Religious Trauma, Addiction, Betrayal — Pastor Kim Tells All

(Originally aired: 11/16/25) Bunnie Xo sits down with Pastor Kimberly Jones for a powerful conversation about faith, redemption, and breaking generational patterns. Kimberly opens up about growing up in a strict Pentecostal home, the religious trauma she carried, and the years she spent running from the church. She shares her battle with addiction, her experience navigating multiple marriages, and the rock-bottom moments that ultimately led to her transformation. Kim reflects on the unlikely journey from a party girl who rejected religion to a pastor inspired by Rod Parsley’s ministry. She talks about the criticism she’s faced from the church, the role her father played in supporting her recovery, and how her early motivational videos paved the way for her platform today. Kimberly also gets candid about marrying a man she met on Facebook who later betrayed her, and how that heartbreak fueled her growth. Throughout the episode, she highlights the themes central to her ministry—self-love, forgiveness, resilience, and authenticity—and shares how her church has evolved along with her. Kimberly also discusses the books she’s written to help others embrace transformation and healing. Pastor Kim- Website https://realtalkkim.com/ | YouTube https://www.youtube.com/@RealTalkKim | IG https://www.instagram.com/realtalkkim/ Watch Full Episodes & More: YouTube https://www.youtube.com/@Dumbblondepod

Speaker names marked ? are inferred from speaking time and the show’s known hosts — they are not voice-verified.

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• 2:08Bunnie XO?

  Is this thing on? What's up, babies? Welcome to another episode of Don Blonde. Today, I have a woman who is so inspiring, so beautiful inside and out, so tenacious. Your story is just fascinating. The more that I have gotten to be able to just deep dive into it. And I'm so excited that you are sitting here on my couch. Ms. Kimberly Jones, baby.

• 2:32Speaker 02

  I'm so honored to be here.

• 2:34Bunnie XO?

  I was just telling you a second ago that you are my first pastor.

• 2:37Speaker 02

  I am shook.

• 2:38Bunnie XO?

  I have had psychics on here. I have had, I'm talking like every, I have had health nuts. I have had everybody, but I have never sat down with a woman of the word.

• 2:49Speaker 02

  What made you want to do that?

• 2:51Bunnie XO?

  You know, so when I first started this podcast, my two top people that I wanted on my podcast was Dolly Parton and Joyce Myers. I am a huge Joyce Myers fanatic. Crazy, right? Everybody, so I grew up in a really strict Southern Pentecostal home. I went to Christian school. I went to Bible camps. I mean, like, it's crazy with my background that I came from. But, long story short, my father was a rocker, mom was a stripper. Mom left me at three months. Dad, Mary, married, cheated on the mom, my stepmom, and then had to like, you know, get into religion to prove that he was gonna be able to make it in the marriage or whatever. And then we became like a cult.

• 3:35Bunnie XO?

  So it was crazy. So I say all that to say that when I wanted Joyce Myers on, she is the only woman pastor that I would ever listen to because I'm always so scared of who you invite into your life. And in the past year, I started listening to you because I did see one of your reels on, I think it was either Facebook or Instagram. And I was like, who is this woman? Because she talks just like me. She's sassy and she has so much fire, which is like, I love Joyce, but she's, you know, for the older generation. She's very modest, you know? And I was like, I love this because this woman speaks my language. And then I just started diving into you and I was like, I need this woman on the podcast.

• 4:17Speaker 02

  Oh, my gosh, Bunny.

• 4:18Bunnie XO?

  I'm so excited to have you here.

• 4:19Speaker 02

  That does so much to my heart. Because, you know, being a woman pastor, it's, I get a lot of flak from even the church world, you know, because I'm in their phase. You know, but I'm not judgmental and they want me to be judgmental. They want me to send people to hell and just, and because I don't, to hear that God has allowed me to be used, and it is. I mean, I'm, this is the greatest honor ever for me. This is exactly what I want. I don't want to be in a church doing that stuff. I want to be right here.

• 4:53Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, no, and I love that. And I love that you are so non-judgmental because I base my entire platform on not judging anybody. And I have been persecuted. You know, because I want to, I just want to show everybody in the world that no matter how terrible of a human you might be to the world, you're still, you still deserve love. And that's what you preach too.

• 5:15Speaker 02

  Well, and Bunny, you look at God. I mean, you know, I guess because I was raised just like you and that's so funny.

• 5:21Bunnie XO?

  Oh, we're gonna talk about it. We're gonna talk about it, yeah. We have a lot of similarities, even down to the three marriages, girl. I didn't even bat an eyelash when I heard that about you. I was like, oh, this is my girl.

• 5:33Speaker 02

  And the church world asked me, they were like, why do you talk about that? Why do you tell that? I'm like, why wouldn't I?

• 5:38Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, it's part of your story.

• 5:39Speaker 02

  Why waste my hell?

• 5:40Bunnie XO?

  What's tea for them is testimony for you, always.

• 5:42Speaker 02

  Well, I was, I was, what was I telling you?

• 5:46Bunnie XO?

  You, we were talking, I don't even know. I'm just so excited to have you here. We have started this off great.

• 5:51Speaker 02

  I love this so much.

• 5:53Bunnie XO?

  So, okay, the one thing that everybody zeroes in on you is your marriages. And I don't want to do that with you. Because, and of course, we are going to talk about them because it is part of your life. But I truly believe that people are influenced as children to make the decisions that they make as an adult. And anytime I hear an interview with you or I hear you talk about your, your childhood, you kind of gloss over it and don't really talk in depth about it. I might have missed it somewhere. But I don't really get to hear the, like, the meat and potatoes of what made you the woman you are that did make these mistakes and that, you know, that you've now learned from. So you talked about your mom and your dad being super religious. Can we start there?

• 6:37Bunnie XO?

  Take me on that journey.

• 6:39Speaker 02

  So I remember when I was, I mean, right when I had, right when my mom had me, we were in Jacksonville, North Carolina, we were preaching a revival. My dad was like this fire preacher. He would like jump out of balconies and roll and just walk on seats and pews. But he was so, so, so strict. And I just remember even as a little girl, I know that God knew that at about 43, I was gonna hit rock bottom and find out who the rock is at the bottom. Now, I hit rock bottom a whole bunch. But he knew that I'm gonna let her go through all of these things because when she does, she's gonna be a fireball.

• 7:19Speaker 02

  And we just always, I always felt like women were, like, my mom was a wallflower. You know, like, she looked like she was 90 years old. She, me and my brother would try to get her to drop us off three miles down the road from our school because she'd have an oatmeal box with her hair on top of her head because her hair was down to the floor. And my dad looks like he stepped out of GQ.

• 7:43Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, I've heard you say that. And I've also heard you say that your mom was so subservient that it used to make you angry. Why do you think it was that it made you angry that she was so subservient? Because you do have some of those qualities. Like, I see how you weighed on Angelo.

• 7:57Speaker 02

  Oh, honey. I never knew I could do this.

• 8:01Bunnie XO?

  And we're gonna get there. I mean, he's a handsome guy. He's got swag. You guys are a good-looking couple. We're gonna bring Angelo in later. But I see with Angelo that you have no problem being subservient to him. So do you think that your mom felt that way about your dad? And can you understand it more now?

• 8:20Speaker 02

  Absolutely. I think I was mad. You know, I think I was because all the way back into, I mean, I was United Pentecostal. And the reason I kind of gloss over it a lot is because all my family's still in it.

• 8:34Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 8:35Speaker 02

  So.

• 8:35Bunnie XO?

  But I think it's very good to talk about it because I grew up Southern Pentecostal and it was pretty much, and this is not me in any way putting anybody down who is in the religion currently, but what I experienced from that religion was I left it with so much religious trauma. And I'm talking like, I had panic attacks my entire life and anxiety disorder because I was worried if I did the wrong thing that I was gonna go to hell.

• 9:04Speaker 02

  He was a mean God, wasn't he?

• 9:06Bunnie XO?

  It's terrible.

• 9:07Speaker 02

  Scared me to death.

• 9:08Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, and I just don't think that that's right, that they do that. So I think if you did speak on it, I think that that's okay because look at where you are now.

• 9:16Speaker 02

  Now, I do, I do speak on it, but, and when I do, I get dragged. The church world comes after me.

• 9:22Bunnie XO?

  They're so mean. We actually have gone through it with the church people.

• 9:26Speaker 02

  I have to pray over myself often because I pastor a phenomenal church in Atlanta. Limitless church is an incredible church. And I love God with all my heart, but I don't like His people a lot of times. And so I just have to pray. I'll call my mom and say, Mom, you gotta pray for me because I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, the hood part of me wants to come out. You know, I'm holy, but I'm hood too.

• 9:51Bunnie XO?

  Holy enough to pray for you, good enough to swing on you, baby.

• 9:53Speaker 02

  And so I think what it is, is I think that me being raised, I remember going to church. I remember how religious those people were. I remember how less than women were. I remember watching my mother, literally, everything that ever, she ever did was for me and my brother and my dad. It was like us four and no more. And I got angry because I saw my mom, literally, my dad would be sitting right here. And my dad would just put his glass down on the table. And she'd get up and go, ready, get us water. I'd be like, dude, you got two hands and two feet. He would never do that. Okay, I think that's the difference is that.

• 10:33Bunnie XO?

  He doesn't expect it and that's why you love to do it because it's not an expectation. Yeah, I get dragged all the time. Because you actually said something one time. You said, "An alpha woman loves to be submissive for her, her husband." And I said the same thing. Do you guys remember that? And I got dragged and I stood 10 toes down, baby. I was like, I don't care.

• 10:56Speaker 02

  Still gonna stand ten toes down.

• 10:57Bunnie XO?

  Same, same. That I was not, I was gonna stand ten toes down on it because I, when a man makes you feel safe.

• 11:02Speaker 02

  Man.

• 11:03Bunnie XO?

  You want to love them.

• 11:04Speaker 02

  And, and you're just so thankful.

• 11:06Bunnie XO?

  So thankful. And you're just like, thank you, Jesus. Where did you come from? You know?

• 11:10Speaker 02

  And you know what? They love you so well.

• 11:12Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 11:12Speaker 02

  And I didn't really see that. Now, I'm not knocking my daddy at all. Like I, my daddy, I, I was his girl.

• 11:17Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 11:18Speaker 02

  But about twenty-five years into their marriage, he had an affair. And I remember it just broke my heart. But, but let me go back to seven. Seven years old, I remember. Sitting, we had church every night for starters. And, um, all the, all the ushers would just spank me because I was always bad. Like if you're, if.

• 11:38Bunnie XO?

  Not the usher spanking you, Kim.

• 11:40Speaker 02

  And I was mad about that. Why are you gonna let? I probably shouldn't say his name.

• 11:44Bunnie XO?

  Oh.

• 11:45Speaker 02

  Why?

• 11:45Bunnie XO?

  Leave that, Jason.

• 11:47Speaker 02

  Why are you gonna let him take me out and spank me? But I was just a mad child.

• 11:52Bunnie XO?

  It was a different time in life, too.

• 11:54Speaker 02

  Yes, it was just that, that religion. But I remember at seven years old, we were in church. And I had a lot of trauma. There was already a lot of trauma because I remember coming around the corner in our house and we couldn't, we couldn't wear pants. We couldn't wear makeup. We couldn't go to the racquetball club. We couldn't go to anywhere. It was literally like walking through Sears. My mom would put her hand up like this over my eyes when we walked through the TV section because that one-eyed demon is gonna get you. And I remember I would always test that. Like I'd say, I'm going to the bathroom. And I'd go sit in front of the TV to see if the demon was gonna come out. So I was always testing those waters, you know? And I remember at seven years old, I was laying down under one of the seats like this at our church.

• 12:39Speaker 02

  And I was looking up at my dad and I was watching the choir. And my mom was up there just leading the worship choir. And all these people were just standing there like this. And I remember thinking, oh, my gosh. They are miserable. They look like they're about to cut their wrist. We're singing about Jesus. This whole church is miserable looking. And if this is what heaven looks like and God's so mean? Like every time we walk in the prayer room, my mother immediately starts rocking back and forth. And within two seconds, she's bawling. Just nose snotting. And I remember thinking, God, you are so mean. That my mom even has to cry to get your attention.

• 13:20Bunnie XO?

  Oh, my gosh.

• 13:21Speaker 02

  At seven years old, when I shift.

• 13:22Bunnie XO?

  Goosebumps.

• 13:23Speaker 02

  Seven years old, something shifted in me. And it was like I just became angry. I don't care if I go to hell. I don't care, uh, if, if church people don't like me. You can't do that, Kim, and I'm gonna go do exactly what you told me I couldn't do. And so it was almost like the enemy had an assignment. You know what she does a lot of times and he'll use people. And I just think I had wounds. I had a lot of wounds. I would, I remember coming home one day and my mother, uh, sitting on, uh, in the kitchen and my dad had, was trying to calm her down and she was just screaming. And me and my brother are sitting on the stairs. And she's screaming, I can't do this anymore.

• 14:03Speaker 02

  And the church deacons had come over and let them have it because we went to the South Lake Racquetball Club.

• 14:11Bunnie XO?

  Cause you what?

• 14:11Speaker 02

  Cause we went to the racquetball club.

• 14:13Bunnie XO?

  Oh, my gosh.

• 14:14Speaker 02

  And so it was just anger. Like my mom was having a nervous breakdown over these church people. And so I think it was just layer after layer after layer after layer. And then it, it, it was just a, a place of whatever I want to do, I'm gonna do it. Because I don't want to look like that. And if he, going to heaven means I gotta go with them? The most judgmental, angry, hateful, hypocritical people? Then I don't want to, I don't even care if I don't go. Take me to hell.

• 14:46Bunnie XO?

  I couldn't, I relate to everything you're saying so much because I completely went through the same thing, too. I had to wear, I wasn't allowed to wear makeup, hairspray. I couldn't curl my hair. I had to wear dresses down to my ankles.

• 14:57Speaker 02

  This is crazy.

• 14:58Bunnie XO?

  My mom used to sew my damn clothes. And I was in high school. It's all in my book when it comes out. Like, it's crazy. And, but my dad would be hitting women up online to have threesomes.

• 15:09Speaker 02

  That's my dad, yeah.

• 15:10Bunnie XO?

  I'd catch my dad watching porn, you know, like, and I would just be like, this is so, this is such a mind fuck as a child to be, you know, have to sit there and cross your, you know, cross your Ts and dot your Is and be holier than thou. But then when you go home, everybody's masks fall off.

• 15:29Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 15:29Bunnie XO?

  And I would see the same thing going on with everybody in the church. And it used to make me so mad that I got to the same point as you. And I was just like, you know what, God? I don't want to go to heaven. It's too hard.

• 15:39Speaker 02

  Nope.

• 15:39Bunnie XO?

  It's not attainable. There's no way that you can get there.

• 15:42Speaker 02

  And it seems, seems boring. It seems, you know, why would I want to go sit with a whole bunch of, I don't do that in my own life. Like,

• 15:49Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 15:50Speaker 02

  Why would I want to go, I totally get you.

• 15:53Bunnie XO?

  As a teenager, how did all this religious trauma affect you? Did it, did it ever steer you into drugs and alcohol? Or did you start experimenting with things like that as you started getting older?

• 16:04Speaker 02

  So my eighteenth birthday, I was dating a boy that, so back in those days, the church had missionaries. And so the missionaries we sponsored, my daddy's church sponsored, they had a son. And they lived into Peak Mexico. And all I could think about was, oh, my gosh, I'm gonna get away from my parents.

• 16:25Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 16:26Speaker 02

  And I'm gonna become a missionary into Peak, not to read Mexico. And I'm gonna, because women, that's what we did. We didn't go to college. You know, you had babies. You got married. I mean, it's just the way we were raised. And.

• 16:38Bunnie XO?

  It's also that generation, too. Like the women just never had any aspirations to do anything else but be moms, which there's nothing wrong with that.

• 16:45Speaker 02

  Absolutely.

• 16:45Bunnie XO?

  It's just not what we wanted for our.

• 16:47Speaker 02

  We love you.

• 16:47Bunnie XO?

  Shout out to all the moms. But we, it just wasn't in what we wanted.

• 16:51Speaker 02

  Yeah. And so at eighteen years old, I remember I graduated. And then I dated this boy for three years. And we were just church kids. And then all of a sudden, I marry him. We have this big old wedding. And my mom says, your wedding lasted longer than your marriage. Because when I got married, I wasn't thinking, I wasn't thinking, oh, my gosh, like, I'm gonna go to Topeka, Mexico. Like, that's eighteen hours after the border. I am, I am the girl that in six, at sixteen years old. I was, my dad and mom gave me my brother's little hooptie. And said, here, baby girl, this is your car. I was like, I ain't driving that. And I went to riches and worked for Estee Lauder and bought me a BMW. Like I, I was

• 17:36Speaker 02

  high maintenance, but I could handle my high maintenance.

• 17:38Bunnie XO?

  You main, you did the maintaining.

• 17:40Speaker 02

  Yes, girl. I was always like selling suckers or something. I was an entrepreneur.

• 17:45Bunnie XO?

  I was selling, but I could sell, I could sell friggin' ice to an Eskimo. Like, literally, that's exactly how.

• 17:51Speaker 02

  I was selling suckers from Shoney's at seven years old. We'd go eat after church on Sundays. And I'd fill my little satin bag, go to school and sell them and make bank.

• 18:00Bunnie XO?

  Oh, I love that. I just stole from the offering plate.

• 18:04Speaker 02

  Come on.

• 18:05Bunnie XO?

  I talked about it on one of the shows one time. Remember I talked about, I took you guys by the church that I stole from?

• 18:09Speaker 02

  You did, yeah.

• 18:10Bunnie XO?

  Yeah. And I apologize to J, I apologize to Jesus and I apologize to the church publicly for doing it. Okay, but.

• 18:17Speaker 02

  I love that.

• 18:18Bunnie XO?

  It just, I feel like when you are so religiously oppressed, especially as a child, it creates so much religious, um, trauma and rebellion.

• 18:26Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 18:26Bunnie XO?

  You know? Um, before you got married, though, like, take me through your teenage years. You always gloss over that.

• 18:33Speaker 02

  Because I wasn't really bad.

• 18:36Bunnie XO?

  You, it's okay.

• 18:36Speaker 02

  Like, I was, listen to me. I was bad in, I didn't trust nobody. I didn't let anybody get close to me. It was, I didn't have friends. Like, it was like, I really did have friends. I had a lot of friends, but I was scared.

• 18:48Bunnie XO?

  Cause you have such a.

• 18:48Speaker 02

  I was always the DDA, the designated driver.

• 18:51Bunnie XO?

  Aww.

• 18:52Speaker 02

  And I remember at fourteen years old, we were, I was the DDA for all the, I was on the flag corps. And, um, all the flag girl girls and I just went out, we'd go out to Subway. It was a Southway. It was a place we'd all hang out. And so they would always let me drive their cars because their cars were hoopties.

• 19:10Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 19:10Speaker 02

  And I had no shame. And so at fourteen years old, I need to tell more of these stories because these are funny. At fourteen years old, um, we were backing up and I was, I had no business driving. Like, why you let me drive your car?

• 19:24Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 19:25Speaker 02

  And I'm backing up and it was, we like the cars. The cars that go boom. We're Tigger and Buddy. And I just hit that gas. And it, I thought it was in drive, but it was in reverse. And I just nailed a, a, a, uh, like, uh, a brick post box.

• 19:43Bunnie XO?

  Oh, no.

• 19:44Speaker 02

  And it was like three thousand dollars worth of damage.

• 19:47Bunnie XO?

  Oh, no.

• 19:47Speaker 02

  And so I don't talk about that a lot because I remember it like ruined all my friendship that year.

• 19:53Bunnie XO?

  Oh, no.

• 19:53Speaker 02

  I really didn't do anything bad. I was too busy getting married and, you know, going to Bible school.

• 19:58Bunnie XO?

  Getting married at eighteen is young, too. Like, you're still a baby.

• 20:03Speaker 02

  But you gotta remember, we didn't come out of United Pentecost until I was like sixteen.

• 20:06Bunnie XO?

  Right, right, right.

• 20:07Speaker 02

  So I was sheltered.

• 20:08Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 20:09Speaker 02

  So I was scared to death to drink. Even Seagram's, my brother now.

• 20:14Bunnie XO?

  I was the complete opposite. I was like, oh, I was Old E was my first, I got drunk off an Old E in a drained out pool. Okay? I was, listen, let me tell you. Wait till this book comes out. Um, the first time I ever got drunk, Old E, Boone's Farm, ditching, like Utah, I, you read Mad Dog 2020, you name it.

• 20:36Speaker 02

  No, my brother did everything.

• 20:37Bunnie XO?

  Oh, so, cause your brother went the way that I went.

• 20:40Speaker 02

  Oh, honey. Everybody, he did everybody in the church, all the youth. I mean, we, and all our youth were bad, too.

• 20:45Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 20:46Speaker 02

  Like, I was scared to death of God.

• 20:48Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 20:49Speaker 02

  I was bad, but I was scared to death of God as far as like sin.

• 20:52Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 20:53Speaker 02

  Um, and I remember our youth would go get drunk and the, all the whole youth group would be strung out drunk at a house.

• 21:00Bunnie XO?

  No.

• 21:01Speaker 02

  And I would be making sure everybody was okay.

• 21:03Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 21:04Speaker 02

  My brother.

• 21:04Bunnie XO?

  I love that about you, though. That shows that you have such a nurturing spirit.

• 21:08Speaker 02

  For everybody to say I don't.

• 21:10Bunnie XO?

  I, I, really? Do they say that?

• 21:12Speaker 02

  Well, I mean, they, they think I'm rough.

• 21:14Bunnie XO?

  Oh, I don't gather that from you at all. I see you're, no, no, not at all.

• 21:18Speaker 02

  I think I'm gentle and kind and loving.

• 21:20Bunnie XO?

  I think that you, uh, well, you're about it when you need to be, but I also think that you know when it's time to be soft. Like, we can, when you're like that, when a woman has those two qualities, you know when to turn it on and turn it off. And I don't see you being.

• 21:32Speaker 02

  I just fight hard for people, I think.

• 21:34Bunnie XO?

  You fight, you're a lover. So you fight, that's how I am with my whole crew. Like, you have to, you're the protector. You protect everybody.

• 21:42Speaker 02

  Well, that's what I did. I'd protect all of them. And, uh,

• 21:48Speaker 02

  I don't, none of them go to church anymore.

• 21:49Bunnie XO?

  Oh.

• 21:50Speaker 02

  Like literally.

• 21:51Bunnie XO?

  Do you have, you, you keep in contact with any of them?

• 21:53Speaker 02

  So I do, like I'm, I'm like, we had a tight, tight youth group. And there's maybe one out of sixty-five kids.

• 22:03Bunnie XO?

  Oh.

• 22:04Speaker 02

  Because my dad was so hard.

• 22:06Bunnie XO?

  Just that goes into religious trauma. And like, we're not here to bash people that are, you know, practicing and are, are religious. But I always say that I'm not religious, I'm spiritual.

• 22:16Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 22:16Bunnie XO?

  I think there's a huge difference and I think there's like

• 22:19Speaker 02

  Me too.

• 22:19Bunnie XO?

  A very great divide of when you're being religious, you're literally just cramming stuff down people's throats. And it's this way or no way. And you know, you're gonna go to hell and there's, you know, no other option. But when you're spiritual, you love people and you try to show them.

• 22:35Speaker 02

  Like Jesus.

• 22:36Bunnie XO?

  Yes, exactly.

• 22:37Speaker 02

  I mean, Jesus leaves all these amazing people and goes to that well. Where that lady is sitting there at the hottest part of the day. And it's burning up hot and she's there when nobody else is there because all the Pharisees and Christians are judging her because she's been married five times. And living with a man that wasn't her husband. And that's how I look at my life and people. I'm like, man, if God can do that, then why am I gonna sit and be hateful to people and write people off because of their sins?

• 23:10Bunnie XO?

  Absolutely. I couldn't agree more. So you get married at eighteen and then you guys are only together for a little bit of time.

• 23:16Speaker 02

  A year.

• 23:17Bunnie XO?

  For a year and then you guys get a divorce.

• 23:18Speaker 02

  Cause I was in Topeka and I had to get my parents there to get me.

• 23:23Speaker 02

  So I could get home.

• 23:24Bunnie XO?

  Don't you hate that when you have to call the parents and you're like, okay, here we go?

• 23:28Speaker 02

  My dad, and I, I promise you, I'd never, I never drank. I never.

• 23:33Bunnie XO?

  I really love that about you.

• 23:34Speaker 02

  Like I, I was scared to death to do those things, but I was not scared to get married. I was, I was always scared to do the things that in secret, you know, like people see your deeds, but God sees your heart.

• 23:44Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 23:45Speaker 02

  But when it came to like big things like marriage.

• 23:49Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 23:49Speaker 02

  Let's go.

• 23:50Bunnie XO?

  Because you're a lover. That's why.

• 23:52Speaker 02

  I would just jump. I wouldn't even think.

• 23:54Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, you're a lover.

• 23:55Speaker 02

  Who cares how many time you, you, how many times you've been married? Like, I mean, I would just, my mom would go, Kimberly, what if, what if this isn't the right thing? Well, we'll just figure it out. We'll just figure it out.

• 24:04Bunnie XO?

  That's how I always looked at it. So I think it was just maybe just a generational thing.

• 24:07Speaker 02

  But honey, you know how many people in this world been married three and four times but won't talk about it?

• 24:12Bunnie XO?

  Oh, for sure. But why wouldn't you? You know, like it's part of your story. So I'm like.

• 24:17Speaker 02

  Girl, there are, like even when I put those clips up of me being honest, the people that reach out to me and say, man, you, you, you've given me hope. And they'll just start going underneath, ten times, eight times, seven times. I'm like, whoa.

• 24:32Bunnie XO?

  There's always, there's always haters. I mean, I posted my mug shots the other day and there's people like, God, your, your whole entire face has changed. And I'm like, thank God.

• 24:40Speaker 02

  I love that first, by the way.

• 24:41Bunnie XO?

  Thank you so much. So getting divorced at eighteen, how did you feel? Were you sad about it or were you just like, on to the next? Or did you, did it not register because you are so young?

• 24:51Speaker 02

  I was sad, you know, because I was sad because I remember my parents came and got me out of Topeka. Basically they brought our youth group. We built a church while they were there and then I slipped in that van and left with them. And he, the, my husband moved back with us and he stayed in the States with that, with me for about a year. And there's no way we could survive.

• 25:12Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 25:12Speaker 02

  You know, he was a baby, I was a baby. I didn't know how to cook. I was a diva, he was a diva. And, and it was.

• 25:20Bunnie XO?

  Can't have two divas in a relationship. That never works.

• 25:23Speaker 02

  And he was a mama's boy, which is, we love mama's boys.

• 25:26Bunnie XO?

  Do we?

• 25:27Speaker 02

  I mean, I don't, don't come for us. Don't come for us. Mama's boys.

• 25:32Bunnie XO?

  Now, cut the umbilical cord though.

• 25:34Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 25:34Bunnie XO?

  Especially if you're in a marriage. You have, you cannot be a mama's boy in a marriage.

• 25:38Speaker 02

  But it is important. They love their mama.

• 25:40Bunnie XO?

  Of course. And respect, and respect their mom for sure.

• 25:43Speaker 02

  So I got back to the States and right when I got back to the States, my mom and dad sent me to Bible school. They were like, girl, we've got a pastor that's gonna scare the hell out of you. And I'm like, what? This pastor's gonna really get you. He's gonna, he's gonna bring you to the feet of Jesus. You have walked through divorce. You're, you're, you need healing. Yeah, I did. I needed healing. But they found Pastor Rod Parsley.

• 26:12Bunnie XO?

  I've never heard of him until I started looking last night. Please, for those who don't know who he is at home, can you give us a little rundown?

• 26:20Speaker 02

  I love Pastor Rod Parsley because man, I've known him my whole life. He is one of the truest men. Loved his wife, loved his children. What you saw is what you got. Now, he, he can be a little hard, you know, him and his mama both. That's why my mama sent me there. My mom and daddy sent me there was because they, they were scary.

• 26:43Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 26:43Speaker 02

  I'd hear him walking down the hall and I'd be hot, you know, because I knew that they, you know, it was, you're gonna, you're gonna live right. You're gonna, there's an anointing on your life. And as soon as I got there, I, they grabbed me up. I, I, for some reason auditioned for the choir. And, cause that's one thing about United Pentecost people, we can sing.

• 27:04Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 27:05Speaker 02

  You know, we can't go to the movies. So we just sit around and sing. That's what we do. And so I tried out for the choir. And so from there, I started traveling with Pastor Rod. And so it made him get to really know me.

• 27:19Bunnie XO?

  Before that, did you wanna be a pastor?

• 27:21Speaker 02

  No, women can't pastor.

• 27:24Bunnie XO?

  So this was like your parents just kind of forcing you into this?

• 27:27Speaker 02

  They were forcing me to Bible school because if I go to Bible school, I can be a worship leader.

• 27:30Bunnie XO?

  Oh, gotcha. Okay.

• 27:31Speaker 02

  I can be a children's worker. I can be on the prayer team.

• 27:35Bunnie XO?

  Gotcha, gotcha.

• 27:37Speaker 02

  But women can't pastor. I was raised, women cannot be pastors. And so I go and I start singing with him on the road. And he was just always like, Kim, there's an anointing on your life. Anybody I would try to date, he'd be like, oh, no, no, you can't date, can't date, can't date. I was there for a year, maybe two years, and I saw the piano boy. And I was like, oh, I'm gonna marry me a preacher.

• 28:05Speaker 02

  He's a piano floor, a boy, he is anointed. I'm gonna marry me a, and I remember being in Israel, singing on the Sea of Galilee, taping the Easter special for Pastor Rod. Pastor Rod has World Harvest Church in, in Ohio. He gets lost like too because he's, you know, he's in your face. But we were headed back from Israel.

• 28:30Bunnie XO?

  I mean, that's kind of romantic, singing, you know, in Israel, the ambiance, it's kind of like set the mood for you to wanna get married, you know?

• 28:39Speaker 02

  I remember I was singing, I know the peace speaker. I know him by name. I know the, and I was talking about when he says, peace be still, all earth. And I'm up there just singing, worshiping. And I remember I was like living like the devil, going to Bible school. And I remember feeling so convicted out there on the Sea of Galilee. Like you out here singing about the peace speaker and you don't even know the peace speaker.

• 29:05Bunnie XO?

  No.

• 29:06Speaker 02

  Like you're out here singing on the, where Jesus was and you're over here. So God's always been dealing with me like that, honey. Like I had to finally get that.

• 29:16Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 29:16Speaker 02

  Because he was always after me. So what I did was, on the way home from Israel, Pastor Rod said, I see you looking at that piano boy. And when we get home, you're gonna move in with Mama Parsley. That was his mama. And she was so scary.

• 29:36Bunnie XO?

  Oh, shit. Not Mama Parsley.

• 29:40Speaker 02

  I was like, I'm not moving in with this woman. All I could think about was he said, can we move in with Mama Parsley? Cause he said, girl, you make horrible decisions.

• 29:48Bunnie XO?

  Do you feel like he was very protective over you?

• 29:50Speaker 02

  Very protective of me. And I'm just so thankful, you know, he saw an anointing on my life, which I'm like, this was so many people now. Because I know that if I would've just listened. So I get home and at three o'clock in the morning, I packed my little Ugo and I moved to Atlanta. Cause I knew this man was gonna make me move in with his mother on Monday. And I left and that little piano boy followed me.

• 30:15Bunnie XO?

  So you didn't say bye or anything?

• 30:16Speaker 02

  No way.

• 30:17Bunnie XO?

  Up and left because you were so scared.

• 30:19Speaker 02

  The next morning, all the Bible kids students are, are sending letter, sending texts with the script up on the screen. Kim Jones to the, to the executive wing. That was the pastor's wing.

• 30:30Bunnie XO?

  Oh, no.

• 30:31Speaker 02

  Kim Jones to the executive wing. I was like, I ain't there. I never spoke to him again for twenty-five years.

• 30:37Bunnie XO?

  Oh, was his heart broken that you left?

• 30:40Speaker 02

  I'm, I'm bet he was just shaking his head like, she's just gonna ruin her life.

• 30:44Bunnie XO?

  When you finally did get to speak to him again, how did that go?

• 30:47Speaker 02

  Girl, it was, it was forty-two, cause I didn't preach my first sermon until I was forty-two.

• 30:53Bunnie XO?

  Okay.

• 30:53Speaker 02

  Cause I was married to piano boy for eighteen years.

• 30:56Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, we're gonna get into that marriage too.

• 30:57Speaker 02

  So I met him. So listen, I got back in, I really fell in love with Jesus at forty-two. And found God for me. I was at the darkest. We'll hear about that. And about three years in.

• 31:13Speaker 02

  Uh, Pastor Rod's ministry reached out to me. Now, when I was at Bible school, the greatest week was Dominion Camp meeting. Because we would sing and the curtains, the velvet curtains would go up and it was just like 10,000 people and ta-da-ha, you know, it was like ministry.

• 31:33Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 31:33Speaker 02

  And all of a sudden, he says, we would like to invite Real Talk Kim back to preach at Dominion Camp meeting.

• 31:42Bunnie XO?

  How'd that make you feel?

• 31:43Speaker 02

  Oh, I thought Ashton Kutcher was gonna be there. Oh, get on this plane and Ashton Kutcher's gonna be there, like punking me. I was blown away, but God told me, and when I, when I turned 42, God told me whenever I was really getting myself together, man, I was finding God and I was on that hunt and I was just, it was like a rapid bunny, it was like a rapid, I was, I'd lost all my friends in that season and I remember I was driving this, uh, knockoff Bentley is what I call it, and it was a 300 Chrysler. And I was back at my mom's house and smoke would come out of my car every day, coming back from Bloomingdale's where I worked. And I did a video that day, talking to myself.

• 32:29Speaker 02

  And I was like, if you are in a place right now and you feel like giving up, don't you dare, because you're this close. I was talking to myself. Because I'm sitting on the side of the road with overheating and I'm looking for God and I feel God, but I don't feel like I deserve any help whatsoever. That's why my car's on the side of the road. And so at that moment, I just was on there talking to myself and I uploaded a video and that thing went viral.

• 33:01Bunnie XO?

  It's always the ones that you never planned to go viral that go viral.

• 33:05Speaker 02

  And every single day after that, I did a video, but because of that, that's how come I'm so true to myself still to this day.

• 33:14Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 33:14Speaker 02

  Because it wasn't, it wasn't the horrible Christians that were, you know, because there's horrible everything.

• 33:22Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 33:22Speaker 02

  You know, in every place.

• 33:24Bunnie XO?

  Space.

• 33:24Speaker 02

  You know, in every space. But it wasn't those people that were talking behind my back or it was the Pastor Rod Parsley that had all the reason in the world to never have me back. Because I, I rebelled. This is my third marriage by now. Everything he said was gonna happen, happened. And he said, I want you to come preach. Well, that's crazy because I've only been preaching for three years. And I don't even know that I had preached at my dad's church yet. Because he was still trying to get used to the women pastoring. I'd preached in Paula White's. I had preached in T D Jakes's at the Young Adults Conference.

• 34:07Speaker 02

  I had preached at Crefflo Dollar's for Taffy Dollar. So all of these big mega ministries were having me, but my dad was still having a hard time. Because my dad remembers I was nay-naying and not pray-praying, you know? And I'd already made such a mockery of the family for so long, I'm sure he was taking his time. No, my dad, listen, my dad loved me, but he, he knew the ratchet side of me still.

• 34:29Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 34:30Speaker 02

  You know, I could still get up and preach and bleed in those other places, because I was just going in and going out. And when I walked in that place, I remember getting off that plane, Bunny, and they picked me up at the airport. And as I was driving to World Harvest Church to preach, it was like right before that exit, I look up and there was a billboard. And it was all these legend preachers. And then there was me, right in the middle with a mohawk and a pink thing coming out. This was when I was preaching in tutus. I always was doing the craziest, like a fairy godmother. And I look up and I just started bawling.

• 35:11Speaker 02

  And I heard the Lord say, because of your obedience, because you put in that work, because you stopped allowing yourself to be identified by people. And you just looked up and stayed faithful and stayed focused and stayed consistent. I'm giving you a full circle moment. And I'll never forget walking in and him walking in that green room and wrapping his arms around me.

• 35:37Bunnie XO?

  I got chills.

• 35:38Speaker 02

  Girl.

• 35:42Speaker 02

  I just, it was like God. That was probably healing for me, because I think all of us have baggage from that.

• 35:49Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 35:50Speaker 02

  Like, we go to a therapist forever, but what's she gonna know? She, she wasn't in that, that, that growing up like you and I. She wasn't where the, the one true and living God that man would leave and go to that woman at the well. She never encountered that, like what we did. And so I think when you see the hand of God that can take people with the worst past and create the best futures.

• 36:14Bunnie XO?

  But also to have such a man who is so scary to everybody else, just embrace you after that long, after you leaving without even saying goodbye and him just holding you, like I would have just lost it.

• 36:27Speaker 02

  And there's people, I will fight for him. Like, I am that friend. You listen to me, I'm that friend, for even you Bunny. When I call you my friend or I love you, I will, you, you, you killed who? Okay, I'll help you. I'm, I'm then take you to the cross.

• 36:44Bunnie XO?

  We're gonna go, we're gonna go hide the body and then we're gonna go pray.

• 36:46Speaker 02

  Yes. But that's how I feel about him, because he, he's hard, you know, he's, he's, he's, he's a hard, you know, like he'll, he'll yell it. He's been in the, in the news for yelling at staff and all this kind of stuff, but I know him. And I know how he put his arms around me and how he fought for me, because my exes all came out, you know, whenever I started really blowing up.

• 37:11Bunnie XO?

  Oh, they always do.

• 37:12Speaker 02

  They all came out with 1933 pictures, you know?

• 37:15Bunnie XO?

  Always do.

• 37:17Speaker 02

  And they would call him and he'd be like, don't ever, you lose my number. And he just always had my back. But I remember, girl, listen, he, he looked in my eyeballs and he said, I'm so proud of you, Real Talk Kim. And he said, you're gonna preach your butt off today.

• 37:34Bunnie XO?

  He just always believed in you.

• 37:35Speaker 02

  Yes.

• 37:36Bunnie XO?

  He gave you.

• 37:36Speaker 02

  But he came back.

• 37:37Bunnie XO?

  He gave you what your dad didn't give you. And that was really cool of him to have done that for you. And I think that's really special that everybody gets to hear that story.

• 37:46Speaker 02

  What you just did. And I think you're right.

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• 40:36Speaker 02

  That's exactly why that still moves me to this day. Is because he didn't have to do that. He didn't, and, and I remember even walking into the church. And everybody was up there and you know, they always had their, their Mimi's. You know, their, their people take their computers up there and put it up there before they get there and preach. I would never do that. Cause I never want, why, why can't I carry my computer up there and put it on the front?

• 41:06Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 41:06Speaker 02

  On the, you know, the podium. And so I'm walking up and I don't have this huge entourage like everybody else. Cause I just was like honored. Like it ain't about me and all these people walking in so I can show y'all I made it. It was man, I was bawling.

• 41:22Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 41:22Speaker 02

  I was just like, God, you've got to help me get this together before I get up there and preach. I was scared to death. There was 10,000 preachers that had been preaching for 40 years, 30 years. And here's this little girl that did everything they said she did. The woman caught in the act of adultery, taken before the Lord and said, stone her. And yet he got down in that dirt. That was Pastor Rod. He got down in that dirt and started writing. If you've got some sin, if you don't have any sin in your life, then you cast that first stone. And what he stoned, what he did for me that day was he put me up there and just said, what are y'all gonna say? Preachers.

• 41:58Bunnie XO?

  He led with love.

• 41:59Speaker 02

  He did.

• 42:00Bunnie XO?

  He practiced what he preached.

• 42:01Speaker 02

  He did.

• 42:01Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 42:02Speaker 02

  And really after that, I was, I was on Preachers of Atlanta. Showed out for Jesus.

• 42:08Bunnie XO?

  So let's circle back though, cause we left off at you getting divorced at 18 and then getting married again at 19, which resulted in you having your babies, becoming a mama.

• 42:18Speaker 02

  Morgan and Lincoln.

• 42:19Bunnie XO?

  I mean, what was that like for somebody who came from such a crazy childhood? Being able to raise your own babies? Has it been healing for you or has it been triggering?

• 42:32Speaker 02

  I think it was triggering, you know, because I kept, I remember I, we backslid.

• 42:38Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 42:39Speaker 02

  Like me and their father were worship pastors.

• 42:42Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 42:42Speaker 02

  We both came from World Harvest Church. And we totally backslid. We, we got church hurt and we're working for a minute, we're mega ministry and we saw stuff. And it was like triggering all the way back. Like no way, man, we're not gonna, we're not raising our kids under this.

• 42:59Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 43:00Speaker 02

  And so we just quit going to church. And.

• 43:02Bunnie XO?

  I feel like everybody goes through that though. Like anybody that has super religious trauma, like how we do.

• 43:07Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 43:07Bunnie XO?

  It's like you go through a season of your life where you're like, you know what? I don't want to do this anymore. You leave the church.

• 43:13Speaker 02

  And I didn't want to fake it. You know, a lot of people will still get back in church and sing on platforms and hide their skeletons and live their whole life miserable. I just didn't want to do that. Like God, I, I, I, I would rather, you know, disappoint you

• 43:32Speaker 02

  than be in church faking it and still disappointing you. So if I've got to do choose, then at least I'm just disappointing you.

• 43:40Bunnie XO?

  I don't want to do the dog and pony show. Yeah, I get it.

• 43:43Speaker 02

  So we quit going to church, but I'd convinced myself and I went and started an interior design company.

• 43:48Bunnie XO?

  I love that.

• 43:49Speaker 02

  And I.

• 43:49Bunnie XO?

  You're like, you know what? I'm just going to become an interior designer.

• 43:52Speaker 02

  I was like, I don't need anything. I'm going to go, and boy, did I. That is when I started partying.

• 43:59Bunnie XO?

  So how did you just become an interior designer? Cause I actually went to school for, to start getting my bachelor's degree in interior design when I was younger. And it was fucking hard, excuse my language.

• 44:09Speaker 02

  Girl, I don't have degrees for nothing.

• 44:11Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 44:12Speaker 02

  I just tell people I can do it and they believe me.

• 44:15Bunnie XO?

  I love that. I love that. Did you just, did you start your own company?

• 44:20Speaker 02

  Yes.

• 44:20Bunnie XO?

  That is hilarious.

• 44:21Speaker 02

  I mean.

• 44:22Bunnie XO?

  Kim, I love you.

• 44:23Speaker 02

  Because I had to, buddy. I was a girl and girls were, you know, we were supposed to be at home with our kids. I'm not gonna do that. I'm a boss. I'm proving something to the world.

• 44:34Bunnie XO?

  I love that you figured it out though.

• 44:35Speaker 02

  But my, what happened was my husband, my son's father, when we got hurt with that church, he went to bed. He literally went into depression.

• 44:43Bunnie XO?

  Oh.

• 44:44Speaker 02

  And we're in this house. He's the only one that's ever worked since we got married. We'd been married for, God, at this time, 13 years. We had two kids.

• 44:56Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 44:56Speaker 02

  And he's in bed.

• 44:59Bunnie XO?

  So it was, it was like sink or swim and that hustler in you was like, okay, I've got to get up and make money.

• 45:03Speaker 02

  It was a little like he lost his mind.

• 45:05Bunnie XO?

  Oh.

• 45:06Speaker 02

  It, it knocked him.

• 45:07Bunnie XO?

  Was he using at the time?

• 45:09Speaker 02

  No.

• 45:09Bunnie XO?

  Okay.

• 45:10Speaker 02

  And we weren't even partying at that time.

• 45:12Bunnie XO?

  Okay, gotcha.

• 45:13Speaker 02

  And so, um, this church, um, you know, uh, found out this, I guess a neighbor told this pastor in Ormond Beach, I got a girl that is phenomenal. She, she does great with color and she just loved me. And so she, I was a makeup artist, not a designer. But she said, I was great with color and you gotta let her come look at your church. Cause he was needing paint colors. And I went in and I don't know how, but I sold myself, can you do drapes? Yes. Can you, can you, uh, pick paint? Yes. Can you pick carpet? Yes, I can. And I went home and taught myself every bit of it. I got that whole church that is now in Ormond Beach and decorated that whole church.

• 45:59Speaker 02

  And it was in this rich community. And so I went and started an interior design company. My mother became my workroom. Cause remember she made my church clothes.

• 46:10Bunnie XO?

  Yeah. I love that you unlocked, unlocked a new era though. Like it put a drive in you and you were like, you know what? I did great at this. I'm about to just drive it home. I love that. Yo, no, interior designers make money.

• 46:21Speaker 02

  And you know what I did is I went and hired a whole bunch of really good designers. That were better than me and I'd sit on the beach and just answer the phone.

• 46:31Bunnie XO?

  You're smart, you're a boss. That's just, yeah.

• 46:33Speaker 02

  But I was really good too. I was good at design. So I did do it for a little while, but then I got so big that I just had teams. But.

• 46:40Bunnie XO?

  But look how.

• 46:40Speaker 02

  I went back and preached at that church too.

• 46:42Bunnie XO?

  Look how God was working in your life, even when you didn't realize it. Like he's still provided and was like, you know what? Even though she's not going to church right now, she's at least pouring her energy into something.

• 46:52Speaker 02

  That's how God is.

• 46:53Bunnie XO?

  I know.

• 46:54Speaker 02

  God is like that. God is, God is never, ever changing. He is, just because we do bad things or make, not even bad things, we do the best we can. Like I wasn't just out in these streets wanting to go to hell for real, for real. I had two kids.

• 47:07Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 47:08Speaker 02

  I just had some stuff.

• 47:09Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 47:10Speaker 02

  And I just stayed away from the people that had caused the harm. I don't believe you can heal where you got killed, you know, or left for dead. And so I started decorating that church and then I started interior designing and my husband became the, stayed at home with the kids. And I did that for eight years.

• 47:26Bunnie XO?

  Wow. You made a whole career out of it.

• 47:29Speaker 02

  And we got in with all these rich people that would taught us about ecstasy and.

• 47:34Bunnie XO?

  Yep. The designer drugs.

• 47:36Speaker 02

  Man, they were swapping. I ain't never heard of that stuff. I was like, y'all are what?

• 47:41Bunnie XO?

  Swingers. Oh yeah. In Florida too, don't go to the pineapple upside down houses.

• 47:45Speaker 02

  Well, honey, I made it. We made it to the villages or whatever they're called. I remember I would lay in my bed at night, I'd be like, God, are you still there? I just thought he done turned me all over and all this.

• 48:00Bunnie XO?

  And she's like, God, are you still there?

• 48:03Speaker 02

  He done turned me over to the pineapples.

• 48:07Bunnie XO?

  Oh my God.

• 48:08Speaker 02

  Cause I was sheltered. I was sheltered.

• 48:11Bunnie XO?

  So, okay, so let's, let's deep dive here a little bit. You know, I have to peel back the layers. So you and your husband started partying really hard. You guys started using drugs and you guys also started swinging?

• 48:24Speaker 02

  Never swang.

• 48:24Bunnie XO?

  Okay, never swang. Swapped.

• 48:28Speaker 02

  We never did none of that now.

• 48:29Bunnie XO?

  Okay. She's like, yes, no, maybe so.

• 48:31Speaker 02

  No, we didn't do any of that, but we had friends, like we were all around it. Like we would leave, there wasn't no way if that man would have ever said, uh, cause I'm this kind of woman.

• 48:39Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 48:41Speaker 02

  You, you, you, you're gonna let me, you're gonna let, who, what? That means you don't love me. Cause I'm not sharing this man with no, I will, I will cut you. You know, my, my exes may be, but if I love you.

• 48:54Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 48:55Speaker 02

  And, and remember I'd encountered that with my father. So I just didn't have a good trust in men anyway.

• 49:00Bunnie XO?

  Got you, but I love that you didn't judge people who were in that lifestyle.

• 49:03Speaker 02

  Oh no, honey, I was best friends with them.

• 49:04Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 49:05Speaker 02

  And I remember as soon as they all started getting real, you know, caught up, we'd, we'd dip.

• 49:12Bunnie XO?

  She's like, all right, this is, this is my exit. I'm on ecstasy, jaw grinding, we're going home, honey.

• 49:18Speaker 02

  I look back, girl, you ever just look back and think about stuff you did?

• 49:22Bunnie XO?

  Honey.

• 49:23Speaker 02

  And think I would have went to jail for a really, really long time.

• 49:25Bunnie XO?

  Yes, yes, all the, all those mug shots, there's more.

• 49:29Speaker 02

  But I should have had some.

• 49:31Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, I'm sorry.

• 49:32Speaker 02

  I should have had some.

• 49:33Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 49:34Speaker 02

  Because I think of like stuff that we did back in that era.

• 49:39Bunnie XO?

  Era, yeah.

• 49:40Speaker 02

  Where my little boys were just, man.

• 49:42Bunnie XO?

  It was a different life back then though. Like I don't think of, not that I'm excusing our behavior, but I'm sorry, if I could go back to the nineties and two thousands, I would do it all over again. Yeah, I love that era of life, even in the, the early two thousands too. I don't know what's going on in the world today, but it's not the world that I grew up in. And it's just a completely different, you know, time.

• 50:04Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 50:05Bunnie XO?

  Um, so you guys are partying.

• 50:07Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 50:08Bunnie XO?

  When does the party stop?

• 50:10Speaker 02

  So.

• 50:11Bunnie XO?

  When do you realize you need the party to stop?

• 50:13Speaker 02

  It was, it was seventeen years and eleven months. We were married and it was so bad. I remember my thirtieth birthday. It was that night was when all hell broke loose. Like we'd been partying, we, our house was the party house. My little boys were just, I remember my mom coming to my doorstep one night, right around my thirtieth birthday. And just crying and she was like, baby girl, I'm praying for you. Like this is just not you. And I'd be like, girl, I ain't never coming back to Jesus with a cigarette hanging out of my mouth.

• 50:50Bunnie XO?

  No.

• 50:51Speaker 02

  And I just remember the tears and so I'd just go drink some more so I didn't have to remember the pain. That I caused my mom because I didn't want, I didn't want to be this way, but it was way better than those people that I'd encountered in the church. So it was either this or that.

• 51:08Bunnie XO?

  You felt a sense of freedom of being able to choose who you were in that moment. If you wanted to drink, you could. If you wanted to smoke, you could. If you wanted to drop ecstasy, you could. Nobody's going to tell you what to do.

• 51:19Speaker 02

  Yes.

• 51:20Bunnie XO?

  Because those formative years, you were told what to do.

• 51:23Speaker 02

  And I wasn't even thinking about God, really.

• 51:25Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 51:26Speaker 02

  You know, because he wasn't thinking about me, I didn't think. I just wasn't even thinking about dying. Like when you're caught up in sin, sin will take you further than you want to go.

• 51:36Bunnie XO?

  Yes, ma'am.

• 51:37Speaker 02

  Costs you more than you want to pay and keep you longer and you want to stay when you do it, what I was doing. Where it's just taking control of your life. And I remember one night, thirtieth birthday, and um, it was like the first time that I felt abuse. I was like, man, we are in trouble.

• 51:58Bunnie XO?

  Wow.

• 51:59Speaker 02

  And I remember that night my mom calls me and she says, baby girl, God wants me to ask you a question. She said, do you want this in twenty years? And I was like, man, we were so far gone.

• 52:13Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 52:14Speaker 02

  Like numb gone. Cause you can't be raised in church and know God.

• 52:20Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 52:21Speaker 02

  And not feel in your deepest, darkest hungover.

• 52:27Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, have some conviction.

• 52:28Speaker 02

  You can't not.

• 52:29Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, there's always a fear there for sure.

• 52:31Speaker 02

  Cause you did feel God, even in those seasons that those people let you down. You, you did, you, you couldn't neglect that. And so I just listened to her and at that night, my, I didn't know where he was. You know, I didn't know where he was. I didn't uh, know what was going on and I was in a very dark place.

• 52:51Bunnie XO?

  When you say you felt abuse, was it physical?

• 52:54Speaker 02

  You know, we were both physical, you know, just as, just because it's my son's father, I'm so careful. Because I've changed so much.

• 53:04Bunnie XO?

  Trust me, I get it. When you have that so much going on and I'm.

• 53:08Speaker 02

  Girl, it was just my mouth.

• 53:09Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, well, yeah, I get it. I get it.

• 53:12Speaker 02

  I could slice you up and, and leave you for dead. I was so detached. Like I was, I was so wounded that people that had been in my life for thirteen, fourteen years would leave and I would act like they had never even been there.

• 53:26Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 53:26Speaker 02

  Like I just had no attachment ability at all. Like I was just.

• 53:31Bunnie XO?

  I call it being a verbal sniper, cause I was the same way.

• 53:35Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 53:35Bunnie XO?

  I would cut people off and just leave them like just so heartless.

• 53:39Speaker 02

  Like not even care. Like I, I even think back to this day, did you care? Like, did, did you? No. Like it was like, I just expected everyone to leave, you know? So it was like, I was like, he's out.

• 53:52Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 53:53Speaker 02

  And then I'd walk in a room with them and never even look at them. Like they, they had never been there.

• 53:57Bunnie XO?

  I would always hurt people before they could hurt me.

• 53:59Speaker 02

  Yes, me too.

• 54:00Bunnie XO?

  Self sabotage at its finest, yeah.

• 54:03Speaker 02

  And so that's when it really started. I still stayed another four years after that, trying to, trying to save him. I really honestly thought he's going to come to his grips. He's going to get it together and we're going to go back.

• 54:16Bunnie XO?

  Depression or was he in addiction at that time too?

• 54:19Speaker 02

  At this point, it was addiction. Just right, just full blown.

• 54:24Speaker 02

  My parents came and, and tried to go through, uh, what's it called? Sober and sober him up. He went away. Uh, it was, it was just had a hold on him.

• 54:35Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 54:36Speaker 02

  And um, I mean, I could party and then get up and go to work. You know, it was a, I was a party animal.

• 54:42Bunnie XO?

  I was a functioning addict myself.

• 54:44Speaker 02

  Totally. And so my kids were lost and I remember what finally was a hit the camel's back was. One night, I remember it was this song that just started coming on, cause I was all by my help, myself. My, my kids were at my mom's house in Atlanta and I was living in Orlando, Florida. And at this point, so much had taken place in this marriage. I mean, police, uh, just holes in walls, uh, just rage. And this night, it was like, I'm dying tonight. Like I knew this night I was going to die. Like it was so, it was at the top of rage.

• 55:29Speaker 02

  It was like the, everything came to a head. And that night, all I could think about was I gotta get out of this house and then I gotta go where I gotta go. And because I'd protected him, I didn't, there was nobody around. I mean, we had, I literally started this man a church, trying to get him sober. Like if I at least, I mean, I went and found a movie theater, bought all the music equipment. He came church drunk. You know, I mean, and people were trying to sober him up so he'd get up and do the sermon. I'm just trying to help him get his, you know, get his life back. And that night I thought, if I can get up and get out,

• 56:07Speaker 02

  then I'll, I'll, I'll call my mom and dad tonight. And I remember I sat in a bush because the neighbors went to our church.

• 56:15Speaker 02

  And I couldn't go over there, cause I didn't want them to hate Jesus because of our horrific leadership ability.

• 56:23Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 56:24Speaker 02

  You know?

• 56:25Bunnie XO?

  Right, cause you've gone through that.

• 56:27Speaker 02

  Yes. And I didn't want to stand before God one day and he was like, girl, like all these people turned away from me because of your mouth. Because you, you were double minded.

• 56:36Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 56:36Speaker 02

  And so I just sat in that bush. I remember about five o'clock, he left and I go and I call my mom and dad. And they came to Orlando, picked up my home. It was the, a beautiful home that I had bought. And my mother came in, we patched holes where, I mean, when, when, when the fights would start, they would just, if he would throw just whatever. And I'd just put pictures over the walls. And she sat that day for twenty-four, forty-eight hours and just started fixing the walls. And I remember my dad walking around telling people, don't talk to Kim. Like if you talk to her, she's going to have a nervous breakdown. Just talk. I was out of it. It was like, and I'm a strong woman and I was out of it.

• 57:22Speaker 02

  And from that point on, I remember listening to this, credit's important to me. Like integrity is important to me, even when I was out in the world looking for peace and looking for whatever I was out searching for. I still felt I gotta keep up with my name and you know, good character. And I got two boys that even always are going to need their mom and I'm going to be able to supply for them. And in this, but in the last six months, I lost my business. Because it was, we were down to that place of, you know, I'm tired of you depending on everybody else. So I closed the whole business down, gave it to my designers, because I was trying to do everything I could to save this marriage. Whatever he told me was going to work, I was going to do it.

• 58:06Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 58:07Speaker 02

  And by this time, so I didn't have the company anymore. And I remember thinking, I got this five hundred thousand dollar house behind these gates and I'm going to lose it. I'm going to, I'm not going to be able to buy cheese with my credit. How am I going to sustain my kids? And do you know when we were packing up that U-Haul, getting ready to pull out, a Taurus pulls up in that driveway and it is a beat up Taurus. And literally rolls its window down and says, are y'all selling this house? It looked like a yard sale because we had stuff laying everywhere. And my dad said, in fact, we are. He said, do you mind if I go in and look in, look inside?

• 58:51Speaker 02

  My dad let him go look inside. He said, I'm going to buy this house.

• 58:54Bunnie XO?

  Wow.

• 58:55Speaker 02

  He said, I'm an investor and I'm going to buy this house. And at six AM that next morning, we stayed overnight, six AM that next morning, that man bought our house.

• 59:04Bunnie XO?

  Kim.

• 59:05Speaker 02

  And it was like God at that moment started showing me glimpses of him.

• 59:08Bunnie XO?

  Cause you were making the right decision. So he was like encouraging you, like now you don't have a reason to go back.

• 59:14Speaker 02

  Yes.

• 59:15Bunnie XO?

  Now it's all just moving forward.

• 59:17Speaker 02

  Yes, and this is what he does for us. When everybody in the world lets you down, if you'll do the hard things.

• 59:25Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 59:25Speaker 02

  If you'll swallow your pride, because that's what I had to do. I had so much pride. And I had to swallow my pride and move back in with the very woman that I married a man for to run away from.

• 59:35Bunnie XO?

  But look how they showed up for you.

• 59:37Speaker 02

  Oh, girl, now my mama, shh, now my mom and daddy, he didn't want me preaching his pulpit, but he loved his daughter.

• 59:45Bunnie XO?

  Yeah. He's like, I don't trust you to be behind the pulpit.

• 59:47Speaker 02

  No, he thought I cussed. He's like, baby girl, you're still, you need to get your mouth, you're, you still cuss a little. That was all, he didn't want me to make a fool of myself, you know?

• 59:56Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 59:56Speaker 02

  But now I pastor his church.

• 59:59Bunnie XO?

  Oh.

• 1:00:00Speaker 02

  But, uh, yeah, so I had to be back here with my mom and dad. I remember one night, Bunny, it was like the biggest, just humbling experience that me and my two sons, that had everything. Every new video game, every, I mean, I drove a Navigator, a Mercedes convertible, this beautiful house. We would have chefs cook for us, or we'd let them stofers pull up all the cooked meals and, and overnight, those boys, and they had gorgeous bleach, you know, that, that long hair and they were just so cool.

• 1:00:43Speaker 02

  And all of a sudden, when my dad comes, he makes them cut their hair. So it was still a little in him.

• 1:00:49Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:00:49Speaker 02

  I've never talked about this part. He made them cut their hair off, their surfer hair off. And he went and put them in Christian school. So it was like overnight, all of this stuff.

• 1:01:00Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:01:01Speaker 02

  And my boys ain't been to church. You know, I convinced myself we'd only been out for three years, but it had been 10.

• 1:01:05Bunnie XO?

  Right, right.

• 1:01:06Speaker 02

  You know, I'm, I'm on the back of the bed for three years.

• 1:01:09Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:01:10Speaker 02

  It had been 10 and.

• 1:01:12Bunnie XO?

  Was that a shock for them? Like, how did they adjust?

• 1:01:15Speaker 02

  Well, because my mom and dad, we move in with them and there's a revival going on with a guy named Todd Bentley or something. I don't even remember. I mean, obviously I remember his name. Obviously it was traumatic to me.

• 1:01:30Speaker 02

  And every single night, they are laying in the floor weeping with this tent revival, and it was every night. So my kids go from no church to laying in the floor, watching my mom and dad lay in the floor. We've been in crying every night. And my dad's making them cut their hair and.

• 1:01:54Bunnie XO?

  How did they adjust? How did it affect them? How old were they at this time?

• 1:01:57Speaker 02

  Seven and nine.

• 1:01:58Bunnie XO?

  Oh.

• 1:01:59Speaker 02

  It was hard on them.

• 1:02:00Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, I bet.

• 1:02:00Speaker 02

  You know, my, my, my, then they, of course, a year went by, 10, 11, 12. I said, I was gonna be out of my mom's house by then. And every year went by and I stuck, I was stuck. Because now I'm having to work a retail job because we're in Fayetteville, Georgia. I pastor in a town that is horses.

• 1:02:23Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:02:23Speaker 02

  And cows and there's not even a mall. There's a Belk. And so I had to go get a job at this Kmart on crack.

• 1:02:33Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:02:33Speaker 02

  Right? Because that's all there is and I gotta take care of my kids.

• 1:02:37Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:02:37Speaker 02

  And so.

• 1:02:39Bunnie XO?

  And it wasn't just you. You couldn't just up and leave like you had done previously because now you got two little nuggets.

• 1:02:44Speaker 02

  And I was scared to make the wrong, I was, there was really a fear of, I can't mess up again because I got these two little boys that lost their dad and mom. Like, what a disgrace. Like, the first one was.

• 1:02:58Bunnie XO?

  Oh, you were young. You were young.

• 1:03:00Speaker 02

  I mean, the only thing that, yeah, right.

• 1:03:01Bunnie XO?

  And I feel like it doesn't count. That one should have been an old.

• 1:03:03Speaker 02

  And if I passed him on the street, I wouldn't even know what he looks like.

• 1:03:07Speaker 02

  Honest to God.

• 1:03:08Bunnie XO?

  I love that.

• 1:03:09Speaker 02

  Like, it was just that. And this one, I loved his guts.

• 1:03:15Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:03:15Speaker 02

  You know, so it was like, my son's father.

• 1:03:17Bunnie XO?

  Children with him, so it's like.

• 1:03:18Speaker 02

  And I honestly, God, thought we'd be together forever.

• 1:03:20Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:03:21Speaker 02

  You know, probably doing something in ministry. I don't know, because that's what he did our whole marriage.

• 1:03:26Bunnie XO?

  Did he ever get it together and was he able to, no, never got it together? I hate to hear that.

• 1:03:31Speaker 02

  No. And my mom was right. 20 years. Do you want this?

• 1:03:40Speaker 02

  Because nothing's changing. And I pray, I pray every day, you know, because I know what it's like. Great guy. You know, and, and I don't even know if, what does even get it together look like?

• 1:03:53Bunnie XO?

  Right, right.

• 1:03:55Speaker 02

  You know, my, my get it together, which is take over the world.

• 1:03:58Bunnie XO?

  Right, right.

• 1:03:59Speaker 02

  Or I got peace.

• 1:04:02Speaker 02

  You know?

• 1:04:03Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, he's, if he's living how he wants to live and he's content, then that's, that's all that matters.

• 1:04:07Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 1:04:08Bunnie XO?

  So take me to this, you know, God speaking on your life and calling you to become a pastor. Because you're living at home, you're at rock bottom, you're working at Belk, and you get this harebrained idea to become a pastor? Or how does this come to you?

• 1:04:24Speaker 02

  Girl, I didn't even know how to do makeup because remember, I was raised, you can't do makeup.

• 1:04:29Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:04:29Speaker 02

  So why are they gonna put me at Estee Lauder? Like, not even MAC. Estee Lauder, which is like granny makeup. And so that means I gotta.

• 1:04:41Bunnie XO?

  White diamonds and all that stuff. My stepmom used to wear that shit.

• 1:04:44Speaker 02

  You do, you do.

• 1:04:46Bunnie XO?

  No, I don't remember that.

• 1:04:47Speaker 02

  Oh, girl. Them ladies love the YouTube and they would come straight, all of them, it smelled straight up like, like.

• 1:04:54Bunnie XO?

  Diapers.

• 1:04:54Speaker 02

  Oh. And so, and, and you have to wear these polyester navy blue suits, you know, uniforms. And so they're like, we have the best job for you and it's Estee Lauder. And I was like, listen lady, I don't know how to put makeup on. You do not want me to make up. I really don't even like people at all.

• 1:05:15Bunnie XO?

  Right. At this point in my life, I'm over it.

• 1:05:18Speaker 02

  I don't like people.

• 1:05:19Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:05:19Speaker 02

  I don't, I'm not gonna be good with, with your customers. Put me in the well. Put me in the well, I'll open the boxes. They were like, oh no, we think you're gonna be great. Girl, when I tell you, it was like God punked me. Because I was still, my dad, because I was in his house, was making me secretly worship in his church. So I'd be driving to church with my cigarette hanging out my, out of my car. And then getting to the church and spraying, spraying love spell all over me.

• 1:05:48Bunnie XO?

  Which that doesn't even work because I used to smoke Newport's. So I know, and the love spell.

• 1:05:52Speaker 02

  You just smell like a whole whorehouse.

• 1:05:54Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:05:54Speaker 02

  Walking up into the church.

• 1:05:55Bunnie XO?

  Every stripper in Vegas wore love spell.

• 1:05:57Speaker 02

  Oh my God, it makes me sick now.

• 1:05:59Bunnie XO?

  Amber Romance.

• 1:06:00Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 1:06:00Bunnie XO?

  Amber Romance was the other one.

• 1:06:03Speaker 02

  And so I would, I still had to do his worship, but I was like in cosmetics and I remember watching YouTube's, trying to learn how to, how to like do makeup. And I remember getting so mad at God one night. And I was like, you hate me. Like these old ladies, like I don't even know how to do makeup and now you're wanting, they're coming to here wanting, I gotta put it in the wrinkles and cover the wrinkles up and I don't even know how to put makeup on. I'm just having this whole conversation because I truly did start talking to God.

• 1:06:36Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:06:36Speaker 02

  Like, I was really laying in that bed, really seeking because I was sad. I was broken. And I remember laying in that bed and I said, God, I said, I said, I need you to take this pain away from me.

• 1:06:49Speaker 02

  And probably for the first time in my life, Bunny, I heard, I can't take it away from you. You gotta get up and walk away from it.

• 1:07:00Speaker 02

  And at that moment, I realized that it was like the rejection wasn't people necessarily wanting out of my life. It wasn't just because I was bad. It wasn't just because I was unlovable. But that God did indeed have something for me to do. I never thought it was preaching, ever. I never thought it was preaching. But he had something for me to do that those people that I'd opened the door to do come in my life, their character couldn't keep up with my purpose. And so for some reason, I wrapped my head around rejections, God's protection. And so I started climbing out of that depression, that, that sadness, that hollowness, that

• 1:07:41Speaker 02

  sitting in the parking lot with all my girlfriends, drinking, uh, uh, Bones Farm, you know, or the cheapest wine we could find, literally getting drunk on the cheapest wine we could find after work while my kids are at home with my parents. And it's, I started longing. It was like, I started giving me a longing because I always knew God from my parents or from Bible school.

• 1:08:04Bunnie XO?

  Their version.

• 1:08:05Speaker 02

  Yeah. But this time, I hit rock bottom. And I needed God. And I remember he started taking me on a journey of forgiveness. And I remember I lay in my bed at night and I would pray, God, kill him, kill him with the train. Because God didn't tell me how to kill him. Or how to pray for him. He just said, pray for him. I was praying for him to get killed with the train because I wanted him to hurt as bad as I was hurting. And I remember when he started talking about, you know, forgiveness. I was just like, wow. I don't even know how to do that, raised in the church.

• 1:08:42Bunnie XO?

  Well, because they didn't show you forgiveness. They didn't show you how to forgive.

• 1:08:47Speaker 02

  No.

• 1:08:47Bunnie XO?

  That was my, that's been my biggest lesson in life too, is learning how to forgive.

• 1:08:51Speaker 02

  And I would lay in my bed every night and be like, God, help. I would pray that every night, God, help me forgive. God, help me forgive. I want to forgive. I want to forgive, but I don't know how. And it was like over time, in about six months, I was starting to get up more excited. My kids were starting to see a change. I wasn't just going out and, and looking for trouble to get into. Right in the beginning of this journey of me finding God and really like just hungry. I, I came home drunk one night. I was probably 38. And it was the last time I got drunk. I come home drunk, we'd had a party.

• 1:09:33Speaker 02

  And I was the, I was the, I was the, the star, you know, everywhere I went, they'd make sure I got home and everything. They would drop.

• 1:09:40Bunnie XO?

  I believe that.

• 1:09:41Speaker 02

  They would drop me home, they'd put me in the van, like, they, they took me, took care of me because I was just, by this time, I was happy. I was getting there. And that night I walk in my house. And I, I remember the girl, this lady named Tarvet was the one that drove me home. And that night, she had called my son, Morgan, and said, I need you to open the door because I'm bringing your mama home. And that night when I walked in, I saw that pain in my son's eyes. Because he'd just, he seen it two years prior when we had to leave his father. And it's, that had taken away that whole family, you know, from him.

• 1:10:25Speaker 02

  And I saw that and I was so broken. I mean, because you know, when you're, when you're drunk, for some reason, you're more spiritual. If you got any God, you're preaching to everybody.

• 1:10:37Bunnie XO?

  Well, they call alcohol spirits.

• 1:10:39Speaker 02

  Yes, they do.

• 1:10:40Bunnie XO?

  There you go.

• 1:10:41Speaker 02

  So, um.

• 1:10:42Bunnie XO?

  Seeing that pain.

• 1:10:43Speaker 02

  I saw that pain. And I'm walking in and I just feel grief because he was, you could just see it in his eyes, just like. Cause he never seen me like that. I'd hit it really well, you know? And I was walking upstairs and as I was walking upstairs, I hit all of the pictures.

• 1:11:01Bunnie XO?

  Oh no.

• 1:11:02Speaker 02

  I'm thirty-eight. And I wasn't as bad as I had been. I was really searching for God, but I was just one foot in, one foot out, really. And I'm doing so good. And already doing my videos.

• 1:11:16Bunnie XO?

  Right, right. Oh.

• 1:11:19Speaker 02

  Already doing my videos, already talking about Jesus.

• 1:11:23Bunnie XO?

  So your video started out as like motivational, speaking, not being a pastor.

• 1:11:26Speaker 02

  Nope, no, no, no.

• 1:11:27Bunnie XO?

  Okay, I never knew that.

• 1:11:28Speaker 02

  No, no, no. Just, just literally like, man, I know you want to give up today.

• 1:11:31Bunnie XO?

  Trying to encourage.

• 1:11:32Speaker 02

  I know you're starting over today. I know you're sitting on the car side of the road and you're hoopy and you are looking at all these people that look like they're doing so much better than you.

• 1:11:39Bunnie XO?

  Gotcha, gotcha.

• 1:11:40Speaker 02

  So that's what it was totally. It was definitely not because I had it all together.

• 1:11:44Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:11:45Speaker 02

  I probably looked like I did. But I knocked all the pictures down going upstairs at my mom's, all my graduation pictures on my brothers. And I heard the door of my father's room opening. And my heart started popping because my son already was disappointed. And now my dad, which I love more than anything, was gonna catch me. And because I'd always stay away, you know, if I was gonna be partying or anything like that. But this night I got busted. And so I hear my dad walking up the stairs and I run to my room and I lay down like this, as still as I can,

• 1:12:27Speaker 02

  thinking that he'd think I was asleep. Like he didn't see all the pictures, but when you're drunk, you just think you're very sober.

• 1:12:32Bunnie XO?

  And you're slick.

• 1:12:33Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 1:12:34Bunnie XO?

  Like it wasn't me.

• 1:12:35Speaker 02

  And I could feel his breath looking down at me as I just opened my eye like this. And he said, baby girl, how do you feel?

• 1:12:44Speaker 02

  And I said, heartbroken.

• 1:12:48Speaker 02

  And he said, well, you're gonna get through this. He said, but I hope you don't have a hangover tomorrow. He said, because daddy's gonna tuck you in. And he said, forgive yourself. But tomorrow, you gonna get up, lead praise and worship at our church. And I thought, every white person, because it was all whites, all the white people about building judgmental, all they were. I said, they're gonna die. Because there's a lightning bolt about to go through the ceiling of that church. Because there's no way my dad should let me. Because most of the time, you gotta get up if you're a preacher's kid. You gotta get up, you gotta stand before the church, you gotta say I'm sorry that I've said. My dad never let that happen.

• 1:13:32Speaker 02

  My dad covered me, he protected me. But he was gonna make me get up, lead praise and worship. And I remember that Sunday, it was like, God, I laid in that bed that night and cried my eyes out because I felt like another moment with Pastor Rod. Where Jesus was holding me and saying, let it go, you're human.

• 1:13:52Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:13:53Speaker 02

  And after that, I never drank again. It was like my father showed me everything I needed him to show me all those years, this soft side. Where he's saying, baby girl, I'm so proud of you and you gonna get up there and you gonna sing your butt off and you gonna lead worship and God is there and I trust you. And so I say, I led worship and it was like that, that, there was a healing that took place. And I never had to go out and get drunk and drive with one eye again. And that's when my whole life really started changing. And I literally fell so in love with Jesus.

• 1:14:31Speaker 02

  Fell in love with Jesus. And I mean, girl, listen, I was then turning those car videos into preaching and, but it wasn't preaching, it was all, I'm fascinated with the stories in the Bible where God leaves the ninety-nine for the one. Where he will turn Apostle Paul, that was Saul, that was a Christian killer. And he'll turn him into one of the greatest revivalists in the planet.

• 1:14:56Bunnie XO?

  Yes.

• 1:14:57Speaker 02

  He'll save him, he'll let a snake bite him that was supposed to kill him and he'll shake that snake off. And that very hand that got bit by the snake is the one that was healing people. Like I'm just fascinated by those stories of the man laid at the pool of Bethesda, thirty-eight years. And all of a sudden, I said, get your towel up, what you doing?

• 1:15:16Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:15:17Speaker 02

  And he gets up and he says, now take your mat and walk. He knew if he left his mat there, he would come back. And yet that man ended up being a great revivalist. The woman at the well became one of the greatest revivalists. And so I was always fascinated with that. So I was always telling those stories. And if you've been church hurt, it's, it's okay. And then I met a guy named Trent Shelton in that time. And he's over rehab time and he had this big old movement. And he would ask me to come on and pray. And it wasn't a Christian movement. But he always wanted someone to pray. And he saw me as a preacher.

• 1:16:00Speaker 02

  And so he would ask me to come on rehab time and pray. And I'd be sitting up in my mama's bedroom, that room that was ten by ten, like size of my old walk-in closet. And I'd be praying in that room. And I showed up every Thursday. Like there was twenty thousand people standing there and I did it faithfully for like two years.

• 1:16:18Bunnie XO?

  It gave you a purpose.

• 1:16:19Speaker 02

  Yeah. And I think the obedience to God. Like, I mean, I would be out with family and have to go sit in my car so I could do this rehab time. And it stirred something up inside of me.

• 1:16:32Bunnie XO?

  It was your calling.

• 1:16:33Speaker 02

  Oh, yeah. And then when I was at Bloomingdale, I mean, I mean, Belle, when I, when I think about that, I could not stand people. And God knew that. And he said, where I'm taking you, you have to like people. So I'm gonna put you in front of these sweet little old ladies that don't care if you can't do makeup. They're just coming to feel pampered. And you're gonna fall in love with them because you're gonna learn to listen to their stories. And girl, when I tell you that five years in cosmetics, I fell so, all of this was in the same time. I fell in love with people so much, their stories. I started ministering to them out of a place I never, I never knew was there.

• 1:17:18Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:17:19Speaker 02

  It was, it was like, I, I, I remember when I really realized that God had his hand on my life was this lady named Eleanor. Came walking back.

• 1:17:27Bunnie XO?

  Such an old lady name and I love that. I freaking love it.

• 1:17:30Speaker 02

  She looked like a little old lady. She gonna walk in like this with her little handbag, you know? And she comes walking in and by this time, because I was selling the best out of lip glosses. Because that's all I could put on to you was lip glosses. And everybody was buying lip glosses. And I'd do their makeup and they'd buy lip glosses. And I had one of the top counters in Atlanta for sales. Because.

• 1:17:53Bunnie XO?

  It was because of you.

• 1:17:54Speaker 02

  It was.

• 1:17:55Bunnie XO?

  People were attracted to your charm.

• 1:17:57Speaker 02

  And Eleanor came in and she said to me, Kim, I said, Eleanor, you cannot return that. I have all the county execs coming to my store. And they're gonna ask me what I'm doing to get all these sales. And if you return, we have no returns, Eleanor. She said, oh no, I'm not bringing this back. She said, I'm coming back with a proposition to you. She said, for the last thirteen years, she said, my husband walked out on me for my best friend. And she said, I quit living. She said, I lay in my bed and I would just rot. And everyone enabled me. My kids would bring me food and groceries and I just wouldn't leave the house. I lost me.

• 1:18:40Speaker 02

  And she said, I have to get a job. She's probably seventy-eight. And she was having to go get a job. And she said, so I have to, I have to figure out how to take care of myself. And she said, I've been going to a therapist. This woman comes to my house and meets with me for the last ten years. And she said, that therapist hasn't done anything for me, but she became my friend. She said, but when I came and sat in your chair on that Friday, she says, something happened in your chair. And she said, when I left, I went home, I opened all my blinds. She said, I told people, I don't need you to come buy my groceries anymore.

• 1:19:23Speaker 02

  She said, life is back in me. And she said, every Friday, I'm gonna come sit back at this chair and I'm gonna let you talk to me and I'm gonna buy another lip gloss.

• 1:19:31Bunnie XO?

  Let's go.

• 1:19:32Speaker 02

  And it was like, that was God, Bonnie. It was like, all of a sudden, I was like, ah.

• 1:19:36Bunnie XO?

  It like clicked for you, like a light bulb.

• 1:19:38Speaker 02

  Everything they said about me is not true. I can preach. I can love people back to life. And if I can't preach in a church, I can preach on the side of the road. I can, I can minister, I can love everybody. I can walk in a grocery store. I can fall in love with little thumbnails that I don't know. I, I never meet these people, but yet God's given me this ability to love so well that they feel like they're my best friends. And it's because I prayed every day, God, let me be that person that lets people feel sane. That wants to live right. I'm not, I didn't live right because I was scared of hell. I was not scared of hell. I had already been there.

• 1:20:18Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:20:19Speaker 02

  But what brought me to Jesus was Rod Parsley and my father wrapping their arms around me and having my back when I didn't have my own back. So it's the love of God. It's loving people where they are. And being there for them and letting Jesus clean them up.

• 1:20:36Bunnie XO?

  Amen, sister.

• 1:20:38Speaker 02

  And so from there.

• 1:20:39Bunnie XO?

  You just start preaching.

• 1:20:40Speaker 02

  What?

• 1:20:41Bunnie XO?

  What was it like when you did your first sermon?

• 1:20:45Speaker 02

  Oh, well, I pulled out a tutu.

• 1:20:48Bunnie XO?

  Okay, where did the style come from? I need to know. You have, you've had like a whole change in style, which I love both versions. Oh, we got a credit.

• 1:20:56Speaker 02

  Because that man right there loves me well, you know? I just never felt sexy. I was a preacher, you know, I was, I was, and you know, I try to preach soft girl. People say, how many cigarettes have you smoked today?

• 1:21:08Bunnie XO?

  I love your voice.

• 1:21:09Speaker 02

  Because I'm like, ah. I get called trans, I get called Caitlyn Jenner all the time. Like, is that Caitlyn Jenner?

• 1:21:15Bunnie XO?

  People ask me, listen, that's a compliment. People ask me if I'm trans too. I think that's the new thing that they do. Whenever women are good looking. It's because, no, it's because trans women are beautiful now. It's like, they're so beautiful. So it's like, you know what? If you want to call us that, that's fine.

• 1:21:29Speaker 02

  I can't believe I had thought of that. It's because I'm, I'm gonna say that next time.

• 1:21:32Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, I'm telling you.

• 1:21:33Speaker 02

  I'm a little sassy out there. I think somebody called me Chloe the other day and I was like, well, praise God, I've graduated from Caitlyn. You know, I'm Chloe today.

• 1:21:41Bunnie XO?

  Beautiful, you are beautiful. But I remember I had seen you before when you were the blonde with the tutus and the glasses and stuff like that. And then when I saw you again, I was like, wait, wait, wait. Is this the same person? I had to go Google because I was like, this can't be the same person. But it was the same voice.

• 1:21:58Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 1:21:58Bunnie XO?

  So I was like, this is her. And I was like, oh my gosh, she's had like a total, I don't like using the word glow up because I feel like everybody is where they want to be at that point in their life. But I was like, she's had a total transformation as far as she looks, you know?

• 1:22:10Speaker 02

  I think this is what healing looks like.

• 1:22:12Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:22:12Speaker 02

  Because I think we do such a bad job in Christianity.

• 1:22:16Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:22:16Speaker 02

  Because I don't believe that you can be a healed person and be an ugly Christian.

• 1:22:22Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:22:23Speaker 02

  You know what I'm saying?

• 1:22:23Bunnie XO?

  Amen, yes.

• 1:22:24Speaker 02

  I don't believe that you can be, the waiter's having a bad day and you're like sending your food back with one bite left.

• 1:22:31Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:22:31Speaker 02

  And I, I just, I just feel like this is what healing looks like. It made me

• 1:22:36Bunnie XO?

  Softer.

• 1:22:37Speaker 02

  Softer. I don't feel like I have anything to prove. Like I can come sit on Bunny's podcast and be 100% authentic and not be afraid of nothing because I know for a fact God's got my back.

• 1:22:52Bunnie XO?

  Absolutely.

• 1:22:53Speaker 02

  It's healed. Like I know I'm worth fighting for. I know that if the heavens split open tonight and I get before the Lord, I'm gonna hear, well done, my good and faithful sir.

• 1:23:04Bunnie XO?

  Yes.

• 1:23:04Speaker 02

  Because I love his kids well. Was I perfect? No, but that I love his kids and I think that's what matters damn more than anything.

• 1:23:12Bunnie XO?

  Absolutely, leading with love.

• 1:23:13Speaker 02

  I think I healed.

• 1:23:14Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:23:15Speaker 02

  And I think this is healing.

• 1:23:16Bunnie XO?

  I love it. You look good, mama. I'm, I'm so excited for you.

• 1:23:19Speaker 02

  And it's so funny because I don't look anything like, like people will literally, because I have such a different following now.

• 1:23:26Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, diverse, for sure.

• 1:23:27Speaker 02

  When I had the tutu.

• 1:23:28Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:23:28Speaker 02

  You know, they don't even remember, nobody even knows me in the tutu.

• 1:23:31Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:23:31Speaker 02

  Because my whole following's changed so much.

• 1:23:33Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:23:33Speaker 02

  Because my preaching's changed.

• 1:23:34Bunnie XO?

  How it goes in waves. So take me on your first sermon and I'm, I'm really curious about this because we have so many people that want me to start going and speaking at places. And I am knock kneed. Like I, sit me behind a microphone and one on one with you, I'm completely fine. But getting in front of people and like, how do you, how do you do it? Like, how, how did it feel to you to do that?

• 1:23:57Speaker 02

  I'm just one of those people that just does stuff.

• 1:24:00Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, I, I know, Miss Interior Designer.

• 1:24:04Speaker 02

  You know, I'll be, I'm nervous all the time.

• 1:24:07Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:24:07Speaker 02

  Because I need Jesus. I, I just, I just always like, God, I, God, I can't believe you, you've allowed me to be here. But for me, it was, I remember I was about to do a conference. So, so listen, let me, let me tell you how I got here. So I was coming out, walking through forgiveness. God told me I had to get up and walk away from that victim mentality that I was walking in, feeling sorry for myself.

• 1:24:29Bunnie XO?

  Which I think is huge. That's a huge point to pick out because a lot of people don't like to, to say that they have, they were victimizing themselves. And I don't think you can truly start growing as a human until you own the fact that you are a perpetual victim.

• 1:24:44Speaker 02

  Because even if you didn't do, even if the pain you are feeling isn't your fault, the healing still is your responsibility.

• 1:24:52Bunnie XO?

  Is your responsibility, yes, ma'am.

• 1:24:53Speaker 02

  And you can't heal, I mean, we, we chose these people, so what was that? You know, so we did have a part to play in it. We stayed way longer than we should have. What was that? And so I, I had to get there and realize that, you know, I mean, girl, I'm the queen of laying hands on myself. I'd be like, come out, I will, I feel, I will lay hands on my

• 1:25:12Bunnie XO?

  I would pay to see that. I would love to be around for one of those.

• 1:25:15Speaker 02

  My mouth will get sassy, I'll be like, uh, uh, come out, come out. But I remember I was, it was when Facebook had a quiz and it was 25 things about me. And that's when we, everybody was going around telling about it. And I remember it was right in the beginning of my healing, I was probably 38. And I remember that the number one was, uh, what's your favorite color? And I couldn't even tell you what my favorite color was. I was so broken. I mean, at this point I was coming out, you know, but I was still like, man, I don't even feel worthy of God's love. I don't feel worthy of a man's love. I don't feel, I've embarrassed my mother, my sons. And number six was, uh, number, number two was, what's your favorite food? And I remember laying there that night crying so hard.

• 1:25:59Speaker 02

  And I was like, God, I don't even know who I am anymore. Because you lose yourself trying to get people to love you that were never supposed to love you. And you're, you're just attracted to what you were and not what you wanted. And I was laying in that bed and I said, God, I need to know 25 things about me.

• 1:26:17Speaker 02

  That's good.

• 1:26:19Speaker 02

  And seven days later, it was Mother's Day and Lincoln Presley, my youngest, he's 29 now. He walks up and hands me a poem that he's made that looks like a little girl with the dress. So feminine and she had like a little tutu looking dress on. And she was so girly and I just did not feel, I didn't feel soft. I didn't feel, you know? And the poem was 35 things that I love about you.

• 1:26:50Speaker 02

  And I remember reading those, it wasn't even 25. It was 35 things that I love about you, mama. And number one said, I love you because you're the loudest one at my basketball games. That boy used to tell me, Bunny, every time we'd be going to a game, he'd tell me, mother, if you're loud, I'm never telling you again because you embarrass me. Because you're the loudest one here.

• 1:27:14Bunnie XO?

  But he secretly loved it.

• 1:27:16Speaker 02

  Then he gonna come tell me all these years later that I love you because you were the loudest one at my basketball games. It made me feel so loved. See, mamas don't listen to them. And then number six was, I love you because you conquered hell in high heels. And man, girl, I cried like a baby and healed. So many, so many layers came off me. So then I got invited to go preach and it was a cogit church. And

• 1:27:43Bunnie XO?

  What kind of church is that?

• 1:27:44Speaker 02

  Like, like, like it's, it's, it's where they, they yell.

• 1:27:49Bunnie XO?

  Oh, yeah. Get the rattlesnakes out and stuff?

• 1:27:52Speaker 02

  All you gotta do is just say, amen. And everybody's like, oh. Right? Like you don't gotta have a whole lot of anointing.

• 1:27:58Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:27:58Speaker 02

  Like you just gotta walk up in there like you feel it.

• 1:28:03Bunnie XO?

  Right, right.

• 1:28:04Speaker 02

  And, and so I was standing in front of the mirror, I'd be like, and God, and he said, trying to learn how to hoop because I'd already seen all the people this weekend. They were all gonna hoop. They were all gonna lay hands on everybody in the whole place. And they had asked me to come preach off of a video in a car. And so I remember laying in my bed, I was like, oh my God. I was, I didn't practice hooping. I didn't practice, uh, uh, dancing. That left leg wasn't gonna move, so we knew that wasn't gonna work. This one would move, but that one wouldn't move, you know? So that shouting was discombobulated. And so I'm laying in my bed and all of a sudden I remember that poem that Lincoln had made me and how that made me feel. And I was like, oh, a tutu.

• 1:28:48Speaker 02

  Girl, I don't know where that came from because my body was not built for a tutu. Okay, I was probably 178 pounds, like 199 pounds at that moment, at that time. I've ordered me a tutu and go to this conference with a tutu, black tutu on. Because, because I was scared of these people and I knew that if I come in as something, that they're not gonna judge my preaching because I'm gonna already take them away.

• 1:29:17Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:29:17Speaker 02

  They're just gonna be like, whoa, look what she's walked in. So I put me some combat boots on, I had a black tutu. And it was all because I was scared to death to preach. Did not even know what I was going, scared, couldn't, had not heard from God yet. Like I'd been begging God to tell me what I was supposed to preach.

• 1:29:37Bunnie XO?

  He left you hanging.

• 1:29:39Speaker 02

  And so I had a, I remember like it was yesterday, I had on a black T-shirt with Ron Syls and Cochran Helen Ieles. Girl, when I walked in that place, it was like the Holy Spirit took over. Like when I tell you, it was, I preached a sermon that night called From Stars to, From Scars to Stars, or something like that.

• 1:30:02Bunnie XO?

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• 1:32:12Bunnie XO?

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• 1:32:16Speaker 02

  Those women, I never had to lay hands on one person, which I was scared to death to do. I never had to lay hands on one person. I didn't even get to my, to the sermon. I got up there and just started talking, just flowing about, God was just putting stuff in me about brokenness and healing and how much she loves your daughter and all this stuff. But I tell you, that place was, everyone was just laid out weeping. And so from then I thought, well, that was the tutu. It was the tutu.

• 1:32:51Bunnie XO?

  The tutu. Won them over.

• 1:32:53Speaker 02

  And that was it. When I walked in, it just, it just won them over. And so then I just started wearing tutus, and I became like that little tutu preacher.

• 1:33:01Bunnie XO?

  It was like your little uniform.

• 1:33:02Speaker 02

  Yeah. It was my uniform.

• 1:33:04Bunnie XO?

  But it set you apart from everybody.

• 1:33:06Speaker 02

  Well, it set me apart, and they didn't have a whole lot of expectations. You know, like it was like, she's coming in in tutu, but we love who this is. And I was allowed to say things like they were, because, you know, at that point, Twitter had already given me the name Real Talk Kim.

• 1:33:23Bunnie XO?

  Oh, was that how you got your name? Was it from Twitter?

• 1:33:27Speaker 02

  My name was taken. And they said, Real Talk Kim, and I was like, yeah, I like that.

• 1:33:33Bunnie XO?

  I love that.

• 1:33:34Speaker 02

  And so TikTok gave me the name, and then probably, I mean Twitter. Then a year into me preaching, I got contacted to go on Oxygen and be Preachers of Atlanta because of my tutu.

• 1:33:49Bunnie XO?

  I love that.

• 1:33:51Speaker 02

  So I don't, I sort of to this day can't tell you really where that whole look, I mean, I shaved my head off. I would shave my head with my razor that I was cutting my legs with, you know? And then I'd take lipstick and put it in my hair.

• 1:34:06Bunnie XO?

  Are you a natural blonde?

• 1:34:08Speaker 02

  I am white now.

• 1:34:10Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, just gray.

• 1:34:11Speaker 02

  Cause you're not 53.

• 1:34:12Bunnie XO?

  But naturally, are you a blonde? Yeah, yeah, yeah.

• 1:34:15Speaker 02

  And so I, you know, would bleach my own hair, then I'd put all that color in it. But it was like, that, that became a huge awakening for me, because I learned how to preach in that season. But that tutu took me, it sounds so cliche, I guess, but it was almost like I could, I felt like she was worthy of being there.

• 1:34:39Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:34:40Speaker 02

  Cause miracles took place when she walked in.

• 1:34:42Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, that she was, she served you for that season of your life. That's who you were.

• 1:34:47Speaker 02

  We're talking about her like she's real.

• 1:34:48Bunnie XO?

  I mean, she is, she's sitting in front of me right now. It's just a different version.

• 1:34:52Speaker 02

  I was that way for 15 years.

• 1:34:53Bunnie XO?

  Yeah. I mean, that's a lifetime. You guys, you know, she got you started in this, and you made a name for yourself while wearing that tutu.

• 1:35:02Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 1:35:03Bunnie XO?

  So take me on, you ended up getting married again.

• 1:35:06Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 1:35:07Bunnie XO?

  That was your third marriage, correct?

• 1:35:08Speaker 02

  I did that before all of this.

• 1:35:09Bunnie XO?

  All of this.

• 1:35:10Speaker 02

  So I was still living with my mom and dad.

• 1:35:12Bunnie XO?

  We're getting to Angelo, that's why we're, we're getting, we're going down the, yes, we're getting to the, we save the best for last.

• 1:35:18Speaker 02

  The best for last.

• 1:35:21Bunnie XO?

  So the third one ended up DMing you.

• 1:35:23Speaker 02

  Okay, so I was living at my mom's, you know me. I was living at my mom's trying to get out. I was still in the parking lot drinking, partying, and, but I'm coming to Jesus. I'd already had the experience with the moment with him where we were like, God, I need to forgive. So I was really starting to preach. I haven't preached yet in a church, but I was singing now. And this man slips into my DMs, and he's 15 years older, and all I thought was, this man's gonna get me out of Belk, he's gonna get me out of Bloomingdale's, he's gonna get me out of my mama's house.

• 1:35:58Bunnie XO?

  Cause you still had that thought of, a man's gonna save you.

• 1:36:02Speaker 02

  I was never gonna preach. Like, that wasn't even an option. And now I'm at, you know, I didn't even have the confidence to go start an interior design company.

• 1:36:10Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:36:11Speaker 02

  So I'm stuck, so I gotta marry somebody with money. And so I met him through Facebook and married him after meeting him twice.

• 1:36:19Bunnie XO?

  It wasn't Facebook Marketplace, was it?

• 1:36:21Speaker 02

  No.

• 1:36:22Bunnie XO?

  Okay, good.

• 1:36:23Speaker 02

  Can you believe I did that? You should have been. It could have been, actually.

• 1:36:26Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:36:27Speaker 02

  But he slipped in my DMs, and I married him, and it was hell. And that is when the windows of heaven opened over my life. And I would still be married to him, you know?

• 1:36:40Bunnie XO?

  Cause you try to make things work.

• 1:36:41Speaker 02

  Oh, yeah, and ministry took off, and...

• 1:36:45Bunnie XO?

  Was he a Christian too?

• 1:36:46Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 1:36:48Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:36:49Speaker 02

  Just didn't walk it. He was the devil. It was like I married Satan and had to pretend I was happy. Liar, the biggest liar. I would look down in church, and he'd be sitting there with his hands up in the air with tears rolling down his face. And I was like, when you get home, you gonna be the biggest devil on the planet.

• 1:37:10Bunnie XO?

  Was he abusive?

• 1:37:11Speaker 02

  Oh, no, but he was just mean as a snake.

• 1:37:14Bunnie XO?

  I mean, that's just his worst. Verbal abuse, I'd rather take a punch to the face than emotional and verbal abuse.

• 1:37:20Speaker 02

  And, and because God started taking me off, he would, he would literally, when I would get done preaching, I was like, that was the stupidest sermon. You don't know the word. People, people, they don't know who you are. And then he would talk about me behind my back to staff, to, I mean, like the horns came out of my mouth.

• 1:37:42Bunnie XO?

  You literally were sleeping with the enemy.

• 1:37:44Speaker 02

  Absolutely.

• 1:37:45Bunnie XO?

  That's crazy.

• 1:37:46Speaker 02

  So God, God caught him. I mean, I'd been married to him for eight years. We were living completely different lives. I was on Preachers of Atlanta, and I think he was on like one show. He made everything hell for me. I think that was my last test, you know? Cause I kept it together. I, I, I was, I was at the feet of Jesus a lot, and I was not allowing that man to steal what God had given me. And so I fought like the last one, last elephant on the ark.

• 1:38:20Bunnie XO?

  That was the devil trying to take you down and just knock you off track again.

• 1:38:23Speaker 02

  Because he was so horrible.

• 1:38:27Bunnie XO?

  How did you guys end up splitting?

• 1:38:29Speaker 02

  Well, I was preaching in, in Biloxi, Mississippi, and so when I met him, I wasn't preaching. I didn't start preaching for two years after I met him. I was working at Belk and Bloomingdale's, in the process of that. And those videos started taking off, and then I started preaching. So when I met him, I was not already, when I'm married again, I wasn't in ministry. So I was preaching in Biloxi, Mississippi, and it sounds like I'm making it okay. For a while, I got married again, I had to give you all the details.

• 1:38:59Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, no, no, no, you're painting a picture.

• 1:39:01Speaker 02

  So I'm in Biloxi, Mississippi, and some of my pastor friends called, and were like, Kim, we are so sorry. And I'm like, for what? They were like, you haven't been on social media? I'm like, no. They said, well, your husband has been caught, and he is a cheater. I about fell over. This man acted like, I mean, though we didn't have nothing, he still acted like enamored with me, you know? Like, he would never, he loved the life I'd given him at that point. I was like, this old man? There's no way.

• 1:39:41Bunnie XO?

  I saw a video of him, he was bald.

• 1:39:42Speaker 02

  He was totally, what was it?

• 1:39:44Bunnie XO?

  And old, like what, I didn't even understand, all right? You were doing charity work, Kim. I almost fell out of my bed last night when I saw a video of him, I was like, what?

• 1:39:54Speaker 02

  I don't even tell people, nobody can even find him.

• 1:39:57Bunnie XO?

  I knew it was a low point in life for you, okay? Just by the man that you had beside you.

• 1:40:01Speaker 02

  All trying to get out of my mom and dad's house. Every time I even try to talk about Angelo's exes, he's like, oh.

• 1:40:09Speaker 02

  You can't say nothing to me.

• 1:40:12Bunnie XO?

  Angelo, I have your back on that one because I was like, wait, what? When I saw this guy's shiny bald head sitting next to you.

• 1:40:19Speaker 02

  Horrible.

• 1:40:20Bunnie XO?

  I mean, grandpa.

• 1:40:21Speaker 02

  And he was horrible.

• 1:40:22Bunnie XO?

  I mean, he was grandpa.

• 1:40:23Speaker 02

  Like, okay, if he'd been nice.

• 1:40:25Bunnie XO?

  Gramps.

• 1:40:26Speaker 02

  You know, if he was take, if he was, he was gramps.

• 1:40:29Bunnie XO?

  It was gramps.

• 1:40:29Speaker 02

  And he was not even a good grandpa.

• 1:40:31Bunnie XO?

  I mean, and to be mean to you, like, come on, dude. Like, that's just.

• 1:40:34Speaker 02

  He hated me.

• 1:40:35Bunnie XO?

  Pick a struggle.

• 1:40:36Speaker 02

  He hated me. Like, I'm like, dude, you hate me.

• 1:40:40Bunnie XO?

  He was jealous of you.

• 1:40:41Speaker 02

  Oh, yeah.

• 1:40:41Bunnie XO?

  He was jealous of your light. Your angels disturbed his demons.

• 1:40:44Speaker 02

  You're, you know how people, that's exactly right. Do you know, do you know how people bring us gifts? Because they love us. He would come in and throw those gifts. They don't know who you are. They'd come and take pictures of me out in public. He'd be like, we cannot take pictures out in public. Well, this man got busted. He was taking my jewelry to these women. He was, he was.

• 1:41:07Bunnie XO?

  God, who? Who is fucking hooking up with that?

• 1:41:11Speaker 02

  My followers.

• 1:41:12Bunnie XO?

  Gosh.

• 1:41:13Speaker 02

  It was my followers.

• 1:41:14Bunnie XO?

  It's because it wasn't for him. It was for you because some women have a thing where they want to be with the man that the woman that they look up to is with. It's really, it's a weird, sick dynamic that parasocial relationships have.

• 1:41:29Speaker 02

  Well, her family found out and they were like, you're doing what? With Real Talk Kim? Because you know, I'm kind of, I come across like, you know, back then I was like baffled. I'm healed from that.

• 1:41:40Bunnie XO?

  She's still in there, though.

• 1:41:41Speaker 02

  Yeah, I mean, he's so in there. Like, I'll fight for people like I did for her.

• 1:41:45Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:41:46Speaker 02

  But I went online and all these people, he was standing there in a picture like this. And he had his hands crossed and people were like, does anybody know whose husband this is? They know whose husband.

• 1:41:59Bunnie XO?

  They put up in one of those groups, huh?

• 1:42:01Speaker 02

  Yes.

• 1:42:02Bunnie XO?

  Oh, shit.

• 1:42:02Speaker 02

  He was on, we were, he was on all the blogs. And so they said, does anybody know whose husband? Everybody knew, I'm sure they knew it was Real Talk Kim's. But they were trying to probably protect me too. Because they were, I mean, for the most part, people were pretty kind to me. And that boy had cheated on me and that woman's family had found out. And come to find out, he'd been married more than I knew.

• 1:42:28Bunnie XO?

  No.

• 1:42:29Speaker 02

  And all of his exes were reaching out to me. He said, yes, finally, Real Talk Kim's gonna take him down.

• 1:42:36Bunnie XO?

  You're like, why, where were you guys at when we were married? Like, why didn't you guys warn me then?

• 1:42:41Speaker 02

  They did.

• 1:42:42Bunnie XO?

  Oh, okay, all right.

• 1:42:43Speaker 02

  Oh, girl, they, they, they reached out to me on Facebook. They were like, run, don't be with this man. He is, he is a devil. And Mimi was like, well, what's gonna happen if he's like that? I'm like, well, just get divorced. I wasn't in ministry. I'm just gonna keep taking my chances till I find this, this healer that's just gonna come in and take care of me. And by this time, my dad's got dementia.

• 1:43:05Bunnie XO?

  No.

• 1:43:05Speaker 02

  You know, so it was like I, I, he was like my savior.

• 1:43:10Speaker 02

  He got busted and, girl, I went by that church, threw that phone down on that sofa. I come back from Biloxi, went straight to that church. And I remember he laid his head down on that desk and said, I knew I was gonna get caught.

• 1:43:28Bunnie XO?

  No.

• 1:43:29Speaker 02

  And I was like, it is over.

• 1:43:30Bunnie XO?

  I love that you had enough strength, though, to walk away. And you were just like, you know what? No, you're not gonna do this anymore. So take me on that journey after you kick gramps to the curb.

• 1:43:39Speaker 02

  Well, I started, you know, in this process too, I wrote books. I wrote seven books.

• 1:43:43Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:43:43Speaker 02

  And so there, I wrote one last, I wrote, uh, uh, the, the one book was, uh, Shut Hell Up. And that, that year I released that. And I think that's what gave me the, the courage, girl, was I get sick of people staying in these marriages with these people because God hates divorce.

• 1:44:06Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:44:06Speaker 02

  But God loves the divorcee.

• 1:44:08Bunnie XO?

  Isn't there a thing in the Bible, though, that says that when a man is unfaithful to a woman that

• 1:44:12Speaker 02

  Yes.

• 1:44:13Bunnie XO?

  he wants you to leave?

• 1:44:15Speaker 02

  Yes.

• 1:44:16Bunnie XO?

  Okay.

• 1:44:16Speaker 02

  But who cares? Like, even if you're in a marriage and I, I get strong for this.

• 1:44:21Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:44:21Speaker 02

  I get dragged.

• 1:44:22Bunnie XO?

  Unhappiness.

• 1:44:23Speaker 02

  But God doesn't expect you to stay in a relationship where y'all are killing each other.

• 1:44:28Bunnie XO?

  Right, exactly.

• 1:44:29Speaker 02

  And I think so many of us do that. Why would I stay in a relationship with this man that was not nice to me? You know, pretending that everything was so great and hating my life because I was afraid I was gonna lose my ministry if we got divorced because that was gonna be third.

• 1:44:46Bunnie XO?

  And how could you preach to your full potential when you're literally being

• 1:44:49Speaker 02

  I did it.

• 1:44:50Bunnie XO?

  drugged down at home?

• 1:44:51Speaker 02

  Girl, I remember during the pandemic, it was right when the pandemic had started and, and, and I started Live at Nines. And I did Live at Nines because he had been busted and he wouldn't get out of my house. And he said, I'm not getting out of, out of that house unless you give me X, Y, Z. And I was like, over my dead body. I was like.

• 1:45:10Bunnie XO?

  Oh, he sounds like a real peach, this guy.

• 1:45:13Speaker 02

  He was filling his truck up when I was traveling and, I mean, it was bad. And it was, the devil was really trying to make me hate.

• 1:45:21Bunnie XO?

  Trying to break you down.

• 1:45:22Speaker 02

  Because I could ruin some people.

• 1:45:23Bunnie XO?

  Because you were doing the Lord's work.

• 1:45:25Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 1:45:25Bunnie XO?

  So he was coming at you with daggers from every angle.

• 1:45:28Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 1:45:28Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:45:29Speaker 02

  And I wrote that book, Shut Hell Up. And, uh, I started doing Live at Nines and you could hear in the back him slamming cabinets and stuff. And then getting up in church and worshiping and stuff. You know what that was too? That was a trigger from what I'd been raised in. So it was like right before my major push got to us, another phariseal fake phony in my house. And it was like, I had a last encounter of, Kim, you gotta get all that junk off of you. Like, you, you, you gotta fall head over heels and stop trying to handle things with your mouth. Because I remember I wrote that book, started doing Live at Nines and, um, and I did a sermon called Morning Move.

• 1:46:12Speaker 02

  And that Morning Move is what caused me to really find that I can preach. It don't matter what I've walked through. I'm gonna, I'm gonna walk through this, lost my daddy, three months later to dementia. I'd, I'd already taken over the church three years before that. So my dad had been, you know, a part of the, like, he got to see.

• 1:46:34Bunnie XO?

  The transition.

• 1:46:35Speaker 02

  He got to, he was my biggest, my biggest cheerleader.

• 1:46:37Bunnie XO?

  Oh.

• 1:46:38Speaker 02

  And so I had full redemption on all, all areas. But I, I had written my sixth book, which was so huge for me because I was in special ed my whole life. And literally on a short bus, and it was like that sixth book, Shut Hell Up, was me finally speaking out of my mouth. Never again will we allow those triggers. Never again, because in the book I had to break down, what are triggers? Why do we keep falling in love with the same people with different faces? Why do we stay in situations because we're afraid of people in a free app? Why do we, and so I was breaking all this down and I was walking through breaking soul ties, breaking generational curses.

• 1:47:22Speaker 02

  So I was walking through it as well.

• 1:47:24Bunnie XO?

  Yes.

• 1:47:25Speaker 02

  And in that process, our church just began to explode. I was so fulfilled. My daddy died. I whipped my mama up, my little 72-year-old mama that had never lived. She had literally for the last five years taken care of my dad, like, was a little boy. Had no, I mean, he would run away and we'd have to go find him. That's how, how, how bad he was. And I, I, I saw my mom go into the grief and I just whipped her up, took her on the road with me, um, watched her evolve. I watched her write a book at 72, Sleeping With A Stranger. I watched her glow up.

• 1:48:10Speaker 02

  Me and her both started glowing up.

• 1:48:12Bunnie XO?

  Ah, you're going up with your mama.

• 1:48:13Speaker 02

  I sold my house.

• 1:48:15Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:48:16Speaker 02

  That I was living in, in Fayetteville, the first house that I'd ever lived alone. Like, I'd always lived with a man and, uh, my husband's. And I lived there for five years by myself.

• 1:48:27Bunnie XO?

  Look at you.

• 1:48:27Speaker 02

  And I just took, took, took hold of my life and never looked back.

• 1:48:32Bunnie XO?

  You fell in love with yourself. You fell in love with yourself and you started a relationship with yourself. And you started discovering who you were so that now that you enter into this relationship, you can be a whole.

• 1:48:45Speaker 02

  Yeah. I remember selling my house and it was such a scary thing for me because I'm doing all these things women couldn't do for the, for the Christianity. And, uh, I told God, I was like, man, I just wanna, I feel like I wanna move downtown and live in a high rise. But why? There's nobody down there. My church is five minutes away. And I said, God, if this is you. Because I'm, I'm, I'm now for Jesus like I was in the world, you know? Like, we're doing this doggone thing. Like, I ain't scared. I'll start a building tomorrow. I'll start a business, you know? But it's all for good now. And I said, God, if it's your will for me to sell this house, you'll sell it in seven days. And I wanna make $250,000, all my money back that man got.

• 1:49:30Speaker 02

  Girl, with the first 17 people, that was 17 people, walked in that house and they all put bids on my house.

• 1:49:37Bunnie XO?

  Wow.

• 1:49:38Speaker 02

  And I walked out of there with more than I'd asked for. And then I had to go downtown and find this house. And I told God exactly what I wanted. I found the exact condo and five minutes down the road is where I met my husband. I would've never met him if I wouldn't have moved down.

• 1:49:53Bunnie XO?

  Can we bring Angelo in? I know you guys don't do a lot of podcast. Get over here. We got a microphone for you too. You have to come over.

• 1:50:01Speaker 02

  Hey, y'all, y'all hear me? Do y'all hear me talking about him in church house slowly? Y'all get to witness it.

• 1:50:06Bunnie XO?

  That's how my best friend Monica is. She takes forever to get out of the car. I'm like, I started countdown every time I get out of the car and I'm already at the door and I'm like, all right, Mo, you know, like, let's go.

• 1:50:15Speaker 02

  I love it. Because, because.

• 1:50:17Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, come on down. We gotta put a face.

• 1:50:20Speaker 02

  Sit as close as you can.

• 1:50:21Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, we gotta put a face with the name. Oh, yeah, he's over here snoring. He's over here snoring.

• 1:50:32Speaker 04

  Oh, put me to sleep.

• 1:50:33Speaker 02

  You know what? I think that, that what you and I are experiencing with the freedom of just living life and being able to do all these great things.

• 1:50:43Bunnie XO?

  Thank you.

• 1:50:44Speaker 02

  You know, is that y'all have, y'all, y'all minister and don't even know it, but now I know why. Like, it totally makes sense to me. Makes me wanna read your book even more.

• 1:50:55Bunnie XO?

  Oh, I appreciate that. I downloaded your book last night. I haven't, um, I forget what you're doing.

• 1:51:00Speaker 02

  I got you a whole bag coming.

• 1:51:02Bunnie XO?

  Oh, you do?

• 1:51:03Speaker 02

  I got you Bible baddie.

• 1:51:04Bunnie XO?

  Yay.

• 1:51:05Speaker 02

  I've got you God's girl. Everything from my store is coming.

• 1:51:08Bunnie XO?

  I love it. Oh, my gosh. Thank you so much. We'll get you some merch, too. We're about to drop merch as soon as I'm done with this podcast.

• 1:51:13Speaker 02

  When is your book?

• 1:51:14Bunnie XO?

  Uh, my book comes out February seventeenth now. We pushed it to February seventeenth with twenty twenty-six, and we're doing a whole book tour. Like, it's, it's gonna be fun. It's gonna be.

• 1:51:23Speaker 02

  I love it.

• 1:51:24Bunnie XO?

  Angelo.

• 1:51:25Speaker 02

  This is my sweet Angelo.

• 1:51:26Bunnie XO?

  Welcome to the show.

• 1:51:28Speaker 02

  I love this man. So I met him at, at, right down the street.

• 1:51:34Speaker 04

  Let's just say I replace all three of them.

• 1:51:36Bunnie XO?

  Yo, listen, when you walked in the room, I felt the alpha male energy. I was like, oh, this is Big Papa. Big Papa just walked in. He's got his Louis Vuitton suit on. Like, you guys are just a stylish little couple. I love this so much. So you guys met. Tell me all about this.

• 1:51:54Speaker 02

  So, so I went out to eat on a Sunday night.

• 1:51:57Bunnie XO?

  I love that he's kind of shy.

• 1:52:00Speaker 04

  Well, it's different from being at home on our podcast, cause I kinda take over, so I don't wanna just take over since we here.

• 1:52:06Bunnie XO?

  Oh, gotcha. I mean, please take over. We wanna hear you talk, too.

• 1:52:09Speaker 02

  He is shy.

• 1:52:11Bunnie XO?

  I see him rubbing his knee over there. He's a little shy.

• 1:52:14Speaker 02

  I'm really proud of him because he's come in my world and he's killing it, you know?

• 1:52:19Speaker 04

  I mean, it's kinda like, you know, you, you know, you like this guy and you're a guy that's coming from the neighborhood, and we talking on a podcast. My friends talk on podcasts, they talking sports.

• 1:52:32Speaker 02

  But you've had to learn about Jesus.

• 1:52:34Bunnie XO?

  Where are you, where are you from, Angelo? Where are you from? Like, what's your background?

• 1:52:38Speaker 04

  Florida.

• 1:52:38Bunnie XO?

  Okay.

• 1:52:39Speaker 04

  Yeah. So, um, they say it's kinda, it's kinda was different. And I was just watching her on this podcast. And I was like, and I'll see her, I see them talking, her mom and stuff. And, and I came out really kinda in a jumpsuit, all white. I said, I'm ready. You just put me in here. She said, come sit down. I said, you sure? She said, yeah. I said, well, make sure they don't see my socks.

• 1:53:01Bunnie XO?

  Oh, we can't see your socks here either. But they are nice socks.

• 1:53:05Speaker 02

  And that just broke him in.

• 1:53:06Speaker 04

  And the first thing I saw when I go and look at the podcast.

• 1:53:09Speaker 02

  Was your socks?

• 1:53:10Speaker 04

  It's my socks.

• 1:53:10Bunnie XO?

  Oh, no, they didn't zoom in. I can promise you, no socks in this podcast.

• 1:53:16Speaker 04

  But I'm fresh to death now. You can show me from all the way.

• 1:53:21Speaker 04

  I'm fresh to death right now. I mean, it's different.

• 1:53:24Bunnie XO?

  I love it. I love it.

• 1:53:25Speaker 02

  I'm just so thankful, man, that I get to, to get to love like this in my fifties.

• 1:53:30Bunnie XO?

  I've gotten to hear her, how she feels about you. I wanna hear what it was like for you when you first met her.

• 1:53:39Speaker 04

  When she, we met outside of the garden area, the Saint Regent's. And she was eating with her, her brother and his wife. And I heard the voice all the way over here with some guys and us. Let me make a detour, the bathroom behind me. I'm gonna go back this way where I can see what she looked like, cause I hear the voice and.

• 1:54:03Bunnie XO?

  Were you, were you attracted to the voice?

• 1:54:05Speaker 04

  Yes, I was.

• 1:54:06Bunnie XO?

  I love that.

• 1:54:07Speaker 04

  I was attracted to the voice and stuff. It wasn't like Phyllis Dillis or nothing like this. It wasn't that loud, you know?

• 1:54:13Bunnie XO?

  Right, right, right.

• 1:54:15Speaker 02

  He said, oh, I was a little crazy, man.

• 1:54:17Speaker 04

  But I heard, I heard the voice. I said, let me kinda go over here and, okay. And she got this big patch of, of Gucci jacket on and stuff.

• 1:54:28Speaker 02

  I made these, you know, I just, this is like mine. So I had a Gucci jacket.

• 1:54:32Speaker 04

  She had a whole Gucci sweatsuit. Yeah, okay. Okay, little white girl got a little fresh on. Got a little style. You know, I'm in, I'm in the ATL. Like, you know, we, we see, we see what swag look like.

• 1:54:46Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, yeah, yeah. No, you guys are swagged out out there.

• 1:54:47Speaker 04

  Yeah, we see it. So, and I'm hearing the voice. And I say, well, and I walk past, I'm like, okay. Hey, you know those wings, you know, those wings taste real good. I guess I was kinda like dropping my little line. It was like, it was weak and stuff.

• 1:55:00Speaker 02

  It was weak.

• 1:55:00Bunnie XO?

  I love that, though. No, I didn't think that was weak at all. Like, at least.

• 1:55:03Speaker 02

  It was weak.

• 1:55:04Bunnie XO?

  No. It worked. It worked.

• 1:55:08Speaker 04

  But I'm here, I'm here, cause her brother, her brother's here. And I just say, okay. And I just went to the bathroom. And I came back and, you know, she was like, yeah, they are good. And I'm like, okay. Um, three months later, now we back at the same place. Friend of mine asked me, hey, you wanna hang out? Like, okay, well, yeah, I'm thinking about it. And it was about two hours. He's, man, this guy don't stood me up. I'm going on my own now. And I meet him there. And I'm looking at the corner of my eyes. And I'm sitting there, I'm sitting here by this fireplace. And he gets up, say, let me go ask him, see if they like the fireplace. And I'm like, he messing with these people. And I looked

• 1:55:53Speaker 04

  over the corner of my eyes. I can see her. And she turned around and looked, and all I see of her face like.

• 1:56:05Bunnie XO?

  Oh.

• 1:56:06Speaker 04

  And I could read her mind.

• 1:56:07Speaker 02

  I was so excited.

• 1:56:08Speaker 04

  I could read her mind.

• 1:56:09Bunnie XO?

  Had you thought about him after that first initial meeting?

• 1:56:12Speaker 02

  I never dated a black man in my life.

• 1:56:14Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:56:14Speaker 04

  But she, but she, but.

• 1:56:15Speaker 02

  All of a sudden, I see this black man. I'm like, yes, I thought of him.

• 1:56:18Speaker 04

  No, answer the question.

• 1:56:20Speaker 02

  Yes, I have.

• 1:56:21Bunnie XO?

  He's like, I would like to know.

• 1:56:22Speaker 02

  But I was raised, no, I was raised, though.

• 1:56:24Speaker 04

  No, was you thinking about me?

• 1:56:25Speaker 02

  And he made me think about him.

• 1:56:26Speaker 04

  Were you thinking about me? Cause I only say the wings.

• 1:56:29Speaker 02

  I just saw this.

• 1:56:30Bunnie XO?

  You guys had after the wing comment, you guys had never talked, text, nothing. You guys went separate ways.

• 1:56:36Speaker 02

  And I remember telling my brother, I said, that is a good looking man right there. Look how big he is. And I started working out. I thought, I got, if I'm gonna get somebody like him, I gotta get myself snatched.

• 1:56:49Speaker 04

  But this is a place, this is a place where, you know, it's a Friday night, people out, you, you see women all the time. You see from Atlanta housewife, whoever it is, from this people there, and you get hit on. So I'm used to that type, but I'm used to, I wasn't used to that. It was just kinda like, okay, it was like my little line, and it, it, it must be work. So I saw her face, and I'm like, okay.

• 1:57:18Speaker 02

  And then I scooted over.

• 1:57:19Bunnie XO?

  Were you still, wait, were you still in the tutus and the blonde hair?

• 1:57:22Speaker 02

  Oh, no, no, no, no, no.

• 1:57:23Bunnie XO?

  Okay.

• 1:57:24Speaker 02

  This was only three years ago.

• 1:57:25Speaker 04

  Oh, no, no, no.

• 1:57:26Bunnie XO?

  He said, no.

• 1:57:27Speaker 02

  So I retired my tutus when I took over our church.

• 1:57:29Bunnie XO?

  Okay, gotcha.

• 1:57:30Speaker 02

  And I, I'm gonna be pastor six years.

• 1:57:32Speaker 04

  She was, she was kinda like into Mrs. Brady like type, though.

• 1:57:37Bunnie XO?

  Not the Florence Hendersons.

• 1:57:39Speaker 04

  Yeah, she, she had a little bit of that going on. So I said, you know, and we started, and she's, and so, so actually, I got up, and my friend, he already on parlay over here.

• 1:57:49Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 1:57:49Speaker 04

  So I got up and I'm like, let me come over here and stuff. And she said, you can, you can sit right here.

• 1:57:56Bunnie XO?

  Kim was not shy.

• 1:57:57Speaker 02

  But I was, I was shy.

• 1:58:00Speaker 04

  Oh, no, she, she was like.

• 1:58:01Speaker 02

  But I'm gonna let him get away this time.

• 1:58:02Speaker 04

  She's like, oh, she said, you can sit right here.

• 1:58:04Bunnie XO?

  Like I would call Chachi.

• 1:58:05Speaker 04

  Yeah.

• 1:58:07Speaker 02

  Yes, Chachi.

• 1:58:08Speaker 04

  And I was like, okay. I said, and I was.

• 1:58:11Speaker 02

  And I got real, I, I was like, girl, you gotta learn how to flirt. Like, I ain't never know how to flirt in my life. But I was like, we can let him get away.

• 1:58:17Bunnie XO?

  Oh.

• 1:58:18Speaker 04

  I said, you must've got.

• 1:58:19Speaker 02

  And this ain't church.

• 1:58:20Speaker 04

  And I was asking, I say, well, I guess.

• 1:58:21Bunnie XO?

  So you couldn't hide behind the pulpit?

• 1:58:23Speaker 02

  I couldn't hide behind the pulpit.

• 1:58:24Speaker 04

  And I was like, are you, you seem like you tall. You got long legs or something? I don't know.

• 1:58:28Speaker 02

  I said, yes, I got long legs.

• 1:58:32Bunnie XO?

  I love this.

• 1:58:33Speaker 02

  And then, and then we talked, man, for four hours.

• 1:58:36Bunnie XO?

  Oh.

• 1:58:37Speaker 04

  And she, we talked, I think we, we talked, and you gave me your number. She said, put my number in your phone.

• 1:58:44Speaker 02

  And then you sent me the video.

• 1:58:45Speaker 04

  That's real talk, Kim. I said, you real proud of yourself, eh? Real talk, Kim.

• 1:58:50Speaker 02

  But I knew he'd go find me.

• 1:58:51Speaker 04

  And I, no, cause I didn't, I didn't worry about social media and stuff. I'm like, I'm the, I'm the real deal when I go outside of the social media. People that go out, people that's on social media come out, they're not the real deal.

• 1:59:02Bunnie XO?

  Angelo's an OG.

• 1:59:03Speaker 04

  Yeah.

• 1:59:04Speaker 02

  Oh, my gosh.

• 1:59:04Speaker 04

  I'm the real deal in life, person, no matter if it's, I don't care who's who that is. I'mma, I'mma fit in that room. Yeah. And I'mma be the realest one that's in there, no matter what kind of, no matter what they got going on in their life. Their bank account is gone, they not real. So I knew, so I, I didn't pay attention to social media.

• 1:59:26Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:59:26Speaker 04

  I had a business website that I was only brokering high-end cars.

• 1:59:31Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 1:59:32Speaker 04

  I didn't wanna play no games or DM. I didn't know what a DM was.

• 1:59:37Bunnie XO?

  So you didn't give them your number, you only gave them your social?

• 1:59:40Speaker 02

  I gave him my phone number, too. He, he sent me Drew Hill Beauty.

• 1:59:42Bunnie XO?

  Oh.

• 1:59:43Speaker 02

  Before I went to bed.

• 1:59:44Bunnie XO?

  Oh, look at you.

• 1:59:46Speaker 02

  And that next morning, he popped on my prayer call, and I saw him.

• 1:59:49Speaker 04

  I was like, wow.

• 1:59:49Speaker 02

  He found me. Real talk. That's why I said, real talk, Kim.

• 1:59:51Speaker 04

  Yeah, when I say, real talk, Kim.

• 1:59:53Bunnie XO?

  What did you think of when you went on social media type?

• 1:59:56Speaker 04

  I was, I got up, I was on her live. And I, and I'm like, I'm, I'm hearing people talking. And I'm like, man, well, it was the, I think I called it the next day after that. And I was like, man, this is trashy. People talking back and forth, disrespectful. And then I woke up that morning and got on the live. They were saying her nose. I said, man, I told her like that. I love your nose.

• 2:00:21Speaker 02

  Your nose is so big. It's in my nose. I like your nose.

• 2:00:25Speaker 04

  Love your nose. And I'm, and I'm giving these. So she like, thanks for the hearts. So I'm thinking like, let me give some hearts. And I didn't, I didn't know that was taking my money. I didn't know that was taking money out of my bank account.

• 2:00:37Bunnie XO?

  Oh, shit.

• 2:00:40Bunnie XO?

  He's like, give them back. Give me the hearts back.

• 2:00:42Speaker 04

  I was like, all the hearts and stuff. I'm like, filling all the hearts up and stuff. Like, a month later, I'm looking at, man, these things.

• 2:00:49Speaker 02

  That is so funny.

• 2:00:51Speaker 04

  Like, social media out of Apple. I'm like, what? I ain't bought anything, you know? And I'm like.

• 2:00:56Bunnie XO?

  I love that.

• 2:00:57Speaker 04

  I'm like, man, so I don't know if I wanna go to her church, cause these hearts are already getting expensive.

• 2:01:02Bunnie XO?

  I already put in offering. This was my offering.

• 2:01:05Speaker 04

  I'm like, now, you know, you belong, eh, from me.

• 2:01:07Speaker 02

  And then he said he told a friend about a preacher lady, man, and this man said, run. Don't you take all your money?

• 2:01:13Speaker 04

  To me, it's like me buying her a drink. I don't gave you my heart. She kinda like belonged to me. Now, you buy somebody a drink, you know, now she like belonged to me, so.

• 2:01:21Bunnie XO?

  Yeah. I love that. And so it was after that, you guys?

• 2:01:25Speaker 02

  He showed up at my church and did not tell me on Sunday. And we were packed. Our church is, God really is blessed. So you can't find places to sit.

• 2:01:34Speaker 04

  Well, she really didn't tell me she was a preacher.

• 2:01:37Speaker 02

  I did.

• 2:01:38Speaker 04

  While we was sitting.

• 2:01:39Bunnie XO?

  She said, I did.

• 2:01:40Speaker 04

  No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, back up, back up. She didn't tell me she was a preacher.

• 2:01:44Speaker 02

  Sorta.

• 2:01:45Speaker 04

  Yeah.

• 2:01:46Speaker 02

  I was like, he'll go run if he knows I'm a preacher.

• 2:01:52Speaker 04

  She just told me, uh, come to her church, you know, her church she do.

• 2:01:58Bunnie XO?

  Oh, so you thought you were showing up.

• 2:02:01Speaker 04

  Women say, come to my church.

• 2:02:01Bunnie XO?

  So you thought you guys were gonna be sitting in the pew together. You didn't know that she was gonna be the one.

• 2:02:05Speaker 04

  I've been invited to a lot of women say, come to my church. It ain't gay church. That's TD J's church. You didn't even say my dad. And someone, someone will tell you, my daddy is the preacher.

• 2:02:18Bunnie XO?

  Right, right, right.

• 2:02:19Speaker 04

  So I know I ain't going.

• 2:02:20Bunnie XO?

  Right, right.

• 2:02:21Speaker 04

  I ain't dealing with the daddy and the preacher and the church. And he's the pastor. So there's no way. So when I, so I was like, okay, yeah, I'll be there.

• 2:02:28Speaker 02

  But he did not tell me.

• 2:02:30Speaker 04

  Yeah. So I'm thinking like, she said, well, we got probably two services. I was like, I know I ain't gonna come to all three of them.

• 2:02:35Speaker 02

  Or two, I'd say, at three.

• 2:02:37Speaker 04

  Three services.

• 2:02:37Bunnie XO?

  Especially after the hearts.

• 2:02:39Speaker 04

  Oh, no.

• 2:02:39Bunnie XO?

  You're getting, you're getting limited time, honey.

• 2:02:43Speaker 04

  So it was something about, you know, um.

• 2:02:46Speaker 02

  But when you walked in, gosh.

• 2:02:48Bunnie XO?

  When you walk in and see her preaching, how does that make you feel? Are you like, oh my God?

• 2:02:53Speaker 04

  The church was packed.

• 2:02:54Bunnie XO?

  Wow.

• 2:02:55Speaker 04

  Church was packed. Walked in, they greeted me. And I, and I always tell the staff that now. I walked in, they greeted me. It was like, man, it's like this church, it seemed like I'm, it seemed like everybody had their eyes on me and stuff. And it's kind of like dark in there too. So you got to think, um, and these girls was behind me and they was like, can you sit down here? It's a one, there's some seats there. So I followed them. Okay. Well, I'm sitting next to them.

• 2:03:21Speaker 02

  And he walks up front because we'd put new seats up here because we were just trying to shove people in. I saw this man walk out, about passed out.

• 2:03:28Speaker 04

  They thought they had the best seat and then one of your staff member came.

• 2:03:31Speaker 02

  Cause I saw you. I was like, oh no, he gotta move.

• 2:03:34Speaker 04

  They came and got me like, put me over here. Like, I guess I'll see y'all the next, next week.

• 2:03:41Bunnie XO?

  I'm going to VIP.

• 2:03:42Speaker 04

  Going into VIP.

• 2:03:43Bunnie XO?

  He said, I'm going to VIP, baby.

• 2:03:44Speaker 04

  Over here to the upper room over here.

• 2:03:46Speaker 02

  Y'all, my mother reached over to me and she goes, who is that? And I said, I've, I've, I've been talking to him. I met him at, at a restaurant. And she goes, Kimberly, this is the Super Bowl Sunday of Christianity.

• 2:03:59Speaker 04

  It was Easter, yeah.

• 2:04:00Speaker 02

  Don't let him distract you.

• 2:04:03Bunnie XO?

  I love mom.

• 2:04:04Speaker 02

  Oh my gosh.

• 2:04:05Bunnie XO?

  I love mom.

• 2:04:06Speaker 02

  She was like, don't you let that man distract you. You gotta give him Jesus.

• 2:04:10Bunnie XO?

  And did you give him Jesus?

• 2:04:11Speaker 02

  Girl, I gave him Jesus. I probably preached one of my best stories, don't you think?

• 2:04:14Speaker 04

  Oh, yeah.

• 2:04:15Speaker 02

  It was like.

• 2:04:15Speaker 04

  She haven't even preached no more since then, since I was like.

• 2:04:18Speaker 02

  Are you kidding? Know what you said.

• 2:04:21Speaker 04

  No, no, no.

• 2:04:23Speaker 02

  But I tell you, this man loves, I'm like, he, he.

• 2:04:26Speaker 04

  We gotta go back dating again or something, you know?

• 2:04:29Bunnie XO?

  You gotta scare her to just pop up on her.

• 2:04:31Speaker 02

  Tell me what I preached that Sunday. Like he.

• 2:04:33Speaker 04

  Yeah, Jesus in the.

• 2:04:35Speaker 02

  Lazarus coming for her.

• 2:04:36Speaker 04

  And I just saw her and it seemed like, uh, the praise team, the drummer just got louder. Boom, boom, boom. And she had these six.

• 2:04:46Speaker 02

  I was jumping out of the.

• 2:04:46Speaker 04

  She had these six inch heels jumping out of it.

• 2:04:55Speaker 02

  You liked it, huh?

• 2:04:56Speaker 04

  Yeah.

• 2:05:01Speaker 04

  And it was, it was so crazy that me and my sister always go, go to this restaurant for Easter.

• 2:05:08Bunnie XO?

  I love that he's remembering all these like little things. Like that is really sweet.

• 2:05:12Speaker 02

  Cause I've heard this.

• 2:05:13Speaker 04

  It was, it was so crazy that me and my sister always go for Easter to this, this dinner.

• 2:05:18Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 2:05:18Speaker 04

  And I canceled at the last minute. She called. She said, we still going to dinner? I said, no, I'm gonna think I'm, I'm just gonna, I don't, I don't wanna go. So we, I ate dinner with her and her mom on Easter.

• 2:05:28Speaker 02

  And my sons.

• 2:05:29Speaker 04

  Yeah.

• 2:05:31Speaker 02

  Like, was that not crazy?

• 2:05:32Speaker 04

  Yeah.

• 2:05:32Bunnie XO?

  And you guys have been together ever since?

• 2:05:34Speaker 04

  And now my sister, you know, I don't have time for her anymore.

• 2:05:38Bunnie XO?

  You gotta just invite sister to the, to the, the part, the dinners now.

• 2:05:42Speaker 02

  So I would, listen, I remember when he started coming and, and my mother, we were, me and my mom were driving to church about a week after that. And she said, Kim, I wanna tell you something. And I said, what? She said, let this man be him. Don't you try to change this man.

• 2:05:57Bunnie XO?

  Mom loved him.

• 2:05:58Speaker 02

  Loved him. She said, don't you let nobody try to make him a preacher? Don't you make him come to your church? If he wants to come, he can't. When he wants to, he can't. But he is, you, let this man just see where it goes.

• 2:06:13Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 2:06:13Speaker 02

  And let him be. And I did. And now he's running the church. Three years later.

• 2:06:20Bunnie XO?

  Look at you. I love this. I love love and I love happy endings. And for you to be her happy ending, you must be something special.

• 2:06:27Speaker 02

  I'm just so thankful, bunny.

• 2:06:29Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 2:06:30Speaker 04

  You know.

• 2:06:30Bunnie XO?

  I'm sure he's thankful for you too.

• 2:06:32Speaker 04

  I think the thing is with, with, with any guy, uh, he wanna know what it looked like before he get into it.

• 2:06:39Bunnie XO?

  Right. Yes.

• 2:06:40Speaker 04

  And any guys that jump into any marriage, then they gonna keep jumping into a marriage. And I was thinking, when I was watching her preach, I would go watch this pastor that I always used to watch on, because this was almost like a year after COVID. And people took a while for them to start getting back going into churches. So I would watch her, uh, then I would, while I was closed out, watched it, watch her for a minute. And I always was watching how things was looking.

• 2:07:12Bunnie XO?

  Right.

• 2:07:13Speaker 04

  And now kind of, you know, you're looking on the outside. Now you're in the inside.

• 2:07:17Bunnie XO?

  Mm-hmm.

• 2:07:18Speaker 04

  So how do you?

• 2:07:19Speaker 02

  So he's fixed it all. Everything he thought needed to be fixed, he's come in and helped fix it.

• 2:07:22Bunnie XO?

  Aww.

• 2:07:23Speaker 04

  How do you wanna, how do you wanna better your church and better your community?

• 2:07:26Bunnie XO?

  That's a teammate though. That's two people that can come together. And you can always tell when a couple is good for each other because they evolve and they level up.

• 2:07:35Speaker 02

  Have to.

• 2:07:36Bunnie XO?

  You have to. That is so important in a relationship because when you stay the same, that's when.

• 2:07:41Speaker 02

  And I feel like it's rare.

• 2:07:42Bunnie XO?

  Yes, it is.

• 2:07:43Speaker 02

  I feel like people don't just let their spouses be them. It's like, you try to change them.

• 2:07:48Bunnie XO?

  No, you can't. You can't do that.

• 2:07:50Speaker 02

  You gotta grow together. And the only way they're gonna grow is that they feel freedom to do that.

• 2:07:54Bunnie XO?

  Absolutely. And you wanna be a safe space. And you, if you're nagging on, at a man constantly, or if a man is nagging you, nobody wants to be told that they're doing wrong all the time, or that they need to be somebody that they're, they're genuinely not. But when you pour love into that relationship, it just blossoms.

• 2:08:10Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 2:08:11Bunnie XO?

  Yeah. I'm excited for you guys. Look at you guys now.

• 2:08:15Speaker 02

  He told me, hey, he told me whenever we were dating, it was probably what, six, seven months? He said, you need to do something to your hair. And I was like, what do you mean? He was like, you need to get a style. And I'm like, I'm white. White people don't get styles. He says, yes, they do. And I remember one day on my prayer call, I said, y'all, wigs, what do I do? You know, cause I'm in this in, in between stage. I found out women are the ones that started wigs. White women are the ones that started wigs and extensions.

• 2:08:43Bunnie XO?

  Really? I had no idea about that.

• 2:08:46Speaker 02

  Any, anybody.

• 2:08:47Bunnie XO?

  Wow.

• 2:08:47Speaker 02

  And so I went and got me extensions.

• 2:08:49Speaker 04

  I never seen them, but.

• 2:08:50Speaker 02

  Now, and glowed up for him. And now I love it. We work out together. I didn't go to a gym till I was fifty.

• 2:08:57Bunnie XO?

  Best friends. You guys are best friends. And that's a huge, huge testament to you guys' relationship.

• 2:09:03Speaker 04

  Well, I figure we, we'll change for each other. There's cer, there's certain clothes that I probably never.

• 2:09:09Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, yeah.

• 2:09:10Speaker 04

  Yeah, I would never like to be wearing.

• 2:09:12Bunnie XO?

  I love this. I thought when he walked in, I was like, this is something I would wear with heels. Like, I think it's so cute.

• 2:09:16Speaker 04

  Yeah, I would be.

• 2:09:17Speaker 02

  I'll send you one of those.

• 2:09:18Bunnie XO?

  I love it. I'll pay you for it.

• 2:09:19Speaker 04

  I was like, no, I'm not gonna put this on, you know, cause I was still just old school with it.

• 2:09:23Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 2:09:24Speaker 04

  I was kind of like, man, let me, now, now when you start feeling it, then, you know, I kind of just, she, she'll drip some of it. Now I can drip myself.

• 2:09:32Bunnie XO?

  I love it.

• 2:09:33Speaker 04

  A little, then I drip with her. And then I just kind of, he was working out. So now I introduce her, went to the gym and she kind of working out a little bit too.

• 2:09:41Speaker 02

  Girl, I had bat wings. I was like fat, just saggy.

• 2:09:45Bunnie XO?

  Did you do it all natural or did you use GLP one? And also, yeah, good for you.

• 2:09:49Speaker 02

  But it's been seventy-two pounds over four years.

• 2:09:52Bunnie XO?

  Oh, yeah. No, it's a, let me tell you something about fat loss. It is a slow process. And then nobody tells you about that.

• 2:09:58Speaker 02

  And I would do GLP. Look, don't, don't get me wrong. I'm not scared of it.

• 2:10:01Bunnie XO?

  I'm about to get on it. I don't even care.

• 2:10:02Speaker 02

  I ain't scared of it. I would do it in a heartbeat.

• 2:10:05Bunnie XO?

  Me too.

• 2:10:05Speaker 02

  If I was having trouble, I would do it. So anybody out there struggling, do what you need to do.

• 2:10:10Bunnie XO?

  Do what you need to do.

• 2:10:11Speaker 02

  Don't let nobody tell you nothing else.

• 2:10:12Bunnie XO?

  Angelo, I'm so happy you came and sat down with us. You are so sweet. Kim.

• 2:10:17Speaker 04

  Thank you.

• 2:10:18Bunnie XO?

  I have held you for what, almost three hours?

• 2:10:20Speaker 02

  No.

• 2:10:21Bunnie XO?

  Has it been? Two hours, almost two and a half hours that we have been talking?

• 2:10:25Speaker 02

  So y'all had a bunch of that out.

• 2:10:27Bunnie XO?

  I could sit here and talk to you forever.

• 2:10:29Speaker 02

  Really?

• 2:10:30Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, I could sit here and talk to you forever.

• 2:10:31Speaker 02

  I told, I talked about stuff I ain't talked about.

• 2:10:34Bunnie XO?

  I want you to come back though, because I didn't get to talk to you about everything. Like, I wanna sit down with you and kind of really pick your brain and like get questions from people. Cause you know, there's so many people. I feel like God is making a movement on the world right now.

• 2:10:46Speaker 02

  Big time.

• 2:10:46Bunnie XO?

  And I feel like there's so many people out there that wanna change and don't know how.

• 2:10:51Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 2:10:51Bunnie XO?

  And I think maybe if, maybe we'll come to Atlanta and I'll rent a studio and we'll sit down and I'll just pick your brain and we'll just talk.

• 2:10:58Speaker 02

  We could do it in my penthouse.

• 2:11:00Bunnie XO?

  Okay, I would love to.

• 2:11:01Speaker 04

  Especially about the elementary stuff. Cause you don't, you don't know about half of the stuff happening with you. She was, she was shying away from this. I wanted, I kind of wanted to hear it too.

• 2:11:09Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 2:11:09Speaker 04

  It's like, you know, your childhood and.

• 2:11:12Speaker 02

  I know, I don't talk about it. Cause he.

• 2:11:14Bunnie XO?

  I kept trying to pull her in. I kept trying.

• 2:11:17Speaker 04

  No, no, no, no. I'm, I'm not disrespectful. It doesn't, you doing a good job.

• 2:11:21Speaker 02

  But maybe there's something there.

• 2:11:22Speaker 04

  No, you, you don't, you doing some, when you throwing those daggers like that. And so that's what you want. And it ain't really about who you was married to, cause they don't define you.

• 2:11:30Bunnie XO?

  Not at all.

• 2:11:31Speaker 04

  When we, when you pulling, when you pull and say, hey, what happened in tenth grade? What happened in the sixth grade?

• 2:11:36Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 2:11:37Speaker 04

  What happened?

• 2:11:38Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 2:11:38Speaker 02

  And I remember.

• 2:11:39Speaker 04

  It's a lot of women that's fighting, that's hiding it.

• 2:11:42Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, absolutely.

• 2:11:43Speaker 04

  So it's something there.

• 2:11:44Bunnie XO?

  Well, we definitely need a part two.

• 2:11:46Speaker 02

  Yeah.

• 2:11:46Bunnie XO?

  So I'm gonna come out and visit you. Yeah, we'll, we'll come to you guys.

• 2:11:49Speaker 02

  I would love that. And then we can even, because there's so many people looking for God. And I think it was important for us to tell this part because you can look at my life and see my fruit.

• 2:11:59Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, absolutely.

• 2:12:00Speaker 02

  Outlives every lie ever spoken about me.

• 2:12:01Bunnie XO?

  Absolutely, yeah.

• 2:12:02Speaker 02

  And that God doesn't write you off. He's waiting for you with arms wide open. He's not a mean God. You and I are proving that to these people.

• 2:12:09Bunnie XO?

  Yes.

• 2:12:10Speaker 04

  Six feet or ten feet.

• 2:12:10Speaker 02

  And so, what?

• 2:12:12Speaker 04

  Six feet or ten feet.

• 2:12:13Speaker 02

  For what?

• 2:12:14Speaker 04

  Bicycle that you had when you was a kid.

• 2:12:16Speaker 02

  Oh, now you're gonna try to be a therapist?

• 2:12:18Bunnie XO?

  Angelo, that's for part two. We're gonna sit down with you for part two.

• 2:12:23Speaker 02

  And I will get all in it, cause I do skip over it. I would be, I would be praying about it.

• 2:12:27Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, no, pray about it. And when you're ready, let's talk about it. Cause it's my job to talk, to try to pull it out of you, but it's also your job to talk about it when you're ready. And nobody can force you to talk about stuff you don't wanna talk about.

• 2:12:39Speaker 02

  Really, oh, I'm not, I'm definitely not afraid to talk about it. I think I just, you're right. I think there was just so much that I, so I would definitely talk about it.

• 2:12:46Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 2:12:47Speaker 02

  It could have been, it could even have been when we came out of United Pentecostal and it was a trigger because all of a sudden we could do everything that we were told we couldn't do.

• 2:12:54Bunnie XO?

  Yeah.

• 2:12:54Speaker 02

  And then two hundred and fifty people walked out of our church. And so that probably was where I just.

• 2:13:02Bunnie XO?

  Well, I mean, I feel like when you're under a thumb and under a microscope at such a young age, also, you get to a point where you just don't, it's de-gaff. You do not give a, and you're just like, let's fucking, let's roll. I'm ready to do whatever I wasn't allowed to do and what I was told not to do. So I think you did what every child who has ever had religious trauma did. But the cool thing about it is you were able to pull yourself out of it. And look at you now, you've written seven books.

• 2:13:29Speaker 02

  And my babies work for, I've got two sons, they work in church with me.

• 2:13:32Bunnie XO?

  I mean, that's amazing.

• 2:13:33Speaker 02

  Like, everything that should have been horrible, God turned it around and He'll do it for everybody.

• 2:13:38Bunnie XO?

  Tell everybody where they can find you, if they want to go to your church, if you have any online stuff that people can watch every Sunday, stuff like that, just shout it all out.

• 2:13:48Speaker 02

  Y'all, listen, come to, if you live in Atlanta, Georgia, Limitless Church, 1653 Highway 85 South, Fayetteville, Georgia, 30215. We're there every Sunday, 10 and 11:30. And you are, y'all, everybody come. You are welcome. You're gonna feel so loved. And if you can't make it to Atlanta and to our physical building, it's across from Whitewater High School in Fayetteville, so that's your mile marker. But if you can't make it in the building, we have live streaming on my Real Talk Kim YouTube channel every Sunday, 10 and 11:30.

• 2:14:22Bunnie XO?

  Yay.

• 2:14:23Speaker 02

  And so you can watch it. And then you can find me on realtalkkim.com, which is my website. And I have a store, I have great books, I've got seven great books.

• 2:14:31Bunnie XO?

  Seven books.

• 2:14:32Speaker 02

  That will help you get unstuck.

• 2:14:34Bunnie XO?

  I wrote one, I can't even imagine writing seven.

• 2:14:36Speaker 02

  All my books too are about getting unstuck. Every single book is giving you.

• 2:14:40Bunnie XO?

  You're a savage.

• 2:14:41Speaker 02

  Listen, get unstuck because of what I just talked about.

• 2:14:44Bunnie XO?

  Yeah, absolutely.

• 2:14:45Speaker 02

  I've walked through all of that, and every book is about different seasons in there.

• 2:14:49Bunnie XO?

  I love that. Angela, what about you? Do you have social media?

• 2:14:53Speaker 04

  Well.

• 2:14:54Speaker 02

  Real Talk Kim.

• 2:14:54Speaker 04

  Real Talk Kim.

• 2:14:57Bunnie XO?

  I love it, her biggest supporter.

• 2:14:59Speaker 02

  He said he don't want people fighting. He's not want your crazy friends fighting.

• 2:15:02Bunnie XO?

  No, you do not. You don't want the interwebs on there. Thank you guys so much for coming today. I appreciate you so much. I love you back. And I, I hope this is.

• 2:15:10Speaker 02

  Oh, we have a podcast.

• 2:15:11Bunnie XO?

  Oh, shout it out.

• 2:15:12Speaker 02

  We have a podcast. We have a podcast that's on all over, all social medias, Real Talk Kim as well. And he's on there with me.

• 2:15:18Speaker 04

  That's one they'll find me.

• 2:15:19Speaker 02

  Yeah, he's on all my podcasts.

• 2:15:21Bunnie XO?

  I love it. Thank you guys so much for coming. I love you too. And this is the beginning of a friendship, and I'm just so excited to see where it goes. I'm so thankful.

• 2:15:28Speaker 02

  And I love this, you're a little Bible baddie with me now.

• 2:15:31Bunnie XO?

  No, I love the Bible baddie. I love that. We actually, we want one of my books to be called The Bunny Bible. So.

• 2:15:36Speaker 02

  Oh, I love it.

• 2:15:38Bunnie XO?

  I love that.

• 2:15:39Speaker 02

  Bunny Bible.

• 2:15:40Bunnie XO?

  No, thank you guys for coming. And thank you guys for tuning in to another episode of Dumb Blonde. I'll see you guys next week. Bye.

• 2:15:54Bunnie XO?

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