Part Two: Stanford PhD: The Instant Spiritual Awakening That Healed Her Trauma (Science Can’t Explain) & How Humanity Wakes Up | Sadhvi Bhagawati Saraswati

What if your spiritual awakening was so powerful, you thought you were being mind controlled? In this episode of Mayim Bialik's Breakdown, Sadhvi Bhagawati Saraswati — global spiritual leader and bestselling author of Come Home to Yourself and Hollywood to the Himalayas — reveals the raw, unfiltered truth about the awakening that shattered her old identity and opened her to a universal realization: everything is connected through unconditional love. But it didn’t start peacefully. At first, she thought she was losing her mind. From a science-trained skeptic to a spiritual teacher living in the Himalayas, Sadhviji shares what divinity actually feels like in the body, what happens when your attachment to your identity explodes, and why her awakening was so radical it led to the end of her marriage. Sadhviji breaks down: - Her journey through disordered eating, trauma, abandonment, and codependency before awakening - Why healing childhood wounds is essential so adult triggers stop running your life - Physical process of releasing anger, pain, and stored trauma from the body - What’s really holding most of us back from spiritual experiences - How she resists physical temptations and stays grounded in spiritual discipline - Freedom that comes from “Breaking Free of the Self” - How to integrate smaller spiritual experiences (even if you haven’t had a lightning-bolt awakening) - Power of holy and sacred places for us as energetic beings - How divine intelligence in nature reveals the “unexplainable” - Why coming into everything with an open heart changes your entire reality With her background in science, Sadhviji also shares her fascinating perspective on watching quantum physics slowly catch up in attempting to explain mystical truths sages have known for millennia, and what it will actually take to spark a global spiritual awakening (hint: it’s not as impossible as we think) This isn’t just a spiritual story. It’s a blueprint for healing, awakening, and living in radical love. If you’ve ever questioned reality, longed for deeper truth, struggled with trauma, or wondered whether awakening is real, this conversation may change everything. Sadhvi Bhagawati Saraswati’s latest book, Come Home to Yourself: Wisdom for Life: ⁠https://www.amazon.com/Come-Home-Yourself-Essential-Questions/dp/1647223695⁠ https://www.amazon.com/Come-Home-Yourself-Essential-Questions/dp/1647223695 To download the Come Home to Yourself companion workbook, visit: ⁠https://sadhviji.org/⁠ https://sadhviji.org/ Sadhvi Bhagawati Saraswati’s memoir, Hollywood to the Himalayas: a Journey of Healing and Transformation: ⁠https://a.co/d/0aJRTCuE⁠ https://a.co/d/0aJRTCuE Sadhvi Bhagawati Saraswati’s podcast, Ask Sadhviji: ⁠https://sadhviji.org/category/audio/ask-sadhviji-podcast/⁠ https://sadhviji.org/category/audio/ask-sadhviji-podcast/ Follow us on Substack for Exclusive Bonus Content: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://bialikbreakdown.substack.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠BialikBreakdown.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ https://www.bialikbreakdown.com/ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠YouTube.com/mayimbialik⁠⁠⁠ https://www.youtube.com/mayimbialik%E2%81%A0 Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices https://megaphone.fm/adchoices See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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• 0:04Mayim Bialik?

  Hi, I'm Mayim Bialik.

• 0:04Jonathan Cohen?

  And I'm Jonathan Cohen.

• 0:06Mayim Bialik?

  And welcome to part two of our conversation with Sadhvi Bhagawati Saraswati. She is a global spiritual leader and bestselling author, the author of Come Home To Yourself, Simple Answers To Life's Essential Questions. In part one of our conversation with Sadviji, we talked about Hollywood to the Himalayas, her journey from growing up in a privileged home in Los Angeles, and how her studies at Stanford University eventually led her to what was a spontaneous spiritual awakening in the Ganga River in India, where she has stayed for 30 years.

• 0:40Jonathan Cohen?

  We cover how that spiritual awakening impacted her experience of bulimia, addiction, and helped her overcome her trauma.

• 0:49Mayim Bialik?

  In part two of our conversation, we're going to talk about what it really looks like to let go of anger, of trauma, of resentment. We're also going to talk about what kind of relationship she formed with her guru, and how do you distinguish a charismatic leader from a true leader?

• 1:06Jonathan Cohen?

  We also discuss the global spiritual awakening that is happening right now, and what will it take for the world to tip towards a larger spiritual awakening?

• 1:18Mayim Bialik?

  We can't wait for you to hear part two of our conversation with Sadviji.

• 1:21Speaker 02

  Break it down.

• 1:24Mayim Bialik?

  Come Home To Yourself is sort of that next level of teaching with much more specifics. What are the actual tools? What's the actual practice look like? Because like, oh, this is all fine and good. But the question that I have is somewhat of a cynical one, but I think it's one that I'd love for you to speak to. We can't guarantee that everyone's going to have a spiritual awakening. Like, you could take a million people, you could put them in the same water that you stood in. It's not like that's the formula, right? Like, if it was, we would have figured it out thousands of years ago, and that would have been... We'd be importing the water. We'd be importing the water, and people would be selling it. It would be fake, it would be a whole thing. I also want you to help us understand, you know,

• 2:09Mayim Bialik?

  are there those of us who do not have that Dharma, to have that spiritual awakening? And are we just sort of left to find the people who have? And go to them? You know, it's, there's a, there's a bit of envy, you know, that I have, because I kind of feel like, gosh, if there's a solution, I want it. Like, it's not even like they found a pill for you. You know, you, you changed your consciousness, and it changed your life, right? Or God, you know, grace, right? The crack, which is how the light gets in, right? Allowed grace in. What is it about other people's experience?

• 2:51Mayim Bialik?

  Or for those of us who may not be on track to have a spiritual awakening, how do we get there?

• 2:57Speaker 03

  I do believe it's available for everybody. Absolutely.

• 3:03Speaker 03

  However, as I mentioned, we do believe in many lifetimes. And so, one of the things that I share a lot is the universe is infinitely patient.

• 3:13Speaker 03

  There's a beautiful metaphor that I've heard many different speakers and teachers give that says, imagine that there is a mountain that is a mile long and a mile high. And once every hundred years, a bird flies by the mountain with a silk scarf in its beak, and it rubs the silk scarf against the side of the mountain once every hundred years. The amount of time that it's going to take that bird with that silk scarf to erode the mountain is how long we've been coming back over and over and doing this.

• 3:57Speaker 03

  So, the universe is infinitely patient. You're not going to have the awakening this life. No problem. However, I mean, and that's speaking from the universe perspective.

• 4:09Mayim Bialik?

  Easy to say, you've had a spiritual awakening.

• 4:11Speaker 03

  But, but that's where it's, it's available for everybody. But what you have to realize is the universe...

• 4:21Speaker 03

  Isn't impatient. If we're impatient, fantastic, because it's actually about letting go. From what I've seen in my life and what I've seen in the life of so many people is that standing between us and a spiritual awakening experience is not what we don't have, but what we're holding on to. We have to be prepared to let go of anger, of grudges. If I was not prepared to walk into the river and let go of the anger and the pain that

• 5:00Speaker 03

  had identified me, I would not be here today. There is a surrender. I talk about it as a trust fall into the universe. We hold on to our stories because they're all we know. Yes, I'm this neurotic being. Yes, I'm this depressed being. Yes, I'm the one in this bad relationship. Yes, I'm the one with this awful job. Yes. And we hold on to it because to let it go, well, who would I be then? And whether it's how I identify in my body, whether it's my color, whether it's my race,

• 5:42Speaker 03

  whether it's what's happened to me, my history, whether it's my beauty or lack thereof, whatever it may be, or whether it's my relationships, my career, my bank account, we identify as all of that. That which is standing between us and the awakening is that identification. What's required is a willingness to be open to the possibility that that's not who you are and that that is just where your physical body is at this intersection of time and space. If you're driving down the road and I call you and I say, who are you? And you say, I'm exit 51.

• 6:26Speaker 03

  I'm gonna say, no, no, I didn't say, where are you? I said, who are you?

• 6:33Speaker 03

  And if then you say, "Oh, I'm exit 52," I'm gonna think that either you can't hear me or you've lost your marbles. Because we know intuitively, I'm not where my car has reached on the freeway.

• 6:48Speaker 03

  But for me to say, "I am" a 54-year-old female, American-born monk in India, is like saying I'm exit 51. That's where this body, this has gotten to at this intersection of time and space.

• 7:09Speaker 03

  The letting go of that and the trust falling into, "I don't know who I would be." But holding on to these identities is causing me suffering. And I am prepared to let go of my anger, of my grudges, of my unfulfilled expectations, of my attachments, of my visions, of how things should be, of who I am, of what the universe is, of what my role in the universe is. And then we step into the river, either the literal river of Ganga or any sacred place. You know, there is something, it's worth a moment of caveat here.

• 7:54Speaker 03

  There is something about sacred places. And no, it doesn't have to be only Ganga.

• 8:05Speaker 03

  And there is a reason why, for thousands and thousands and thousands of years, that is a place to which rishis and sages and yogis have gone and have meditated and have done their yoga and have attained enlightenment. And every religion has sacred, holy energy places.

• 8:31Speaker 03

  Nature is a sacred energy place. But I do think that there is something really powerful about being in a holy sacred place. We are energetic beings. We think that we're very solid, but if you look at us under an electron microscope, suddenly all of that would disappear. We are impacted very deeply by the energy around us, whether it's something as simple as heat or sunshine, or something much more subtle. And being in a sacred place, I think, allows the energy of us to align in a way that gives

• 9:13Speaker 03

  us, I think, a courage to see beyond what we're used to seeing. So I think that's an important piece. But it doesn't have to happen there, of course. It doesn't have to start in Hollywood. It doesn't have to end in the Himalayas. It's what I speak about as a mindset shift. And it's that mindset shift from "I am this body, I am this story," to "Oh, I have a body." It's not a denigration of the body. It's not a denial of the body. But it's an awareness that I'm not it. What I am is soul, spirit, cosmic intelligence, source, consciousness, whatever word we use.

• 9:56Speaker 03

  So everyone can have it in this life. It is absolutely available to everyone. I believe that. But we're coming into this world with different karmic packages. And so it's going to be easier for some than others. I was given an experience that made something that otherwise, I think, would have been very difficult, if not impossible, suddenly very, very possible.

• 10:25Speaker 03

  But it's something that's available for everybody. And again, you know, the universe is very patient. So I'd say if it's not happening yet, ask yourself, what is it I'm holding on to that's keeping me from seeing truth?

• 10:42Speaker 03

  And do whatever you can to put yourself in places where the energy is aligned. I mean, if you wanted to get a suntan, you'd be much more likely to get a fast suntan at the top of a mountain than at the base of a mountain. We just, we understand that the sun's rays are stronger at the top of the mountain than the base of the mountain. In the same way, if you want to have that energy, to the extent that you can be in places where the energy aligns, fantastic. And we have so many stories throughout history of people having spontaneous divine experiences everywhere. So there's no rule that it has to be there.

• 11:23Mayim Bialik?

  On the top of a lot of mountains, maybe they were trying to get suntans.

• 11:27Jonathan Cohen?

  I want to talk about the actual physical process of letting go.

• 11:30Speaker 03

  Yes.

• 11:31Jonathan Cohen?

  A lot of people listening to this are going to hear this notion of you just have to let go. And, you know, they are trauma informed.

• 11:39Speaker 03

  Yes.

• 11:40Jonathan Cohen?

  They've had these experiences. They've been told, well, my nervous system reacts like this because of this pattern. And they understand the science that goes beyond it. So it's like, they may be listening and saying, I can't just let go because I have this physiological response. It's not so easy. And so that's the first part of the question. The second part of the question is really about place, which I want to circle back to. But before that, can you talk about the process of what it was like? Because you had profound experiences that not only had shaped your narrative, but you were having really intense physical reactions to those pieces of your history as well.

• 12:19Speaker 03

  An important piece of the story that I mentioned, but it's, I think, really worthy of reiterating, is I had done a lot of psychological work prior to this moment. And that's important to reiterate and to really emphasize because otherwise you end up with a spiritual bypassing situation. Of, or you end up with people simply saying, I can't do it because I've experienced trauma.

• 12:50Speaker 03

  I had spent years in a variety of different forms of therapy, working with the trauma, working with the way the trauma had manifested in me through the eating disorder, through depression, through so many different aspects of my life. And therefore, by the time I came to India, I was at a point where I understood it all.

• 13:19Mayim Bialik?

  Cognitively.

• 13:20Speaker 03

  Cognitively, exactly. Had gone into it, even emotionally, had gone deep into it, had relived it, had seen it.

• 13:29Jonathan Cohen?

  But you were still carrying it somehow.

• 13:30Speaker 03

  But I was definitely still carrying it, for sure. And I used to laugh and joke that I could write a book about why I was bulimic.

• 13:40Speaker 03

  But I couldn't stop myself from doing it. I had all of the awareness, but that didn't shift the behavior.

• 13:50Mayim Bialik?

  And you talk about 12-step programs, which basically say, "The only power that can relieve you of this is God." Because on our own, we can't.

• 13:59Speaker 03

  And yet,

• 14:02Speaker 03

  staying

• 14:04Speaker 03

  in the conversation around Dharma at that time, when I was in the 12-step programs, I wasn't able to access the presence of the divine. I was an utter failure at the 12-step programs because I would just keep throwing up, saying, "Oh, well, my higher power didn't come to me today." And anyway, I've already admitted that I have no power, and so it's up to my higher power, and he didn't show up. So here we are. So I kind of got essentially kicked out of the 12-step programs because it wasn't working for me. So...

• 14:42Speaker 03

  You have to be at a point in your life where you are open to that presence of the divine, which at the height of my addiction, I was not.

• 14:52Mayim Bialik?

  And just to clarify, if the program's not working for you, that doesn't mean that you get kicked out. I was clarifying the previous point. I don't want people to hear that and think like, oh, if you don't, plenty of people don't have a higher power, keep struggling, come to meetings drunk, as it were. So just wanted to clarify.

• 15:07Speaker 03

  Yes, good. Thank you. Absolutely.

• 15:10Mayim Bialik?

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• 16:40Speaker 03

  I had done years and years and years of that psychological work. So when you talk about people who are listening, who are trauma-informed, who are experiencing that, who say, "I can't just let go."

• 16:57Speaker 03

  What I would say is, Western psychology is fantastic at helping us understand our patterns, helping us understand our triggers, helping us understand why we are the way we are, understand our neuroses. And if there has been trauma in your life, to look at that, to acknowledge that, to understand it, to see how you get triggered, how it impacts your life today, is of a huge amount of importance. Letting go does not mean that we deny that, that we suppress it, that we repress it.

• 17:39Speaker 03

  However, many, many, many people get to the place where I was, which is, "I've done all that. I've seen this trauma. I have relived this trauma umpteen times." In everything ranging from basic therapy to holotropic breathwork to, you know, people were not using psychedelics, or at least nobody I knew was at that time, but holotropic breathwork and a whole variety of different forms of therapy. Seen it, understand it, know it, relived it, working with it, but not free of it.

• 18:16Speaker 03

  Still, my mind, my thoughts, and my behaviors were still governed by the trauma and the reaction to the trauma. And what spirituality did was allow me to become free. So the letting go was saying, "That happened. That was awful. That should not have happened. And it didn't actually happen to me." And that's tricky, because that could be co-opted in a spiritual bypass sort of situation.

• 18:57Speaker 03

  But what I mean by it is, the me who presented to my guru at 25 did not share one cell of her body with the me who was abused or abandoned. If he had said to me... Show me when he sent me into that river to let go.

• 19:22Speaker 03

  It had begun with a conversation that's in Hollywood to the Himalayas, but I didn't share it here, which is worth mentioning for a moment, in which I had asked him, the reason I got sent into the river to let go was I had asked him about fear. And he said, "You fear because you don't trust." And I then told him my story.

• 19:42Mayim Bialik?

  This is why I don't trust.

• 19:43Speaker 03

  This is why I don't trust. Hey, here's all the awful things that have happened to me.

• 19:46Mayim Bialik?

  You wouldn't trust either if you had been through what I went through.

• 19:48Speaker 03

  Exactly. Here's why I know the universe is untrustworthy. And he looked at me and he said, "Are you going to take that to the grave?"

• 19:57Mayim Bialik?

  He also said, "How long are you going to keep talking about it?"

• 20:00Speaker 03

  Yeah, that was about, that was about a year and a half later, which was another step. But it was, that was also so important because it was this slap in the face of, "Oh, I thought I was done."

• 20:13Mayim Bialik?

  Because it was still part of your nomenclature. It was still part of who you were.

• 20:17Speaker 03

  Yep, absolutely. So in that first moment, he says, "Are you going to take this to the grave?" And I say, "No." And he says, "So are you going to let it go on your deathbed?" I'm like, "God, no." I was 25. And he says, "So are you going to let it go a month before you die? Maybe a week before you die?" And I say, "No, no, no, no, no, no. I'm, I'm, I'm in process. This is a process. You know, things, there's a process to these things." And he looks at me and he says, "You're waiting for someone to come in and draw the line. You're waiting for someone to come in and tell you that you can be done." He said, "No one will. You can carry this story to your grave.

• 21:03Speaker 03

  You can let it go on your deathbed, or you can let it go tonight."

• 21:08Speaker 03

  I was like, "Tonight? Tonight?" And he said, "Yes, I want you to go and stand in the river after our sacred lighting ceremony, the Aarti. And I want you to stand in the river, the sacred Ganga River, the mother goddess Ganga. And I want you to offer all of your anger, all of your pain to her, to the river. Let her take it and forgive him."

• 21:40Speaker 03

  And I walked out of there thinking, thank God I live somewhere where we understand process. And that we don't have to rely on a river to sweep away our problems. Because in the 25-year-old, overeducated, over-indoctrinated, super arrogant, academically arrogant me, I thought, there is no way.

• 22:10Mayim Bialik?

  You don't just give it away.

• 22:11Speaker 03

  Of course.

• 22:12Mayim Bialik?

  It's not like a thing.

• 22:13Speaker 03

  No, there's a process. There's a process.

• 22:15Jonathan Cohen?

  So you don't believe it's gonna work?

• 22:16Speaker 03

  I do not believe it's gonna work.

• 22:17Jonathan Cohen?

  But you're gonna go and you're gonna give it your best shot?

• 22:18Mayim Bialik?

  Open heart vow.

• 22:20Speaker 03

  Open heart vow and a second vow built on that later that afternoon, which was a very simple vow of sincerity. And it was remembering my open-hearted vow that took me to that. I was like, okay, if you're just gonna sit here and be smug and arrogant and obnoxious about the whole thing, you need to go back to America because this is not an open heart. And I then made a commitment that I would be sincere. I knew it wasn't going to work because I knew, of course, rivers don't sweep away this kind of stuff. But I would be sincere, I would be open, I would be willing. And that was all I committed to.

• 23:05Speaker 03

  And I walked in that river and I prayed and cried and tried to find within me every memory, every vision, every experience that brought about anger and pain. And I held water from the river in my hands and I offered it into the water in my hands. And I then offered the water like this back into the river. And I did that until I could actually see his face and say, I forgive you.

• 23:48Speaker 03

  And see a man who was not the monster of my childhood memories, but a haunted man who was...

• 24:01Speaker 03

  You know, I wouldn't have used these words at that time, but in retrospect, walking his own karmic journey with his own karmic package in this lifetime.

• 24:10Mayim Bialik?

  And just to clarify, this is the man who created you?

• 24:13Speaker 03

  Yeah, this was my biological father. This was my biological father, absolutely. I hesitate in short form to say that only because I was given the most amazingly wonderful dad afterwards. And so everyone who knows me knows Frank as my dad. And I never would want anybody missing a moment to think that he was the one. But yes, this was my biological father, Manny. And I stood there until I could see his face and forgive him.

• 24:49Speaker 03

  And that's the letting go that I speak about is it's a willingness, an openness, a sincerity to let go and see what happens.

• 25:03Jonathan Cohen?

  And what was it in that moment? Was there another profound change like the first spiritual awakening? Or was it more like a lightning that you noticed hours, days after?

• 25:16Speaker 03

  It was not like the first moment at all. It was deeply profound. It was an emptying. It was definitely an emptying.

• 25:26Jonathan Cohen?

  Did you realize it worked in the moment? Was that skeptical young woman?

• 25:30Speaker 03

  Both, both. I felt, I definitely felt empty. I felt free as I walked out of the river. And as I walked out, a voice was like, well, that didn't really happen.

• 25:43Speaker 03

  My heart knew it, but there was still this overeducated part of my brain that thought, there is no way that just happened.

• 25:51Jonathan Cohen?

  Because rivers don't do that.

• 25:52Speaker 03

  Rivers don't do that. And, and I then did something very funny, as I mentioned, which is I kept looking for it.

• 26:03Speaker 03

  I spent the next few months trying to trigger myself.

• 26:08Jonathan Cohen?

  And you were like, there's this part of myself that's missing that I'm used to having.

• 26:12Speaker 03

  Exactly.

• 26:12Mayim Bialik?

  And it was also a question of like, what if I look at a Hostess cupcake? Like, what if, what if I, you know, I mean, insert the thing, right? Insert the drug, drive by the bar, pour the drink, smell the drink, look at the porn. Like, what is gonna activate you?

• 26:28Speaker 03

  Yep, yep. What, what is gonna cause that level of suffering in me? And that the bulimia had been a way of not feeling. And what I found was, the memories were all still there. I could remember everything. But the attachment between the memory and the emotional response of needing to get out of that moment was no longer there.

• 27:01Mayim Bialik?

  This is the definition of what EMDR does, which is a trauma therapy. That's literally like what it says on the label of EMDR. When you do MDR, you know, trauma processing, that's the goal, right? So, science is trying to find what is it that happens when we can uncouple the cognitive and literal experience of trauma? The words, the thoughts, and we can uncouple them from the response, which is a compensatory response. It's a survival response. When we uncouple them, which is what, you know, again, science is trying to match, that is the goal. That it no longer has that power. It's not that it doesn't exist. It's that it no longer holds that charge.

• 27:45Mayim Bialik?

  It's kind of like, you know, when you see an ex that you've recently broken up with, and it still hurts, and you still have longing, and there comes a point when you have some realization, like, they weren't good for me. And when you see them, you don't want it anymore. Or if you give up sugar, right? Like, I've lost my taste for soda, which, you know, it, it doesn't taste right anymore, right? We're uncoupling that.

• 28:09Speaker 03

  When we say let go, and as you mentioned, that you have a lot of people who listen who are trauma informed, so I just wanna really clarify this. The letting go is not a denial of what's happened. It's not a... Belittling of what has happened, it's not in any way, shape or form saying that was okay.

• 28:29Mayim Bialik?

  Hmm. And the same for forgiveness.

• 28:31Speaker 03

  Of course. What it's saying is, and forgiveness is a critical part.

• 28:35Mayim Bialik?

  Correct.

• 28:35Speaker 03

  They're interlinked in a huge way. Is what it's saying is, that happened. It was awful. And yet, you deserve to be free. And in order to be free, you need to let go of that as the identification of self. And one of the ways of thinking about it on a physical level is, if the trauma happened more than seven or eight years ago, there's literally not a cell of your being today that existed then. So if in that moment Swamiji had said to me, "Oh, you were sexually abused? Who was sexually abused? Show it to me." "Oh, you were abandoned? Who was abandoned? Show her to me."

• 29:21Speaker 03

  There's not a cell of my 25-year-old body that was in existence then. Every cell of our body constantly is regenerating. Skin cells are every few days, internal organs every seven, eight years. But within seven, eight, nine years, every cell of our body has regenerated. So if we are carrying, "This happened to me", it's a really interesting pathway to stop and say, "To whom?"

• 29:59Speaker 03

  Should never have happened? There should be lots of love and tender compassion for the being to whom it happened. We are not negating her, forgetting her, abandoning her, telling her it's her fault. We're doing none of that. But we're simply saying, "She's not me."

• 30:22Speaker 03

  So that's on one level. The other level of the letting go is on the deep level of soul. So it's not just, "She's not me" on a physical level, but it's, "That happened as part of a karmic journey of this, my soul in this lifetime? It was awful. And..."

• 30:45Speaker 03

  It isn't the core truth of who I am, which is soul and has this experience and that experience and this experience, but ultimately, the truth is that which is unchanging, like that experience that I was mentioning earlier, you think about when you were two or three, then when you're in your teens, then in your twenties, that through line, that's the unchanged part. And so the letting go is an awareness that there is a me who was never touched, never traumatized, never harmed, both on a physical level now, but even deeper on the level of soul, spirit, consciousness and tapping into that.

• 31:30Mayim Bialik?

  And also the notion of a higher self.

• 31:32Speaker 03

  Yes.

• 31:32Mayim Bialik?

  That even when you, and that's sort of the psychology, right, internal family systems concepts, that even if you are revisiting abuse, trauma, there's a part of you that always knew, even if you can't consciously access it, there's always a part of you that knew you don't deserve this. You didn't do anything wrong. You're not bad. It's the part that is closest, and I'm pointing to the crown of my head because this is the closest place that connects, right? It's the closest place to the divine is the one that knows it can't touch you, you know, and especially like when you can remove yourself from that timeline, it can't touch you anymore.

• 32:09Speaker 04

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• 32:24Mayim Bialik?

  There are obviously many possibilities for the way people might analyze what happened. We talked about, is this schizophrenia? We think we ruled that out. And, you know, many materialists would say, and I, this is not my perspective, nor I think Jonathan's or anyone in this room or probably even listening, but some people, some cynics might say, you had some sort of delusional experience, which the DSM has not yet decided what it is.

• 32:49Speaker 03

  Yeah.

• 32:49Mayim Bialik?

  You know, it's some sort of like, you know, religious, I mean, again, I'm using harsh words, some sort of... Like religious fanaticism, psychosis and delusional and we don't know. We're gonna set that aside, right? And, and we can't quantify, I can't tell you what that voice was any more than you can tell me what that voice was. Right, that told you, you must stay here. But a very large component, and I think this has been sensationalized significantly in our current culture, is the notion of cults, the notion of guru, the notion of a charismatic spiritual leader, who in many cases, and it's how kind of we all got here, is charismatic religious and spiritual leaders who, I believe their words have been twisted in many ways, but they have carried people through

• 33:34Mayim Bialik?

  hard times, complicated wars, poverty, you know, all these things. This is like how we get here. Religion exists, right? And I believe that there's just sort of one, and there's different cultural understandings of what that one is, but there's just kind of a one. But when, when we think of all the documentaries, right, about the abuse of power, and, and in particular, there's been recent documentaries specifically about, you know, some of the communities surrounding yogic practices and things like this. It's a very deep spiritual connection. I'm not saying there's anything specific about yogic traditions or eastern traditions, but there is something to a practice that is so intimate. And so, especially when you get into Kundalini Yoga,

• 34:17Mayim Bialik?

  it is so rooted in these core, you know, primal needs we have for connection that I think in many ways can make us susceptible, right? Even more than other practices. And I've never heard anyone speak, as frankly as you do, about the deep love that you felt and received from your guru. And you even go so far as to say, "I would have done anything that he asked."

• 34:50Mayim Bialik?

  To what level can you help us understand the proportion of that love, that spiritual love you have for a leader versus "I'm a disciple of a tradition that I'm going to pass on." And I'm asking you, especially because you were born and raised in a culture that is so confused about love, about sex, about desire. What can you tell us about the love for a guru?

• 35:19Speaker 03

  First of all, on a general level, as we are in the midst of so many scandalous stories. And I've been, as you can imagine, approached by so many people in different communities that have been rocked with scandal, who are bereft and devastated and shattered and prepared to give up the teachings because of what has been unveiled about the teacher, the guru, from whom they learned it. And what I've told every one of them is, "You know what? The universe can send perfect teachings through an imperfect vessel."

• 36:04Speaker 03

  And I think that's a really important piece to remember, is that the vessels are human. Some of them are at a much higher level than others and therefore are what we could consider safe vessels. Some of them are not. And it's not that they intended to bring harm, but I think a lot of these masters who may have had spontaneous spiritual experiences, who may have developed spontaneously a system that they've been able to pass on

• 36:49Speaker 03

  or some wisdom they've passed on, but who haven't come from a powerful guru themselves.

• 36:58Speaker 03

  Can find themselves in a situation surrounded by adoring, doting disciples of a culture that doesn't think there's anything wrong with having sex with the guru and suddenly be in a situation of temptation that they may never have even imagined. So I think A, it's important to remember.

• 37:22Mayim Bialik?

  And that's an abuse of power also.

• 37:23Speaker 03

  Oh, absolutely, absolutely. But I'm just beginning with the idea that I don't think the majority of them went into this plotting, planning, calculating to be a guru so that they could abuse the power they get and molest people for sex. I think that in most cases, what began as a sincere desire to share a teaching that they had, but in which they didn't have the foundation of maybe a very deep spiritual

• 38:02Speaker 03

  practice personally, or a guru who could say to them, hey, you know, you're off track, have gotten tempted and triggered into abusing power, into taking advantage. Because, you know, desire is a super difficult experience to withstand. So in any case, I just want to begin by saying, I think it's important to realize that just because we have unveiled several teachers who were not nearly as perfect as they would have had us believe, and who did abuse power and did abuse people and were absolutely

• 38:45Speaker 03

  acting out of integrity, out of Dharma, that shouldn't make the disciples doubt the teachings themselves.

• 38:54Mayim Bialik?

  And this is a place that I was hoping you'd speak to because many people say, see, religion's bullshit because look what happens when people in power. But I think the idea is you want to be able to separate that. I think that's a very important distinction.

• 39:08Speaker 03

  You have to. Otherwise, otherwise, we'd never send our kids to school, right? I mean, there are stories of teachers who molest kids. There are stories of doctors who molest patients on operating tables. We have every system.

• 39:24Speaker 03

  That we can think of has abuse because every system that is populated by humans is going to be impacted by human nature. And so we have teachers, principals, coaches, doctors who have taken advantage of students, patients. But we would never say, forget education, forget the practice of medicine, forget surgery. We understand there is a value that transcends the harm brought by those individuals. Obviously, those individuals need to be dealt with separately.

• 40:06Speaker 03

  Obviously, we need to increase our screening processes, but you would not throw the entire system of medicine or education out the window.

• 40:15Mayim Bialik?

  I want you to speak to celibacy because you dedicate a certain portion of Hollywood to the Himalayas to explaining, you know, that in true practice, there is a shift in chemistry and there's a shift in biology that can be instated. I always thought that celibate people were walking around like freaking out, but the idea and

• 40:44Speaker 03

  Many of them are.

• 40:45Mayim Bialik?

  Right, but you talk about what it's like.

• 40:48Speaker 03

  Yeah.

• 40:49Mayim Bialik?

  And you talk about, you know, that there are three places energy can go, right? Talk a little bit about what that means and, you know, I'm not asking for lascivious purposes. I'm asking because I think it's a fascinating component of a practice that is focused on what does it look like to not be attached, right, to those desires?

• 41:13Speaker 03

  Absolutely. And for me, I never would have dreamed in a million years that I was going to become celibate. I was not someone you would have anticipated would be celibate. I was not someone who was raised in a family, a culture, a society that valued really abstinence at all from anything that one might want. So there was nothing in my life that would have indicated that I was going to take a path of renunciation at all, and certainly not of sex or pleasure in that way.

• 41:52Mayim Bialik?

  And also for a woman, it implies you will not biologically

• 41:56Speaker 03

  Of course.

• 41:57Mayim Bialik?

  squeeze a watermelon through a garden hose.

• 42:00Speaker 03

  Yes, exactly.

• 42:01Mayim Bialik?

  Right.

• 42:02Speaker 03

  So what happened for me was also really a piece of grace. I do not believe that I would have been able from the beginning to be celibate if I was still flooded with sexual urges. Remember, I had never meditated. I had never done any spiritual practices. I was not walking into this as a powerful student of abstinence or working with your mind in any way. But what happened was really amazing.

• 42:42Speaker 03

  Not long after I had the very first experience of awakening on the banks of Ganga, it felt very much like the divine came through me with a dust buster or one of those vacuum cleaners with the attachments, the long attachments that get into your corners, and literally sucked out of me. The attachment to anything that was no longer going to be a part of my life. And whether it was bagels or avocados or sex. I mean, it literally was this spectrum of here are the things I enjoy. Here are the things I'm no longer going to have. Okay.

• 43:27Mayim Bialik?

  Why can't you have a bagel?

• 43:28Speaker 03

  Well, they just didn't have them. I mean, now there may be places that have bagels. Now there are places that

• 43:33Mayim Bialik?

  I'd be importing, it's the water, the water in New York. It's a different kind of holy water.

• 43:38Speaker 03

  So, so many things. I mean, if I looked at the things that I used to consume on every level, salad bars.

• 43:48Mayim Bialik?

  As a woman, makeup, like, you know, all the niceties of Western culture for women, right?

• 43:53Speaker 03

  Any of it. It was no longer going to be part of my life. Bagels, avocado, sex were kind of the three big things for me, but the list was obviously much longer.

• 44:02Mayim Bialik?

  A good bra.

• 44:03Speaker 03

  Lot longer. And because of the power of that experience, it literally felt like I was out that attachment to them. Otherwise, if I was living that life, dreaming about sex, I don't think that I would have stayed because it would not have felt right. It wouldn't have felt in alignment. From that moment, the desire disappeared.

• 44:36Mayim Bialik?

  You were free.

• 44:37Speaker 03

  I was free. It wasn't, it wasn't that I didn't have beautiful memories, but the desire just lifted. And so it became actually quite easy for me.

• 44:49Mayim Bialik?

  But has it ever been difficult?

• 44:51Speaker 03

  Well, so it returned, as I do share in the book, a few years later, in a moment with a very attractive Bollywood actor who mentioned that he was very attracted to me. And it was the first time in probably five, six years I had been there by that time, that I even remembered I had the body of a woman. I mean, I had just not thought of myself in that way for all of those years. And suddenly, here was this super attractive

• 45:29Speaker 03

  guy in front of me saying, I'm attracted to you. And what it did, although I completely deflected the comment in that moment, what it did was it opened that which had been closed in my mind, in my hormones, in everything. And I suddenly found myself flooded with desire.

• 45:59Speaker 03

  Fortunately, I come from a culture in which I didn't think there was something wrong with that. I didn't feel ashamed. I knew that I didn't want to give into it, that I had taken vows that I wouldn't. But I wasn't ashamed. There was no sense in me of like, oh, bad person, wrong person. And so I went to Swamiji, saying, I've I got this problem.

• 46:27Speaker 03

  And he gave me a series of practices of working with the energy. And again, fortunately, I have a guru who himself is so open in thought, although he's been a lifelong celibate, but is so open in thought that he would never say, this is wrong, this is bad, you're nothing like that. He told me a very funny, very funny story from our scriptures, though I won't go into the whole story, but a story of a sage who's a celibate, Nada Mooney, who's a very, very renowned sage, who at one point in his life gets completely intoxicated

• 47:09Speaker 03

  by desire for this princess and how the divine basically saves him from going astray by giving him a monkey face and not letting the princess be attracted to him because he's been given a monkey face. And so Swamiji tells me this story, kiddingly saying, you know, am I going to have to turn your face into a monkey? But then he gives me some very powerful yogic practices of working with the energy and carrying it up within you. That later, interestingly, my yoga teacher from here explained that the practices that young boys are given.

• 47:57Speaker 03

  In the ancient traditions, when they take boys at a prepubescent age, that a lot of the practices are given to actually biochemically make that energy flow upward rather than downward. But he gave me practices of working with the energy. Not pushing it away, not denying it, not hating it, but also not living in this idea of, "Oh, it has to be released." But it can, it can actually be transmuted and rise in the being.

• 48:33Speaker 03

  And working with what I later learned were called chakras and energy centers and using that sacred energy. So, yeah, fortunately, it has not been a major obstacle or even a minor obstacle. It's been something that has arisen a few times over the years. But these practices are so powerful. And by the way, another important caveat for your listeners is there is nothing in the scriptures that says thou shalt be celibate, unless you've taken vows for it, of course. But there's nothing that says a celibate path is the highest path, a celibate path is the only path, you can only be enlightened if you're a monk.

• 49:18Speaker 03

  Nothing says that. I came to realize in the first couple of years of being there that my dharma was going to be to take these monastic vows, to become a monk, to follow this path, this lineage of my guru. But there's nothing that says that you have to do that. And in fact, interestingly, in the scriptures, the vast majority of sages, of rishis, of yogis are living household or married lives, as are the divine incarnations. Krishna comes on earth, Ram comes on earth. They're householders. They're married people. So...

• 50:04Speaker 03

  That's a very important emphasis that no one should think, "Oh, this experience, this healing, this awakening is not available to me because I'm married," or "I don't want to be celibate." No problem.

• 50:20Mayim Bialik?

  And can you speak a little bit to the devotion in particular that you felt and have with your guru, kind of separate

• 50:28Speaker 03

  Yes, of course.

• 50:28Mayim Bialik?

  from the sexual conversation, but I know that I grouped those in one. Can you talk a little bit about, you know, some people saying, "Maybe she's just so taken with whoever the guru is," and this would hold for men as well, you know? I think it's more about what kind of devotion do you grow? And what kind of love grows? You know, and how do you separate that from the other kinds of love?

• 50:53Speaker 03

  Yeah, you know, the word guru, it's very beautiful. The Sanskrit word guru literally means "the one who removes our darkness and brings light."

• 51:03Mayim Bialik?

  That's a lot of words for one little word.

• 51:05Speaker 03

  Isn't it? So, gu is darkness, ru is the remover of darkness. So guru is the one who removes that darkness. But I always give the extra piece that the darkness is ignorance, because those of us coming from a Judeo-Christian tradition take darkness to basically mean, "Who I really am? If you only knew my true core self, original sin." In the Vedic tradition, the darkness just means ignorance, that the core of who we are is light, is divinity, is purity, is one with that divine. But we forget.

• 51:49Speaker 03

  We identify with the body, with the story. And so, we live in a darkness of ignorance. The guru is the one who removes that darkness. Now, you mentioned charisma. One of the tragedies in the world is that charisma does not always mean goodness.

• 52:12Speaker 03

  There have been many charismatic leaders, political leaders, religious leaders of every religion, who are fantastically charismatic and are most definitely not people we should be following. In the world of religion, the gurus far too often are beings who are incredibly charismatic and we mistake a spotlight of charisma as light of the self. And what I always remind people is, the light that the guru shines is the light on you.

• 52:55Speaker 03

  If the guru is just shining the light on themselves and the goal is, "Look at me", run as fast as you can in the other direction. The way to know it's a real guru is, do you feel that there is a light with which you can see yourself? Does the guru show you the truth, the light of you? And so, when that happens, when he showed me, "You are not broken. You are not damaged.

• 53:39Speaker 03

  You are divine", that was the light of me. That was not about, "Hey, look how charismatic I am, follow me", that was, "Look at you". And so, the devotion is a devotion to truth. It's devotion to a path. I speak about it frequently like being a lump of clay on a potter's wheel. Not always easy. There are metaphoric slaps. He got physical slaps from his guru. Sometimes, I think, a physical slap would be easier than the ego slap, but...

• 54:21Speaker 03

  I guess with Western disciples, you can't actually raise a hand and hit them. But, um, so yeah, we only get metaphoric ones, but they're slaps to the ego. And then you get thrown in the fire and you get, you know, the ego gets burned. But it's a, it's a devotion to truth. And a, a real guru is gonna be the one who's gonna constantly remind you, it's not about me. You know, the very first book I ever wrote is called By God's Grace, and it's his biography. And I titled it By God's Grace because when I first met him, that was all he would say. When I would say, you're so amazing, he would say, it's all God's grace.

• 55:06Speaker 03

  And I would say, well, yeah, but.

• 55:10Speaker 03

  And he just kept coming back to it. And it actually used to drive me crazy because I was thinking, take credit here, like say, thanks.

• 55:20Mayim Bialik?

  The man can't take your compliment.

• 55:21Speaker 03

  Right, exactly, exactly.

• 55:23Mayim Bialik?

  It's, that's true humility.

• 55:24Speaker 03

  That it's true humility, and that's exactly his felt sense experience. And I realized he was not just being humble. He was giving me the truest experience.

• 55:36Mayim Bialik?

  Okay, but you're describing falling in love with someone, like you are.

• 55:39Speaker 03

  And I did.

• 55:40Mayim Bialik?

  They make me feel things that I never felt before. You fell in.

• 55:43Speaker 03

  I totally fell in love with him, and I talk about it in the book, which is why not only if he had wanted me to give him more, but in my mind, I was like, well, the natural place that this is gonna go is, of course, it's gonna become a physical, sexual relationship because when you love someone and you're that close.

• 56:08Mayim Bialik?

  And they make you feel so good.

• 56:10Speaker 03

  Like, that's where this goes.

• 56:13Mayim Bialik?

  Which is also a bit of trauma response.

• 56:16Speaker 03

  Of course, absolutely.

• 56:17Mayim Bialik?

  I mean, with all due respect, like with all the respect.

• 56:19Speaker 03

  Of course it is.

• 56:20Mayim Bialik?

  For many of us, oh, you like me, let's get married.

• 56:24Speaker 03

  Absolutely.

• 56:24Mayim Bialik?

  Right, or you're paying me attention, we must be in love. And it could be the dude at Trader Joe's. Like, it could be, you know, it could, it could be anyone, right? Because that's the, it's my need, right? It's my God-shaped hole.

• 56:37Speaker 03

  And it's how we identify our value.

• 56:39Mayim Bialik?

  Sure.

• 56:41Speaker 03

  When I wrote about this in Hollywood to the Himalayas, I actually had. Several people prior to manuscript going to print saying, "Are you really sure you want to put this all in?" And I thought, you know what? If I take away truth based on just what people are going to think about me, I wouldn't even know the woman who occupied my body. And I think it's a really important piece of the story because I was a 25-year-old, sexually active, married woman whose husband had just left her and who came from a world in which there was nothing wrong with it anyway.

• 57:25Speaker 03

  I mean, I didn't come in with any baggage around sex. This was what you did when you loved someone.

• 57:31Mayim Bialik?

  Especially if someone amazing likes you. I better have sex with that person. It means I'm really worthy.

• 57:36Speaker 03

  Exactly. And how are you going to keep them otherwise? And it was an incredible experience because I went from feeling like, "This is just going to be a matter of time because he's never done it before or had a relationship like this before," to a very interesting, trauma-informed panic experience. Oh, my God. On the one hand, he's saying, "You're wonderful. You're divine." His actions are showing me that, like, he wants me to be near him. He's calling me. He's giving me work to do every day. I've been granted access to him.

• 58:18Speaker 03

  And yet, he, no matter how much I try to flirt, make myself available, insinuate that, hey, this would be a good thing, he doesn't even understand, like, he cannot pick up on a signal. He has no idea where I'm trying to go and clearly is totally uninterested and sees me just as soul and keeps directing my vision.

• 58:50Speaker 03

  Back toward soul. And it was incredibly frustrating and incredibly anxiety-producing for quite a while of, what do I have to offer? If not this, and that is, as you said, that is the trauma response of that's how I identify.

• 59:13Mayim Bialik?

  So many ways you do, even if you aren't traumatized.

• 59:16Speaker 03

  If, yeah, exactly. And if you, if you don't want to have sex with me, why are you keeping me around? And, and my whole sense of self had to shift and grow around worthiness and value in being in this type of relationship with someone who looked at me and saw soul

• 59:46Speaker 03

  rather than body. And even when the body was offered,

• 59:52Speaker 03

  had no interest, didn't understand the question, you know, like just was on a completely different plane of existence.

• 1:00:01Mayim Bialik?

  Like literally?

• 1:00:02Speaker 03

  Literally.

• 1:00:03Mayim Bialik?

  What can people find in Come Home to Yourself?

• 1:00:06Speaker 03

  So Come Home to Yourself was a really fun book to do because it's questions and answers.

• 1:00:14Speaker 03

  Hollywood to the Himalayas, or Himalayas, as we say here, reads, as I've been told, which to me feels so happy, like a novel. As you said, a soap opera.

• 1:00:24Mayim Bialik?

  Your life is like a great novel.

• 1:00:26Speaker 03

  Well, and I love that because what it means is that people get engaged in the story and as you said, it's like a huge soap opera.

• 1:00:33Mayim Bialik?

  I didn't want it to end. I mean, yeah.

• 1:00:36Speaker 03

  Well, fortunately it hasn't, just the book has. But the, the story is ongoing and it was wonderful to write and to share the story along with the lessons as I learned them. So in Hollywood to the Himalayas, the lessons are woven into the story. Come Home to Yourself is

• 1:00:59Speaker 03

  Transcripts of actual answers that I have given to actual questions in the satsang, the question-answer session that I lead every evening there in Rishikesh. And we have people come from all over the world. And it's satsang literally means "in the presence of truth." And people ask everything, ranging from the nature of the soul, what happens to the soul after death, I've lost a loved one, how do I access them, find them, deal with grief, to how do I deal with my mother-in-law, to do I have to get married? My parents say have to get married, do I have to get married?

• 1:01:44Speaker 03

  To how do I work with my negativity, my habits? Why meditate? If I'm a good person, why do I need a spiritual practice? To literally everything in between. And we went through and we chose the ones that are the most universally important. So across regions, across religions, across life paths, what are the things that as souls in human bodies, having human experiences that we struggle with? Our relationships, our minds, our jobs, our deep questions. And that's what it is. So it's literally questions and answers.

• 1:02:28Speaker 03

  And hopefully, everyone who reads it is going to find answers to the questions that they struggle with. And hopefully, through those answers, that which keeps people from living as the very highest, truest self of them, freest expression of them, that those barriers can be removed.

• 1:02:55Jonathan Cohen?

  A lot of people have little moments and glimpses of these spiritual experiences. And you, as you talked about the idea of a half-life, they wonder how to integrate it, right? They may experience it in an energy session, or a meditation, or on a retreat, and then they come back to their lives. Your life took you up to the other side of the world, to an ashram where you've built a community, a part of something that supports this path that you're on.

• 1:03:28Jonathan Cohen?

  Can it work if you're not amongst community in that way?

• 1:03:32Speaker 03

  Yes.

• 1:03:33Jonathan Cohen?

  Singing with your meals and meditating with others?

• 1:03:36Speaker 03

  Yes.

• 1:03:36Jonathan Cohen?

  I've spent some time living part-time in an ashram in San Francisco, and it was different when there's a group of people sitting.

• 1:03:44Speaker 03

  Absolutely.

• 1:03:45Jonathan Cohen?

  Every morning, every night. Talk to the people who may be listening, who are living a suburban life or living in a city. How do they navigate and try to hold on to some of this on a regular basis?

• 1:04:00Speaker 03

  These teachings are actually meant for what we call householders, meaning people who are living everyday lives, married, kids, jobs, in society. They're not teachings that are given to monastics living in caves. If you go through the Vedic tradition, the wisdom, you take the Bhagawati Gita for example, it is spoken on a battlefield to a man, a father, a husband, who is about to fight a battle.

• 1:04:40Speaker 03

  So they are meant for people in exactly the circumstances that you've described, living these lives in societies with jobs. And it's hard. It's much easier, absolutely, to remember, to access when you are in a community that's doing it, partly because when most of us go to those communities, it's as a vacation from our life. So there's two aspects. One is, I don't have to deal with errands or punching a time card or getting my kids to school. Online banking. Exactly, online banking. Because I'm on vacation for three days or three weeks, or however long I may be there.

• 1:05:23Speaker 03

  So one is just the nitty-gritty annoyances of my daily life are not there. But then the other is, I'm in a place where the energy is focused on remembering. And that's hugely powerful and hugely important. However, it's absolutely doable even without that. These days, the internet has become such a wonderful tool because even if you don't have a community on your street...

• 1:05:52Speaker 03

  You can have an online community. People are gathering online, meditating together, coming together in satsang, whether they're just watching it, you know, like our satsang streams live every day. But people are also coming together and sharing and talking online in community. Where most people live also, there really are these days, other people on the path. L.A. obviously is super easy. Almost every corner has people who are meditating, people who are singing kirtan, people who are engaged in some spiritual practice.

• 1:06:35Speaker 03

  It may not necessarily be exactly the same. But as you mentioned in the beginning, it's all one, they're all going to the same place. So it's not that it has to be a Bhagawati Gita study group. It could be people coming together across different spiritual, beautiful books and lineages and traditions and sharing how we access the divine and how we remember in our traditions. So I'd say, open your eyes and look for it where you are. And nicely, technology also gives us ways of not only connecting online, but it actually helps people find other people offline.

• 1:07:15Speaker 03

  Use online communities as not something that you're hooked up to too frequently because that does then just kind of pull you out of here we are right now. But it is good if you're not able to find a community where you live. And there are a select few people for whom that's true. But I have found these days that even in obscure little villages of random countries all over the world, people are meditating. People are coming together to chant, to talk about the presence of God. People are looking for spirituality these days.

• 1:07:56Speaker 03

  There is violence, there's war, there's oppression, there's division and polarization and othering and fear and destruction of our environment. And people are looking.

• 1:08:09Speaker 03

  To come together in something that is united, that is deeper, that's higher. So find the community. And remember that there also is a reason, as beautiful and ecstatic as it is to sing and chant and meditate in community, there is a reason that traditionally, again, across religions, that you've got monks in caves. And that there is something very powerful about an individual practice. It just requires a different level of discipline than when you're somewhere where the bell rings at 4:00 a.m. every day and, you know, everybody's got to get up and we're sitting in 15 minutes.

• 1:08:53Speaker 03

  So it just requires a different level of discipline. But setting reminders is, for me, one of the most beautiful things in my life. And I just, I set, for example, every time I drink something or eat something, a moment, just a moment. And if you're somebody who drives the car a lot, you could tie it into turning on the ignition. If you're somebody who sends a lot of emails, you could tie it into hitting send. A moment, 30 seconds of just dropping in. Ah, yes. Here we are.

• 1:09:38Speaker 03

  Just a moment. And you re-remember. And you come back. Now, that works when you have a practice to which it is referring. So you've got to have an actual, longer practice of meditation, morning, evening, whatever works for you.

• 1:10:02Mayim Bialik?

  Then you're touching it throughout the day.

• 1:10:04Speaker 03

  Exactly. It's like, you know, my guru says, when you first wire a home, it takes a long time. But once the home is wired and you want to just turn on a lamp, all you have to do is flip the switch. So the practice is the practice of kind of wiring our homes. And then throughout the day. We're just reconnecting, reconnecting, re-remembering. Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah. And as the, as the time goes by, the meditative practice itself almost becomes just like flipping a switch because that wiring has been laid so deeply

• 1:10:48Speaker 03

  that you close your eyes and it's literally almost a switch that is turning on. So, yeah, it is hard on your own, absolutely. And it's what is being called upon us these days. And I, I heard somebody recently speak about the fact they had done all kinds of research around consciousness shift and in order to create a massive change in the globe on a, on a, on a practical level. We don't actually need 100% of the people on earth to become conscious. We just need 10%. And they did this beautiful presentation on how if we just get 10% of people

• 1:11:34Speaker 03

  to actually become conscious, that the entire world would shift, that that would be the 100th monkey, the tipping point situation. So, yeah, there is a, a reason to bring the practice into your life.

• 1:11:50Mayim Bialik?

  Sadviji, thank you so, so much. I highly recommend Hollywood to the Himalayas if you want the kind of intro and come home to yourself, simple answers to life's essential questions. Thank you so much for your wisdom and your teaching. We, we really, it's just been a fantastic conversation. So, thank you so much.

• 1:12:08Speaker 03

  It's been so wonderful to be with you and thank you so much for what you're doing, bringing, bringing this depth into the world because that's what we need and helping people re-remember.

• 1:12:24Mayim Bialik?

  That was an incredible conversation. I had so many more questions I wanted to ask. But the one thing I wanted to clarify, I totally get the point about the cells and the turnover and all that stuff, and not a biological part of you exists, and it's a way to separate yourself from the timeline of being trapped in abuse. But it also is true that cells communicate systems, and the body has mechanisms that are put in place because of the functioning of certain systems that do need to be deprogrammed, reprogrammed, or updated. So I don't think she was saying that there's no such thing as intergenerational trauma or anything like that. It was a different point she was making that I wanted to distinguish.

• 1:13:08Mayim Bialik?

  So much great stuff over on Substack, and really eager for people to head over to Substack for more on this conversation.

• 1:13:15Jonathan Cohen?

  Where on Substack do they go?

• 1:13:16Mayim Bialik?

  Well, you can go to biologicbreakdown.substack.com, or you can just open the Substack app, and you can search Mind Biologics Breakdown, and there we are with content you will not and cannot get anywhere else.

• 1:13:25Jonathan Cohen?

  I'm excited to be there.

• 1:13:27Mayim Bialik?

  We're excited that you're there, from our breakdown to the one we hope you never have. We'll see you next time.