, die, butta butta jam, you know, stabbing things with a fricking K bar on the end of your rifle? You're training me to literally be a fucking killer. But then you say, hey, but you need to be a tap dancer on this deployment. Funny thing about Fallujah. There is, Fallujah was the craziest, scariest experience I've ever endured in my life.

• 36:48Speaker 06

  Traumatizing. I've never seen more death and destruction, like so many fucking bodies. I've seen ancient bodies fly off from the sky from bombs, dies even by dogs, like stacks of human bodies just decaying in the streets. Like it was fucking insane, right? And what's funny is before we went on that deployment, we're actually training for this thing called SASSO. I believe it stands for Security and Stability Operations, basically like martial law. And so we're training for this like halt, who goes there? Where's your ID at? I'm the sergeant of the guards, you know, like this like super generic TV stigma of what a military person is. And that's what we're training for. Then we go to hell's kitchen and we're like, oh my God. You know, it's essentially like if it has a pulse in a gun, you're it's dying, right? Like it's like it's free game.

• 37:33Speaker 06

  I don't think he's gonna give me his ID. Yeah, I don't think he's gonna play nice, you know, and it's it's just.

• 37:38Speaker 04

  The scariest part was that mindset and that train up to it's like, yeah, we're going to pull in vehicles. You're going to search them one by one. Oh, now they're just created V bits and now they're just blowing up.

• 37:49Speaker 06

  Yeah.

• 37:49Speaker 04

  As they roll in. Okay, now we're just gonna hand this off to the I A.

• 37:53Speaker 06

  Yeah, you know, it's stupid when the people you're fighting are like, they're so dumb. I'm just gonna walk from my house, wave at them to this bush where all the caches at because I know they're not gonna kill me. And then when I get to my cache, I'm gonna go kill them. And like, we literally will watch this.

• 38:08Speaker 04

  Yeah.

• 38:08Speaker 06

  And and you, it's just like, why am I here? I know they're bad. I've stalked them. I have pictures of them, right? But they don't have a gun in their hands right now. But I know as soon as I lose sight in five seconds, they're behind that bush where I lose contact because they'll hit the trench. Next thing you know, I'm taking rockets and RPGs and machine gun in like a matter of moments and.

• 38:26Speaker 05

  I think it's a great example, too, of what people talk about now and like in regards to like, you know, the United States versus like, let's say China or Russia. Where the United States doesn't do things militarily.

• 38:37Speaker 05

  Because of political will, or like, oh, we're holding ourselves back. Other people don't do it because they can't. It's like China's not taking Taiwan because they can't. Russia's not taking Ukraine because they can't.

• 38:49Speaker 06

  Like all the, all the people on Twitter that are like, so if I'm understanding this, this means that, uh, if if Trump can just go kidnap Maduro, then technically Vladimir Putin can just go kidnap. Zelensky and it's like, he's been trying for four years. What are we talking about?

• 39:03Speaker 05

  Yeah.

• 39:03Speaker 06

  He physically can't.

• 39:04Speaker 05

  They've been doing like.

• 39:05Speaker 06

  He's tried.

• 39:05Speaker 05

  Dumb spy versus spy shit, trying to do that exact thing. Like it's, it physically are incapable, whereas the United States is like, the, the thing we're held back by is we've made our own rules arbitrarily for our people. We could if we wanted to, if we wanted. Right or wrong?

• 39:22Speaker 06

  I mean, I mean.

• 39:23Speaker 04

  They're just on leash. Everyone's on a leash Marines, everything. It's like, and it sucks because when you're actually in war. Or just going back to with bad officers, it's crazy. The missions they will, the predicaments they will put soldiers and just to get a medal.

• 39:38Speaker 06

  Bro, it is the medal, dude. Oh, how many men do you lose?

• 39:41Speaker 04

  How, but we needed to do a night raid up a river. They will do a mission based off of fucking river raid just to get a silver star.

• 39:51Speaker 06

  That is a fact.

• 39:51Speaker 05

  What?

• 39:52Speaker 06

  That is a fact.

• 39:53Speaker 04

  Dude. Oh, yeah, well, you're you the fastest you learn how expendable you are and no one gives a is being in the military and being like the front lines.

• 40:01The Fat Electrician?

  It's like trying to hit an achievement in a video game.

• 40:04Speaker 05

  Yeah, well, I mean, the the example that comes to mind is

• 40:07The Fat Electrician?

  Like, oh, we could this level could be harder if you want to, and we'll give you fucking bonus points on your Xbox score. Like, that's literally what it is.

• 40:14Speaker 05

  The example that comes to mind is like the very end of World War One. Where like there was a ceasefire agreed to like all the terms of surrender were already put in place. It's like, OK, nothing we do now will matter when it comes to diplomacy or the reason we're here. But we're gonna do one more fucking push anyway. It's like, how many nineteen year old kids fucking died? Because some general wanted to make a name for himself.

• 40:37Speaker 06

  That's it, man. I remember it was it was that same second Afghan deployment. There was um. Anytime they're like, hey, there's a company up coming down. Oh, you know, you're right. Like, you know, you're fucked. And this whole deployment, the team that I was attached to, we're we're just doing disruptive operations. So our whole mission was to fly in with one sixtieth. You know, set up ambush sites in the in the Taliban's backyard and just literally pick fights while the commandos would come in because commandos, the Afghan commandos and the Marine commandos were too much shit. And it was like losing that that face value of like Afghans. You know, Afghans. So they like, how can we deescalate that? How can we not put them in a kinetic situation? And so they would put us in the kinetic situation. So when the commando, the Afghan commandos came in, it was like, hey, like,

• 41:19Speaker 06

  we're here to help reinforce your village, bring stability, blah, blah, blah, and, you know, create like a militia. And so that's what they did. But that was our whole mission was just to fight. And uh. They they were like, all right, there's a company mission coming off, and we're already doing pretty crazy, hellacious shit like in in literally like out where the only bad guys live. So there's no IEDs because we're in their backyard.

• 41:39The Fat Electrician?

  And no paperwork.

• 41:40Speaker 06

  Yeah, yeah, no paperwork. That's just right there. And uh, they're like, they're like, all right, you guys are gonna patrol. So the commandos just came in. You guys are gonna patrol behind the commandos. And in three days, we're gonna resupply you with ammo and water. And then you're gonna go to this bridge. We're gonna be on the other side. Then you're gonna walk across the bridge. And when you get across the bridge, then our EOD tech is gonna go across and then blow it up. I'm like, just blow it up now. Like, why are we doing this? Why, and then why the would I walk behind, like, why would I walk behind an already advancing force, which is already technically proven and tactically proven, where they're already in placing like IEDs and fighting positions and booby traps, right, because they're like, let's go see what happened here. Why would I go do that?

• 42:24Speaker 06

  And luckily, I had a team commander, Matt Manukian. Unfortunately, he was killed by, he was murdered with an insider threat on the next deployment. But he was a team commander, actually was.

• 42:34Speaker 05

  If you don't mind, back insider threat?

• 42:37Speaker 06

  Insider threat. So basically, what, what happens in the special operations community, we work a lot with our partner force. So in Afghanistan, we work with the Afghan National Army and the Afghan Special Forces. And the Afghan commandos will, in certain aspects, we give them access to our operations center. We give them access to like our joint buildings and facilities, because we're by, with, and through with our partner force.

• 42:59Speaker 04

  You're building relationships.

• 43:00Speaker 06

  Yeah, you're building relationships and rapport. And so what happens was, one of the, one of the commanders came in with Afghan and like, killed three of our Marines with 1911 and then ran out. And that happened numerous times, multiple bases. But that's also the problem that you have when you give us more rules that I can't, that I can't even adapt, because you're not on the ground. It's literally the scene from Black Hawk Down, where it's easy for you to say, being, you know, however many square miles up in the sky, you know, it's unforgiving down here. You know, there's always someone who doesn't know what the dust tastes like when it's mixed with blood and like that dry, like dehydrated spit that are calling the shots. And that's okay. We all have a place in the pecking order and our roles, responsibilities. But like, you know, if you have a business and business is going good

• 43:43Speaker 06

  or business is not going good, are you not going to go see and investigate what's actually happening, the ground truth? And there's just such a disconnection, because it is a political war. It's really, war is a fucking shame in the first place. It's a political war, and then it's a, it's this self merit, self looking ice cream cone. You know, like there's, I remember, I've worked every tactical position and like joint billet. And I remember being at the Siege of Sort of, which is the combined joint special operations task force. And that's a mixture of like Army, Air Force, Navy, Marines, like all the special operations guys and girls. And there's like these majors in there and lieutenant colonels like, I hope I don't get another Bronze Star for this deployment. I already have six of them. I'm really hoping for a meritorious service medal. What, they don't have ice cream in the chow hall today?

• 44:27Speaker 06

  I'm like, shut up, you bitch, like what? This is what you're Where's the V device? Yeah, this is what you're complaining about, dude. Like, you're living in a la la land. There's dudes and chicks out on the battlefield, bro, like hoping that someone picks up the radio when they, when they need you. Like, hoping there's an air asset available that's not doing a resupply run for Otis Spunkmeyer cookies for you. You know, like, i- i- there's multiple wars taking place. And then, by the same time, it's really easy to talk. That's okay, bro, because we thrive in like, straight up chaos and shitty ass situations. And that's what gives us our resiliency and it gives us that, that ability to like, find a way.

• 45:06Speaker 04

  You know, you mold really quick in that. I think that's where, when you're always the tip of the spear, that's when your unit, your battalion, wherever you are, you get ingrained in it so quickly. That's, you get through that danger period. Cause I'm sure you have that same like, hey, first X amount of days until you figure out what works and what doesn't. Once you find out what works, every time, then you try to, we talked with Brandon on it. It's you train up the next, you don't get to train up the next unit for your AO. You're kind of like, hey, we call this the death blossom. If you get blown up or anything, just shoot everything. You're gonna have new patches, they're going to test you. Just trust us on that one. And then they don't listen and they lose a lot of people.

• 45:50Speaker 04

  And it's like, did you try that yet? No, we were told not to. Why were they telling him not to? Just

• 45:57Speaker 06

  Every command, uh, it's, it's almost like, it's, it's almost like every commander that goes out there. This is not generic, cause I've worked with a lot of amazing Marine Corps officers. I've worked with a lot of Navy, uh, special warfare officers and Army off, uh, Army special forces officers. So like, there's clearly a really good majority of amazing ones out there. But there's also a lot of ones out there that are trying to win the war in terror in their six month block and do it their way. And another thing too is like, if you're coming to replace me and I give you advice, you have to be pretty, if I say, hey, Ben, you're looking like you're having a hard time in life. Have you ever thought about just taking like a day or two once a week just to like, take care of yourself? You have to be pretty open to, to do that, you know? You have to like, be humble.

• 46:37Speaker 04

  Dude, especially in war, that'd be a wild, dude, I, that is a crazy statement to hear of like, you should take a day off. We didn't have that, I don't know.

• 46:46Speaker 06

  Oh, yeah, well, I'm just saying like, and like, to hear that advice, you'd have to be like, kind of open to it.

• 46:50Speaker 04

  Yeah.

• 46:51Speaker 06

  God damn it. Ah! Tourniquet.

• 46:54The Fat Electrician?

  I've been watching you put your drink on that ledge.

• 46:56Speaker 04

  Thank you.

• 46:57The Fat Electrician?

  Two podcasts now.

• 46:58Speaker 04

  Since mid, since minute one, I've been like.

• 47:00Speaker 05

  Oh, it is all over.

• 47:02The Fat Electrician?

  You should run for Congress.

• 47:03Speaker 05

  I am horrifically so. I'm, I've given up. This is like a, as soon as we're done with the podcast, I'm going back to the hotel.

• 47:11Speaker 04

  Come back to the beginning of every one of our views of us just eyeballing, not Brandon.

• 47:15Speaker 05

  I was looking at.

• 47:16The Fat Electrician?

  I've been eyeballing that drink for two podcasts now.

• 47:20Speaker 05

  I, it's, if there is standing water. I'm a Marine. In my tank.

• 47:24Speaker 06

  I'm a Marine, do you want my assistance? Do you want my assistance right now? I can, I can help. I, I am gay chicken qualified, so I can't, I, I, I can't help.

• 47:34Speaker 05

  I'm willing to try anything.

• 47:36Speaker 06

  Dude, there are some Marines you definitely do not want to play gay chicken, but dude.

• 47:39Speaker 04

  Nah, we've.

• 47:40Speaker 05

  God.

• 47:41Speaker 06

  That's.

• 47:42The Fat Electrician?

  Don't, don't threaten me with B A H.

• 47:48The Fat Electrician?

  Oh my god.

• 47:50Speaker 04

  That drink was just, I just see that stem sticking up. I'm like, Brandon is playing a dangerous game right now.

• 47:55Speaker 05

  We were out of the, uh, the small ones that didn't have the stem. The stem was, I, I will admit that was dangerous. Hindsight being 2020, probably shouldn't have pulled that move, but, uh.

• 48:05The Fat Electrician?

  Yeah, you decided to play on hardcore mode. This is going too well. I should elevate the liquid above a very small base.

• 48:12Speaker 05

  Listen here.

• 48:13The Fat Electrician?

  On the rounded carpet couch.

• 48:16Speaker 05

  Look, country girls make do, alright?

• 48:21The Fat Electrician?

  Oh my god.

• 48:22Speaker 05

  Well, that was right up there with the Zincentin.

• 48:24Speaker 04

  Yep.

• 48:25The Fat Electrician?

  No, that is nothing on that.

• 48:27Speaker 05

  Immediately, I'm just like, well, I'll see you on the fucking subreddit.

• 48:32Speaker 04

  Oh man.

• 48:34The Fat Electrician?

  Oh, so what are you up to now?

• 48:36Speaker 06

  Oh, you know, just draw on the internet.

• 48:38The Fat Electrician?

  How did you blow up on the internet? These are my favorite stories, cause we all have ridiculous stories of how we ended up here.

• 48:45Speaker 05

  I, I've.

• 48:46Speaker 06

  You are wet.

• 48:47Speaker 04

  Brandon peed himself.

• 48:49Speaker 05

  Yeah, I peed up. I did the tucking.

• 48:52Speaker 06

  Yeah, you had to tuck.

• 48:53Speaker 04

  God, that was all of it.

• 48:54The Fat Electrician?

  Oh no, now Brandon smells like Jack. Cause that's, for the first time ever, Brandon smells like Jack and Coke.

• 49:04Speaker 04

  The wet front.

• 49:07The Fat Electrician?

  Dirty wet fronts.

• 49:10Speaker 06

  His ass is totally wet. Your gooch is totally decimated. Your gooch is decimated. Oh, yeah. You're definitely sterile down there. Not sterile, but what do you call it? Uh, sanitized? Yeah.

• 49:21Speaker 05

  I wasn't joking. I felt it pooling in my.

• 49:24The Fat Electrician?

  Bro, Jesus, hammered.

• 49:28The Fat Electrician?

  You got, Jesus. The entire thing.

• 49:33The Fat Electrician?

  Gets completely soaked, throws the podcast off the rails immediately. I need a towel and another Jack and Coke.

• 49:41The Fat Electrician?

  And to say that, he's going right back up on the fucking iPad. It can't happen twice. Yeah, that worked out on the poker table last night. Let me tell you. He lost three hands and then puts all of his chips in and goes, statistically, I can't lose this many times in a row. Loses everything.

• 49:59Speaker 05

  I looked you in the eyes. I'm like, I can't be wrong three times.

• 50:04The Fat Electrician?

  He was wrong with the time.

• 50:07Speaker 06

  You gonna learn today.

• 50:10Speaker 05

  I'm sorry to interrupt. What are you up to, brother?

• 50:12The Fat Electrician?

  Oh, you know, just looking at your wet pants.

• 50:15Speaker 06

  Yep, it's pretty, yeah.

• 50:18The Fat Electrician?

  Chasing drones.

• 50:18Speaker 05

  I don't want, oh, it's back. It's on my balls now.

• 50:23Speaker 06

  Just stuff the towel down there. That's it. Like a diaper.

• 50:28Speaker 06

  You're running for what now?

• 50:30The Fat Electrician?

  You should go, you should go take off the clothes. You should go take off the clothes and put a robe on for the rest of the podcast.

• 50:36Speaker 05

  I might. Like honestly, that's the fu- that's the fu- part. I'm not even like, I'm not even drunk.

• 50:41The Fat Electrician?

  I love that Nolan, Nolan's been walking around in just a robe.

• 50:47Speaker 00

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• 51:15Speaker 05

  I might do it. He was walking through the Venetian shopping area like the mall in just a robe and flip flops. Yes. Do you get like a fucking massage this morning?

• 51:23Speaker 09

  We just went and got called.

• 51:24Speaker 05

  Really? In robes? Yeah. You both walk out of this room in robes?

• 51:28Speaker 09

  No, I just put a video of it. He went robe, no shirt, flip flops and like shorts. So he looked like he was naked. And all the.

• 51:34Speaker 05

  You were the whore.

• 51:35Speaker 09

  Yeah, all the guys were like wide eyed walking us walk like.

• 51:40Speaker 05

  Yeah.

• 51:40Speaker 09

  Who look these people?

• 51:41Speaker 05

  Do you have a spare robe?

• 51:43Speaker 09

  Do you want?

• 51:44Speaker 05

  Do you have one? Oh. Oh. Do you like a mouthful of hardwood? Yes. Go on. Then boy, do I have a product for you. I'm re-enlisting in the Navy. No, not this time. Oh. The product is Fume. What's Fume? It's an amazing device for those trying to kick those nasty habits. Well, you said hardwood. You actually meant hardwood. I'm sorry to disappoint, but yes, I mean literal hardwood. I love hardwood in my mouth. Wait. You know what's gayer than hardwood in your mouth? Dying from cancer. Fume has an award winning design. There's no battery, no chemicals, just flavored air. Dial that airflow with the clickies. Wait, you ever tried maple pepper? No, I like crisp mint because I'm a coward when it comes to flavors. Cody, what's your favorite?

• 52:25Speaker 07

  I don't know about flavor, but John C. Fume told me it was sexy and sleek.

• 52:30Speaker 05

  That is a sexy and sleek piece of wood right there, Cody.

• 52:34Speaker 07

  Oh, yeah.

• 52:34Speaker 05

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• 53:01Speaker 05

  I'm not. I'm not black and disabled. Is this, is this what you saw after you got shot in the head?

• 53:10Speaker 05

  Pushing you back into your body. Go my child. Hey, Zeus. It's not time yet. You say Fouse? No, Jesus. Oh, Jesus, yeah. That, that would be very confusing. It's not your time yet. I'll see you in a couple of years on a podcast. Yeah. Yes, you will. There you are.

• 53:27Speaker 06

  You have spoken.

• 53:28Speaker 05

  What's this is actually kinda red.

• 53:30Speaker 06

  You look good.

• 53:32Speaker 05

  I'm so embarrassed right now.

• 53:37Speaker 04

  Brad's like, cool. That had to happen on this episode. That totally won't go in front of the podcast.

• 53:42Speaker 06

  Definitely not. You definitely, that's definitely not a, an attention gainer right there.

• 53:46Speaker 05

  I didn't even react. I'm just like, ah, it just accepted it.

• 53:49Speaker 06

  Yep.

• 53:49Speaker 05

  It's like, this is my fate.

• 53:51Speaker 04

  Episode just Brandon comes.

• 53:55Speaker 05

  What?

• 53:58Speaker 05

  No, I get why Hugh Hefner just walked around in these things all the time. I think there was no other reason, but.

• 54:04Speaker 06

  Being comfortable.

• 54:04Speaker 05

  Yeah, just being comfortable.

• 54:05Speaker 06

  And free.

• 54:07Speaker 05

  Anyway, what are you up to, brother?

• 54:09Speaker 06

  Oh, you know, I'm just enjoying the ride right now. This is great. At your expense, so I semi sorry, I guess.

• 54:16Speaker 05

  Ah, it's alright. It's what we're here for.

• 54:18Speaker 06

  Yeah, I love it.

• 54:19Speaker 05

  Yep.

• 54:19Speaker 06

  Good spirit, though. You could have been really angry.

• 54:23Speaker 05

  What's up?

• 54:23Speaker 06

  You could have been really angry and like spilled a drink on you and got pissed off, you know?

• 54:27Speaker 05

  Oh yeah, just storm off like, fuck this, I'm done. It's not worth the money.

• 54:29Speaker 06

  The podcast is ruined.

• 54:31Speaker 05

  Yeah, podcast is ruined forever.

• 54:33Speaker 06

  This one's never airing, sorry.

• 54:35Speaker 05

  That's okay.

• 54:35Speaker 06

  Waste your time.

• 54:36Speaker 05

  It's not a waste. Just, just walk out like actually genuinely upset.

• 54:41Speaker 05

  I'm going home, you guys.

• 54:44Speaker 06

  Changes his flights.

• 54:46Speaker 04

  Well, so Mr. Cody, what did get you, uh, start getting actual traction on the internet? Going back to Nick's question.

• 54:53Speaker 06

  Yeah. So are you guys familiar with Softly?

• 54:55Speaker 05

  Yeah.

• 54:55Speaker 06

  Yeah. So, uh, so my friends, uh, the owner of that, and he came from our unit in Marsoc and, uh, when I was on my medical board, there was a thing at the time, it was called the fellowship program. So basically you could come, you could go work for free at a company during your timeout. And, uh, Softly created a position for me and I got my command to sign up for it. So that's where I learned, uh, like photography and videography and like just graphic design. Like they took me in, gave me, gave me an apartment, my wife and I apartment and like.

• 55:22Speaker 05

  No shit.

• 55:23Speaker 06

  Gave me a chance to like heal and like experience like, I was so stressed, bro. Like I was my, my, my life was falling apart. Like cognitively, I couldn't even like dress myself. I was getting lost in my own house, falling off of motorcycles. I drive down the street and not know I got. Like TBI kinda shit. Yeah, like everything was like just catching up to me. So it was like, I was very desperate and I was very reliant and dependent on other people for for help and assistance. And so they gave me this shot and it was like great. And so, you know, we started shooting content and like they gave me some like internet, like maybe like notoriety, but like, you know, they put me on Softly to have my own like Softly workout. And it was, I got to be in the Softly family and do events with them. And so that that started getting me traction on the internet. And then

• 56:06Speaker 06

  really, I started to grow my my social media just by like sharing YouTube and like Instagram stuff like kinda like what I was going through in life, which was terrifying. I remember the first time I got called, I got called stolen valor on my second YouTube video. And I cried for like a week. And the comment, the specific comic was, you might be military, but there's no way you're special operations. Special operations guys don't talk like you. And I'm like, I'm just trying to help people and fucking like, you know, What the fuck does that even mean? Like, what was he trying to? I was talking about like mental health. I was talking about like depression, anxiety, and like the shit that I was doing to like combat the stuff. And, you know, when I, when I got out of the Marine Corps,

• 56:45Speaker 06

  I told myself, whatever everyone else is doing, I'm not gonna do. So like, guys, my job, you just go out, you go contract, whether you work for the commander, you go work for the agency, which is what I wanted to do. And God had different plans for me that, you know, I literally went like, kinda like a functioning vegetable. And so when I had that opportunity to go live that life, I had to turn it down, uh, just because I couldn't even like time my own shoot this time. And so I'm like, well, I'm not gonna go do that. So I'm just gonna go bet on me. I didn't even know what that meant. I just sold, you know, my wife and I sold all of her shit. She's like, if you got six weeks left to live, what do you wanna do? I'm like, travel around, take pictures. I started to get into the habit of like saying the first thing that came to my mind, because I was always trying to like come up with the right answer. If I was just like saying like what I Favorite slur right now, go. Penis. That's not a slur.

• 57:31Speaker 06

  Favorite slur? I'm kidding. Man.

• 57:35Speaker 04

  Oh, he's going through a Rolodex right now.

• 57:37Speaker 06

  Well, I'm just saying, like, people aren't getting bullied anymore. And there's this like, this, this Looney Tune fictitious reality that people live in that where they, they've chosen to like, call home their Fortnite, like call Fortnite their home and where they, they run their thumbs and that they forget that they live in a world of repercussions. And the crazy thing about it is like, it's easy for me to threaten you if you should talk me, but what you, what I've learned over my journey is like, when I hate on you, bro, it's just really saying everything about myself. And that took me a long time to figure out. So like, I actually embrace it now because it just gives me more content. And like, one of my favorite things to do now is like troll back the trollers. So like, I, I just like, I use it back. So this, it gives me like added ammunition. I make it fun now. If I was back in the day, it's like really hurt me because I'm like, why are people so mean?

• 58:19Speaker 06

  When I'm just trying to share something and like positive and I didn't even know what the I was sharing. But, uh, yeah, I just started like talking on the internet and then I kind of like grew a message, you know, I started my brand, we defy the norm in the van and just this message about like literally defying the norm. And at the time I really didn't know what it meant to me. I just knew that I could not do what everyone else was doing. Like I needed to do something different because the path, you worked a job, but you fucking hated just for money and then you yourself. Like that was kind of like the roadmap for a lot of the guys that I worked with. And I'm like, I, I want to live, like, I really want to live.

• 58:53Speaker 04

  And just to go back really quick, it's one thing and you wanted to actually make change when you got out from your lifestyle because you were very conditioned one way. And you're like, let me take time for myself, my family.

• 59:05Speaker 06

  I wanted to make change when I was active duty and for the first time in my life, I was when I was on my medical board. So my whole dream, uh, as a young Marine, once I found out that there was like tier one units I could go to. And, um, when I made over to Marsoc, I applied numerous times, but because of manpower management or something like that, I never got a chance to go. And then there was this one opportunity where like, hey, no matter your rank, no matter how long you've been in, like if you, if you get selected, you meet the requirement, you can go. I'm like, this is my chance to finally go to selection with no stipulations from my command. And so I go to my neurosurgeon, I'm like, hey, bro, like I'm finally getting a chance to go to selection. And he's like, I'm like, I want to postpone this medical board. He's like, okay, but let me ask you this.

• 59:49Speaker 06

  If you were to go over there, do you think you would be a liability? And for the first time in my fucking military career, I was like, honest, I'm like, yes, I would be a liability. And that really set me on a whole different trajectory because that was already hard. Asking for help was fucking hard. Fighting for myself was hard. So I was already fighting for survival because no one would listen to me. And I was noticing a pattern where I was super destructive. So like everything, anything good I did in the military, I was quickly losing because I was becoming extremely violent. I was having uncontrollable adrenaline surges. Like my, my, my central nervous system was just completely crashing, right? I would be driving in a car with my wife and like miss a turn and like, shut the fuck up. You're like, what are you doing? And she's like, she didn't even say anything.

• 1:00:33Speaker 06

  She just looked at me and I would just project this like insecurity onto my wife. I was having all these like blowups all the time and, you know, and I was really desperate to want to change that shit. And so it started when I was active duty, which was sick because guys are stubborn. You know, guys won't even ask questions. Dudes will run through a room to get to a buddy, to get to an objective, a target. They'll fucking risk everything for that op, but they will not raise their hands to ask a general question. They won't ask, why are we doing this stupid ass thing? But they'll fucking run into a machine gun bunker. Same thing when it comes to getting out like, guys, did you know that like, you can get on testosterone, your dick can work? They're like, what? I'm like, yeah, I just went to the doc.

• 1:01:17Speaker 06

  I said, dude, my, my dick doesn't work. And he's like, let's check your blood. I'm like, holy shit, you have low testosterone. They're like, how did you do it? I'm like, I just asked.

• 1:01:25Speaker 05

  Which to my knowledge, isn't there like a correlation, like a direct correlation to like, low testosterone in men and like TBI?

• 1:01:31Speaker 06

  1,000%. You know, I work for a hormone company called Core Medical Group and it's, it's super sick. And the coolest thing about that company is that we have a, not Core Medical Group, based out of Boca Raton, Florida. And we have a core medical foundation. And what's really savage about that is we provide a year's supply of blood work, hormone replacement therapy and concierge service for service members that cannot afford, service members and law enforcement officers who can't afford hormone replacement therapy. And we've been doing a study the past few years of like, if we can get a man or woman, their, their blood work done, get their hormones optimized and balanced, and get them on some type of like, whatever that is. Sometimes it's testosterone, sometimes it's an estrogen blocker, sometimes it's even a peptide, right? Or sometimes it's just knowing what's inside you so you can stop building scenarios that aren't even real.

• 1:02:16Speaker 06

  We're seeing their lives change and you know, there's this thing called like the operator syndrome of they're calling like, you know, the TBI, all this stuff, but like, dude, what did you expect? You're injected with everything known to man that you don't even fucking know when you're 18 years old. You know, uh, day two in the military. You're exposed to literally every heavy metal, like all this shit that I used to make fun of. Heavy metals, toxins, contaminants, chemtrails, or like, uh, you know, organic food.

• 1:02:45The Fat Electrician?

  On top of that complete lack of sleep with no normal sleep cycle.

• 1:02:50Speaker 06

  All the things I made fun of are absolutely real and we're exposed to it. I remember throwing flashbangs in the shoot house and putting a dip in. You know, doing a whole entire shooting package, shooting thousands of thousands of rounds and eating a subway sandwich, sandwich pounding like three monsters and be like, what's next?

• 1:03:04Speaker 02

  I'm going on a mission day after day, be dehydrated and then every once in a while someone would be like, I'm not doing good. What'd you do? I had five rippers before we went on the 10 mile mission.

• 1:03:15Speaker 06

  Why?

• 1:03:16Speaker 02

  Stupid, fucking pool, real security.

• 1:03:20Speaker 06

  I'm bulking, bro.

• 1:03:22Speaker 05

  I mean, even, even like the, the army's guidelines for shit like depleted uranium. They're just like, well, isn't that like bad for your nuts? And they're like, well, like, yeah, just like, don't like, hold it there too long. It's like, what the does that mean?

• 1:03:35Speaker 06

  Bro, there's a fucking 18 year old kid throwing boxes and batteries in a fire pit. And we're all standing around smoking cigarettes and be like, man, that patrol fucking sucked, huh? And we're like, yeah, that sucked smelling batteries, like all this.

• 1:03:47Speaker 02

  Burn pits.

• 1:03:48Speaker 06

  Burn pits, bro, like all that stuff that we didn't even think about, right? And all the things I used to make fun of, like the, the organic stuff or the pure, like years of just running a toll on your body, you know, obviously spiritually immensely is a whole nother level. But physically, dude, like we don't take care of ourselves because we don't know any different. You know, like, oh, you got something wrong with you? Suck it the fuck up. Oh, there's something really wrong with you? Here's a Motrin. Dude, like I had unlimited access to Motrin at Freefall School. Unlimited, there was a bucket of it. Um, I'm going to take it like four Motrin's. So when I come down for this jump, I'm going to be able to walk back to the house. You know, like it's like, but we don't even know what we're doing. And we like, how many Z packs did you take in the military? I'm sick. Let me take a Z pack and nuke my entire bio, like gut biome.

• 1:04:32Speaker 06

  I didn't know what a gut biome was, you know? I'm just know that if I take the Z pack. Whatever is in me is gonna die, you know, it's sick. I'm gonna go back into the fight.

• 1:04:41Speaker 04

  It worked.

• 1:04:41Speaker 06

  It works.

• 1:04:42Speaker 04

  And some of the rest of me.

• 1:04:42Speaker 06

  And some of the rest of me. Yeah, I'll shit it out later.

• 1:04:46Speaker 04

  There's a spider. Let me get the flamethrower.

• 1:04:47Speaker 08

  Yeah, it's the Spetsnaz approach. It's like, hmm. Five terrorists, 95 hostages, 100 body bag. Mission accomplished.

• 1:04:57Speaker 06

  Yeah. So I mean, so there's just all these things, but I think I've completely TBI'd this conversation. We were talking about, yeah, burn pits. US soldiers burned their waste in the Middle East wars.

• 1:05:08Speaker 04

  It's my buddy. That's my battalion. It's my unit, everything. So when I went into like, but were you exposed to them? I was like, well, the New York Post did a series. That's my friend that I deployed with. And they're like, oh, you were. I was like, 100%.

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  But you know the fucked up thing about that, I was talking to, I forgot this organization out there, but they're, they, uh, it's like special, it's SOCOM, I don't know, like advisory groupers. They're like a media company for something with the military. I don't fucking know. And they're like, yeah, you talk about, maybe you'll talk about like, you know, how operator syndrome and, and veterans, you know, how we need to get the VA and the government to really push this to the system so we don't just give our veterans medicine, pills and tell them get fucking bent. I'm like, that shit's cool and all, bro, but the problem isn't the VA or the government. The problem is us, right? It's like, what are you gonna do for me? It's like, what are you gonna do for yourself? And the problem is, is like, we've all gone through hard shit and if we don't open up our voice, even in our darkest time, like, no one can ever change because no one's gonna wanna

• 1:08:01Speaker 06

  let you down, right? They, they, they look at you differently than them, which is the silliest thing. Like if people meet me, meet me and they're like, I didn't do anything you did. I was just a, I'm like, shut the fuck up. I'm like, bro, you were in the military? Thank you for your service. Because they, they, we completely undermine ourselves. So now you take a person like that, who has problems, maybe it was sexually abused, which happens in the military, maybe it was in a, a TBI that went unreported because someone didn't wanna get in trouble, right? Like, people aren't going to step up for themselves. I got to speak on a board during, I was on Master Sergeant, I'm fucking, I'm an E8 for like three and a half years now. I'm like super senior and I'm about to retire. And I got to sit on this board for this like a TBI or this, uh, traumatic brain injury like

• 1:08:45Speaker 06

  conversation thing at my command. And my neurosurgeon calls me out. I'm like, fucking anxiety central. Like my palms are all sweaty because I'm about to speak in front of people and like, I just could not handle normal, but I got up there and what I said was that like, I'm an E8. And I have fucking blood and sweat for this place and I got pushed back to get help. Can you imagine what the, the E3 that just checked into our unit that got fucked over in a previous unit or got fucked over in this unit? Do you think they're, I'm an E8. There's only one ring above me and I'm getting shit. What do you think is gonna happen to them? No one's gonna listen to them. And that's the problem that I really saw because I was that problem too. I would see young men and women come in as their enablers to support guys and girls. I'd be like, why the fuck are they getting into like physical therapy?

• 1:09:30Speaker 06

  They just got here. I have to wait for an appointment like this kind of self entitled. True, I had a fucking massive ego. And, but then I'm like, I'm glad they can go. Like it took me to fall on my own face to see how hard it was to even get help when I was desperate for it, to be appreciative all the times that I saw people get help when they actually wanted to be proactive on it. Cause I wasn't proactive. I was, I had the opportunity to be proactive so many times and I always postponed it because I'm gonna get a chance to go to selection. I'm gonna get to go to this school. I'm gonna get to do this. That's all I, that's all I did. And a lot of the guys and girls I worked with, they're in the same mindset. So when we get out, it's like, yo dog, if you're not happy with your life, then only you can change it. And I truly feel like, you know, how you guys are positive, right? Like, you know, there's a lot of our peer groups that just literally shit talk other veterans.

• 1:10:15Speaker 06

  And when you guys are positive, even in like your shit talking fun, it's still uplifting and positive.

• 1:10:21Speaker 04

  We already knock each other, what? Who hates successful veterans more than anyone else?

• 1:10:26Speaker 05

  Oh, he gets to knock a drink over. That's fine.

• 1:10:28Speaker 06

  But there's a lid on that.

• 1:10:29Speaker 04

  There's a lid.

• 1:10:31Speaker 06

  I can take the lid off. I can knock over that glass of, that mug if you'd like.

• 1:10:35Speaker 05

  It would make me feel a little bit.

• 1:10:37The Fat Electrician?

  It'd be really funny if you spilled it on him.

• 1:10:40Speaker 06

  I could.

• 1:10:41Speaker 02

  That would be the biggest motherfucker. Veterans just fuck over other veterans.

• 1:10:46Speaker 06

  Oh yeah, you want me to spill a drink here?

• 1:10:48Speaker 02

  Yeah. Veterans just talk shit.

• 1:10:50Speaker 05

  The woodhouse from Archer. I'll fetch another rubes, sir. Like Brandon, what are you gonna do in return?

• 1:10:59Speaker 05

  Nothing here is scary.

• 1:11:01Speaker 06

  Is it because my smile? People always say that, "I recognize you." I'm like, "Is it my smile that you recognize?"

• 1:11:09Speaker 05

  Devilishly good looks.

• 1:11:10Speaker 06

  Devilishly good looks, man. Mama gave me the genes. And, uh, but yeah, it's just, it's all crazy. And so I think back to the original question was like, how does social media? So I just started talking about all these things I was going through. And then, um, I think it was, it was right when COVID ended, you know, when that thing happened, Sean Ryan reached out to me and he's like, "Hey," you know, because for years, people were like, "Get Cody Alfred, get Cody Alfred." He's like, "Hey, do you want to be on my podcast?" And I'm like, "Me?" I'm like, "Yeah, sure. Okay." And I'm like, "Thank God, because I'm not going to get on a plane wearing a mask." You know, like that just, I wasn't going to go nowhere. Like, I don't care who you are. Jesus Christ was supposed to meet you. Like, tell him I'll get back to him, bro. It's just not going to happen, you know?

• 1:11:51Speaker 06

  And I get this opportunity to go on Sean Ryan's show and I like just data dumped my life. Like, I was originally supposed to talk about like conspiracies and aliens and like Tartaria and like all sorts of weird shit. That's what, he's like, "What do you want to talk about?" I'm like, "Are you into this stuff?" He's like, "Yeah, I am."

• 1:12:06Speaker 05

  So the reason nobody knows how to get to Agartha is because you wanted to talk about yourself.

• 1:12:12Speaker 06

  It's not even my fault, bro. He asked me. "Where did you grow up?" I'll tell you everything.

• 1:12:18Speaker 06

  Dude, that chair was the most therapeutic chair of my life, man. And, uh, that chair changed my life and...

• 1:12:23Speaker 04

  Well, even, how was the nerves or?

• 1:12:25The Fat Electrician?

  What about the gummy bears?

• 1:12:27Speaker 06

  Bro, the gummy bears did not last. I'm a gummy bear slut, dude. And like, those gummy bears were so delicious.

• 1:12:32The Fat Electrician?

  That's a shirt. You should sell that as a shirt.

• 1:12:34Speaker 06

  I'm a gummy bear slut.

• 1:12:34The Fat Electrician?

  Just gummy bear slut.

• 1:12:35Speaker 05

  You know, the funny part is, you would sell a shitload of them.

• 1:12:39Speaker 04

  Gummy bear slut's a really good shirt.

• 1:12:41Speaker 06

  Yeah, that's a gummy bear slut, bro. It was so great. Yeah, they were so good. But yeah, I was nervous.

• 1:12:46Speaker 05

  If I saw somebody like you wearing that shirt, I would have so many questions.

• 1:12:49Speaker 06

  If I wore that shirt here, they'd tell me, "Take off my shirt like this guy." He's autistic and wants to fuck, you know?

• 1:12:54Speaker 05

  Finn, do you want to show your shirt off?

• 1:12:56The Fat Electrician?

  Yeah, come show the shirt. Apparently, the, uh, security team at the casino saw his shirt and told him he needs to quit wearing it in public.

• 1:13:04Speaker 06

  They profiled you, bro.

• 1:13:08Speaker 04

  Not mute, non-verbal. You would be like, "Oh."

• 1:13:15Speaker 04

  They're like, nevermind. Sorry. They apologize, ran away in fear.

• 1:13:22The Fat Electrician?

  They're watching, they're watching Finn play blackjack. This guy's definitely not autistic. He's losing weight.

• 1:13:29Speaker 04

  Oh, he didn't get the super.

• 1:13:33Speaker 05

  He did not get the Rain Man kind of autism.

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• 1:14:08Speaker 04

  They just watch him.

• 1:14:10Speaker 05

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• 1:14:12The Fat Electrician?

  No, you did not.

• 1:14:13Speaker 04

  Still stimming the entire time. He's having a good time blowing money.

• 1:14:17Speaker 05

  Where do we even go from that?

• 1:14:18The Fat Electrician?

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• 1:14:19Speaker 06

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• 1:14:22Speaker 04

  Fucking beautiful. So you got, you started talking about that Sean Ryan. How was that experience when they actually reached out for the first time? Was it like, oh, okay, I'm in a prep or how much prep work went into it?

• 1:14:34Speaker 06

  There was no prep. I didn't, I didn't. Yeah. Like I said, we're supposed to talk about like aliens and things. And so I'm like, I was excited for the opportunity, you know? And I was episode 34, so still pretty infinite on the stuff. And I was, I was just humble that I got an opportunity, like somebody wanted.

• 1:14:48Speaker 05

  Yeah. To hear? Out of curiosity, why was he going to talk to you about aliens specifically?

• 1:14:53Speaker 06

  I don't think he knew what he wanted to talk about. I think he asked me and I'm like, and then I'm like, I was into like reading all those books. I'm like, are you into this? And he's like, he's like, what are you into? I'm like, I'm into these weird things. He's like, you want to talk about that? I'm like, sure. I can talk about this stuff. And that's really what my thought process was going down there and. Clearly, that's not what happened and.

• 1:15:11Speaker 05

  Yeah, I thought I didn't know if we were gonna get another lore dump where you're like, oh, yeah, no, well, I was a guard at like area 51 for a couple of years. You know, that sort of I've seen some shit.

• 1:15:19Speaker 06

  Yeah, no, there's there's we didn't even talk about aliens, you know, and honest is selfishly, it changed my life. By giving myself, I never even processed, I never even thought about some of those memories till that chair. And so, and that was the first time I ever like, I already had to do like a congruency of like timelines when I was in the military for my medical board of like, yep, I ate a hundred. Uh, Mick likes on this deployment and I had to like, kind of go back into my timeline of experience, but like to going back to my childhood or like. My interaction with my oldest son who lives in Germany with his mom that I didn't have contact till he was freaking eight, you know, like these like these real questions and. He kind of just like opened up Pandora's box and like gave me an opportunity to speak and. It was awesome. You know, before I even knew what feeling seen was like, I felt fucking seen before I even knew what that was and.

• 1:16:04Speaker 05

  So you'd never spoken to anybody about this stuff before?

• 1:16:06Speaker 06

  No, I I tried to and then I realized that I would I would get too choked up and I didn't really know why, because I was still. Pretty fresh. I think at this point I was out of the Marine Corps. Maybe like three years, two and a half years, maybe three years. And so like I was still going through a lot of like. Things that I couldn't quite identify yet. And I wasn't happy. I didn't love myself. I was really struggling, but I was functioning struggling, right? Like. So it was kind of working, but it was also not working at the same time. And. The wild thing about that is Sean texts me. He's like, hey, dude, it's gonna go air tomorrow. You ready? I'm like, I typed this like paragraph and I asked him to please don't air it. And I'm so grateful that I wasn't selfish and didn't and sent that. But I was so scared. I'm like, what if I said too much? Like, what if I broke a rule or something, you know, I have.

• 1:16:50Speaker 05

  I didn't know you didn't send it when you initially said that. I'm like, oh, and he just fucking sent it anyway. What an asshole.

• 1:16:55Speaker 06

  Yeah, no, man, I totally think he would respect. I mean, I don't even think I know.

• 1:16:58Speaker 05

  Red. Yeah, yeah, left you on red. Oh, notification from the Sean Ryan. Aw, man. Sean Sean Sean seems cool. He's seems like a really good dude.

• 1:17:09Speaker 06

  It was really, it was really great interaction and but I didn't send it, but I was I was scared and you know, and obviously, and then the the podcast comes out and like I'm like really uncomfortable because I was just being me, but I was also doing what most people haven't ever done is like just be themselves. And the first like thousand comments was like, I'm not taking life advice from a guy with face tattoos. What a piece of shit with face tattoos. This guy needs Jesus Christ in his life. Like all these like typical douchery things that I see digitally and it it really fucked me up a bit. I'm like, dude, I'm just being me. Sharing my story and but I'm up for being me like I'm sorry, I'm not perfect. But then wouldn't you know that that was only so small compared to the amount of pauses. I mean, dude, I get stopped.

• 1:17:53Speaker 06

  It's been uncomfortable for a lot of years. It's not so much uncomfortable now because it it means a lot to me to that people take time out of their day to be like, hey, dude, you you've impacted my life. You you showed me that I could go get fucking help. Because like PTSD, trauma, I don't give a fuck who you are, bro. Like, we all have it. And I've been into psychedelics since 2018 and I've done the majority of all them. And there's always one comment that I made her. How it all started. And it's not war. It's not combat. It's not the it's not the abuse. It's not the neglect. It's it's when you were a kid of some shape or form. And then that forms into you not seeing yourself and all the things you're going through. And, you know, throughout this journey for myself, I didn't even process, bro, I didn't even process getting shot in the fucking helmet. I downplayed it for years. People like, dude, you got shot in the helmet. I'm like, okay, I'm comfortable and I walk away.

• 1:18:38Speaker 06

  Hey, you're the youngest master sergeant. I'm okay. Thank you. Walk away. Like, I just felt uncomfortable because I never even acknowledged like all the crazy shit that I even got to experience, you know, good or bad. And um, so it's it's super sick, man. And like, it's funny because I'll get talked by a bunch of like soft guy, special operations guys on the internet. All the time about me because. Motherfuckers hate when you don't hop on the bandwagon. And if you speak logic to illogical people, you trigger them. And then when you tell them you're triggered, that just pisses them off more. So I just keep on saying you're triggered. But anyways. But out of all those things, the amount of people that I like last year's Shaw show, there was like these guys, like Team Six guys. There's fucking dudes all around. They're like, bro, I appreciate what you're doing.

• 1:19:22Speaker 06

  Thanks to you for saying the things that you say. I'm like, you're a bad motherfucker. This dude's a fucking nobody talking shit behind a screen and you say thank you? And so I'm like, bro, okay. And then I've like, I've really asked myself this whole time, like, what is the point of all these things? If I'm not going to use my fucking mouth, right? Like, if I'm not going to use what God gave me, this, this voice, the most powerful thing we possess. You know, I'm just, I am truly selfish and, and I feel like it's just, it lacks, it's boldness. It's a, it's a lack of boldness in your life to not open up. You know, if you can't say no, then you'll just agree to everything, bro. You have no backbone, you're lukewarm, motherfucker. And that, I, I, I don't choose to be that, you know? Like, I don't choose to be a lukewarm motherfucker. Not perfect by any means, but like, I have beliefs. I, I know what I stand for. I know what I believe in.

• 1:20:07Speaker 06

  I've worked really hard to get there. And it wasn't like it just happened overnight. It's years of fucking facing the things that no one can see. They're like, oh, you're killing it. I'm like, bro, I'm really suffering really, really bad right now, but I, I am getting better. You know, instead of fucking up 10 times a day, I'm only fucking up five times a day. You know, I started looking for more reasons of how my life was changing than how my life was staying the same. And that was a big paradigm shift for me. And, you know, but it started off with the Sean Ryan show, then back to like, how did I blow up on social media? Sean Ryan like jumped me up. Dude, I remember the first time Sean Ryan at video drops, I go live the next day on Instagram just to say thank you. Dude, 60,000 motherfuckers were live on my Instagram live. I'm like, oh shit.

• 1:20:49Speaker 04

  No pressure.

• 1:20:49Speaker 06

  No, I was like, oh fuck. I just like, if I didn't look at the numbers, it would have been anything, right? Like I'm pressing my phone, but I saw 60,000 people on my like 34,000 follower count. And I'm like, oh, like my stomach just like went on my asshole, bro. I was like, oh my God, I'm so uncomfortable.

• 1:21:07Speaker 04

  You give admissions and like direction to people? People who run into combat and all of a sudden you're like

• 1:21:12The Fat Electrician?

  Oh, for sure, dude.

• 1:21:14Speaker 06

  A screen, you know, a device that doesn't even have a button, you know? It's not even a real button and that thing terrified me, bro. But, you know, that black box dude is like the portal to so many positive influence in this life, right? And you can either be a shit talking one or a mother that stands for something that is positive. It's so, it takes the same amount of effort and energy. And these guys that just talk shit online, I'm like, bro, you have a girlfriend or a wife that's like, man, that's my man right there to talk his shit all day. I get to fuck him. I'm like, that's, that has to be the conversation.

• 1:21:46Speaker 05

  I'm sure that's the exact conversation.

• 1:21:49The Fat Electrician?

  You told him that.

• 1:21:50Speaker 06

  I'm proud of my man. My man just gets on the internet all day and just talks shit about motherfuckers. Woo, I mean, he makes me proud.

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• 1:21:58Speaker 05

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• 1:22:05Speaker 05

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• 1:22:21The Fat Electrician?

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• 1:22:22Speaker 05

  All right, well, let's see if I can do this. Oh, wow. Look at that.

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  Something that, uh, that I actually I learned from administrative results of all people. He, uh, he had, he had, he said something that like kind of resonated with me and like it stuck with me, uh, with me since then. It's cause you know, you see negative comments on the internet and you immediately want to respond because in your mind, like you see a million people telling you, oh, you're the shit. And you see one guy saying like, you ain't shit. And like, that's the one that sticks out, right? But he said, you know, you, uh, you cultivate what you encourage and what you, what you spend your time on. And he's like every, for every, uh, negative comment that I respond to, I try to respond to 10 positive ones. Like that's actually probably a very good rule. I think that's, that's, that direction I think is healthy.

• 1:24:34Speaker 06

  Dude, and honestly, I give credit to the people that have triggered me online. Like all the dudes that have talked shit about me online, they have impacted my life positively. And I, and I realized there was my own peer group in Marsoc when I first got out. My, I've only had one job as a civilian. I worked for four months at this startup cannabis company in LA. I'm like a director of operations. I'm like, damn, I'm getting paid for you money. This is sick. I got face tattoos. Like I'm a glorified drug dealer, getting paid. I'm like, this is epic. Fuck you. You look happy. You look successful. This guy. And I would tell myself these things. I'm like, that guy didn't do shit in my job. And now he's getting this opportunity. So like, but I would never type it. I just talk inside of me. But then I realized even during then, I'm like, he's just triggered me of what I could do if I had the courage

• 1:25:16Speaker 06

  to do what he's doing. Because I was too scared. He's doing something that I don't want to do, but he's bold enough to go do it and I'm not, you know?

• 1:25:24The Fat Electrician?

  I get, I get, uh, all you do is read Wikipedia pages on the internet. And it's like, I mean, fucking kinda go for it, bro. Like it's, it's a dope ass job.

• 1:25:33Speaker 05

  Nobody's stopping you.

• 1:25:35The Fat Electrician?

  You just have a podcast.

• 1:25:36Speaker 06

  Yeah.

• 1:25:37The Fat Electrician?

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• 1:25:40Speaker 06

  Yeah, just do it. Like, yeah, just try it. And like these guys that talk shit, it's like, I'm like, why is this bothering me? Do I believe that? And you know?

• 1:25:50The Fat Electrician?

  Be jealous.

• 1:25:51Speaker 06

  That's easy to say too, but at the same time, it's making my nervous system feel uncomfortable, making me feel that that wooziness in here. And it's like,

• 1:25:57Speaker 05

  Why do you think that is?

• 1:25:59Speaker 06

  Why? Well, at the time, I didn't understand, but I started to dive into like my nervous system. And like, okay, I don't believe that. My mind doesn't believe that, but my body still doesn't know the difference. Right? And therefore like, okay, why is that triggering me? Is that true? Am I not showing up in certain areas of my life? Am I being a phony? Am I being a fraud?

• 1:26:17Speaker 05

  I mean, the most hurtful comments are the ones that have like a little nugget of truth to it. Where you're like, if that's like an insecurity that you've had, or like something that you think like, oh, man, I might have phoned this one in or something like that. And so you see a comment that said, man, you phoned this in, you're like, fuck. Like it's the one that the ones that make you more aggravated.

• 1:26:33Speaker 06

  Not even, not even like rooted in truth for me. It's just like,

• 1:26:36Speaker 05

  Or at least what you think.

• 1:26:37Speaker 06

  Why am I given this energy? I'm given the energy because clearly I do believe I'm a piece of shit in some aspect. You know, and you know, I'm like, I'm a big proponent of plant medicine. Have you heard of Vet Solution? Have you heard of Ambio Life Science? So Vet Solution is a nonprofit that's by Marcus Capone. He was a team six guy, I believe. And so his foundation sends special operations veterans to Mexico with this company called Ambio Life Science. And you go down there, you do I began in five me O D M T.

• 1:27:07Speaker 05

  And I know a couple of people, actually.

• 1:27:10Speaker 06

  Been out there twice. The first time I went down there, I truly believe I found God in my belief. In a Mexico, in a concrete room in Mexico. But when I came back home,

• 1:27:19Speaker 05

  It's like a two to three day thing, right?

• 1:27:21Speaker 06

  It's a five day event. Yeah. So you go down there, you do like a sweat lodge and then the next day, that night, you do you fast and you do your I began ceremony. And then the next day is like a massive recovery day. They call the day of the great, like gray day. You're just, my first experience of just like twitching, like tweaking out on the bed, like just super nauseous. Cause like you're, you cannot have like me, I have like ayahuasca, I didn't have any visions or any sightings in my mind. It was just darkness and stillness. Same thing with I began, but your body is detoxing. I woke up the next day. I had more mobility in my life than I've had in years because it just attacks at inflammation. You know, it's insane what it does.

• 1:27:59Speaker 05

  And like just physical mobility?

• 1:28:01Speaker 06

  Physical mobility, I was able to touch my toes for the first time, like on the first try. It was the most wild thing. And then secondly, the most important thing about Ibogaine is you're guaranteed guaranteed to move the gray matter in your brain. So like people that are really scared, but they have all these crazy TBIs, it reverses TBIs, this doesn't heal you. But it starts to put things back in its place. So you can actually make progress in your life because they've actually done studies on this. They actually did a study with a bunch of seals out west. Put them through Ibogaine, did the MRIs and CAT scans on them and saw how their gray matter shifted in their brain from they were already exposed to blast exposure to post Ibogaine.

• 1:28:35Speaker 04

  The neuropathways form again, or in different ways.

• 1:28:39Speaker 06

  In different ways, but yeah, like.

• 1:28:41Speaker 05

  I've seen there's, there's a lot of studies that are coming out nowadays, especially I think they just removed like one of the, uh, there was like a government limitation on the ability to study stuff like this. But, uh, but whether it's like psychedelics in general, like Ibogaine, uh, or psilocybin. Like actual like documented improvement when it comes to like TBIs and healing the brain.

• 1:29:00Speaker 06

  Do 1000% bro, I'm, I'm, I don't believe that plant medicine is for everybody. But I believe that changes for everybody and some people are just so resistant and that's okay. Cause there's a lot of other modalities out there. There's a lot of like, uh, basic, you know, I have therapy that can re neural, you know, reengage the neural pathways in your brain. There's just a lot of things out there, but I've always felt called to plant medicine for whatever reason. And then after that day, you do five millio DMT, Bufo, the toad, they call it the god molecule and. I tell people like you're getting, when you go down to Mexico, you're guaranteed three things. One, you're guaranteed to, uh, feel better in your body, guaranteed, guaranteed. You're guaranteed to move the gray matter in your brain, guaranteed. And you're guaranteed a chance to let go.

• 1:29:38Speaker 05

  And if you look like me or Eli, you're not guaranteed to come back.

• 1:29:44Speaker 06

  Well, luckily it's just super safe. You're like a gated community, like it's like five star, you're in a mansion, like it's like, you got, you got monitors, you have doctors.

• 1:29:51Speaker 04

  Hey, why are you sleeping on the bed? Go mow the yard. Just confuse us for the yard work. It's like, oh, okay.

• 1:29:57Speaker 06

  You, you guys would fit in perfectly, you know, it would be great. It'd be like at home, you know?

• 1:30:03Speaker 05

  Yeah.

• 1:30:04Speaker 06

  Yeah.

• 1:30:05Speaker 02

  He's telling us to move back.

• 1:30:09Speaker 05

  Well, you don't like this country, we'll come back, go back to where you came from.

• 1:30:13Speaker 04

  I I've seen so many changes in individuals from it that I know have TBI or really bad PTSD. And then I get to watch the experience of them even having alcoholism and it's gone. Literally, they've done it once. They don't crave booze anymore. It's the most wild shit I've ever watched. Even though these are individuals, I'm sure you've seen the same thing. They're addicted to substance. Fucking gone over a week.

• 1:30:38Speaker 05

  One way or the other, you can't argue that it it doesn't rewrite something in your neural pathways.

• 1:30:42Speaker 06

  I was there with a uh with a uh Army Ranger, uh Army Ranger, a regiment dude, right? Army Ranger guy. I can't even speak right now. Army Ranger. I am tired from shot show.

• 1:30:52Speaker 04

  You're forty also, my friend.

• 1:30:53Speaker 05

  It's going around.

• 1:30:54Speaker 06

  Yeah. And he was an alcoholic and he changed my perspective on [BLEEP]. At first I thought the message is you say call selfish, you call [BLEEP] selfish. It'll get people to think. And I don't, it's not gonna, it's not gonna stop you. But it might make you pause that one millisecond to think about your actions because there's no tax backs. I used to think that was it. His story completely changed my perspective. He said one day before he went, before he was in Mexico with me, uh he was having a great day. Wife cooked breakfast, everything was fine and dandy. He was having literally the time of his life. His kid was about to go to a friend's house down the street and play Xbox and have a party. And his wife was about to drive the kids down there and he was gonna go grab the meat and and bring it down there. And he said as soon as family left, he walked outside.

• 1:31:39Speaker 06

  He had no intentions of doing this. He walked outside, put his extension cord around his neck, put it over the uh the grating. He had like, what is it? Lattice or not lattice, whatever that thing is called and he himself. And uh his wife came back because the son left their controller at home. The wife came back and so unfortunately the son saw his dad hanging. The wife and the son were able to uh pick him up and like get him off and get him help. And that changed my complete, that completely changed my my vision and idea of what I thought [BLEEP] was. This guy did not have one [BLEEP] ideation and just like that. He decided, he decided to go for it.

• 1:32:15Speaker 05

  And like future plans and everything like that.

• 1:32:17Speaker 06

  Yeah, future plans. I mean, and one of my great friends, Daniel Brown, he was a Navy SART. So they're the Special Amphibious Reconnaissance Corpsmen. One of my best friends, just a beautiful man, beautiful soul. And we're on the phone and we're supposed to link up next week. He moved back to Nebraska with his family. We were both in Idaho together and we were gonna do business together. So I was like, yeah, let's link up Monday and let's talk about this business plan. That was, that wasn't me pushing it, that was him pushing it, right? That was his objective. I'm like sick. Two days later, I get a call from his, his wife saying that Daniel's gone. And it like, it crushed me, dude. It just, it so crushed me. And, and I'm like, fuck, this motherfucker's selfish, dude. Like, what the fuck? But then hearing the story about this, this Ranger that I met, who's a beautiful man, dude, like he's has, he's the best stories, dude.

• 1:33:00Speaker 06

  He did time in prison, like crazy shit, dude. Lot of trauma, lot of trauma. And he, he has a heart of gold, really means well. But for him to make that decision, it changed my mind. Well, so we do IBAGAME, we do our 5MEO. And he hasn't touched alcohol since. He actually said in his trip, in his journey with IBAGAME, uh, cause we fly, you fly into the San Diego airport and then they, you stay in a hotel and they pick you up and drive you across the border the next day. He said in his trip, he woke up in the San Diego airport terminal. There was no one there. He walked in, he knew exactly where the bar was, cause he had a beer on the way there in real life, right? So he walks to the terminal, no one's there. He walks into, I think it was like the Stone Brewery Co. Pours himself a beer. He says, as soon as he takes a sip, this is all in his mind. He said he just exploded.

• 1:33:46Speaker 06

  And then he flashed back to childhood, flashed back to war and kept on flashing back to all these things. And he says he hasn't had a drink since then. But the crazy thing about that, with that much level of change in your life, right? And especially with 5MEO DMT. 5MEO is the craziest thing I've ever done because no matter how strong you think you are, you, there is only surrender. And the hardest thing, I think, for humans in general, not even men, not even veterans, is just surrendering, right? Because we hold on to this life because, well, life is good. Fucking talking on phones, microphones, spilling drinks on herself, you know, we're gonna have fun.

• 1:34:16Speaker 05

  All right, listen.

• 1:34:18Speaker 04

  You wanna go do IBAGAME for that embarrassment you suffered?

• 1:34:23Speaker 05

  That's what I'm gonna flashback to, is that moment on the podcast.

• 1:34:26Speaker 06

  But you handled it like a G, you know? You handle it like a G. You're like, I will not be defeated by a wet taint. You know, like.

• 1:34:34Speaker 04

  Brandon's telling the doctor why he's going through the treatment.

• 1:34:38Speaker 06

  Did you do war? Nah, worse. You ever heard of swamp ass? Yeah. In front of other men? That was me.

• 1:34:46The Fat Electrician?

  And that was the last time Brandon wore a robe. Never again.

• 1:34:50Speaker 06

  True story. You know, and so you do this, you do this five MEO experience and it's, you have to completely surrender. But anyways, I, I'm like, I felt so loved and empowered through this journey, but I went back home and I tried to like, well, I feel loved. I, I know I'm connected to it, whatever that it is to me. And I'm like, why can't I accept love in my life? I'm like, why can't I accept this love that I just got to experience and I know it's real and there for me? Well, I got called back, I got invited back again a year later, like, hey, you want to come back for round number two? And I was terrified because I'm like, I know what I'm about to have to go through. And it wasn't the I begin that I was worried about. It was like that five MEO because. So you, so you did it twice? You have to die. Yes. I did. I actually did three times.

• 1:35:32Speaker 04

  Oh, no shit. Dude, also the worst tagline for a business is like, you want to die 80 fucking times?

• 1:35:38Speaker 06

  Well, I know you're gonna die, you know, they don't say that, but like, I know you're.

• 1:35:41Speaker 04

  I know because all my friends that went through it's like, you die like a hundred times. I'm like, you're not selling me on this.

• 1:35:48Speaker 06

  But the thing is like.

• 1:35:49Speaker 04

  Honest with you.

• 1:35:50Speaker 06

  But the cool thing about that though, is like, if, when we hold on to everything in this life, right? We hold on to our past identities, right? Like reprogramming our lives and our, our mindsets and our relationships and all this shit. It's just, are you, you're choosing to hold on to an old version of you that you say you don't like, but yet it's like, well, I might need this gear pouch if the apocalypse happens in 30 years from now. You know, like we hold on to all this shit that we don't even, I really realize, at least that was in my world, right? So I can, I'll just speak about myself.

• 1:36:15Speaker 04

  If you go, if you ever go again, I will join you on that.

• 1:36:19Speaker 06

  Bro, I'd love to get you guys connected.

• 1:36:21Speaker 04

  Next we'll go and so will Brandon. Brandon has this.

• 1:36:23Speaker 06

  Yeah, apparently I just had my traumatic experience, so I'll let the, you know. Do you be surprised, man? You know, traumatic, you know, trauma is like. It doesn't matter how you got it, the fact is you got it, that motherfucker.

• 1:36:33Speaker 05

  Legitimately, though, I do know like a lot of friends, mutual friends that have gone through that experience. They've gone to Mexico, whether it's through that group or not, I'm not sure, but have gone through the Ibegane, 5MEO, 5MEO.

• 1:36:45Speaker 06

  Yup.

• 1:36:46Speaker 05

  And they've, they've said nothing but good things.

• 1:36:48Speaker 06

  Yeah, man, it's life changing. So I go back on the second trip and I'm like, I'm excited to go because I'm scared. And I realized a long time ago, when you're, when you're, when it's scared and nervous is the same feeling as excitement. It's just a different word that I'm choosing to like bounce around in my head. And so I'm like, if I'm scared, I know I gotta go. And I know that the only way, if I don't take a step forward, I'm just gonna freeze and lock up and that's not gonna happen. So I know I'm just gonna push forward and the first thing I say is, I fucking hate you. And I started to, I started to cry. I, I, I had, I did like two hits.

• 1:37:20Speaker 05

  Who do you say this to?

• 1:37:21Speaker 06

  To myself.

• 1:37:21Speaker 05

  Okay.

• 1:37:22Speaker 06

  And I'm saying it out loud in a garden full, a beautiful garden overlooking this beautiful ocean. Beautiful, beautiful garden, flowers everywhere and a bunch of like amazing people around me. And I just started to cry and then I yell out at the top of my lungs, I fucking hate you. And then I keep on saying, I hate you, I hate you. And I'm just like bawling my eyes off and I haven't cried like this in so long. And I'm just, I'm grateful that I'm crying, but I'm, I'm really kinda like just going through it this moment. And then I ended up saying out loud, I am you, I am you, I love you, I love you. And I don't know why the fuck I would say those things. But then it really changed my, it changed my entire life because I realized for 39 years, how much I hated myself, even when I had smiles on my face, even when I wasn't lying to myself.

• 1:38:06Speaker 06

  You know, so those, those texts, these comments that were negative, the, the shit I would say to my head, the reasons why I'm like, man, why can't I make my marriage better? Like, why can't my business run good? Like, why, why, why, why, why? It was because I couldn't accept me. And I'm a believer in that you say you believe in shit, but if you don't believe in yourself, then the thing that you believe in is also bullshit. And so that to me is like the ultimate like equalizer. And I realized I couldn't accept this love that I experienced a year ago because I, I couldn't even accept love for myself. You know, I, I'm like, I want my wife to love me. I need, I need my wife to love me because that would make me better. Like, no one's gonna give me the love that I need but myself. And if I can't be open to that, then I can't accept anything else because I couldn't accept my wife's love.

• 1:38:47Speaker 06

  I couldn't accept my friends' love. Like, I always felt like someone's trying to get a, an angle on me or like, she just takes something from me and I'm like, why, why I'm always betting on people and investing in people, but they're not investing in me? They were doing it the whole time. But I had I had these goggles on of like fucking hatred for myself and I just didn't know it. And I turned forty last May, so May twenty third, I turned forty, dude. The best year of my life, bro, like two, whatever it was last year, twenty twenty five, the best fucking year of my life, bro, and.

• 1:39:16Speaker 04

  Your DM to me, your your text to me was amazing to read because you're like, holy shit. It's been a really good year. Now I'm focusing on myself. You could see that change in yourself. It was awesome to read. I was like, dude, congratulations. You're just so positive, even towards me. You're like, I love seeing what you're doing. It's awesome. It's awesome. And same, I was like, dude, same, you're crushing. I love your journey. I love that you're very vocal about it. But now that you're saying this out loud, it makes a lot of sense.

• 1:39:43Speaker 06

  Yeah, people are like, man, you're fucking killing it. I'm like, bro, I don't even, I don't even have money to pay my bills this month, dude. But I'm like, if killing it means happy as fuck and I love my life and I love my family, then I'm murdering it, bro, you know, and.

• 1:39:56Speaker 04

  Dude, wait till that gummy bear slut.

• 1:39:58Speaker 06

  Dude, gummy bear slut.

• 1:40:02Speaker 04

  We can make this happen right now.

• 1:40:04Speaker 06

  Dude, I just want to feed families in the town that I live in.

• 1:40:06Speaker 05

  Gummy bears.

• 1:40:07Speaker 06

  And drive a Porsche, like I want a rally Porsche. I want to feed families and fucking own a rally Porsche.

• 1:40:12Speaker 04

  Oh, my God.

• 1:40:12Speaker 06

  Gummy bear slut's gonna be my gateway to there, you know?

• 1:40:15Speaker 05

  That was like, I'm like, wow, he's so altruistic. Oh, he's still a dude.

• 1:40:19Speaker 06

  Oh, dude, rally Porsche. I've been in the classics my entire life, but where I live, like the classics that I used to have, they would just fall apart.

• 1:40:25Speaker 05

  Yeah.

• 1:40:25Speaker 06

  I'm like, I want to put a big ass elk on my rally Porsche. And I worked with a client back in the day. He's an artist and he commissioned this like. My favorite color is yellow. And so it's yellow with black tiger stripe and he drew me, he painted me in the picture. And I'm like, this is got like ball lights and the rack on top. I'm like, I'm gonna fucking have an elk on my Porsche and drive it every day. And it's just, it's it's only a matter of time, you know, and.

• 1:40:48Speaker 05

  Well, to completely change gears, sorry, but going back to some stuff you said earlier. You you were saying like your first deployment and whatnot. You're like, oh, yeah, and I I talked to my wife or my wife sent out.

• 1:40:58Speaker 06

  Oreos and frosting.

• 1:40:59Speaker 05

  Yeah, which for one is just such a flex on the enemy. It's like, we will go halfway around the world, not only to kill you, but we're gonna be eating better food than you have while we do it.

• 1:41:06The Fat Electrician?

  Not not even just Oreos, the seasonal drops.

• 1:41:09Speaker 05

  Yeah, the seasonal drops.

• 1:41:12Speaker 05

  The logistical flex of that is hilarious, but it it sounded like you you met your wife very early.

• 1:41:18Speaker 06

  No, I met my wife, uh, actually before this, my last deployment.

• 1:41:22Speaker 05

  Oh, really? Okay. Maybe I misunderstood.

• 1:41:23Speaker 06

  Yeah, no, no, I was actually married before. I was married for six and a half years and, uh, I was the, I was the typical story. Bro, she's not good for me. You don't know anything. She loves me, man. She loves me. And, you know, obviously, it's always easy to talk shit. I was equally guilty in a toxic relationship, but, you know, that was actually hard, dude. Getting divorced is hard, you know? I hated my marriage. I hated what I was doing. I wanted it to end and I'd be like, I want a divorce. And she's like, fine. I'm like, no, love me, love me. You know, like, so like my desperation for, for being, wanting to be loved, you know, stemmed back a very long time in my career. I just didn't, in my life, I just didn't even know it. And, you know, you'd never really know until you read the whole book, you know?

• 1:42:03Speaker 06

  And, um, so I was actually married for six and a half years and I met my wife, actually stalked her online. So like, you know, like, bro, dude, there's a lot of good looking dudes that are jacked and tattooed out there, right? I can't just like your first post. I gotta like scroll down a couple and like, you are going to know I exist. And, um,

• 1:42:21Speaker 05

  Take notes, fellas.

• 1:42:22Speaker 06

  Yeah. At the time, my Instagram was just like guns, carlies and like classic trucks, right? And then I had this like crazy like curled mustache. It was my, my photo. It was from like a deployment photo. And, um, luckily, one of my buddy's wives worked at the same bar that my wife was working at. And she's like, who is this creep? And she's like, oh, that's my husband's friend. And so like, she kind of bridged the introduction and, bro, dude, like,

• 1:42:45Speaker 05

  Who's this creep is a, that's a great segue.

• 1:42:49Speaker 06

  The real moral of the story. Has a buddy who's friends with the wife. Oh, for sure.

• 1:42:54Speaker 05

  Have a buddy who's married to someone with hot friends.

• 1:42:59Speaker 06

  Dude, my wife is, my wife, my wife is savage, dude. She, she's everything that I wasn't at the time. And she, I was on three deployments with my first marriage. I got one fucking care package that I had to set up before I deployed on that, on our deployment, right? I never got anything else. And not woe is me, but like, this is my wife, you know, my, my, That is a what? That is a depressing. It was so depressing. Hopefully this deployment should send me rice. Yeah, it was, it was pretty fucked up. I got themed packages like once a week where I was at on my last rotation. And my wife was just, dude, I'd open up, it'd be like a movie box, bro. She would like send me beer and like, like beer and like chips and like popcorn.

• 1:43:40Speaker 05

  I didn't know they were allowed to send alcohol.

• 1:43:43Speaker 06

  Bro, you're not allowed to do a lot of things, but do you listen to rules? Well, apparently, yeah, fair enough. I had bacon sent, you know, like, I'm an American, you know? You ever heard that back to back world tramps, you know, before everyone went woke and tell you just working for the Jews, you know? So, you know, like.

• 1:44:01Speaker 04

  I'm still going back to meeting with the pastor and like, it's like, you're Jewish and you're eating bacon, you're like, yeah?

• 1:44:07Speaker 06

  Yeah, yeah, exactly. What about it? Hey, about that? The Jew box with the beef.

• 1:44:14Speaker 04

  What's kosher mean?

• 1:44:15Speaker 06

  Yeah, so you tell me if I'm Jewish today, I get that beef stew? Oh, you didn't.

• 1:44:22The Fat Electrician?

  Why is this napkin circular?

• 1:44:23Speaker 06

  Yeah.

• 1:44:24The Fat Electrician?

  Yeah.

• 1:44:30Speaker 06

  Man, they got everything in this kid, you know? That's so.

• 1:44:39The Fat Electrician?

  Oh, shit.

• 1:44:40Speaker 06

  It's great, dude. You know, there was, there's a, dude, I had a page that said Bear Jew and for a short time that was like my, like my nickname or whatever. And because there's only like so many Jewish and I was a scout sniper, so I had like SS tattoos on me, being a scout sniper. They're like, you're racist. I'm like, I'm fucking Jewish, right? Like, how am I, how do I hate myself? Well, funny story, I really did hate myself, you know? Joke's on me, you know, years later, I'd realize that. Um, but yeah, it, it, just wow, anyways, but like Bear Jew is sick. All my paddles have like Bear Jew, like literally. It's a pretty cool moniker. It's super sick, you know, literally bear with the fucking star of David, you know, got another paddle, the big star of David. Then I, I post those things nowadays. One, I do it just to troll the internet because everyone hates Jews now.

• 1:45:22Speaker 06

  And, uh, but two, it's like, this is was cool, but then there was like this different generation that like, oh, I'm just a zombie zog bot. I'm like, what does that mean? You know, then they, they follow, they follow it up with like, what is it? Bootlicker and what's the other cool terms to use nowadays? Throat goat, I got called a throat goat. Yeah, by another well-known special forces.

• 1:45:46Speaker 05

  In person?

• 1:45:47Speaker 06

  Oh, definitely not in person.

• 1:45:48Speaker 05

  Yeah, that's crazy.

• 1:45:49Speaker 06

  Yeah. I saw him, I saw him yesterday, you know, but I got called a throat goat. Uh, the specific words were Tim Kennedy's throat goat. That was the specific words used, uh, because I, when the whole Tim Kennedy thing came out, I, I went on TK's post and I said, "Look, look at us typically just attacking each other and talking shit." Like I, but that clearly meant I chose sides and said stolen valor is fine and agreed to every nefarious thing that happened. But, you know, you, you can't be logical to logical people. At the end of the day though, if you are logical to logical people, it's, it's very easy to, to dim yourself and to like go back into hiding or join the mob and not ever be seen again. And I refuse to have a mom and dad that raised me, you know, I refuse to have a belief that I say I believe in

• 1:46:34Speaker 06

  and to fucking play small, you know, and it's not to be better than you or to be just different because I want to be. Bitch, I only know how to be me and I am just different. And the thing is like, we're all different, but we're just scared to say us, to be ourselves. Dude, I had a meeting with a company today and they're like, "Oh, how do you want to do this?" "You want to get your camera?" I'm like, "Bro, we could just have a conversation." You know, we talked about this, like, "Let's just be bros, tell me about your new gear." And then my camera guy will figure it out.

• 1:47:00Speaker 05

  Cause that's the shot show special is you go around the, the show floor and you see these people that just like,

• 1:47:06Speaker 05

  ah, like a fucking animatronic, they'll just like go into their five-minute spiel. It's like, "Bro, it's, it's okay. Like you can, like, we're not, we're not doing this for camera." Like, we can just, we could just talk about this.

• 1:47:16Speaker 06

  Dude, I don't, I'm not trying to be like everyone else. "Oh yeah, let me give me my 10% discount code so I can say the same regurgitated shit that I hear 24/7." Like bitch, I'm not a teletron or a commercial, bro, I'm a real person, dude. And like, what I say impacts lives, right? And what I do impacts my own fucking life and my family. And why would I choose to be a robot? And if I have a chance to be human or ask a question or get help, why wouldn't I want to do that? No matter how scared it is, like it doesn't make, logically it doesn't make sense to me. I'm like, "Man, you ran into a machine gun fortified position and you're like, this is sick." And then you're like, "Man, who needs help? Who's actually feeling good?" I'm like, I'm good. I'm good to go. I'm good to go because I'm scared to be seen by my own brothers.

• 1:47:57Speaker 04

  I think it's a scary thing. I think that's what's awesome. What you're doing is you're an individual that's you are at the top of your job in the Marines. You led from that position and now you are that inspiration because it's okay. Because a lot of guys, they're going to look up to you and the second you're like, hey, you can't, it's okay to have an emotional response. It's okay, X, Y, and Z.

• 1:48:20Speaker 04

  They'll do it now just because you're, you're the one leading from the front from that. So I truly appreciate that.

• 1:48:25Speaker 06

  Thanks, man. It's a, it's a, you know, so many times in my life I've asked like, man, what's my purpose? What's my purpose? And I'm looking around as I'm saying the same, I'm using the same purpose, looking for my purpose. I, I'm using the same breath, asking where's my purpose when my breath is my purpose, you know, and, you know, and if tomorrow I, I'm passionate about something else and this, that would be my purpose then, you know, but like being me and encourage other people to do that. But here's a crazy thing, right? People are like, America sucks. The war is crazy. I'm like, listen, bitch, it will always be that until you realize how powerful you are. You know, like, could you imagine during COVID if people said, I'm not going to fly today? Fuck you. You would not have any rules.

• 1:49:08Speaker 06

  But I had to, I, I had to, I had to go to this business, that business you hate. That business that you, you literally talk shit about to all your friends. That's why you drink so much in the weekend. You come home and you talk to your wife, how'd you fucking hate your job? That job you had to go there?

• 1:49:20Speaker 04

  That's something that Mr. Gunsinger, I think, actually had told me at one point where he, he's talking about like people who are like, oh, you're a grifter, you're a grifter.

• 1:49:26Speaker 06

  Oh, grifter, that's another good word.

• 1:49:27Speaker 04

  Yeah. It's like, oh, you're a grifter, bro. Like you did an ad for a company. He's like, yeah, I, I gave my un, my, my unfiltered, uh, informed opinion on a product and in that I did an ad for another company. Yeah. Okay. Sure. Fine.

• 1:49:44Speaker 05

  That's it's like an advertisement, just like anything else. Like if you watch like the news or whatever they do, they do ad, they run ads on that, whatever. Fine. It's like it's a little advertisement and then like my unfiltered, unpurchased opinion. It's like you spend your entire 40 hour work week, working for a company you hate. Who's the grifter?

• 1:50:00Speaker 06

  Yeah.

• 1:50:02Speaker 05

  You're the one working for a company you genuinely despise for your entire week.

• 1:50:06Speaker 06

  But you know, that's, that's that fear. You know, there was, there was a guy, there was a marine raider. I was going through the, the brain clinic with when I was active duty on my, my way out. And he was like, man, fuck this command. Like, you know, I'm tired of this bullshit, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. I'm like, good for you, bro. So, you know, you can go on terminal leave so that you're still active duty, but you're on leave and you can work at the real job, but you get paid. And so this guy's on terminal leave, wearing a, a contractor polo shirt in our compound. I'm like, the fuck are you doing, bro? You just spent the last two weeks of me talking shit about how much you hate this place and it stresses you out. He's like, but bro, I need the fucking money. You know, I need the money too. You know what I fucking did when I had zero dollars? Cause I was an idiot thinking that I was going to save my way to financial freedom. All I wanted

• 1:50:49Speaker 06

  when I retired from the Marine Corps was a Range Rover and a Panerai watch. That's all I wanted. And I was going to save to the dollar, to the cent, what it would cost for both those things. And on my timeline, I was going to just have enough to go pay cash and I'd be done with it. That's where my mind was at. I didn't have shit. And so when I got out, the only liquid cash I had was my classic truck, my dream truck. So I sold that bitch.

• 1:51:08Speaker 05

  What was the truck?

• 1:51:08Speaker 06

  It's a 1952 GMC pickup. It was savage. Petty, petty blue, white vinyl interior, airbags, but it was nasty.

• 1:51:16Speaker 05

  Yeah, dude. Ultimate dad truck.

• 1:51:18Speaker 06

  What dad truck?

• 1:51:19Speaker 05

  Dad truck.

• 1:51:19Speaker 06

  Dad truck?

• 1:51:20Speaker 05

  Yeah.

• 1:51:20Speaker 06

  Yeah. Well, it was an ultimate fucking dope truck, bro. It was sick.

• 1:51:25Speaker 04

  My buddy Frazier's.

• 1:51:26Speaker 06

  Oh dude.

• 1:51:28Speaker 04

  You said rally Porsche, Frazier, Frazier super and rally Porsches?

• 1:51:33Speaker 05

  Oh yeah.

• 1:51:33Speaker 04

  He has literally.

• 1:51:34Speaker 06

  Literally a rally.

• 1:51:36Speaker 05

  Oh yeah, shit.

• 1:51:36Speaker 06

  That is so sick.

• 1:51:38Speaker 04

  Yeah. The first thing he did, he's like, I bought a rally, a rally Porsche. I'm like, dude, that is dope as shit.

• 1:51:44Speaker 06

  That is super dope. Oh yeah. My big ass is gonna fit in there and just drive it every day till the wheels fall off.

• 1:51:49Speaker 04

  So what now, what are, where can everyone find you on the internet right now?

• 1:51:54Speaker 06

  Right now on the internet, my, my Instagram's probably my main like daily influence, which is the Cody Alfred. So the Cody Alfred, that's it. T H E. And then YouTube is the same, the Cody Alfred. And yeah, I told myself like four weeks ago, I'm like, bro, I'm like, man, I need someone to film for me. Like if I had my film guy here, I would just like be crushing it. And then my, my, my, one of my great best friends, he comes and he's a videographer. He moves back home and he like, I'm like, bro, we're gonna dominate. Didn't tell him one thing. I'm like, you know what? Fuck you, Cody. Like you're gonna be that guy. Oh, when I'm rich, I'll be happy. You know, when I get jacked, then I'll be nice to myself. So I said, fuck you. And so I just been pulling out my phone and like just getting my YouTube back up. I was super grateful because of everyone. I broke a hundred thousand subscribers like

• 1:52:39Speaker 06

  a couple of months ago. And I'm just like, yeah, I stayed up till like two o'clock in the morning last night. Cause I'm saying posting every Wednesday, dude. I'm like, I'm doing it, man. Uh, I've really overcomplicate a lot of things in my life. And so now I'm not playing catch up. I'm just doing the things that I say I do, you know, and not overcomplicate things.

• 1:52:55Speaker 05

  The, the amount of people, especially when it comes to social media or YouTube or whatever, that over complicate things. It's like, man, I started on a fucking iPhone.

• 1:53:01Speaker 04

  Make it efficient as possible.

• 1:53:02Speaker 06

  I'm still using my iPhone.

• 1:53:03Speaker 05

  Yeah. It's like this, people think, oh, I need this kind of camera or I don't have this much production, whatever. It's like, no, just be you.

• 1:53:09Speaker 06

  Dude, I cleared a minefield on my second deployment with a three day pack. I took out all my gear. We put rocks and water bottles and attached five fifty cord and I would throw that bitch and I would pull it back, drag it back. Then I would screw it up. I would put an IR chem light on the ground. I would throw my pack and I'd drag it back. I did this shit at nineteen years old. And then here I am with opportunity and like almost infinite resource, especially with social media, right? Like, hey, can anyone have this? People want to help you and they want to see you win, you know? And uh, I'm like, I have every camera, every microphone that I need and I'm not producing anything. And I realized that was so much of my life. And I'm just so over that, bro. I owe myself way more than I've been giving myself for the years. And like I said, I'm just stoked to do it. So yeah, YouTube and Instagram are like my main thing.

• 1:53:55Speaker 06

  Bro, YouTube is mean. Facebook is mean, dude.

• 1:53:59Speaker 04

  They got rules.

• 1:53:59Speaker 06

  Instagram is like kinda mean, right? YouTube is like pretty fucking nar nar like mean. Facebook is like, oh my god damn, I didn't know people like you existed. They're like vicious. It's like a whole, uh, we run ads for, uh, the hormone company that I work for. And they were like, uh, same typical, I'm not listening to a tweaker with face tattoos that made bad life decisions. Like, bro, my life is savage as fuck and I got face tattoos.

• 1:54:23Speaker 05

  It's also the age gap though on Facebook a little bit.

• 1:54:25Speaker 06

  Dude, these are like all drifters and like bootleggers, you know, and what's the other one?

• 1:54:30Speaker 04

  Uh, fuck, what was the other one?

• 1:54:32Speaker 05

  What was the other one?

• 1:54:32Speaker 06

  Kumquats?

• 1:54:33Speaker 05

  Something like that.

• 1:54:35Speaker 06

  Like, you know, like.

• 1:54:36Speaker 04

  Very elegant word.

• 1:54:37Speaker 06

  I, I click on these people's profiles and it's like.

• 1:54:40Speaker 05

  It's the older people. It's just like, oh hello.

• 1:54:42Speaker 06

  Puppy or their cat. I'm like, bro, you haven't seen your dick in like a decade, dude. Like, what are you talking about? Like, and I'm the tweaker?

• 1:54:50Speaker 04

  It's because his integrity, because he refuses to do steroids. That's what it is.

• 1:54:55Speaker 06

  Yeah, yeah. I'm gonna put in that shit in my body. Bitch, you eat Taco Bell.

• 1:55:01Speaker 06

  You listen to anyone in the white lab coat, bro, like, okay.

• 1:55:05Speaker 05

  Yeah. How many cans of Spam have you eaten in your life?

• 1:55:08Speaker 06

  Oh, bro, Spam, man. Remember Jolts? Was that?

• 1:55:13Speaker 04

  That's a forty year old thing. How much caffeine was in Jolts?

• 1:55:17Speaker 06

  Enough to stunt my growth, you know?

• 1:55:20Speaker 04

  It's like that poor, poor man's Mountain Dew Sprite.

• 1:55:23Speaker 06

  That shit was crack.

• 1:55:24Speaker 04

  Oh, yeah.

• 1:55:25Speaker 06

  Yeah.

• 1:55:26Speaker 04

  Fantastic.

• 1:55:27Speaker 05

  Was it Jol- or was it, uh, there was another one, the Vault or something like that?

• 1:55:30Speaker 06

  Yeah.

• 1:55:31Speaker 04

  Yeah.

• 1:55:31Speaker 06

  Yeah. Was that it? Or was it Jolt? Well, Jolt was the thing, right?

• 1:55:33Speaker 04

  Jolt was just a fucking green.

• 1:55:36Speaker 05

  One lightning bolt. I remember cause it like Hardee's or Carl's Jr. Or whatever, that, that was the one like growing up that they had Vault in the, um.

• 1:55:45Speaker 06

  The dispenser?

• 1:55:45Speaker 05

  The dispenser thing, the little thing you just refill it and like as, as a kid, I was like, ooh, I got something I'm not supposed to have. And so I would just get geeked out on caffeine for no reason.

• 1:55:55Speaker 06

  Do you remember like pressing all the things like, I'm gonna mix all these drinks. Now I'm like, babe.

• 1:56:00Speaker 04

  I want one suicide please.

• 1:56:02Speaker 06

  Yeah. I'm like, babe, is, is this the salami I should be getting? She's like, read the package. I'm like, I don't understand the words. She's like, then don't get it. I'm like. Life used to be so easy when I'm like, "Ooh, pretty marketing, I'll buy that." It looks like a whole meal in one package, you know? But fuck dude, if you want to live and like, if you want to like, I don't know, give your body a chance to recover from all the we've done to it, like, you gotta like actually think for yourself these days and it's not easy. It's hard as fuck, you know, so.

• 1:56:28Speaker 04

  Well, dude, it has been an absolute pleasure. Thank you so much for coming on Unsub. You have to come down to San Antonio. We'll do a proper one at Unsub and you can hang out for a few days.

• 1:56:39Speaker 06

  Awesome.

• 1:56:39Speaker 04

  And then we'll go to Ibagán in Mexico.

• 1:56:42Speaker 06

  And me and Eli won't be coming back.

• 1:56:44Speaker 04

  We're going, all of us.

• 1:56:45Speaker 06

  I'm going back to Iowa.

• 1:56:45Speaker 04

  No, Nick, you're going to Mexico.

• 1:56:47The Fat Electrician?

  No, bro, the trees are gonna start exploding when I get home.

• 1:56:50Speaker 05

  I heard about that.

• 1:56:51Speaker 06

  What?

• 1:56:52The Fat Electrician?

  I have an exploding tree warning on the day I'm supposed to fly home.

• 1:56:55Speaker 04

  What?

• 1:56:56The Fat Electrician?

  Yeah.

• 1:56:57Speaker 06

  What, that's a thing?

• 1:56:58Speaker 05

  Yeah.

• 1:56:58Speaker 06

  Explain.

• 1:56:59The Fat Electrician?

  Sam? Uh, well, it's supposed to be negative 47. And when it gets that cold, the water in the trees can freeze, causing the trees to explode.

• 1:57:08Speaker 06

  Really?

• 1:57:08The Fat Electrician?

  Yeah.

• 1:57:08Speaker 06

  Have you seen that in real life?

• 1:57:09The Fat Electrician?

  No, I have. I mean, I've seen videos, but like, it's not like, they don't like concussively explode, but like the real danger is like, it ruins the structural integrity of the tree and then it falls on your house or your car or whatever the fuck.

• 1:57:22Speaker 05

  Be crazy, like, like if it actually did, it's like, oh yeah, no, it's gotten so cold that the landscaping at my house has become a claymore.

• 1:57:28Speaker 06

  Yeah. I'm thinking like Tannerite explosions.

• 1:57:31Speaker 05

  I know, Sam.

• 1:57:33Speaker 06

  Damn, bro, you look like you're crazy.

• 1:57:37Speaker 06

  Like, damn.

• 1:57:38Speaker 05

  The Lorax has chosen violence. And on that note, thank you for coming to the Unsubscribe Podcast.

• 1:57:44The Fat Electrician?

  Close us out, Mr. Brandon.

• 1:57:45Speaker 05

  We have Eli Double Tap, the other Cody, Nick the Fat Electrician and myself, Brandon Herrera. We will see you in the next episode.

• 1:57:53The Fat Electrician?

  Love you bitches.

• 1:57:54Speaker 06

  Goodbye.

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