#881: Tales of Overcoming The Odds, and How to Turn Losses Into Wins — Tim McGraw, Terry Crews, Dax Shepard, and More

This is a special episode about overcoming mistakes and failure. What do you do when your work is rejected, when the big bet fails, or when the path ahead suddenly disappears? As you’ll hear in this episode, setbacks can often present opportunities, if you know how to look for them. This episode is brought to you by: Helix Sleep https://helixsleep.com/tim premium mattresses: HelixSleep.com/Tim https://helixsleep.com/tim (20% off any purchase)Gusto https://gusto.com/tim simple and easy payroll, HR, and benefits platform used by 400,000+ businesses: Gusto.com/Tim https://gusto.com/timIncogni, https://incogni.com/timwhich removes your personal data from the web, helping shield you from fraud, scams, and identity theft: Incogni.com/Tim https://incogni.com/tim (use code TIM at checkout and get 60% off an annual plan)In this episode: BJ Miller, a triple amputee, on his years-long quest to ride a motorcycle. Terry Crews on missing a season-ending shot—and the mindset shift that stayed with him for life. Tim McGraw on his debut album flopping and betting his career on next steps. Jessica Lahey on being told her first book was “unpublishable” and turning brutal feedback into a New York Times bestseller. Dax Shepard on the collapse of an identity and career he thought he wanted—and the unexpected much better life it made possible. Cathy Lanier on becoming a teenage single mother, passing her GED by a single point, and beginning an unlikely climb. Janna Levin on the liberating realization that life is not a smooth path interrupted by obstacles—life is the obstacles. Boyd Varty on using the mindset of a lion tracker to move through uncertainty and the paralysis of not knowing what comes next. Dr. BJ Miller https://tim.blog/2018/01/01/the-tim-ferriss-show-transcripts-bj-miller/ is a triple amputee, longtime palliative-care physician, cofounder of virtual palliative-care service Mettle Health, and coauthor of A Beginner’s Guide to the End. Terry Crews https://tim.blog/2018/02/04/the-tim-ferriss-show-transcripts-terry-crews/ is an actor, artist, author, television host, and former NFL player best known as Terry Jeffords on the Emmy-nominated TV series Brooklyn Nine-Nine and as the longtime host of America’s Got Talent. Tim McGraw https://tim.blog/2026/02/05/tim-mcgraw-transcript/ is a three-time Grammy-winning country-music superstar, an actor, and a 2026 Country Music Hall of Fame inductee. Jessica Lahey https://tim.blog/2021/12/11/jessica-lahey-transcript/ is an educator and the New York Times bestselling author of The Gift of Failure and The Addiction Inoculation. Dax Shepard https://tim.blog/2020/11/19/dax-shepard-transcript/ is an actor, writer, and director and the co-creator and host of the hit podcast Armchair Expert. Cathy Lanier https://tim.blog/2026/04/23/cathy-lanier-nfl-chief-security-officer-transcript/ is the NFL’s chief security officer and the first woman—and longest serving chief—to lead Washington, DC’s Metropolitan Police Department. Janna Levin https://tim.blog/2020/07/09/janna-levin-transcript/ is a theoretical cosmologist, the Claire Tow Professor of Physics and Astronomy at Barnard College, a Guggenheim Fellow, a PEN-winning author, and the founding director of sciences at Pioneer Works. Boyd Varty https://tim.blog/2022/02/18/boyd-varty-transcript/ is a lion tracker, wildlife activist, TED speaker, and author of The Lion Tracker’s Guide to Life. Timestamps: 00:00 — Introduction from Tim 01:23 — BJ Miller: Making an Impossible Motorcycle Dream Real 05:35 — Terry Crews: Why You Have to Take the Shot 16:28 — Tim McGraw: Failing on Your Own Terms 27:31 — Jessica Lahey: From “Unpublishable” to Bestseller 31:48 — Dax Shepard: When Failure Saves You From What You Want 38:11 — Cathy Lanier: Rebuilding a Life 47:33 — Janna Levin: Life Is the Obstacles 54:36 — Boyd Varty: Finding the Next Track When You’re Stuck * For show notes and past guests on The Tim Ferriss Show https://tim.blog/podcast, please visit tim.blog/podcast https://tim.blog/podcast/?utm_source=podcast&utm_medium=podcast&utm_campaign=podcast-description. For deals from sponsors of The Tim Ferriss Show https://tim.blog/podcast, please visit tim.blog/podcast-sponsors https://tim.blog/podcast-sponsors Sign up for Tim’s email newsletter (5-Bullet Friday) at tim.blog/friday https://go.tim.blog/5-bullet-friday-1/. For transcripts of episodes, go to tim.blog/transcripts https://tim.blog/transcripts. Discover Tim’s books: tim.blog/books https://tim.blog/books. Follow Tim: Twitter: twitter.com/tferriss https://twitter.com/tferriss Instagram: instagram.com/timferriss https://instagram.com/timferriss/ YouTube: youtube.com/timferriss https://www.youtube.com/timferriss Facebook: facebook.com/timferriss https://www.facebook.com/TimFerriss/ LinkedIn: linkedin.com/in/timferriss http://linkedin.com/in/timferriss See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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• 0:00Tim Ferriss?

  Hello, boys and girls, ladies and germs. This is Tim Ferriss. Welcome to another episode of The Tim Ferriss Show. This is a special compilation episode about overcoming mistakes and failure. How do you take what seem like big losses, maybe career-ending pitfalls, and turn them into even bigger wins later? We have a compilation of highlights from a number of different guests, and there's a lesson to be taken from each of them. What do you do when your work is rejected? What do you do when the big bet fails? What do you do when the path ahead suddenly disappears? You can't make your way through the fog. There are answers and tips for all of these. And as you'll hear in this episode, setbacks can often present opportunities, huge opportunities, if you know how to look for them.

• 0:44Tim Ferriss?

  So, we're gonna span the gamut from BJ Miller, a triple amputee on his years-long quest to ride a motorcycle, all the way to a lion tracker. And in between, we've got Tim McGraw, Dax Shepard, Cathy Lanier, Jan Levin, and others. It is an all-star cast. So, without further ado, please enjoy.

• 1:05Speaker 01

  First up, Dr. BJ Miller. Dr. BJ Miller is a triple amputee, longtime palliative care physician, co-founder of virtual palliative care service, Mettle Health, and co-author of A Beginner's Guide to the End.

• 1:23Tim Ferriss?

  Now, I hate to focus on something maybe superficial, but you said riding your motorcycle. I apologize if this sounds like a weird question, but you have three limbs that have been damaged. How do you ride a motorcycle?

• 1:40Speaker 02

  So, this was a sort of long dream that recently came true.

• 1:43Tim Ferriss?

  Congratulations. I mean, it's awesome. I'm just so curious about the logistics.

• 1:47Speaker 02

  Thank you. Well, it's interesting you ask, because right now, there's... The man who helped make this dream come true, Randy. Randy, he ended up being my patient and our resident at Zen Hospice Project not long after he can murdered my motorcycle. So, there's a lot to this story, my friend. So, cheers to Randy and his family and his wife and his mother, Melanie, who I'll be seeing next week, actually. So, that's one piece of this story. But the other is, I love two wheels. I love gyroscopic lifestyle. I love the feeling of it. So, I've always loved riding bicycles. And then, I'd always wanted to get on a motorcycle, but I kept going to shops, and people would sort of look at me, and no one got into it. And I could never find a mechanic who was willing to take it on and try to help make it happen.

• 2:30Speaker 02

  A fellow named Mert Lawwell, who's an old motorcycle racer-champion, who was sort of legendary in that world. He happens to live around here. He lives in Tiburon. And he built a prosthetic component. I don't know what the story that inspired Mert to do this, but he's a machinist himself and a handy fellow. And then, in his retirement, he got into this business of building this prosthetic component that lends itself very well to mounting an arm onto a bicycle or a motorcycle. So, the first piece of this puzzle was discovering Mert's invention and getting a hold of it myself, which allowed me to get my prosthetic arm attached to a handlebar in a very functional way.

• 3:10Tim Ferriss?

  So, you have throttle, rear brake, and then typically, front brake on the left. How are those controls modified?

• 3:17Speaker 02

  Okay, so Randy, what he figured out... So, first was to get the arm piece. And then, what Randy figured out was, well, then Aprilia... And I know Honda had made a version of this as well, but Aprilia makes a model, the MANA, M-A-N-A, that is clutchless. So, that was a huge piece to get out of the way. So, this is essentially an automatic transmission. So, that do away with the clutch and gear changes. So, that's a huge piece of the puzzle out of the way. And then Randy figured out a way to splice the brakes, front and rear, in a certain ratio into a single lever. So, I'm doing nothing with my prosthetic feet, except to hold on to the bike. I'm doing nothing with my prosthetic arm, except for holding on to the bike. So, all the actions in my right hand.

• 4:02Speaker 02

  Brakes into one lever. And Randy built this box and moved all of the controls, the turn signals, horn, and all that stuff, over to the right side of the bike in good distance for my thumb to reach them. So, I have throttle, a brake lever, and then the turn signal box, all going with one hand. That's it. That's a way... Away you go.

• 4:26Tim Ferriss?

  I just have to pause here for a second and just ask everyone listening, what bullshit excuses do you have for not going after whatever it is that you want? Like, please, write in. Tell us on social media why these are real excuses with hashtag bullshit afterwards. Oh, my God, man. That's such a great story. I'm so glad I asked about it. And what a... What a really fantastic workaround. Man, congrats. That's awesome.

• 5:00Speaker 02

  Thank you, and thanks, Randy. And thanks to the folks at Scooteria, the bike shop in the city. I mean, a lot of people helped me make this come true, and it took a long, long time of trying to find the right folks to make it happen. So, amen.

• 5:13Tim Ferriss?

  Amen to that.

• 5:15Speaker 01

  Next up, Terry Crews. Terry Crews is an actor, artist, author, television host, and former NFL player, best known as Terry Jeffords on the Emmy-nominated TV series, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, and as the longtime host of America's Got Talent.

• 5:35Tim Ferriss?

  When I was looking at your history and your book and your backstory, one thing that I paid attention to as a pattern was an uncommon degree of self-reflection. And so, I want to rewind the clock a little bit back to high school. And the story... One of the stories that you put in Tribe of Mentors is related to my question related to favorite failures or a failure that set you up for later success. Could you tell us a little bit about that, please?

• 6:07Terry Crews?

  Oh, man, yes. 1986. That was my senior year in high school. And I went to Flynn Academy, and it was a classy school, but we were highly ranked in the state. And I was... Used to be a basketball player. I mean, that was, you know, hard to believe now. But basketball was a big sport for me. But I was the starting center on this team. And what was wild is we were picked to go all the way in the state. We had a superstar on our team, and we had a really, really good team. But we had a... We played against a school who decided not to play. It was the district championship. It was right at the beginning of the playoffs. And these guys would take the ball down the court

• 6:51Terry Crews?

  and pass the ball to each other at the top of the court and wouldn't play. And we had a coach who was like, well, you know what? I'm gonna beat you at your own game. So, we stayed in the zone. So, we sitting there the whole time. And I'm telling you, it was the most boring game of all time. We just sat there with our hands up, and they passed the ball. And if anything happened, somebody went and got it, and you scored two. It was just a mess. So, the score was really, really low. They were up 47 to 45. And it was literally under a minute. And I'm freaking out, because now it's evident we're gonna lose. Because I'm going, man, this is a dumb defensive strategy anyway.

• 7:34Terry Crews?

  We should have been going after it. But what happened is a guy threw the ball... Their guy threw the ball cross-court. I intercepted it. And with literally five seconds left to go. And I take the ball all the way down the court. You gotta understand, I'm thinking... I had visions of, oh, my God, this is the thing. I'm the hero. You know, the heart is like pounding. You just... I'm already at the party. You know what I mean? And I go with this layup, and I bring it up there, and it totally... It gets around the rim, and it rolls off.

• 8:15Terry Crews?

  And let me tell you, that place goes nuts, because it was the upset of the year. And I collapsed in a heap. And I know my life is over. And you gotta understand, and this is another thing, shame among men. It's like, oh, how could you do that, man? Your other players were yelling at me. The coach... I was in the locker room. He was like, you had no business taking that shot. And I stole a ball. It wasn't like... It's like, we didn't have a shot anyway. But he was like, you have no business taking that shot. You should have passed it. Man, it's your fault. And everybody in the room was like, yep.

• 8:56Terry Crews?

  And I was like, they didn't let me off one. And I remember just going, oh, my God. And I went in the paper and the paper the next day was like, Terry Crews had a shot and he missed. And let me tell you, it was the most dark. And I mean, when you, when you're, you know, 16 years old, I was, I mean, beyond crushed. And one guy was taunting me. I got in a fight after the school and the whole thing. And I was just like, this is awful. It's horrible. And so it was a couple of days went by and I was in the deepest funk. I'm sitting on my bed and I shared my room with my brother, but for some reason he wasn't there because I always remember him being there. It was kind of crazy. I don't ever remember being alone except that time. And I remember being

• 9:41Terry Crews?

  alone and just thinking about, man, what I should have passed it. I should have passed it. Maybe I messed up and, you know, what else could I have done? And then another little voice, it said, I took the shot. I took the shot. And I was like, I did. I did. And I kept thinking, it was like, man, look, when you had the chance, when everything was on the line, you took your shot, man. You did that. You did that. And all of a sudden I was like, that's right. That's right. I took it. And I learned

• 10:26Terry Crews?

  from then on, I said, man, wait a minute. If I win or if I fail, it's going to be on my terms. It's going to be up to me. I, if I have the opportunity, I have to go for it. And then I felt really good about losing the game. It was real. It was totally, now, this, you can call it reframing. A lot of people have scientific ways or psychological ways to, you know, to do things, but I learned always to kind of reframe things so that it's to your advantage. You know what I mean? And you look at these things like, wait a minute. You took the shot, man. And this is another thing

• 11:10Terry Crews?

  because what's so crazy is that no one ever remembers that game. It's one of the least important things in my life, but the lesson I learned is still guiding me today. The fact that go for it. Take your shot. Take your time. When you get that thing, you have that opportunity. Don't mess it up. Because this is another thing, and I want to tell you, Tim, the scariest thought ever is one thing that blew me away is that you really do get what you want. And let me tell you what I mean. There have been times when you can be self-destructive. And you think it's something else, or you think,

• 11:55Terry Crews?

  like, I discovered for a long time, like, if I show up late for something twice, I don't want it.

• 12:02Terry Crews?

  And you get what you desire. Everything about you, you get what you want. Now, the way your life is, truthfully, you want it. And now, that's hard. That's hard to say because a lot of people are like, no, wait, there's so many other options. It's this and this and this and this. But the truth is, is that if you wanted something different, you change it. And that hit me. Like, it's scary because if I failed, or if I didn't, if I showed up wrong, or messed up on something, I was like, I didn't really do what it took to get it. Again, that comes from taking that shot

• 12:43Terry Crews?

  way back in high school. But now, I realize, okay, get rid of any, what I call self-sabotage, and you can achieve whatever you need.

• 12:56Tim Ferriss?

  This is such a pattern that I've seen across interviews that I've done. We were talking about Jamie Foxx backstage, but it goes all the way across the spectrum. Say Debbie Millman, who's a well-known graphic designer, and she realized at one point and then made her mantra, you know, busy is a decision. Like, you can't, you're disallowed from complaining or responding to someone when they say, how are you, with a complaint that you are busy, because that's a consequence of your decisions.

• 13:26Tim Ferriss?

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• 16:15Tim Ferriss?

  Next up, Tim McGraw. Tim McGraw is a three-time Grammy-winning country music superstar, an actor, and a 2026 Country Music Hall of Fame inductee.

• 16:28Tim Ferriss?

  I would love to flesh out the humanizing of Tim McGraw a little bit, right? Because for people who may not know your career, they might be like, man, this guy just gets off the Greyhound bus, and then it's like, he's in a double and a triple and a homerun, and it's just endless homeruns, right? Green lights the whole way. And I'm curious if there are any favorite failures, things that didn't work, that ended up teaching you something important, or laying the seeds for something later, or if there was ever a period of feeling plateau or stuckness, and how you dealt with it?

• 17:04Terry Crews?

  Both of those. I think failure that I learned a lot from was my first album, which we always say went wood. I think we had one song that made it to 38 off of that album. Yeah, went wood. So no hits on it. So the label just sort of forgot about me after that. And so I was slowly gathering songs. But I learned a lot. I learned what I didn't want to do, the way to make music. I learned what I didn't want it to sound like. So I slowly started gathering songs from songwriter friends of mine, not really big songwriters, just friends of mine who were songwriters. Slowly started collecting songs. The label never even called me after the album came out because they

• 17:47Terry Crews?

  didn't do anything. Didn't talk to them at all. So I collected these songs, and I went to Byron. I said, all right, I'm ready to go record these songs.

• 17:57Tim Ferriss?

  Who's Byron again?

• 17:58Terry Crews?

  My producer, Byron Gallimore, that we produced together. I said, I'm ready to cut these songs. And he goes, well, has Curb heard them? Or they proved us? I says, no, we're just going to book a session and go cut the album. And so we booked the session.

• 18:09Tim Ferriss?

  So it was like an album on spec?

• 18:11Terry Crews?

  Yes. We, we billed Curb.

• 18:14Speaker 04

  We built Curb for the whole thing, cut the album, did all the artwork, had the CD ready with the artwork done and turned it into them. And of course, they hit the roof because we'd spent a bunch of money making an album that we weren't approved of. And then they listened, then it was the Not a Moment Too Soon album. Then they listened to the album, then they were all on board. And the good thing about that is the first one didn't work. Second one, I said, I want to do this my way and to do this and had Indian outlaw, I'm gonna do the songs I want to do. I'm picking all the songs, doing the songs I want to do. Don't cut them the way I want to cut them. And if it fails, it fails on my terms this time. And luckily, it worked.

• 18:53Tim Ferriss?

  So that's why you didn't reach out for approvals?

• 18:56Speaker 04

  No.

• 18:56Tim Ferriss?

  Like, I don't want some album by committee?

• 19:00Speaker 04

  No, I know. It never works. Not for me. I'm sure it works for other artists. But anytime I've done that, anytime that I've let somebody else talk me into a song, whether it be a record label head or somebody else, taught me into a song that I knew wasn't right for me, it's never worked. Never worked. And there's been tons of times where people didn't like the song at all, and it worked.

• 19:22Tim Ferriss?

  How did you decide, or when you say you knew what you didn't want it to sound like?

• 19:30Speaker 04

  Mm hmm.

• 19:31Tim Ferriss?

  Do you say more about that?

• 19:32Speaker 04

  Well, you can go out and listen to my first album, you can figure it out. I just knew that there were three songs on the first album that they sort of let me run loose with.

• 19:40Tim Ferriss?

  Well, they're also like what other people hear, and then there's what you hear and what it means to you.

• 19:44Speaker 04

  Absolutely. And you also realize quickly in this business that, you know, you think when you move to town, you find your producer, you find your, you get a record label, you get all those things, and everybody knows what they're doing. That's not necessarily the case.

• 19:57Tim Ferriss?

  Sounds a lot like book publishing.

• 19:58Speaker 04

  Yeah, most of the time, the artist knows what they're doing, and then everybody sort of follows what the artist that gets successful and starts doing what they're doing. But there are great people like, boy, without Byron Gallimore, I wouldn't know my right hand from my left. He's my partner in the studio, and I would can't imagine making a record without him. But you find out very quickly, if you don't have an idea about what you want, and how you want to make your music, and how you want it to sound, and how you want your career to go, and if you don't get any control of that, and you don't do it the way you want to do it, it might work, but it's not gonna work for long. And there have been times in my career where I've set back and decided, all right, I'm gonna let this float and let other people make the decisions. Everything's fine for now. And sure enough, if I don't

• 20:43Speaker 04

  get involved, it doesn't go the way I want it to go. Now, I've got people around me now that's been around me for 20, 30 years that I trust. But even still, if they don't get regular input from me, nobody knows what's in your head. Nobody knows exactly what you picture, even though you might think they do. They don't. I mean, they can get close, but you have to stay involved. I'm learning that more and, you know, these last few years have been tough for me to be involved as much as I want to be because I've been battling just trying to get my health back. And I'm fortunate that I have the right people around me that helps me through those periods. When your focus is on and you're paying attention to what you're doing, and you know what the path is, it makes it easier for everybody around you.

• 21:27Tim Ferriss?

  What about the periods of stuckness outside of the most recent injury period?

• 21:32Speaker 04

  Yeah.

• 21:33Tim Ferriss?

  Obviously, the multiple surgeries?

• 21:35Speaker 04

  Well, the biggest period of stuckness, and the biggest period where I thought, besides this period where I thought was might be over, is when I went through a whole legal battle with Curb Records. That was a very dark period in my career. They kept extending my contract by putting greatest hits albums out. So every time I would turn in an album, that would be the final album for my contract, it would drop a greatest hits, which didn't count against the contract. So I think they ended up putting like 10 greatest hits out, out to keep me from dropping my album. So finally, I decided I either had to bite the bullet and try to go to court, then I get out, or be stuck with them. Either way, I'm taking a chance on my career. We battled for a couple of years, and I had to pretty much rebuild my

• 22:18Speaker 04

  career after that. And that was a scary time, because momentum's a tough thing. And I heard a quote the other day, it was, it's actually a landman, I was watching it. And

• 22:28Tim Ferriss?

  It's a great show.

• 22:29Speaker 04

  Great show. And Sam Elliott was talking to Billy Bob, he says, you know that monkey at rodeos that rides on the back of the border collie? And the border collie just runs around and runs around, and the monkey's just hanging on for dear life. And he can't let it go because he'll die. So he's got to hold on. He looked at Billy and said, you're that monkey? And I thought, looked at face, he goes, Jesus Christ, I'm that monkey. So I feel like I'm that monkey. But I don't know that if it's intentional, if it's innately in you, but there's something about, even when you know you need to take a break, or even when you know that you need to slow down, when things are rolling, there's this sixth sense in

• 23:11Speaker 04

  your body that knows you can't let the momentum stop, because it's so hard to restart. Even if consciously, you're not thinking that, there's something in you that keeps it driving, because you don't want the ball to stop rolling. Because you're scared. Because you're scared if the ball stops rolling, you'll never get it rolling again.

• 23:26Tim Ferriss?

  For sure.

• 23:27Speaker 04

  So that was a time when that was happening to me, and I thought, you know, well, it's gonna be hard to restart the momentum.

• 23:32Tim Ferriss?

  Yeah.

• 23:33Speaker 04

  And then after these surgeries, there's another one of those times.

• 23:35Tim Ferriss?

  Legal battles, it's just exhaustion upon exhaustion.

• 23:38Speaker 04

  It's just crazy.

• 23:39Tim Ferriss?

  And sometimes you can't avoid it, but if you can avoid it.

• 23:42Speaker 04

  I don't want to be involved in legal battles unless it's just absolutely. But that was at a point in my career that if I didn't do something, my career was going to be over. And if I did do something, there was a chance.

• 23:51Tim Ferriss?

  There was still a risk. What were some of the most important things in retrospect that you did to rebuild your career, regain that momentum afterwards?

• 24:00Speaker 04

  Well, choosing the right partner, for one thing, which was Scott Borchetta, who happens to be the son of Mike Borchetta, who signed me to my first deal.

• 24:09Tim Ferriss?

  What a small world.

• 24:10Speaker 04

  I know. Who I signed with on Big Machine afterwards, because I knew he was a hard worker. So that certainly being first, but I was also recording the best album I think I'd ever recorded in my life while all this was going on, or once I was cleared to record. And so I had an album ready to go. By the time everything, all the dust was settled, I had an album ready to go, and Scott Borchetta was ready, and the album worked, and the juice was back. A lot of that was my team kept fighting for me the entire time. When I went to Scott, to his label, he knew what had happened, and he fought really hard because he didn't like what had happened either.

• 24:53Tim Ferriss?

  I would imagine that also injected a helpful amount of piss and vinegar to demonstrate, to really relaunch in a meaningful way.

• 25:05Speaker 04

  It turned me up to 12 after that. I mean, it kicked me into high gear for sure. And that's the way I feel now, after all of this, and worrying about being able to come back and worrying about if I did come back, what's my show's gonna be like, how I was gonna be able to perform, is I gonna be able to be me again? Now I feel like that same way I felt after coming out of Curb and starting with Big Machine and getting the ball rolling again. I feel like that we're right on the edge of tipping that boulder over the hill and let it go again.

• 25:33Tim Ferriss?

  I am so curious, because you must get approached all the time, one way or another, from musicians at different stages in their careers. Maybe it's the son of a friend, or the daughter of a fill in the blank, or it could be someone who's just coming up, maybe they're trying to be an opener for you, who knows? Someone who is earlier in their career, I imagine the advice you might give them has changed over time, but if they want to be more than a flash in the pan.

• 26:08Speaker 04

  Take charge.

• 26:09Tim Ferriss?

  Really last. Yeah. What advice do you give them?

• 26:10Speaker 04

  Take charge.

• 26:11Tim Ferriss?

  All right.

• 26:12Speaker 04

  Take charge of your career. Take charge of your career, take charge of what you do. Be confident in your decisions. Listen, of course, you want to listen to people, listen to people that know what they're doing. But ultimately, you have to make the decisions. You have to make your choices, and you have to make the right choices for you. And nobody can do that but yourself. And if you just coast, you might have a career for a little while, but if you want a long career, you're gonna have to take charge and ownership of it. And you're gonna have to guide it. And you're gonna have to be, have your finger on the button all the time. And you're gonna have to say yes, and you're gonna have to say no. And you're gonna have to use your skills to manage people. You're gonna have to use your skills to be managed.

• 26:54Speaker 04

  And both of those things can happen simultaneously, and they have to happen simultaneously. You have to listen to smart people. But if you don't have a vision about what you want to do, if you don't have a plan about what you want to do, if you don't act on it every day, it's not gonna happen. It's just not gonna happen. And you can do all those things, and it's still not happening.

• 27:17Speaker 01

  Next up, Jessica Lahey. Jessica Lahey is an educator and the New York Times bestselling author of The Gift of Failure and The Addiction Inoculation.

• 27:31Speaker 05

  So I wrote The Gift of Failure. It was my first book. I didn't know how to write a book. And knowing how to write a book is a learned skill, right? So the idea that a journalist who's used to writing 1,200 words could suddenly write 70,000 and do it perfectly the first time around, I had it in my head. My fantasy was, is I would hand my first draft in, and my editor would come back to me and say, well, there's no edits here. I mean, this, this is it. This week it published early. This is perfect. What happened instead was this, I turned my book in on time, on October 31. And on November 1, I went on a horseback ride with my husband, my friend of mine has horses that she lets me borrow sometimes. And I was thrown from the horse, and I landed on my head, and I lost my memory and lost my ability to read for a little while. It was bad. It

• 28:14Speaker 05

  was really bad. Didn't remember that I'd finished a book the day before, all that sort of stuff. So I had some post concussion syndrome that was really depression and stuff. And then I got a call from my editor, actually, I got an email from my editor, asking me to come to New York for a talk.

• 28:31Tim Ferriss?

  Uh oh.

• 28:31Speaker 05

  No, yeah, that's not good. And my editor is like, I just idolized her. She's like a grand dame in publishing. She's amazing. So this wasn't gonna be good. And I went, and what she said was this, it still makes me want to throw up. She said, this book is unpublishable. And then she said, the worst part, that wasn't the worst part. What she said was, we need to think about bringing in a ghost. Now, a ghost means a ghost writer.

• 29:00Tim Ferriss?

  Yeah.

• 29:00Speaker 05

  I am a professional writer, and she wants to bring in a writer to help me write my book.

• 29:09Speaker 05

  So I didn't throw up. I was actually very proud of myself for that. But I said, look, and I didn't cry, which was also a huge thing. I said, before we do that, and I needed some extra time anyway, because of the head injury that really got in my way for a while. So we had some extra time to play with. I said, give me two chapters. Give me a probationary two chapters and tell me everything I did wrong and what you want this to look like. And I filled a notebook. I sat in her office for, I was in there for over an hour, listening to how bad I was, to how much I stank as a writer, essentially. Luckily, she was also lovely, and she said things like, this happens with a lot of journalists. You're used to writing

• 29:54Speaker 05

  in short bursts. And so you end up writing this very fragmented, large thing that doesn't hold together as a whole. And your writing is fine. It's your organization that sucks. And that's what you need help with. So she gave me those two chapters. And I went home, and I read over a notebooks full of how badly I suck as a writer. And I digested it. And I turned it into essentially a checklist of what not to do again. And those two chapters turned into four, which turned into six, which turned into the whole book, No Ghost Writer, which turned into a New York Times bestselling book. That's not the best part of the story. The best part of the story for me was that when she bought my second book, I turned that

• 30:38Speaker 05

  book in on time. My agent was a little nervous because she knew I'd been a lot to handle the first time, right? My editors having to like line edit an entire book because I'm a ton of work. But I had run my second book through the what not to do again to do list filter. And the book was so clean that she wanted to move up my publication date. So it's not that I'm a great writer. It's that I was humble enough to say, teach me how to be better. I will take it to heart, and I will be able to be objective about it. And I will use it. And I won't make these same mistakes again. So when I handed in, not only

• 31:22Speaker 05

  gift of failure, but then the next book, I was able to show my editor that I learned from my mistakes. And it was really sweet. As she referred to me in a recent email as a dream author, because I learned from my mistakes.

• 31:36Speaker 01

  Next up, Dax Shepard. Dax Shepard is an actor, writer, and director, and the co-creator and host of the hit podcast, Armchair Expert.

• 31:48Tim Ferriss?

  You know, you've been very forthcoming with a lot of your challenges over time. You do something that I respect a great deal, which is not leading with solely the highlight reel. I think that that's a real service to people who are suffering, as we all are in various ways, often self inflicted wounds. And I wanted to know if you have perhaps a favorite failure. And what I mean by that is a mistake or something at the time that you viewed as a failure that in some way set you up for success later. There's anything that you gained from tremendously that at the time seemed like a shortcoming or a failure or a mistake?

• 32:28Speaker 06

  I mean, the one that jumps out immediately and is most relevant to this conversation is I was heartbroken when Chips didn't open. Because, back to my identity crisis, I had a three year stretch where in my mind, I decided I wasn't an actor anymore. I was a writer director. And I liked that. It felt loftier. Well, substantively, I feel a lot more pride over having written a script than having acted. I do think it's harder. So some of it's worthwhile. But I had decided I was a writer director, and that was going to be the next 10 years of my life. Chips had tested really high at Warner Brothers, and they immediately put me on another movie that I took over from some other people. And

• 33:10Speaker 06

  so I was doing that. And then overnight, that ended. I did not have that identity anymore. And they had already commissioned Chips 2. I was already beginning to write that. And I got very depressed, like for three, four months, maybe more. I started doing math and thinking, okay, could I retire now? Like, could I be done now? Live on this amount of money, blah, blah, blah. That's what I was spending most of my time thinking about is whether I was completely done. And that's when I wanted to do the podcast. I was ruminating on so much stuff. I was thinking about my own life and identity and trajectory

• 33:52Speaker 06

  and the failure. And I started it in the wake of that. And I think because I was so interested in failure at that time, I say often on the podcast, I have nothing to learn from someone holding an Emmy over their head. I'll never be holding an Emmy over my head. But I can relate if that person cheated on someone they loved and regretted. I can relate to the failures that led up to that. That's something I can learn from. That's how I learned from people in AA. I don't ever learn from someone telling some victory story. It's always how they fucked up and realized it. And so now, in hindsight, you know, had I had the thing I wanted, which was a being a writer director, it's so time consuming.

• 34:34Speaker 06

  My kids were one in three when I finished that movie, maybe two in four. And I would have been gone. I would have taken bigger movies. I would have been way more into that. Ironically, I would have ended up making less money. So this thing that I had no desire to do, and this, this complete collapse of this identity I had and desire, turned out to be something that allows me to be with my kids a ton. I'm at home all the time. My wife can take work out of town if she wants. I can travel and do this. Like, this life that came out of this epic failure, this 20 year pursuit, turned out to be something better than I had even thought to imagine. I didn't even know that this could exist.

• 35:19Speaker 06

  So that's a very obvious one for me now that I look back and go like, fucking thank God that thing failed. I would have been writing that movie, then directing that movie, then trying to get them to give me 100 million to do this one. And by the way, movie business is collapsing. So I would have been doing all that. And in a time, it's almost impossible to do that. So yeah, I got so lucky in that thing not performing. Crazy enough.

• 35:43Tim Ferriss?

  What a story. Makes me think of something a friend of mine said, I can't recall who it was. But sometimes you need life to save you from what you want.

• 35:51Speaker 06

  Oh, yeah. Yeah.

• 35:53Tim Ferriss?

  Man, what a great story.

• 35:54Speaker 06

  Well, even if you go through your own life, right? And you think of the times you got exactly what you wanted. And then the times you didn't get the thing you wanted. And what I know most is that I don't know what's best for me. The things I got that I wanted did not turn out or result in anything I had, I had forecast or dreamt of. And yet all these things I didn't want to do. I didn't want to be on TV. I had decided in my egotistical mind, I was a movie actor. I didn't want to be in TV. I reluctantly was on this show, Parenthood, because I was at a lull in my career. Best experience I've ever had as an actor. Opened up the doors for me to act and so many other things. Without question, the best thing that ever could have happened to me as an actor. And it was the thing I

• 36:34Speaker 06

  didn't want to do. And, you know, I got to do the exact thing I want to do. Ride wheelies on motorcycles in a movie I directed. And it fucking didn't turn out.

• 36:52Tim Ferriss?

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• 37:35Tim Ferriss?

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• 37:56Tim Ferriss?

  Next up, Kathy Lanier. Kathy Lanier is the NFL's chief security officer and the first woman and longest-serving chief to lead Washington DC's Metropolitan Police Department.

• 38:11Speaker 07

  So I went from, you know, a talented and gifted student with straight A's to failing literally every subject the first quarter of seventh grade. So I was chronically truant. I think I was averaging 19 days a quarter that I was actually showing up for school. Uh, my mother didn't know because the school never notified her. And by the time she got home from work at 6:00 PM, we were all sitting around like pretending to do our homework. So my poor mother had no idea until about midway through the eighth grade, I was so chronically truant that I was failing all of my major subjects. So meanwhile, while I'm skipping school, I'm hanging out with the wrong people. Much older crowd, friends of my older brother and older, you know, just an older crowd and just getting in trouble.

• 38:54Speaker 07

  And I fall in love with a much older boyfriend at the time, you know, think I'm in love and we want to get married and run away and get married. And so by the time I was in the ninth grade, I'm 14 years old, found myself pregnant. My boyfriend at the time had given me a diamond ring. We were engaged. We're going to get married. So we run away. He was 26 at the time. I was 14. My mother, when she finds out, was going to have him arrested. She was going to put him in jail. So I run away from home and think, well, we've got this. We're going to get married and we're going to have the baby and everything's going to be great. The mind of a 14-year-old. Obviously, things didn't work out that way.

• 39:33Speaker 07

  So interestingly, I went to my father, who had been out of the picture most of my life, and asked for him to sign for me to get married. Because of my age, one of my parents had illegally signed over my legal guardianship to my husband. So they literally signed over my legal guardianship to my husband. So my dad, thinking he would have one less child to pay child support for, because once he signed over my guardianship, he-

• 40:00Tim Ferriss?

  Cuts the child support bill.

• 40:02Speaker 07

  Paid $100 less a month in child support. So he signed over my legal guardianship to my husband. We get married the day after my 15th birthday. I was eight months pregnant at the time. So I guess fast forward a little bit. A year and a half later, I was back at home. My mother was taking me to GED classes at night. I was sneaking to go to GED classes when I was still married. My husband didn't approve of me going to school. So once we separated, my mom made sure I stayed in school, got my GED. And she would bring her typewriter home from work and she taught me how to type on the kitchen table. So she taught me how to type and take a little shorthand. And I went and got a job as a secretary. I lied about my age. Uh, went and got a job as a secretary when I was 16. So started working

• 40:46Speaker 07

  as secretary and then worked as a waitress in the evening in a bar. Also lied about my age to get into, uh, to work in a bar. That was the only option up in my, the area where I was working. So for the next several years, I worked two jobs as a secretary and a waitress. And I, you know, my motivation really was my son. It was kind of a significant moment for me, and I've had a few in my life. When my son was born, I had never babysat before. I'd never held a baby. I didn't know anything about babies or children. And when he was born, he was such a good baby. His crib was at the end of my bed in my bedroom. And I'd wake up in the morning and he'd be awake. And he'd just be looking at me, waiting for

• 41:28Speaker 07

  me to wake up, right? Not crying, not nothing. He would just be looking at me. So about three weeks into this-

• 41:34Tim Ferriss?

  That is remarkable. Yeah.

• 41:35Speaker 07

  About three weeks into this experiment, I'm looking at him one morning and it just dawns on me for the first time that I'm a parent and that that helpless little baby was completely reliant on me. And my mother was always stressed the importance of education and work to us. And here I was, you know, my husband didn't allow me to go to school. I would never be able to get a job. And I'm looking at this poor little innocent baby and I'm thinking, his whole life depends on me. And what am I going to be able to provide with a ninth grade education? And not much. That was a aha moment.

• 42:08Tim Ferriss?

  I'm going to resist the temptation to ask 300 questions about the last few minutes that you shared, because we'll end up spending all of our time there if I do that. But I am curious for you. I'm trying to put myself in your shoes at that young age. When you, and we, we don't need to get into the details unless you'd like to share, but when you separated from your then-husband, like when that happened, what did you think was going to become of you? Like, what did you envision your path would be at that point? I have to imagine that it would have just been incredibly challenging. I don't know. You

• 42:51Tim Ferriss?

  can't believe everything you read on the internet, but I, I read that when you were a young girl, you dreamed of being a lawyer. I don't know if that's true or not.

• 42:58Speaker 07

  Mm-hmm.

• 42:59Tim Ferriss?

  And then flash forward, you go through this entire tumultuous experience and you land back at home. Where did you think your life was headed? Where did you think you were headed at that point?

• 43:13Speaker 07

  I knew that with a ninth grade education and a single mom, that I had zero chance of being able to do what I thought was most important in the world, and that's take care of my son. And when I first moved back home, I got my GED, but I still was not able to easily find a job at my age. It was, you know, 16, I'm 17. I had to wait till I was 16 and nine months to take the test, to get the GED. Interestingly, you needed 255 to pass the test. I got 256. I passed it by one point.

• 43:43Tim Ferriss?

  Oh, my God.

• 43:44Speaker 07

  Just another little, like footnote of my life.

• 43:46Tim Ferriss?

  Sliding door, these sliding door moments. Holy cow, right?

• 43:50Speaker 07

  My mother had always stressed the importance of education and work. So I knew I had to go back to school. And I wanted to go to college. I didn't want my son to be subject to the same crappy neighborhoods and the same crappy schools that I went to. I wanted him to have a real chance. And I knew if I was going to do that, I had to go back to school and get a college education. If I didn't do that, I was standing in the same food stamp line my mother stood in with me. I remember the first day I went to get food stamps, going to the big white building by Prince George's Plaza, right near my home, and standing in the same line with my son that I stood in with my mom when I was a kid. And I was like, this is not my path. This can't be my path. So I just, when I got my job as a secretary, they offered tuition reimbursement to go to college. So I started at a community college. I just started taking one class a semester. And, uh, that's where

• 44:35Speaker 07

  it started. One class a semester, and they reimbursed me for it.

• 44:38Tim Ferriss?

  I recall, I mean, for people who don't have context, we've been trying to schedule this for a while. And understandably, you got a lot of balls to juggle. And I remember hearing just pieces of your story. This was, God, it has to be, what, more than a year ago now, I'm sure. Time flies, but it's been a long while. And I just remember thinking to myself, God, I hope someday that we can have this conversation on the podcast. So I want to thank you again for doing it. How do you then go from there? What is the connective tissue, sort of the catalyzing events that ultimately get you into law enforcement?

• 45:19Tim Ferriss?

  What are the first few dominoes that get tipped over that start to push you in that direction?

• 45:26Speaker 07

  So to be fair, my family's a public service family. My father was firefighter. My oldest brother had become a firefighter right out of high school. My other brother was a police officer. I was working as a secretary. I was taking that one class a semester, working as a secretary, trying to get my son in private school. I wanted him in private school. I did not want him going to those schools. I was still living in the same crappy neighborhood. But then I wanted my son in a good school. And I saw an ad, I was 23 years old. I saw an ad in the Washington Post for the Metropolitan Police Department. They're hiring. And what caught my attention is the full page ad in the Post. The half of the page was the tuition reimbursement. I'm like, oh, my God, tuition reimbursement. I'm paying for one class a semester. I'm going to take me 30 years to get a degree.

• 46:10Speaker 07

  So I went with a friend and we went and stood in line. They were hiring a thousand cops. This was during the, um, the crack cocaine wars in Washington, early 1990. So 500 murders a year. DC was known as the murder capital of the world at the time. So I just went and stood in line with a thousand other people, went and took the test. And I came out, I want to say I came out like 60 out of a thousand people on that test. So they called me right away. I was the only white female in the room. This is back in the early 90s. Washington DC was, was about 89% African-American, right? So I felt the same drive my mother felt taking care of us, is that I have a son that needs me. He needs me to provide for him.

• 46:53Speaker 07

  And the only way I'm going to do this is get a good job, government job, not a bad option, and go back to school and get my degree. So I got hired by the Metropolitan Police in 1990, started walking a foot beat. My first day out of the academy was the Mount Pleasant riots. So my first day out of the academy, I went to work and didn't come home for five days. It was great.

• 47:15Speaker 01

  Next up, Jan Levin. Jan Levin is a theoretical cosmologist, the Claire Tao Professor of Physics and Astronomy at Barnard College, a Guggenheim Fellow, a PEN-winning author, and the founding director of Sciences at Pioneer Works.

• 47:34Tim Ferriss?

  Let's use this as a segue to an answer that you provided very graciously in my last book, Tribe of Mentors.

• 47:42Speaker 08

  Oh, yeah.

• 47:43Tim Ferriss?

  I asked a question, "In the last five years, what new belief, behavior, or habit has most improved your life?" So I'm just gonna read this, then we'll dive into it. So these are your words. "I used to resent obstacles along the path, thinking, 'If only that hadn't happened, life would be so good.' Then I suddenly realized, life is the obstacles. There is no underlying path. Our role here is to get better at navigating those obstacles. I strive to find calm, measured responses to see hindrances as a chance to problem-solve. Often, I fall back into old frustrations, but if I remind myself, this is a chance to step up, I can reframe conflicts as a chance to experiment with solutions." What led to this realization?

• 48:22Speaker 08

  Oh, man. It is one of my... We might all have these certain boulders we nail into the wall to cling to. This is one of them for me, very much so. I think we struggle with the idea of who's privileged and who's not privileged. What opportunities have you been given? What have you earned? And we all have a different balance of that. I definitely had feminist parents. You know, I had intellectual parents. I had a lot of ups and advantages. And when I came to blocks in the road, I really didn't like that I had

• 49:06Speaker 08

  people to stand up on me and demand, "What do you have to say about being a woman in science?" Like, it really bugged me. And I thought, "But you're not talking about all these leg-ups I had from all these other people." And how I look around and I don't see, you know, a lot of diversity. Why should I only talk about the hardship in my road? Like, it bugged me instinctively. And I think that what I realized was I had been sold because of my kind of comfy childhood, an idea that life is great and just don't screw it up. And that's false.

• 49:49Speaker 08

  Life is not great for most people. And they have to do a hell of a lot more than not screw it up. They have to build bridges and pave ways and do things no one's ever thought of and fight poverty and find solutions. And I just thought, "The people that have taught me the most have done those things." And that we have to stop fantasizing. You know, my dad always said... You know, my dad was from a, you know, tougher upbringing. And he always said, "Life isn't fair." He told me that all the time. Oh, my God, it's so hilarious. I can totally hear him saying it. Life's not fair.

• 50:31Speaker 08

  It's not about fairness. Nobody told you you were owed fairness. No such thing. And it really taught me to think that, "Oh, life is a series of obstacles. It's not a paved path." And the obstacles are what make you. And, you know, when I've really screwed up with something like that, I felt really deep shame. Nobody had to tell me to be ashamed. I felt really deep shame. And when I've succeeded in that, I've felt really good. And nobody needed to tell me I should feel good about it. It's just obvious.

• 51:14Speaker 08

  And so I started to see life as a series of obstacles that were tests, trials, you know, teaching modules of how to be a better person and to pave the way behind you, not in front of you. And it's really been a pretty important principle for me, I guess, that when I see something happen, I don't think, "This is so unfair. Why are they doing this to me?" That I think instead, "Okay, am I able to rise to figure out a solution to this?"

• 51:56Speaker 08

  And I'm not always able to do that, you know? But when I do, I feel like it's genuine progress.

• 52:05Tim Ferriss?

  Well, it's an enabling lens of agency. We talked about it a little bit before recording, but I mean, there's certainly... Whoever you are, and some people certainly much more than others, you're going to run into boots in the face.

• 52:17Speaker 08

  Boots in the face, yeah.

• 52:19Tim Ferriss?

  And then the question is, what do you do when you run into a boot in the face?

• 52:22Speaker 08

  Yeah, so I think it's very interesting that certain people with privilege are enraged by a boot in their face because they were told that they had the road paved ahead of them. And it's an advantage to not think that. So that when the boot is in your face, your immediate reaction isn't like, "How dare you? I deserve this. I'm owed this opportunity." That your reaction is instead, "Oh, that's who you are. You're the guy with the boot. And what can I do to go around you? What can I do to go over your head?" And to be okay with that.

• 53:05Speaker 08

  I think a lot of us cling to the degrees and the accolades. And trust me, it's helped me in my life to have those things. So I'm not dismissing them, and I'm really grateful for them. But if you're not gonna get that accolade, big deal. Learn how to pivot. Move away from the boot. The boot actually has no power unless you insist on continually pushing against it. Unless you consider it your only avenue forward. And you're just gonna keep pushing until the boot... And convince the boot and, you know, that... Forget it. Move to the left and figure out something else and go over their heads. That's really, really liberating.

• 53:48Speaker 08

  That took me much longer to realize, and it's super liberating. Suddenly, you know, they got no power over you if you're not interested in the avenue that they offer.

• 53:58Tim Ferriss?

  I loved your answer in the book, and I love your explanation. You know?

• 54:02Speaker 08

  Yeah.

• 54:03Tim Ferriss?

  Life is the obstacles. There is no underlying path. It's actually very relieving.

• 54:08Speaker 08

  Mm-hmm. It is.

• 54:10Tim Ferriss?

  In a way.

• 54:10Speaker 08

  And it makes you less resentful. Like, "Why did this happen to me? And this is so unfair." No, it's not. It's an opportunity to develop your... yourself, you know? It's exciting.

• 54:24Speaker 01

  Last but not least, Boyd Varty. Boyd Varty is a lion tracker, wildlife activist, TED speaker, and author of The Lion Tracker's Guide to Life.

• 54:37Tim Ferriss?

  I want to bring up one of the lines from The Lion Tracker's Guide to Life that certainly pops to mind quickly when I think about this book. I'm sure it's a line that a lot of people bring up. I know it's a line that Josh has brought up. And I'd love to just hear you explain why this is in the book and why it matters. Quote, "I don't know where we're going, but I know exactly how to get there."

• 55:03Speaker 09

  I love that, don't you?

• 55:05Tim Ferriss?

  I love it, absolutely. It really, if you take a moment to pause and contemplate it, the implications are pretty profound. So I'd love to just hear you riff on this and why and how this ended up in the book.

• 55:20Speaker 09

  Well, there were two things that Renias used to say regularly. The one is, "Hishatikuma, hishatikuma. We will get, we will get it." And it was almost like this kind of incredible self-talk that he would have when the track was cold or the track was... You know, we weren't making progress. I would look at him and he would say, "Ah, hishatikuma. We're gonna get this." And then often, he would say to... "I don't know where I'm going, but I know exactly how to get there." And what he's saying, he's talking to the dynamic of tracking, which is, it's an interesting energetic dynamic. He is profoundly committed to finding that animal, but he hasn't allowed that commitment to become a burden of some kind. He is working moment to moment on the signs that he's getting. And you can think in a vast wilderness...

• 56:04Speaker 09

  As trackers, we also talk about the first track. In a vast wilderness, 360 degrees of wild terrain, all he needs is the next first track, and then the next first track, and then the next first track, and the next first track. And he's able to dial down the infinite possibilities of where that animal could have gone, to a moment of knowing and a moment of presence, and then another moment of knowing and another moment of presence. And all he needs is that next sign. So he doesn't know where it's going, but he knows how to get there. The next moment of presence, the next thing I know to do. And it might be a good segue there into just telling you a little bit about how the tracking process changed for me over the years. But let me know if you want to go.

• 56:47Tim Ferriss?

  Dive in, dive in.

• 56:49Speaker 09

  So I had these encounters, Tim, whereby I had a childhood following animals and learning this art form and really the dynamics and the psyche of the tracker, how a tracker approached the process of finding an animal in the middle of nowhere. And then watching how consistently good trackers delivered an outcome. They found the animal they were looking for. And so that... And at that time, as a young child, I thought I was learning that skill. And then through my early twenties, I had a series of pretty traumatic encounters. And the result of that was that by the time I was about twenty-three or twenty-four years old, I had found myself frozen by trauma. I felt I was depressed, I was uncertain how to move forward.

• 57:31Speaker 09

  And in the way that trauma limits options, I felt myself extremely limited. I did not have access to, you know, a lot of emotionality. I did not have access to different choices. I was stuck. And at that time, I was very lucky to meet a woman who came on safari. She became my first mentor. And the reason I guided her was because Alex, my friend who also features in the book, he had guided her a year before. And he said to me, she's a martial artist. And I was very interested in martial arts, as I know you are. And so I went into the guide room. And in the guide room, there was this board where every guide got their name put next to the clients who were coming in. And I rubbed off someone else's name and I put my name next to her to guide her.

• 58:15Speaker 09

  And that moment absolutely changed my life. Her name was Dr. Martha Beck. And she arrived on the safari and we went out the first two days. And she said something on the second day that I felt something in me like really moved. We were driving along and I was telling her about the restoration of the land. And she said, I really understand this and I believe the restoration of the planet will come out of a transformation in human consciousness. And the minute she said it, you know, whatever my grandfather knew or my father knew or my uncle knew when he saw that leopard, I felt that thing move inside of me, that kind of, that idea struck me very deeply. And then on about the fourth day, I'd driven back to the camp and, you know, I'm in my

• 58:58Speaker 09

  safari gear, I got my rifle, you know, I'm the guide, I'm rugged guy, I'm out there tracking lions. And she turned and she looked at me and she said, I'm ready to talk to you. And I was sort of taken aback. I said, well, what do you mean? She said, I can see what you're carrying and I can see how stuck you are. And I want you to know that I can help you and I'm here. And I don't know if you've ever had one of those instances where someone sees you when you're in one of those places. But I felt myself becoming really uncertain. And then I felt tears starting to come to my eyes. And then there was this moment where the, you know, this woman is hugging the safari guide and just consoling me. And she was an incredible healer and she was exceptionally adept at transformational processes.

• 59:42Speaker 09

  And so she started to teach me how to move through the trauma and the suffering that I was stuck in. And as that happened, my relationship to tracking started to change. And I started to see this art form in a different way. And I realized that I was looking for something. And all of the skills and the mentality of the tracker was highly adept to being in a transformational process. You know, the first thing that you will have to do if you want to go track a lion in the wild is you will have to become super uncomfortable with unknowns. You will have to give up all the ways you tried to know what to do and say, I don't know how to do this.

• 1:00:23Speaker 09

  All trackers operate using unknowns to almost bring them to life, you know? You will need to develop your track awareness. Track awareness is teaching yourself to be attuned to a very specific set of signs, metrics, but self-generated, you know? Like when I was a kid, Renias would take me out to a game path and he would say, walk down that game path and tell me what you see. And I would come back and I would say to him, I saw a herd of impala walked there. And he would say, hey, I'm fun. Young boy, go look again. And as I was walking away, he would say, put your head down, like the way an animal drinks, put your head right down against the trail and look like you're drinking water, like an animal.

• 1:01:05Speaker 09

  And I would come back and I would say, I can see where the herd of impala walked, but they actually walked over the tracks of a leopard. And I can see where a mouse ran across the path and then an owl swooped down and its wing touched the ground. And each time I walked down that path, under his guidance, there was more information. And that idea became very important to me, the idea that there is information in your life if you are looking for transformation, but you have to teach yourself to attune to it. And so, you know, what do you need to attune to in transformational processes? Things that make you feel expansive, things that make you feel alive, letting go of your rational idea of what you should do and noticing what you move towards, noticing what you're curious about, noticing the people who energize you, the activities that make you feel more alive.

• 1:01:49Speaker 09

  So I started to see through the eyes of the tracker, the first track, you know, the first track being the next thing you know to do, letting go of where that animal might be or letting go of where you think you should be and just doing the next thing you know to do and the next thing you know to do. If you watch great trackers, they drop into what I call the following state. And it's so beautiful if you watch Alex and Renias in the following state. The following state could be defined almost as constant creative response to what is occurring. If the track cuts left, Alex will click and he'll say, I'm on the track. If it cuts right, Renias will be on it. They're getting a sense of the mood of the animal. They're using their own body to attune to the way the animal is moving and in that

• 1:02:33Speaker 09

  way, like almost feel the animal as it's walking out ahead of them. At the same time, they are vectoring and they are getting a sense of their bearings using waypoints of marula trees up ahead. When you watch them, they're almost having fun in it. They're playing, they're playing on that track. And so you will need to develop the following state in your own transformational process. How can you play? How can you be creative with not knowing what you're trying to create or this place you're trying to get to, but being open and willing and aware and attuned? You will almost certainly lose the track. And sort of saying this to see how the tracker came to me in a different way as I got into my own journey of healing. You will lose the track. You'll be in the middle of it thinking, I'm deep in the following state, I'm right on track, and then suddenly it'll be gone.

• 1:03:17Speaker 09

  And you will need to build community around you of other great trackers, people who are willing to move with you, follow with you. And the core of it is really that there is something inside of you that knows. There is a part of you, you might call it your wild self, you might call it the track of your life, or as native people call it, your medicine way. A part of you that beyond rational thought reacts when you become more in tune with yourself. And shifting away the layers of socialization, all the things you should do, all the things you have to do to start to be able to follow the trail of that place inside of you became really what the core of my own journey to healing was. I live like that to this day as a tracker, trying to be present, resting into the unknown,

• 1:04:00Speaker 09

  attuning, and trying to fall into the following state with what energizes me, makes me curious and pulls me forward.

• 1:04:09Tim Ferriss?

  Hey guys, this is Tim again. Just one more thing before you take off, and that is Five Bullet Friday. Would you enjoy getting a short email from me every Friday that provides a little fun before the weekend? Between one and a half and two million people subscribe to my free newsletter, my super short newsletter called Five Bullet Friday. Easy to sign up, easy to cancel. It is basically a half page that I send out every Friday to share the coolest things I've found or discovered or have started exploring over that week. It's kind of like my diary of cool things. It often includes articles I'm reading, books I'm reading, albums perhaps, gadgets, gizmos, all sorts of tech tricks and so on that get sent to me by my friends, including a lot of podcast guests.

• 1:04:51Tim Ferriss?

  And these strange esoteric things end up in my field and then I test them and then I share them with you. So if that sounds fun, again, it's very short, a little tiny bite of goodness before you head off for the weekend, something to think about. If you'd like to try it out, just go to tim.blog/friday, type that into your browser, tim.blog/friday, drop in your email and you'll get the very next one. Thanks for listening.